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[ghost-proofbaby]

twenty four hours (modern!eddie munson x fem!reader)

HOUR ONE

in which eddie munson and you absolutely hate each other's guts. what happens when your friends make a bet that you can't spend more than twenty four hours consecutively together?

→ tropes: enemies to lovers, forced proximity, slow burn

→ warnings: strong language, eventual smut, upside down does not exist, minors dni, excessive use of pet names (to annoy reader), excessive use of fuck (again, to annoy reader)

→ pairings: modern!college!eddie x college!fem!reader

→ wc: 3.1k+

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HOUR ONE - 4:00 PM

You had a lot of regrets. You were a college student – it was hardwired in your psyche to make an endless stream of stupid decisions you would come to rue. 

There was that time you signed up for an 8 AM math class during your freshman year. There was the time your boss walked in on you spitefully gossiping specifically about him and his lack of leadership skills (you had been fired the next week, no surprise). There was that time Steve Harrington convinced you to get matching tattoos with him while drunk last summer, and now you had to explain to each new person you met why you had a ghost giving a thumbs down with a speech bubble stating ‘BOO’ on your ankle. 

You had made plenty of dumb mistakes, enough to last you a lifetime. 

But this? This had to take the trophy home for your worst impulsive decision yet. 

“I’m not going in there,” you huff, crossing your arms as you lean miserably against the wall across from the open door of apartment 2C. An apartment you’d avoided ardently over the last year. To the point of even braving severe FOMO after turning down hanging out with your friends, solely because they’d be hanging out here. 

“C’mon,” Steve stands in the threshold, waiting impatiently for your tantrum to end. You had to hand it to him – he had a way of being beautifully tolerant of your misbehavior over the years. All your sour moods, all your childish antics, all your moody mornings. Steve was there for them all the last three years, “Five hundred dollars, remember? You just have to survive a day, and then you’ll be rich.” 

There it was – the only thing that could possibly motivate you to make such a catastrophic agreement with alcohol and drugs out of the equation. Money. 

It had taken nearly an hour for everyone to agree on the terms the night before when the bet was first born, but in the end, it seemed fair enough to all involved parties. The wager was five hundred dollars for you and five hundred dollars for Eddie if you two managed, partially funded by your friends pooling their money and partially funded by the Harrington Inheritance. The two of you would set base in Eddie’s apartment, considering you were living in the dorms, and you were instructed to send hourly proof to the group chat. A group chat, that ironically, Eddie was not a part of.

You’re not sure why. You never cared to ask. 

Regardless, five hundred dollars was a lot of money to a broke college student. You couldn’t remember the last time you’d managed to keep more than one hundred dollars in your account for more than a few hours. It was the kind of money that could pay for a few months’ worth of groceries, that would give you the freedom to properly go out rather than settle for another night in with movies your friend group had already seen ten times over. The kind of money you would probably flounder with once it was in your hand. 

“And if I don’t survive?” you sigh dramatically, leaning further into the wall, your bag you’d packed for your time growing heavier in your grasp, “What if, he, like, murders me, Steve?”

“He’s not going to murder you.”

“You don’t know that.”

“If he was going to, he already would have.” 

“I’ve never been around him long enough to give him a chance! What if that’s the only reason he agreed? What if this was his plan all along? He gets me alone for twenty four hours, I mysteriously disappear, and next thing you know, they find my body in the local canal-” 

“While I’m flattered you think so highly of me that I would be capable of planning something so extensively,” the devil himself appears behind Steve’s shoulder, looking to be just as irritated as you, “Harrington’s right. If I wanted you dead, you’d be dead by now.” 

“Right. Cause that’s reassuring,” you snap in Eddie’s direction. 

Steve takes a deep breath, no doubt mentally preparing himself for whatever bickering is about to ensue as he sidesteps so he’s not stuck in the middle of your line of fire. 

“Listen, are we doing this or not? Because if not, I’ve got shit to do,” Eddie glowers at you, tapping his foot impatiently. 

You hate him. You really, really hate him. In the most earnest sense of the word. He was impossible, he was cocky, he was obnoxious. And it never helped that he hated you just as much, always adding fuel to the fire. From the moment the two of you had met, it was instant friction. You said go, he said stop. You wanted pizza, he wanted Chinese. Every time a small, mundane decision had to be made as a group, he’d be sure to announce his opinion, always the opposite of yours. 

You’re convinced he solely exists to be the bane of your existence. It’s probably the best part of his day. 

“Five hundred dollars,” you mutter under your breath, finally lifting your bag and leaving your spot against the wall. It was now or never. If you didn’t get this over with now, you’d walk away and be army-crawling financially through life again. You needed the five hundred dollars more than you care to admit. 

It had to be worth it. It had to be. 

The moment you enter the apartment, you’re hit with the scent of him. Something musky, something of subtle spice. It’s all tobacco and pot, cheap cologne and boy. It’s easily overwhelming, and you almost turn around to make a cheap shot at Eddie regarding it before Steve shuts the front door and engages him into conversation. 

Maybe you’d get used to it within the first few hours. 

The rest of the apartment is decorated exactly how you’d expect from Eddie. There’s a certain messy quality to it all without being dirty. The couch looks worn, probably having not been brand new to begin with when Eddie found or bought it. There’s a coffee table covered in random papers, joined by two empty beer bottles and a couple of random dice. He has a TV, albeit small, and the entertainment center that it stands upon is littered by various nerdy collector’s items. 

“Welcome to my palace,” he calls out from behind you, no longer distracted by Steve, “Sorry if it’s not up to your standards.” 

“It’s fine,” you gruffly reply, turning back around to look at him, “Where, uh, can I put my things?” 

The wicked grin that slowly spreads over his face can only spell out bad news, “Wherever. You’ll be sleeping on the couch.” 

“Dude,” Steve sighs. 

“What? It’s a one bedroom apartment, and I’m not giving her my bed,” Eddie explains as he brushes past the two of you and heads for his kitchen. 

If it were anyone else, you’d insist that it’s fine. Practicality tells you that he shouldn’t have to give up his bed. It’s his apartment, his room, his bed – in short, his rules. But it’s Eddie, so the fact that he’s made this decision without you only stokes the burning coals of disdain. Plus, the couch looked like the farthest thing from comfortable. 

“Whatever,” you scoff. You weren’t going to let him know he was already creeping beneath your skin. You were playing the long game here; you were going to start off civil, keep track of just how many offenses he committed against you, and then strike back. “It’s just one night. I’ll live.” 

“Unless I murder you!” his voice calls out to you and Steve from the kitchen. 

“Unless he murders me,” you agree with a scowl. 

Steve puts a caring hand on your shoulder, forcing a frown that’s completely insincere before he says, “What do you want on your gravestone? Also, what’s your preference for flowers at your funeral?” He breaks into laughter as you smack him roughly on his shoulder, “Sorry! Sorry, geez. Just want to have all my ducks in the row. I’ll be sure to ask him the same thing.”

Part of you is absolutely convinced this can only end in bloodshed. You can’t recall a single time you and Eddie have lasted more than ten minutes in a room together without escalating into a full blown screaming match. There was even a time you’d thrown a glass at him at one of Steve’s parties, narrowly missing his head as he’d ducked and let the glass shatter against the wall of the shared apartment with Robin.  You’d felt awful remorse towards Steve in the end. As for Eddie? You’d only wished your aim had been better. 

Steve disappears into the kitchen and you’re left alone once more, wandering as you inspect some of the collectibles more closely by the TV. Most items were from the Lord of the Rings franchise, a few Star Wars items, and an abundance of D&D figurines. All things that you went through phases of piqued interest for, but nothing terribly exciting. They had been just that – phases. Apparently, when it came to Eddie, such things didn’t exist. The apartment really just looked as if someone had taken a teenage boy’s room, and let it explode over more extensive square footage. As if he entered the typical phases for boys his age in high school, and never grew up.

Just as you reach out to grab one of the D&D figurines, a three-headed dragon, Eddie enters the living room with Steve at his side.

“Hey! Don’t fucking touch that!” Eddie shouts, making you jump back, finger no longer hovering over his glorified action figure. 

“Jesus Christ!” you shout back just as loudly, glaring up at him, “Ever heard of an inside voice?” 

He completely ignores the comment as his nostrils flare and he stands between you and the entertainment center, “We need to set some ground rules. Rule one, do not touch my shit, especially this stuff. They’re collectibles, fucking rare and crazy expensive. Keep your hands to yourself, princess.” 

The nickname is a match, striking against the roughness of your hatred, ready to burst into the flames of one of the classic screaming matches between the two of you. Steve can see it clear as day.

He clears his throat immediately, “Alright, alright. Calm down, children,” you open your mouth to argue against that nickname, but he doesn't leave pause for you to interject, “I’m leaving now. I know we joked about you two killing each other but…. Just, please don’t? It’s not worth it. Think of the money.” 

Eddie’s jaw clenches, his eyes unmoving from you as you muster up just as hateful of a glare. 

“Hey! Are you two listening to me?” he claps his hands, and the staring contest ends as you both reluctantly offer him your attention, “I’m serious. Who knows? Maybe you two can come out of this friends.”

Friends. The mere idea makes you cackle cruelly, Eddie balking immediately. 

“As if,” you sneer as Eddie spits, “Over my dead body.” 

Steve simply shrugs, “You say that now. We’ll see what changes over the next twenty four hours.” 

Nothing, you want to say. Nothing is going to change over the next twenty four hours, except I’ll be five hundred dollars richer. 

You join Eddie in walking Steve back to the door, even though you technically don’t have to because, technically, it’s not your apartment. But it’s still the polite thing to do, and Steve is still your friend, so you do. 

Eddie opens the door, and you stand a few steps away from them, shifting back and forth on your feet awkwardly. Steve pauses to check the watch on his wrist before turning and facing the two of you a final time.

“Alright, so, it’s currently four-fifteen. That means you-” he pauses and points directly to you, “-need to send proof of you both being alive, well, and still together at five-fifteen. You guys can leave the apartment, but you have to go with each other, and you can’t ditch each other wherever you might end up going. Capiche?” 

“Capiche,” you answer in monotone, Eddie not saying a word. 

“Good. Oh, by the way,” Steve already has one foot out the door, and you know it’s deliberate. Whatever he’s about to say, you’re not going to be happy about, “Expect randomized calls from all of us throughout it all. Including through the night. Cool? Cool! See you guys tomorrow, and keep your phones charged!” 

