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Last Song: This Is by Ella Mai
Currently Reading: Sapphire Flames by Illona Andrews from the Hidden Legacy series.
Currently Watching: All over the place, heh. Warrior from Max, Star Trek on Paramount, Foundation on Apple have been the ones taking up most of my time lately. Just finish Jack Ryan on Amazon and Secret Invasion on Disney.
Current Obsession: Other than playing out my military fantasies in Call of Duty I would say focusing on my writing and getting started on that path. Think I'll start with urban fantasy since suspense, fantasy and science fiction would be bigger projects and take a bit more time. Feel that if I start with something shorter it'll get the engine revved, so to say, to get the momentum started and building from there.
Of course I could also be completely wrong and out of my mind, heh. The fun is in figure the shit out. And sorry but werewolves > vampires. I said what I said.
I guess I would also say working out and trying to maintain my six day a week workout split of lifting. Consistency is the difficulty especially on those days I feel worn out from work or Dad duties.
Tagged by: @luck-and-larceny @xmimiteh @astarmaux My thanks for it.
Edit - Tagged by: @sundered-souls Sorry didn't get the original notification. My thanks for it.
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vibes for tonight 👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍
#i know the mail in ballots dont get counted immediately#i know the polls tonight wont reflect the polls later#i know harris's rallys have been triple the amount of the orange's#ive heard all the platitudes#doesnt make it any less terrifying :DDD#g muses#art
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You guys really need to stop and consider the ways you're talking about Kabru I am dead fucking serious. Like I know that flattening characters is just what fandom does to a certain extent, but Kabru's actual personality is getting lost to the fandom hivemind insisting that he's aggressive/cruel/sociopathic/hateful, and these are particularly concerning takes to see leveled at the only brown character in the main cast day after day. "My poor sweet golden child Laios needs to be protected from this scary brown man" is not a good look! Like, it's very telling that the bulk of the hate and bad faith readings are reserved for Toshiro and Kabru. Everyone else's flaws get to be discussed and validated and forgiven (or erased), meanwhile people are straight making up things to be mad about with Toshiro and Kabru but patting themselves on the back for being smart.
The worst part is how undeserved it all is. I'm trying to lay off anime-onlys because we're still kind of in the red herring stage of getting to know Kabru, but I would still like to gently suggest that even if you think Kabru is up to something, you don't gave to get in the tags of every fan creator's post and bring up how you hate him or You Can Tell he's totally evil. Sometimes I think Kabru's blue eyes give people license to say things about his appearance that they know would sound completely racist otherwise, but referring to his blue eyes acts as a get-out-of-racism free card. The jokes about the dog with brown contacts are getting old, by the way.
For people who have read the manga, it's disappointing. Kabru is one of the most complex and important characters in the story, and if you base your interpretation of him and all your fandom interactions on shallow first impressions you are completely missing out.
I know part of this is because Dungeon Meshi is a comedy, but the story also wants to be taken seriously. For example, it's admittedly really funny when Chilchuck calls Laios "sick in the head", but that doesn't change the fact that the way Chilchuck casually belittles Laios caused him to hide the fact that he was "hallucinating" from his friends for weeks. Those feelings matter.
Like, this
is funny.
But this?
Is not. This is just a very clear example of a brown boy with PTSD. As someone else with PTSD, just looking at this fucking sucks, man.
The only reason why Kabru thinks about killing Laios is because he is in the middle of a flashback. He's struggling through a panic attack. If he truly wanted to kill Laios because he's violent or because he finds Laios inherently annoying, he wouldn't otherwise talk with Laios normally. Notice how he doesn't act this way at any other point in the story- it's just because he's triggered by monsters. Even when he's thinking about his plans to "deal with" Laios later, he's reluctant to actually kill him and only considers it to prevent another tragedy. Despite his deadly skills, Kabru relies far more on "soft" power- insight, persuasion, diplomacy. He's a rare example of a character who absolutely is, or at least can be, manipulative, but seems to use his abilities for good. He's not a pathological liar, he isn't looking down on everyone behind a smile. He's someone who is extremely emotionally intelligent, and he's willing to put aside all his own basic wants and needs to stop the cycle of dungeons devouring humans.
