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decembermoonskz · 2 years ago

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rules: spell your url with song titles and tag as many people as the letters! tagged by @dalkyeom mwah chia <3333 full disclosure I’m not gonna tag that many people lololol I prefer to just leave it an open tag game so just play it to your heart’s content everyone 😂 chia you set me up for a wild ride LOL ily

D - Demons by Imagine Dragons

E - Easy by Stray Kids

C - Cyberpunk by ATEEZ

E - Enemy by Imagine Dragons ft JID

M - Magic by TXT

B - Broken Compass by Stray Kids

E - ESPRESSO by TWICE

R - ROCKY by ATEEZ

M - Moonwalker by SEVENTEEN

O - Out Of The Woods by Taylor Swift

O - Our Dawn Is Hotter Than Day by SEVENTEEN

N - Not For Sale by ENHYPEN

S - Star Lost by Stray Kids

K - Kick It by NCT 127

Z - ZOOM by Jessi

#tag games!!!!#god I really struggled for a bit LOL #it took me forever to think of a Z song 😭😭😭

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cerealmonster15 · 1 year ago

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jamil in ruggie's ceremony robes story or whatever: god ruggie and azul you two are freaky and up to no good when you come together about business, im outta here 😒

jamil when he and ruggie team up during that One Part in masquerade event: :^)

#no spoilers but. god. that whole bit is everything to me why are they Like That kjfdsjkflej #jamil viper #ruggie bucchi #twst #twisted wonderland #cereal tries to draw #god they really are evil little boys fjkslf it's so funny theyre so awful i love that they enabled each other and were so coy the whole tim #HORRIBLE!!!#but yknow. i forgive them 😌jklsdjfldjs #also whats with jack and ruggie both having vingettes where they randomly gotta work at mostro lounge LOL #it's an nrc quota everyone ends up there one way or another #fun fact i was gonna draw jamil and azul but then ruggie appeared again #im excited for masquerade event to drop in twsteng #gonna go nuts trying to get Several Cards lol #i thougth about adding epel bc him and ruggie have a good bond also #the three of them are THE working class trio in my mind #theres another scene with ruggie and eppy in masquerade that's short but cute that i like lol #the weed picking scene #my boys and their manual labor skills shining while everyone else struggled dsjklfd #god masquerade is kind of an insane event but it's very fun and i like it #ruggie and azul when theyre in sync: i hate this guy but we have a common goal in mind so ill endure it :)#ruggie with jamil in that one scene: hehehe. u get me ;)#listen. LISTEN-#theyre fun. i think they should be evil together more often #but also maybe it's for the best for everyone else that they dont klfdsjlf #ok maybe i should go to bed.........

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synthshenanigans · 10 months ago

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Here's all the more realistic-ish redraws I did of some screenshots :}

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#ik I already posted one but shush #you don't know that #anyways i both love & hate these #the magic of art lol #first two i really like tho #struggling on the hands & pants a bit but oh well #some of these would be a bit easier to draw if SOMEONE didn't put 80 fuckin filters over the god damn VIDEO #im not actually mad i swear in fact love funky lil filter & color effects #but man that 20XX ones especially #was more of a shading test than anything pfft #chonny jash #cj thdph #cj wwph #-atlas art-

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minhmynchi · 2 months ago

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a delete later wip so im turning off reblogs but yay my turn for a scene redraw

#minhmy rambles #going to rly ramble in the tags now so like ignore all of this #im going to delete it anyways i needed to ramble somewhere that isnt my twitter circle #more rambly tags just to rly shove it all down #and theennnn ine more #ok. so. i think work is rly killing me lol working every day is really taking a toll on me and i cannot draw and write as much as i want to #while also keeping up my social life and Also making sure i get some alone time too #its so hard its sooooo so hard to keep my spirits up im so tired all the time #and its not like i have a choice i have to work every day because no one else can cover my shift and its been like this since may #like ive only had 4 days off since then.#im getting another day off next week for grandfest bc i need it #and im getting a weekend in october but i don't think i can get any other days off in the year #ughghhhh my job is so easy literally i draw all the time right thats why most of my art is traditional bc im drawing at work #i can just sit at my desk and be on my phone if there's nothing to do its literally the easiest $19/h of my life #so i wouldn't trade it for the world but god i keep making mistakes bc i just havent had much of a break #ughghhh my mental state would be so much worse if i wasn't taking magnesium too #its just. raghghghh #you know? just like that #i can get through it. i am just struggling the tiniest bit

