#getting better?

[someduckwithagun]

I actually like this one for once

[octag0nall]

4 weeks ago, i read a caption on instagram, by a band i've loved for a while now. i've not been able to get it out of my head. in it, the writer mentioned that he had read drinking green tea every day helps with acne. he said he's been doing it everyday since then, and wasn't sure whether it was the tea, or watching the tea bag mesmerisingly swirl in the water each day which calmed him down. since reading that, i have done the same. i am equally unsure whether it is the tea, or watching the tea bag mesmerisingly swirl in the water each day which has calmed me down.

in a different caption, he talks about those moments with friends when you’re talking late into the night, and you’ve forgotten a sweater, and the dark frigid air creeps in and makes you shiver, and you can’t stop shaking. and he talks about moments when he/his bandmates are scared, and proud, and changed— all those moments when they can't stop shaking. the caption ends with "currently, the weather forecast for the day is light rain showers and a gentle breeze. if you find that you are cold, we will bring you a spare jumper. we do not want you to shake."

where i live, the forecast is snowy, and bitterly cold. and it is hard. it is hard to not shake when the mountains loom above me, icy and mean. it is hard not to shake when my friends are dying, and hurting, and drowning, and gasping for air, and too many freezing oceans away for me to hold. it is hard not to shake when my ginger ale has gone flat, my coffee cold, and my green tea bitter. it is hard not to shake when i am exploring a person i thought would die with my 15 year old body. it is hard not to shake when my walkman fell on the pavement, and makes this wobbly noise when it plays. it is hard not to shake when i look at my hands and they are real, and they exist. it is hard not to shake when i cannot muster the energy for the art i want to create. it is hard not to shake when i have only just stopped planning for the disposal of these clunky bones. it is hard not to shake when my scabs have peeled and my skin is healing. it is hard not to shake when the doctors perscribe new medicines, and unperscribe them, and perscribe new ones again. it is hard not to shake when i am standing on the edge of a stormy cliff, and i have no more strength to resist the wind.

but i am trying. i am making a cup of green tea every day and i am watching the tea bag swirl in water each day. i am trying not to shake.

do you hear me, nick peters?

i am trying not to shake.

[macbethz]

Well I like it but it’s not very well written. Also it’s a visual mess. The plot doesnt make any sense and the creators suck and its politics oscillate from mildly problematic to frankly baffling. I wouldn’t recommend it to anyone. However. the character

[itgetsbetter]

merry gay christmas yall

[beebfreeb]

Messaging people for the first time is so hard. What am I supposed to say? Like, "You seem really odd and your blog intrigues me. Do you want to have philosophical conversations or perhaps talk about fictional characters?" What! Whatever. I will just follow you back and stare at your blog with my big beautiful brown eyes.

[ionomycin]

temple at the end of the road

[mythtakens]

“these characters should be mentally healthy before they get together 😌” ummm no I actually think we should smash their mental illnesses together like clumps of play-doh and see what colors it makes

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Expertise can't help you here.

[aretarers]

mantra when you fuck up is "i'm in my early 20s it's literally not a big deal"

[ered]

Here’s my take on the whole audio books vs. reading:

Oral tradition of storytelling predates written ones by millennias, and honestly, which one you like is just a personal preference.

The actual difference is

when listening, you have no idea how to write characters’ names

when reading, you have no idea how to pronounce characters’ names

hope this helps!

[shinelikethunder]

if you're aware of the Vulture article on Neil Gaiman, there's not much i can add; if you aren't and you go looking, my only advice is that if you hit a point where you're wondering if you should bail, do so, because the details of his behavior only get more vile as it goes along.

however, one thing i WILL say is to be on the lookout for smear campaigns against the sources and/or the journalist, Lila Shapiro, in the coming weeks and months. i cannot stress enough how brave this article is. if there's one thing more hazardous to your reputation than blowing up a rich and influential serial predator in the entertainment industry, it's making the church of scientology look bad, and she's managed to do both in one stroke. remember Lila Shapiro's name, and be extremely skeptical if it suddenly turns up later this year as the target of some slimy allegation.

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(reblogs are enabled again for the time being; please try to behave yourselves. this post is a heads-up, not an open mic night for your tangential hot takes or your personal feelings about gaiman's work. furthermore, tumblr's resident TERF circle-jerk is disrespectfully invited to piss off and take a long walk off a short fucking dock.)

[cowboysmp3]

there’s something sooo sickening about how dunmeshis whole energy is like sometimes something terrible and awful happens to you and it changes you forever and nothing can make you the person you were before but there’s still love and there’s still sharing a meal together and there’s still living

[eggsdoodz]

someday 🐞

[atalana]

the curse of adhd:

i will remember with absolute clarity, when the thought strikes me that i have a text to send someone, that this is the fourth time in three days i've attempted to send this specific text

i will forget, in the time it takes me to pick up my phone, that i picked it up intending to send a text

[itgetsbetter]

🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍⚧️ GOOD queer news for the TL: a bunch of students across the U.S. are using grants to make their schools more welcoming for LGBTQ+ youth

Queer students deserve to feel safe at school! We're in our third year of giving grants to put the power in their hands to make their schools more welcoming - students know what they need most in their own communities and their own schools.

Through 50 States, 50 Grants, 5,000 Voices, we've awarded over $1.5 million in grants across the U.S. to support student-led projects. Our third season has some of the most badass projects yet, like these:

❤️ “With this grant, we’ll establish an LGBTQIA+ community space in the library, open to all students, with guest speakers, arts and crafts, LGBTQIA+ books and literature, and LGBTQIA+-specific resources.” - Pocatello, Idaho

🧡 “Our project aims to support LGBTQ+ students through teacher training, development of gender-neutral bathroom protocols, and the organization of a district-wide Queer Prom.” - Gypsum, Colorado

💛 “We’ll take students from the 3 middle schools and our local high school to Honolulu Pride to make local LGBTQ+ friends, feel accepted in a large group, and see the community beyond just school.” - Ewa Beach, Hawai'i

💚 “We’re going to increase access to queer literature by working with a local nonprofit to expand our school’s collection, host storytelling events, and foster community connection." - Mobile, Alabama

💙 “Our plan is to create new Inclusivity Zones across the state in critical areas for local GSA clubs to meet, plan shared events, and be their own safe space.” - Charleston, West Virginia

💜 “We’ll host the Rainbow Youth Summit for LGBTQIA+ youth from across southern California to network, learn, and have fun in a safe, judgement free and supportive environment.” - Cathedral City, California

These students are truly the definition of making things better - you can see the rest of the amazing projects lined up across the country on our blog here!