#it’s ok y’all I been there before you just gotta thug it out……….

[zehl0w]

Mfw both of the guys you have a crush on start holding hands at school

[hoodassnerd]

Butterflies

Genre: Erik x oc

Words: a lot (I’m so sorry)

Summary: Joanna is a thug at heart but maybe not all the way through

BEEP BEEP BEEP be-

Erik shut off the alarm and look at the girl in his bed.

‘Seven? Sheela? Something with a s? I don’t fuckin know, she gotta get the fuck up tho’

Erik poked her in the back “Aye shawty, you gotta get up. “ she grunted and readjusted to get comfortable. Erik sighs, “AYO!” He shouted. She jumped up from her spot “What! It’s mad early!” “Exactly, that why you need to getcho ass up. I gotta work and I don’t know you like that so you gotta step” he said getting out of the bed.

She looked at him disappointed “Damn you really just gon kick me out like that?” She asked him. “Yea. Bye Keisha.” Erik walked into the bathroom closing the door. “MY NAME IS TIFFANY!” “Whatever the fuck it is, you gotta go” he said. Erik turned on the water ignoring whatever she was yelling at him and got in the shower so he could start his day.

Around 2:37 pm Joanna Brown woke up from her damn good dream about cheesecake and Captain America. “Shit!” She said as she finished her stretched. A good stretch. The one that makes you shake. “I should have called off today. I hate having to use my customer service voice to all them ugly ass men.” She said to herself. Jo worked at footlocker at the front register. She only kept the job because she was a sneaker head. Jo was very self conscious about her body but the men at her job didn’t give a damn about her feelings because her was shaped like the number 8. Even thought she had many customer complaints, they weren’t gonna fire her. She was the reason for half of their customers.

Jo turned on her music phone and connected it to her tv. “Rob the jewelry sto’ tell ‘em make me a grill”. Joanna milly rocked her way into the bathroom and started her showers he tied up her silver bundles and got in the water.

About 30 seconds later her primary phone rang. She looked at the screen and saw Erik’s name and the ugliest scared face you’ve ever seen. Tapping the screen she picked up the phone and started singing the song. “Got 30 down at the bottom 30 mo’ at the top, all invisible set with little ice cube blocks. If I could call it a dri-“ “I didn’t call you to hear yo fine ass sing nelly in my face” Erik said into the phone. Jo looked offended “So why dafuq did you call me?” “I called you to see if y’all got the new 11’s that just came out.” Jo looked into the phone “nigga I just got in the shower! I don’t even know if the sun is still yellow yet! And stop calling me pretty, you know I don’t like you”

Ever since they were in high school, Erik was sweet on Jo. She transferred from New York during their sophomore year. They eventually became friends after she fist fought the quarterback because he wouldn’t leave her alone. Even though they didn’t have any classes together he would always make sure that he saw her when she was at school. Erik liked Jo and was determined to get her to like him back. He would always compliment her and try to make her feel good about her self but Jo didn’t see it like that. Jo was a hood nigga, so she didn’t really want attention from men. Unless she needed some dick.

“Let me finish washing my ass first. I’ll hit you when I’m at work to let you know if we got em’” Erik smiled showing his caps “Thank you lil’ mama. Let me see ya titties” Jo hung up the phone “Bitch I am not showing you my titties” she said as she put the it back down. Willow Smiths - Wait a minute started to play on her tv “Oh this my shit!” She shouted as she turned up the volume.

‘Wait a minute! I think I left my conscience on your front door step! Woo-oo Woo-oo, Wait a minute I think I let my consciousness in the sixth dimension. But I’m here right now, right now”

Jo got in her navy blue 67’ impala that was given to her by her uncle. She started the car and the radio came on ‘FUCK A FLASH THIS AINT SNAPCHAT! CUZ IVE BEEN GETTIN’ PAID, YELLOW DIAMOND-‘. Jo jumped so high she hit her head on the roof of the car “Ow fuck! Shit” she said turning down the volume and rubbing her head. “Let me turn this shit down. I’m not the Same nigga from last night”

Pulling into the parking lot at the mall she looked at the time on her phone 4:02 ‘shiiiiiiiieeeeeeedddddd I still got 30 minutes’ she thought.

‘ when I get up all in ya’ and we can hear the angels callin us, and we can see the sunrise before us and when I’m in that thang, I make that body sang I make her say🚨🚨🚨’

“nigga this my shit!!” She said turning the up volume. The song turned down and switched to big gangster by Kevin gates. “Scuse me bitch... oh. What you want nigga!” She said to Erik as she got out the car. “Why yo thick ass just getting out the car?” He said staring directly at her . Jo stopped and looked around ‘Did this nigga wait here for me?’ “what kinda stalker shit is you on bruh?” She hung up the phone when she saw him. “Chill lil mama. I’m just trying to make sure my future wife got to work safe.” “Where she at?” Jo said confused. Erik sucked his teeth “Girl stop playin, you know it’s you. Wicho sexy ass, ooooh girl I’d love to see all that ass in a sundress.” He said licking his lips.

“Boy if you don’t get yo ass on somewhere. I wouldn’t dare marry yo ass. All the bitches you be fucking I don’t know where to dick been, nigga” she said grabbing her work bag out her backseat. “Why you ain’t take yo ass in the store? Everybody in there fuck wichu, they would have gave you a discount if you would have asked. Renee prolly would’ve gave you them shits for free, she in love wicho bum ass.” She said reaching for the door. Erik slapped her hand away from the handle. “Why you always do that like I can’t open the door” she said walking pass him. “When a man is present a women shouldn’t touch doorknobs or handles.” He said staring at her ass. “Mmmmhmmmm. Whatever nigga”

“Hi, welcome to footlocker! If you need anything just let me know!” Jo said in her customer service voice. “Fake ass” Erik said walking passed the counter. “Shut up and getcho shoes nigga!” She said back.

