#goddamn i want to fuck him
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ive had a bit of crush on my guy friend for a few months but ive been basically ignoring it and brushing it off as the wires are crossed and i dont actually like him, its only that he's one of my only guy friends and that i trust him so much, not a crush. and i cant have a crush on him because i dont date friends as a rule because it ruins the friendship and friend group. and theres no way he liked me too.
we had a fourth of july party, and especially towards the end of the night i thought there might be a little something. my legs were on him like kinda in his lap bc the couch was crowded. we were talking a lot, and at one point he went to grab my sunglasses from hanging on my tank top and like basically right between my boobs so like kinda intimate. but also literally all of our friend group is quite touchy and affectionate we everybody and we were drunk, so like none of that really was for sure that he liked me, but it felt different.
but the next week at trivia, he talked about dating apps or a girl he was talking to, so i took that as he obviously didn't like me and it was nothing because he was interested in other girls not me. so like id literally encourage him to get like the waitress' number and gave tips on talking to girls. like a month ago, my car broke and one week my friend allison gave me a ride and the 2 weeks after that max did, and its out of the way for both but i was like wow i have such good friends.
this saturday was allison's birthday party, and max said he was going to drive the 45 to pick me up and then 45 back to his and allisons place. and again thought, wow i have good friends and allison would have been sad if i couldnt be at her party. we all played beer pong, drinking games, just all hanging out and having a good time with everyone. i was crushing on max and was basically trying to see if itd be like last party and maybe there was something. i sat by him in our circle intentionally and kinda being more touchy than normal. but nothing either of us were doing were like obviously out of character and like clearly flirting.
part way thought the night, like 11 or 12, allison pulled me into her room and said "omg i just had an REVELATION! you and max need to hookup, tonight. yall have cute chemistry and now hookup and make it happen" and i was flabbergasted! like she knows my hard stance on "its a bad idea to date friends" so i tried arguing and like just making shocked stuttering noises, and before i could protest so much she grabbed me and pulled me back out to the party right by max, and she was smug like just do it.
but that had me thinking maybe its all in my head and like there is something there and maybe max likes me too. like if allison sees enough that she'd say that, its gotta be something. i kept acting the same way i was all night and now was just overthinking him even more.
towards the end of the night, like 2 or 3, some people went home, some were getting ready for bed, or just in smaller groups to talk in and it was just me and max talking. i was planning on just crash on the couch with julia, like normal, but by this point it definitely felt like there was something and he wanted to tell me but he couldnt. after a bit, he nervously asked if i wanted to be like cuddle buddies for the night and i said sure. we put on buffy the vampire slayer and cuddled for a bit but pretty quickly facing each other and having a real talk.
some of the details are a blur, but he was saying how he didnt want to pressure anthing or ruin our friendship, etc etc and hes fine with whatever i want and hes just so happy to be holding me and has wanted this for so long. i was like absolutely shocked still because i couldnt believe he liked me too and had for a while. he was so absolutely so sweet, but was so scared that its going to ruin things and i completely loose him as a friend but i was 100% comfortable and even leaned in to kiss him first and it was off from there. after kissing me, he said “you have no idea how long i’ve wanted to do that”. we kissed and cuddled the whole night and he was so fucking hot. he straight up tossed me to the other side of the bed. omg.
it was so sweet. the next morning we still were able to banter and tease each other. we did have to walk out the room and talk to all of our friends just knowing we got together and were dying for info, but i still didnt know what i entirely thought and didnt want to kiss and tell. i walked out to the patio with all the girls and they excitedly asked "omg what happened, SPILL" and i said "nothing happened, okay not nothing happened, something happened, just not everything", but i did tell them it was just like a sweet and wholesome night. like he seems to like me so much and has been just waiting to let me know and he said something like "you had to have felt something at the 4th of july party too" so it wasnt just in my head and he felt that too, and i would love to date him like proper bf/gf but i am so scared ill lose him and ruin the friend group and everything is going to go wrong.
