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bellinghamszn · 9 months ago

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Can you write a jude fic that is angs

Y/n is so loving and always taking care of jude and he takes her for granted.

He is really stressed and becomes hurtful, when she achieved something in University or something, he forgets about it and makes her accomplishment feel small and belittles it compared to his. She really feels hurt and betrayed as she is always there for him.

Something along those lines but can you make sure he grovels and begs for forgiveness I want angst but also a happy ending.

-ˋˏ✄┈bellinghamszn writes!

summary: y/n has an important graduation ceremony which jude fails to attend and finds it hard to accept his half-baked apology when her feelings are still hurt and raw.

pairings: jude bellingham x fem reader

wc: 2.1k

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my leg anxiously bounces against the floor as my eyes scan the packed room for his face but through the mass amount of people it was hard to see anything.

i can't find him anywhere and my patience is slowly disappearing, he was nowhere to be found.

anger began to seep through my veins as time passed, he promised he would be here for the biggest event in my life, promised to be at my graduation yet he never showed up.

he was the only person i wanted to share this moment with, my family, friends… no one mattered as much as he did.

my breath began to rise in speed as my anger grew, my eyes were set on each person in the crowd hoping he would be hiding somewhere, hoping he just got caught up somewhere, but all my hopes were destroyed by my own thoughts as he was truly not here, not where he was supposed to be.

i felt the air get sucked out of my lungs as they called my name. the crowd cheered as i slowly got up and walked on stage, my eyes were still scanning the room for him as i neared the podium.

with the crowd's eyes firmly planted on me my nerves started to kick in, my heart felt like it was going to jump out of my chest, my breathing was shaky, and my legs felt like they were going to give out on me at any second. but i was determined to keep going for this moment was too important not to, as i approached the podium my eyes darted to the audience once again hoping this time i would see him.

but it seemed the universe had other plans for me that day as all i saw was a sea of unfamiliar faces staring at me. for a moment i forgot why i had made it this far, the reason for my hard work the reason for my struggles and the reason for my accomplishments as i felt all my achievements mean less without him there to see them i felt lost and defeated as a small tear began to roll down my cheek.

but i was quickly snapped back to reality as the person behind the podium told me that i needed to walk to get my diploma, i felt overwhelmed with frustration as i walked across the stage trying not to let anyone see how truly upset i was by him not being there.

as i reached the podium and took my diploma i felt a rush of emotions, frustration, sadness, anger and disappointment all ran through my mind.

i couldn't believe he had not shown up, he promised me he would be there and here i was standing in front of a crowd of people without the one person i truly wanted to share this moment with.

my legs felt shaky, my breath felt shallow and my heart felt like it was going to explode, but i forced myself to keep smiling and posing for pictures as i wanted to keep up the happy facade for the audience.

the ceremony was now over and i made my way home i couldn't help but feel bitter about his absence but as i opened the door i saw a familiar figure sitting on the couch and my heart stopped, i didn't know how to approach the situation. when he spotted my graduation hat his jaw dropped in shock, he couldn't believe i had actually graduated or maybe that he had actually missed it.

i wasn't sure how i should react to his reaction, my emotions were all over the place, part of me wanted to hug him and hold onto him tight but part of me wanted to scream and shout at him for being so insensitive and making me feel like i was unimportant i wanted to ask him why he hadn't come to my graduation but i didn't know if i could handle a reply i didn't like so i stayed silent.

but once he saw the tears starting to stream down my cheeks he rushed over and immediately wrapped his arms around me giving me the tightest and warmest hug he could manage as he mumbled an apology "i'm so sorry i forgot" he said as he pulled away, but his words just didn't mean anything to me i was still too upset i wanted to be mad but his embrace felt too comforting.

without warning i pushed him away angrily as i shouted "forgot what? you promised you would be there"

"i know i know but i got caught up in something important" he said in a rush as he tried to explain but i wasn't having it i was too angry to listen to him.

i snapped back "something important? like what? was it more important than my graduation?"

"i mean no but-" he started to explain as he realized that maybe that excuse wasn't the best idea. "but you know you don't need me to celebrate" he said as if he was giving me permission to enjoy it without him.

"no jude, i want to know what is more important for you to miss my graduation" i insisted.

he stayed silent for a moment as he thought of how to explain his neglect to me, he sighed before finally speaking up "i just came back from training and i lost track of time"

his answer only made me more heated as i turned away from him "lost track of time? how do you lose track of time when you know full well that this event has been planned for months" i said as i angrily stalked away from him. "i've always gone to your matches, your events, everything! but you can't come to my graduation?"

my face twisted into an angry scowl as i continued my rant "yeah your football career is so important but what you seem to forget is that this is important too! this graduation was important to me and you chose not to be there, you couldn't leave some "important" training for one day for me? for one day you couldn't put your stupid football career to the side and show up for me?"

