#god what fhe fuck is wrong with me

[auroras-void]

God I am fucking pathetic...

My friend: has explicitly turned me down, twice (long story), and I was like "ya yk what I think I'm finally over her, I don't need to think about this again"

*is fine for like month*

Then:

*One particularly lovely phonecall with her and two cute selfies from her in the groupchat later*

"god fucking damn it"

[foxgirlplushie]

I don't fit it anywhere

[steampoweredskeleton]

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Ignore

[king-of-a-kingless-world]

oy yoo joonghyuk, your looking kinda rough there. you good blud?

ok i really like this because i feel like previously the comic had an issue with making me care about yjh regressions. like theyd say they happened but didnt show it in a way that made me actually care but like with this now i understand and i can care about the pain his character went through more rather than just 'oh yeah the regressions happened hes sad about that but your not gonna get to see why and any of the pain he went through'

WHAT FHE FUCK WHY DOES IT HAVE A MOUTH. WHAT FHE HELL NKOOOOOO I DONT LIKE THIS

oh gohd. i. i dont like this.

YEAH. YA SHOULDVE. ok so i didnt take screenshots for a while but i think its really funny she got eaten. i dont like her. i know she tried her best and was going through a tough time but when your a parent trying your best isnt enough. you are raising a human being obviously your not going to be perfect but being a bad parent and trying to excuse it with 'i tried my best' is crazy. any other situation trying your best will always be enough because thats all you can do but a parent should do more than their best. i just. ugh. i think shes a very interesting and compelling character and a very realistic and human one at that but if she was real id want to fist fight her.

YAH KILL HIS ASS. her only saving grace in my eyes. the only thing ill ever say she did right. but then she went and put dokjas traumatic childhood on blast to the whole world while he was still a kid without his permission so i still dont like her 😋

honestly outside of writing the book and not getting dokja away from the abuse eairlier she was actually an amazing mom, she taught him many important things and even here always taught him the right lesson. BUT WHY THE FUCK YOU WRITE THAT DAMN BOOK-

also she basically abandoned him in a sense so hate her for that too ✌️

WHAT. HOLY FUCKING SHIT. I WAS NOT EXPECTING THIS. ok most big twists i was already spoiled for but- ARE YOU TELLING ME DOKJA WAS THE ONE TO ACTUALLY KILL HIM?!??!!? OHHHHHH OH MY GOD. ok thats gonna fuck up his psyche to remember that but good for him yes kill that dude. also more points for her your slightly less of a shitty mom in my eyes you took the fall for him thats wonderful thats good parenting there (not the murder the being willing to take the fall in this situation)

thats actually insane because that means there was a reason behind the book. the book was to make sure no one ever thought it was dokja. i mean i dont think anyone wouldve suspected that so still she prob didnt need to write it but. THAT MEANS THERE WAS A REASON FOR THE BOOK. MY WHOLE ARGUMENT HAS BEEN THROWN OUT THE WINDOW I LOVE BEING PROVEN WRONG OHHH THIS IS AMAZING AND CRAZY. i still have my annoyances with her parenting but like. +50 parent points for this you go girl AND YOU GO DOKJA MURDER HIS ASS

oh. LMAO. DUMB ASS WAY TO DIE FUCKER. HAHAHAH DOKJA DIDNT EVEN MURDER HIM THIS DUMBASS SLIPPED AND FELL ONTO THE KNIFE AS DOKJA WAS HOLDING IT LMAOOOOOOOOOO THATS SO HILARIOUS. FUCKING IDIOT. so neither of them actually killed him thats hilarious thats so fucking funny pathetic death for a pathetic man.

ok but objectively letting him die was the good choice. like. mf deserved it.

[fuck-customers]

💋God I’m so tired of having to witness the literal worst of human nature. I swear retail brings out the ugliest sides of people.

Today I heard a kid running behind me as I was ringing someone up, and so I turned and said “slow down please.” Regular and polite. Well apparently that was a grievous mistake bc I immediately hear yelling and it’s the mom right behind me losing her little pea-sized brain over me “telling her child what to do.” Ok bitch well if you were watching him and making him behave I wouldn’t have to say shit in the first place. This woman was literally fucking yelling at me over HER KID acting up like what in the goddamn hell. I keep trying to tell her “ma’am I’m not trying to be rude I just needed him to stop running, it’s a liability and that’s our store policy.” Ofc she’s not hearing any logic bc she’d rather talk over me and go on and on about how I’m disrespectful for talking to her son and not her. Why does it even matter??? Idk. Finally she just walked away, glaring daggers at me the whole time.

