#god has it really been 7 years
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listening to the counterweight prequel begin like alright let's see if i can remember this lore from something i last listened to 7 years ago—
*low thrum kicks in*
YEAH BABY THAT'S THE GOOD SHIT
ugh counter/weight ost is the best, hit me with those radio signals reflecting off the earth's atmosphere like a chorus of strange birds
love the stream graphic too
anyway back when i listened to c/w i uh... spent the entire time taking notes so i could pay attention and ended up with at least 100 pages in word so i'm sure it will come back to me 😂
#god has it really been 7 years#anyway love a low dull electronic drone c/w soundtrack is Peak Sounds to me#i should finish hieron lol#my listening pattern isn't unlike the way i read comics tho more chronological#i've listened to hieron s1 - c/w - marielda - bluff city s1 - and a variety of live shows and bonuses#as well as a handful of the recent live streams of the road to partizan#nadia rambles#nadia listens to fatt#i STARTED winter in hieron i just only listened to the first like. 7 episodes.#it's the problem with both having 500 hobbies and also adhd lmfao#my plan is to listen to this while playing happy home paradise cause then i have something to occupy my hands and eyes#that doesn't require me to focus so much i stop processing the words on the podcast lol#or. wait. road to palisade? sorry i have a hard time with words already and they're all s words lol
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HEY GUESS WHAT!! BOOK SEVEN IS COMING TO ENGLISH LATE THIS MONTH!! WE GET TO GO THROUGH THE SUFFERING TOO!! I AM SO SCARED ABOUT BAT DAD
S O O N
#art#twisted wonderland#COME JOIN ME IN THE SUFFERING#I AM SO HAPPY FOR YOU ENG! IT'S GONNA BE WILD!#EVEN IF YOU HAVEN'T BEEN AVOIDING SPOILERS IT IS SO MUCH WILDER THAN YOU THINK IT'S GOING TO BE#GOD i am really hoping we get the next (possibly last?) part soon over here in jp#i think our halloween event/pickups go through december 1st so...maybe we'll get it for episode 7's one year anniversary :')#has it really been that long. oh my god.#please twst i need to know what is happening PLEASE
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i may be near entering my first EVER long hair lesbian era guys this is a big deal
#i literally haven’t had hair that was even long enough to touch my SHOULDERS in got probably 15 years#like i’ve NEVER had long hair except as a VERY young kid and even then that was only a SMALL part of my adolescence anyways#because i had short hair for most of my childhood like 99% of the pictures of me as a child feature a dora the explorer ass bitch#and i just. do not consider myself a person who could or should ever have long hair#but i’m lowkey kind of curious to see what would happen if i just. let it grown for the first time since i was 7#just to see !! you know !!! like just because i can !!!#like hair has always really been important to me gender wise like since even before i knew i was genderqueer i was always just like that#and that’s part of why i kept it short from like fourth grade onward#but i’m 24 and kind of curious to have this fun new experimentation with how i look#i know that eventually probably even soon i’ll get board and cut it all off again as god intended. bc i really am someone with short hair#but for now i’m like yeah fuck it grow the bitch out#i’m almost playing chicken with myself to see how long it can get before i cut it off. watch me grow it to my waist
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yeah this is my art piece it's called "oh my god it sucks so bad" enjoy
#You know when you're like i have so many feelings about this one topic i could write 100000 words and draw 1000000 pictures but all you can#manage is like. One bad drawing#Anyway#been thinking over and over and over again about saying goodbye#Last year spring came and i was like oh my god finally. Life persists after winter#but This year spring came and it was like#Ive died everything has died#Everything and everyone is gone! Everyone i love will go away one day#Yea yea i know#the oldest story i know. Somebody has to leave first i get it#But you dont really think about it until#You have to say goodbye like 7 times back to back#And its like! Ohhh i get it#!the pain is unwavering ohhh!!!#Anyway.....#that's all#actually real quick#what's important is#the hug the brief moment#life is a lot of time by yourself but the brief moments really are worth jt#it's when they leave I guess. oh my god it sucks so bad!!#lol. ok anyway have a nice Sunday#Izuris art