As Jo was reluctantly helping Erik, like the good employee she was, the door buzzer went off “Hi welcome to foo- Fuck. Welcome to footlocker if you need help please don’t ask me. “ Erik turned around and saw three men walk in the store and smirk at Jo. One was tall, about 6’4, light skin with a fucked up gumby haircut. The second one was shorter, kinda looked like Boosie with dreads. The third one looked like Dave east.....but dirty.

“Who dat?” He asked watching them walk around the store “Remember I told you about that nigga that keep coming in here bothering me but I can’t do shit cuz he buy ten pair of shoes?” He nodded “That’s his ugly ass. The dinghy one. He get on my fucking nerves. This nigga smoke boggies and think it’s ok to talk directly in my face like boy get the fuck on” she said scanning eriks shoes while he was laughing his ass off “This shit not funny bruh like, I told him I had a boyfriend but he won’t leave me the fuck alone”. Erik looked at her inquisitively “Did you describe ya so called boyfriend” he said putting quotes around boyfriend. She shook her head no. “Bet” he said. “Aye bro where you going?”

Erik walked over to the shoe display and picked up the cement grey 4’s “lil mama, y’all got these in a 12!” He asked. Jo looked up from the register to see Erik across the store “

What’s those?” “Come here and see” she rolled her eyes and put his other shoes under the counter and jogged over. “Oh the cements, let me check in the back” noticing the ‘Dave east’ looking at Jo, Erik slid his hand on her hip as she talked. She looked at him sideways like he was crazy. He lifted his brows as to say ‘play along’ Jo gave him a stink face but nodded slightly “Gimme a kiss ma” “no I’m at work” “you so mean to me” he said pouting.

Jo rolled her eyes and walked to the back room. “Aye bro. Why you pushing up on ole girl like that?” Erik turned around to see ‘Dave east’ looking like he wanted to fight. “And who the fuck is you to be asking about my girl?” He said as he squared his shoulders. ‘Dave east’ backed up a little “oh shit bro my bad I didn’t know that shorty was yours.” Erik clenched his jaw a little “ stop staring at my girl. And If she tell me you keep harassing her imma beat the shit outchu” Erik said slightly walking toward him. ‘Dave east’ turned around and walked away. “All we got is 11 and 13. “ Erik looked at jo “that’s fine mamas, I got some already. Thank you tho” jo looked at him “ so you telling me that you made me walk all the way ova he fah some shoes you already got? You deadass? Your total is $557.82” Erik smirked at her “I can’t get a thank you?” “Fah what?” Erik smiled real big “you see ya mans?” Jo looked around “what you say to him?” She said as her eyes lit up “I told him to stop talking to you and he left” jo raised an eyebrow “I know you lying but thank you” she held her hand out, Erik looked her up and down “ what?” He asked “give me yo money, hoe” jo said with an attitude. Erik sucked his teeth and gave her his card. “Declined” “WHAT!” “I’m just fucking witchu. Enjoy your day, sir!” “You play to fucking much” Erik mumbled as he walked out the store.

[bibibuckleyy]

my thoughts on ‘The taking of Dispach 9-1-1′

this was SUCH a good episode from start to finish! *pulls out a slide show* Now i’ll show you breaking down every. single. scene-

jk lmao...unless?

spoilers below the cut!

lord. have. mercy.

these hoes are givin me major heist vibes

tiffany bby ur the driver but for me to acknowledge you as such you better be Letty Ortiz good hun

wow these thugs are a lot my organized than i first thought like i know they was carryin guns but i aint know they was packin this much like damn

Oceans 8 who?

so i wanna know where they just...got a cop car???

OH HELL NAH Y’ALL BEST NOT MESS WITH TERRY

I MEAN ANA MAY BE HIS SISTER

AND  SHE MAY BE MAKIN MOVES ON EDDIE 

BUT IN THIS HOUSE WE LOVE TERRY FLORES SO YOU GET YOUR GUN AWAY FROM SUNSHINE BBY

it’s kinda funny rewatching this scene when you know what’s about to go down

like i’m cacklin like ‘oh shooooot dramaaaa’

but i’m also like ‘SOMEONE GRAB JOSH AND RUN’

“temporary maintenance, happens all the time” cool cool cool 

i’m not freakin out you’re freakin out

josh and maddie are like friend goals i love their dynamic like yoooo

hi yes could you please get that gun away from terry’s head i would really appreciate it.

OMG SECURITY DUDE NOOOO

wow ur like the only line of defense in the dispatch center and they just kicked ur ass

is this where our tax dollars are goin??

fly high josh’s mug, fly high

that absolute look of fear on his face tho, still breaks my heart

josh russo defense squad post up homies

“i love you, howie” nope nope nope didn’t like it the second time either

when that gun went off

LET ME TELL YOU

i just,,,waited for the blood to start comin out of terry

thank god it wasn’t him

good scene lmaooo 9-1-1 writers i hate you all lmao lmao

“bees are the least of your troubles here, sweetheart” I HATE YOU DUDE

someone call mama grant please

“we’ve got dispatch” i do not like this ma’am i’d like to speak to the manager

“you’ll shoot us” man shut the hell up-

“no, we’ll shoot the person next you you” this dude is insane

lookin like mr.clean’s evil cousin LMAOOOOO

“you only do something like this so you can do something...worse”

um whAT-

“you’re being paranoid, she’s fine” CHIMNEY NO NO NO

i don’t think i’ve ever thrown this much popcorn at my tv in my life

as chimney said “don’t do it man” just picture a 5′5 lightskinned girl tripping over her blanket while yelling “DO IT CHIM, DO IT!” and you’ll have me

“sorry, we are experiencing a high call volume” BITCH MORE LIKE A HIGH CRIME VOLUME SOMEBODY GET MAMA GRANT DAMNIT-

*screams* BUUUUUUUUCK 

HI BBY

ooh nice shirt, i guess pink isn’t the only color that suits ya

he looks good in all the colors

whole damn snaaaaack

not to be an idiot on main but seriously, who watches the watchmen?