I'm going to cut a potential thesis on his character short and just give some examples of things that fandom should consider about his personality more:
Racism in fandom isn't just about whitewashing in fan art, or using racial slurs. The insidiousness of bad faith readings, reductions to racist tropes, lack of fan content for characters of color, and dismissal of a character's complexity are far more common. You can believe yourself to be completely neutral or even positive about a character and still churn out low-grade bile about them into fandom's collective unconscious. Fandom reflects real life.
And I have been around fandom long enough to see how these behaviors (mostly from my fellow white fans) affect fans of color, how it makes a fandom feel hostile and unwelcome to them. It's fun to make jokes and memes, I'm absolutely not saying that everything needs to be a deeply nuanced take, but we need to be careful that it doesn't veer into toxicity. Please think about how our contributions to fandom come across, and what sort of vibes they cultivate in this communal space.
#Dungeon Meshi#Kabru#Kabru of Utaya#Dungeon Meshi meta#I'm putting it in the tag. I'm making you look at it.#if you come into my inbox to bitch about this just know that people used to send me b*heading videos in there for similar racist reasons#so I will not be impressed#I'm in a fucking time loop someone get me out!!!!#musings with Dea
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sad: falling out of a hyperfixation
tragic: watching your beloved friends and mutuals fall out of the hyperfixation while you're still in it
#oughhhhhhh#this is about the dca fandom but also about every other strong fixation ive had over the years lol#i know it's normal and inevitable esp for less popular works or minor characters with little canon content#and there's nothing wrong with smaller communities of course those rock#but there’s just something special about getting into something at the same time as a lot of other people all at once#and existing in this chaotic fandom space that's just bursting with creativity and passion#i've been in fandom spaces for as long as some of you have been alive and i've only come across that sort of unbridled joy like#a handful of times at best#it's just a heartbreaking feeling to see real lightning in a jar fandoms like that wither away as people drift away#(understandably so!)#anyway don't mind me i'm just having thoughts#musing about fandoms past as well#that i too eventually moved on from but remember fondly even if im not active in anymore#also my music just aint hitting right so im just sitting in silence which makes me more Contemplative(tm)
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desire to draw raz's hair unhatted and uncombed spiraled into imagining an extended gag about some emergency situation forcing all of the psychonauts out of the motherlobe into the quarry in their jammies at like 2 am and judging each other's clothing choices instead of getting actual work done.
#psychonauts#razputin aquato#lili zanotto#sam boole#sasha nein#milla vodello#hollis forsythe#truman zanotto#otto mentallis#gisu nariman#lizzie natividad#EVERYONE IS HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#yeah only the first five of those characters are getting tagged so i dont know why i bothered.#fanart#my art#i was gonnna draw morry in a bunny kigurumi but it was too hard.#i dont think you guys understand how dead my artistic muse was before the P2 art book arrived in the mail.#it was Pretty God Damn Dead. Really Really REALLY Dead. this is partly why psychonauts is the ONLY thing i can draw.#also i KNOW they dont all literally live at HQ just pretend it was like a LOCK IN or something okay
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i think i need a lobotomy
#weee single hued barn because i Couldnt Be Fucked!#also i Do love single hue things. it always looks tasty <3#and its a fun little exercise in values! or something! am i making excuses! maybe!#anyway im back on my Putting Guys In Outfits bullshit#theres not enough barnaby art....#theres not enough Handsome barnaby art....#scribble garnish#welcome home puppet show#welcome home#barnaby b beagle#hes my everythinggggggg#cant wait to see him get Fucked Up 🕺 Fucked Up 💃 Fucked Up 🍻#every day i wake up and look at the teeny tiny barnaby in the teeny tiny heart shaped locket In My Mind#Also. an aside. a Thought i had while doodling.#a Genuine Curiosity musing.#i wonder what kinda drinks the neighbors would favor...#what would they order at a bar if they could go to one...#im soooo fucking curious guys im. I WANNA KNOW#what drink should i have put in barn's hand. hm. This Question Will Forever Haunt The Depths Of My Skull
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Unpopular opinion, but fandom is playing up too much the degree of Melinoe's naivety. Stuff like her refusing to hear Prometheus out, or shutting down Nemesis for disagreeing with her, or heck, refusing to consider Eris's point of view, comes not from a sense of being naive to the world, but good old fashion stubbornness. She is a master of reductive arguments, or deflecting them when she doesn't want to hear them. Call it haughty or self-righteous (a flaw she herself acknowledges she has), but I wouldn't say it's naive.