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just found out that instead of my mom my fucking shitass dad is coming home FOR A WEEK
#ugh i really want to kill someone rn im so mad#why can't he just fucking leave us alone#i know he used to be home 24/7/365 days just a year ago but istg it took us no time to adjust to life without him#now he comes home for like 2 days and my blood starts to boil i can't bear him he's so fucking irritating and interfering#mom coming home would have been relaxing finally burden free after 15 days#now the burden will be double tripled he's such a fucking lazy slob he can't even get his own glass of water#and he'll sleep in our room because it has ac UGHHHHHHHJHH it's so yuck i won't have a minute to myself and my mental health will decline#even MORE than it already has like if that's even possible#and he doesn't take his fucking meds so he's all weak and sick and lazy and he expects us to coddle him#well you know what fuck him im not even going to pretend to be happy that he's here or be nice to him and try to make him feel welcome#he broke this family up and it's going to stay broken up forever so fuck himmmm#and i have a freaking 750 ml bottle of vodka lying in my dresser what the fuck do i do with it now huh?????#it's only like 1/4th empty 3/4th is still full#and it's my sisters birthday on 26th and they'll both be here ugh i was sooo looking forward to actually celebrating with her#now she'll feel miserable and horrible and it'll be JUST like every other birthday she's spent at home#fucking grand#ugh god i sooo do not want to cook dinner for 4 people im so sick of this#and he isn't even satisfied with dinner he fucking eats like 4 times a day he wants a hot breakfast and lunch and evening snack and dinner#man i hope something happens to him and he isn't able to come🙏🙏 god if you're real 🙏🙏🙏🙏
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in my hater era
#sophie speaks#tw vent#like. what. what???#i do try not to upset anyone with trauma dumping or whatever but sometimes that bites me in the ass because people assume I'm not strugglin#struggling hugely#had one of my most violent meltdowns ever recently and it was after pushing myself to do something#and you know. thats on me#but saying like#im NOT trying??#i dont want to start any problems but oh my GOD what do you think being sick constantly does to a person#what???#trying to be a proper adult here but i am quite upset#idk how are you supposed to deal with shit like this#express this has upset you and that you are having a hard time#but then they dont believe you??#trauma dump it is. hope you enjoy my psychiatrists notes#like im level 2 support needs autistic. i need a little fucking leeway or i genuinely try to kill myself#i KNOW its pathetic i KNOW its weak but my number one priority is keep myself alive#im so tired#ive been suicidal for like 7 years now#my life sucks so incredibly hard and I'm in constant pain and that just#it doesnt make me willing to deal with this shit#cripplepunk core lmao#cripple and im going to kill you#this is just geniunely upsetting#i feel like i need a good cry#i really am so tired#i feel like i just dont want to do this#why am i paying for this? why am i doing this?#if im not enjoying this why the fuck would i do it
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the vampire diaries 8.16 // louise gluck, crossroads
“and damon, like the voiceover tell us, he was worried he would never see stefan again. it was just elena assuring him that there would be peace. that we’ve dealt with this other side of darkness for several seasons, but there’s also light out there and there’s peace, and damon will find it. if you search for it, you will find it. and we wanted to get that last moment to see that [...] damon found it too, and it looked just like his brother.” — kevin williamson
#not really satisfied with this one but eh#i don't envy gifmakers who've giffed the tunnel scene btw bc the lighting. my god. a travesty#anyway. beating this dead horse of an ep to death to eke out every last drop of defan it has to offer#the contrast between damon's expression when reuniting with elena vs stefan kills meeeee#he's doing THE most for stefan but for elena... go girl give us nothing dot jpeg fjskfjdj#also in typical spn brainrot fashion while listening to damon's anguished declaration of love toward stefan in the tunnel or whatever#i kept comparing it to dean's 7 minutes of incest ahh speech in the finale and. my god lol#like i'm aware pitting damon