“i miss like an earthquake or something?” lmao chim is a whole vibe

“wait....why are you calling 9-1-1, is everything ok?” paired with that cute adorable concerned face he made is making me cry ok we don’t deserve buck T-T

“she’s at the call center, what could happen?” AT LOT ACTUALLY

OH THANK YOU JESUS IT’S ATHENA FUCKIN FINALLY 

*cries* mama grant you won’t believe the day i’ve had

“he’s my husband” LMAOOOOO WHAT

whoa tiffany we’ve already had our fair share of mail bombs here that bet’ not be what i think it is

THE PACKAGE IS VIBRATING AND BLINKING TAKE COVER-

ohhhhhhhhhh

it’s just takin out the security systems lmao 

“technical difficulties” BITCH MORE  LIKE CRIMINAL DIFFICULTIES

“i bet this woman really thinks you’re...worthwhile.” JOSH BBY DON’T LISTEN TO A WORD HE SAYS EVERYONE LOVES YOU

ahaha thanks i did not need those flashbacks it hurt enough the first time 

“a woman called about an omelet, i dispatched an officer”

“to the restaurant?”

“not exactly”

???

“i tried calling josh, but no answer” aww josh and buck are friendssssss :)

JOSH HAS BEEN ADOPTED BY THE FIREFAM PASS IT ON

:0

JOSH YOU GENIUS

YOU SMART SMART CINNAMON ROLL

MAMA GRANT IT’S TIME TO MAKE SOME MOVES

“nO NO CHIMNEY DON’T HANG UP!” i shouldn’t have laughed so hard

oh great he’s hastily grabbing his jacket. he’s about to do something rash and irresponsible

....someone call eddie.

that’s some good heist music right there

the bad guys look stressed....good.

“you’re here so i can keep an eye on you and make sure you don’t do anything foolish” BUT YOU LEFT BUCK

OK BUCK I LOVE YOU BBY

BUT YOU HAVE THIS HABIT OF TURNIN INTO SPECIAL AGENT 007 REAL FAST WHEN YOUR FRIENDS ARE IN TROUBLE MAN

LIKE

HE’S THE ‘EVERYONE BEFORE ME’ MEMBER OF THE FIREFAM

mama grant i ain’t questionin your authority or nun but like???

WHY WOULD YOU NOT KEEP AN EYE ON BUCK TOO?

HE’S THE MOST LIKELY CANDIDATE TO DO SOMETHIN STUPID

thats some reckless drivin there buckaroo

buck who were you tryna fool tho

athena only knows one golden retriever dude in this city who drives a grey and black jeep

“ok now, don’t be mad” LMAOOOOOOOO

HANDS DOWN ONE OF MY FAVE SCENES

HE KNEW HIS MOM WAS PISSED TOO LMAOOOO

athena’s look is sending meeeeee 😂😂

omg my god😭😂

“hey buck”

“...hey chim”

athena has some dumbass kids yo

the best part is, she knows it

the way mr. clean broke his neck when dude said ‘police cruiser’ LMAOOOO

“and if it’s not normal?”

“we’ll find out”

*blasts boss bitch*

i love the way buck is kinda concerned for his mom tho

and athena’s just like ‘it’s no sweat sweetie i do this every day’

“shoot her”

BITCH I HOPE THE FUCK YOU DO

YOU’LL BE A DEAD SON OF A BITCH

I’LL TELL YOU THAT

“shoot her, now”

try her bitch, see what happens to yo ass. 

the 118

the call center

the entire fandom 

we will collectively end you

“we got a report of a code 77″

THANK GOD THAT GOT ATHENA OUT OF THERE

what is a code 77 you say?

“ambush, proceed with caution”

well it sure nuff aint indecent exposure

*boss bitch keeps playing cause that was super smart for her to give out a code 77*

“maddie is smart, she can take care of herself until help gets there”

HELL YEA SHE CAN

SHE KICKED DOUG’S ASS SHE’LL KICK YOURS TOO

“they’re not gonna wanna leave behind a room full of witnesses”

i’m-i’m fine, i swear-

“killing people, your solution to every problem”

excuse me? do i hear morals??

they’re really fighting each other

they some grade a stupid right there 

there’s no way they are pullin this off

terry

terry what are you doing

TERRY

RUN TERRY RUN GO GO GO

OH SHIT

JOSHHHHHHHH

i thought they were gonna shoot terry

BUT JOSH CAME THROUGH IN THE CLUTCH

wowwwwww dispatch is a lot more badass than i thought

these dudes are hard core

OH

OH JOSH NO BBY

THAT LOOKS LIKE IT HURT

aii square tf up mr. clean we don’t hit josh here and you gon have to pay for that one

the way everyone is just quietly sobbing tho

it saddens me

“I need another thirty minutes”

i’m really enjoying watching this dude’s plan crumble around him

swat posted up aii i see yall

“we’ll try to get eyes in a damn windowless room”

well when you put it that way it sounds like this is hopeless

“i’m sorry i thought you were crazy”

“i’m sorry i wasn’t”

wow i don’t think i was supposed to laugh at that

and chim bein concerned for maddie is literally one if the best things ever y’all.

completely unrelated note, anybody else see bad boys for life?

