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I'm thinking abt that pretty fall leaves embroidery pattern post and about how like... it is categorically a repost, it's a reupload. right? a thing that is generally disliked. but because it's credited, it's genuinely boosting the artist in question. and it could ALWAYS be like this. reposting content could ALWAYS be a symbiotic relationship, but because sourcing back to the original creator of something is so uncommon, it's just easier to ask people not to repost it at all. and people still don't understand the difference. or they'll go to the effort of cropping out usernames/signatures to repost something, which is More Effort than literally crediting the creator of something you liked enough to want to repost. Like. I literally don't actually care if my own shit gets reposted, you have to understand. I just don't want it STOLEN. But "do not repost" is easier to write on my art than "you can repost this, but don't alter the image/remove my signature, don't you dare write 'credit goes to the artist' because that is not credit, please link back to my original post or someplace that you can actually find me. please use an actual link/url instead of writing a non-clickable link of my username, because making it text instead of a clickable link cuts the number of people who will go to the effort of visiting my own page in Half." All those aggregate themed accounts, those fuckin annoying as hell instagrams and facebook groups that are like "body positive art we love wamen š hashtag feminism" and then MASS-STEAL plus sized art created by women, if pages like these that always go and steal my older self-portraits and other works... If they just put a link to my prints of those pieces in the text of those posts, or, fuck, my commission info page? I would literally be living on the moon right now. I would have a house on the moon
#there is actually nothing morally wrong with running an account that just reuploads ppl's artwork or their jokes or their cosplays#if you just put a VISIBLE LINK in the description of your post with proper credit then it would be beneficial for everyone#because you can get your little clout or whatever it is you want by putting a bunch of same-category content on a page#but nobody's getting fucked over because if your post blows up then people just get FUNNELED to the source#because it's placed so plainly where everyone can see it#and yeah it's better to retweet or reblog but#on the rare occasion that I see my shit reuploaded on tumblr WHICH IS WEIRD BC I MAKE MY OWN POSTS HERE but anyway#someone making their own post where they upload my stuff. and it's always the floral self portraits so let's say it's a post with all those#if I scroll to the bottom and it says like. Artwork by Serglesinner on Twitter <-- clickable link [Sergle's Prints] <-- clickable link#to my etsy#I'm like oh okay and all the anger leaves my body and I'm like ah I see. and I toss the rock aside#like oh okay so you actually care that a person made these pieces. Instead of posting the caption ''women <3'' or smth#like you've GOTTA die if you do that. but if you just link back#or if you go to the effort of writing like a description with a BLURB? like it's a damn museum. like a light paragraph of info#about what the art is and who made it and their links#I am literally sucking you in a strange and peculiar manner. that is extremely helpful#and maybe other artists don't want this AT ALL and they'd rather people not reupload even if it is credited#but I feeeeeeeeel. like 99% of the time this would solve the issue#reposters could genuinely be helping ppl. sometimes the repost gets more traction than the real thing#as long as it credits the creator then that's an okay thing to happen!#that can land somebody a sale! a commission order! a new fan! A JOB#A JOB!!!!!!!!!!#sergle.txt#I didn't write this eloquently AT ALL what the fuck ever barkbarkbarkbark
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Sidney: What were you thinking? Robin: It wasnāt my fault. Sidney: Debateable. You shouldnāt take them with you if youāre not going to keep an eye on them. Robin: I donāt have a million eyes! Oscar: Ma. Sidney: Well. Oscar: Youāre looking at this all wrong, anyway-.. Byrd, whatāre we not gonna do in future? Byrd: Uhhhhh-.. handstands on wobbly fences? Courtney: Robin? Robin: Let Byrd climb on shitty fences. Oscar: See? Sidney: [mutters] Give me strength. Wren: What do you need strength for? Sidney: Your fatherās unquenchable thirst for chaos. Oscar: You need to relax every now nā then, you might actually enjoy yourself for once. Sidney: Bah, you sound like Ally. Alton: Hm-.. what? Sidney: Nothing-.. whereās the salad? Oscar: Whatās done is done-.. letās just agree to steer clear of the hospital for a while, okay guys? Iām sick of the place. Robin: Maybe we could get a memberās card. Ava: I want to go! Oscar: Noooo, you donāt. Ava: How do you know what I want?! Sidney: Ask Robin to watch you for a day, youāll be there in no time. Oscar: Ignore your grandma-.. sheās just an expert at putting the salt in Salton. Alton: I still donāt understand that jokeā¦
#ts4#sims 4#simblr#ts4 story#sims story#forever in between#fib#oscar finch#courtney finch#robin finch#wren finch#byrd finch#ava finch#sidney finch#alton finch#she's salty because she cares#š#this wasn't even gonna be a scene but the brain rot took over when salton came for dinner so here we are#lmao#safe to say that sid doesn't agree with oskie's parenting style but he doesn't wanna be a helicopter parent u kno#kids have gotta fuck up to learn n whatnot#i think he semi wants to be pissed off but a) he's not gonna do that in front of sid n give her the satisfaction lol#and b) he's prettyyyy sure lessons were learnt here so maybe they'll just let it slide#THIS time neway#i think they're being a lil soft truth be told but alas.. he wants to do the opposite of what he had so....#we'll see how it goes ig#š