i-stole-my-little-brother's-gf-and-let-him-drown-while-locked-in-a-safe-for-three-months salvatore#against dean i-sold-my-soul-for-my-little-brother-and-i-will-do-it-again-without-hesitation winchester#is unfair to damon but damon's speech is SO bland and half-assed in and of itself#and it absolutely PALES in comparison to dean's speech it's actually pathetic lmfao#i couldn't stop thinking abt dean confessing that he stood outside sam's dorm for hours before barging in#bc he was scared sam would tell him to get lost#and it made me think that the writers could've made damon's speech that much more personal and impactful#by maybe throwing in a line like “i didn't come back to mystic falls all those years ago /just/ for katherine”#it would've recontextualized their reunion in the first ep and given the hello brother moment so much more depth#give us something authentic! something the audience isn't privy to!#something only damon would know and keep buried in the deepest darkest corner of his black heart!#like!!! i'm sorry but damon's dying (not really) declaration of love toward stefan reads so generic lol#just smacks of lack of creativity on the writers' part which. tbf. is like all of tvd post s3 lmao#maybe it's a me problem idk i just think the speech could've been. well. better (obviously i blame plec she gave kevin a whole lotta nothin#like once you sit down and start dissecting damon's words they don't feel /that/ weighted. if that makes any sense#ok so maybe i just wanted him to say he didn't come back to mystic falls just for kat ! sue me#ANYWAY. someone please for the love of god write me a post finale canon compliant defan fic#a defan-in-the-afterlife fic if you will#or a damon-being-miserable-after-stefan's-death-and-being-really-shit-at-coping fic. that works too#wowee these tags are a mess#defan#the vampire diaries#web weave
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someone tell me if I'm in the wrong. To understand you'll have to understand what 911 is and what the Rick Riordans books in terms of queer rep. So AITA? ig?
So a person on Tiktok said "Ever think about how shows like 911 congratulate themselves over one Gay character when Rick Riordan has 3" and then they went on to say things about Rick's rep and how Nico was Gay before gay marriage, generally positive things about his rep. But my reply was "I understand but 911 has a lot of queer characters. Hen, Karen, Michael, Josh, then their are some calls with queer people. and Rick's rep took place over YEARS over 5 different series.“ I then said “I don't think it's fair to pit two drastically different medias against each other. 911 is a ABC/Fox show so it more main stream while Rick Riordan is mainstream but for Books that not everyone reads.“ she stitched this with a tangent about how Rick has given us rep even though he's a straight cis guy from Texas and all that. Then she said that they're not impressed by a show on fox has some Gay characters while Pjo has more and is written by a guy from Huston. Then they said that theirs nothing more they could want then the rep in Ricks books.
In the comments of that stich she said “If this series oldest queer character is 16 other media has no excuses." And my response was “911 isn't making an excuse. the show started with a black lesbian main character who has a wife and a kid. it's been queer since the first episode." And they replied with “You realize this is bigger than your show right? Its almost like i’m taking a bigger point about media during pride month. But you’re too busy defending your show to notice."
In another comment I said "911 isn't getting praise because it's finally got a queer character. it's getting praise cus they saw fans hc a character as queer and changed the direction of the show to make that canon" their response was “Yes and i’m saying rick riordan did that years ago. So thats nice but also its pathetic this is the best people can expect"
Their's more but I won't bore you. But like I'm just saying that's 911 isn't getting praise for having one Gay character, it's had Gay characters since day one with Hen, Karen, Michael, ect. To say that it's only getting praise for one Gay character is erasing the rep they gave us in the beginning. They deleted some of my comments and blocked my account but I was also trying to say Rick's rep isn't the best either, and I don't mean that negatively he did well for a Genx? Straight dude from Texas, I wish more authors would at least try. But over all comparing 911 to Rick Riordans work is comparing apples to oranges, they're different mediums so it's not a fair vs.