but he drove me back home and we got dunkin on our way, and said he was going to take me to work too but i was like no way itll take me like 20 min to get ready, ill just get an uber. and he was like, nope i have nothing else to do, ill wait and im dropping you off. so i showered and got ready. i had to cover a hickey, and it was my first one bc i always say dont give me a hickey but he gave me a little one anyway. when i came back out to the car i gave him a hard time that he's not allowed to give me hickies bc im simply not good enough at makeup to cover them up, and he joked that its not worst than my birthmark on the other side of my neck.
he dropped me off right in front of my work and i gave him a kiss goodbye and he said something and i said "youre too sweet". i was reeling my entire shift trying to pros/cons whether its a good idea to pursue this. on my pros/cons list, at first all i wrote under both columns "its max". i see my therapist on wednesday and hopefully she can help me sort through this. i finished the pros/cons and both sides are pretty full. i think next time we see each other, well have a real talk about this and i think i want to like a trial period and like try going on a proper date and couple-ly things and if that goes well then actually date officially. i want to take the romantic mushy things slow so we have time to navigate. and have an easy out/get out of jail free card at any point so we dont feel stuck and call it off if things feel weird or mess with the friend group or arent compatible, etc.
honestly in hindsight, some things kinda add up that it was probably him liking me not just normal friends. also im pretty sure he'd totally told allison he like me and theyre in cahoots. i want this so bad, but im so scared to lose him. ugh i am loosing my mind over this, and being away from him and having to think if this is going to ruin everything is putting my stomach in loop. it feels so natural with him. this feels so cliche and sweet that its like something out of a sitcom.
like thinking about it, we make a lot of sense together. both have been through fucked up shit and can relate and joke about it with each other. were outdoorsy and talk about moving out into the middle of the woods. we are extraverted but if we run out of social battery were totally done. hes talked so sweetly about wanting a wife and doing everything he can to love and protect her and make her happy, its so precious. hes truly such a sweetheart. this is gonna kill me
#personal#boys boys boys#m#i’ve been saying for a while that i want a man who would chop firewood for me and he definitely would#goddamn i want to fuck him#like hes was already attractive but he was so hot it bed#like kinda rough but still so loving#part of my brain can only think about his hand on my neck and him on top of me like fuckk me#i am yearning#he slapped/grabbed my ass and said god i been waiting to do that#LIKE GOD THATS SO HOT#non essential to the story but also we all also blared emo/metal songs and i screamed so much i was loosing my voice
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the leverage team would have had a games night… once. everyone cheated so much and in such increasingly extreme ways that all mentions of monopoly are banned in their headquarters (this makes talking about marks who monopolize the market very confusing)
#leverage#nate wouldn’t cheat but he’d be by far the most annoying still. like he’d conduct a whole Scheme to win and give a little monologue wheneve#he made a good move and everyone would want to kill him#parker woukd obvs be stealing money & cards and she’d move their pieces and swap their stuff#but also she’d try to use her turn to rob the bank#sophie would use neurolinguistic programming and dominate the board w properties#which somehow parker would literally never land on and that’s incredibly suspicious but none of them really know how she could possibly be#manipulating that fact? it’s logically impossible bc they’re watching her roll the die and move the piece and sophie knows which properties#she owns so it makes no sense. but parker is parker and she simply will not be caught (even by sophie’s properties)#hardison has studied monopoly theory (yes there are math theories on how to play monopoly) and /tries/ to abide by them but again. sophie i#manipulating him and parker is stealing from him (and sometimes oddly enough *for* him. new money ends up in his bank somehow) so it’s hard#so eventually he resorts to cheating like Everyone Fucking Else and does pretty well bc he rlly does know what sets he wants etc.#eliot is genuinely playing normally. no cheating no math stuff no schemes.#but he’s just sitting there fuming the entire time bc they’re all very obviously messing with the game and he Knew this was gonna happen bu#goddamn hardison & parker especially know how to get on his nerves (often purposely)#he calms down by making some snacks and. resorting to also cheating lol.#leverageposting
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also this is from Wolfwood's POV (in case it isn't clear) i have 0 normal thoughts (every song ever is VW)
#i got possessed for 4 days straight and have been making comics every goddamn day#some i like too much to post just yet#but this one was a pain in the ass so (as per usual) must get posted#after it's on tumblr dot com i feel free#so you know how wolfwood points his gun at vash out of fear multiple times#i thought i'd draw a little something about it but much much worse#i dont think ww would ever shoot but it would probably haunt him in his dreams#thinking about how it would feel like to pull the trigger#distantly wondering if vash would /let/ him shoot. if he wanted wolfwood to finally kill him#also#trans wolfwood agenda#but i just casually throw it in the mixture before cooking up some fucked up shit about vw#also i fucking loveeeee the band 'i like trains'#so many lyrics to work on.....#ive sketched a millionsummers comic on i like trains' lyrics too#anyway#thats about it#trigun#trigun fanart#cw blood#tw blood#cw guns#vash the stampede#vashwood#nicholas d. wolfwood#trimax#trigun maximum#vashwood fanart#my art
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I have some things to say…
I’m biting his shoulders, kissing on his neck, dragging my fingers down the muscle of his back, I’m squeezing his ass and trapping him in my legs—I’m moaning in his ear, panting against his mouth, drooling over his lips….