“yeah i’m ok, my ears are just ringing a little” with the TEARS and the SNIFFLES and him SMILING THROUGH THE PAIN JOSH IS TOO PURE FOR THIS 

“why do you think we asked for so many RA units?” BITCH I KNOW YOU FUCKIN LYIN

for those of y’all that ain’t kno, RA units are rescue ambulance units

way to reassure people, lady

it’s like she said ‘everyone might be lightly shot by the time this is all over’

“so you are worried. it makes sense, cause all your friends keep dissappearing are they even in the same building?” WITH THAT LOOK OF STRAIGHT SPITE DAMN MADDIE BUCKLEY, DAMNNN

we stan the BAMF BUCKLEYS

“oh my god, LINDA??” lo key thought this was real for a second

“latex! is there latex in your gloves?” greg come on man you planned a heist you can’t be this stupid

SURPRISE! LINDA IS ALLERGIC TO BEES

ENJOY YOUR EPINEPHRINE ASSHOLE

OH

OH WOW

WOW DISPATCH

Y’ALL JUST-

WOW

EVERYONES GOT GUNS AND EVERYTHING OH MY GODDDDD

GIVE IT UP FOR DISPATCH 

you know it’s really funny, cause tiffany ain’t nowhere to be found

“next one goes in your head” OOOOOOOOOOOH SHE’S A BOSS ASS BITCH BROOO YESSSSSSS

(i know, two different songs, but ya gotta admit, it applies)

“you don’t get to die” 

i just-

hands down, most powerful line in the whole episode.

it’s an odd form of vengeance, saving the man that attacked you multiple times from the release of death

 that’s what it would’ve been tho

a release

he would’ve died, and he wouldn’t of had to pay for any of his actions

but instead, josh saved his sorry ass

so he gets to pay for this in the land of the living

the best revenge, actually

and, josh saved a life

he’s worthwhile

“i’m not goin back” well i knew mr. clean was gonna die from the beginning sooooooo

“we’ve got dispatch”  and it’s finally over

i’m kinda bummed that we didn’t get to see SEAL!buck or the rest of the firefam but we got  BAMF!dispatch and that was enough lmao

kudos to those off duty dispatches as well, like y’all just walked past the dead body and moved on from the whole hostage situation to do your already stressful job

CHIM’S FACE WHEN HE SEES MADDIE I AM SOBBING

THEY SAID MADNEY RIGHTS Y’ALL😭😭😭

this hug is everythinggggg 

lo key buck watching from afar breaks my heart ahaha

“she already has everything she needs”

....this is tea for another day, but...

buck, you do know people need you as much as you need them, right?

....right?

still not over that hug tho

ayeeee wassup bobby!

how was the camping trip i was extremely against?

oooooh i love the crime recaps!

i may or may not have been like buck in the bank episode when he said ‘i’m some confused, can you start over’

...ahem....

“wait....you didn’t round her up too?”

ok listen....

while i don’t condone stealing and and the extreme amount of violence they used,

i do condone outsmarting men that think less of you because you are a woman

you are a boss tiffany, and i’m actually kind of sad you got caught

“tiffany was the real mastermind” can i just.....

*BLASTS BOSS BITCH FROM THE ROOFTOPS CAUSE WOMEN OWNED THIS EPISODE! THEY WERE SO DAMN BADASS*

thanks 9-1-1 writers for that, btw. 

gotta admit, as much as they rip out our hearts and stomp on em, they know what they are doin

jake you shady shady bitch

ngl tho both plans were solid 

maybe if it was done completely by women it would’ve worked :)

“looks  like your trip’s been delayed...by about 5 to 15 years” athena you got the best lines yo

jake f’ed up the other plan too lmaoo

like i said, if it was all women, they would’ve pulled this off

and they end it with madney

gosh i loved this episode

So! These were my thoughts on 3x14! Let me know what you think, and hit up my ask box if you want me to post my thoughts on another episode! Later taters!

Oh yeah, if you liked this you can find my thoughts on ‘Pinned’ here!

[stripper-patrick]

Always be my baby💛 Erik Killmonger

Lil Mama 🍷

Oh shit♋️

Here for you📴

Bitch⚔️

Always be my baby💛

Warnings: language, fluff

Relationship: Erik Killmonger x black plus sized reader

We’re sitting down and I take a sip of my water when Erik looks at me. “What?”

“Can’t I look at you?” I blush and shake my head

“Quit it”

“I’m looking at my beautiful wife carrying my beautiful daughter”

“Wife? I don’t see a ring on my finger”

“Trust me baby girl I’m gon marry you”

“Ok I’ll hold you for that”

“What can I get you guys today?”

“Can I get the spicy chicken cashew?”

“Of course and for you sir”

“The same” the waiter nods and takes our menus leaving us alone again.

“This is nice almost like our last dinner before the baby comes”

“So what are we gonna name her?”

“I was thinking Zari’Elle”

“That’s beautiful and her middle and last?”

“Well obviously she’ll have your last name and I mean your government name”

“Ok for her middle name I like Naiya”

“She’ll be next in line for the throne”

“Will she? I think baby girl will do great” After a little while our food comes and I take a bite. It’s so good. I lean back and smile placing my hand on my stomach.

“Damn is it that good?” I nod taking another bite. “Lemme get a bite”

“I can’t have shit”

“You got me” he smiles. I stab a piece of chicken and he takes it off the fork.

“Gotdamn thats spicy” E coughs. He takes a sip of his water and I laugh.

“It has a little kick” I shrug eating more

...

“Ready?” I nod and he helps me out the booth. We get in the car and he begins the drive back to the house. “Do we have everything for Zari?” I nod

“Yup birth plan, nursery, car seat everything is set”

“Good” I sit on the couch and Erik sits next to me. He turns on the tv and I lay my head on his shoulder.

“I’m tired”

“Go to sleep then I’ll wake you up when we should leave” I nod closing my eyes and fall asleep.

...

I wake up to Erik’s phone ringing and he lifts his head off of mine grabbing it. I lift my head and use Erik’s leg as leverage to get up.

“Yea. Yea we’re on the way got caught in traffic. Ok cool” he hangs up “Can you help me with my shoes please” he nods bending down and grabbing my sandals.

“Baby your feet are swollen” he says

“I don’t even know what they look like anymore” I feel myself getting emotional and a tear falls. Erik stands up “Why are you crying babe”

“I miss my feet” He wipes my tears kissing my cheek

“They’ll be back now come on let’s go get more food” I feel a weird pain in my lower abdomen and it immediately goes away. Maybe Zari pushed on something. Or the spicy food.

