#get over the Friend Zone

[v-poreons]

Been thinking about these guys again lately ❤ tweaked their designs now that I know how to draw adult men a little better than I did in high school LMAO

[fireflysugarpie]

cumplane au but they both keep accidentally dom-ing each other

[front-facing-pokemon]

[insanity-laughs-under-pressure]

I'm not over how Edwin's voice wavers when he says "Charles I'm in love with you". It was so sad but so honest and raw. My man was feeling every possible emotion.

[datastate]

if sei satou survived he would have soloed tbh. death game wouldn’t have happened bc he’s too goated

see, now you joke about this, but i do consider it an interesting possibility to think of " what if sei survived " -- there are many directions this could go!

BOTH SURVIVE THE ASSASSIN'S TRIAL:

ah, the classic hunger games stall. unfortunately, i do think even if they had managed this (assuming asunaro would pick them up rather than letting one of them starve to death and then taking the other, in critical condition, and fixing them up again as the victor), that asunaro would instead demand a duel between the two of them upon being brought back.

if they needed stronger reason to facilitate the murder, they would likely give both a poison they haven't yet had the chance to adapt to. it is in this sense that killing would be a mercy: something that kai, for all his airs, would concede to under certain circumstances, and which i expect sei would follow through on promptly.

unfortunately, this scenario is a dead end for that reason. only one will survive, so let's see:

SEI TAKES KAI'S MISSION:

i've seen a few people regard this scenario, but i must admit i find it incredibly unlikely. sei is a good assassin; kai isn't, even though he's survived as long as he has. i've written this into practically all of my interpretations of kai, but the only way he survived those years without killing people was by learning to fake their deaths. he is the child of a renowned scientist, after all, and trained on the human body's limitations.

in any case: i cannot see sei being punished to the point he'd be outcast (without a proper expulsion) as kai was. and even if he was punished, it would not be framed in as much secrecy.

kai was sentenced to domestic life because it would be torturous and inhibit him due to the apparent facade of the chidouins being an unfortunate civilian family destined to suffer at the hands of asunaro, and more importantly, him. if sei was sent to guard them, as the victor of the assassin's trial, it would likely be in explicit terms of what would be expected of him -- because what would he do, really, knowing that mr. chidouin is the 'meister' of the death game? he's seen what happens when people rebel against asunaro. he's seen how hopeless it is. kai died for it. sara is just piteous.

SEI ENTERS THE DEATH GAME:

now, even with the above, i'm not ignoring the idea of sei entering the death game regardless. it's interesting to me seeing just how much focus is placed upon the mirrors of the satous & chidouins. prior to the mini-episode (though this can still work imo), i was under the impression that gashu was assigned as mr. chidouin's aide & that kai was mandated as sara's right hand specifically.

with this in mind, it's not out of the question that sei could be placed in a similar position to hinako: the heir for the family you've been assigned has been compromised, thus you will fit that role. a literal human shield, i expect... and sei would have no room to protest, because they'd kill him anyway, and if not him, then this young & innocent girl... who he sees much of himself in. they'd never call themselves hopeful, but asunaro takes what little they had and breaks it. thoroughly.

SEI STOPS THE DEATH GAME:

and of course, as for your actual joke here, i do think it'd be interesting to consider sei feeling like he's at the end of his life. i expect everyone involved with the death game to some extent was given a certain date by which they were expected to report back to asunaro to commence & honor its start -- the meaning of this, of course, being that there would be no outside influence.

(most notably, as hazard/corvidcrowned pointed out to me long ago and has made me Sickly over ever since, the floormasters are falling apart just the same... it's confidential. throw everything you have at this. you'll be bound for life, if you even manage to live)

while kai's plan failed (likely an attempt to extract the chidouins, or at least sara, with the program he curated that would fundamentally disable asunaro's security/monitoring) due to mr. chidouin's connections to it, which he could not have anticipated at all.

but sei... now that is interesting. he'd likely earn a nice reputation in this scenario, in hand with asunaro's trust. he'd have much more information at his fingertips as to what the death game entails, who the participants are, where they are... i truly think that part of asunaro's attempts to hold him down after the assassin's trial would simply be to isolate him.