Then like ten mins later her husband comes back, and I do have to give him credit bc he was polite, but he basically walks up and goes “look I wanna unpack all that that just happened.” Like ok Dr Phil the gist of it is that your wife is a bitch but sure let’s “talk about it.” I explain to him that not only is it store policy that I ask people not to run inside, but I also was polite in the way I asked. He agreed. But then he tries to explain “well the way we grew up, people don’t talk to other peoples kids.” Ok that’s nice, but that’s not everyone’s upbringing and again, I wouldn’t have had to say anything if YOU were parenting your child. Also think it’s weird bc these ppl were like 40 talking about “in my day we didn’t tell ppls kids what to do.” Like dude if anything it’s the opposite?? Especially down here in the south. I’m not nearly as old as them but if my momma caught me running around acting a fool in a store like that, not only would I get in trouble but she’d GLADLY let someone else scold me for my behavior. This whole thing of “if you even look at my child wrong I will explode” is def not a “back in the day” type shit, it’s new and it’s coming from all these dumbass fucking entitled parents that have no consideration for others in public bc they’re kids are the best kids and everyone else needs to accommodate to THEM, not fhe other way around. Jfc

And then immediately after that happened someone dropped a glass jar of salsa and didn’t even wait for an employee to come to the mess. They just left the salsa and broken glass on the floor, they ain’t even wait thirty seconds before saying “well not my problem” and walking away. I fucking hate people.

Don't give me any of that "back in my day" BS!

I am 49 fucking years old and one of my core memories is being 6 or 7 and just being bored as hell in church and me and my sister were just being kids trying to amuse ourselves and this crusty old man just gets up from his seat at the other end if the room grabs my arm and drags me over to where he was sitting and sits my scared out of my mind ass down and keeps me next to him for the rest of the service. My mom said nothing at the time but when we got home I got a whooping for "embarrassing" her and told me I better behave next time. And for the next few months every sunday this scary old man would grab my arm and sit me next to him.

So I have no idea what alternate timeline your customer came from but it sure as hell wasn't back in the day.

-Rodney

[powerpolyculeshowdown]

I JUST WOKE UP AND THEN RUSHED OVER HERE WHEN I SAW FHE TIME . ORV !!! PLEASE … THEY ARE SO ??!?!?!??!? WHAT ARE YOU DOING PPL…. WHY R YALL SO DISASTROUS…. WHY R YALL SO BISEXUAL ….. WHY R YALL SO OBSESSED W EACH OTHER….. their dynamic is so funny too idk, they’re like a comedy trio. idk how to express how funny they are, they r idiots… idiots in love but like they’re idiots… i don’t know how to explain. they are just??? they’re just silly okay. they are goofy and silly. they are idiots and fools and love each other so much.

they always seem like they’re attacking each other BUT they are just a mess it’s fine. it might just be kdj misinterpreting yjh’s actions once again bc kdj thinks he understands but at the same time he really doesn’t if that makes sense, and hsy is just too emotionally constipated in the “i don’t care about him, no not at all, yes i do hate kim dokja. why am i trying to save him? well. fuck you. you can’t question me like this” way like girl why are you so defensive abt it it’s okay you can care about someone like i’d say yjh is at least a smidge better bc he at least tries to make it clear that he DOES care abt kdj (the fool) (btw i find it funny that kdj just ends up with extremely important bonds w two emotionally constipated losers and he’s like “god these two need to confront their feelings more” as if he isn’t also as emotionally constipated just in a different way)

ARGHH i had this whole rant for yjh and kdj’s relationship but i realized it might ruin a part of the novel bc their relationship is just so integral to the story?????? just note that yjh cares so much for kdj, kdj affected and changed yjh so much. kdj loves yjh, it’s important, impersonal, he understands yjh and he doesn’t understand yjh, it’s sacred and ordinary love. if i try to explain why or how it’ll ruin part of the plot but just,, know. it is that. the barrier between protagonist and reader. (also this extends to hsy too, kdj just creates this barrier between himself and others in general and it annoys hsy and yjh SOOO much) hsy and kdj’s relationship is also important so idk how much i’ll say on that topic but like, what if lonely selfish people came together what would happen. and also i’m not actually finished with the novel so i’m not qualified to talk abt yoohan.

in conclusion: what if yoohankim was people saving each other over and over. what if they were each other’s salvation and couldn’t have survived and lived without each other. what if they were each other’s demise, the reason for this tragic cycle. what if they cared, so. so much that they would sacrifice anything and everything for each other. what if their relationship as a whole was so important to them. what if they were each other’s comfort. what if they gave the world to each other. what if. is it so wrong for them to want? is it so wrong for them to just want to hug and find such an ordinary love within each other? is it so wrong for me to want that for them? why are they so devoted to each other it makes me SICK in the head.

