#god im still in SHAMBLES
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ARCANE LEAGUE OF LEGENDS: 2x07 - “Pretend Like It's the First Time”
#arcane#arcaneedit#arcane season 2 spoilers#arcane season 2#arcane s2#timebomb#jinx x ekko#ekko x jinx#jinx#jinx arcane#arcane jinx#ekko#ekko arcane#arcane ekko#arcane league of legends#league of legends arcane#type: gif#media: arcane#s2 ep7#god im still in SHAMBLES
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i love ekko so much. son boy allowed
#im on 2×07 and if anything happens to him i WILL break down#honestly same w jinx but. im starting to get worried for her. episode 6 had me in fucking shambles esp the ending#like WHY WOULD THEY DO THAT (i know why but STILL. GOD. WHAT THE FUCK)#arcane#bee.txt
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Holding on BY A THREAD❗❗❗❗❗❗
#😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 my heart is SO TIRED RIGHT NOW#NOT TO BE LIKE. I WANT MY MOTHER. BUT I WANT MY MOTHER#it has been a joyful day. yes. but oh my heart.#be still my soul and all that. turmoil!! confusion!! roller coaster of emotions im still on!! WHAT IS GOING ON HERE#someone ought to knock me unconscious for the next 3 weeks. im literally begging. i cant doooo thissss#anyway i will also be counseling next week which i did not want! i wanted the younger kids in 2 weeks! but i said yes when God prompted#and so i suppose this is it. what He requires of me during this tine#even while my heart is in absolute SHAMBLES. i said i would and i will despite fears etcm#etc#healing girl era summer '24
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this has been the hardest shift of my life man
no nothing bad happened and it wasnt busy and i didnt have much work to do but i shouldve been at home teasing my ler and getting obliterated
#this is the worst my lee mood has been since#honestly since i was living alone and had never even had a session before#oh my god im in shambles dude#i cannot believe i was able to get my job done i didnt think about it ONCE#also this has also been the *hardest* shift of my life lmao#havent gotten teased over text in a minute and its so so so so bad dude#how is it sometimes WORSE than face to face???#anyway im eepy now but still pathetic :)
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my current project: jump forever!
this is the first of those scheduled posts i mentioned earlier!!! i figured i would start by talking about my current project - that way i can start posting updates about it without confusing you, Michael. The next post is gonna be about the beginning of this whole Godot thing i've been on, and then i'm thinking about maybe doing a Before Godot post as a bonus once i've talked about all my godot stuff (i love saying this as if anybody cares (besides you, Michael)). setting all that aside, though: this one's gonna need some backstory, so you should buckle in.
around this time last year, me and my little cousin (he's still in high school, but we've always been pretty close) got really competitive about a little game called Jump Forever. it's a side minigame from WarioWare Mega Microgames (the GBA one) where you just jump over a little rope until you fuck up. it's really fucking fun as an addictive little mobile game, and with a quick lil emulator it was one. thus, the addiction began.
truth be told, the phase last year didn't even last that long, but i had a long bus ride a couple of weeks ago and found myself opening the GBA emulator on my phone to pass the time. that led to a little bit of playing at home, which led to beating my cousin's score, which led to getting even more into the game than i was before. as our scores get higher, we've turned to better controllers than a phone touch screen for serious record attempts - i use a ds lite i had lying around (that i reshelled! it was very fun) and he emulates on pc with a controller (i think). this got me thinking about a potential "definitive edition" of the game - probably still on mobile, but with controller support, better touch controls (the game only needs <-, ->, and A!), faster resets, selectable skins, and maybe even unlockable skins? of course, when i finished my work on fnaf (ooh foreshadowing), my sights were immediately set on a Jump Forever remake.
