#guilty pleasures in this life

[mothalas]

sexy to someone. is all I really want.

[uncanny-tranny]

I think so many people are so deeply alienated from themselves that they have no clue how to exercise their free will and autonomy. For some, this alienation runs so deep that they are afraid of their own autonomy and humanity. It is completely understandable why one would have those feelings, but it can be worrisome.

I want to help others who feel this way, so here are small things I have done to exercise my free will:

Add "guilty pleasure" songs to playlists and actually listen to them (I have a ton of late 1990s-early 2000s music I listen to now proudly that I never listened to in the past out of shame)

Getting the décor item, bath set, bed spread, ect. in the patterns you like, even if it's "childish" (I got a dinosaur-themed wastebasket from the kids' décor section and I adore it)

Taking a new route to get to a place you go to often

Eat dessert first

Celebrate well, and often

Collect things that are "odd" or don't seem like an "acceptable" thing to collect (somebody on my "for you" page collects dandelion crayola crayons and it was so cool!!!!!!)

Incorporate one new piece in an outfit you wear frequently (e.g., a new chain, a necklace, ribbons, bracelets, ect.). Challenge yourself to add onto the outfits if you feel up for it.

Sing along to songs without worrying that you sound "good" or your intonation is completely accurate

Read a book from a genre you weren't allowed to read as a kid (comics, thrillers, mysteries, anything!)

Walk without having a specific destination or goal

Pick up a new craft without expecting yourself to master it or to ever be "good" enough. Get your hands messy.

I don't want to shame anybody for not feeling as though they have free will or that they are exempt from exercising it. However, I wanted to give ideas so that you might read this list and find your own ways to express your intrinsic autonomy and will. You deserve to be a person, to feel alive, not just living. That is what our lives are for.

[lestappencrumblers]

i need more bottom oscar piastri stories… it changes your life and makes it better. i swear.

[questforyellow]

[pharawee]

As promised yesterday, Kongthup released the pilot teaser for their next BL Doctor's Mine starring Pak Varayu, Mon Taechin, Gun Thapanawat and Krismon Thanawat.

And tbh this seems like a very oldschool engineers/doctors uni BL but if I trust anyone with that, it's Kongthup my beloved. 🤞

[tofubutter27]

I want to spoil myself with constant sleep, unbound by reality.

[ghostofsnails]

so did you guys know theres this character called tristan vik disventure camp and

[mockiery]

Once Upon A Time 3x05 "Good Form" my beloved, I know the text and shots and scene transitions directly parallel Hook saving David's life to Killian's loss of his brother, and Killian's pained expressions of seeing David succumb more and more to the same poison Liam did. Killian's insistence David tell his family, give them the chance to say goodbye that Killian didnt have with his brother. Of Killian himself sayinf David reminded him of Liam, his canonical hero. I know the ep's dialogue speaks of Killian's want to be seen as a man of honor, to be that man of honor.

And I know Killian would absolutely have been a deflective ass with the "I didn't do it for you" to David about saving his life, bantering teasingly that he did it for Emma like David has accused all of his actions to get to and be at Neverland as - just a selfish attempt to have Emma.

And I know Killian's half-joking flirtation with Emma later with "Is that all your father's life is worth to you?" is in character bc for his entire presence on the show previously he has used compliments of himself and flirtatious remarks as deflection, jokes, and to be actively antagonistic/inflammatory/annoying/playful.

I know all of this. I know this is all perfectly in character and the nonspoken motives informed by the flashbacks to his past and his performance are deeply in character. But christ alive I wish that a tiny little line would've been added in somewhere that made it clear that his motivations in this ep and the Neverland arc as a whole weren't just about Emma bc it feels like the writers partially forgot this in 3a, despite the strength of this episode and all its parallels. They say characters' feelings out loud or allude to them more directly in dialogue all the time like pleeeeeeease, you could've made it a lil more obvious it's not solely bc of Emma like. i just wish it wasn't easily misread if u didn't read into it deeper with Killian's characterization, beyond his contradicting words

[electricentertainmentexhib]

the worst part about reading hdg fics is that theyre all such high quality that they take so long to make 😭 like please god i need three million chapters a day

[bedbabayka]

Today I rewatched the 2015 TV series Jekyll and Hyde...

And good God, watching "Jekyll and Hyde" 2015 after 9 years, I couldn't help feeling like I was watching a mashup from the 2007 TV series "Jekyll" and the comic "The Glass Scientists".

Has anyone from the J&H fandom watched this series? Do you like it?