(sorry this is so long, it’s taken me over 2 hours to write this and it is still incomprehensible. i think orv just makes me so sick in head in general. help me. i feel like that one thing like girl help im an orv fan, we’re insane.)

girl help i never read orv and im becoming insane about them

[effervescentdragon]

S2 ep8 of the fake russian series, a liveblog of all my thoughts in order:

- kaz gives nikolai his cane - bff: the duality of akira - me: fuck off and die actually;

- MAL YOU DRAMATIC FUCK OH MY FUCKING GOD NO I REFUSE FUCK YOU ALL;

- SHE ACTUALLY STABBED HIM???? NO!!!

- inej fighting the sheitans is my sexuality;

- less ciggies, darkling. or yakno. poisoning yourself w dark magic you idiot;

- what happens when you hate becomes bigger than you, a study in darklings' sheitans;

- its so weird that its all in the sun and not darkness;

- wait now darkling is dead too?? whAT THE FUCK IS THIS SHOW????

- hes so pretty when he dies. there is no redemption tho;

- well. sure as fuck saw that one coming. stupid girl. not merzost. i knew it. shes gonna become her own fucking darkness;

- mal is alive but at what cost you STUPID IDIOT;

- five of c- CROW CALL - ALMOST THERE JESPER. ALSMOST THERE. NOW GET MATTHIAS BACK FOR NINA!!!

- oh so mal came back WRONG. SURPRISE. what is destiny when you have to choose it huh;

- im gonna burn my laptop istg matthias you fucking absolute idiot i swear to GOD;

- HASNT GENYA FUCKING SUFFERED ENOUGH I HATE EVERYONE FUCK YOU ALL SO FUCKING MUCH;

- mal having a midlle age crisis we love to see it;

- love is the least of issues here and the sooner yall get it the easier it will be;

- im gonna scream about nina and matthias he receives a pardon but he made a deal with thr devil IMMA SCREAM;

- okay i wanna punch kaz actually i wanna say goodbye go fuck yourself just TELL HER FFS;

- i want you SCREAM

- SCREAM!!! WHAT THE FUCK!!! I MEAN THERES A POINT BUT WHAT THE FUCK!! NO ARMOUR OR NO HAVING!!! SCREAM!!! THIS *BETTER* GET RENEWED!!!

- HES A PIRATE!!!! 😻 STURMHOND!!! COMPASS!!! POLYAMORY ACTUALLY!! SCREAM!!!!

- ooooh there is someone who will touch you inej 🙃;

- THEY SHOULDVE ENDED IT BEFORE NINA AND MATTHIAS IM GONNA DIE WHAT THE FUCK okay he fed fhe wolves they wont eat him????? FUCK

- MATTHIAS YOU IDIOT FUCK FUCK FUCK

- i hope nina kills rollins. or matthias does. With his bare fucking hamds i cant TAKE THIS 😭😭😭😭

- who had nikolai b3ing posessed by a shadow sheitan on rheir bingo card bcs i sure as fuck didnt??????

- i think zoya and nikolai should fuck;

- RED CORONATION???????? FAKE VIKINGS WHAT THE FUCK????!?!

- not the black cut 😶😶😶😶😶 and a smile???????

Well. 🙃

[katsukikitten]

Okay but the human trafficking hot line basically saying "well they're adults so we can't do anything about it" is the most wild take I've ever heard.

Like do you just do nothing? I can't imagine her just eroding away and watching her play pretend on TikTok that's WILD

I dunno that I could be a mom I'm gonna kidnap my fucking daughter back from the cult like????

I don't give a fuck what her age is. If it's my sister I'm kidnapping her FROM FHE CULT

Like half of your income and your peers income is going to the church and the pastor drives the luxury luxury car

I'm taking your ass back sorry. Hate me for the rest of my life I don't care at least you're not in the cult

OH MY GOD ARE THEY TWINS

Again thank God Kevin with the kid was like um no I'm not going to die to my son.

Also am I wrong is there not a story in the Bible about how God asked someone to kill his son for God and he was going to and God goes no you're not supposed to do that.