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bmpmp3 · 3 months ago

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guy who feels a reasonable level of excitement about a vocal synth announcement voice: yeah so ive been listening to the virvox anniversary video (where the voice providers sing in-character) on loop for the past few hours imagining in my mind's eye what Kotarou's AI voicebank might sound like

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#god that video is cute. the mixing is a little clunky but who i am to judge. i cant do much better LOL #specifically the pic for akashi.... hes so cute here. and i forgot how nice his vp's singing is #but anyway yeah listening to this year old tiny bit of kotarou's vp singing does make me realize...#you know i was struggling a bit for a second there imagining what an AI singing voicebank for such a character-y voice would sound like #because a lot of AI vocal synths aim for classically pretty and clean voices (especially in sv but also in cevio and such)#BUT now that im thinking about it. hes kind of a boyish equivalent of zundamon's voice in the sense that hes like #high pitched giggly and intentionally a little goofy and mascot-y. so i think i can picture it a bit more now... i am INTRIGUED #i think he'll be a really fun addition to a lot of peoples vocal libraries. he'd work for a lot of goofy and jokey songs i think #and if he's on a software i can use i'll probably put him on some emo shit LOL #because i love hearing cutesy idol-y mascot voices sing emo shit <3 #Youtube

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daily-whistlepaw · 8 months ago

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daily whistlepaw until ah becomes PoV day 1167

I think I finally understand how people feel when around a crush, can't say I enjoy it

#warrior cats #whistlepaw #windclan #medicine cat apprentice #this isn't my first crush lol but this one has had me feel the strongest of feelings (and might be my first genuine crush lol)#the fact I have been building up A Lot of stress for the entire week probably didn't help.#and the fact my stomach hurt is also probably at least partially to explain by the fact I barely ate last night #but MAN seeing my (latest) crush in such a pretty dress and then go on stage and play (a goddess!!!!!!! she's a goddess)#(I already bought tickets to go see the full thing; I will die but I will die happy (I hope))#but yeah I struggled for a good 2 hours to fall asleep and also had stomach weirdness happening the next morning #man it was not fun #(and then she came to sit next to me during class and I had to play it cool (I was too deranged on sleep deprivation to really care about #being my typical brand of weird but I do sometimes feel like an idiot around her and feel guilty because then I fear that she finds me #annoying and will hate me and I will fail this again (losing a friendship over a crush once was not that fun lol) and Traumas don't help #either at all so uh I'm just trying to spend time with her I just always feel a bit worried that I'm annoying her and it's consuming my bra #I do also still feel a little guilty about having this crush; internalized homophobia/issues around sexuality are hard to shake off #and while it's very normal and stuff I never dare to go the entire way when my brain conjures fantasies that are a little too risqué #I just feel guilty man I know I shouldn't but still it fucking sucks in my brain #and god talking about this in therapy would be a mess #I might have to eventually but I don't wanna #anyways; wild vent in the tags aside; yay a whis!

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willowser · 1 year ago

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it is I, the anon who was rambling about proherodabi/assistant reader a little bit ago and I, Mmm. I haven't got the words to be honest. I dearly dearly love both dragon bakugou and werewolf bakugou (the shape of water DEEPLY a(e?)ffected me and I've been on the monster boyfriend train ever since) however-- WEREWOLF BAKUGOU HAS GOT SUCH A TIGHT GRIP ON MY HEART. I am dazzled by his past boyish charms and clutching my pearls at his present roughness. just really kicking my feet at it all tbh. What I've seen so far is the exact thing I'm looking for in all the pnr romance books I read and I just love him so much and you do such a good job. so. yes. I'm terrible at ending things but hopefully ive created an accurate picture at how much i adore everything you write.

oh, hello again, sweet friend 🥺 i also have been whisked away on the monster boyfriend train !! first class ticket !! you're so kind 🥺 ty for taking the time to share your thoughts with me !!! they mean so, so much 🥺🩷 how lucky i am to have you here !!! reading my lil stories !!

teenage bakugou is — a menace alfjskeja i wanna throttle him !!! pinch his cheeks !!! he likes you so much and can't even admit it !!!