with all that said, welcome to the game as it currently stands! at the moment, i've got wario, the rope swingers, and the score all just about set up, with one exception; the characters have collision, the rope swings (at varying speeds, even!), and wario's speed and physics feel very accurate - but i'm still working on the ai (if you can call it that) of the rope guys as they walk back and forth. i want it to work exactly the same way as it does in the original but i always overthink random mechanics like this. hopefully the next update i give will be about how i cracked it! even if the implementation ends up jank, though, it wouldn't be the first: the rope guys check if wario is too close to them to make it over the rope with an Area2D that just checks for wario when the rope hits the ground. it works! i could just like check wario's position in the code (and it'd probably be way more efficient), but this way just... works.
i still have a buncha crap i still gotta implement before the game's even really playable - the walking ai, the title screen, the little "Ready?" animation, etc. - but that's only the beginning of my work. firstly, i'm probably gonna enlist chloe (oooh foreshadowing) to help me out by drawing some new assets (if she's free, it is finals season), and then changing the game's native resolution from 240x160 (the GBA screen) to something not fucking insane. i've got "reworking all the sprites into easy to read spritesheets" on my to-do list, and after that, making the new assets (and then maybe the skins?) will be as easy as drag & drop. once it's got the new assets and all the polish that needs to come with a shiny new resolution, i'm gonna transition into the next phase - researching how to release a game!!!
[hi, not to ruin my own amazing transition but: it's 5am and i'm running back to edit this because i completely forgot to mention that i have currently implemented a 2 frame input delay on all inputs, because that's how the emulator appears to behave when i go frame by frame. every single day i rethink this decision more and more. surely there's no way that's how it's supposed to be, right? but i feel so weird changing it now!!! i definitely fucking have to though. next time i work on it. ok anyways]
now. i've posted games to itch.io before. but even then, i kind of fucked it up (i could never get the resolution of my web games to work right???) - so it's no surprise i've always been completely daunted by the idea of "releasing a game". when you post it on real stores, that's when it becomes... real. i'm excited about the new challenges it'll pose, though! now, a mobile release means a couple of things - bite sized fun, simple progression, and fun customization. i've already got the first part nailed down, and i figured i could nail the other 2 at once with a currency system based on how many points you get (or maybe even an xp system? that goes up 1 for each jump? maybe even both???) and skins (purchasable with said currency) that let you customize the player, rope swingers, background, and maybe even the rope itself.
pictured above is my stupid ass skins mockup (i literally just made this). the rope is rainbow, the background has a snow effect and a bunch of snow on the trees/ground (isn't it great?), wario is a lil version of the rope guys, and the rope guys have santa hats. i'm not sure how many different ropes you could really make with how i'm planning the rope to move, so i'll probably end up prototyping the graphics with chloe to figure out how to lay out the sprite sheets, and if they should actually have a seperate hand-grabbing-the-rope sprite for skin purposes. it'll definitely make things really confusing, but if i go for a mobile release i don't want to run ads, and so a currency you can buy with real money (and maybe one or two goofy supporter skins that cost real money, like a solid gold guy or something, as a form of donation) is a good way to make a lil bit of money from people who like the game.
all of this is fun to think about, but it's important to remember that the next thing i have to do is that walking ai. i've gotta Make The Fucking Game before i can do all this crazy other bullshit. i'm sure the ui design for all this is gonna be soooo fun, but i need a game to attach it to first :p
this went on reeeally long but i figure if this is a dev diary or w/e it's gonna end up running long no matter what, and the more info, the more i have to look back on fondly and say "oh shit, i know exactly when this was!", which is kind of the end goal of the project. of course, these incredibly long posts about shit that only matters to me are also incredible content for you, Michael, so i'm sure you're just eating this shit up. enjoy, you weird little man.