#arthur morgan#rdr2#red dead redemption 2#rdr2 photography#arthur morgan please give me one night i swear i can fix you.#i need him so goddamn bad I’m gripping the sheets#why the fuck is he fictional#i want to fuck a cowboy
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So we're all pretty well acquainted with that face Emmrich makes if you tell him he's your first ever partner, but I don't think we talk enough about how, as he looks away and once he's worked through that first wave of initial shock, he smiles. It's a slow, small little thing, but his eyes grow so soft. His features just become so tender. The man is radiating affection. He's not off put, he's not upset or disappointed. Nervous, perhaps; anxious to make sure your first experience with a relationship isn't some catastrophic failure. But he's also charmed by the admission. This is a man who's so utterly gaga for romance and love. The idea that his partner has never found anyone else compelling enough to pursue until him? Whatever sense of worry he might feel at what a lack of experience might imply, he still finds himself smitten with the notion that someone would value him in such a way.
#im back in the fucking building again#emmrich volkarin your hand in marriage pls#christ alive i need him a very unnatural way#HE LOVES HIS PARTNER SO GODDAMN MUCH GRAAAAAAAAAAAAAH#HE WANTS SOUL CRUSHING DEVOTION AND I CAN MATCH HIM#emmrich volkarin#emmrook#dragon age#dragon age the veilguard#dragon age: the veilguard#datv#dragon age veilguard
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I think one of my favorite things about UNDEAD willl always be Kaoru Not Getting The Memo.
Like.
Only one smiling on the Destruction Road album cover.
First ! Era 5 Star isn't in the UNDEAD uniform.
The only UNDEAD member to not regularly wear earrings.
His center event song and vibe are completely different from the others and without any purple in the card.
Kaoru also:
Is the only monolingual one in UNDEAD (made a separate post about it here)
Is the only UNDEAD member who couldn't play an instrument (except for middle-school-level recorder) until !! Era.
During Halloween, instead of a traditional monster like the rest of UNDEAD (vampire, werewolf, Frankenstein), he was a "sexy priest".
Is the only UNDEAD member whose center event didn't release in November (releasing in June instead).
Is the only one who didn't want to initially join/be associated with UNDEAD.
He really is the "human" one of UNDEAD and it's so funny and interesting to me.
#like the rest of undead really just bribed him (rei) and dragged his ass to practice (koga & adonis)#and kaoru used to pretend not to care but now he cares about them So Much and is so much more open about it#and he wants to be a good senpai to adonis and koga and a good partner to rei and an equal to all of them#and he DOESNT get it a lot of the time but goddamn it if he isnt going to try because fuck his old persona he loves them#and they love him too and i love undead because they cherish each other so much#ensemble stars#enstars#ensemble stars music#enstars undead#kaoru hakaze#rei sakuma#koga ogami#koga oogami#adonis otogari#comparisons
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One of my favorite scenes. Always reposting.