OH MY GOD THE ALLEGATIONS ARE WILD

Dude how do you do this shit to your family??? How can you lie and accuse them of being racist when they were more than supportive of your choices??? WHEN THE MOM WARNED THE BOYFRIEND WHO WAS FAMOUS THAT HE MAY BE GETTING EXPLOITED

Making them sign NDA in the house of GOD?! wild wild wild. Again Kevin is so smart

Dude thank God some of these people on TikTok looking through shit and being like "y'all sketch here's why" and pull RECEIPTS. OMG thank God these couple of friends started being like um I'm scared this is fucked up.

Omg is Miranda even fucking home?

Sadly back to work

[wewfimapuppie]

idk if i am protecting myself in any way here. but this is my final log.

i am going to have to take the message at face value. i saw the wkrd frighgebed and scared and idk how he perceived what i was doing. i felt like fuck it yknow i might be wrong but this is how its going for me. i felt it was the best thing to do? idk i def said weird shit.

theres no way around it this time. i went manic. i lost my shit. i imagined all that. i scared him.

to me it felt so real dude. so real. it felt like crazg things were happening to me. and i dont have a good support system so idk haha. i hated taking pills. i felt so awful. so i just wanna rely on God for now. and therapy. i'll find a way.

i'll also lay low. wear a black face mask. sunglasses. black beanie. on my way to work and way out. no one will know its me. i'll change and wear a dif sweater and bring a dif jacket yknow i even wanna dye my tips orange like. i feel so embarrassed and i dont wanna see him or have amyone that knows see me. im hiding. im scared. im disappearing. i will just work, head to Tijuana, get uber eats on fridays and some white claws or adjacent when we get comfy. and we dont talk to anyone except maricruz and our coworkwers yknow. stay vigiliant. i rather you dont talk to anyone anymore. we can make friends some other way.

i rather we focus on paying off our debt. and we drop this. we are at a point where we are questioning a text he sent us. we cant do that......

i rather like i said, we lay low, no attention towards ourselves and we wear a mask and domt do shows we are an online act idk. i wanted to be like yahoo lets do shkws z and this happened instead? i went manic? so idk i need to just dont interact w ppl like natasha i look stupid and crazy i have no supplrt to tell me um this is mania.

i can still paint, i can still sell, i can still make music even. but i cant expand or be public in san diego nah nope. i dont ever wanna see him or anyone. this is embarrassssing dude.

lets jjst keep it simple. food. paint. youtube. spotify. cookies and weed. some alcohol. lets just chill yknow? like back to the status quo? but this time we start fresh i guess. but for rn i rather be alone lmao. i feel cringe.

hopefully i can just focus on the job and getting my life together. thats all i can do. ni modo yknow? what else can i do? stay stuck on this? lets just move on. and focus on keeping ourselves afloat. safe. we will be okay. i still want to pray.

the last thing i'll say though is idk why he said that he blocked me bc i sent him noods when

1. he hearted them

2. he djdnt blkck me

3. i blocked him that time

4. i didnt sent him noods this time?

also i specifically have not mentioned his name jjst ryan and my complaints are like... justified?

so my theories on that is...

1. that... wasnt him...

2. he is like.... a psychopath and it isnt even me!! to twist it. make me feel like i went crazy??

3. hes saying a lie to cover why he really blocked me and its i seem crazy.

its just weird he said 2 wrong things. that i ever falked shit abt him and that i sent nudes now kr that he bloxked me when i did it 3 years ago? like he has reason to say jt was fhe Gkd stuff....

he also just ignored anything i said. about the holy ghost stuff. he didnt talk about God at all. the message was like in broken english it was weird. maybe he was scared? but why say a lie ljke that? when i felt its either im crazy or im...on to something. .

and why did he unblock me at all? to warn me or settle it? its still weird to ignore my one accusation. bro. whats with the staring.

but idk its weird like its enough where theyd know what happened. the email. the calling. ryan. the other subtle ways of contact.

so idk i think he couldnt say its bc you seem crazy and he gave you that reason as to why he blocked you even if it doesnt make sense. eventually we're gonna have to accept this is his response. idk abt what he knows abt me and ryan but i know he knows that unsolicited nudes thing is whack bc be liked them and he never blocked me i blocked him... so wtf.

i hate that this wasnt to me, a proper response. like ok i was frightening shit. but wait ur saying u blocked me? nah u blocked me now. no njdes. so idk what to make of this response. to believe it? theres an incorrect factoid.... that isnt it. so shit what now? now that is what will drive me crazy is saying that shit when that didnt happen.