Both you and Eddie are already attempting to argue, immediately upset by this detail that was kept from both of you, but Steve is already jogging down the hallway, away from the chaotic outburst. 

“What the fuck?” Eddie says in annoyance, his face twisted terribly, “I didn’t agree to be babysat during this. I just want my fucking money.” 

Even though you were also seething at the additional rule, you opt instead to make a comment to get under Eddie’s skin rather than complain in agreement. “I think you forgot an F-bomb somewhere in there.” 

“Oh?” he turns to you, letting the door slam shut as he swings his arm, “My fucking bad. I fucking guess I should fucking watch my fucking language, yeah? Fucking oops.” 

“Has anyone told you you’re fucking annoying?” you ask in contempt. 

“Yeah. You.” 

He stalks away from his entry way at that, clearly pleased at getting the last word in this argument. And it nearly kills you, because you have no choice but to follow him back into his living room.

It’s going to be a long twenty four hours. 

He’s clearly heading towards the couch to sit down, and you can’t fathom staying in close proximity for another moment, so you begin to veer towards the kitchen. 

“Where do you think you’re going?” he asks suddenly once your back is turned to him. 

“The kitchen?” you glance over your shoulder, lifting an eyebrow, “Or is that not allowed?” 

“Why are you going to the kitchen?” 

“Why do you care?” 

“Because it’s my fucking apartment.” 

Right. He has a point. You won’t tell him that, but he has a point. 

He’s rerouted himself from the couch towards the hallway you’re about to enter, towering over you as his lips settle into a predictable frown. 

“Can you go more than ten seconds without dropping an F-bomb? Seriously,” you question, crossing your arms, “I just want water or something. Is that a crime?” 

“To answer your first question,” he shifts around your body in the tight space, his hand brushing your hip. Both of you jump back at the contact as if even touching each other burns, “No. I fucking can’t. Not when I know it bothers you so much, sweetheart,” he’s once again using a nickname he knows will irritate you on purpose as he walks into what you assume the kitchen is. And once again, you’re following behind him like a lost puppy, having to swallow your pride like a jagged pill, “Secondly, one of my rules is to not touch my shit, so… Yeah. It is a crime by the law of the land.” 

“Law of the land?” you snort, rolling your eyes, “My God. What are you going to do? Call the police? ‘Hello, yes, 911? I’d like to report a crime. A girl I voluntarily let into my home got herself a glass of water.’” 

You choose to purposefully pitch your voice higher rather than lower as you clearly mock him. It gets the reaction you were seeking out - his entire body stiffens as he stops in front of a cabinet. 

“Congratulations,” he says slowly, turning at an agonizing pace to face you, “It’s a new record. It’s been less than five minutes alone, and you’ve already gotten on my fucking nerves.”

“Good,” is all you can reply. 

He huffs in response before he goes back to whatever he was doing before, opening the cabinet to expose a small assortment of glasses and mugs alike. None of them match – all of them were clearly either bought at different times, or gifts, in the mugs case. They’re the type you might find at Spencer’s, all pop culture references or character faces. He grabs one of the smaller, plain clear cups, turning around to hand it to you. 

Before your hand can wrap around it, he yanks it back momentarily, “Now, if you decide to throw this cup at my head like a raging bitch, it’s plastic. Minimal damage. Keep that in mind, yeah?” 

Once he’s gotten in his smart-ass remark, he lets you take the cup from him. 

So he’s also thinking of Steve’s party. Good to know. 

“That’s fine. I’ve practiced my throws since then. I’m aiming for your crotch next time.” 

If you two were friends, it might be funny. You would have said it in light-hearted cadence, he would have thrown his head back in laughter, and it could be passed off as a simple inside joke between two acquaintances. But you aren’t friends, and you say it in a convincingly serious tone, and he doesn’t even smile.  

“You can get water from the fridge,” he informs you flatly, “Try not to break it.”

“It’s a fridge that dispenses water. I know how it works, asshole. I’ve used one before.” 

“You never know,” he shrugs. You expect him to walk away, to leave you to it, but instead he leans against his counter and watches you. 

And he thought he was the one being babysat over simple phone calls? 

You choose to bite your tongue for once as you fill the cup half full of water, taking your time as you sip some down, feeling his eyes on you the entire time. 

It’s only been a few seconds of silence. Blissful, wonderful, divine silence. But of course, it’s Eddie, and the moment he notices you begin to relax, he has to speak up and ruin it. 

“If I knew all it takes to shut you up is to keep your mouth occupied, sweetheart, I would have done it sooner,” he comments, and it takes practiced patience to slowly lower the cup and swallow what water is in your mouth without bursting with rage. But he has to comment on even that, “Aw, and you swallow? Just full of surprises, aren’t ya?” 

You turn to him, face flooding a brilliant shade of red as your eyes narrow. In the most virulent tone you can muster, you only respond with, “I hate your guts.” 

He grins. It’s not friendly – it’s downright bellicose. “The feeling’s mutual.” 

Yeah. It’s going to be a very long twenty four hours. 

[silverstonesainz-archive]

❛ you feel like home to me. ❜ + our baby mick 🫶🏽

routines (ms47) ─── how the week plays out

mondays always start early. you’re up when mick is, and while he’s off for a run, you’re hopping into the shower. he comes home just as you finish getting ready, and he makes toast for the both of you. coffee happens sometimes, depends if one of you remembers to brew some. but water with, a glass each, is a must. mick makes sure you finish your glass before you’re running out the door. 

you come home to him in the midst of another meeting, but he’s wrapping up. he tries to help you cook, but you shoo him away before he could even ask. you eat dinner together at the dinner table, laughing about something mick said because he always knows how to make you laugh.

you wake up five minutes later on tuesday. when your eyes slip open, mick is pressing a kiss to your temple and coaxing you out of bed. you get ready like normal, and by the time you’re done mick has made you eggs and toast, with hot coffee on the side. he picks at your plate, even if he’s already eaten. but he does it to annoy you— and he succeeds. he doesn’t let you leave without a kiss though, even if you try to push him off.

he orders takeout for dinner, and he sits by you for dinner instead of across you. he finishes eating before you, but he sits and waits. no rush, no urgency, his fingers dance with your hair while you tell him about the day behind you.

mick sleeps in on wednesday, and he only wake when you’re ready to walk out the door. he’ll be in bed, duvet pushed down to his hips and a tired smile on his face. have a good day lover, he’d say. his kiss is sweet, soft, a plea for you to come home as soon as you can.

he tries to cook dinner. he called sebastian to ask hannah how to cook this dish, and she stayed the phone the whole time. there are no words to describe the look on his face when you come home. blue eyes bright, smile wide, mick stands with a dish burnt at the edges, and seemingly undercooked in the middle. but you eat the outer parts where it’s cooked perfectly, and give him a kiss to tell him good job.

thursday you go for a run. you didn’t want to, but mick can be persuasive in the mornings. you run a mile, legs burning as you walk up to your apartment. he joins you in the shower that ran longer than you’d like. you arrive at work with coffee in a travel mug, leftovers from the night before, and a hickey covered in layers of makeup. 

you join esteban and elena for dinner. they’re back from paris, and the boys had a lot to catch up on. it’s nice, talking to friends and catching up over wine. but you don’t have too much, there’s still friday after all. 

fridays, you wake up happy. you spend an extra five minutes in bed with mick, fingers through his hair and lips against his. it’s quiet, it’s perfect. the same routine plays out, with toast and eggs, lemon water before you’re out the door. 

you get a halfday at work, and you’re back through the door of your home by one. but mick isn’t home. he’s off at work, he texted you earlier. so you settle on the couch, watching reruns of a sitcom you’ve never seen before. he’s home before four, greeting you with a kiss on the cheek. pizza and beer for dinner, before you turn in for the night.

saturday is spent on the couch for the most part, talking aimlessly about the future and what it might look. sometimes you’ll go out, maybe a night in the town or at a fancy restaurant for a date. you love saturdays.

sundays are spent preparing for the week ahead. it’s quiet, both of you working on opposite ends of the home. and when all is said and done, you’re coming up behind mick. your arms go around his torso and your cheek rests on his back. he rumbles with a soft chuckle, his hands rubbing your forearm.

“you okay love?”

“mhm, i just miss you.”

he chuckles again, “i’m surprised you’re not tired of me.” 

you smile, pressing a kiss between his shoulder blades. “never tired of you. you feel like home to me.” 

[former-leftist-jew]

i’m a little anxious to send this not on anon but i saw one of your posts where a comment mentioned jewish conversion and you seemed to support it. my boyfriend is jewish and i would like to convert to judaism but a lot of the research i’ve done says that you can’t convert, you have to be born into it since it’s an ethno-religion. i know everyone has different beliefs about this but i worry i won’t be accepted

Hello tyblackthornsheadphones, welcome!

"my boyfriend is jewish and i would like to convert to judaism"

Oooh! Mozel tov! I'm always so happy to meet new people who want to join the Jewish community! <3

"a lot of the research i’ve done says that you can’t convert, you have to be born into it since it’s an ethno-religion"

Oh dear, I'm so sorry to hear that! D: There's so much misinformation being passed around online. :( Thankfully, I'm happy to report that those sources are incorrect: It IS possible to convert to Judaism. ^_^

Like any group, though, how friendly any given Jew is to potential Jewish converts depends on the individual and/or the group they belong in. Just as there's elitism and gatekeeping in every group of people ever (like high school cliques and video game circles--"you're not a REAL gamer unless X"), unfortunately you'll also find some snobbery, elitism, and gatekeeping in Judaism. :(

Though I think Rabbi Friedman has a very loving and accepting view of Jews by conversion. ^_^

The way I see it, the differing experiences of a "Jew-by-birth vs a Jew-by-conversion" can be comparable to an American citizen who was just born on American soil vs an American immigrant who had to go through a long and rigorous bureaucratic process to become an American citizen--they have to learn everything there is to know about American history, presidents, laws, customs, the legal system; spend a "probational period" living in America to become a naturalized citizen, etc.

(The Jewish religion used to be very conversion friendly, but that came to an end when Christianity and Islam became huge world powers who outlawed the Jewish community "tempting" good Christians or Muslims away from the One True Faith.

Jewish identity also used to be passed down from father to children in ancient times--as you'll see in the Torah--but that was changed by Hillel the Elder during the tyrannical reign of King Herod--yes, THAT King Herod! Hillel did this partly to give the children of Jewish mothers who were abandoned by their non-Jewish fathers a place in Jewish society, and he did this partly as a big old political "fuck you!" to King Herod, whose father was only nominally Jewish and his mother was a foreign gentile woman.)