....

We get to the cookout and we greet everyone eventually seeing Cody on the grill. Erik daps him up and Cody kisses my cheek. He rubs my stomach. “Baby girl still hanging in there?” He asks flipping the burgers

“Yea” His hand stays on my belly as he feels Zari starts to kick. I look at Erik who has his eyes trained on Cody.

“She’s a soccer player” before I can say anything Erik nods and groans. There he go again.

“Well there’s food in the kitchen help yourselves and enjoy” we nod. Erik holds my hand up the steps and opens the door to the house for me. We see more people and introduce ourselves. I grab a plate filling it with food. “Is that my plate?” He smiles

“Hell nah this is Zari’s plate”

“She not gon eat all of that”

“Yea ok” I laugh. He makes his plate and we sit down.

“Why you gotta be so jealous don’t nobody got my attention except for you”

“I don’t know what you’re talking about” he stabs into his macaroni and cheese taking a bite. “Lemme get some” he sucks his teeth and lets me get a bite. Another pain hits me and I gasp.

“What?”

“Nothing I think she keeps hitting something” I rub my back where the pain keeps hitting and his hands replace mine soothing the pain.

“Do you wanna go home?”

“No we just got here I’m fine” I continue eating and I notice some ladies gawking at us. Mainly Erik. I look at him and back at them and they glare at me. “I have no problem whoppin y’all asses while I’m pregnant with HIS child so I suggest you stop staring” they turn away and get up and leave.

“You so damn protective”

“Yea whatever” he stands up and grabs my plate throwing it away before leaning down on the armrests kissing my lips. I feel another pain but I try to ignore it. I groan letting go of his lips and dropping my head. “What do the pain feel like?”

“Like cramps” I take a deep breath feeling the pain subside. “Do you think they’re those fake contractions” Erik is very concerned he hates seeing me in pain.

“Probably” I nod. He helps me up and we go outside where people are playing flag football. Cody is on the yellow team and some other people are on the green team. Erik finds 2 seats and I sit down. He sits next to me and places his hand on my belly rubbing it. We watch the game and all through it that feeling just kept coming back. I hold Erik’s hand as he cheers Cody on. I stand up and go inside going to the bathroom.

....

The pain is damn near unbearable at this point but I know Erik will freak the fuck out. I walk downstairs and take a deep breath. I walk back outside and sit down but Erik is nowhere to be found. I see him dribbling the soccer ball. He’s pretty good. He dribbles it to the goal shooting into the goal and making it. I clap but that comes short when I feel the cramp again. I try to move around so it’ll go away but it only gets worse.

“Fuck fuck fuck fuck” I curse under my breath. I bite my lip and close my eyes for a bit “Zari chill”

“You ok?” Cody’s wife Demetria asks. She’s has kids. 4 which is way too many for my comfort.

“Demi how do you know if you’re in labor?” Her eyes go wide

“Well they feel like cramps but times 1000”

“Ok anything else?” I ask

“Your water usually breaks at least mine did here let’s get you some water” I stand back up and go in the house with her. I lean on the counter and she gets me a glass of water.

“Thank you” I gulp half the glass before setting it down

“Are you in labor?”

“I don’t know my water hasn’t broken but I feel those cramps and sharp pains in my back”

“Do you want me to get Erik?”

“No ima thug it out I’m fine” I take another sip

“You know he gon be mad girl”

“He’ll be more anxious than ever and I don’t wanna hype up something that’s not true”

“Let me know if you need anything” i nod and she leaves. I take another deep breath before returning outside. Erik comes up to me a little sweaty.

“Them niggas was light work baby- you ok?”

“Promise me you won’t freak out”

“Baby what’s wrong”

“I think I’m in labor” his eyes go wide “Oh shit”

“Chill E please” another huge pain hits me so hard that I double over in pain groaning. “Son of a bitch” I curse

“We gotta go” Cody comes over

“Is she ok?” Erik smiles “I think ima meet my daughter today” Erik smiles.

He helps me walk to the car and Cody and Demetria are right at my side as well. I get to the front lawn and walk across the grass. I stop feeling a gush of water soak my legs. “I’m scared” tears fall and I scrunch up Erik’s shirt.

“What is it that I always tell her?” I stop and think for a second “That you won’t let anything happen to her”

“Same rules apply” Cody opens the door for me and I get in writhing in pain. Erik jogs around and gets in starting the engine. He drives like a bat out of hell. During the drives the contractions become unbearable.

“How long E” I groan “A short 20 minutes baby” I lift my dress and put my feet on the dashboard “do you need to push?” I nod grabbing his hand. He rubs small circles in mine and I bring my chin to my chest pushing. I grab the overhead holder thing stopping.

“Ow oh my god” tears stream down my face “Come on Baby you got it keep pushing” I push again finally feeling her head.

“Wait wait I don’t feel right somethings not right” Erik speeds up trying to get me to the hospital “Erik I don’t wanna push”

“Baby you’re doing fine everything’s gonna be ok” another contraction hits hard and I scream. I push against my will and more tears drench my face. Her head is out and my baby is blue. “Erik she’s” I sniffle “she’s blue what do we do” “What?” I can see the pain flash across his face “babe just keep pushing she’s ok” he takes off his hoodie setting it on my chest. I push one more time letting out a blood curdling scream and I catch the baby. I wrap her in his hoodie and try to warm her up. She’s not crying, she’s limp.

“Erik she’s not breathing” I cry

“Keep rubbing her back smack her butt do something” I rub her back but to no avail she’s still blue. I smack her butt, again no cries. I look down and notice all the blood that’s still pouring out. “Erik take the baby” I put her in his arms and he looks among me the baby and the road. I see the hospital in sight and lay my head back closing my eyes.

Erik’s POV

I’ve been pacing around wrapped in my own thoughts for an hour. I’ve called her parents and Adria.

