#growing up lonely

[lesbivampires]

Growing up lesbian, without even having the word to understand it yet and know why you were so odd & different, was desperately trying to imitate the mannerisms of the girls around you hoping to be accepted socially and be normal but having them look at you in disgust and turn away every time you tried to reach out

[poet-by-the-lake]

As someone who grow up with no friends and now has a few…it’s kind of weird?

Like I’m genuinely surprised every time they show that they enjoy my presence and it’s not even a low self esteem thing it’s just…pleasantly surprising. Like I am capable of receiving love which is pretty neat.

I like friends, they’re cool.

[draconym]

I know this is the Anti Small Talk Website but small talk is one of the most effective social glues out there for getting to know people and forming friendships with them.

When I was just starting out at a job right after college I had a coworker who I thought was the nicest person alive and after a few weeks I realized this was just because she consistently asked other people things like, "How ya doing? Whatcha having for lunch? Got any weekend plans? Seen any good movies lately?" instead of politely ignoring everyone around her.

[hinamie]

I'll give them shelter like you've done for me

[chloesimaginationthings]

Best friends who hate each other core

YES EXACTLY,, tbh it’s like if an 80s bully and 2010s scene kid became friends

[aardvaark]

what you have to understand about sophie devereaux is that despite how she might first come across, she is deeply uncool. she is a theater kid and she’s also really, really bad at theater. she mentions her high school angst while beating the shit out of an assassin. she loves crime so so much. she thinks of life in terms of noir movie tropes. she struggles in all relationships that aren’t for grifting purposes. as a teenage girl she had a poster of a flight hijacker over her bed.

[daily-beau]

Day 16: My saviour

[theghostofashton]

one of the reasons i love this show so much is because it always refuses to put people into boxes. enzo did some shitty things that likely harmed people but he was also someone that raised tk while his dad was gone throughout his childhood. owen was absent and struggling with his own trauma for years but also saved tk in his darkest moments. neither of them are wholly good or wholly bad and underneath the "competition" between them is the reality that people aren't so easily categorized. they do some great things and some shitty things and both have to coexist

[goldensunset]

“He was lonely…”

“He was trying to destroy everything around him! That is not the same as a lonely child! We can’t allow that!”

“The power of the mask made him do it. It was too much for him to handle.”

[tea-cat-arts]

I simply think this fandom doesn't give Wei Wuxian enough credit for the various ways in which he saved Lan Wangji

[yashley]

Did she keep you trapped?

[ruporas]

soft (and some bittersweet)

[altocat]

i like to think that Sephiroth uses a lot of big Fancy words a lot

Sephiroth, in my mind, is extremely eloquent and rarely ever curses. He doesn't really use much slang either. He can be blunt and to the point, but his education under Hojo has shaped him into a person with an incredibly lavish vocabulary. Which tends to alienate him a lot from other people.

He's definitely one of those kids who was fed a LOT of SAT words growing up and now he unconsciously uses them in casual conversation despite no one actually knowing what he's saying. They just think he's being stuffy, showing off. Which only depresses Sephiroth even more. He can't help that he talks like a book. It's how he was molded. And the perplexed reactions he receives only reaffirms his discomfort in talking to people, or opening up in general. He's slightly relieved when Genesis enters the scene, as Genesis' language is even more flowery than his own.

[elvisqueso]

Pocahontas refusing to confide in Nakoma.

Pocahontas (1995)

rambling lil' meta under the cut

i've been thinking a lot about pocahontas's relationship with nakoma and what kind of friends they really are in the context of the film. when we meet them both, pocahontas is elevated and nakoma is in a boat far below her, shouting up to reach her. i think nakoma is always reaching for pocahontas and pocahontas will only reach back sometimes. it's a pretty unbalanced friendship, when you look at it, and i wonder why nakoma remains the main point of contact in the community for pocahontas besides her father. perhaps it's because they're similar ages. maybe they're childhood friends who just got so used to each other that the one may take the other for granted.

pocahontas never confides in nakoma, and you gotta wonder why. even their first interaction has pocahontas demurring when she answers that she was up on the cliff thinking. thinking about what? She doesn't say, but she doesn't refute nakoma's assumptions.

and nakoma...what does she get out of this friendship? maybe she's just used to trailing after pocahontas this way, maybe she just doesn't have another friend, or she thinks pocahontas needs her.

nakoma is sort of a foil for thomas, who trails after john smith like a starry-eyed fanboy with an intense para-social relationship perspective. nakoma also is the active participant in the friendship, not pocahontas. nakoma fills in the gaps of their relationship with assumptions and guesswork, because pocahontas is so reticent, so hesitant to share of herself that nakoma Has to. and when pocahontas's seclusion goes too far, when she fails to confide in nakoma some of the most essential elements of what she intends, nakoma has to fill in the gaps again. and when she does it's Not Good, and her solution is to send their strongest warrior (a man with affection for pocahontas, who might keep her secrets if she needs him to) to try and save her friend. and then it all blows up in their faces and a man lies dead in the water for it.

every relationship in the movie is so tragic like brO—

[eatanorange]

Can I share a fear rq? can I share a fear with y'all? Can I tell you what I witness and what it manifests in to? Will it manifest the entity looming in the darkest parts of my head? Will you blame me for going insane or will you find some sort of sick, disorienting beauty in my destruction, in my fusing with said entity? Will I still be alone then? Will I be known, then? Will it sicken you to see how full of love I am and how colored by distrust it is? Will you look away when the hand you reach for turns to a blade and cuts yours off, or will you pull back too? Did you already have that prosthetic, there? Is that what you call self preservation?

[ninjautizm]

Today in spinjitsu brothers; Garm witnesses his future and becomes traumatized and anxious about the thought of becoming a lonely monster :(