[xcrimsonlunaticx]

sometimes I like to doodle wykkyd into ttg and make him the cvntiest background character that would react to the things around him and no one can stop me

[nikholascrow]

anyone got any good fluffy marauders or drarry fic recs? I’m having a bad day and I wanna compile a list for future bad days

ships I like: Rosekiller, wolfstar, jegulus, marylily, dorlene, partyvan? (I wanna read more of them because I haven’t read much but it seems interesting) Jegulily (will also except stuff without ship content)

Things I don’t like: excessive miscommunication, toxic rosekiller, Barty Peter and Lily hate, smut (vaguely implied stuff is fine just don’t want anything graphic), love triangles unless resolved with a polyclue

things I do like!!: hurt/comfort, domestic fluff, school era, muggle au, high school au, band au, coffee shop au, parent au, character’s parents being good parents, found family, fake dating (they don’t have to have everything or anything on this list in them that’s just for ideas)

If I get a good list going I’ll make a list of all the ones I read if anyone wants me to :]

[stevecoven]

Had a series of nights with really heavy rain this past week and it got me thinking again about Murph's crippling fear of rain (understandable in a world where it will boil your skin, but it's an extreme phobia even by witch standards)

And they never ever admit it out loud but Steve still knows about it, even when they're kids, because they aren't as good at hiding it as they think, and he never says a word because he knows that pointing it out would wound their pride far more than the fear wounds them. Plus, if he points it out they’ll probably get offended and stop staying at his house as much, and then how would he comfort them? So for years he's pretended to be scared of the rain too so that Murph can think they're being the brave protective one, and by comforting him they find a way to comfort themself without having to admit to any kind of weakness

Of course Steve is doing it out of love (and maybe the ulterior motive of having an excuse to get physically close to them) but in a backhanded way it’s kind of detrimental? It’s another way that Steve coddles Murph’s ego so that they don’t have to admit to any of their flaws or shortcomings, and in the process gives himself another (nonexistent) weakness for them to judge him over. He could so easily be the hero of this very trivial scenario but Murph can’t handle being saved. They have to be in control, all the time, even if that means bottling up their fear and losing sleep from panic attacks instead of just asking for a bit of comfort

They do know that he’s pretending, eventually. Steve is not a good liar. They don’t fully understand why he does it instead of just calling them out but it’s become such a routine and such a part of their coping mechanism that they don’t want to break the illusion, so they play along. And it works well enough until he’s not around anymore and they have to learn how to cope by themself again. Even in Murph’s darkest lowest points, even when they’re sworn enemies and they try to kill Steve on sight, they still miss him whenever it rains

[amethystina]

Hi there <3!

I hope you’re doing well! I was wondering if I could ask you a couple of questions from the fanfics ask game. Here:

13. How much planning do you do before writing?

18. What’s one of your favorite lines you’ve written in a fic?

19. Give us a small teaser from one of your WIPs.

22. Do you know how your fic will end before you start writing?

27. Is there a fic you were nervous to post/share? Why?

Happy New Year! May this year bring you success, happiness, and good health. Wishing you and your loved ones a prosperous and joyful 2024!

Hi there, darling! 💜

13. How much planning do you do before writing?

It varies. For shorter fics like oneshots I usually start when I have the concept and a sketchy grasp on what I want to accomplish with it. Maybe I have a couple of scenes in mind and the ending, but it's all pretty undefined still. Since the fic is meant to be short, I don't waste too much time on plotting and planning.

For longer fics, I try to be more careful with my planning. Though "planning" might not be the most accurate term. It sounds way more structured than what I'm actually doing, which is basically just thinking about the fic for a couple of days/weeks/months before finally deciding that I'm ready to start it. I rarely write anything down — like notes and such — but I do spend a little more time trying to figure out the structure and what events I want to occur, as well as the themes and plots to address. Since the story is meant to be longer, I need to make sure that the pacing and plot actually last long enough to make the story plausible. Or that it doesn't drag on forever, for that matter. Both would be undesirable.

But, just like with my endings, I like to keep things pretty open so while I always have a general idea of where I'm going, I try to leave gaps for changes and unexpected bursts of inspiration. This may seem like a bit of a risk but I seem to have an innate ability to gauge pacing and how to plot the actions and events to make the fics rewarding (except, perhaps, for Who Holds the Devil — which I have completely given up on at this point 🤣)

I'm lucky enough that I don't actually have to plan all that much and can still write engaging and well-plotted fics. It's very neat.

18. What’s one of your favourite lines you’ve written in a fic?

I've already gotten this question so I'm taking this as an opportunity to showcase another section of writing I'm very proud of. It's more than one line, I know, but cutting it off wouldn't do it justice. This is from Who Holds the Devil and is, quite possibly, one of the most poetic and pretentious pieces of writing I've ever written but, by god, do I love it:

Something within Ga On resonated with the darkness and secrets that hid at Yo Han's core. Like a constant pull, a taut thread of tension, tying them together. Drawing them closer, making them align. Like a steady hum of rightness that left ripples long after they parted, reverberating inside Ga On until his very essence seemed to change frequency.