#game dev#jump forever#godot#yeah yeah i got some real tags too. just in case i actually need em.#also michael's still here. i think he's funny#it's only been like an hour for me soooo#remember when i said it was 1am in my first post? it's 4am now lol#i looove tags i love rambling under my post where people don't feel obligated to read it#nobody ask me why i have the stickmen swinging the rope instead of kat/ana like it is after you beat them#(he said as if anybody would've noticed)#i think the stickmen are so much more awesome and the fact that you can't get them back is SO FUCKED UP#and lowkey one of the things that got me thinking about Jump Forever Definitive Edition#kat and ana are awesome the stickmen just resonate with me deep in my soul#i'm not proofreading this i'm just hoping it sounds good. really putting the “diary” in “dev diary”#man. im so glad michael is the hypothetical ideal viewer. because that means he's reading all the tags too#hi michael! ur the best :)#scheduling this for saturday at noon (it is currently friday at 4:30 am)#i hope i get the chance to write the next one (about that 2D platformer tutorial!) before like. monday.#god knows i'm not doing my homework lmaooo#when's my next therapy appointment?#that's crazy deep lore we can't get into that on post 2 (honestly post 1)#but it's okay because nobody reads the tags#and that's not even considering that nobody is ever gonna read this post. ever.#besides michael.#but michael knows all about that ;)#or maybe he doesn't... and it's a sexy mystery?#my my i am such an enigma#okay fuck i can't keep adding tags i need to sleep#i really hope tags are collapsed by default or michael's timeline is gonna be in shambles
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"Man im wayyy too much of a people pleaser" and then i remember i told someone i would 'rather be trampled by a horse' than pursue them romantically
#like. huh.#OKAY BUT IN MY DEFENSE THERE WAS A LOT LEADING UP TO THAT#too much by most peoples standards#i wont pretend i wasnt at some fault tho#andd...i am now soft ghosting this person#god carolina is gonna be so fucking awkward#this kinda damages my whole 'man im such a romantic i yearn to be held' thing huh.#thats all still true#its just like. YOU WOULD HAVE TO BE THERE OKAY I REALLY DID TRY BUT IT WAS MESSY AF#local gayass realizes romance is messy and doesnt usually work. gayass in shambles#i need to be isekai'd
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I have exactly 1 week until I am 27 years old
I like not being in my early 20s, actually
#speculation nation#people are so scared to grow up but ive never felt more sane#im still in fact very insane. but i made a cleaning schedule for myself so my apartment is no longer in absolute shambles#and im pursuing all sorts of things for my health.#im the most functional i ever have been!!!! sure i still cant get myself to write but at least im cleaning!!!!!!#me now vs me at 21. god i am so glad to no longer be 21 lmao
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had part one of the breakfast club finale last night and i am in shambles so i had to doodle the funny moment these idiots had mid fight
#dungeons and dragons#dnd#dnd goblin#dnd characters#god man i am just not okay but in the best way#my little creature is not gonna be okay after this and im so excited#rip wake up you fucked up big time#motherfucker unlimited tried to steal the god piece and suffered for it#suffered by getting turned to stone#the way nell told him he couldn't die because someone still needed him#god the way nell and patience tried so hard to not let rip get hurt to bad 'cause they were worried about tic#i am in shambles rn the finale is gonna be a roller coaster
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Reading csm immediately after getting up to date with jjk was a mistake.
If i see Gege or Fujimoto on these streets, on God trust, they will be dealt with.