#Melinoe#hades 2#hades II#hades II spoilers#d musings#don't get me wrong I get where ppl are coming from#cause her experience is very limited to her child soldier upbringing#but her refusal to hear is not a product of that naivety#and she's had many places and knows enough ppl to expand her boundaries#she hears ppl talk regularly about how the gods abuse mortals#and she simply Does Not Care
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the fish that keeps appearing all over my recommended only that he's out of jail and happy
#✁ | freshly decorated | ✃#roblox#sebastian pressure#sebastian solace#roblox pressure#pressure#pressure sebastian#the way I just copy and pasted these tags because I really don't know what tags he would use#he makes me so mad I literally downloaded roblox because I was curious of him#AND I GOT THE WOMP WOMP LINE?????? I WAS SO LIKE. never speak to me again#also I've been only drawing him for a week it's driving me insane get him OUT#it's so bad getting muses because then suddenly you can ONLY draw the muse I hate this stupid fish#(loving)#also random but#I like to think that if he did manage to escape the blacksite#the idea where like#he can only live in like more rural areas (probably living with someone to help him um#get food#domestic life kinda thing#but like I just think like being cozy. drinking something hot. being next to the fireplace to be warm#warmth being something that he lost a long time ago and it feeling so nice that he can feel it with someone he loves#or cares idk#i need to shut up I WILL LITERALLY JUST SUDDENLY WRITE A FANFIC IN THE TAGS IF I CONTINUE ANY LONGER T_T
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50 Random Character Asks:
1. Canon I outright reject
2. A canon or headcanon hill I will die on
3. Obscure headcanon
4. Favorite line
5. Best personality trait
6. Worst personality trait
7. Age/height/weight headcanon
8. Unpopular opinion about them
9. Scene that first made me love (or hate) the character
10. Best moment on screen (or in the book)
11. Faceclaim for the role
12. Crack headcanon
13. Dumbest thing they’ve ever done
14. Most heroic moment
15. Worst thing they’ve ever done
16. Deepest darkest secret they won’t even admit to themselves
17. Quotes, songs, poems, etc. that I associate with them
18. What they’d go to see a therapist about
19. Vices/bad habits
20. Scars
21. Drink of choice (not just alcoholic)
22. Best physical feature
23. If they were a scented candle, what would they smell like?
24. Most annoying habit
25. 3 things they’d want to take with them if they were dropped off in the middle of nowhere
26. What they would do if stuck in an elevator with [insert character of your choice from the same fandom]
27. Their guilty pleasure
28. How they feel about [insert character of your choice from the same fandom]
29. Eating habits
30. Sleeping habits
31. If the had a tumblr what would it look like?
32. Something guaranteed to make them smile/laugh
33. Something guaranteed to make them cry
34. How they react when they are feeling X emotion (sad, angry, excited, scared, etc.—can specify as many as you like)
35. Their idea of a perfect day
36. Their favorite season
37. What they really think about themselves
38. Favorite holiday
39. Favorite game
40. Favorite book
41. If they could have lunch with anyone in the world (living or dead, from any fictional universe or the real world), who would it be?
