#guess i needed to vent a bit
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Welp, as I was googling some images for Yasammy week, I came across a thread and turns out one of my favorite Jurassic YouTubers is homophobic and a Yasammy hater…
(More ranting in the tags)
#Guess I’m not watching his content anymore#I literally don’t care that he’s a Christian just stop spreading misinformation#I guess he would hate me for liking girls now#I’m so tired#and just a bit pissed off ngl#homophobia tw#Stop saying Yasammy was forced#They’re one of the most natural ships I’ve seen in media#Once again they wouldn’t care if one was a boy#I’m not even gonna watch the entire video on it#But I scrolled through the comments and… yeah…#Not what I wanted to see after my work shift#Jwcc#jwct#rant#yasammy#I’m going to pour my heart and soul into Yasammy week#I’m feeling spiteful rn#jurassic world camp cretaceous#not gonna send any hate his way but I just needed a place to vent#Klayton Fioriti#I no longer recommend his content…#Common L homophobe#Legit give me a reason as to why Yasammy is poorly written other than “they’re both girls#think of the kids watching this”#☝️🤓#No one is turning your kids gay Karen#Cry about it#womp womp#im so freakin heated rn
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its so hard to watch time pass when things like careers and assignments exist. what do you mean im supposed to take that seriously
#I have an assignment that was due a week ago and I really really dont want to do it. I have to but i dont want to#im probably making it worse because my brain has built a wall around it so now i can’t do literally anything else until thats done. but#because I don’t want to do it I’m just kinda stuck. turns out this is what they meant when they said emotional regulation is part of#exec dysfunction.. I’ll have a thought like if I get a little bit of it done now i can get it over with. I can just submit something#and then not even 5 minutes later itll be like ugh but I have to draw all the assets out. I have to write things and make spreads ugh#and its just flopping between those two things. i hate it when ppl are like well how much time do you need to work on one thing#because BOY id love to know too. I’d love to know exactly when my brain wants to cooperate with me and work around that but I cant#even my period can’t decide when it wants to punch me in the stomach. which is kinda funny in the grand scheme of things but still#its so weird im just lying on my bed thinking abt all this like damn.. the time will pass anyways no matter what I decide to do.. damn….#if I submit that assignment now and take the L I literally won’t die. it’ll just be a deduction on an assignment nobody will ask me about#I know this but I’m still stressing myself about it so my thoughts aren’t really connecting to my body. weird#maybe its because Im having a hard time looking forward to things. theres definitely a lot I should be living for but I don’t really feel#a strong attachment to it I guess? it’s been like this for a while with holidays and meeting with friends so I just don’t#I kinda figured its because im pretty passionless and its more like passing interest. but it’s not very fun when it feels like I’m going to#be living distraction to distraction for the next 70 years or so lol#idk it kind of feels like slowly bleeding out. which is funny because I actually did experience blood loss this week#had a 30 minute nosebleed and literally could not stand. also it felt like someone was pinching the back of my brain which was interesting#yapping#does this count as vent#vent#Ive just been making an oc carrd and contemplate changing my blog header for the past 3 days honestly
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idk comfort characters moment ig
#i should REALLY stop doodling around and start doing more serious art#anyways this is not shipp art btw i dont shipp them for me they are like brothers best friends even#demoman#miss pauling#tf2#team fortress 2#kino art#idk i just feel like drawing sad demo i think he got too much going on in that little head full of beer and depression...#and well he just needs a hug and venting for real and not making it much of a joke#IDK I WAS JUST LISTENING TO MITSKI AND LAMP AND BOOM sad doodle i guess#i think for demo is a bit hard to find a good time to vent and well his team kinda sucks for that#same goes w miss p this two are full of shit in their heads so why not listening w each other and crying idk#its been a time since i have draw demo...#those fucking hands... i hate often times drawing hands#idk why i made tf2 sad art i think is funny but who cares cringe is free look at me doing lovey dovey and sad art haha laugh at this guy
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I bitch about my job a lot-as is my right, and I SHOULD get paid more, but all in all I don't really mind my work? Like I genuinely enjoy what it is that I do, and it's not like I'm ashamed of what I do BUT I've just learned over time to be apprehensive when I tell someone oh I work at a grocery store to expect, in REAL TIME, this person hold less respect for me. It's happened often enough that I just dislike the question like they go oh ok let me just reevaluate how I treat you real quick, which is not good :)
#like fuck me i guess#we as a society really need to re evaluate how we treat service retail and food workers :/#hmmm bit of a vent post sorry
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every time I come back home I experience new mental illnesses -_-
#its not even bad rn it's been nice#there's just so much horrible stuff underneath it all though and i think i just can't handle it#i think im just grieving my entire life every time I come here#and I've been just having these thoughts i guess intrusive thoughts about everyone dying tragically for the laste few days and it's#NOT FUCKING HELPING#idk it's nice we're all nice and both is happening but there's always some new info dropped on me that they just.#expect me to process by myself and i just end up crying at night all the time cause like what am i supposed to do#yeah sorry for venting again i was getting a bit better at not doing tht but i neeed it rn ToT#k i think i just need to go to sleep and maybe ill forget everything tomorrow or something idk#vent#vent post
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80 or so years of life really ain't enough can I have an elf lifespan instead please? Or at least a dwarf's... I need at least a couple hundred years... Oh and a new spine every 5 or so years, if that's not too much to ask. 3. 3 years actually. Yeah, a new spine every 2 years, and a lifespan of 350-750 years, that's all I want really.