Chabad is an Orthodox Jewish organization.

And here's a link from a Reform Judaism POV. ^_^

In my experience, Reform Jewish synagogues and organizations tend to be more accepting of and friendly to Jewish converts. (Though it's not universal! Sadly, there are snobs everywhere. D:)

So if I were you, I would just start with checking out some books on Judaism from your local library, attend Friday night or Saturday morning Shabbat services with your boyfriend (that's usually a time when non-Jewish guests attend).

If your local college has a Hillel or Chabad Jewish student organization, I would visit that too! They usually host fun events that are free and open to to all, especially students who're just interested in connecting with other Jewish students, and learning about Jewish identity. ^_^

In the meantime, I'd just take time to study and learn about Jewish history and culture just for fun.

I think Sam Aranow's "Jewish History" Youtube series is a very entertaining way to learn about Jewish history, from ancient to modern.

Unfortunately I have to go to work now, but if you have ANY other questions, please reach out to me! I LOVE sharing knowledge and resources about Judaism, especially to potential converts who show a genuine interest and curiosity.

(Jewish culture can be, in my opinion, not as accepting and welcoming of potential Jewish converts as they should be, and I want to make up the difference. ^_^ )

[bluejaysandblackbats]

Catch and Release

Fandom: DC Comics, Batfam

Summary: AU where Jason doesn’t die in the explosion and he and Tim end up attending the same high school months later.

Chapters: 17/?

Characters: Jason Todd, Bruce Wayne, Alfred Pennyworth, Tim Drake, Dick Grayson, Barbara Gordon, Sebastian Ives, Jack Drake, Janet Drake, Donna Troy

Relationships: TBA

Additional Tag: Jason Todd Lives, Jason Todd-centric, POV Jason Todd, POV First Person, Tim Drake Has Issues, Tim Drake Has Issues, Tim Drake is Not Robin, Jason Todd is Not Robin (Anymore), Bruce Wayne Needs a Hug, Alfred Pennyworth is the Best, Alfred Pennyworth Knows, Stalker Tim Drake, Jason Todd Has Chronic Pain, Jason Todd Has PTSD, Angst with a Happy Ending, Unlikely Friends, Injury Recovery, Emotional Baggage, Rage, Bruce Wayne is Bad at Communicating

Chapter Seventeen: The Campaign: Malatra Pt. 1

Tim slept in his bed one last time while I packed our things. My phone rang, and I answered to keep from waking Tim up. “Hello?” I whispered. 

“Jason, I heard about your friend’s mother—.”

“You don’t have to say anything… Um, Barbara, can I ask you for a favor?” I interrupted. 

“I don’t know. It depends… Is it illegal?” Barbara asked. 

“No. It’s—. I need you to help me get back in fighting shape. I know Bruce won’t change his mind because I can throw a couple of solid punches, but I’ve gotta do this for myself. I need to know I didn’t let the accident beat me,” I explained. I told her as much of the truth as I could. 

“Jason… Wednesday through Friday after school. No excuses,” Barbara replied. I grinned. 

“I’ll be there. I promise,” I whispered, “Thank you. Thank you, Barbara. You’re the best.” Barbara was a tough person to move. She wasn’t emotionally driven or faint of heart. Barbara was sharp and efficient. Practical and poised. She was everything I needed in a teacher. 

“ Yeah, yeah, yeah. See how you feel about me after our first training session. Bye, Jason… And good on you for getting back up. I thought about what I said to you the last time we talked. I was wrong to tell you that you were being childish. If taking this time away from home was good for your mental health, who am I to tell you—?”

“Barbara, I am a kid. I never said I wasn’t. I was pissed off and closed in, and I reacted. I was in a dark place, and I’d be lying if I said I wanted to go home now… I know it’s what I have to do. I’m gonna be mature about it, for Tim’s sake,” I replied, “I’ve gotta finish packing… But, um—. Thank you, Barbara.” 

“Don’t thank me yet, Boy Wonder. See you Wednesday,” Barbara teased. She hung up, and I shook Tim awake. 

He pushed my face away and laughed. “ Uggghhh. Jason, what are you doing?” Tim asked. 

“She’s gonna train me. Wednesday through Friday, so we’ll condition Saturday through Monday,” I replied. Tim grinned. 

“And on Tuesday ?” Tim half-joked. 

“Warlocks and Warriors,” I replied, “And—. Oh, Ives wants to come over tonight. I gave him Bruce’s address and said he could stay the night.” 

“Ives wanted to hang out? Does he—?” 

I nodded. “Ives knows, but I asked him not to mention it… Unless…” I trailed off. Tim shook his head. “Then, he won’t…” I tied labels to Tim’s chargers and tucked them into his suitcase. 

*

We went to the manor at sunset because I knew Bruce wouldn’t be there. Alfred seemed happy to see us again. Ives showed up an hour after we got there, and Alfred served dinner. “Hey, guys… Do you wanna do another campaign here this weekend?” I asked. 

Tim’s eyes widened. “You want to?” Tim questioned. I nodded. 

“That’d be sick,” Ives replied.  

“Cool. Tell the guys Tuesday we’ll hang out here,” I replied. Ives glanced at Tim and looked at his plate when he saw me looking. Tim was oblivious to everything going on in his life because of everything. 

“Jason should DM this one,” Tim suggested. I choked. “Come on. You can do it. I see how deep you get into character. And you’re the only person willing to indulge Hudson. Besides, I think the guys are still mad at me for what happened in Ravenloft.” 

“That was messed up. I can’t believe you killed Ives first and swapped him out with a Doppelganger. That was sick. And Ives… I’m shocked you let him go through with that,” I replied. 

Tim smiled. I reached for my bed to pull myself up, but I felt a shockwave shoot down my back into my legs, and I let go of the mattress. “Jason?” Tim asked. 

“I’m okay… But like—. Are you guys sure you want me to DM?” I questioned. 

“Yeah, definitely,” Ives replied, “You’ve gotta try it at least once. If you don’t like it, you don’t have to do it again, but you should give it a chance. You might be good.” 

*

"In the living forest lands of Malatra, all seems quiet. Suspiciously so. A warm breeze blows, rustling through the canopies overhead. Topiaries of smiling children surround a small fire. It is the only possible sign of life for several miles.  A song breaks through the near-silent forest. It starts low and guttural, like a collective groan, and then the ethereal choral collections of synchronized sobs. It is a song of mourning. A once-distant sound, now building as if it is approaching. The forest's dirt walkways slowly disappear under shrubs and bushes, and it seems like a trick to the eye at first, but no. You see it now. The bushes have feet where roots should be, and finally, a male voice breaks through the grieving chorus," I cleared my throat. "State your business," I bellowed. "He steps forward. A bamboo elf. His hair is a warm brown with the same red undertones of autumn leaves. He keeps his hair in wide and intricate waves and curls. His skin is an olivine green, and his eyes dark brown and ancient, study you. You all recognize this bamboo elf immediately, but before we get into that… you should introduce yourselves." A big, goofy grin spread across Tim's face. Silence fell over my room as I waited for someone to speak.

"You fucking killed it," Hudson mumbled in shock. I covered my smile. "Clay Everlake, earth genasi monk here. I'm stone grey, with bright green hair made of leaves, with the front pulled into a warrior's bun—."

"Man bun penalty!" everyone shouted.

"Is not! Anyway ... It's a warrior's bun, and the rest of my hair hangs leafy down my shoulders. I'm fairly young, rough and tumble, and trouble seems to follow me wherever I go," Hudson answered.

I gestured to Ives. "Eldrid Deepwood, here. I'm a firbolg druid... I uh—. I have bluish-green skin and dark eyes. My hair is whiteish-grey, luscious, and thick, almost mane-like. My ears are floppy... And uh—. And despite my advanced age, I'm a timid sort of fella," Ives stammered in an Irish accent.

I nodded and pointed to Hudman. "Fettar Keephorn. Dwarven rogue, dark beard, dark brown eyes.  My loyalties lie with Clay Everlake... Unfortunately," Hudman muttered in a dry voice. We all laughed. "I'm not much for words."

And Tim. I looked forward to Tim's character because we'd been pretty hush-hush about our plans all week, which meant we had nothing to discuss outside of training. "Posy Moonfall, gnome cleric here. I've got blond shoulder-length hair and grey eyes hidden behind foggy glasses. Well, they're usually quite—. I'm not used to being in the presence of a man of Mr. Deepwood's stature. I'm clumsy, but my intuitive nature makes up for my shortcomings... At least, I think—. Oh gosh. Am I rambling?" Tim replied in a woman's voice. He was surprisingly good at it. I almost forgot my place.

I cleared my throat before continuing. "Clay Everlake, your connection to this bamboo elf is deeply personal. Isn't it?" I asked, nodding at him. I liked Hudson. He always made me laugh and was my favorite of Tim's friends. He also tried to make me feel better about my scars by showing me the dent in his forehead. It wasn't the same, but he genuinely thought it was.

"He raised me. When my family was slaughtered on the outskirts of Malatra, he took me in and raised me. He's a father to me," Hudson answered. Hudson and I locked eyes, and I smiled down at my notes. "I didn't expect to see him under such grim circumstances."

"And Fettar?" I questioned.

"The elf and I… used to date,” Hudman replied. We all laughed.

“Fettar and Theren Everlake dated? You guys were—.” 

“A couple. Yep,” Hudman doubled down.

[wildflowerteas]

I HAVE BEEN FREED!!!!

oh.my.goodness.The exams I've been fretting over for almost two years are finally over, and I am just so happy I was able to reach my personal goal of reading TSP after they were done, and damn, it was so worth it!! TSP I HAVE FINALLY ARRIVED AT MY DESTINATION😆

...28,12 for the ask game.

Have a great day(or night)!

CONGRATULATIONS Oh my gosh!!!!!!!!! I know you were really stressing out about them and working super super hard I'm so proud of you. I hope they went well!! That post-exam emptiness feeling is so distinct, i hope you're filling it with lots of fun things and doing what you love now that you're free :) <3

Also I can't believe you jumped to TSP 😭 !!!!!!!!! I hope you enjoyed it >:) I'm starting my writing for the next chapter tomorrow and I'm super nervous about it.