“Erik” I turn and see Adria and she hugs me.

“Where is she what happened” her mother asks

“She lost a lot of blood the b-baby wasn’t breathing and she was blue and I don’t know” I panic. They sit down in shock and I continue pacing. I go up to the counter to the receptionist.

“Y/N Y/L/N any update on her”

“No sir we don’t have anything”

“Go find out” I yell. The woman jumps

“Sir go sit down before I call security” “Erik” I turn around to see the doctor with Adria.

“Where is she? How is she? Where’s Zari?” My brain is all over the place. I’ll kill someone if I find out something’s wrong.

“Calm down look both mom and baby are fine. You can see Y/N she’s resting everything went well and Zari were still working with her we don’t know if she’ll-“

I grab him by the collar bringing him closer to me “if you tell me my daughter won’t make it neither will you. You better make sure my baby girl lives” I let him and he gulps “what’s Y/N’s room number”

“698” I nod and go up to her room with Adria and her mother hot on my heels. I get to the room and approach it slowly. I pray silently real quick before walking in and seeing Y/N up an watching tv. I let go of the breath I was holding and run to her side holding her.

“Hi baby” she says “I’m so sorry I didn’t wanna leave you” I sniffle.

“E” “I should’ve never left you I should’ve stayed and taken you here as soon as you started contracting”

“Erik look at me” she places her hand under my chin “I’m fine” The doctor walks in with a clipboard. “We’re still working on Zari’s breathing but she’s getting there”

“Come here doc” he walks closer and she grabs him by the collar. This man is just being whored today.

“If you don’t do all you can and more to save my baby girl I’ll make sure you pay” he gulps looking her directly in her eyes. That’s my baby. Y/N lets him go and smiles. The doctor leaves and Y/N lays back and I kiss her. “I can’t lose you again” She smiles and scoots over allowing me to lay next to her. “You got all this booty so you might be hanging off the bed”

“Don’t play with me” I laugh

Your POV

I wake up to the room door being opened. Erik is asleep in the chair next to my moms and the nurse wheels in Zari. She’s so tiny and perfect.

The nurse smiles at me “she’s all yours and her eyes are grey but they’ll change over time” she picks up the baby and hands her to me. Tears blur my vision but I blink causing them to fall. Her eyes are open and they’re this pretty charcoal color. “Erik” I whisper. He turns his head and I call his name again watching him open his eyes.

“Hmm” he groans

“Come here” he stands up and stretches cracking his back “What you need something?”

“Turn on the small light” he twists the little lamp and adjusts his eyes to the light. He looks down and his eyes go wide. I hold her up and he shakes his head “she’s little”

“Hold her” he takes the baby and she’s not even as long as his forearm. The cradles her head with his hand and holds her butt so she’s upright. I watch tears fall from his eyes. I’ve never seen Erik cry so much at all. “Hi beautiful. Hi Zari’Elle” he just holds her and I wipe my tears. “I’m so glad my girls are ok”

....

Erik is laying next to me holding Zari’Elle after I just fed her. I’m eating and he taps my thigh.

“Aye so you remember how I said I was gonna marry you”

“Yea literally yesterday” I don’t even face him this food is so damn good. “Y/N”

“What do you want little bo- oh my god” I turn around to see a ring in a matte black box.

“Don’t scream but since that punk ass nigga only did cause you were pregnant I figured I’d do it right so Y/N Y/L/N will you-“ I cut him off with a kiss. “Yes” I peck his lips and hug him. I put the ring on and kiss him again.

“Now that we sealed it we gotta make at least 3 more babies” he smiles. My fave goes blank “You touch me and you die”

“We’ll see”

[ruckusheaven]

A Coon In A Colorful Heaven: Chapter 5- “It’s All Pink on the Inside..”

Coon-  A black person who is ignorant to white discrimination and unknowingly suffers with self hatred.

This chapter continues to follow the eternal story of a man named Damien. When we last saw Damien he was taken to his family’s club by Angie. Once there he was greeted by his Uncle Craig who took him to see his Great Great Grandmother Lisa. Surprisingly enough she was one of the very few actually happy to see Damien. But as they began to speak, Damien started to explain his views on women and his preference; which started an argument about colorism and the struggles black women face. But before the conversation could be finished they noticed and were informed by Angie about Damien’s Soul Confliction. With little to no hesitation “GG” Grandma Lisa figured out the perfect way to educate Damien on colorism...Was by meeting his Great Great Grandfather Julian.

            -inside of Damien’s Family Club-

Damien: Great Great Grandfather Julian??

Damien: Why haven’t i heard of that name before?

Uncle Richard: Because he was never worth mentioning, hell we barely knew about him ourselves when we were alive.

Damien: Huh?

“GG” Grandma Lisa: *looks down* Listen Damien there’s a lot about this family that you never knew about. But to be honest how could you have?

“GG” Grandma Lisa: *looks back up at the crowd of people* Our Family did a terrible job at trying to keep our family history and connection together...

“GG” Grandma Lisa: So many stories... so many faces... I have been in Heaven for more than a century in your time and i still discover something new about this family almost everyday.

“GG” Grandma Lisa: *walks around the room* So much Pain and Love. Hatred and Compassion. Fear and Understanding. Destruction and Creativity. and Secrets... So many secrets

“GG” Grandma Lisa: *looks back at Damien* In due time you will see for yourself what i mean, I promise you that. But first we need to deal with your little Soul Confliction issue

*A Bright Light Crashes Down, Leaving behind Aunt Tanya and “GG” Grandfather Julian*

“GG” Grandfather Julian: WHAT UP FAMILY!!

“GG” Grandma Lisa: Speaking of which, perfect timing.

Aunt Tanya: You know... That beam is damn near instantaneous and i swear it felt like we were in there for hours. He just keeps talking.

“GG” Grandfather Julian: Girl hush, i made that ride entertaining!!

