#happy w life and myself

[kelddaa]

a very quick and messy doodle bc I miss them (+art block is killer)

[kinokoshoujoart]

oops all rock (springtime edition)

i’ll be able to draw digitally again soon! ;w; in the meantime i’ve been scribbling a lot on paper…

could not wait for Soon, so i resorted to coloring it using the markup tool in default iphone photos app (don’t do that ever again)

[lemongogo]

[pleasedontcareaboutme]

It's missing my father hours rn so imma just dump a bunch of pictures here and cry

( sorry i don't know the source of anything I just had them on my phone)

(also dont read the tags i just need to let it out lol)

[bl00doodle]

DOODELS

[angelmush]

the other day i walked around the golden lake w my love and the sun was setting hot and orange and we watched a brown duck preening through the weeds, ducking her head under the dark water. the cool lake swallowed up my tired feet to the ankles and we counted the dog walkers with their curly panting doodles and their handsome german shepherds and their whip smart little terriers and we admired the careful construction of a sand castle whose moat held determinedly against the lapping of the waves. we could feel in our chests the persistent thunderous thumping of celebratory music at the finish line of the lakeside 5k, welcoming each gasping runner across its bounds. and i felt like crying. i felt like curling into myself and crying. we walked through the swamp of the bird sanctuary afterwards and listened to the woods sing and croak and groan and then we went and got ube and yuzu gelato and devoured it suntired and sweating on the couch in our living room. and i was so overcome w a deep and true unshakeable happiness and a sort of confused grief that i wanted to sob and sob and sob.

[kimmkitsuragi]

I BAKED A CAKE

MY FUCKASS CAKE BTW

[shirogane-oushirou]

weekday outfits VS. couch lounging weekend outfits

some outfits ehe i want to lounge w him so so badly right neow....

i recently got some new shirts and i had to try them in my mom's closet bc i don't have any mirrors right now kJNADSKJ, and while i was in there i took a good look at myself and realized i REALLY wanted to do a proper body size / shape / height comparison pic, both as practice and bc i wanted to really see how much shorter ren would be to me :3

He Is No Longer 5'7". I Have Officially Stolen 4 Inches From Him. RIP Taller Skinny Ren.

[dogboner]

personal growth is crazy because it seems like nothing has changed until you're crying because you don't want to die. you learn something about yourself that ten years ago would have actually killed you, and now you're thinking about what you can do to heal and make peace with it. nothing may have changed to you, but to the person you were however long ago, you are the "it gets better"

[iknowwhereyousleepatnight]

almost january which means it's almost st sebastian's feast day which means it's almost light yagami's death day which means it's almost february which means it's almost valentine's day which means im six months behind on all of my projects

[asteria7fics]

Well goobers, with 2024 coming to a close I guess it's time to get a little sentimental.

While I didn't fully write either of my longest fics this year, I did get to start the year with the conclusion of The Song of Broflovski. The positive reception that fic received is the biggest reason why I feel so free to write whatever strange ideas come into my mind.

Then I got to complete writing and share Exactly Where I Left You with all of you, and what a wild adventure that was. It's still the largest project I've ever taken on, and I had an absolute blast reading everyone's theories as the story unfolded.

And we can't forget the completely out of the blue drop of Remplir Sa Bouche. I really was insane for just throwing that stank nasty smut onto AO3 with no warning, but what can I say? It was a meal best served fresh out of the oven.

Then I went fully insane and wrote La Petite Mort like it wasn't the most difficult thing I have ever written. I mean, how do you follow up something as salacious as RSB? My answer was apparently to write something even more salacious.

Finally, I finished off the year with Momento Mori, another surprise drop and allegedly my best work yet. Short, bittersweet and a much needed return to writing for the sheer joy of it.

Of course, this isn't including the two EWILY Extras I posted: In the Rear View Mirror and It Happened in San Diego. Because I just could not get enough of those idiots.

All in all, I'm super proud of what I've accomplished this year. This fandom really has become my most fulfilling creative outlet!

I'm so so insanely grateful to everyone that has taken the time to engage with my work in whatever capacity they could. Even just waking up to that lovely "You've got kudos!" email as often as I do is a reminder of what I do it for.

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* Validation*:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧

No, but seriously. I hope the love and positivity you've shared with me follows you all into the new year!

Much love, Goobers! Happy New Year ♡

[vibescornerr]

Hi Satou fans! ^_^ 🩷🩷

[cent-scratchnsniff]

doodle dump

[lemongogo]

we should all be unbearable ab art and what it means 2 us

[sunshades]

Obviously a complicated subject to navigate but the theme of "a person's worth" in the canto is a very interesting adaptation of the book and I'm enjoying it very much.

Heathcliff's attitude towards and understanding of his own upbringing shapes how he acts with the second generation- it's a sort of experiment for him, as he sometimes likes describing it in scientific terms. Talking about the boys with Nelly he draws this distinction between Hareton and lil Linton, that Hareton is an incredibly smart child and very aware of his own situation and degradation- especially as he meets other people his age, namely the younger Cathy, for whom he quickly develops feelings for, and love becomes yet another thing he cannot be allowed to participate in.

While in game it's someone else who ends up saying these lines, what they're actually referring to + what they represent in the book is actually shown through Hindley, the degradation, relegation to servant and denial of education as well as the condemnation that to Hindley is the most cruel and most important: losing the worth "necessary" to be loved.

In the end book!Hindley's efforts go through in making Heathcliff a horrible person just like him, though neither his nor game!Hindley's plan ever manages to actually deprive Heathcliff of his sister's love (though they certainly work in making him believe that!), but book!Hindley's plans are further defied by Heathcliff becoming rich and educated, and book!Heathcliff's plans go off the rails even further as Hareton is not only smart, but also manages to become a legitimately good person- which is where I think it's very clear how game!Hindley is inspired by Heathcliff's book self. This line describes game!Hindley's behavior towards Heathcliff and Catherine just as much as it describes book!Heathcliff's towards Hareton and young Cathy.

But in the end the point is there's this awareness of being hurting and turning a person into something they're not, something worse.

I think it's also very important to note those first rate qualities he talks about are very heavily referencing Hareton's ability to learn. While Heathcliff doesn't talk about this when referring to himself by this point it's obvious his own learning abilities are something he's quite proud of, all through the book he's adapting and changing to what he's faced with (from his first appearance as a child, where he doesn't even speak the same language as the family, but learns soon after, to his final plan for his own burial) and by comparing himself to Hareton he's recognizing those same qualities in him. And I feel like with what we've seen of game!Heathcliff ever since the first chapter, and what we see of him in the different identities and mirror worlds, this is gonna be quite important in part 3- all the abuse has never deprived him of his ability to improve, to learn new things, to trust in new people, just as it's never deprived him of the love he no longer feels worthy of. So! Hope we'll get to see you realize that soon, Heathcliff!!!

[bright-and-burning]

i think this is like. some of the happiest i’ve ever been. the most consistently (not manically) good ive ever felt. which is SO funny given that a week ago people i thought would be in my hypothetical WEDDING ripped our friendship to shreds and then set the shreds on fire. it’s really like i was set free completely and utterly… god bless wellbutrin god bless snake ass bitches showing their real faces god bless pom collinses and, most importantly. god bless french fries