#ok am shutting up now
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ābilly hargrove wouldnāt bottomā i know him better than you
#he told me himself#essentially saying heās too masculine to bottom is so crazy what are we doing here#me when iām neil hargrove and in denial that my son is gay#preferences are great but this is something else entirely#bottom billy bottom steve who cares itās never so serious you gotta get that weird about it#billy steve switching so real to me i donāt care#theyāre getting crazy with it whichever way they can#billy hargrove#ickyspeaks
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Legends of Tomorrow not getting a renewal is my villain origin story. Anyway... some warmup doodles of Spooner from today and yesterday!
little bonus: They have a lot in common actually. (I have a type)
#dcs legends of tomorrow#legends of tomorrow#spooner cruz#gary green#fan art#kinji takigawa#he's here too lol#i miss her and the team every day#think about what they took from us every week lol#I gotta hand it to legends though for saying like...#'we have a robot character... and an alien character... but we're gonna make the horrible little cowgirl asexual'#that was so cool of them lmao lookit her go!#toku fans should watch legends of tomorrow actually#this show was so sincere with what it was doing i miss it#start at season 4...#I still adore seasons 1-3 but i know some folks don't care for that cw funk like i do lol#they were just having fun fun fun
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Also hey I wanna say too that pretty much every single headcanon ever is valid. Even if they arenāt popular, even if they go against canon, even if they change on the regular and make for a throughly transformative work.
I think fandom is supposed to be fun and honestly it just acts like a toybox of sorts? With all these malleable characters as action figures that you play with as you like. If you wanna make them bigger or smaller or change their species or what they present as or how they sound or even act - you can! You can and you should!
Have fun, because youāll inevitably find others who like what you do too. And even if you donāt, as long as you like it, then thatās what matters.
#this is something Iām saying partially to myself too#personally I have a huge problem of wanting to ājustifyā my headcanons#where I do my damndest to āproveā that what I headcanon is possible in canon#because it personally makes me feel much better and less anxious#but itās something I gotta move past because sometimes rule of fun is better than canon justification#I still personally prefer to keep close to canon or within the realm of canon for my works#but I think Iāll stop trying to justify every little thing and just have a little more fun with it#but yeah saying right now that even if itās not my personal cup of tea or something I headcanon myself#I will still fight for peopleās right to have fun with these toy box action figures#is there an argument to be made of āat some point these characters just become OCsā? yeah butā¦who cares?#idk this was mostly something for myself to keep in mind but in light of recent events#I think Iāll post it too#also wanna say - donāt attack others for their headcanons#if you donāt like it then block them#remember that there are real people here that you could hurt okay?#the way they connect with a character will inevitably be different than you
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I get why JimCurly is popular cause hot yaoi and Jimmy is the MC but it's annoying how Curlya gets villainized as some ungodly immoral ship when JimCurly is far worse in terms of morality. In my opinion, Anya and Curly have the most interesting connection/relationship in the story. There's so much potential for depth, angst, understanding, resentment (on both sides), healing, etc. between them. Easily my favorite duo in the game to study with my microscope lol
#also....maybe I'll get hate for saying it lol but JimCurly is far more problematic than Curlya could ever be#On the scale of problematic I place JimCurly on par if not a little below Jimmy/Anya#and when I say little I mean like barely underneath Jimmy/Anya lol that shit is fucked up#But like that doesn't really matter cause I don't care what people ship fr I just wish people were chill about this stuff#but I do want to see more Curlya both platonic and romantic because I love exploring their relationship#There's so much between them that we don't see and I'm deeply fascinated by it#I say all this as my likes on here Twitter and Bluesky are full of JimCurly art#what can I say the boys are hot as fuck lmao I like men who weightlift#also something about how the fandom has focused more on Jimmy and Curly's relationship as opposed to Anya's story hmmm#could be something there....that might be not so great.....but whatever#mouthwashing#curly mouthwashing#anya mouthwashing#also the devs clearly like Curlya so idk some of yall gotta chill lol#the only time I visibly turn away from JimCurly in disgust is if they make Curly still chill or affectionate with Jimmy post crash#yall are crazy lmaoooooooooo that's also on par with making Anya affectionate with Jimmy#Curly would've put him in an incinerator
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The hearts don't mean he is in love with no one. The problem with English is how vague of the word love is in his meaning. It envolves different kinds of caring in one single word. But I'll try to express here what I mean.