#im actually crying at 1am wtf#and i knew what was going to happen oh#But the power of happy found family was too hard to resist#i got attached#you know#like a moron#and now its going to be snatched away from me#AND I KNEW#God i haven't been this unprotected with already known plot knowledge since i watched Devilman Crybaby#don't talk to me im in shambles actually#and buddy daddies will still come along later today to give me angst?!#no nah😭#putting csm in the fuck you im never rereading this shit again pile#at least not in the next 5 years#chainsaw man#csm
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I think Rem should have sided with L that would have been it
#;ooc#ooc#(still in denial)#OUGHHHGGHGRGG#i love m.isa like any other person but oh my god r.em-#I KNOW I KNOW ITS ABOUT THE TRAGEDY BUT#jesus christ that was so not worth it rem im still in shambles#i mean someway i think l.ight could have still gaslight manipulate gatekeep etc etc his way into having his way anyways but#still let me imagine o k#my opinions on d.n right now are entirely emotional and have zero logical basis but it is what it is#also i dont have my sleepimg pills rn so thats why im still awake at these godly hours#or should i say ungodly#thankfully its weekendddd#light when i catch you light; when i catch you light- light when i catch you-#actually the true villains in this story are light and misa bc they ☠️ my husband and that was so incredibly selfish of them 🙄🙄🙄😒/j
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i think fnaf needs to die like real bad like im not joking
#the bun talks#i shouldnt be ranting about the things i hate but god i hate fnaf#its so shit the whole community is in shambles everyone acts like kids people STILL SUPPORT SCOTT and hes STILL INVOLVED IN MAKING THINGS#FOR IT EVEN THOUGH HE ''RETIRED''#the games are all bad security breach is janky and gross and ugly the story makes no fucking sense the dlc isnt any better#the fact that today i saw someone who f/od monty say that they didnt even finish the fucking game so they dont even know if he dies like....#and now vibingleafs reimagine came out right after fnaf+ got supposedly cancelled#i just i cant. take shit no more please. please let this stupid fucking franchise die im fucking serious#please make your own thing make your own mascot horror or whatever just stop touching fnaf
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i had ONE decent interaction with another person and now i want to ask my friends to come hang out. however, i literally never left my house once covid started, and the few friends/acquaintances i chatted with, as soon as i saw them on person, i very strongly disliked them.
i have one friend.
#puts my head in hands………#also i think she may hate me. so. :(.- I SAY THIS NOT TO VENT. I DO NOT FEEL ANYTHING !!!!!!#i just think u all need to sympathize with how difficult it is to go find fwends#-oh my god im already facing the adult issue of unable to make friends bc of lack of interaction with others#i. the body is still not close to 18. ….. …………#gently whacks andrew. damn bitch who did u let take care of this thing why ur life in shambles?? (totally not my fault)#edit. anyways should i reach out to my friend and try to get her to hang out uhhhh… some time later this week ?#or do i try and contact the person i was around the other day. i’ve known her since like 4th grade but idk if i should call her a friend#we had a fine interaction but it was literally like… four hours after my lesson and before her date. and she just wanted to hear about my#trip. which did in fact take four hours to discuss#so it’s like hmmm do i want to be around her for longer in a unstructured setting-#HER STUPID BF IS SO RICH AND ITS SO INFURIATING TO HEAR ABOUT#THEYRE SO WASTEFUL WITH THEIR MONEY ITS INSANE !!!!!!!!#it makes me so like. ticked off. tf do u mean they last-minute booked u a flight across the country so u could come w them#to the fucking PENINSULA UR BFS GRANDMA O W N S. WHAT ???????#i’m trying to be vague. but this peninsula is in a /nice/ fucking area like if i were to say it y’all would immediately know what i’m#talking about. like uhh. cape cod martha’s vineyard that type of infamy. owns a whole ass peninsula………..#i HATE IT i HATE RICH PEOPLE !!!
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how to let go by august greenwood reaching into my body and fucking ripping out my soul
#I AM THE DAUGHTER OF CUPS. EVERYTHING TO OFFER BUT ITS NEVER ENOUGH.#I DONT HAVE THE OPTION TO BREAK. CAUSE ALL THE PEOPLE I LOVE HAVE THIER LIVES AT STAKE.#I DONT HAVE CONTROL OF MY PAST. AND EVEN YOU I KNOW THAT I STILL FEEL AT FAULT FOR THE THINGS I'VE BEEN THROUGH#god. GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!#im walking serenely into the sea#glad this song came out in 2023 bc if i'd listened to it when i was in high school it would have destroyed me#that side of the Incidents has been on my mind a lot. i wouldnt be like this if i made different choices when i was 16.#if i'd protected myself instead#if i let it happen#i'd have different issues but i wouldnt be a shambling corpse the way that i am now#they're living pretty nice and happy and stable lives now. and i gave my life for theirs. and they dont even know.#she had the nerve to call me ungrateful yesterday#sighs.