42. 3 comfort items
43. 3 favorite foods and 3 they despise
44. Their happiest memory
45. Their favorite celebrity
46. The person they most admire
47. Their dream job
48. Scariest moment of their life
49. Favorite toy as a child
50. A memory they’ve blocked out
#ask me about the boy!!!#but also you can ask about anyone from the fandom#ask meme#character asks#character ask meme#asks#fandom asks#fandom ask meme#get to know the muse#muse asks#muse memes
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the merits of the twinyards learning to show their love for each other in slow stilted actions r a lot. for me. to me. little things. aaron buying andrew his favorite sweets because he remembers his picky eating tendencies; andrew throwing a blanket over aaron passed out in the living room after pulling an all-nighter. opening up more during their sessions w bee, angry accusations n cold statements melting into talking abt hurts n what shaped them growing up which becomes even conversation n learning abt each other more ( to bee’s not so small delight.)
the glares n perpetual scowls aaron once wore in andrew presence turn into smth more knowing n relaxed. he thinks one day he’ll be able to forgive andrew for tilda’s death; knowing the reasons behind it now, how andrew did it for his sake. (when he tells andrew that he thought he was going to die, during the days he was locked in that bathroom, his voice is raw. andrew’s face shutters. then, he says in what is possibly the closest thing to regret aaron has ever heard from andrew, “If I could make what you experienced during that time less painful, I would.” n really what’s done is done n there’s no going back, but aaron needed some sort of closure, smth, anything ! so he turns away n tries not to shake from all the emotions of what he’s feeling. andrew sits there n waits for him to return to normal.) andrew begins to make eye contact w aaron, he stops looking thru him—choosing to acknowledge his existence, instead. he sees how aaron is making an effort, clumsily attempting to prove that he isn’t letting andrew go, in spite of everything. (“ I’m not going anywhere. I hate you, but I’m still not going anywhere.” aaron says defiantly during one session where andrew said smth abt aaron going on his merry way after graduation. it shocks andrew. he stills suddenly n it’s v hard for him to look away from aaron’s blazing eyes. “Do what you like.” andrew replies stiffly. it’s acceptance n permission wrapped up in one.)
they learn how to mend the fragments of their broken past so they can both move forward. aaron releasing his resentment of andrew slowly but surely. andrew allowing himself to think of aaron as more than someone who will disappear one day, someone permanent in his life. they talk to each other !!! they meet up to do things—in complete silence sometimes, with small comments here n there in other times. after graduation, andrew goes to play on the east coast while aaron does med school elsewhere. it’s a big change. it’s difficult, often times. aaron will look next to himself with words on the tip of his tongue, then realize andrew is not around. andrew will look behind him as he traverses the streets of nyc, hand outstretched as tho to hold onto smth, a shirt perhaps, forgetting that aaron is not there.
But!!!
the two of them call each other once a year,month, week— the occurrences gradually becoming more n more frequent. 3 years pass by. andrew is in town for a game. afterwards, he meets up w aaron for a drink. it’s quiet. not uncomfortable. they take each other in n note how separation n time away has made the other different. aaron is in a good mood , hair shaved close down, face full, n nothing like the raggedy n hollowed boy andrew met years ago. aaron in turn observes how andrew’s eyes r half-lidded w smth one would call happiness if it were anyone else, but it’s js content for andrew; his arms tattooed beneath his armbands, n a looseness to his shoulders that aaron could not have ever believed andrew to posses once upon a time. after some small talk n a small congratulations from aaron for andrew’s team win, andrew slips a piece of paper out of his jacket pocket n shoves it at aaron, face blank. it’s a new team contract. it’s in the same city as aaron’s med school :) aaron decidedly does not smile, but sources say his lips quirked up a bit. they order cheesecake. everything is fine. they r brothers. they walk out together.
