#growing in pain

[n1ghtwh1sp3r]

When I think back to my adolescence, there’s a strange feeling that washes over me: a mix of relief and nostalgia. It was a difficult, suffocating time when it seemed like the only way out was to slip through the smoke of cigarettes or hide in the shadows of drugs that promised a brief moment of peace. And then there were the relationships. Toxic relationships that I thought were love back then, but now I see them for what they really were: traps. We clung to anyone because being alone was terrifying, and the idea of facing our demons by ourselves felt unbearable.

I remember how badly I wanted to escape, to run away from a reality that didn’t feel like mine. It was as if everything around me was collapsing, and I was standing there, lost among the wreckage. I didn’t know how to rebuild myself, so I tried not to think, drowning out the noise in confusion.

And yet, now, looking back, there’s a part of me that smiles. Not because it was easy, not because I’d want to relive it, but because somehow it made me who I am today. Those dark days, those moments when I thought I’d lose myself forever, taught me resilience. They showed me boundaries I should never cross, even though I learned the hard way.

There’s a strange nostalgia in all of it, as if even the pain has a place in the past, as if that chaos, that desire for self-destruction, was part of a path I had to walk. It’s not a happy nostalgia, but the kind that makes you appreciate every free breath you take now. Now that I’m an adult, I feel relieved. I’ve left behind the monsters that used to chase me, but I watch them from afar, like old friends I no longer need to see.

I’ve found peace, but I haven’t forgotten the storm.

[zillychu]

what if his suit WASN'T shrink wrapped

[parisoonic]

Demo has had many careers - tattoo artist isn't one of them.

[spokespeaksspeccs]

I feel so weak,

I know how to keep going but acceptance is hurting me,

I know I have to trust my truth but I don’t want to

It hurts

I want to grow from the pain but man does it hurt

I feel so drained and empty

So many losses follow

I miss the people I’ll never see again

And I miss the ones I can’t see again

[seventeendeer]

ppl are too quick to point to laios' disability as the reason his friends think he's a freak sometimes. so many instances of laios getting yelled at are, in my eyes, a case of "this guy had to emotionally mature very early in order to be there for his little sister" combined with "much older friends who never had to learn to manage their own emotions to the same degree"

a lot of the time he's right about needing to be more direct/deal with things in a way that may seem scary/needing to put your gut reaction aside. he tries not to make his friends uncomfortable and he puts up with a lot because he's trying to keep the peace, but he also pushes the others out of their comfort zones purposefully to try to get them to think more constructively. everyone else in the party is prone to acting on their gut instincts and avoiding uncomfortable situations even when facing them head-on is very much necessary. part of what makes laios such a great leader is the fact that he knows from experience how to put his own feelings aside to help someone else grow.

yes, he does make a lot of social blunders by accident and he does struggle to connect with others, but not all of his positive influence on others is accidental or "despite" making people uncomfortable. a lot of the time, I think it's clear he knows exactly what he's doing and he's trying to help the people around him process emotions in a healthy way as they all go through some truly harrowing shit. all the main characters support each other as well as they can with their unique emotional skillsets. laios' skillset just happens to be "gently talk child into eating her vegetables"

[ashdoodle-s]

Between two worlds

[mellosdrawings]

It's "bully Azul" time !!

(Og post here)

[blasphemousclaw]

he doesn’t like to talk about it

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Lan Wangji goes to Lotus Pier (No relation to the AU of the same name)

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[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

finally at that age where i'm thinking i should get a tattoo. not bc i feel strongly about it, just seems like a waste not to. i've got so much skin i'm not using

[saltair-and-webweaves]

Was I made from a broken mold?

@camaceall/growing sideways, noah kahan/calling a wolf a wolf, kaveh akbar/soon you'll get better, taylor swift/the last words of a shooting star, mitski/unknown/unknown/ @ryebreadgf/@/geloyconcepcion on instagram/god must hate me, catie turner/words from @/simply.simoney on instagram/I can't breath, bea miller/@holyaches on twitter/she used to be mine, sara bareilles/soon you'll get better, taylor swift/idontwannabeyouanymore, billie eilish

[qrowscant]

CHILDHOOD HOMES (and why we hate them): After over a decade, you return home to find it unchanged.

A short, interactive horror story, and my first attempt at making something in Twine. Inspired by Anatomy, House of Leaves, and my deep hatred for my own childhood home! Full trigger list included on the itch.io page.

Play here!

[cubbihue]

What are a lot of the main consequences for a kid becoming a fairy? And does Timmy ever miss his bio parents or his human friends?

Aside from his inability to visit the Human Realm? There are Eight Major Consequences to becoming a Fairy. At least, 8 that Timmy has discovered.

The first major consequence are Magic Adjustments. Human Children's small bodies need to handle at least a Pixies' worth of magic output. Slow prolonged exposure to Fairyworld is matched with an increase in consumed Magic.

This is not an issue for Fairies, born and raised within Fairyworld, but for outsiders its a lot like an itch you cannot scratch. An irritation that won't go away until the transformation's complete, or the body adjusts in full.

Timmy used to deal with frequent painful growths in his magic. He finds that exploding objects with his magic helps alleviate the pain somewhat. Or doing one of Jorgen's harsher military courses.

Bitties Series: [Start] > [Previous] > [Next]

[starry-bi-sky]

my martha knight au in a nutshell:

Danny/Martha: see up here?

Danny/Martha: *taps skull*

Danny/Martha: intense psychological damage

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Danny/Martha: *upon finding out she's pregnant*

Danny/Martha: oh my god i cant be a mom, I'm fifteen and homeless--

Danny/Martha: im going to be a terrible mother--

Danny/Martha: i live in a cAR--

Danny/Martha: what if the baby inherits my powers? Oh no--

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Danny/Martha post giving birth: i've only had Bruce for a minute and a half but if anything were to happen to him i won't even need to fuse with Vlad, I'm razing this goddamn planet to the ground myself

Danny, to Baby Bruce: you are the last remaining thread of my sanity. I'm going to give you the world :)

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Danny/Martha prior to getting pregnant: Fuck it, if everything in my life has led to this moment, i'm allowed to make one stupid decision. I'm getting drunk and getting laid

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Danny/Martha while Bruce was a toddler: i swear to fucking god i am going to kill the next person who talks to me--

Bruce: hi mommy!! i brought you something!!!

Danny/Martha, immediately flipping on a dime: hi baby!! what do you have?

Bruce, a weird child like his mother: a spider :)

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Danny/Martha, talking to Falcone after he made an unsavory comment at her and Bruce: If you ever come near me or my son again, I will dig up your shithead father's corpse and make you eat his skin.

Danny/Martha: do you understand me

Falcone:... crystal, ma'am

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Danny/Martha new in Gotham: *getting mugged*

Danny/Martha: *grabs man's arm*

Danny/Martha: I AM GOING TO BREAK YOU IN HALF LIKE A TWIG, FUCK BOY, DO YOU HEAR THE WORDS COMING OUT OF MY MOUTH--

(she then proceeds to terrorize Gotham's night life for the next extended period of time, mostly unintentionally)

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Danny/Martha: Danny Fenton?? No. you must be mistaken, my name is Martha Knight.

Danny/Martha: this here is my littlest knight, Bruce.

Danny/Martha: I made him all by myself :]

[d0not-disturb]

Art: @d0not-disturb (me)

Writing: @thathermitweirdo

Designs: @katiky-png

[eccentricmya]

The Valar's mistake did not lie in seeing a possibility of good in Melkor. Rather, their mistake lay in not seeing the equal possibility of him remaining evil.