Just AITA? I think I knew what I was saying but idk?
also don't hunt them down id hate for her to have hate because of me.
#the user uses she/they pronoune so i think i did them right? tell me id i did that wrong too.#........#also not that it matters. ricks oldest queer characters arnt 16 we have the lebian ex hunters from the way station and apollo#and rick didnt change the whole direction of his books cus he say fans hc a character a lgbt he just kinda did it. maybe with piper?#and really rick did have queer rep since day one he didnt have queer rep till House of Hades with the cupid scene? i think#(if you dont count god who are queerish by greek mythology stands)#and yeah Rick did thats years ago but 911 has only been around since 2018. to pit them against eachother isn't fair. show vs book#the booka have been around for like a decade or more while 911 is 7 years. books rules are different then tv shoe rules#and then they said if shows wanted to give us rep they would and while I agree with the sentiment that they should i dont think it that eas#the amount of actors or writers for shows that have had to claw tooth a nail for queer rep shows that its not just do it type of thing#the writers and actors can hope and dream all the want but if the big executives say no it no. and not to say all writers/actors want rep#obviously not their homophobic people every where. its just think its different rules for a tv show then a book and its not fair to pit the#against eachother other like this.
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Still baffling to me how somedays I get a physical ticket at the movies and others I don't
I dont think it's based off of when I use my movie credit, bc I didn't get them most of the times I've used it
But I know I got one for Oppenheimer, I think shrek 2? Idr, and I got one today for Kingdom of the Planet of the Apes
Movie was okay. I mean it was good, but I don't think I'd watch it again. I might see if i can find the previous movies and watch them, bc the overall lore seems cool
Got to cut in line for snacks lol bc there was a middle school class there and the kids were weaving in and out back and forth in line and there was like me and 4 other adults that didnt come with the kids in line. So one of the teachers/chaperones escorted us (by slipping under the rope barrier lmao) to the front which was really nice
I mean I was early early to the show today anyway so I could have waited (would've been annoyed but I'd have waited) but it was really nice. I hope the kids enjoyed their movie day though
#marquilla#im gonna put my physical tickets in my scrapbook when i finally get back into that#not that i really did much aside from taping stuff on scrapbook paper and putting it in a scrapbook binder#but i had saved all my ticket stubs from when i went in high school with my friends#anyways while i was annoyed as hell with the kids weaving in and out of line the other adults (not with them) kept our mouths shut#bc we know that's just how middle schoolers are and it was an exciting field trip for them#but god were we relieved when the guy let us go 😭 agdggdgdg#i should write down the movies ive seen this year lol it has to have been like 7? at least? idk i go a lot bc it's something to do and only#$6.00-8.50 per movie since i go at like 10am so im not like dropping $20 a ticket every other week yknow dgdgdgd#plus its exposure therapy bc i had/have anxiety ab movie theaters since what happened in 2012 with that batman premiere and then#the general gun violence here so being trapped in a dark room with only 2 exits and being potentially crowded by strangers is a big stress#but im working past it... trying (meaning i go but that fear is still in my mind)
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wouldn't it be funny if I could write again lollollol........