see, kai was already alone. he had no interest in mingling with civilians, as that was a place he didn't belong and still struggles to feel belonging with. however, he is loyal and immensely dedicated to his ideals regardless of whether or not they align with asunaro. of course asunaro would then choose to break him down by expelling him from the darkness which he began to be comfortable in, forcing him to interact with and be indebted to civilians -- with nothing else to do, but allow them to guide him. a puppet on strings. poor, little marionette.

but sei needs people around him. you've surely read over his introduction to the satous more than even i have, and can gleam this much. even if he's reluctant to admit as much, it is this which grounds him and would... let him hope that there's more than just these skills he's been forced to hone over the years. as such, being introduced to the existence of these participants who would suffer a similar fate could be a dangerous thing. perhaps he'll take a look at the kizuchis since he's in the area, he's curious, and perhaps it'd hit too close. and it becomes harder to deperson these candidates as he would his usual targets -- not that he ever wanted to, but. well. the trauma of it all combined with asunaro's coping suggestions cannot be healthy in the least.

i won't get into much more detail, as this is long enough, but i'm sure you can see what i'm getting at... admittedly, this is reaching a similar route to 'deliver us from evil', but regardless: sei would have more resources at his disposal than kai ever would. if he dared to believe in himself again, believed he could make a change, believed it wasn't foolish to hope... maybe he could really do much more than kai did. stage a betrayal they'd never expect, for they thought they'd broken him down into a husk not unlike gashu.

[enterstellars]

guys i cannot wait to move

[midnightconfessions]

Why do I not know my own feelings at all 😭😭😭

[sweetestflow3rs]

im lowkey too embarrassed to post it do you care if i dm you the kiss drawing of my pc with your ocs? or send it here in the asks 🤔

EITHER WAY IS PERFECTLY OKAY, ANON!!! whichever makes you most comfortable ( while still allowing me to record your user into the raffle too— )

[tgshydestan]

I HATE SCHOOL I HATE SCHOOL I HATE SCHOOL I HATE SCHOOL I HATE SCHOOL I HATE SCHOOL I HATE SCHOOL I HATE SCHOOL I HATE THIS I HATE THIS I HATE THIS

[cathymee]

OKAY why is ang huling el bimbo THE song. like it's THE song. of all time.

[simplyghosting]

“Waterfront property” is not a bonus in Florida, it is a warning.

[dont-look-at-me-u-u]

when you don’t currently have a crush but your brain suddenly has it in its head that you desperately want a significant other so with the strength of a kraken it latches onto the nearest friend you joke flirted with and now despite logically knowing you don’t have romantic attraction to them it almost feels like you have a crush on them but you KNOW you don’t and your brain is just substituting but you have to train yourself out of your own delusional reactions

[seeyouonsaturn]

Hello! I've recentlyl found your blog and it's made me so nostalgic. You've managed to find fanart that I thought was lost to time. I was in love with prowl back in 2009 and these days he's a platonic f/o! I ship to optimus and bulkhead now! I'd very much like to hear about your oc! (selfshipping-haven)

AW THANK YOU!! God yeah he was my first real love tbh. I'd had little baby crushes before but Prowl unlocked things in me I didn't even know I had when I discovered TFA in 2011. I didn't even really speak English back then, I didn't understand half of what those guys were even saying but he was everything to me.

I haven't thought about transformers in over a decade until I recently made a new friend who's a fan, and at some point TFA came up and I sort of mentioned that I used to be in love with Prowl, so then one thing led to another and I looked him up just for nostalgia and oh. I remember him. We were in love. Turns out those feelings never left. So here I am.

Thinking back now I realized that there's a lot of things about my personality/me as a person that connect back to Prowl, because kid me wanted to be more like him, and I did, but I completely forgot where it all started. I do love that I succeeded to grow into a person he would like, it means so much to me. Coming back to TFA honestly feels like coming home. Returning to my roots.

Anyway, excuse the autistic rambling <3 I much appreciate this ask, it means a lot that someone actually cares enough to ask!! Looking at your blog though, I don't think you'd like Trixie very much, since her ship/story is pretty fucked up lmao.