thags what makes me think maybe he was a... cooky guy. bc hes lying. hes manipulating the situation. he didnt explaim himself. just said i was scary and a lie.

idk what it is at this point. him. me? what are the next steps? well... i rather we pretend it didnt happen. im never contacting him or seeing him. im leaving him alone. i dont want to make it worse. i can find "normal" love like tanner. no celestial shit. just hey we fit.... i wish it was normal. i'll pray for it.

but we forget him Riv.... he's gone. whatever it is you thought... his response, whether you believe it or not, could be his real response. and theres signs that your perspective is skewed. and this is it.

i know the nudes thjng sticks out to you Riv. but what are you supposed to do with that suspicion? i cant go see him and be like "was that really you?" like shiiiit no. so now what?

that is why i wanna tell you this; i need to feed you and pay your debt so im getting u a job. but i will also tell you this; if its meant to be it will be. if that isnt him, the real him will appear. but if not, you have more to live for

so. we forget any of this ever happened. we are in incognito mode. we keep it chill. focus on your mental health.

start working. start forgetting. get good at hiding. keep it simple. we can walk away from this bruv. who says we need to acknlowledge this happened? im dropping thjs. even the lie. it could be a cover up to a harsher feeling. we was nice enough to wish me good health....

i will be w say sd and just surviving. this is my last zane log tbh. for my safety and wellbeing.

[euclydya]

CHaRaCTR BINGO 4 FIRST 3 CHaRaCTRS 2 POP IN UR HEaD (OR MORE OR LESS. UP 2 U) l l3>

HAIIII HI HI BESTIE HAI :3c

ok first is Pain Threshold:

again trying to keep to My thouhts on canon characters not oue sysmates but soemtimes. the System Bias™ is difficult to . ignore FHDJSKDKFFJ ESPECIALLY W PT! FJDJSKFJF

so like. I! Love Her. So Much. I care abt her somuch she's so niceys here and we'd be in hell without her around but also. I would run up behind her and slap her in the baxk of the head and run away I would beat the shit out of her I would kill her if givent je chance I would activate PvP SOOOO HARDDDD ON HER. but that's bc we're in the same group [Physique] so it's liek sibling violence hereGJDKDKFKGJG

CANON PT THOUGH IS SOOOOOOOO. SCREAMS!!!!!!! VIBRATES!!! GIRL THERE IS SOMETHING WRONG WITH YOUUUUU. <3. LIKE WHAT THE FUCK FOR EXAMPLE:

[also ft. composure whom is also not normal btw! 👍]

She's just sooooo. Idk. I care abt her both source & in-sys. she's Importance. I'm normal. I would not hesitate to kill her and she would not hesitate to kill me WE'RE BESTIES <3 FHDJSJFKFKFFK

SECOND UP IS CONCEPTUALIZATION:

ok so source Concept like. I do not enjoy him much. Like. Like. Xe gives off Pretentious Artist Vibes. aHfjFjdjdjsjwjd which I guess tracks!!!!! from its in-game description: "Conceptualization has a special role it wants you to play in this world – not the role of cop, but of Art Cop." THAT'S SO SILLY!!!!! ZE'S silley. Like I cannot take their ass seriously I'm sorryFJCKSKFKFJD

But besides that she's not A Major Asshole just. Ju.gh.ead levels of Weird Pretentiousness source-wise! BFNXNXCNGJ

system-wise tho it's like. Well I *have* to respect you or you'll erase me! [HYPERBOLE] FJJDFKDKDKF

also has one of our fave lines in the game:

like what fhe fuck!!!!!!!!!!!!! one of the dialogues ever tjanks!!

in conclusion I'm rotating hym in my brain thankyou 4 coming 2 my ted talk

AND FINALLY!!!! HALF LIGHT!!!:

IM NORMAL ABOUT THIS KID [LIE] POINTS!!!!!!!!!!!! HTAT'S MY ADDOPTED SIBLING WAOW!!!!!!

ok sO!!!! this fuckigm. THING. this goddamn CREATURE of a skill. ok. ok! ok!!!!!!!!!! sys bias is Extremely hard 2 ignore w it! because we saw it and were immediately like THAT THANG IS A WHOLEASS KID and thhe fandom barely agrees???!!!!!! UNDERSTANDABLE PEOPLE CAN HAVE DIFFERENT INTERPRETATIONS BUTEVERYONE IS WRONG ABY THIS ONE THIS TIME SORRY! [JOKE!!!!! DO NOT KILL ME] so that's my unpopular opinion there!