Vincent Price -
The Haunted Palace (1963) dir. Roger Corman
#vincent price#the haunted palace#hp lovecraft#h.p. lovecraft#Edgar allan poe#goddamn sir#fuckkkkkkkk#why is he so hot 🥵🥵🥵🥵#so fucking sexy#i want him to do unspeakable things to me#BICON#Bisexual#god#horror#old horror movies#vintage#movie#actor#handsome#gif#bicon#gifs made by me#gif set#my gifs
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Why do you always use that to piss me off? ...It makes me happy. We agreed that I'm in charge of the bars. But you come here all the time to watch me. How am I supposed to lead my people? Use your head, okay? Suit yourself. What's the matter? Chen Yi. Chen Yi! [...] Don't make me worry.
Chen Bowen as CHEN YI & Chiang Tien as AI DI KISEKI: DEAR TO ME (2023)
#kiseki: dear to me#kisekiedit#kdtm#kiseki dear to me#ai di x chen yi#chen yi x ai di#nat chen#chen bowen#louis chiang#chiang tien#jiang dian#userspring#userspicy#userrain#uservid#pdribs#userjjessi#*cajedit#*gif#your honor i would like to remind you and the jury that ai di is faking drunk at this time#at the most he is a little tipsy and Definitely pretending to be asleep.#now your honor please observe in the fifth gif ai di slinging his other arm around chen yi's neck. while ''''''asleep''''''#as well as the way it slides back down chen yi's shoulder and how he clearly puts it back to get a better grip#and next your honor i would like to direct your attention to the last gif. and the way ai di's fingers curl when zherui says#'love and admiration are different'. not only do they curl but they pinch. do you see?#as you can see from this evidence he is very aware of the conversation and desperately in need of chen yi's affection and attention#.............and its better than the goddamn darcy hand flex in my Personal Opinion. act your fucking heart out diandian.#and NOW observe the caption. by combining the conversation where chen yi drove off angrily with the one where he comes back for ai di#you can see that the Real reason he was upset was bc ai di was pushing him away#& he came back for him anyway. he just wants to be close to ai di all his actions & feelings are ai di-centered even when the topic is cdy
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*holds Dean Winchester up by the scruff of the neck* listen, it's not that i think bottoming would fix him--his problems and disorders are way too far gone for that--but i do think that getting artfully maneuvered into trying it by the only other human on earth with a hope of understanding all his goddamn hangups, only to discover that he's been a winner of the "body wired to experience earth-shattering prostate orgasms" lottery this entire time, all while Sam oh-so-solemnly insists it doesn't have to Mean Anything about anyone's masculinity, lots of guys etc etc etc, and manages to radiate only moderate levels of smugness about the whole incident--
well, i simply think that even if that wouldn't fix him, it would either give him a vigorous shake and a ready-made excuse ("fuck it, why look a gift pleasure button in, uh, whatever orifice it came with?") to let a whole bunch of shit go, or it would drive him into even more insane depths of overcompensation. and either way, the Study That Man Like A Bug girlies get to feast.
#for some unholy reason there is honest-to-god 'my take is Correct and Mandatory' top/bottom discourse in the maintags these days#so here's my contribution. a heartfelt pitch for putting this guy in an ant farm and studying him (I Want That Twunk Obliterated edition)#if you are categorically opposed to even entertaining the idea then great news! no one's making you! my taste isn't the boss of anyone!#in which case may i cordially invite you to help your team pull its goddamn weight in the Just Fucking Scroll Past That Shit olympics#wincest#dean winchester#sam winchester#supernatural
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what I learned from season 2 of IWTV is that a distressingly large amount of people cannot tell the difference between a consensual BDSM dynamic and assault/abuse, nor do they know anything about how kink actually works
it’s not unhealthy for Armand to be submissive or delve into maître/slave kink dynamics. in fact it’s something people do to explore and get past their traumas all the time irl. additionally, he is like five times older and more powerful than Louis, he wasn’t being forced to do anything, nor could Louis ever actually force him. the kink was probably the healthiest aspect of their relationship, what fucked them over was a jumble of commitment issues, a lack of trust, and eventual murder - which is something that would cause problems in any relationship ever, no matter how vanilla.