28. On average, how much writing do you get done in a day?

That fully depends on where I'm at in my process. Back during spring semester, I'd sometimes get a whole chapter done friday/saturday, and spend the rest of my weekend editing. but as I got busier and busier, i averaged about 5k a day? maybe? ish? when I was especially swamped ( and i feel so bad about this ) it looked more like 0k Friday, 2k Saturday ( Saturdays are for chores and rotting in bed ) and getting like 7k done on Sunday between the hours of 5 am and 3 pm.

12. how does receiving or not receiving feedback/support impact you?

i don't really know, honestly. all of my original stuff--my poetry, ocs, and whatnot--i've kept pretty close to my chest and not shared them with other people so I'm not really used to getting support or feedback. I don't really know how i feel about feedback, especially unwarranted feedback, but the support I've gotten really means the world. it's made the experience of writing a lot less lonely, somehow

[theonethatyaks93]

A Discussion on Pinky's Sexuality/Gender (Day 3 of Pinky Week)

(Quick Note: Ahhh! Sorry about the delay on this! It's just that I've had a lot on my plate and with that new Pinky and The Brain trailer thing, I've been kind of stressed out. This is mostly because I've been trying to lower my expectations as far as they will go so I won't be disappointed or I'll be blown away. I just don't know what to think. Also, burnout is real. I'm making it all up this week, I promise!)

(Another note: I didn't expect this post to be delayed so much! Oh god! Anyways, the next few days will be a makeup week where I finally finish Pinky Week and get prepared for Brain Week coming up. This was supposed to come out last Wednesday, but I had absolutely no time! Also, I had to do a LOT of re-watching clips and research for this! Way more than I had thought. Sorry!!!)

Hi everyone and welcome to the third day of Pinky Week! For those who are just joining me, here's the gist of what's going on. Since there's going to be a new set of Pinky and The Brain shorts on Friday and Pinky's narfday was last Saturday, I decided to dedicate an entire week to talking about Pinky. Every day, I'll be making a new post about a different aspect of him, discussing things such as his character. I've already made a happy birthday and a more personal story about Pinky so go check those out. Ok, so let's begin today's discussion.

3/22/23 Discussing Pinky's Sexuality/Gender- Listen, most of this will just serve as possible headcanons/theories on events. I personally think that Pinky is pansexual and genderfluid; obviously not everyone will agree with me. This post is just a celebration on the things that I have noticed during the course of the reboot and spin-off series. I'll be tracing his evolution from loyal assistant to best friend to possible love interest for Brain. I will also be talking about how his gender identity transitioned from an interesting little joke to a realistic and admirable portrayal of a character who's not afraid to be himself. I am trying to cover as much ground as possible so let's give it a shot.

Pinky's Sexuality: Pansexual

What Does Being Pansexual Mean?: Pansexual can be defined as a romantic attraction to male, female, and nonbinary people; so basically, you like everyone. While seemingly not as common as being gay or bisexual, pansexual characters have been getting the respect and love they deserve.

Why Does Pinky Embody Pansexuality?: Pinky being pansexual has been tossed around as a kind of fan theory for a few years. Some people think that he's bisexual (like Brain) and some think he's just straight up gay (read below section for further information). However, I fall under the group that says he's pansexual because it fits his character the best. Pinky is the kind of mouse who would love just about everyone, no matter their gender or species. His kindness for anyone knows no bounds and though his heart gets constantly broken, he always gets back up again. Pinky is always determined to support Brain in everything he does, no matter how upset his friend makes him. His unbridled affection for Brain is honestly a pretty big giveaway to Pinky not being straight in the slightest.

Could Pinky be Just Gay?: This really depends on the person you ask. If you were a new fan of the series, only starting to watch during season 3 of the reboot, then yeah. Pinky is basically gay in those final ten episodes with him never mentioning a female love interest for the first time (I think) ever. It's insane. Also, he hints at his attraction to Brain in several ways such as dressing up alongside him in feminine clothing (he didn't have to do that) and even holding his hand tightly (much to Brain's surprise). He also does that little hand gesture at least five or six times and showcases his more extravagant personality. So, my conclusion is that if you were to only watch season 3 of the reboot then Pinky is nearly 100% gay. However, when you watch the rest of the franchise, this changes his sexuality to pansexual since he has a few female attractions earlier on.

Setting Things Up (Animaniacs 1993): Below is the first time Pinky gives Brain a compliment. It's from their debut episode "Win Big."

The first "gay stare" from the entire franchise in the episode "Where Rodents Dare."

Although we don't get too many Brinky moments from the earliest era of the mice's existence, we do get to see that even from the beginning, Pinky really cared for Brain in many ways. He gives his friend compliments, admires his work, and even tries his best to follow his plans, (though Pinky can get distracted easily). In "Win Big" Pinky gives a seemingly content reaction when Brain pulls him by the tail. "Where Rodents Dare" gives us the first official gay stare in the series, done by Pinky after Brain talks to him about the plan. Pinky is often seen acting in a very positive way around Brain, no matter what his friend says. While this was the point in the series where the two's relationship could only be seen as a partnership/acquaintanceship, Pinky still seems to call Brain his friends without hassle. Brain seems more reserved here and is often more brash when it comes to Pinky and his behavior.

Pinky Gets Flirty (Pinky and The Brain): Below is a screenshot from the infamous "colleague" line from episode "That Smarts"

Pinky doesn't know what to say to Brain on their "dinner date" in segment "Brain's Night Off."

This well-known frame from segment "Beach Blanket Brain" (which coincidently is paired with the previously mentioned segment).

A flirtatious line from "Brain Noir."

Pinky consoles a distraught Brain in episode "You'll Never Eat Food Pellets in This Town Again."

Pinky playing around with Brain from "Pinky's Plan."

Pinky in his adorable sweater from "Megalomaniacs Anonymous."

Pinky trying to save Brain from an avalanche in (one of my favorite episodes) "This Old Mouse."

Things began to escalate quickly after the mice got their own spin-off show. Pinky's more flirty tendencies and his relationship with Brain began to grow stronger and stronger. He showcases his feelings more often here as well. For example: when Brain calls Pinky his colleague, Pinky gets all giddy and he swoons a little. When Brain compliments Pinky after his mindless TV watching proves beneficial to the plan, Pinky tells Brain to stop it as Brain's making him feel all gooshy. This moment is complete with Pinky looking flustered and there's even a music swell to compliment the entire ordeal. Pinky is shown on multiple occasions to take great pleasure in flirting or teasing Brain, giggling often. His loyalty to his friend is also shown in excess. When Pinky sees that Brain is going to perish after an avalanche in episode "This Old Mouse", he goes all the way up north to find him. Pinky does manage to save Brain, not only proving his dedication to his companion, but convincing Brain that the future can in fact be changed. Pinky even says things like "I can't lose you again" and when Brain tries to get him to leave for his own safety, Pinky repeatedly denies doing so, wanting to save Brain. It's incredibly heart-warming. In episode "Broadway Malady" Pinky sings a song after he and Brain split-apart about how much he misses him (and Brain hears the entire song and begins crying!). Pinky even gets the entire world's supply of important musical critics to watch Brain's show, much to Brain's surprise. Pinky's dedication to Brain is admirable, and the bond the two share is precious in every single way. Pinky is always there to comfort Brain in his darkest hours. He also gives meaningful gifts to his best friend including the globe keychain from the Christmas episode. Even when Snowball tries to convince Pinky to join him, he remains loyal. Despite the many flaws in their relationship, Pinky truly believes that Brain is the most important mouse in his life and he would do anything for him.

Secret Intentions (Pinky, Elmyra, and The Brain): Below is a picture of Pinky staring at Brain from "The Girl with Nothing Extra."

Pinky imagining him and Brain as a married couple! This is from my favorite PEaTB episode "Pinky's Dream House."

Despite being poorly received by fans, Pinky, Elmyra, and The Brain gave us a few new, very obvious signs of Pinky's possible attraction to Brain. Though he has a gained a massive sassitiude, he still maintains most of his core character traits from the spin-off. The most obvious case of a romantic hint was in the segment "Pinky's Dream House." This gives us an extensive view at Pinky's desires, which include being a housewife to Brain and living a perfect life. He even goes on to sing a song about his dream (the song is really good and well written). This is one of the most ambiguously gay moments in the entire franchise; it's actually stunning that they managed to sneak this past network censors. Pinky wants this to happen, and it isn't a version of him that is female. It's just Pinky wanting to be a housewife to Brain in one of the sweetest segments from this mixed bag of a show. Pinky's wish does come true and he does get to live with Brain for a while, but it doesn't last. It's a darn shame too because it seemed like Brain was starting to enjoy this lifestyle as well. Aside from this, there are a few cute gay stares and a compliment or two on occasion. It's really admirable how Pinky's dream of being a housewife was taken very seriously, and that he still cares for Brain's needs no matter what.

A Troubling Conflict (the Brinky vs. Pinky x Phar Fignewton feud): Below is a picture of Pinky and Phar Fignewton (you get the idea of Brinky by this point).

Yeah, this was a thing. Back before the reboot was made and nearly everyone became a Brinky shipper, there was a small conflict within the fandom between two well-regarded ships. Brinky fans were just starting to migrate their way onto various internet platforms and the ship was gaining steam. However, there were a few people who stuck with the canon ship of Pinky x Phar Fignewton instead. Their reasoning was that the two were essentially "soulmates" with their designs being similar and their interactions all the more precious. For those who aren't aware, Phar Fignewton is a character that was introduced in the segment "Jockey for Position." She'd later appear as only a cameo in Pinky and The Brain segments "The Third Mouse" and "A Meticulous Analysis of History." She made her return in the movie Wakko's Wish, where she had a more extensive role as Pinky's love interest (or so we think). After this movie, she never appeared alongside the mice again, fading into the realm of obscure Animaniacs characters. A lot of people really liked this ship though and fanart made its way onto sites like DeviantArt. However, Pinky x Phar Fignewton fans would often denounce Brinky for interfering with their ship and Brinky fans would do the same to them. It was a giant mess. Unfortunately for the fans of the horse-mouse couple, their ship was laid to rest in non-canon during 2020 when the Animaniacs reboot came out, as she only appeared in a brief cameo. Pinky was now more focused on Brain and Brinky shippers rejoiced as the mice came close to being canon. Though many of us out there do ship Brinky, it's important to remember our fallen alternate ship and the cuteness it brought us. Brinky did win in the end, taking a lot of Pinky x Phar Fignewton shippers away from their previous ship and into a larger group of the fandom.