ok where do i Start. uhhhh. this kid. thIS KID!!!!!! OH MY GOD the embodiment of fight or flight and trauma responses. ok. OK!!!!! SOMEONE GIVE THIS LIL GUY LOVE AND ATTENTION STAT WHAT THE FUCK! EHAT THE FUCK DUDE!!! it's incredibly violent and SCARED and waht the fuck who hurt youuu!!!!!!!!! oh my god dude!!!!!!

has done nothing wrong ever. "It actively encourages Harry to kill" ok and! maybe it's right. <3. have u ever thought of That. like. Half Light is Harry's inner child and Half Light most certainly deserves a gun!!!!!! LET THAT KID KILL thank u HFJFKDSKDKDJCJCJD

As much as I love and care for this bastard however I would not like to meet canon half light irl. Because. It would take one look at me and very very much attempt to actually kill me. and I would not like to die anytime soon! JFKCKCCKFKFKFK

and ik I crossed off "I like the fanon better for this one" but when we say that Assume we mean "I like whatever version of them exists in our system better than rhe canon version" it is especially true for half light LMAO

SO! i support children's rights AND wrongs [read: Half Light should be allowed to kill WHENEVER it wants. for whatever reason.] However I am not exempt from the Cain Instinct I'd absolutely defenestrate it if given the chance JFNDMDNFNFFNSJRJ

-Electrochem

[cult-of-the-eye]

This shit is 40 minutes??

THE METAL PIPEEEE

He sounds like a fucking pathetic little man

It's trapped?? How??

SASHAAAAAASAAAAAAJSHSHSJ

take the fucking moment you idiot

he's norwegian

JURGEN FUCKING LEITNER??????

it's a leitner...what??

Mother fucking Robert smirke

The tunnels change???

HE CLOSED OFF PASSAGES?? WHY???

Not-Sasha wanted to find him?? Why??

SMIRKE DESIGNED THE INSTITUTE???

He's a bit of a bastard he doesn't sound like he cares about his assistant who disappeared

He's using the books to hide in the tunnels and help Jon??

Who's his master???

HE TALKED TO GERTRUDE??

OVER 20 YEARS??

He's always being hunted by people and creatures??? Yeah no shit he's being hunted I'd hate the man too

GERRY KEAY!!!!!!!

Ha an angry goth

Ha the way he laughs and says that'll be our Gerard I feel like he kinda likes him

He thought he could control them??? Fucken idiot

Sacrificed dozens of assistances???? Hate the man

A guardian?? Bitchass

"Courage" as if

Skilled at shopping? Fuckwad

The mutilation????? Jesus

Keeper of evil tomes

Some books didn't react well when close to each other?? That's really interesting I wonder why??

Needs of the inmates

978???

The occasional antique???

People were wrong, didn't move normally, forgot to blink

"Everything was screaming" fuck

Too many teeth, limbs like knives, cavernous maw, door that shouldn't have been there, a great hand, pulled into a pile of meat

Darkness, burned with fire

YOU WERE A FOOL

HE DIDNT BURN THEM CAUSE HE WANTED A PURPOSE??? IDIOT

Gertrude hunted down some books - she was lonely??

She lost her assistants??

3 of them??? They each died???

Oh god this is so sad

Key of Solomon - went wrong - how did they destroy it??

Elements of several different powers

The Observer - not his role??

Immortal entities of vast dark power

Behest lol

"evil gods"

Worship??? Cult of the Lightless Flame

Extensions, fingers being pushed into our world

The SPIRAL - fools the senses, makes you see and hear things that aren't there, makes you doubt your own sanity

THE SLAUGHTER

THE FLESH

ELIAS KILLED GERTRUDE????? EHAT THE FUCK EHAT THE FUCK WHAT FHE FUCK

THEY WERE PLANNING TO DESTROY THE ARCHIVES WHAT?????? THE HELL????

HE CAN CONTROL EVERYTHING THEY SEE??? WHAT HOW????