"you know it's not that simple" he said in a tone that was clearly trying to show compassion although it was no use in calming me down "you know how important football is to me, there's a big game coming up and i had to make sure i was prepared"

"big game? this is my graduation! i worked my ass off for 4 years and you're still too self-absorbed to see how important this was to me?" i said angrily as my chest started to rise and fall with my angry breathes i needed him to understand how badly he hurt me.

"look i'm sorry okay" he said in a frantic tone as he tried to grab my arm to pull me toward him but i tore myself from his grasp and shook my head.

"no you're not sorry, you're just sorry you got called out on it" i said angrily as i felt tears start to well up in my eyes again.

"please don't cry" he said nervously as he tried to reach his hands out to hug me "i do care and i'm genuinely sorry i didn't show up and i'm sorry you're hurt i just-" but i would not let his apology distract me from the fact that he had hurt me, my feelings were still real and they were still valid.

"no you don't get to just apologize and forget everything that happened" i said forcefully through my teeth as i turned away from him and headed towards the stairs, slamming the hat that i had been gripping on the floor. i didn't plan on spending another minute in his presence.

"wait, where are you going?" he called out behind me as i stormed upstairs, his desperate pleas falling on deaf ears as i slammed the bedroom door behind me.

i couldn't believe that he had taken his football game over my graduation and i didn't intend to spend another minute near him.

i threw myself onto my bed, exhausted from all the emotions that had flooded through me that day. it had been a long tiring day and all i wanted was to be alone and to forget about what had happened today. to forget that he had broken his promise and forgotten all about me.

not giving me a minute to breathe, his knocks echoed through the room. "can i come in?" he said cautiously as he waited for me to reply. i stayed silent as i listened to his gentle knocks but part of me wanted to see him. i wanted to hear what he had to say and part of me wanted him to hold me close while i cried.

his knocks continued, this time they were more persistent as if he was getting impatient with my silence.

tears were still streaming down my cheeks as I lay on the bed I didn't know what to say to him if I tried to speak I would probably just break down into a mess of sobs. instead, I just sat in silence, waiting silently for him to go away but the knocks continued. maybe he wouldn't leave until he saw my face.

i hesitantly twisted the lock, letting him enter. he rushed to my side as he spotted the tears on my face, his palms resting on my face as he stole a quick peck. "i'm taking you out, c'mon" his thumb wiped my tears and his eyebrows were knitted in guilt.

as he pulled me out of bed i felt too weak to put up a fight, the emotional exhaustion from the day had taken over but some part of me was disappointed in myself for giving in so easily.

"i don't wanna go" i whimpered, wiping my eyes with my wrist.

"please i need to make it up to you" he said as he gently grabbed my wrist, pulling me out of the room.

"i'm too tired" i muttered through my sobs. "jude please"

"just come out with me for a minute, i promise i'll make it worth your while" he said gently as he squeezed my wrist in his hand. my heart felt heavy in my chest as he pulled me along down the hallway.

"my makeup is ruined and so is my mood, i just don't want to go"

he sighed as tears continued to stream down my face "c'mon" he said softly as he reached for my face wiping my tears with his thumb. "we're just going to get fresh air and then i'll bring you right back home promise"

"fresh air? i want to be alone" i muttered as i fought back tears and tried to break free from his grip but he held fast.

his breath hitched as he paused to collect himself "i know i haven't been the most supportive boyfriend lately and that my football career is definitely consuming a lot of my time but i swear i plan on doing better, please just do this one thing for me i promise i'll make it up to you"

before i realized it, the words came tumbling from my mouth and i replied "fine just a quick walk"

he guided me out of the house into the quiet street after i excused myself to the bathroom to wipe my melting makeup off and only had fake eyelashes on.

his hand slipped in mine as he began explaining, admitting his faults and allowing the both of us to talk it out.

as he spoke the pain of my graduation lessened slightly as his words washed over me. i wasn't sure I was ready to forgive him yet but the idea of spending some time alone with him helped to make the hurt feel a little less overwhelming.

his words helped me start to forgive him which was a small victory for the both of us. we walked through the neighborhood for a little bit as he continued to explain himself, his fingers intertwined with mine as he spoke genuinely.

we both ended up getting something to eat to celebrate.

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