#is it obvious how mentally ill they make me ……..#the twinyards reconciling properly is smth so special n dear to me#i love them ur honor 🫶#andrew will deny taking the offer bcs it happened to be close to aaron but neil knows better lol.#katelyn cheering on aaron from the side n she’ll eventually have her own confrontation w andrew abt aaron n stuff n they make it work n#andrew gets used to her !!!!#he doesn’t apologize bcs that isn’t smth he would do but they move forward !#on aaron’s part neil becomes less annoying haha#twinyards#andrew minyard#aaron minyard#aftg#they keep contact w nicky too 🫶#musing
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For two people that broke up almost 2000 years ago, they sure do have the vibe of that insanely toxic couple on your college campus that you keep getting second-hand embarrassment from as you pass by. Idk what the modern equivalent of drowning your ex in a bathtub would be tho.
#trials of apollo#toa apollo#lester papadopoulos#toa commodus#copollo#apollart#hey siri play Bad Idea Right? by Olivia Rodrigo#hey siri play Get Him Back! by Olivia Rodrigo#hey siri play The Take Over The Breaks Over by Fall Out Boy#hey siri play Blinding Lights by the Weeknd#hey siri play Time is Running Out by Muse#hey siri play I'm Your Man by Mitski (EMPHASIS ON THIS ONE HOLY SHIT)#hey siri play Decode by Paramore#hey siri play Francesca by Hozier#hey siri play Please Please Please by Sabrina Carpenter#hey siri play I Know Those Eyes/ This Man is Dead from The Count of Monte Cristo#hey siri play Birds of a Feather by The Civil Wars#hey siri play Stalker's Tango by Autoheart#hey siri play Arms Tonite by Mother Mother#hey siri play Break Your Little Heart by All Time Low#ok anyways hope y'all liked this impromptu copollo playlist in the tags lmao
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A pair of birds of prey for days 15 and 16 of @hermitadaymay !!! Definitely not a day and a half (?) late
#my art#Hermitaday#hermitadaymay#hermitadaymay2024#hermit-a-day may#Hermit-a-day may 2024#Hermitcraft#hermitcraft fanart#falsesymmetry#falsesymmetry fanart#welsknight#welsknight gaming#welsknight fanart#WHY DID I DECIDE TO DRAW THE STUPIDEST POSE FOR FALSE AND ARMOR FOR WELS AND WINGS FOR THEM BOTH ALL IN ONE DRAWING…#These cunts have six total hours tracked on them… I didn’t even do a background because they took so long…#and thats not even counting looking for armor and feather references like this took two straight days#I’m very proud of it though#anyways they’re NOT related I was in the middle of drawing and realized they looked uncannily alike. So I made the wise decision to give-#-Wels the same mole I give False and the same little lower lash because they’re nose and eye shapes already matched#they’re not siblings (shown by one of them not even being an actual raptor bird) but they do look uncannily similar#and I’ve decided now that my False and Wels like to just lie to people and say they’re twins for fun.#They both have fucked up doppelgängers they would find it funny.#anyways False is a red tailed hawk (specifically a dark morph)#and Wels is a peregrine falcon#armor is so hard to draw guys never draw armor it SUCKS. I did get to have Laois Dunmeshi Touden on my screen for reference the whole time-#-I was drawing Wels though so it’s not all bad#still baffled I draw the human body part of that pose for false so easily though. Fully believe I was possessed by one of the Greek muses-#-or something because I do not know enough about anatomy to have that shit memorized but it looked normal when I looked at it so. Shrugs#anyways YES i will get to Etho tomorrow… I may just draw him WITH Joe because I wanna draw him but I don’t wanna think about posing two-#-difference pieces… though then I’d have to pose them together… but the appeal of putting a Kakashi cosplayer and a muppet next to each-
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sceo weekend 2024 (day 3) → on the road
it might not be long, but baby, I'll love you 'til the day that I die.