He cares, as a person, about everyone. This is a basic level of love that he haves towards everybody. He doesn't want anyone to actually die, that's what I mean. He doesn't necesarily cares about someone, but he loves them enough to not want them to die.
He starts befriending someone and gets to know it. He starts liking things about them and disliking others. He starts loving this people in another way, we'll call it liking. This is more a get-to-know phase he doesn't always like. The less he knows, the less reasons to get attached get attached he has. I think this are the kind of love the hearts show in the image. He has to make sure to keep a balance between how much he loves and how much he let's himself be loved. He doesn't want to have misunderstandings. He is in constant fear of "what if I made them love me more and they care more?"
And then it comes the deeply care that love is in the non-romantic way. This care a (good) parent has for his babies. The love that makes people suffer emotionally in an absolute different way from what it could be a heartbreak or a misunderstanding between friends. If something happens to the loved one, the pain is unbearable. It's one of the worst things rhat can happen. And Chilchuck knows this, he is father of three daughters, and his wife left him. She left, he knows the pain it is to come home and find it empty when there should be someone. He knows the guilt it comes with failing those loved ones. The shame. He doesn't like being this vulnerable. This love makes him suffer like no other does. So he is very very carefull of how much he allows himself to care about someone so he won't get to love like this.
He draws a line between work and private life because his private life envolves love and deep care, and he doesn't want to love nor care like this for people who's job is to constantly risk their lifes. He doesn't want to feel the anguish, he doesn't want to feel the loneliness it will come after the unenviable separation of the party.
He tries his best to not get attached to people. To not let people get attached to him. But he fails. He fails and falls downstairs with a whole drum set.
He can't help but to care about this people. He can't help but to love this people he's been living with the past few weeks in the risking of their lifes. He tells himself he's doing this for money and that he doesn't care, but he does.
Those hearts don't mean anything other than him caring about them. He cares about Senshi. He cares about Marcille. He cares about Laios. About Itsuzumi. About Namari. He cares in a way that hurts. He loves this people. He doesn't want to even imagine a world in where they are gone, or suffering, or in problems. They're his friends, they're something he, unwillingly, accepts as family.
He cares about Falin and Mickbell because he doesn't want them dead. He doesn't feel any anguish toward if they do or not get hurt after they're out of his sight. Sure, he cares, but he can live without thinking about them the rest of his days. It doesn't happen like that with Laios. He can't just simply let Laios go and follow Fallin just after he recover consciousness from a punch in the gut. Was it Mickbell, he would let him if he really didn't wanted. But Laios didn't wanted to sit and wait, and he had to care. He had to verbalize to himself that he cared. He had to let them know, so they would act accordingly. So they won't get themselves killed like idiots.
He doesn't want others to fall in romantic love with him. He doesn't feel romantic love towards anyone either. He isn't the man for this kind of love. He is, in fact, afraid of it. He doesn't want to fall in love, because he's still in love with his wife. She left him because he was negligent. But since when has this become the definitive stop for love? Chilchuck knows his wife is angry at him, and she has all the reason to be so! His husband, the one she loved and cared for, gets himself in dangerous situations, treats his body poorly and almost never is home. She loves him, and it hurts her to love like this, so she leaves. Like this she won't have to look at him get himself mistreated like he does. She would have the pull in her's stomach that tells her that he could be in great danger, that she could become a widow, but she tries to calm it with his daughter's mail to him. He could never. He can't imagine a world in wich they cease to exist. A world without his wife, even if she distanced herself, without his daughters, would be a world worthless of living. He knows this. Because he cares and he loves in such a deep level that he is scared of loving anyone else like this. To become so vulnerable to emotion. This vulnerable to something bad happening.