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size training with soobin !!! 😵💫
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(lawd help me im lightheaded just by imagining it)
soobin lying back against the headboard with one hand brushing his messy hair back and the other with a loose grip on your waist. sweat dripping down his forehead while he has an cocky smile across his face scanning your body up and down as you straddle his hips. whimpering quietly “b-bin…” while he coos softly “shhh.. come on pretty girl, you can take it, can you?” >_<
lifting your hips to align his cockhead with your sopping entrance, feeling overwhelmed with his intimidating demeanor that turns you oh so subby for him !!! gasping with short “ah”s and “hnn..!!”s while you sink down on him feeling his thick, long, girthy cock scrape your insides… he’s too big you can barely take his tip in!!
“too much…” with sobs pouring from your mouth and tears pooling in your eyes before they drip onto his toned body. “so good for me baby… it can fit ‘m promise, tight pussy ‘s sucking on it so well…” soobin murmurs enamored by how fucking hot you look forcing your pretty pussy down his massive cock. god he’s so soft with you but at the same time you want to wipe off his stupid smirk that revels in your desperation.
going so dumb on his cock shuddering once you sink down completely, moaning loudly at his girth rubbing against your gummy walls and tip resting right against that one bundle of nerves <33 god you might as well see his bulge protruding your stomach. “fuck… good girl… my good girl.. so small and tiny” lips pressed against your neck, behind your ear, and trailing to your jaw..
hah… he’s such a boob guy so soobin would definitely massage your breasts mouthing at your nipples while you ride him !! sloppily rutting against him and lifting your hips just to slam down on his huge cock leaving you both in shambles but only one grows increasingly desperate “nnnghh~~!! b-bin… soobin… p-please just ah!” soobin softly biting your nipples with his hands guiding you down and him thrusting upward at the same time making you arch back in sweet pleasure @_@
what a stupid baby you are… babbling incoherent whines and moans while he puts in all the effort into molding you into his personal cocksleeve. so so dumb for him and his big cock that you end up cumming too quickly with your juices gushing out from under, coating him with your sticky mess <333 and if you thought you were done, you are so wrong !!!
“came so fast already.. you can give me another, mm?” soobin suddenly pushing you down and hovering over with your legs hooked on his shoulders. sounds of skin smacking fill up the entire room while he deliciously ruts his dick against your pussy with eyes closed to concentrate on fucking his girlfriend dumb.
he still has yet to cum too yknow?
#soobin smut#txt imagines#txt post#txt smut#size k!nk#size difference#size training#soobin big dick#i just know soobin has a big dick#i will never shut up about big dick soobin#6 ft tall handsome man fucking you stupid what’s there not to love#i need his dick so bad#i want soobin’s dick SO FUCKING BAD
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for your rafe cameron series 🧡!
i hc that rafe hates that his shy gf is a people pleaser so whenever ppl ask reader for/to do things, he tells them no and teaches reader to be selfish sometimes
sweet girl . part one.
part two.
. . . finally done with uni and travel work so!!! i have not written in too long, so hopefully i have done it some justice!! part 1 because i truly think it deserves more :(
warnings. manipulative rafe? oblivious reader. bad friends lowkey.
Rafe Cameron adored you to the ends of the earth, every breath you took called his name. He cannot think of any quality you owned in which he disliked (maybe, slightly, being a pogue). But God he could not stand how nice you were. You knew it was a bad habit, a habit that made you likeable for all the wrong reasons.