#got a very sweet comment on a fic today and I was like oh my god. oh my goddddddd. ppl *still* like my stuff.#ppl still like my silly little stupid little stuff that I had stupid silly fin working on & it's dumb and silly but I shared it!#and ppl like it!#and I'm like not pushing myself anymore. like before I was kinda trying to force shit to happen#like sitting in bed with an open notebook/laptop like CREATE BITCH!#and I'm not doing that anymore lol and being on my meds has really made me feel SO much better#but also like I just don't.... have any ideas anymore. can't rotate blorbo like a rotisserie chicken anymore#I lay down to go to sleep now and because my body is not operating under severe extreme toxic anxiety levels anymore#I just fckn fall asleep. like I'm OUT. good night. sleepin. snoozin. zonked. 7+ hours.#no more blorbo thoughts at the end of the day I'm TIRED and my brain FINALLY shuts off#I hope one day I'll write again. I had so much fun with it. I have had a couple Thoughts#since I have been on my meds#but they're nothing more than a few quick sentences scrawled in a notebook.#it's like I'm doing so much other stuff and having fun in other ways and SLEEPING FINLALLY SWEET GOD ALMIGHTY#there's just like zero processing left for original blorbo ideas#this doesn't make sense and I bet you were all relieved cause I haven't ranted in tags in like months but hahaha#🤡 I STAY HONKIN'!!!! 🤡#(I'm actually really in a really good place mentally rn I promise like the best I've felt in years I'm just ahhh!! tonight lol)#erin explains it all
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am at Event and i wanted a coke from one of the kiosks. but anxiety. so i walked back and forth in front of it for a bit until i worked up the courage to go and!! order the coke!! and now i have coke!!
#this sounds UTTERLY RIDICULOUS which is the most fucked up thing about social anxiety i feel#literally felt my pulse increase at the thought of saying ‘hi a coke please’ to a cashier#but i DID IT#origpost#bad brains blogging#Event is gothenburg horse show btw#my mum and i have been going every year since i was a kid#god i want to start riding again. not at my old club though but it’s the only one in town the other went bankrupt last summer#i have no real reason beyond just having so much history with the place#and i guess it’s also the fact that my old instructor has quit#who i had from age 7 to age 20#it would eat up all the slack in my budget. on the other hand it would probably be really really good for me#the slack in the budget is only there because i spend all my free time holed up in my flat shaking with anxiety#okay. i’m not going to spiral into a crisis over THIS when i just got over my coke crisis#let’s focus on the positives. i have coke#yay! well done me!
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this is a really specific vent(?) post. im processing things by putting them in words. its not serious, feel free to ignore me lol
i just want to say that a couple years ago when i was in the beginning stages of researching autism (and would soon realize i am most likely autistic) i was in a relationship. and communication in a relationship is So Very important to me. I would constantly ask how he was (obviously it was more specific to whatever situation was going on) and he would always say he was fine. If I had even the Slightest hint that he wasn't actually Fine (like 19 times out of 20) i would continue asking if he was sure and if he wanted to talk, and he continued to say he was fine. half the time i assumed he meant it and i read the situation wrong, the other half of the time i assumed he didn't want to talk about it.
he ended up breaking up with me because i
"didn't pick up on some things"
"what kind of things?" i asked
"idk, just, things."
and he had been talking to my friend (U) about our relationship, and telling her that i wasn't picking up on things. she got mad at me and we had a "fight" for a short time, she thought i was being a bad partner, and her sister (M) (who is toxic and possessive) felt like i wasn't spending enough time with her, so she complained about it to their mom, who got mad at U for it for some reason? so U also brought all that up, telling me M felt left out. (i wasn't leaving M out of anything, i was sitting with my partner at lunch half of the time, she was welcome to join, but didnt, looking back i think M has RSD and maybe i should have been more direct when moving to a new location to explicitly invite her) (U was also not in school at the time due to covid, so its not like i was spending more time with her over M, which is something M would get so upset about if she perceived it to be that way [she was incredibly possessive of me as a friend and the extent of it made me feel like an object tbh])
U never brought up the issues my partner talked about, because that's how we are, we don't make it known someone was venting to us, to respect their privacy, but it fueled her emotions during our "argument" so i really only heard her being mad at me for not including M, (which i later learned is because M's emotions were made to be her problem when they shouldn't have, this has been a running problem so it wasnt that surprising to learn) so i started spending more time with M, but it was school, and i had work, so schedules only allowed so much time, and any time I was with M (lunch and one class) was when i was also with my partner, but i had other classes with him so i assumed it was fine, but he started drifting away (also around a time i attempted to communicate something important about our relationship, which ended up making him uncomfortable, but he didn't say anything about it until we had a conversation after breaking up)
i was stuck in a place where i felt like no one around me communicated how they felt and still expected me to understand them and do what they wanted me to do
U and i recently reflected on this and realized my ex was a shitty communicator (he and his next partner also broke up because he didn't say how he felt and expected them [also most likely autistic] to... just kinda know ig?) and that she should have gotten my side of the story (she had no idea i was frequently checking on him and trying to get him to talk to me)
and that she wasnt actually upset at me about M, she was upset that people were making it her problem, and she was especially upset during this reflection to learn that M was not being left out at all, she was just doing That Thing again where she wanted me to be Her friend and Only Her friend.