Aunt Tanya: More like annoying... 

“GG” Grandma Lisa: *Walks towards Julian with open arms and a smile* Hi Julian

“GG” Grandfather Julian: Oh my God Lisa *Hugs Lisa* *holds Lisa waist while staring into her eyes* Every time i see you it’s like it for the first time all over again

“GG” Grandma Lisa: Oh Julian..

Uncle Craig: Oh God

Aunt Tanya: You know for a couple that’s separated, y’all sure don’t act like it

“GG” Grandma Lisa: Heaven is place of forgiveness Tanya, you know that. I have no hate in my heart for this man, there’s no point in it.

Aunt Tanya: I can think of few but those would all be considered “Preferences” 

“GG” Grandfather Julian: Now Tanya i know you was slow in the head but i would think that me admitting 100 times that i was wrong would eventually stick in your brain   

“GG” Grandfather Julian:  I thought something would finally stick in you

Aunt Tanya: You son of a-

“GG” Grandma Lisa: ENOUGH!! from the both of you. Acting like damn fools for no reason

“GG” Grandma Lisa: Apologize both of you

“GG” Grandfather Julian: Now why i gotta apologize she the one that started-

“GG” Grandma Lisa: *grips Julian’s hand hard* I said apologize 

“GG” Grandfather Julian: 

“GG” Grandfather Julian: I deeply and sincerely apologize Tanya, i was way out of line

Aunt Tanya: Mhmm i’m sorry too

“GG” Grandma Lisa: Good. now you two can fight it out some other time, but right now we need to help my Grand Baby fix his Soul Confliction

“GG” Grandfather Julian: Right right, Tanya said that’s why ya needed me. So where lil man at *looks around the room*

Damien: *stands up sticking his hand out* You mean grown man Grandpa

“GG” Grandfather Julian: Well right you are *shakes Damien’s hand* good to see ya boy, good to see ya!

Damien: *smirks* Good to see you too Grandpa

“GG” Grandfather Julian: Boy did anyone every tell you, that you look just like your Great Great Great Great Great Great Great Great Great Great Great Great x53 Grandfather Musa Keita??

Damien: Ummm.. no

“GG” Grandfather Julian: Boy you gotta sit down and meet that man one day. He was doin his thang in the b.c time, boy you wouldn’t believe!

“GG” Grandfather Julian: Listen here man we come from Kings! you hear me, real Kings!

“GG” Grandma Lisa: Now Julian i’m sure Damien would love to meet and hear all about our history but we have more *cough cough* pressing issues to go over..

“GG” Grandfather Julian: Right Right my bad. So what seems to be the problem *grabs a chair and sits in front of Damien*

“GG” Grandma Lisa: Well our Grandson here seems to think that Light Skin women are better than Dark Skin women

“GG” Grandfather Julian: Ok ok....... see now i said what’s the problem, this right here just sounds like a preference

Aunt Tanya: Here we go

Uncle Richard: Is everything always a joke to you Julian?

“GG” Grandfather Julian: Boy the only joke here is you. You the only negro i know that still needs glasses in Heaven.

“GG” Grandfather Julian:  Heaven can fix and heal everything, and i mean EEEVRRRYYTHING..... but 20/70 vision. Ain’t that bouta bitch.

Uncle Craig: Should I throw him out now or after the ass kicking?

“GG” Grandfather Julian: Now don’t you touch me Craig!! *stands up*

“GG” Grandfather Julian: Last time you touched me, i had to soak in a realm made of lotion for weeks just to get your ash off of me

“GG” Grandma Lisa: Julian..  

“GG” Grandfather Julian: Now Lisa you know im just messing around with everyone. Everyone is so uptight today.

“GG” Grandma Lisa: For a very good reason

“GG” Grandfather Julian: You right, You’re absolutely right.. I apologize

“GG” Grandfather Julian: Ok lemme start this over

“GG” Grandfather Julian: *grabs Damien by the collar* Aye little nigga whats wrong with you and not liking Dark Skin Women!? Ain’t Ya Momma as black as November 23rd!!

Damien: *in shock* what the hell!

“GG” Grandma Lisa: JULIAN!!

“GG” Grandfather Julian: What?... This is what i did last time..

“GG” Grandma Lisa: Can you take it down a few notches and act like this is your Grandson and not some random thug that’s trying to fight you..

“GG” Grandfather Julian: *sigh* ok my bad, my bad

“GG” Grandfather Julian: *fixes Damien’s shirt* sorry about that man *sits back down*

Damien: *catching his breath* what the hell is wrong with this family!

“GG” Grandfather Julian: A lot more than we have the time to discussion right now. So can you please sit

Damien: *Takes a deep breath* whatever man *sits back down*

“GG” Grandfather Julian: Alright look man, that whole light skin is a preference and all that nonsense is some bull shit.

Damien: Once again how can you or anyone tell me what like is wrong, I was never attracted to dark skin tones, that’s just who i am

“GG” Grandfather Julian: Boy ain’t nobody born hating or disliking an entire color. That shit ain’t genetic, as you can see you come from some dark moutherfukas and we love ALL shades of chocolate *stretches his arms out*

The Crowd of Family: Amen to that! I know that’s Right! You ain’t neva lied!

“GG” Grandfather Julian: See

Damien: I get that’s how y’all are, but that’s not me. Why can’t y’all accept that i’m different.

Damien: Im not saying that i hate Dark Skin women or anything like that. I just choose to not be around them, they’re a mess for the most part.

The Crowd of Family: *gasp*. No this nigga didn’t...

“GG” Grandfather Julian: Now Now everyone let’s relax. Before we jump in his ass lets see where he’s coming from. Go ahead and explain yourself

Damien: Ok look, all my life i have seen nothing but ratchetness and ghetto shit from Dark Skin women.

Damien: From Tv, Movies and my encounters with them, they’re always loud, obnoxious, always ready to fight someone, always wearing weaves and wigs, always trying to live off someone else and just all around one note.