Put to the Side: (Reboot Season 1): Below is Pinky staring at Brain yet again from "Ex-Mousina" (I wanted to put the cute moment from "Future Brain" here but I think it's more suited to Brain rather than Pinky).

This adorable exchange from episode "Babysitter's Flub."

Here we are, the Animanics reboot. This is where Pinky's sexuality stops being questioned and instead becomes somewhat confirmed. Much to the delight of many people, Pinky's interactions with Brain become a lot less platonic as the series goes along; there are also less straight routes to fall down as well. However, things didn't kick into shape until later seasons. Cute Pinky and Brain moments were put to the side in exchange for focusing on re-introducing the mice to a modern audience in season one. There wasn't a complete non-existence as we got a few adorable stares and even a near-kiss (wait until we get to Brain Week to hear about that one!). The mice did have their fair share of gay scenes such as the X and O confusion bit from "Babysitter's Flub" and the ending of "Future Brain" where Pinky saves Brain from falling into a portal. Pinky's loyalty to Brain is stronger than ever, with Brain being the one that has to go through the test in his relationship with Pinky. Sure Pinky feels a twinge of jealousy when Brain essentially abandons him for a robot, but that ends up in complete disaster. While this season did a great job of re-establishing their relationship, Pinky's presence as a character had to be sacrificed. He barely has any major roles in these first segments, almost seeming like a side or background character at times. He still proves to have a close bond with Brain, always listening to his feelings and offering comfort. Luckily, better things were on the horizon.

New Developments: (Reboot Season 2): Below is a picture of an underrated embrace from "Narf Over Troubled Water."

An extremely popular moment from "Happy Narfday."

Pinky caught gay staring YET AGAIN in "Wakkiver Twist." (It never ends!)

Hand holding from episode "Narf Over Troubled Water." (This episode just has too many moments to count!)

This season managed to blow everyone's expectations out of the water. Not only did we get more undeniable moments of Pinky showcasing his possible feelings for Brain, but Brain seemed to recuperate those affections. Pinky was more used here, him having at least four times as many gay moments as he did in the previous season. He often lovingly gazes at Brain, gives him tight embraces, holds his hand, and even mentions attending a traffic light party and wearing yellow, seemingly implying that he doesn't entirely know what their is relationship at this point. The number of moments in season 2 that made people scream in delight are nearly impossible to count. Here are a few notable ones. In "Backwards Pinky", Pinky often makes vaguely flirtatious comments about Brain, to which Brain responds in annoyance. In "The Flawed Couple", Pinky is seen in the first pilot playing a housewife to Brain in a similar situation to "Pinky's Dream House." Pinky's loyalty to Brain comes full circle in "Run Pinky Run" where he would do anything to save his best friend. "Happy Narfday" probably has some of the most obvious interactions including Pinky calling Brain "darling", Pinky moving Brain around and holding his hand, and even an adorable hug at the segment's end. Pinky compliments Brain and makes pleasant statements to him in "Plight of Hand" and "Mouse Madness"; in the former, he even fights against his own hands in order to save Brain. "Narf Over Troubled Water" was probably the most famous episode when it came to Brinky moments. There was just so much to comprehend at once; it's extremely difficult to try and mark down it all. Pinky comforting Brain after he starts doubting himself, Pinky coming back for Brain after their split-up, and that ENTIRE ending sequence were the most noticeable. These moments were impactful to Pinky's character as they showed his displays of affection and kindness and that their co-dependent relationship was not only important but entirely necessary to the franchise.

Pinky's Sexuality Confirmed? (Reboot Season 3): Below is a picture of Pinky posing in a seductive manner while Brain watches in annoyance. From the segment "How The Brain Thieved Christmas."

A clip of Pinky kissing Brain from "Groundmouse Day!"

A picture of a picture of Pinky kissing Brain from "How to: Friendship."

Pinky holds Brain by the shoulders in an attempt to steady him. From "How The Brain Thieved Christmas."

Pinky after Brain mentions the current situation being "too romantic." He heavily implies that he thinks that he and Brain are also in a romantic situation. I'm not kidding! From segment "Royal Flush."

Pinky is so proud of Brain for taking over the world. From episode "Groundmouse Day."

Pinky touches Brain's image on the screen in an precious manner! From "How to: Friendship."

Pinky holds Brain's hand tightly after destroying AI Julia (the entire moment will be shown when we get to Brain Week!). From episode "All's Fair in Love and Door."

Season three had easily the most on-the-nose segments when it came to hints at Brinky. This is also the season that confirmed to a lot of people that Pinky was not straight. In fact, if you were only to watch this season and nothing else, Pinky could be considered gay. Not only does he never mention a female love interest but he seems to have taken his flirty and more romantic tendencies with Brain to another level. There is an intimate interaction between the mice in every single episode, whether it be settle or extremely suggestive and obvious. Pinky in particular starts to showcase his feelings in a more outrageous way. These moments are just precious. In the first few segments, Pinky is seen doing various things, including staring at Brain, rubbing his head when he gets stressed, touching Brain's image on a screen, envisioning Brain in the stars, making an adorable macaroni photo of him kissing Brain, implying that he thinks that he and Brain are having a romantic moment, relying on Brain to calm him down in a car, and resting his head on Brain's head. The second half of the season showcases Brain seemingly responding to these actions in a not so settle manner (at least from an audience perspective). From Pinky kissing Brain goodnight in one of the most hyped-up moments from the entire reboot to Pinky getting somewhat jealous and hurt when he sees that Brain was married to Julia in an alternate world, these precious scenes come in abundance. The final four episodes contain more development for Brain than Pinky, but they're still noteworthy. In "All's Fair in Love and Door", Pinky looks very surprised when Brain sacrifices himself to save Pinky from AI Julia. After Pinky saves Brain in the end, he even holds Brain's hand tightly, much to the latter's surprise. "How The Brain Thieves Christmas" was more of an exploration of Brain than Pinky, but the taller mouse has some fun moments. He poses "seductively" in front of Brain when modeling for the toy. Pinky gives Brain a meaningful gift: the thing he needed to take over the world. Pinky even says "love you!" to Brain in a blink-and-you'll-miss-it moment in the second part. The ending was also quite sweet with Pinky making a ton of gay stares and starting lots of embraces with Brain. In "International Mouse of Mystery", the whole song shows Pinky dropping essentially compliments towards his friend. Pinky also seemingly wants Brain to kiss him at one point, only for Brain to throw him away. Pinky is almost definitely at least some form of LGBTQ+ at this point, due to his relationship with Brain being very strong. Seeing these kinds of interactions between best friends, male best friends nonetheless, is interesting and unique. It makes their friendship/possible romantic relationship all the more special and this is why they have an extensive fanbase of people who really care for them.

Pinky is a Genderfluid Icon (An Overview from "Noah's Lark" to "International Mouse of Mystery"): Below is the very first time we see Pinky in a dress from segment "Noah's Lark" from the original Animaniacs.

Pinky in a dress inspired by the movie Gone With the Wind in episode "Brainie the Poo"

A collection of Pinky's many outfits from the Animaniacs reboot. These are from episodes "Mouse Congeniality", "Royal Flush", and "International Mouse of Mystery."

Pinky is honestly one of the most influential and important characters when it comes to gender identity and just being yourself, at least in the modern media. The running "joke" of him wearing dresses went from being a little gag in various episodes to being an actual part of his personality, revealing that it is something he enjoys quite a lot. And no one every belittles him for his decisions, especially Brain, who only gets annoyed with Pinky's actions rather than his appearance. In fact during some segments, Brain seems to have a reaction to Pinky's looks, especially in "Mouse Congeniality." While many characters characters have cross-dressed in old cartoon such as Bugs Bunny and Daffy Duck, they were usually to evade the capture of a foe. Pinky does this in a lot of plans, sometimes because he wants to, other times because it's necessary for the plan to work. He didn't have to dress up in "Royal Flush", but he chose to do so. That's amazing. He also doesn't dislike being referred to by she/her pronouns. At first, things didn't start out so revolutionary. Pinky's first time in a dress was in the Animaniacs segment "Noah's Lark." Rather than looking sophisticated, he looks like he's only wearing this as a disguise to go along with Brain's plan to sneak onto the ark. It's portrayed in a silly way, as if Pinky was forced to do this. He does this again in episode "Meet John Brain" when he tries to play the role of Brain's first lady. When the spin-off series was introduced, Pinky's feminine side was exposed in a more natural, less comical way. The dresses he wore were more elaborate, more colorful, and cuter. He'd be seen playing with lipstick in episode "Of Mouse and Man", showing that this was something he did for fun. After that, he can often be seen in dresses during various parody episodes, often playing the female character. He also posed as a female in episode "My Feldmans My Friends" alongside Brain as his spouse. However, in the song "The Really Great Dictator", Pinky is seen in a pink dress in what has become one of his most beloved appearances in dress. Not only does he not wear any makeup or wig for the very first time, but in the context of the song, Pinky didn't have to wear a dress at all. It was his personal decision, rather than one made by force. Despite wearing a ton of dresses, Pinky could rock the masculine wardrobe as well, being seen in suits, tuxedoes, sweaters, and swim trunks throughout the series. In Pinky, Elmyra, and The Brain, Pinky would add more outfits and looks to his collection including he (and Brain!) wearing lipstick and earrings, a Hansen inspired getup, and of course, the well-known headscarf and apron from "Pinky's Dream House" which was discussed earlier. Pinky in dresses would become a popular part of the fandom; however no one was prepared for the glory that would be given in the reboot, around 22 years after Pinky was last seen in feminine clothing.