U AND I ARE NOT MAD AT EACH OTHER FOR ANY OF THIS, I WAS NEVER MAD AT U AND U WAS ONLY MAD ABOUT HER PERCEPTION OF THE SITUATION, AND ONLY FOR A SHORT AMOUNT OF TIME, EVERYTHING IS FINE
so basically i went like a year and a half thinking that people were rightfully mad at me and i was too self absorbed to pay attention to other peoples' emotions and i started learning how to read people again (clearly my body language research from middle school wasn't cutting it anymore) only for me to realize i just need people to be a little more direct that allistic people typically are, and those specific people were just being dogshit at communicating, (even for allistic people, relative to my needs)
anyways highschool post-covid was Really Fucking Weird and socially stressful for me
TL;DR reflecting on my communication needs not only not being met, but being far undershot for even a "normal" persons needs and how i was convinced I was the problem because of circumstances
#U and i are best friends and have been for 7 years now#U and M are twins#M and i barely talk anymore now that she has Other Friends (grateful tbh)#i know i previously brought up having an ex bf with messy hair and eyeshadow. this ex was Not Him#(my identity as a lesbian was shakey in highschool- i was figuring things out)#(i had several “girlfriends” in middle school (all lasting less than a week after the first because religious guilt))#(but in highschool i had two separate boyfriends and zero girlfriends)#oh god my first ex is such a fucking story but thats for another time#also the ex in this post was like. REALLY fucking obsessed with spiderman#it was great frfr#but it made anything spiderman related super weird for me for a like a year after the breakup#he broke up with me On our 7 month anniversary like right after school got out for summer#the next school year was awkward bc he was in one of my year long classes and we had a LOT of mutual friends#he also started dating his next partner like a week or two after breaking up with me#i was also pushing down ALL my emotions at this time so when i finally Let Myself Feel Things a couple months later i played Good 4 U a LOT#17 was a fucking weird year for me frfr#honestly ALL of my teenage years have been rough and i have never actually let myself acknowledge that before This Moment#and that feels really weird to say because im technically still a teenager#this post ended up way fucking longer than i thought it was gonna be#(also going back to the middle school “relationships” ive sorta-almost-dated a good handful of people#but i only consider 3 people to actually be “exes”)
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i'll be so honest, i am only in the swiftie fandom for the music atp
#diya says#it's gotten so exhausting lately#i unfollowed a few swifties here simply because i needed to step away and didn't want to see so much content no malice behind it#not my mutuals though i love you all and will never unfollow you#you're my main source of swiftie updates now#this was the first fandom i've been in where it wasn't just about the music and i really enjoyed it when i first joined#but the way everyone is obsessing over her love life 24/7 is pissing me off and it's just really tiring#i love posting about her tour her easter eggs her music FOR SURE#and i love all the music related discussion re album rankings certain eras of music ofc#but so much talk lately has been about her love life#how joe is this evil man who has not been letting her bejeweled and how travis is a god on earth#and i'm here like#no one was talking about any of this to such a huge extent this time last year#i will always be here for the music and i love love analysing her music and career but i genuinely don't think i can handle any more#of this love life discourse#and which songs are for which exes or whatever#anyway there's my spiel#and i sincerely don't want anyone to misconstrue this as hatred for swifties it really isn't#it's more so a criticism of the fandom space and why i don't want to be so involved anymore#ts
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cold as shit & freezing my ass off in this winter (But at least we made it to December.)