but adult bakugou 🥺 who is changed forever by his curse 🥺 he is unintentionally rougher around the edges, harder to get close to 🥺 but regardless of how much he bares his teeth, the little boy of him still resides deep in his heart, wanting for you, always 🥺

#you're so sweet 🥺 it means so much to me 🥺#to know that you even struggled for the right words; i am cherishing you !!! cherishing !!!!#๑ but god i like it: bakugou ๑ #ngl writing him as a bit too animalistic is really doing it for me akgjskakahq #he's just too rough and aggressive and unfiltered #barely hanging on by a thread #woof.#ajfhdiskalfhkaka LMAOOO #teenage bakugou is so endearing in such an annoying way LOL #he likes you so much !!! 🥺 doesn't want anyone else kissing you !!! 🥺#✿ willow writes #✿ ask willow

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piplupod · 4 months ago

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mistakes were made. should not have gone to library today. i will be leaving the house all five days of the week now (plus we went to a waterside on sunday for several hours) and uhm... i feel like i need to go hibernate for several weeks to feel even remotely okay again fhdkdl i am so tired i can barely think enough to string words together in any comprehendable way 🧍<- upset

#oohoohoo the self destructive ''well maybe I'll just push myself bc im going to be tired either way'' sure was a bad choice!#''lol who cares anymore im sick of being fatigued and im probably just making it up'' you are a fucking idiot god bless your soul #and yet.... the urge to Make It Worse is still so strong.... gee i sure do love p.mdd!#honest to god im so fucking frustrated w this brain lately #been trying to hide any sharps away from myself because I've just been so wildly careening into self destructive tendencies #and im sick of trying to like. control myself. i am my own keeper and im fucking sick of it gjfkdl #im trying so fucking hard to hold it together and keep myself on the right path but im really just incredibly tired #it feels like im trying to wrestle a knife out of a toddler's hand #and then the toddler cries and tantrums bc they wanted the knife #and i have nothing to give them to distract them. except im also the toddler.#idk how long i can keep this up for bc im ALSO managing other ppls emotions and baggage and shit at the centre #and over text. mainly that one person who i wish would just fucking leave me alone #but her grandma is literally on her deathbed so I can't rly try learning how to be firm rn #bc if i try to be firm i worry i will end up being a dick and i dont want to do that while she's struggling w pre-emptive grief #i don't know !!! im just so goddamn exhausted and struggling #and the world seems very cruel and terrifying and im honestly convinced im never going to find a way to exist peacefully in it #like im always going to be scared and struggle to trust ppl and struggle to socialize and feel safe anywhere #im going to be so honest. i wish i had One friend irl fhfkdl like. i think that would help a lot of my issues #to have someone i care about and respect and who actually cares about AND respects me back #and who i could just. be around. exist in the same vicinity. and not feel so scared and unsafe #a bit of a break from those constant feelings while not being isolated #who i could do activities with ???#thats actually so hard for me to imagine ever having ffhdjlsl its been so many years since I've had any semblance of that #it doesn't feel like im ever going to have that again :') it feels so impossible. pipe dream. unrealistic and unattainable #okay i need to shut up fhdksl sorry for being so insane on here every day jfc #one of these days i hope i will be genuinely stable for like... longer than a day fhfkdl #pippen needs 2nd breakfast #self harm mention

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judasisgayriot · 8 months ago

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i promise I’m a huge proponent of blocking and curating your experience etc and yet it also seems like I complain all the time sorry asdgjkhkl but this fandom has genuinely made me paranoid about following or reblogging anyone new lest I be blockt n cancelled yet again for the associating w the wrong ppl crimes I seem to have committed several months ago when I got into foblr. which is kinda a bummer

#sorry I genuinely feel like I whine all the time and I really do believe in blocking n curating lol #but like I’m a chill nice person I just want to see content of the thing I’m into and I’m getting gradually cut off from a huge chunk of pp #so its just making me feel like a crazy person man!!#Truly I have block me if you want in my bio and I stand by it lol but it feels like it’s never ending and idk man #i maintain my relative innocence here! I’m just here for a good time! how did I end up at the pariah table #sigh thanks chill freaks n weirdos for being chill. promise I’ll shut the hell up now don’t get hurt don’t u get hurt. lol #also sorry if I like reply to your posts n act like I’m your friend but you’re actually like uh stop #talking to me you’re not my friend go away. i just like genuinely want to have friends and I’m awkward as hell #god this is so stupid and long and I feel like a cringefail fool but what can you doooooo #I’ll make some gifs or something this weekend. i like making things I like being in fandom! but man. it’s been a bit of a struggle here #(foblr lol)#anni rambles #I’m not actually sarcastic and cool and disaffected enough to fully be like LOL WHATEVER IDC even though I partially have that spirit #I’m too earnest and soft for the real haters n freaks n too much of a freak for like. the clique I guess lol