The reboot would give us incredible moments when it came to Pinky as a character. He could finally be himself and showcase all his marvelous beauty. The first instance of Pinky in an outfit was in season 2 episode "The Flawed Couple" where Pinky is seen in typical housewife attire for a parody of the show The Honeymooners. His most iconic, popular, and recognizable dress was in the episode "Mouse Congeniality" where Pinky joins in a beauty pageant to help Brain in a plan for world domination. Pinky outfit here goes all out, even to the point where Brain is impressed with his work. Pinky is seen here in a blonde wig, has purple eye shadow, long eyelashes, lipstick, a pink dress with sash, long pink gloves, and high-heeled shoes. This is perhaps his most elaborate outfit to date, with him sporting a completely new and impressive appearance. He is also seen in a few alternate costumes including a bikini (finally!) and a baby costume (I don't know you guys). Pinky even manages to win the pageant, albeit not by vote. Him winning the pageant is a very heartfelt and genuinely happy moment. Pinky stating that he wanted to be the most beautiful human woman on the planet was so precious and sweet. It also offers a great look at Pinky, showing that cross-dressing is something he genuinely enjoys and wishes to do. Even though he doesn't wear another dress throughout the rest of the season, Pinky will sometimes randomly have eyelashes or act in a feminine manner. It's so adorable. In season 3, Pinky continues to push and break boundaries, blessing us with two new looks, though they are similar to his previous outfit in "Mouse Congeniality." In "Royal Flush", Pinky is wearing a red version of his previous dress along with purple long gloves, high heels, and another blonde wig. In a few scenes towards the beginning, Pinky has eyelashes. However as the segment continued along, those disappeared permanently, leaving him again without any makeup. He still looks incredible though. It's quite intriguing to see Pinky without makeup in a dress because that hasn't been seen since the 90's. His final outfit comes from the segment "International Mouse of Mystery", which has also gotten some attention after a frame from this cold-opening was leaked in early February 2023. This outfit contains elements of the previous two looks with Pinky wearing a red dress, though it's a darker shade, having dark purple eyeshadow, eyelashes, lipstick, high heels, and a red wig. It's really cute how he tries to play the Bond girl seen in a lot of spy films and he looks really good. Throughout, the entire song portion (Pinky has an angelic voice), Pinky is seen in his getup with Brain even "saving" him at one point. It's super cool that even though three different studious animated these episodes (Digital eMation, Titmouse, Saerom), the dresses and design remained consistent. Though it would've been nice to see Pinky get more dresses to wear, the ones he got proved to be good enough to leave an impact on the community. Every time Pinky is seen in a dress, he's treated with an enormous amount of respect and is showered with praise from all angles. He is a genderfluid icon, and can be inspiring to people in the ways he expresses himself in such a natural way. Even if this show is forgotten, there remains some hope that Pinky will be remembered as an important figure in the realm of gender identity and positivity.

Conclusion: Overall, Pinky exemplifies true greatness when it comes to representation in the LGBTQ+ community. Even though things started off in a nuanced manner, things began to become more obvious as the series went along. Pinky began to showcase his feminine side, wearing dresses and makeup for enjoyment. His apparent attraction to Brain becomes more exaggerated in the reboot. It's so wonderful to see this kind of character in our ever-changing world. Even though most of this involves things that haven't been outright confirmed, it's still important to look though all this change and growth. There are a lot of individuals out there who could and do latch onto Pinky, including myself. While he may seem like a surface-level mouse at first, if you take a deeper look, you may find that he's not as simple as he appears. I hope you took something from this, whether it be some random person on Tumblr charting Pinky's relationship with Brain and with his character growth, or a bit of information you never knew. I look forward to continuing Pinky Week in high spirits. I'll be focusing on specific moments of character development in the next three installments, so be prepared. Anyways, have a great day and/or night and I'll see you next time! Narf!

[rav-rabies-art-blog]

A late Wip... Friday?

Or Saturday depending where you are. And wherever that is I hope you're safe happy and loved.

This one's coming along! I'm having too much fun with the details. I'm hoping to finish before the end of the month.

I was inspired to do a cute Chai/Zanzo pic! And Beanie Zanzo is making a reappearance. I love the intimate feel of the whole image.

My failed Halloween pic! I have a head canon that Zanzo's birthday is Halloween. (his big three are Sun: Scorpio, Moon: Libra, Asc: Leo)

I got big three planed out for Chai and Kale too and I want to do all HFR characters for fun. Chai is a Sun: Cancer, Moon: Sagittarius and Asc: Sagittarius. Kale is a triple Taurus.

This is part of that Korsimint pic the Tumblr version will likely cut this off.

Also I didn't for get about this cute little guy.

[europodfriends]

Europodfriends 2023!

Before we get to the meat of the matter, just a quick note to let you know that Dell has stepped back as a mod for this year due to health concerns, leaving y’all with two mods running the show, Sylvie (@thriceandonce) and Robin (@robinfai).

Next: the plan for this year is to have an in-person meet in Berlin on the weekend of October 13th - 15th, 2023! For those who have been there before, hopefully we’ll be able to rent the same place we usually do, but we shall see!

As in previous years, the meetup won’t have a flat attendance fee. We calculate the contributions based on your means, so don’t worry about not being able to afford it! And if you need extra funds to be able to attend (for travel expenses, for instance), don’t hesitate to let us know - we budget in such a way that it’s possible for europodfriends to fund your journey as well. It’s important to us to facilitate everyone’s attendance to the best of our ability.

Regarding food & drink, in 2019 we provided that for everyone out of the epf budget. We would like to be able to do that again, but that depends on how much people are able to contribute - we know the pandemic has hit a lot of us hard!

And before I forget - here’s the survey you need to fill out if you want to join us! The survey will close in one week, on February 18th, 2023.

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For those who’ve never been to an in-person EPF meetup, or who would like a little refresher, here’s roughly what we did the last times and what we’ll likely be doing this year as well:

Friday is mostly for everyone arriving, greeting each other, hanging out, and making name badges. Very ambitious people might already be podficcing that evening, but since not everyone will have arrived yet, we don’t schedule anything specific for that day.

Saturday morning there’s a meeting where everyone introduces themselves “formally” with names and pronouns. This is also when we do pitch ‘n’ pod - in short, everyone who wants to gets a few minutes to talk about a fandom and a fic in that fandom that they want to podfic at the meetup, and afterwards everyone can sign up to the podfics they want to be a part of. Saturday evening might be another scheduled event organised by attendees - in past years we’ve had a video call with Podfication, or a game of “Guess That Voice”, or watch parties, for example - but that part is up to y’all: if you want to organise something, get in touch so we can figure out the scheduling and planning!

Sunday morning we’ve done a big, fun multivoice with everyone participating the last two times, and that would certainly be fun to do again - 2018 we did Earth Is Space Australia (and Chuck Norris Isn’t A Man With A Beard. He’s A Beard With A Man) and 2019 we did I Has a Sweet Potato. After that, people start leaving as their travel plans call for.

Throughout the three days, there’s a lot of podficcing happening at all hours of day and night - the EPF collections on AO3 should give you some idea!

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We know that by virtue of going back to an in-person meetup, some of you who joined us in 2020 and 2022 will not be able to come hang out with us again, which really sucks! Unfortunately we don’t have the capacity to organise a virtual meetup in addition to the in-person one, and past years show that none of us really spend a lot of time online during the weekend, so having that run parallel wouldn’t work either. However, if anyone wants to start their own virtual podfic meetup, get in touch with us! We’re happy to share our experiences with running EPF 2020 & 2022 as well as do lots of promo.

Like in the past few years, we will mostly be updating you via email, but we’ll also try to crosspost to Dreamwidth, Twitter, and tumblr, life and time permitting. If you want to make sure to stay up to date, contact us via DMs on any of the usual social medias, Discord, or email us at europodfriends at gmail to be added to the mailing list!

[cryptidsurveys]

Friday, August 23rd, 2024.

First thing you touched this morning? Most likely my phone or one of my cats.

Last thing you yelled at? My dad was downstairs sneezin' up a storm yesterday, so I shouted a few "BLESSIN'S!" to him.

Is your car a piece of crap? Nope. It's around sixteen years old, but it still runs beautifully.

What’s something you’re looking forward to in the next 7 days? Visiting the Mountain Park - hopefully next Wednesday or Thursday.

What’s annoying you right now? This damn headache. It's been coming and going since last Wednesday and I'm just so over it! D;

When is the last time you looked in the mirror? After my post-animal shelter shower.

Would you have a long distance relationship with the person you are with now? I'm not in a relationship. In general, I'm not entirely opposed to a temporarily long-distance relationship, but I would make it very clear from the beginning that I'm not going to be the one uprooting my life in order for us to be together.

Who was the last person to make you really mad? Probably my mom during the initial stages of our reconnection. I didn't let her see the full extent of it (I mostly went home and grumbled to my dad about it), but I did eventually speak up and she's been a lot better about certain things since.

Where is the last place you had sex? Home.

Who is the last person you had sex with? A past partner.

Do you enjoy watching porn? No.

What’s your favorite drinking game? I've never played a drinking game.

Do you cry often? I would say regularly but not excessively.

Do you think someone is thinking of you right now? It's definitely possible.

Choose one to have (beer, cigs, or weed)? Cigarettes. An unfortunate habit I still haven't kicked. I quit smoking weed several years ago; the few times I smoked after that left me feeling dizzy, so I don't think I'll ever go back to it. And when it comes to alcohol, I have to be careful because it's very much a slippery slope. I try to keep it to rare/special occasions only.

Do you wish on stars? I wished on 11:11 earlier because I just want this headache to go awaaayyy.

Are you a big flirt? No.

What is the most disgusting prank you’ve ever done? Probably those stupid prank phone calls I made when I was a kid. It was the one and only time I was ever grounded for something, lmao. I was totally out of hand.

What would you do if you became pregnant? Ugh.

When did you last make out with someone? Was it good? Years ago.

Do you like your body? I've been pretty happy with it lately. It's becoming increasingly toned due to animal shelter work, and the way I carry myself is changing too. I'm starting to look more laidback and confident instead of hunched and anxious.

Are you a likeable person? Yeah.

Who did you dream of last night? I don't remember last night's dreams. I'm also falling so behind on my dream journal… Maybe later I'll try to jot down any recent fragments I can recall.

Whose body do you wish you had? I'm fine with my body. I just wish it didn't get so many migraines. Or ANY migraines.

What is the first thing you are going to do when you get home? I am at home. I showered. Then I laid in bed for a bit and listened to a YouTube video.

When is the last time you saw your mom? Yesterday. My parents and I went out for lunch at Pizza Ranch.

Have you ever been so in love, you wanted to get married? Yeah. Lol that yearning feels so unserious now. I truly loved those people, but I was so naive.

Did you get lucky on prom night? I didn't go to prom.

Is there a song that makes you cry? There are songs that have that potential.

Are you normally a horny person? No. I'm actually afraid of that feeling.

Where is your self-esteem from 1 (low) to 10 (high)? It's pretty decent. I'd give it a 6.5.

What color are your eyes? Hazel.

Plans for tonight? Just chillin'.

Plans for the weekend? Volunteering. I think Saturday will be a full day and Sunday might (?) be a half day - it just depends on who's going to be there. If they're short staffed, then I'll probably stay all day.

[candybagcj]

Who Is this CandybagCJ Creature?

Tagged by @dairy-boy my old pal

Who were you named after?