The fact that he is so afraid of loosing his wife, even after she left him, says a lot. He still cares about her. He is still in love with her. He wants to go back to what it was before, but he can't and he know its his fault. And he respects his wife's distance because he loves her. Now, he doesn't love her in the movie way, he isnt in love like a teenager would to his first girlfriend, he doesn't want to kiss her, or hug her, or be by her side at all moments of the day. He loves her. He cares about her deeply, deeply enough that he doesn't need to be by her side to care, to love. He also respects her. He can survive without her because he knows she's better with his daughter. For sure he wants to hug, kiss and be by the side of this person he loves, it would be ideal, but he can survive without thinking about it too much. It's just like with his daughters. They're all adults that now live far from him. And he is ok with it now. He sends mail and recieves mail, and even if he misses greatly, he can manage not to think about it. Because he knows she is allright. Because he knows he fucked up. He doesn't know where he fuked up, but for his wife to leave him, at least he knows he did. They never talked about it, because they both seem to have a problem in expressing themselves. She fell into a bad mood and then she disappeared. The amount of pain he must have felt it's... let's say it's quite big.
He keeps his guard up. He doesn't want to love deeply anyone. He doesn't want to feel the emptiness, the hurt, that comes after someone so dear leaves. He knows for a fact he'll be leaving this people. He knows that they could die. If he loves, it will hurt in a way nothing else hurts. He will miss. He doesn't like missing people he cares like this. This is why he doesn't want to love. This is why he doesn't want to be loved. This is why those hearts that are almost full are his main source of concern. This is why he makes the effort to keep this feelings at bay, to love only in the friendly way and with extreme caution.
But he can't controll his own love. And he ends up caring more and more about these people. He slowly makes him a part of the dangerous love zone that family means. He is afraid to confuse someone about his feelings towards them, so he still tries to maintain distance with his abusive remarks, but this only works so far. He loves and is loved. And because of this he will suffer.
I... I extended myself a bit I see...
#i dont even know what im talking about anymore#but i hope i made sense#as an aroace i feel the need of being extra cautious about how people think of my relationship with them#because I dont want them to like me romantically#i want friendship#because its so uncomfortablr#not#love#so this Chil here is basically me trying to figure out if saying certain things could be considered flirting or not by the other#i shouldnt care#it isnt my fault if they do fall in love with me#but i would be happier if they didnt#to know someone is in love wirh you#and that you dont love him back#but youre still friends#so youre friends but the other wants to be more than that#and to avoid that i gotta measure every interaction#maybe im a bit paranoid#but it has happened to me to have friends fall in love with me#and i dont want to hurt their feelongs but i definitely dont lovs rhem bacj#because i care abkut them in a friendly way#and i don't want them to suffer because of me. but I dont want to suffer because of them either#its all way to complicated? yes bit thing is that chil here represents me interacting with my friends#but in my case the hearts would be romantic#dungeon meshi#chilchuck#chilchuck tims#delicious in dungeon#dungeon meshi spoilers#my shit
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r u the grew up poor never being able to buy the little things in life u always wanted as a kid so now u buy whatever little thing u want as an adult and struggle with saving for the big mandatory thing,
or the grew up poor never being able to buy the little things in life u always wanted as a kid so now u just never buy anything small bcs u had to learn to live without it and constantly try to save for the next big thing in 500 yrs
#everyones been asking what i wanted for my bday and i always say nothing#like i hate the feeling of getting somebody smthing just to get them smthing like personally#it needs to come from the heart for me. if it's for smthing big like a bday#now like getting someone a coffee judt to get them one on a random day is dif bcs it's just smthin random on a random day i can understand#but idk like as a kid into adulthood the only bday my relatives / guardians have ever celebrated was my adopted brother's n my dad's#the dad bcs hes a hyperconservative dictator lol n the older adopted bro is cus hes got higher needs#so everybody gets more money taking care of him n stuff so u gotta act like u care abt him according to the guardians#but like i never even knew bdays were that big to people. like i mean i know OTHER PEOPLES bdays are big to them#i find ppl who rlly love their bdays to be rlly cute. like i dont think theyre selfish or make fun of em cus theyre judt having fun#n like u only get one x yr bday so have fun with it!!