THE INSTITUTE BELONGS TO ONE OF THE EVIL BEINGS WOAHHHHHHHH

THE EYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

HOW THE FUCK DOES HE KNOW EHAT ITS CALLRD

OH MY GOF

THE BEHOLDING

FUCK

We don't have time for you to have a breakdown, archivist

Oh my god I'm so stressed for jon

Fuck I'm so stressed but also his voice is so hot

Nope nopedy nope nope

Thank you @melandrops for giving me the trigger warnings I am absolutely not listening to brutal pipe murder

FUCK THE BLOOD OH SHITBALLS

JONATHAN WHY DID YOU THINK IT WAS A GOOD IDEA TO JUST LEAVE HIM IN THE ARCHIVES OUT IN THE OPEN YOU IDIOT YOU KNEW ELIAS WAS THE MURDERER SND YOU JUST LEFT HIM JN A BUILDING WITH ELIAS JON I LOVE YOU BUT HAVE YOUR MENTAL BREAKDOWN IN THE OFFICE I CANT BELIEVE HES HAVING A CIGARETTE WHILE MOTHER FUCKING JURGEN LEITNER IS BEING BEATEN TO DEATH IN HIS OFFICE IH MY GOD OH MY GOS OH MY GOD

He's been clear for 5 yrs now

"oh" OH? THATDS ALL YOU HAVE TO SAY FOR YOURSELF???

Oh god oh god oh god oh god oh god

TIM MARTIN YES MY LOVELIES

God Tim you're right and it sucks

Statement fucking ends

TIM yesss angry martin

JURGEN MOTHERFUCKING LEITNER

NO THEY THINK HE DID IT

Oh Jon what have you done

MAG 80 bitches let's GOOOOO

[a-little-podcast-blog]

Episode 100 Reaction Notes

These are my reactions from 1:00-2:00 this morning while I was listening to the episode for the first time. Contains huge huge spoilers

There was NO INTRO EXCUSE ME WHERE IS MY INTRO MUSIC

hi what the fuck is this intro music I LOVE IT HOLY SHIT BUT ALSO IM TERRIFIED

I’m so stressed holy shit my hands are shaking rn

They aren’t at the station oh no

BAD TIMES ARE TOUGH BUT NOT TOUGHER THAN ME, THAN US

Please bring back Cecil I’m so worried about him

Aw Herschel,,, I’m gonna cry he said I love you to the boys 🥺

Ben and Sammy saying “I love you” to each other,, fuck I’m emo

Kfam said Die Hard is a Christmas movie and who am I to disagree?

TROY???????? TIM 1 AND 2????????