My not-legal legal name is as follows; the guy I used to be before trans-ing, a grandparent, a different grandparent, and Jonathan Joestar, respectively. My username is just the name of my business (Candybag, which is after a cute thing my Grandpa would do for me and my brother after every visit) and my name (CJ).

Last time you cried?

My toaster caught fire on Saturday or Friday because of a pop tart that fell apart for no reason and when I realized it wasn't realistic to clean it out and that I had spent like 45 minutes doing that I cried a little at the wasted time and energy.

Do you have kids?

Does my stream community count? Otherwise, no.

What sports do you play/did you play?

Kid: Hockey, Soccer, Basketball. High School: Rugby, Wrestling, Football. Currently: error, too many concussions found

Do you use Sarcasm?

In this economy? Of courseeeeee not. What a wild and strange thing to ask me.

First thing you notice about people?

Uhhhhhhhhhhh, Height? Maybe how tolerant they are of my strangeness? ...humor? Everything all at once? I'm not good at these kinds of questions.

Do you have any talents?

I'm an exceptional improv comedian and entertainer (subscribe at twitch.tv/candybagcj for a good time and possibly a long time depending on the time)

Scary Movies or Happy Endings?

GIF by jazthetrashpanda (Just wholesale stealing this answer from @dairy-boy lmao)

Where were you born?

... somewhere in Niagara Region, Ontario? I'm just now realizing I don't actually know which hospital. St. Catherines maybe?

What are your hobbies?

Video Games, Watching Stuff, TTRPGs, I used to write and do sigilwork but neither of those have come up recently. I do most hobbies at least a little, though.

Do you have any pets?

Not personally, but my mom has three doggos who I hang out with regularly, and I love them all equally (Old Man Ted is my favourite actually, but shhh be cool about it.)

How tall are you?

5'9

What was your favourite subject in school?

Computer Science, love me some code (yes, I'm a trans-femme stereotype)

Dream Job?

Originally I wanted to be a Game Designer or Writer, but honestly my current job of Live Streamer / Online Entertainer is like, kind of the best possible thing for me?

oh god I don't know who to tag. uhhh @risu5waffles @ketallpot i think you're the only folks on here other than @dairy-boy that I personally know so you're my only options but no pressure if you don't want to do this!

[espinosaurusrexex]

Meg's Summer Break Posting Schedule

Your girl has been a little inactive lately. University and the pressure to get my papers done before summer plans start are a lot. (spoiler alert: they are starting, and I am not close to finished but oh well)

I'm not going to apologize for that because living is important, and I'm hoping that everyone reading this is planning to enjoy every moment of summer (or not summer depending on where you are in the world) too!

BUT I did want to come on here and inform you what you can expect from me in the next few weeks.

There will be a new Bucky imagine this Saturday (teaser on Friday) if I have service 😅 then I will probably post the Professor!Steve fic (from the poll). And then maybe another if I'm feeling like it :)

-> the fics won't come withing my usual posting schedule (every two weeks) because even though I have a few finished pieces in the drafts, they need to be posted another time.

so to sum up:

2-3 fics within the next two months

I won't be as active but I will read your comments and reblogs and asks and i will be happy about every single one of them (and try to reply to them too).

Please know i'm not losing interest or being gone for good - it's just a little summer "not-so-intermission".

we should be back on track starting October and I have some exciting projects I'm just dying to post (hopefully some more will be finished by then)

I love you and I'm looking forward to hearing from you!!!

xx Meg 💛

[merrock]

HAPPY FIRST OF NOVEMBER!

How are there only two months left in this year?! It’s gone by so quickly! But we’re looking forward to spending the holiday season with you guys and having as much fun as possible. As usual, we’re here with a rundown of what to expect in November, a boost for our monthly prompt, some stuff to work on / keep in mind, and a look at the months ahead. Read on!

HAPPENING IN NOVEMBER:

november 3rd -- election day in merrock : voting is ongoing for our 2022 election, where we will be choosing a mayor and new members to sit on town council. IC, the election takes place on November 3rd, and OOC, you can vote up until 8PM on that night. (vote here!)

november 6th - 20th -- costa rica trip : happening for two weeks, starting on November 6th, everyone will be taking a trip to Costa Rica! Feel free to talk to the Benefactor to get more info, but we can’t wait to see everyone in bikinis and board shorts and having a blast.

november 24th -- food drive & dinner : to help those in town who need food and a place to eat it, the Community Center will be hosting a dinner, and also handing out canned and boxed foods for those who need it. Volunteers are needed and welcomed!

november 26th -- railway 5k : our annual run, the Railway 5K is for young and old runners alike, those who have a lot of experience and those who have very little. Run for fun, run or a reason, run for someone, just get out there and run!

the fun stuff -- enjoy the last regular season football game away on November 4th. we have a fun event on November 12th in Costa Rica for everyone to enjoy cocktails (plus a few others). And there will be shopping specials in Merrock for Black Friday on November 25th, and small business Saturday on November 26th.

EXTRA BIT OF FUN:

One thing we’ve yet to really delve into in town is how your character in particular feels about the Benefactor. So while we’ll probably do some fun moodboard or task next month to lighten things up and get into the holiday spirit, November’s development prompt is focused on the Mysterious Benefactor and is all about how you feel about them being in control of our town! What better time than as they’re taking us on a trip?!

RULES & REMINDERS:

as usual, a reminder to re-read our rules, and make sure that you are familiar with the expectations and guidelines. i’m likely going to address any activity issues after the trip, so just a few things to go over today.

if you're not already in the habit of doing so, be sure to check the starter master list before diving into other replies! it can make someone's whole day to feel included and get a reply right away, as opposed to hours or sometimes even days later.

try to be as fair as possible with activity: keep all characters active, reply to oldest stuff first, don't let finished replies sit in drafts (or queues!) for long periods of time, just be mindful that others depend on you for activity. (and on the other side, do be patient with each other, too!)

remember to just be inclusive and kind to everyone! as admin, i can say likes to our mod posts, events, tasks, etc. make us feel like you're paying attention and appreciate the work we do. and as players, you guys know comments on your OOC posts, likes on socials, giggling about outfits in replies, it all feels good! also, chatting in other spaces is fine, but do remember this is a tumblr based group -- be sure you're checking and replying to messages, and keeping an eye on the OOC blog, as well!

THINGS BEHIND THE SCENES:

costa rica is in the bag! all of the event posts will be drafted and ready to go later this afternoon. keep an eye on the benefactor’s page through the day, as a post will be going up with some IC (and OOC!) information he wants you all to have.

as we mentioned, we are going to be a bit more lenient around the winter holidays with activity. i will have an announcement upon the return from our trip about what our expectations will be! this will likely go into effect then through the beginning of January.

the latter half of november and december might be a bit slower around here with events and parties, and that’s simply because we’re busy as admins, and so are you, as players! but we still have some really fun, laidback things planned!

... plus, I have stuff saved to start working on most of 2023 already! and we’re always open to ideas you have, or even your own characters hosting events or parties!

That’s about it from us! Thank you guys for making Halloween a lot of fun, and we look forward to what the winter season brings, as well. We know that these next couple of months are always hectic and busy -- we appreciate any and all activity that you can toss our way. We’re always here to chat and help you out if you need advice with keeping up or balancing activity, too! Be patient, be kind, and stay warm. Let’s have a grand November. xx

[purplesurveys]

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what is your favorite kind of ice cream? I like the popsicle-style ice cream where there’s a hardened coating you can bite through. Never saying no to those.

if people could read your mind, what would they usually find? My never-ending worries about work and deadlines and clients and deliverables and reports and emails.

who do you talk to on the phone most often? I never use calls (audio or video) as a means to communicate when messaging can achieve the exact same thing, hahaha.

what's a song that makes you feel happy? Jungkook’s Euphoria or Jin’s Moon :)

what celebrity would you like to meet? Namjoon. I feel like I could learn so much from the dude in just five minutes’ worth of conversation.

what's the best concert you've ever been to? Haven’t been to a lot so my answer is unchanging - Paramore, 2018. More than being front row for it, the energy was just something else. I was glad they had moved on from their signature emo/rock style at that point cos it allowed the crowd to be more mellow, so it was a two-hour experience of just dancing freely and a whole lot of chill vibing.

what is your favorite clothing store? H&M, but I also mostly pick out clothes from small independent businesses too cos they have a lot of trendy pieces for like third of the usual price. And you get to support small and local too, which is the best part for me.

how did you meet your best friend? I stabbed her palm with a pencil in Grade 1.

do you need money to be happy? I touched on this in the last survey I took, but the brief answer to this would be yes. I lack privilege in a lot of yes, and I’m in a position where money is an absolute necessity to alleviate my day-to-day worries and problems.

what is something you do well? Pull through my duties while staying stable. I honestly surprise myself with the lack of breakdowns I’ve had this year, despite how taxing work has been.

what's a good idea you've had recently? I guess surprising Bea with milk tea and sushi? We’ve had a lot of teammates leave the company in the span of a week, and long story short it’s left our team in particular considerably understaffed. I know it’s been rough for her knowing she handles a heavier workload than I do, so I got her a little something as a Friday treat but also as a morale booster. And she really liked it, so I hope it was able to help her someway somehow.

what is your favorite thing to eat for breakfast? I skip breakfast all the time lol but if I had the luxury of time to actually eat before work, my ideal meal would be garlic rice with a sunny-side up egg and two hotdogs.

how far in advance do you prefer to plan? It depends on what I’m planning for and how enthusiastic I am for the thing that needs planning.

do you like to wear high heels? I love high heels. There aren’t many occasions where I get to wear them, so when I get the chance I definitely pick the highest heels available hahaha.

how many slices of pizza do you usually eat? 2-3, usually.