Until the only thing that mattered was that resonance — to feel the faint, lingering echoes of Yo Han.

19. Give us a small teaser from one of your WIPs.

This one is honestly very tricky because I don't have much to show, I'm afraid. I have many WIPs, yes, but nothing written on the ones I think people are the most interested in. Or nothing finished at least.

But, uh, here's a snippet from that chapter of The Gentle Light that I'm slowly ambling my way through. Because some Yo Han is always nice, I guess?

___

It hadn't been like this before Ga On.

Back then, everything had been easy, Yo Han's goals crystal clear — the road ahead of him winding but carefully mapped. He'd known exactly where he was heading and how to get there. He'd maintained an iron grip on his emotions, never hesitating, never faltering. There had been no room for doubt, let alone gentleness or compassion. Everything had been under his control.

And now it wasn't.

Now, the sight of a couple of withering plants was enough to throw Yo Han off balance, his chest tight with concern. His emotions surged without his consent, the taste of guilt lingering on the back of his tongue, acrid and distracting.

Yo Han was no longer in control.

And he loathed that. Some part of him even loathed Ga On for having taken that control from him. For having such power over Yo Han — power Yo Han couldn't remember giving him. The thought of it made Yo Han's skin crawl, his instincts screaming at him to face the threat, to challenge it, to seize it, to destroy it.

But he couldn't, could he?

Because while Kim Ga On was a threat, he was also what Yo Han wanted most of all.

22. Do you know how your fic will end before you start writing?

Copy-pasted answer from a previous ask with the same question:

Nine times out of ten, yes. I don't always know the journey there or the exact details of the ending, but I always know what point I want to reach before I start. That said, I'm not against certain things changing as I go along and, more than once, I've tweaked the events of the ending because I ended up exploring something in the middle that I then had to tie into the ending.

So while I know the general idea of what I want, I keep it loose enough that I can change it as I go along. I would feel too hindered if I didn't. The one time I did try to plan it in detail to the very end was my first fanfic The Thunder Moon Chronicles because that's what I was told that I should do. But I found that around 60% of the last instalment had to be altered compared to my original plan, simply because the story had evolved in a way I couldn't predict when I first structured it.

That's not to say that I ever lost track or control of it — I am very much in control the entire time I write — but rather that new and better ideas kept popping up as I was writing it and I wasn't stupid enough to discard them just because they weren't in my original plan. Sometimes, the story just has to be allowed to evolve, otherwise it might feel stilted or stagnate (or at least that's the case for me).

27. Is there a fic you were nervous to post/share? Why?

The first fic in a new fandom is always nerve-wracking to post. Because I don't know the fandom, don't know if I've gotten the characters or tone right, don't know how it will be received, and don't know if I'll regret sharing it. I never have, though, so, by now, I know that anxiety is just me being silly. Usually, it passes once the first chapter is posted 😆

Sometimes, I also worry if people will even bother to read the fics, especially when they're too niche. I was pretty nervous when I started posting Autonomy, for example. Not only because it was my first fanfic in the Winteriron fandom, but also because it was a super long space opera and I had no idea if anyone would even be interested in it. The fandom was really small at the time so it felt like the story might be too specific. But, as always, I needn't have worried.

Another fic I was kind of nervous to post was Until Death Do Us Unite simply for how utterly unhinged it is. Like, seriously. Hallucinations? Gaslighting? Necrophilia? What even? I'm pretty sure I'm on some sort of list now, after having written that. And I did consider posting it from my secret AO3 account instead but, in the end, I decided I was too proud of the fic to hide it.

And yes, I have a secret AO3 account that I intended to use for fics I didn't want to post under the Amethystina screen name for one reason or another. But, so far, I haven't actually posted anything (so don't worry — there are no hidden fics out there that you've missed 😛). Partly because the fics I planned to post there were never finished, but also because I just... ended up talking myself into posting those that were finished on my main account instead.

We'll see if I ever end up using it. I admit that I have a guilty-pleasure ship that I kind of want to write for right now and, if I did, I might feel inclined to put it on that account instead. But I'm holding back simply because I don't have the time to start new fanfics, let alone in a completely different fandom. Especially a fandom that has enough lore, history, and world-building to fill literal books. Ain't nobody got time for that.

Anyhow! Thank you so much for the ask! I wish you the best possible 2025 as well! Please take care 💜

Fanfic Writer Asks

[depravedangelbaby]

getting along with my metamours makes me 💓💓💓

[t3acupz]

shhh don’t bother me i’m having ear orgasms