SHIT THE HOTLINE AAAAAA

MAN DOWN OH NO OH FUCK TIM NO

for fucks sake the phones

WHAT WHO WHAT WAIF WHATFMBENSBEB JACK HORKH SHOT SHFJSKDB JACK OH GMGB GODU KAH IM SOBONG JJDJ FUCK NO SAMMY OMSO JKG

LILY SHIT FUCK OH MY GLD IM SOBBING KM SOBBINMG SO MUCH RN PHF FUCK IM SHAKING OH Y GOD

so much is happening and there’s still 20 minutes

DAMNIT everything just shut down in their backup station oh fuck that’s not good

HOTLINE

WHATS WRONG WHERE ARE EM AND LILY GOING WHAT HAPPENED WHATS GOING ON

POSSESSED BOOK YEAH THATS GREAT FUCKING HELL

NO IF ITS DEBBIE ILL LOSE MY SHIT

NO NO NO WHAT THE FUCK

EMILY POTTER I SWEAR TO GOD

WHAT THE HELL

YOURE FUCKING KIDDING ME WHAT THE FUCK YEAH THIS IS ALREADY A REALLY BAD NIGHT EMILY JESUS FUCK NOT THE DOORSTEP

“I NEED YOU TO BE STRONG FOR- FOR HIM” SHIT FUCK DAMNIT

HOLY SHIT CECIL IM

WHY IS HE AT THE DOORSTEP

WHAT THE FUCK MAN HOLY SHIT IS CECIL POSSESSED AGAIN WHAT THE FUCK

HERSCHEL GET THE FUCK OUT OF THERE

im so stressed that my chest hurts

NONONONONONONO FUCK

THAT LAUGH THAT FUCKING LAUGH

CECIL NO OH MY GOD IM SOBBING

WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON NO HERSCHEL PLEASE NO

WHATDH THE FUCK RUSOBF OH GMU GOD NOW HAG THE FUCK

THE MUSIC NO NO NO

8 MINUTES LEFT IM GONNA LOSE MY SHIT

THE DEVILS DOORSTEP IS OPEN WHAT THE FUCK IM LOSING MY SHIT I CANT DO THIS

JACK NO OH MY GOD SNEHDJSJS WHAY THE FUCK IM SOBBING JAKCK WHAY TJE FUCK WOHFN THE FUCK OH MY GOD JACK OH MY GLD WHAY SAMMY JACK LILY WHAT THE FUCK IM SOBBING OH MY GKD WHAT WHERE IS HE NO THIS IS BAD THIS IS SO SO BAD OH MY GOD NO NO NO THIS IS SO BAD OH MY GKD NO NO DOSSHD SHIT BAD BAD BAD SAMMY PLEASE NO JACK THIS ISNT JACK FUCK OFF PLEASE K CSMF IM SOBBING SBAH FHE FUCK FUCK KFF SHUT THE FUCK UP BITCH SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP THIS IS SO BAD THERE ARE TEARS STREAMING DOWN MY FACE I HAVE GOOSEBUMPS I CANT BREATHE OH MY GOD THIS IS TERRIFYING IM CRYING THIS ISNT JACK SAMMY PLEASE YOU CANT DO THIS SAMMY PLEASE JUST GO WITH BEN AND EM AND LILY SHUT UP FAKE JACK IM SOBBING THAT LAUGH NO WHY DOES SAMMY SOUND SO FAR AWAY

FUCK THIS

im done with this show im fucking done with this show damn every single thing to hell im listening through the credits bc there might be post credits or something

my stomach feels weird like anxiety

POST CREDITS BOYS

SHIT WHOS SOBBING

HELLO???????????????

H E L L O ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ?

DEBBIE?????????????

YOURE FUCKING WITH ME

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Dammit, I take it back

God dammit.

Got freaking dammit.

I hate the show. I hate it. WHAT FHE ACTUAL HELL?? WHAT RHE ACTUAL HELL IS WRONG WITH THEM?

Like it was a good ending. Yeah, yeah. Walking into the rain and all that sappy shit, but COME ON ! I’ve got questions. I’ve got questions and questions. Anyone can answer. Everyone answer!

First off, where was the screen time for my gay babes? Where was it? I saw nothing, I got nothing. EXACTLY ONE KISS from Jackson and Aiden. ONE BLAND I LOVE YOU from Mason and Corey. LIKE THE FUCK ? THE ACTUAL FUCH? I DIDNT EVEN GET THE I LPVE YOU I WAS EXPECTING !!!! Like I wanted Corey to save Mason and while they’re panting and all that, Mason just looks at Corey and kind of breathes out “I love you.” THATS WHAT I WAS WAITING FOR ! THATS WHAT I WANTED, DAMMIT !

Next thing. Scott Soft-Loving-My-Freaking-Pure-Souled-Baby-Boy McCall. HOW DARE THEY HURT HIM THIS MUCH WITHIN ONE SPISODE???? NOT ONLY DID HE GET SHOT, BUT HE TORE HIS EYES??? WHO??? WHAT???? AND HIS FEAR ! GOD DAMN HIS SHITTY FEAR !!! I was waiting literally a foot away from my tv for Crystal Reed’s voice to whisper “Why’d you kill me, Scott?” LIKE I WAS WAITING TO CRY !!! BUT NOOOOOOOOOO ! I GET A SHITTY VOID STILES AND NOGITSUNE !????? Don’t get me wrong. I loved Void Stiles and all, but it wasn’t fitting my expectations.

Last thing: WHY THE FUCK WERE THERE SO MANY PARALLELS??? LIKE THERE ARENT EVEN THAT MANY IN MATH FOR THERE TO BE SOME IN A SHOW ! I WANTED NEW AND IMPROVED CONTENT. I WANTED LOVES. I WAMTED MY BABIES TO MAKE THEIR OWN RIDE OR DIE STORIES !!!!!! WHAT THE ACTUAL HELL WAS THAT SHIT??? WHAT THE FUCK WAS ALL THAT SHIT ????

WHY COULDNT I JUST GET AN END WHERE I SAW ALL OF THEM IN THEIR SEPARATE WAYS ??? SCOTT FIXING A PUP, STILES FACETIMING LYDIA WHILE DOING A PROJECT, MALIA ACTUALLY GETTING HER PARIS TRIP, LIAM RUNNING AROUND THE LACROSSE FIELD WITH A SPECIAL SKIP IN HIS STEP, THEO FINDING A HOME, AND ECT. THATS THE KIND OF SHIT I WAS WAITING FOR. THAT GOOD SHIT.

More ranting to come, but my mom just called me bc I forgot to clean my plate. So don’t think that there won’t be another textpost about this shit.

Anyway…um…what were your thoughts on the episode?