Can you remember life without technology? what was it like? Nah. I’m a 1998 baby, first of all hahaha. Which means to say technology was already starting to rapidly rise by that point -- a number of my earliest memories involve me watching my dad play games on the PC and my mom painstakingly sending emails to my dad with dial-up internet.

what gift would you like to receive? Master cooking and baking skills. what's the last thing you paid for? LOL the order I booked for a new BTS DVD...

what's the last movie you watched? I think that would be Parasite, which I watched about a month ago.

do you remember your dreams? Some of them.

do you play any instruments? Nah.

do you always smile for pictures? Eh, not always. Sometimes I’ll do cute poses like a kiss face, or like a half smile where I’ll have my teeth out but I’m not actually smiling.

what are you most excited about right now? Next Saturday. Busan concert day is sooooooooo close and I waited for ages for it. I want to make sure I have the best time ever this weekend :)

if you had $5 in your pocket what yould you spend it on? I’d save that for emergencies but realistically I am likely to spend it on Starbucks lol.

how often do you buy things via the internet? At least once a week, and they’re mostly food deliveries.

would you like to live in a different country? if so which one? In a heartbeat, man. Opportunities are anywhere but here. It’s so frustrating. Please don’t take what you’ve got for granted.

what animal would you see first if you went to the zoo? This question was also on another recent survey I took, how strange. I don’t feel like retyping that entire answer though.

if you could switch places with someone for a day, who would it be? This girl I follow on Instagram who’s able to buy literally every BTS merch that comes out and travels to South Korea multiple times a year, whether it’s to watch the boys or visit a bunch of BTS-related spots, whether it’s their favorite restaurants or music video filming areas. I’m not envious of her at all and in fact I really enjoy seeing her life unfold and the different adventures she gets to be a part of, but I’d love to try being her for a day.

do you prefer the aisle, middle, or window seat on a plane? Always the window. Apart from the views it also lets me lean on something when I have to sleep.

what's your favorite song from a movie? Sparkle from Kimi no na wa.

where would you like to volunteer? At an animal shelter or a museum.

would you rather go out for dinner or cook at home? Go out! Dinner’s always a great to be out.

who sent the last text message you received? Apart from the hundred scam messages I get in a day, it was someone related to my work.

what's your favorite flower? Peonies.

what's the last song you listened to? I blame the favorite movie soundtrack question because right now I’m literally listening to the live orchestra version of Sparkle, haha. It’s been a while since I heard the beautiful crescendo and just had to hear it again.

do you like being alone? Sure, I need it every now and then of course.

what was the last thing you ate? Pasta and toast.

how do you find new music? Spotify.

what is your dream travel destination? Seoul!

if you could play any instrument what would it be? Piano.

what's the last youtube video you watched? The aforementioned orchestra video.

where are you going on your next trip? Not so sure. Maybe next month? I know my family’s looking to go out of town once my dad is back home.

what are you currently addicted to? BTS as has been glaringly obvious for some time now, lol.

[whatdoesshedotothem]

Wednesday 3 October 1832

6 50

12 5

fine morning F64 ½° at 7 lay awake an hour and a half thinking of Miss Walker I really do get more and more in love with her not perhaps a little heightened by the having to wait her answer for the next six months she has really behaved very judiciously for I believe she likes me at 7 ½ went up to my father in his room and gave him his medicine - breakfasted with him having just sent off John to Lidgate with a brace of IN-‘s partridges for Miss Walker - a little while with my aunt in her room and out at 9 ½ in the walk – nobody but Dick working for me by the day – doing the bits of walling to keep up the staking up of the walk - John brought me letter 3 pages and ends and ½ the first page crossed from M- (Leamington) where they arrived on Friday - to be at home (Lawton) on Saturday - all thought of crossing the water given up a few hours after she last wrote - Had seen Miss Smith - an inch or 2 less than Cameron, aetatis 23, looks 17 - seems to be a flippant sort of girl, tho’ she really spoke well - not at all likely to suit me. Mr L- had had a sever attack of English cholera but his health and spirits the better for it - M- pretty well - Little Mariana settled at Miss Smith’s school at Leamington with which M- much satisfied - home at 11 ¼ and gave my father his medicine - he gave me letter from Miss Bolland for her quarter’s payment directed to him for fear I should not be at home - 2 braces of pheasant 2 ditto partridges and a hare from Mr and Mrs Edwards of Market Weighton - wrote direction papers ‘with Mrs  Lister’s compliments’ and John took to Mrs Rawson of Stony royde Miss Walker of Cliff hill, Mr Parker and Mr and Mrs Sunderland each a pheasant - to Mrs Veitch and Mrs Catherine Rawson each a brace of partridges and to Mr and Mrs William Priestley of Lightcliffe a hare -  from 12 to 3 ½ wrote 3 pages and ends and 1st page crossed to IN- and 3 pages and ends and 1st page crossed to M- 1 page to IN- to persuade her that we ought to congratulate or condole with other people according to their feelings not our own - but pleased (as far as satisfies the demands of kindness and propriety without compromising our opinion or sincerity) because they are pleased or grieved because they are so - thus I have congratulated Mrs N- on Esther’s match ‘because I have reason to believe she is not displeased and that the match will be a comfort to her’ and thus I would not have IN- in ‘mauvaise odeur’  at Croft for not congratulating - ‘I cannot bear the thought of anything going wrong with you at Croft’ she may say quite enough to keep all straight - beg her to read Charlotte all this prosing - ‘I count upon her thinking me right0 - all the rest chitchat - ‘if Esther is happy, all her friend must rejoice at her being so - so long as her parents are satisfied, her not having chosen exactly according to their taste or mine, is no respect reprehensible’ - ask for cutting of double yellow rose - mention my inquiry about Eugenie and my thought of writing to ask Scott if he thinks Joseph Booth at all likely to do for me, but not to name it to the boy - but say I am quite undetermined - glad their journey answered so well and that my calculations of expense was so fairly made - all agog to go over their ground -

SH:7/ML/E/15/0126

thanked M- for the trouble she had taken for me - if nothing else against her Miss Smith too little - ‘but the grim and giggle would be terrible’ - shall think no more of her - mentioned the substance of my letter to Mademoiselle Pierre - ‘you will conclude that I was well enough pleased with the letter you enclosed me, and that I am resigned to the necessity of my fate, if it must be such as you point out - ‘and after a few years, if you settle in England take a steady respectable woman whom  you can depend upon to look after your other servants’ you have strengthened my conviction, as you have done your own, that ‘all thinks work together for good’ and I am determined, like you, to make the best of everything’ - my plans to get off in January must depend on my aunt’s being better - far from well lately but better this last day or 2 - Mr Briggs died about a fortnight ago - almost determined to take Washington if not off in January could contrive about Eugenie - glad she is so satisfied with Miss Smiths’ school  at Leamington at which she has placed little Mariana, but not to think she cannot afford to put to Miss Cornells in Regent Park London where they have just placed Eliza Lawton - ‘for I would advise you all, or any part of the balance in your favour, at anytime’ - thanks for the seeds she had ordered me and the 6 Judas tree ordered at 1/6 each - her sister Ann sees sorry Cameron left me - ‘perhaps she does not know how unhappy the poor girl was - surely Eugenie will understand me better - somehow or other, I never dreampt of  anybody’s being unhappy with me. How little we know ourselves! you did me a lasting service by telling me - everybody will gain by it - all I dread is changing, and the prospect of this is the worst of Eugenie - but she may lead me by the nose - she may stay, and save me the trouble of hunting hereafter for the steady respectable woman you talk of’ - cannot profit now by the respecting maids opinion of Miss Hobart that was - ‘in consequence of his majesty’s most gracious order they all take rank as if their father had lived to get the Earldom, and she is now Lady Vere Cameron - they must be at Turin by this time - God bless you, my dearest Mary! Ever very especially and entirely yours AL’ - went down and gave my father his  medicine at 4 25 and had written so far of today at 4 40 - then sometime with my aunt - out at 5 25 - walked 3 times from the upper garden gate to the end of my Walk and back i.e. 3 miles, and did something more in sauntering up and down a little the last time - home at 6 ¾ - found the sexton of the old church waiting for me about the pew Mrs Walker had at the old church - said Mr Haigh (son to Mr George H- of the mount) might have it at the same rent Mrs Walked paid - should have the key before Sunday - might new line it if he pleased, but I should expect the rent – dinner at 7 – afterwards read over yesterdays’ paper – then at 8 ¼ went into the little room for ½ hour – came away for a little while and then returned – the plasterer whitewashing the room (the blue room) all today – wrote my letters in the kitchen chamber – came upstairs at 10 5 –fine day – very fine evening – very high wind towards night at 9 and afterwards F65° at 10 50 – sent off by John after dinner my letter to M- Lawton hall, Lawton, Cheshire and my letter to IN- Langton hall Malton

[casualscx]

updated my thread tracker with all new things and dropped some older things i've lost muse for!

i'll be off work in 40 minutes and then ill be around this evening to finish up replies and go back and forth with a few threads!

happy friday ( or saturday depending where you are ) everyone!! 🫶 hope it's a great one!

[nathank77]

4/17/24

7:59 p.m

I never filed an application for disability which is a good thing I have had symptoms of ocd since I was like 15 tbh. I'm worried bc I said 22 on my last phone call, they'll shoe me out but technically an application was never filed and I can tell them that my symptoms started prior to my 20s..

Unfortunately I'll have to get up early another day but the backpay will be worth it. I'm going to call tomorrow and set one up for ASAP.

I'm glad my thyroid levels are normal on all accounts I'll prob be on this dose for a while but idk. I won't see my endo until September I think but I have monthly standing blood work. So we will see if he calls. Technically the bloodwork looks good on all accounts.

I have to call Quest about the hsv2 test cause the results should be in. At this point I almost don't care anymore.

I'm just happy I've gotten a decent amount of stuff done and I found one frame I can wear completely comfortably.

Once I get glasses out of the way which may take some time, it's really just Disability lol and then I can finally rest a little.

Glasses should never be a source of stress like this again with fit at least. Some 142 hinge to hinge will be tighter but it won't be this fucking game of returning/reordering in such high numbers anymore. It'll just be a cost thing but maybe if i get backpay this won't be an issue like it is now.

Although I have to do the control arms on my car and the sealant on my teeth. My teeth have brownish/yellowish stains where the fucking grooves are. Doesn't matter how frequently I brush or what I use on them. It's non-negotiable.

Also before I go to lens crafters on Saturday I got to pick up my xanax and hit the gas station. I could run a little late. The Xanax is non-negotiable. I got to get it that day.... I could maybe hit the gas station Thursday or Friday but it depends on how I feel I need some downtime and I feel like after I woke up and took benadryl at like 1:05 I didn't really sleep much between then and 4:15 p.m.

I know I slept a little, but idk. This is the issue with microsleep. You never really know. Unless hours pass and it feels like your eyes were closed for 5 minutes, especially if you wake up frequently. The voice is always repetitive and it makes you feel like you've been listening to it for hours.

Sometimes my only real give away is my sleep timer on my TV. It turned off at some point between 3:30 and 4 and I didn't hear it turn off so I must have eventually slept.