I have two OCs I ship with Prowl (HEAR ME OUT LOL) mom said i could have two Prowl ships

So. The first one, Ash, I made when I was 13, and they were a very made-by-autistic-child-esque overpowered self-insert. They had a different name and gender back then because I did too but the concept remains sort of the same: Prowl falls in love with a human, all is good for a while, and then there is an accident that results in Ash nearly dying, becoming techno-organic to save their life, and sporting a huge scar. I thought it was awesome, then later decided it was cringe, and now I realized it's actually based af so I revived them. I am cringe but I am free. Ash is great.

Enjoy a preview. Kitty cat. I love cats more than anything and this is a self insert so of COURSE they have kittycat ears!! Probably processor over matter'd them into existence too through sheer willpower. Because they're neat.

But I did have a phase in I think 2019 where I briefly got back into TFA (but not deeply) and wanted a new OC, because I was in a very sad "noooo you can't ever make anything ✨️cringe✨️" phase. Dark times. I don't know why I let people convince me there could ever be harm in my joy. So I scrapped Ash and made a bot OC instead, because the whole humanxbot thing felt too self-indulgent to be allowed. And thus came Bird. (She also had a different name, but I revamped her completely in the past weeks).

I love Bird. She's honestly my main transformers oc. Bird starts out as a decepticon named PHANTOM-2918-4 (aka Phantom), who's tasked to spy on the Autobots, but over time she instead falls in love with Earth's nature and critters and realizes she wants to protect them, not harm them. Prowl decides to take a chance on her and train her (since Yoketron took a chance on him too). She changes her name to Bird because she loves birds most, since they can fly like her, but the ability isn't associated with evil.

Unlike Ash though, Bird x Prowl doesn't have a good ending because in Bird!canon, the finale still happens. She stays behind on Earth alone after everyone else leaves to protect it and honor Prowl's memory, but he's very much gone. She gets Yoketron's helmet. Their ship song is actually what this blog is named after (Saturn from Sleeping at Last).

[theood]

It might just be a lot of things. I really don't know. I don't like not having any energy after work but it staves off a lot of our thought processes but at the same time I don't love it. It's tolerable but I want to be doing something else. I wanna be in the dirt and I want to feel the earth under my feet and I want to know she's listening to me and telling me it's ok and I want to take care of her like she's taken care of me. I want to plant trees and cut back weeds and learn to identify our native plants and I just can't do any of that and make a living. It's not even a volunteer opportunity for me. I'm just some random citizen who didn't even go to school for any of it. And I'm so lonely. I'm the loneliest I've been. I love all my friends online I do. Truly and wholly but it doesn't help the fact that I have no one around me irl. And it hurts. And I'm scared. And I am so small all the time. And I just want it to change.

[angelsdean]

the thing abt watching shows from the early 2000s is sometimes you can't be a feminist bc that woman is simply insufferable. this is not abt any spn women this is about chloe sullivan smallville. i am sorry but the feminism just leaves my body when she's on screen

[deltaruminations]

ok so i was browsing through some material and decided i wanted to re-examine my skepticism about UI Gaster as some form of boss fight (maybe more of a survive/ACT thing since he presumably can’t be physically hurt lol.) because let’s be honest. forget the measured expectations and join me in the fanboy zone. we gotta have a freaking gaster boss fight, right? we are hungry for those hellhound guns and fucked up nightmare visuals we are dying for the expository monologuing and we need. we need. we NEED the utterly bonkers insane wd gaster boss music. the whole freedom leitmotif is already a gaster boss melody. like. what was i even thinking. in what world is an epic gaster boss fight not the sickest shit ever

however that did bring me to what i think is a pretty important question to be addressed, which is: why the fuck would gaster even fight us in the first place? can’t he just like. boot us out of the game if we try to confront him. why would he want to fight us in the first place? he needs us to cooperate with him in order to achieve his goals. how far would we have to push him before he’d actually snap back at us?

…so anyway to summarize a lot of long-winded logicking and alternative conclusions that probably aren’t super worthwhile right now: what if we aren’t the ones to confront him. dess is. we’re just there to take the hits for her or whatever. the True Hero returns to a hopeless world to face off against the Arch-Villain(1) who’s holding it hostage. we aren’t the main characters on this level of the narrative. they are. we’re just party members. guys. would that not be really really cool

(1) i dont actually think he’s the story’s ultimate villain and/or antagonist but you get what i mean. the Archetypes bro