#but for ME? my bday was never anything special n i dont think it is now#everybody feels bad or smthing for me or for not getting me nothing today but it's like?? this is the norm??? im cool with it#ive been thinking abt other stuff like i just dont have time to think abt the pleasures rn. i have to double on the pain or smthing#like my friends always laugh abt how i dont drink coffee/tea or alcohol bcs u cant be in the medical field without a lil smn smn#& it's like idk ! i like ppl that do do that kinda stuff but like! i never grew up with that & it just feels odd to do it now kinda thing#idk im very cheap but also i will use the fact that im cheap on the small stuff to justify wanting to make a big purchase#i have a weird relationship with buying things for myself vs for others like 4 others i will buy watever u want bro#sugar papi ted#hey heres this idk insert raccoon bracelet bcs u like raccoons n love wearing bracelets so i thot of u n bought it#but if i buy smthing for me it has to have a dual purpose or smthing#i got to have a free dessert today n chose the churros over the tres leches cake slicr cus u can judt make the cake#but i dont own a deep fryer so i cant make churros n storebought churros just arent the same#like im just always idk comparing or needing to know the use of things yanno#if i do smthing. i have to see it thru. & it has to have multi purpose#i mean just look at my username jrue ships or jrue's hips like#im unwell when it comes to that#idk is anyone else like this#anyways yea this whole new thing of getting stuff on one day is hard for me like it just never matches up with my time#of course ill see stuff id like to have but like. ill just make myself forget it n by the time stuff like this rolls up it's like idk#i COULD get a new laptop but i got one that works just fine. i got an ipad on its last legs but can i still turn it on? alright
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Before I go to sleep I leave you all with this piece of advice: sometimes you don't actually have to answer big political questions, sometimes you can just say "I am not smart enough to know that, I just know the small things I do to help." Like you can often times completely avoid making a fool of yourself if you just say you don't know.
#simon says#to explain here and not in a reblog:#sometimes when you try to explain big picture solutions you're gonna sound dumb#you might not have done enough research#you might not have a rebuttal to a counter argument#you might not be articulate enough to explain why you think this#sometimes you gotta take a step back and give the simple solution. the one man solution#you do what you can to fight against the problem#you talk to people to help spread awareness and how to fight the bad problem#and you vote and invite others to vote for bigger steps towards solving the problem#like you can talk about theory and how you believe we need to do a huge drastic thing to solve and issue#but people will disagree and argue til you're blue in the face#they'll poke and prod until you mess up or lose your temper and use it against you#and you'll feel dumb and they'll learn nothing#sometimes the best thing to do is step away from the big picture and just say 'idk what the solution is I just know the things I can doā#sometimes you gotta admit you're not a scientist/expert and you can't answer that#i used this while talking with my Dad tonight#he brought up our climate crisis and space travel as a possible solution#and I said I think that's just addressing the symptom and not the cause and we need to care for our Earth now#and he asked me what solutions I think would fix it#and knowing my incredibly smart Dad who is articulate and ready to throw rebuttles at a moments notice to play devils advocate#and my past experience in struggling in this topic with him before#i just told him I didn't know. all i knew is the little things I can and do do to help#and that hopefully by spreading the word and habits and encouraging others to vote for those bigger solutions I could help make a change#but all I really could do is the little things I have control over#and the topic became much less stressful about the little things we have control over#like planting native plants and recycling and adopting habits that are healthier to our planet#which was 100% more preferable to if I tried to give a big solution. because I would reveal i didn't have all the knowledge needed to argue#and my articulation would make me sound like a stupid kid who only thinks they know what's best#so yeah I basically suggest that if you dont wanna feel like shit after debating someone just step away from the big picture for a moment
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Magnus & Lestat vs. Marius & Lestat
#i mean. it's not just me right.#the parallels are there#hate it! š#rose reads tvc#interview with the vampire#marius die in a fire for real this time#i realize no one probably cares but i'm over here gesticulating wildly at all the... this#also not the point at all but i gotta say#'that's what you want' truly in the top 5 most heinous nicki moments#i know nicki was in a bad way and dating lestat must be exhausting and obviously he had no idea lestat was in danger but like#bro.................