#twedit#sceoedit#sceo#twrarepair#sceoweekend2024#HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII im rly proud of this one actually. teehee.#i had a fic idea but i kinda lost muse and then almost immediately i thought of This and im like ahhhh!!!#but also though i wasnt rly trying to do like... au where theo takes chris's place in the finale! but i kinda get how it reads that way LOL#this is more just Post Canon Sceo to Me.#theo shows up when scott calls!!!! scott asks so theo does baby!!!!!!!!!!#hesitance id think to pull his friends from their lives.. to ask his friends to endanger themselves... esp w the context from the movie#that theyre all sort of scattered and living diff adult lives#but u know who he doesnt feel bad bothering.......... his ally........ u know who has no direction anyways...... theo!#anyway this can also be called Road Trips throughout the yrs#the first one is w/o theo. but telling alec abt him w/ just the ally line#and then... u know. theo is there. teehee!
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If you choose to look at Sleep as an allegory for depression/mental illness, the romantic and co-dependent nature of Vessel's lyrics hurt that much more.
"I hate you and you're bad for me" "I don't know who I am without you" "Please set me free" "Please don't leave me" "You're an intrinsic part of me" "I must become someone new".
Ya feel me?
#getting introspective again#sometimes it's hard to tell what parts of me are *actually me* and what is simply a result or symptom of depression#and once you get through certain phases you no longer recognise yourself#but you can't go back. no matter how hard it is right now you absolutely cannot go back to that version of you#comfort and complacency will be your death#nothing to worry about btw! i'm just musing here#sorry i know everyone is pretty bleak with... everything *gestures vaguely* so maybe not the best time to post#but then again. maybe it's important to be reminded#OH WELL#i'm making tomato pasta with fresh mozzarella 👍 literally just standing on the kitchen while the pasta is cooking#(don't mind the hours i'm having a very late lunch)#sleep token#sleep token lore#<- for archival purposes#darya is unhinged
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Does
Does Barnaby
Does Barnaby tell the others to get off his lawn when he's angry
psh, who do you think he is, an old man? he'd Bark, like any lively young dog
#serves them right for (playfully) arguing right outside of his house smh#hes got sensitive ears yall... probably... i wouldnt know...#i bet ya could hear that woof everywhere in the neighborhood#and feel it. its gotta be deep as hell. bass boosted boof#legend has it that a Single Can fell in howdy's store#scribble salad#welcome home#welcome home puppet show#many thoughts about barnaby and barking#id imagine that if asked if he can bark hed be like 'yeah but its a waste of effort / who has the time for That'#i doubt he ever really does it...#cause that would take effort and really when would he be in the mood to be able to do it#its like. i dont get how some people can just let out a real good yell/scream on command#if im not angry enough i Physically Cannot raise my voice in that way. just dont have it in me#and id also think that barnaby has a thick skin. takes a lot to make him That Peeved yk yk#but when he does bark. oof. thats gotta be the loudest shit ever#everyone runs out of their homes like 'what happened??? is there a thunderstorm??? did a fuckin Bomb go off??'#meanwhile barnaby is slamming his door behind him and frank & julie are speedwalking away from his house with ringing ears#thoughts thoughts thoughts Musings
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Two versions cause I couldn’t decide a skin tone
This took 5 fucking hours
And it’s bills fault lmao that suit took forever
Captions
Bill: Ha-Ha Don’t get to excited Sixer!!
Ford wraps his tail around his leg for comfort
#my art#gravity Falls#BillFord#bill x ford#ford x bill#bill cipher#human bill cipher#ford pines#stanford pines#sphinx ford#hunter bill#monster falls au#monster falls#we all know Ford’s gonna pop one#lmao#it’s hard to see but Bill is supposed to look heavier I don’t know if it translates well in the photo tho#first time drawing sphinx ford#he’ll look better the more I draw him#bills taunting him with those feathers#oh to be young and in love again#before your muse betrayes you and tries to make you into a carpet#at least ford gets to live this time#just as a pet unfortunately#gay old men#book of bill#the book of bill
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