“GG” Grandfather Julian:

“GG” Grandfather Julian: Now i have heard some shit in my day, but boy i have never heard someone so passionately explain they’re ideology based around assumptions, one sided opinions and shit they saw on tv..

“GG” Grandfather Julian: Oh wait yes i have.. From racist white men and women that never had a conversation nor would even want to with a black man or woman.

Damien: Huh?

“GG” Grandfather Julian: Boy, do you know that what you just said is eerily similar to what white people have said about black folks for years?

“GG” Grandfather Julian: “ they’re always loud, obnoxious, always ready to fight someone, Violent, Always dependent on welfare, uncivilized, thugs” etc etc or as you say “one note”

Damien: Yea but that’s just white people being racist

“GG” Grandfather Julian: Negro where do you think colorism started!

“GG” Grandfather Julian: For hundreds of years your great female ancestors were raped and used as cattle, play things and servants. Then once these women had these kids that came out lighter then them, not only were they separated from their kids but they were also told to treat them as superior.

“GG” Grandfather Julian: That was one of their greatest schemes to slowly break us apart. Treating some of our own blood as superiors or servants so that those kids would eventually see Darker skin as beneath them. It was a way for white people to make them seem even more powerful just because of their skin; while also creating a form of control that made their job easier.

Damien: This all sounds like some white man conspiracy bull shit.

???: I’m afraid it’s not *walks trough the crowd and stands next to Julian*

Damien: Who are you?

???: Hello my name is Claudia one of your great cousins. I was born a slave in 1720..and i think my story could help shed some truth on what Julian is saying.

Damien: What, you’re going to tell me more stories? Listen Claudia, no disrespect but i don’t have the time for any long winded storytelling 

Claudia: Oh i won’t be telling the story, I will show you it..

Damien: What are you talkin-

*Claudia places both of her hands on Damien’s head, taking both of them to huge forest*

Damien: *in shock* what the... where the hell are we

Claudia: We’re in my Memory Realm.

Claudia: In this realm i will show you a brief glimpse of my life and the story i wish to show you 

Damien: What are you talking about?

Claudia: *sticks her hand out pointing in a direction*

Damien: *confusedly walks to where Claudia is pointing*

*After pushing his way through a huge bush, Damien looks on in shack and awe*

Damien: *takes a deep gasp* where... where are we exactly

Claudia: We’re in the 1720′s, in Alabama on the plantation i was born

Claudia: Welcome to my Life and now see my Story..

THE END OF CHAPTER 5

[shockwrites]

Don’t Smoke

Author’s Note: Originally a Crissmilk present to @scottyartz

Series: Ray Fox

Pairing: N/A

Length: 614 words

Rating: Safe

“Hoooo boy…”

A few dozen guards? No problem.

A few dozen trained guards? Something of a problem.

A few dozen guards with guns? Ok, now there’s a problem.

“Why does it have to be guns? Can’t we all just settle things with a nice friendly game of rock paper scissors?” the burning fox mused to himself. “C’mon Blaze, it’s just hard mode.” Ray cracked his knuckles, causing a miniature spark of heat. “Not like hard mode’s impossible right?”

Meva City’s underground population has always been high but now they really pulled out all the stops. Ray counted at least 30 goons, all under the roof of an abandoned warehouse, each and every wolf, bull, and reptile armed to the teeth. Whatever cargo they were protecting, it must be worth more than gold.

Nothing Meva’s premiere hero can’t handle, right?

Ray’s scarlet fur flared slightly, his ears twitching and honing in at a distance corner of the warehouse. A tiny flicker of light flared in front of a distance silhouette. “Gotta start somewhere.”

What was it about unsuspecting goons that made easy prey? Even among the most elite, professional, deadliest group of gang members and mercenaries, there’s still that one straggler. That one straggler that’s just asking to have his teeth kicked in.

Case in point, this dumbass canine with a smoking problem.

With the stealth and gracefulness of a dead cat, Ray clung to the shadows. It was fortunate that none of these mooks ever bothered to look up and notice the splotch of red just casually above their heads.

The smoking wolf didn’t even notice Ray looming over him.

The goon’s cigarette light burnt out. Muttering to himself, the canine took out his lighter starting a small flame only for it to burn out just as quickly.

He tried again.

Burnt out once more.

And again.

Same thing.

“You know that’s bad for you right?”

That was the last thing he heard in his following three seconds of consciousness.

–

Stealth immediately flew out the window almost as quick as the wolf did.

The small army had all converged onto the fox’s position, approaching from all sides. Luck seemed to favor Ray as the ensuing chaos had all been wrapped under a sheet of darkness. Speed had been his asset, allowing Ray to hit and run with nightmarish accuracy.

His palms swathed in superheated plasma, only one strike was needed for each thug. Gunshots rang throughout the entire warehouse followed by Ray’s mocking laughter.

“Yer swinging at air guys!”

To them, he was a burning red shadow. Fire itself. Virtually untouchable. Ray speed through the warehouse, putting his fighting skills to good use. However, his guard fell as a stray bullet sped past his face, grazing his scarlet fur. Way too close for comfort.

A lone, brave (or stupid) gunman stood before the vigilante, rifle in hand. Ray stopped to a screeching halt. The remaining thugs who still had consciousness followed, surrounding him with firearms from every angle.

Ray scoffed, casually putting both hands in his pockets. “Well fellas,” he began, “I believe we’ve reached an impasse.”

Every remaining thug in the room glared daggers at this cocky fox that really didn’t seem to care that death was waiting for him at every angle.

“The way I see it, we have two options here,” Ray explained, “Option A: y’all idiots can peel right the hell out without so much as a charred pinky finger. And then there’s option B…”

–

Several harsh explosions rang throughout Meva City’s industrial district, coming from just one building. From the ashes of the chaos, a lone silhouette strolled from the destroyed building.

“I swear, they never pick option A.”