#dadbots.txt#starting the new month off with a sore throat & body aches due to household cold-like symptoms. Thanks. Even when I was trying 2 avoid it#and with how cold it is — permanently staying In bed forever. Like it’s physically making me curl into a crab rn oh my god it’s so cold#Which is both hell and good in both ways. Bad since I stay in bed too much anyway. Almost everyday.#Especially with chronic low energy and 24/7 fatigued. Mentally and physically. And i really gotta do better -#- and reduce that since that adds up alongside other unhealthy habits. And I can literally feel it taking a toll on me unfortunately.#But also good since I’ll be resting more often than not. It’s not something i do and so having the opportunity to rest is kinda nice?#Still. Two sides of a coin right now. And this cold is definitely not helping me or the fact it’s easier to get sick 10x more.#Back to pain relievers and heat ig.#Although with this just. Might be a cold but also not? Thing? Since not all of my sore throats are colds but overproduced mucus. Gross.#But been drinking tea like habitually to knock this out and warm blankets and stuff. Feeling better as of typing this. So thank god it’s wo#This month been… interesting to say the least. A lot of personal talk and changes that should’ve happened years ago.#But hey. You live and learn.#And I’m not mad at it. I’m making progress when I would’ve shrugged and say it’d never happen. Now it’s happening and even I’m surprised#Doesn’t mean it’ll completely override everything in my life or push stuff to the side. Though it’s better than nothing so I’ll take it.#Winter is always hard for a lot of people and I’ve been hit with it as well. Even near the holidays and all.#Been rough. And the constant realization that each month I don’t remember…. Anything. That has happened.#But also that I did a little more than previously and slowly pushing it each month. Little by little.#There’s been a drastic change from last year to now. Went through new lifestyles and experiences. Exploring different fields. Etc#So it’s been one hell of a ride anyway. And that I can sit back and be content with. Even if nothing else is currently going on yknow#December probably gonna be slow. But we’ll see. Hope to bring new opportunities fortune and possibilities along the way. Take care y’all
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When I think about my 1st and 2nd grade self and the problems I had at school I really feel like I should try to get a adhd diagnosis
#i learned how to read in pre school#and reading/interpretation has always been what i'm especially good at#so i was really bored and being a problem child the whole time#like there is this one specific day that i discovered how to make a catapult with my desk and a ruler and sent my eraser flying to the back#of the class and i was a problem kid already but god I never saw my teacher so angry lmao#and i remember that before I did that i was so fucking bored i might as well die kinda bored#and THAT was the solution my 7 year old brain had to that problem#and there are other things like i just hated copying the alphabet everyday i already knew how to read i felt that was useless#and now that I know the concept of understimulation I know that explains my behavior back then a lot#because before fractions everything was so easy to understand that it bored the hell out me and I couldn't care less#text#personal
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many experiences today
#we went over to türksan to get a panoramic xray of my teeth at the dentist (no elaboration)#then we went to my favorite good place again! third day in a row. they know us very well by now#i broke the bones of one of the chicken wings i ate while biting into it from the sheer amount of force i was putting on it.#i then got called ladylike once again by im assuming the owner. the people of turkey Love me#(<-has been called ladylike by three different nearly-strangers recently)#we then went to the ice cream place just across ^^ i got oreo ice cream and gum flavored ice cream#...gum..mastic gum? is it called mastic gum. thats what google says#oh whatever. its those unflavored ones#then we went to A101 (a grocery shop) but i waited outside because there were cats there#one was really sweet but there was a little kid (about 7 years old) that screamed at it and chased it. have not had homicidal thoughts in -#- a while but i did today#then we went home#was pretty nice! im very proud of having gotten called ladylike again only because that means its Working (me being nice)#🌙rambling#OH how dare i forget. on the minibus ride there we saw a god damned horse. and people were riding it with a carrier#i was very shocked. second time i've seen horses in this place
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