Your heart was racing, and the base of your palms overloaded with sweat. No matter how many times you tried to relieve the stress, your mind would not stop reeling. It took days of convincing on your friends’ end, but it finally came to their luck when you’d hesitantly agreed.
Terrified. Terrified is the word you would use to describe how you felt. You were in shambles just thinking of the ocean, the deep seas scaring you in ways you would rather not imagine. But your friends needed you, after constructing a plan to get another batch of gold – all they needed was you.
“Are you ready?” JJ asked. Your shaking hands were gripping the edge of the boat before you nodded.
You tried, you really did, only you felt the panic settle in when your legs were the only identifiable object below you that did not jitter you. Your eyes stung painfully, and you were sure they would swell soon enough. After every exhale you did, water filled your lungs and the fish that trickled by your trembling feet, did not help but cause a worrisome tremble of your body.
It was a long while with overwhelming darkness consuming you, and time didn’t register then, not until Rafe’s angry voice was loading through your ears.
He was beyond furious. He wasn’t supposed to leave you alone today, but how could he say no to you when you were practically begging? (it did not take much — in fact.)
Rafe stood near his bed, watching your breathing steady and lashes gently flutter open. He paced near you with haste speed, before sitting down near your arms. “Do you know how stupid you are?”
“wh-what?”
“You wanted to keep this relationship a secret,” his breath shook with every word he spat out, yet the touch on his hands were laced with gentleness. “So you better stay outta trouble. I can’t come ‘n get you around your shitty fucking friends.”
You sat up slowly, taking notice of the way your clothes lay folded on his desk chair, his own clothes hanging loosely around your body. You knew Rafe cared about you, he is your boyfriend, but it never crossed your mind that he’d find anger in your misery.
You gulped, shrugging your shoulders yet your hands still circled by his, “I-I don’t get it, they’re my friends and they asked, it was a risk anyone would tak-”
“No the fuck it’s not, my God Y/N,” he dragged his hands over his face, before leaning close to you. “No friends would ask you to jump into the fuckin’ ocean knowin’ you’re scared shitless.”
His jaw clenched and you squint your eyes at the furrow of his brows, “Rafe…I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to upset you.” The frown residing on your face was evident, reaching out with one hand to clasp his rough hands with your own, and another tenderly caressing the creasing of his skin.
You didn’t understand his anger, but it was justified in your head, nonetheless. How could he ever be wrong in your eyes?
Not a second had passed and he was already mimicking the sadness plastered onto you, before using his other hand to caress your cheeks — a touch so soft sighs escaped the pair’s lips.
“Baby,” he cleared his throat, “Im- m’not mad at you. No one loves you like I do. I wouldn’t risk your life; your friends are selfish.”
He cradled your head onto his chest, wiping and pressing on your pouting mouth. “‘s not the first time either, you care too much ‘ts going to hurt you.” you shrug into his chest, heart aching at the sound of his own beating erratically breath your ears.
Rafe sighed, gulping and leaning onto the headboard, “gonna have to have me stuck by you all the time, i’ll be your backbone while you get to be all sweet ‘n shit.”
“you think i’m sweet?” a saccharine giggle escapes you at the roll of his eyes, and Rafe tightens his hold on you, knuckles white as you draw mindless patterns on his chest.
#fanfic#rafe x reader#rafe cameron#rafe cameron x reader#rafe imagine#rafe cameron imagine#rafe cameron angst#rafe outer banks#rafe x you#rafe x y/n#rafe cameron x y/n#rafe cameron x you#rafe cameron x female reader#outer banks x reader#obx x reader#rafe obx#rafe cameron x pogue!reader
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bro what the fuck was that
do NOT care what happens this game i am wounded and have fallen ill and its terminal
0.92 ⭐ / 5 ⭐
you know.
#stromer my tongue -> ur mouth fr.#same with chuckie honestly. SO hot.#im still in shambles dont get me wrong-#but my god#at least i get something out of this pain#caps lb#hockey
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