#godofmyunderstanding

[eduanimator]

The absolute requirement is that you see no limits. There is an unlimited supply in spirit. You must only manifest. And, manifesting is a step-by-step process. Never too late. Always in abundance. #naturallaws #healingquotes #maturityquotes #lawofattractionquotes #loa #theSecret #scienceOfGettingRich #plans #abundancemindset #godofmyunderstanding https://www.instagram.com/p/BwqOcYsDD0X/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=11onkof7a0tlc

[jerilynnphoto]

It’s OK… I’ve grown accustomed to it. No expectations, no disappointments #illgetthereeventually #inmyowntime 🤷🏻‍♀️#myjourney #mypath #myhigherpower #mygoddess #mygod #myuniverse #gomu #godofmyunderstanding #itsnotyours #youhaveyourownhigherpower #liveincompassion #lovealwayswins #love #chooselove #chooseempathy #empathchick (at Coral Springs, Florida)

[ejewels1031]

Day One

When I arrived at the doorstep of the place that would ultimately save my life I was completely and utterly broken. There was a desperation I felt deep in my soul, a desperation that made me physically hurt (like when the love of your life leaves you and you actually feel your heart breaking). It was a pain so deep inside me I thought I would die from it. But I didn’t…Somehow, someway I made it there. There were 2 woman there sitting outside smoking, I was terrified. But the fear of continuing on the way I was was more frightening that walking up to them, so I did. And when I did they were amazing. I started to tell then why I was there, all the awful things I had done, all the drunken evil that I had vomited all over everyone in my life, the way I hated and treated myself and I BEGGED them to help me if they could. I really didn’t think they could but I didn’t know what else to do, and the most miraculous thing happened, when they started talking to me I realized that they were just like me, they had been as broken and wretched as I was at that moment. But they were smiling and laughing and best of all they told me that there was a way out of this abyss I was in. I don’t know why, but as they said it, I believed them…Truly believed them. They asked what was I willing to do to get this solution, more so they asked if I was willing to do anything to get the liberation, the freedom from alcohol that I was searching for, begging for. I said ABSOFUCKINGLUTELY YES!!!! I would be willing to do anything for this obsession I had to be gone, for this nightmare I was living to be done with. I was living in hell, what I would come to realize, actual hell, one of my own making. I had designed my own punishment, the place where I could continue to treat myself like shit over and over again because that was what I deserved for being the disgusting human being I had become (we will get to that later, but I was pretty disgusting). And willing I became. That was the 1st surrender I made and when I did, I could physically feel the difference. There was an intense feeling of relief, an instant lightness. I don’t know if I can ever put into words what I felt that day but if I had to imagine what the finger of God reaching through you and extracting out the darkness from your soul, leaving you as light as air, as if floating on a cloud, that’s how it felt.

 They said all I had to do right now was not take a drink until the next time we met, the next meeting I was to meet them at was at 8p the next night. I wasn’t sure how I would get to sleep that night. I hadn’t fallen asleep in a very long time. Passing out was the norm. I You Toubed some speaker meetings of people that had the same problem I had and slept on an off all night. I also sweat so bad that I soaked my sheets. But I made it through the night…

[godgirl64]

#hope #faith #love #thepromises #godofmyunderstanding #godisgood #godisgoodallthetime #sobriety #recovery #soberlife #sobermom #soberjourney #lifeonlifesterms #ontheroad

[n8man31]

The hardest thing I ever did was to let go of a lifestyle that was killing me🕊#abstinence #serenity #helponeanother #community #outreach#beatwhereyourfeetat#godofmyunderstanding #peace ##tranquility #nofilter #nofilterneeded #instagram #instagood