#SORRY this is such a random thing to be posting about and I guess it's a vent post haha#I suppose I've just been feeling a lot of... dread and fear lately... especially in the late hours...#''Lately'' as in on and off for most of my life but *a lot* as of the past few months#Like#Oh it's weirdly embarrassing to talk about this here it's a tad personal uh **tw (discussions of) death#But do you ever just feel paralyzed by the knowledge that one day you'll be 40? Or 60? Or 80? If you're lucky!#I worry a lot about wasting my life#I worry a lot about dying an unpleasant death#Or a painful one#I suppose I've always been gerascophobic...#But finishing school and turning 23 and not having a job and having just a hard time with my physical health lately...#I haven't been great I guess#I just feel like time has been moving so quickly lately!!!#And I've been going nowhere.#:0 not to be too much of a bummer y'all I'm not like feeling horrible rn or anything but I do need to vent I think#Cause if not it just stays coiled up inside of me.#*gah* I should channel all of this energy into Glenn in my pirate fic lol#😌 he's insecure (in part) cause he feels old#🥲 ough and I don't feel amazing about that most recent chapter but I guess that's a whole new vent#working on some different stuff for a bit.#ANYWAYS#I hope whoever happens to be reading this is having a good night ✨️#oh or day if it's day for you lol
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Bruh, this is the third time i've been sick in the last 2 months. Viruses have to actually be targeting me at this point, cause this is just ridiculous (⊙_◎)
Like yeah I have a weaker immune system, but I'm literally not even going anywhere! I guess whatever traces my sister brings home from school (she's in HS) is enough. To make matters worse, my toddler brother is about to start pre-school. I sense so many more illnesses in my future O| ̄|_
#i'm really excited he's starting school though#he's practically my kid so that adds to it#i guess this is kind of a vent? rant? idk#i'm just really irritated#especially since everyone else is usually fine#or if they do get sick they are better within a day or two#and i'm out for like a week#and also to find out that i can't even take dayquil/nyquil anymore without severe pain (i have been taking it my whole life)#yeah this is a rant#feel free to ignore#i just need to complain a bit😅#i'm also gonna take a covid test cause this sore throat is worse than normal#i've only had 4 things that made it this bad and covid is one of them#cheese says stuff#rant
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Finally told my one (1) anti friend I'm proship now. I can post my OCs In Peace....
#duran muses#proshippers please interact#proship#profic#im a bit scared ngl#not because hes the type to actually harass people (hes staunchly opposed to it) (but hes very firm on proshippers needing therapy)#(to “cope in ways that dont hurt others”)#but because hes a good friend and if it wasnt for the shipping discourse we could totally continue being buddies#but now i dont know...#hes asleep rn (we have different timezones) so i guess I'll have to wait till the morning#to see what he thinks#i also explained than me realizing i was proship was the reason why my internet activity suddenly became so erratic:#i moved accounts in ig like 4 times and changed my pseudonym and used names. only so that former antishipper friends dont recognize me#or at least not easily#he's the only one ive kept a friendship with#hes my best buddy..... he's going to leave me aint he?#sad#vent
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this isn’t a new hot take of mine but it still blows my MIND that I’m in the minority in the kyman fandom when it comes to thinking of Kyle as a dom/top and Cartman as a sub/bottom. From what I’ve heard from veteran kymans the fandom barely had ANY sub Cartman truthers in its earlier years, and dom Cartman is still extremely popular to this day. There's so much art/fics where Kyle is like... a pain slut (????) or gagging for Cartman’s giant dick (?????????) but any time I see that stuff I get a visceral, skin-crawling HELL FUCKING NO 😬😬😬 reaction and have to back out immediately.
A mutual once told me something like “I can’t write Cartman as a dom, I think I’d break out in hives or something” and that’s p much exactly how I feel lmao 😆
y'all do you ig, but it's not my cup of tea at all.