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Err just letting you know someone posted you art in Twitter without credit:
Name: Gabsnow191010
https://x.com/Gabsnow191010/status/1840527176090714205?t=tzL_raHloMiIlXdC7N9azg&s=19
I think you are also not the only one they've been taking from.
yepp thanks so much! my friend told me about it as well :,,)
i owe big thanks to tooter for asking them to take it down,, from what i could tell they didn't have malicious intent but i hope they.learn more about online art sharing etiquette fjskdsj
#asks#i gotta admit tho i just have trouble understanding the thought process behind reposting..#what goes through peoples minds that makes them think 'wow i love this post im going to put it here instead and not say where its from'#its great when ppl share stuff they like and tell friends or whatever but like.bestie tell me where u found it its not that hard#maybe its bc its just such an ingrained concept to me to always care about sources esp for art but like#urhfhfgh
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Fake disorder cringe found one actual faker (ticsandroses who faked tourettes) and then decide based on this one scenario that every single person who talks about anything they've been diagnosed with online is faking and therefore it's okay to make fun of anything about them including their appearance. Also will claim that you are self diagnosed even if the person in question has talked about being professionally diagnosed multiple times. These people will do no research and it infuriates me. And they still claim to be helping disabled people by harassing random people online... Which no you are very much not! Even if some of those people were faking that would have little to no impact on my life let's be real here. Spend time doing something that actually matters. Like literally go play your favorite video game and it would be more productive then this. Take a nap and maybe you'll be less angry
#fake disorder cringe#actually autistic#I'm so tired you guys#I was watching an autistic person reacting to this stuff on YouTube#I don't actually use Reddit#and I wouldn't touch that subreddit with a ten foot pole regardless#I know I'm preaching to the choir here but I still gotta say something#and if the people on this subreddit saw this they would also call self diagnosed#even though I was diagnosed before I knew or cared about what autism even was#so I am not and have never been self diagnosed#and even if I was that wouldn't mean what you are doing is right#bunch of bullies the lot of them
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im just gonna be honest gang obviously its gonna be easy for you to say youre in love with a character and theyre an angel when anytime they do something you don't like you brush it off as out of character
#bad writing is still canon unfortunately#the place where i absolutely draw the line is gallavich being verse don't fucking piss me off @shameless writers#unfortunately your fav characters did do and say those bad things..... and to ignore that is too fundamentally misunderstand their character#how can you love a person when you choose to be blind to who they are </3#this isn't directed toward anybody y'all are just being very dramatic lately and really i think we should remember that tv shows aren't real#i can recognize when someone is caused by bad writing but i still have to accept that it's a real thing that happened#like. do i find shameless entertaining? YES! is it well written? FUCK NO#it's actually fundamentally a bad show in many ways. but that's WHY i enjoy discussing it#it's why my hyperfixation hasn't died down. because theres just SO MUCH to pick apart and interpret and discuss!#it's actually so bad at times i blocked it out of my memory!#but if i believe something isn't canon or *shouldn't be canon* (HUGE difference between those 2 things)#then i should explain why i think that. and i also need to accept that others disagree#but if you say everything you don't like is just ooc bad writing and therefore not real to canon then#....lol what are you even doing here#like. we should be rallying against the writers for being actively racist homophobic transphobic fatphobic ableist etc#yet we're sitting here with our thumbs up our asses fighting about which character fanclub is the most oppressed#WHO CARESSSSS JOHN WELLS DOESN'T CARE ABOUT US IT TRULY ISN'T WORTH WASTING YOUR BREATH OVER#i just want to read about 2 toxic kinky boys kissing idk#let me say this tho! hardcore fiona stans you gotta be the most out of touch people on planet earth!#okay goodnight everypony#wall of text in the tags#a.txt
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sometimes i feel like i post way too much about that old man. likeā¦all my posts are congruent to him. then i remember i donāt think about anything but him. that sounds obsessive and weird, but itās the truth. i think ive always been that way though. ive always had way too many thoughts about the things/people i like. i donāt have any room for anything else tbh. what do normal people think about? im not sure. so many people blog about other thingsā¦i donāt. i donāt do anything but talk about that old gothic fucker. i donāt know what else to talk about here. is it getting concerning? is it getting boring? idkā¦like i know ive probably already crossed the parasocial threshold, but atp i donāt really care. this is a man ill never meet, a man who firmly does not know i exist. im ok with that. as long as i can make silly little jokes about him and whatever who cares, right? likeā¦heās just the only thing i think about really. i do nothing but consume content about him, look at pics of him, write stupid lil fics about him. that must not be normal to a lot of people. i donāt even like talking about the rest of the band, only him. like yeahā¦maybe i do sound really obsessive about him. is that worrying? im not sure.