the Point of the tragedy is that they were on the precipice of something happy, but Louis hesitated for too long and Armand couldn’t recognize when he was loved, and the kink had nothing to do with it, for fuck’s sake. Louis wasn’t abusive and it’s not bad or wrong for Armand to want to be a sub -
#IWTV#interview with the vampire#the vampire armand#louis de pointe du lac#it’s always so fucking infantilizing too?? the man is 500yo guys he can make his own decisions#oh noooo he couldn’t possibly know what he wants :(( he’s just reacting out of trauma it’s like brainwashing :(((#?????#no???#he just wants to relax for once fucking let him#he’s been in charge of his own survival AND other people for hundreds of years#being a coven leader seems to be a herding cats type of position tbh#let him rest#that’s what his submission is#loumand#like I don’t even really ship them but GODDAMN#they could have actually been alright together if the cards fell different#amc iwtv#amc interview with the vampire#iwtv season 2#if I see another post claiming that the only way for Armand to have a good life is to never be anyone’s sub again I’m gonna scream#also this weird framing of Louis as an abuser just kinda feels racist#I’m probably not the person to speak on that but there’s Something abt that demonization that just doesn’t sit right#like yeah he was a dick. but largely in his head?? he didn’t do or say anything to Armand out loud
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hey guys i don't know if you know this but focusing on a disabled character's fragility and weakness as something sexy is kind of ableist. it's incredibly ableist actually. especially when you have a weird emphasis on how helpless he is and how his love interest could so easily do anything they wanted to him. did you know this. It's important to me that you know this
#chattering#dungeon meshi#mithrun#this one is coming out of the drafts actually bc im tired#im so tired of all of the squabbling over which joke is more ableist#or if people are ableist because they dont want to fuck him#when there is HORRIBLE ableism i see every single goddamn day when it comes to mithrun#from the people who claim to love him#and who say theyre the ones actually treating him right#anyway. rare angry post from me lmao#fandom wank
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absolutely insane that mike literally p a n i c k e d when will was like "well what about us?" because will wasn't even really making things gay he was honest to god just inquiring about the state of their estranged friendship and wondering why mike didn't make time to talk to him when they're supposed to be best friends but MIKE was the one having an aneurysm like "🏳️🌈⁉️ W H AT!!"
“WE'RE FRIENDS” “i know mike” “WE'RE!!! F R I E N D S!!” “right so why don't you call me — ” “I HAVE A GIRLFRIEND” “… that in no way answers my question"
#stranger things#byler#queer mike wheeler#mike acts gayer in this scene than will who is canonically gay is all i'm saying#and while we're at it...#what the fuck is the “it's not my fault you don't like girls” scene#the way mike is visibly devastated after will's like “yeah i did think we'd just hang out in your basement forever and it would be enough”#maybe because he realised he was forcing himself not to also feel like it was enough me thinks??? he was trying to be “normal”?#and then he immediately feels guilty and bikes in the goddamn rain to apologise like bitch what is this shit? the notebook?#meanwhile his girlfriend is fully mad at him and he's laying around eating chips and burping and laughing and complaining about women#and doing nothing to apologise to her LMAO????#mike wheeler what are you doing king. the people want to know#anyway i'm once again deep in my queer mike theorising#don't let me down duffers i s2g#eve text
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every single day i think about the influence touya would have had on shouto as an older brother.
he has to take him everywhere he goes, so they're always jamming to the same hardcore music in touya's shitty car. shouto, obviously, develops a taste for the same bands, same songs. shouto is also in the ride-along to buy cigarettes and beer at midnight, and touya threatens his whole entire life if he tells rei, but shouto would never because he likes going too much.
shouto 100% would attempt to kick the ass of anyone that talked shit to his brother. little string bean, doesn't matter, this little boy is throwing HANDS for touya, and touya very much has the attitude of "no one can fuck with my little brother but me". whenever shouto gets in trouble for doing something he shouldn't be doing, touya is always taking the fall for him, no questions asked. shouto lies for touya like it's second nature.
shouto wants an earring because of touya, and touya probably GIVES the piercing to him, which makes enji blow a gasket. touya learns to play the drums and then shouto wants to, too — though he ends up being better than touya and touya promptly quits after that. touya teaches him to drive. shouto gets drunk for the first time with touya BECAUSE touya wants to be there to take care of him. they hate each other, they get into fist fights all the time, rolling around the house as fuyumi screams at both of them. they're best friends. they understand each other more than anyone else ever could.