#it's just. completely baffling to me#I've been seeing so much of it lately that it's making me second-guess my own thoughts on kyman#like how could I possibly be interpreting these characters so differently from other people I don't get it 🫠#and yeah i know not all tops are doms and not all bottoms are subs but that's how the majority of ppl depict it#but it's not even that they HAVE to have a dom/sub dynamic at all for it to seem ic to me#they can have an equal partnership without that D/s power exchange#blargh i'm just venting at this point#tbf ppl can do what they want in fandom and I don't have to engage with it but i'm so starving for kyman content the brainrot is too much#i used to not mind seeing sadist/dom/top cartman when I first dipped my toe into kyman#like it wasn't my fav but i wouldn't viscerally hate it#but now that i've gotten to know the characters so much more and even written my own fic i just. can't tolerate it anymore#maybe i need to take a break from kyman for a bit cuz this is making me irrationally annoyed and upset 🫠 blarrghhh#my post
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the masculine urge to take a saucepan off thr draining board and bash myself repeatedly over the head with it until I pass out and no longer have to experience feeling Bad 😍
#struggling to tolerate this one ngl its fucking dire this weekend. i just cant do this man#thr things i would fucking do for attention please. just one person to notice and care in the slighest i feel like im losing my fucking#mind out here how does every single person who has ever mattered to me in my lifr see me in distress and choose to ignore it or maybe they#dont even recognise im ij distress in the first place i dont know whats worse i dont think i hide it well at all im just so done#listen like ultimately its fucking fine. i will get myself through it like ive gotten myself through everything else in my fuckijg life#i dont even feel bad that often these days im doing so so so much better and its so much more tolerable to only have to deal with this#once or twice a week instead of it being a struggle every single day like i dont think i could go back to feeling like that again ever i#dont know how i managed to get througyh it before jesus fucking christ. but i can deal with it i can deal with this#ik ill feel fine tomorrow. its just thr fact im so desperately fucking alone with it that makes it so much worse than it has to be#i fucking hate repression i hate being so incapable of expressing myself that its easier for me to injure myself than it is to talk about#how i feel to anyone i hate being trapped in this stupif fucking torture labyrinth and not knowing how to get out of it and never being#given a single avenue anything to hold onto i hate having to do it alone every single fucking time and when i do try i just freeze out#entirely i cant form a coherent thought my brain enters total fucking shutdown pure static white noise fuzz and i dont know why please#its so unfair i dont think its that much to want a little comfort. just once just for someone to stay with me while i cry it doesnt have#to be more than that i just dont want to be alone like this i just want to feel safe around someone just close to someone just once#and well ill survive without it bc i always have i guess. so far at least. and there are many things im grateful for and i do in general#feel pretty okay my life is pretty good at times even. i feel so pathetic and stupid and ashamed for even feeling like this#but do i have to go my entire life without ever experiencing any kind of real intimacy with another person emotionally that is#i mean physical is nice too and they go hand in hand in some ways but i just want to feel seen and safe over anything.im tired#i feel like i try.but not hard enough i know its all my fault really but i dont know how to try any harder but nothing will ever change if#i dont i cant expect anyone to do anything if i cant rven communicate in thr first place. oh i dont want to think about it anymore#i have a headache from crhing and its not even 8pm ugh. okay. well it is what it is.#ill breathe until i calm down and then tidy up whatever i left in the kitchen and get my work stuff ready for tmr#and polish my boots maybe. and read and go to bed at 9:30 i think. and ill feel fine in the morning#my fault for thinking about it earlier i know i shouldve nipped it earlier on its such an easy spiral to fall into i need to get better#it happens. okay anyway. no cause for concern im good guys. weakly thumbs up at the camera all covered in blood#my period is late actually thats probably all this is lmao. makes sense thinking abt it#cant wait for it to finally start and all earthly desire to leave my body so i never experience pain again amen#.vent#ignore this sorry for being mentally ill im not even that mentally ill anymore so no excuse rly ummmm. bit embarrassing innit.