#lily rambles#this just in: making one person your sole source of happiness might not be great#oh wait breaking news: i might not care either way#ive done this with so many people it might actually be a separate kind of mental illness#heās just so amazing what can i say#okā¦now i gotta go back and finish this fic i was writing#i meanā¦have we seen the man? can i really be blamed here??
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One of my favourite parts of D&D is the complete self indulgence you can put into every character. My friend wanted to play a rebellious teenager raised by her cool older brother who she modelled herself after (ranger, hunter, big flirt.) and then I get to take that and make him a kind and casual unwilling leader figure and also a cult survivor who had to leave his sister to come back to save her later and ALSO an aroallo whore
#d&d#shark bait#mair saeth#ridigan saeth#i gotta draw him he's so fun#and also like. just how playing at the table you make so many decisions.#i was so scared to play this character#then my player starts acting like the bratty teenager she was the last time she saw him#and i remember that HE was ALSO a teenager and she probably GOT IT ALL FROM HIM#so then we just end up playing out a sibling dynamic where they're bitching and bullying each other one moment#then saying they love each other while trying to act cool like they dont care#and i LOVE THEM I LOVE MY PLAYERS SO MUCH#all the npcs they give me are such a treat#oh gifted child artificer who's hubris led her to invent the gun and go into hiding. i cant wait to play you.#like what a fucking TREAT for my player to say āhere's this nerdy socially awkward lesbian my character is totally in love with#but never got to admit it and she thinks she killed herā and i just get to DO WHAT I LIKE WITH HER FROM THERE HAKSJAJNDK#sorry i gotta stop making my tags longer than my posts hdfskfj
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I keep drinking coffee thinking it's gonna make me Productive and then instead of doing the work I actually have to do I just compulsively make spreadsheets :(
#my homework is. not done#but!!! i just realized if i take 2 spanish classes i can have a russian/spanish major instead of just russian#(it's complicated but this would leave me with: double major languages and history with a joint major in asian middle east studies)#(plus a minor in religious studies and concentration in islamicate studies)#first i gotta: relearn spanish for like the third time#but it's ok i'm hopping thru spain in less than a month so i should proooobably do that anyway#man when i was touring colleges my mom was like really dismissive about the idea of double majoring and now i'm here like#How Many Things Can I Stack Up To Get Big Number On Transcript#aaaaaaaand because of ames requirements i did the dumb thing and ended up learning persian while my spanish is still kinda iffy#ŠøŃŠ°Šŗ ŃŠ¾Š²ŠµŃŃŠøŠ»Š¾ŃŃ ŃŠ¾ ŃŃŠ¾ Ń ŠæŃŃŠ°Š»ŃŃ ŠæŃŠµŠ“Š¾ŃŠ²ŃŠ°ŃŠøŃŃ as they say#so i'm just gonna have to study two languages at once next semester... or just keep going thru the cycle of relearning them abt every year#my russian is a big girl it can survive on its own but i now gotta feed the babiessssss#tho ig what this kinda cyclically learning and forgetting spanish has taught me is like#languages are less like babies and more like those lil desert plants that wither up when they don't have any water#they might look dead but they're nearly impossible to kill completely#and will bounce right back after a lil care n patience. i just gotta like.... water em#the one thing standing in my way is ideological opposition to my spanish textbook#i have to pay $200 for access to a *website*#*i don't even get a book just a shitass ebook*#but it's ok one of the spanish profs likes me i think? i think she would let me skip the intro lit class#only problem is it was Genuinely Hard for me to follow along when i audited advanced lit... 90% of the class was heritage speakers#tho ig like. having taken a class meant for native russian speakers should help w learning to survive that kinda thing#genuinely i think i can do it#just gotta make that my goal. study. do it for zapata#and if i wanna go into translating... having good spanish should help right? like if i finally get b2 spanish?#yeah. if i could do kazakh history for native russian speakers i can do spanish lit for heritage spanish speakers. it's equivalent enough#but ok i'm gonna visit my buddy in spain who did nearly the exact same shitass majors combination as me#tho i think he did spanish/arabic for his language major and just Happens To Also Be Fluent In Russian cuz he's Like That#it's ok he's two years older than me i have two years to become that cool#he can tell me what to do
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