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revvetha · 8 months ago

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honestly hate that I'm still fucking around on tumblr atm. and that I can still message people during a 30min window of the afternoon where I'm just in the sweetspot of caffeination. I'm doing so unbelievably bad atm and like... It's not like I share much outside of tumblr, but I genuinely don't think anyone would even believe me or understand how serious it is. Because I'm not being dramatic and mysteriously brooding and hiding away, and instead I still occasionally post about my blorbos or whatever. Like my suffering doesn't count unless it fills up every hour of every day and is the only thing I talk about. Like maybe if I isolated myself even more and were even more self destructive, someone would give a shit.

How fucking ridiculous that I wish I could be sexier and cooler and more dramatic about my own mental illness

#Idfk it's all so stupid. And now I'm on tumblr posting about it AGAIN instead of shutting the fuck up . god.#I honestly just want someone to see how rough it is and offer literally Any kind of support or at least validation.#like if someone just said like 'I can see you're having a really difficult time and struggling much more than usual' or smth #I would already feel so validated and comforted fr #as gross as that is I WANT to feel a bit special. I want to be treated extra carefully bc I'm in an exceptionally bad state.#I want people to say 'it's rough for them atm so at let's all be extra kind and cut them some slack'#I'm really really really fucking tired of being strong about it #personal #vent #if therapy worked on me that'd also be swell lol #Anyway I'm going to bed because I'm more sad and scared than I can handle while conscious lol

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linda-rose · 10 months ago

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say what you will about svu's season 20 lmao, but them continuing that storyline in "Facing Demons," with an amazing callback to the title of Cassidy's last episode AND doing it so well by not making it Over The Top but still significant was 10/10. Might be my favorite episode of this season so far.

#idk it all just felt very natural? if that makes sense #some of this season feels a bit forced or too preachy for lack of a better word #but i think this episode was really solid and i loved how they ended up there in a truly normal way through a case #and it was a real look at his character his past and how in hindsight in impacted his relationships #and also showed that him and Benson were BOTH struggling with this sort of thing and opening up back when it seemed to mostly be her #it just felt like closure for them that i never felt like we got without also being Too Much #like some of the endings of these season 20 episodes lol #and also i just love him I'm sorry #and that final look they share...GOD #it just made me feel a lot better with how things ended and made a casual friendship possible again #and the glimpses we get of how much theh both still care and value one another UGH #and again how they ended up there was iconic tbh realizing what they were doing i was like WAIT YES I REMEMBER HE SAID THIS NO FREAKING WAY #AND its FINALLY another episode i actually liked Stone a lot in so 10/10.#i think him and cassidy were great together and i loved the roadtrip lmao.#anyway sorry for the essay in the tags but who else will i be able to say this to LMAO #svu #law and order svu

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cerealmonster15 · 4 months ago

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kaveh genshin is so relatable bc i too am in my mid to late 20s trapped in a people pleaser vortex of my own making and having. a hell of a time re: professional career

#for. different reasons really but. these things dont have to be a one to one comparison to be relatable fjdkslfh #alhaithams also relatable bc hes a sound hater and is bad at socializing. altho kaveh claims he knows how and just #chooses not to. i think thats debatable sdjlfksd #maybe both. who knows. tbh kaveh probably does know best #i got distracted. anyway. jeeze. good lord.#i was just thinkin about how little i feel like i can do rn #i havent made fanfic progress in a long while bc i just feel like i cant #one of the [redacted] skills i technically do for my field i also just. god i feel so stuck and bad at it #but. at least im learning programming ??? thats been the one think keeping me on track #thank god for this one course ive had to follow thats giving me a sense of structure in these trying times #bc i actually am doing a lot better w/it now and am trying to make my own thing for potential portfolio work lol #but hhefhghdhf um. i'm in a bit of a struggle period right now :')#what ever i dont wanna get more into it im just . gfjdfhghhf

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skitskatdacat63 · 1 year ago

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