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my phone is poisoning me i need to put it down
#idk why my adhd suddenly magnified by like 1000x in the past week but i Need to fix myself until this semester is over#guys if im a little less active than usual on here its bc im trying to be a good girl and live my life#<- don’t worry though because it wont work and im terrible at that#but please cheer me on and remind me to get the hell off of this site when im on here 😭#i wanna practice good study habits and i need to study ahead early for my finals agghhh#it just sucks bc im so tired of taking notes man. why am i spending an hour typing shit i won’t remember about a topic i don’t need to know#anyway this is a bit of a vent post i guess#im just starting to feel worse catholic guilt over my tumblr addiction bc finals week
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#that vaginismus post got me feeling all fucked up tbh#and this is nothing against op. i have no issues with op here and i don't think they did anything wrong.#they were just sharing their own experience#but it's hard when you kinda feel like a freak of nature a little bit#like I've had people straight-up not believe me when I've told them nothing can go in my vagina (and it's almost like I don't have one)#so it was nice to read a post from someone with a similar experience in that regard#but like...again. nothing against op at all.#but it got me really triggered. just thinking at all about 'treatments' for it#like thinking about the idea that I'm supposedly not having sex 'correctly' because I can't have anything inside my vagina#(even though I have a lot of sex that I and my partners really enjoy)#and thinking about doctors and just...any framing of it as something that's not normal and would need to be 'treated'#while also at the same time knowing my inability to get a pap smear might be a genuine medical issue#but it just gets me so triggered to think about it#I'm sure all my weird gender stuff isn't helping either#though my vaginismus has been present long before I had any *idea* that I might not be cis#I'm sorry I'm venting. It's just hard I guess#like it doesn't feel like anything is wrong with me but it's hard to live in a world that assumes there must be#or that assumes people like me just don't exist and everyone with a pussy wants to and can be penetrated#personal#vaginismus
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hurt myself accidentally
swing broke and it was a blur
next thing I knew I was on my back
I couldn’t breathe and I was crawling around begging for help
neighbors heard me and helped me up
i’m in my bed right now and my back is killing me
it’s not broken it just hurts
hooray for more trauma ig/n srs/s
#vent#announcement#ig#idk it’s a medical emergency so i guess it would be#i might need a bit to recover
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ouuughg I'm trying to open up more and talk more about stuff here (since this is MY blog and I can do what I want) but i also want to interact with people around here more bc it can be fun sometimes ... but good god is it scary. it's like I have to fight myself every time v.v
#artemis rambles#delete later#<- maybe...#yeah I've been on tumblr for almost 10 years now probably and ive never posted much. just reblogged shit#idk. been using social media without the social aspect really skdjsjjs#but changing that and posting and commenting on people's stuff is sooooo hard. like i feel like i need to be hit over the head#or that people will hate me and find me annoying for everything i say. or that no one will care about anything i post#idk. depression and social anxiety ain't fun i guess. lead to me always feeling a bit lonely... even on all my fandom blogs#which have more followers than my main too... like i see other people in the fandom interacting and collabing and I'm just like... hm.#making friends is really hard for me and idk how to use social media correctly hehe#anyway rant over just needed to vent a little i guess
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What If I gave up on art 😎?
#sorry this is my new favorite emoji 😎#ive been trying to render my latest drawing for literally hours and have gotten absolutely nowhere#im going crazy#i think i just need to take a break for a moment#i have such a clear vision and yet i can't do it AURGGGGHH#crying and sobbing#ren won't shut up#i think i need to tweak the anatomy and pose a wee bit to something im a little more comfortable with#ive tried to just do normal line art FOUR TIMES already#guys help this isn't a funny prank anymore god let me access my skills (that i dont really have but want to manifest anyway)#← high expectations for myself even though i know i dont do the practice to get better#grr#rambling#vent#ish i guess
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Let’s put it all on the line, see who’s victorious (Patreon)
#Doodles#Just Desserts#Villainsona#IRL vent stuff in the tags be warned#I've mentioned offhand that Kaiein is inspired by various sources but overall mostly on one person#And I've been very low contact with that person for years now - but I'm going to meet with them in the near future#I'm nervous as you can imagine haha#But I'd like it infinitely more to have to change Kaiein than to have him reinforced so I'm trying to feel hopeful as well#Either way I'm prepared. Either I get to do some rewriting or I have a very well-worn established outlet#Haha - it's a bit funny actually since there's no one-to-one translation but there is a kind of asymmetrical equivalence going on here#I pretty much never include my family in my sonas' stories - which is double funny since I love being an older sibling so much lol#That aspect rarely makes it into my sonas! I guess I feel like it's not my place to make characters for my loved ones lol#But IRL they're my support system <3 I'm in good hands and I trust them to have my back with what I need to face#And Charm has her wings! The Staff! She has something to rely on that make her more capable and confident!#It's not The Same Thing but it's how it feels ♥ The power of love and friendship!! It makes me stronger!!#And that's what makes the difference between Charm as a villain and a Hero :)#I used her TVAU outfit here - or one of the temps anyway :P - but honestly this is probably how S2 would go down hehe <3#You're no match for Charm when she knows she's loved!! She'll fight you to full defeat!#I wonder how he'd react#Guess I'll find out real soon#Wish me luck
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