#they're partners in crime#they fight CONSTANTLY especially at home#shouto makes a face at touya and flips him off and it's SO TOUYA. like SUCH ATTITUDE#touya will sit next to rei at dinner all 'mom what the fuck is wrong with your shitty kid' and — he's scolded for cussing — but#rei is like. are you serious rn. he's exactly like you#which they both VEHEMENTLY DISAGREE WITH#touya pretends to throw up violently at the accusation and shouto twists his little face up like that's the worst thing he's ever heard#and then later they're both playing a video game together ajfbduskak#like they are such BROTHERS#natsuo is there too but i think he's so inbetween them both that he wants to be his own person#shouto is young enough to be influenced by EVERYTHING touya does#and touya is like 😒😒😒 you're so goddamn annoying 😒😒😒😒 are you coming with me to the store or what 😒😒😒😒#peeling my skin off i want this so much :)#screaming with my mouth closed :)#i dont even know what to tag this skgbsiakqk#✿ willow writes#✿ thoughts: dabi/touya
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imagine a dirkjohn "meetcute" where dirk just shows up at john's apartment one day and he's like nice to meet you. i'm your boyfriend. and john is just like Do I Know You.
#richie rambles#dirk is a weird freak and say what you want. but he'd do this.#he becomes obsessed w john from afar and fucking STALKS HIM until he knows john's schedule and all that shit. and then he's like yeah hi. i#ur bf. deal w it.#and john doesn't quite know what to do w this. he consults his friends and they are decidedly No Help bc say what u will but the beta kids#are NOT ideal advice-givers. So. Anyway. John doesn't know what the fuck to do but eventually he just gives up on avoiding dirk and fightin#with him and what do u know????? dirks FUCKING INSANE plan works!!!! they start dating#bc if anyone could pull it off it would be dirk. so.#sorry i was listenig to this song and i just found this premise SO GODDAMN FUNNY#like. idk. dirkjohn nation can you hear me#dirkjohn#Dirk Strider#John Egbert#Homestuck
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can someone rec me fics where sasuke is just absolutely insane for naruto in the same way naruto is insane for him throughout the entire series?
#like I want a sasuke who is so goddamn intense about this kid my soul shakes yknow#im rereading naruto and i need some equilibrium#im not sure if this has been done yet but an AU where the two of them have swapped shoes would be fucking cool#like naruto lets his loneliness corrupt him like sasuke did#and sasuke works w the village to bring him back#does this exist and if so can someone link me <3#sasunaru#narusasu#sns#naruto
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the way people care more about jason fighting tim than like any other rogue fighting tim during his robin run is...!
"they're brothers! jason is so horrible to attack his little brother."
aside from the obvious twinkification of tim, stop pushing the family narrative on two people who did not see each other as siblings at that moment.
#and also stop seeing tim as a 5 year old#jason fought him to prove a point#sometimes i wish he really did some serious damage to tim just so you guys would have something reasonable to complain about#gosh a 16-17yr old crime fighter who fights people like bane for a living definitely has trauma from a guy two years older than him#fighting him#yes jason todd the kid who was murdered for being robin would definitely go out and kill the next kid who is robin#because yessss his whole point is that he's jealous of the next robin and therefore needs to harm him worse than the joker harmed jason#like please i'm so tired of this discourse#why the fuck would jason- the child murder victim who died as robin and bc of batman taking on a child soldier- want to kill the next robin#you'd think the narrative that jason tried to kill tim would only be in like some fics#but nope! it's in every goddamn batfam fic i've ever read to this day#not even exaggerating#anti tim drake#anti batfam#jason todd#red hood#batman#dc
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