#I WANNA TALK TO THEM FOR HOURS AND HOURS FOREVER ☹️☹️☹️

[tgshydestan]

I HATE SCHOOL I HATE SCHOOL I HATE SCHOOL I HATE SCHOOL I HATE SCHOOL I HATE SCHOOL I HATE SCHOOL I HATE SCHOOL I HATE THIS I HATE THIS I HATE THIS

[oddvanilla]

Not really venting because it isn't my type of thing but like YK some stuff should be let off my chest☹️

Idk why but I feel like I'm a side character in my own life 😭 not just that I feel like a robot (closest thing to that feeling) like everyone else has emotions and can be sad or angry and I just. Exist. Like that's all I have going on...

Sometimes it's a good thing!!! Like hey at least I have no mental illnesses or anything. I'm just always content with my life, and so far this whole year I only felt INTENSE sadness like 4 times and it just went away in the matter of like 3 hours. Even then, that wasn't sadness,, it was just anger at myself. I don't really associate crying with sadness, because I cry here and there for dumb reasons... last time I cried was when I heard my best friends say I love you because I REALLY needed that. And the time before that was me winning a football match on FC 24 against my dad, then I started crying because I started thinking about maybe it would be the last football game he'll ever play with me ☹️ but yeah, last time I cried was like a month ago. It's really rare that I feel like I need to sob or anything. As I said, it's good because people always associate me with happiness and ooo energy.

This isn't the problem tho. I feel like I know so much about everyone but nobody knows crap about me. Like trust me I'm an open book, ask me about anything and I'll give you an extended answer with a life experience + analysis. I get so excited when anyone asks me anything personal like my favourite colour or my favourite hobbies. It's not my friend's faults', trust me. They're amazing people and I will love them forever. But I feel like they're the main characters in MY life. I just happen to be the one who is always taking every picture and recording every moment. But I'll never be in any of those pictures because I'm the one holding the camera.

It makes me sick, I need to know every little detail about my friends, my family, even just a Tumblr mutual, but the closest people to me don't even know my middle name. I love my mom but she doesn't know what I like to do as a hobby. She has no idea that I like writing, or history. But I know everything about her. That's the case for everyone. This feeling makes me sick because I always feel overwhelmed. By the time I wanna go to sleep I'm stuck in bed for 3 hours without sleeping yet because my head is thinking at a thousand miles an hour. I always feel like I have to cut off people here and there so my life can weigh a little less😭

Everyone knows this one, I'm a heavy extrovert, and I talk all the time but it's never about me. When I'm yapping I'm either explaining how something works or talking about that one memory with my friends. I'm not used to venting because I'm scared of someone saying "not everything is about you". I've never been friends with a listener, everyone else talks and even I TALK, but I wish there was just someone out there who knew what's my biggest fear or smth.

Moral of the story, I feel like I bottle my feelings all the time. I think twice before I hit that post button and decide that it should stay in my drafts because oddvanilla is this person who's always happy, if you see me venting it'll be awkward. I don't want anyone to solve my problems, I just don't HAVE any problems to begin with. I just wish someone would listen this time. Hi just notice me pls I have feelings other than energetic!!!! Please keep it in mind at least that I wanna be heard :( I'm sick of speaking up for everyone who can't but I never get a chapter in the book for myself. Even if you just say something like "same omg" at least it would feel better that I'm not alone in this messed up feeling.

[drea-ms]

AMOR ETERNO FUSHIGURO MEGUMI.

ふしぐるめぐみ Love always lasts forever. Why didn't it last for you and him? what did he do wrong this time?

warnings. heavy angst. hurt no comfort. major character death. misunderstandings. implied hispanic/spanish speaking reader. am mexican guys i know what i'm doing. megumi crying ☹️. canon? i think, it does take place during the shibuya arc. wrote this at 12 am with no sleep. not proofread and grammar mistakes

You didn't think it would hurt this much, the pain in your heart was way worse than the pain you're feeling right now. Maybe it was the adrenaline that main you forget the pain of being stabbed, you're greatful for that, you have more time to focus on your heavy heart at the moment. You hated that this was the way you were dying, killed by curse (probably higher level) and with no one by your side. It....It was difficult to stay focused on not dying, even when you see his spiky dark hair. His voice going deaf in your ears.

"...n't d...e on... u.... n!" was all you heard, his muffled voice trying to keep you awake, it wasn't working. His voice that brought you comfort before this incident wasn't comforting you like old times, no, none of him was comforting right now, you were on death's door. Something Megumi was least expecting. He regrets everything that has happened in the past two weeks, he was an idiot to not realize his feelings. An idiot to reject you, and an idiot to have fought with you hours before this incident.

What was the that sentence you said in spanish again? He couldn't remember. Fuck. he can't remember anything, why can't he remember? why does he always fuck things up? Megumi looks at your state, you look like shit, cuts on your face, that stupid scar that was in your stomach from that spear the stupid curse landed on you. But nonetheless, you always looked beautiful. At least to him, even in your dying breath you looked like a angel. He doesn't realize he's zoning out until you call his name weakly, hands shaking as you hold his cheeks with both of your hands, smiling at him like nothing ever happened, tears streaming down your face.

"Hi Megs." you say, in the most normal you can, that sweet voice he missed hearing,

"Hi, let's—let's get you out of here yea?" he says, the lump in his throat getting thicker the more he sees you suffer.

"I don't—don't think ill last enough to get to Ieiri-san, Megumi." you stated, he hated how you were right. You wouldn't make it by the time you got the long haired smoker.

"I—I know, just stay awake, please? don't wanna lose you. not after our fight. please" the shaking in his voice making it hard to understand him,

"Do you remember that sentence in spanish I taught you?" you asked, smiling softly as you remembered what you tought him.

"The one from that one song? of course." you laugh at how much he was trying to avoid the topic of you dying in his arms.

"Yes, that one, Do you finally remember what it means and do you know how to say it correctly?" the smirk in your face never leaving as you see him think about it,

"Not really, I think I'm not good enough yet." he says trying to keep you awake as he called for more back up. he can't lose you, not after he lost everyone else.

"You wanna here the part that goes with yours? it comes right after yours." you saying giggling as you started closing your eyes, who knew death would be this peaceful?

"Yes, just keep talking to me okay?" "Of course, anything for you megs." a smile came on both of your faces

"Como quisiera, Que tú vivieras Que tus ojitos jamás se hubieran cerrado nunca Y estar mirándolos" he begins, tears pooling out of his eyes, no longer holding them back.

"Amor eterno E inolvidable Tarde o temprano estaré contigo para seguir Amándonos" you say, and with that you close your eyes. your breathing stopped and finally at peace.

"please. come back to me. I'm so sorry."

VAL SPEAKS !!!! i love angst 🤭🤭🤭 i have so many angst prompts in works rn!!! i'm going to have so much fun:3333 rlly hope u liked this fic :p was crying while i wrote it cus it was late :///

[gyumazing]

TXT's REACTION WHEN YOU MESSAGE THEM "I FEEL TIRED"

(THEY'RE YOUR BROTHERS • Mostly about how they will cheer you up)

BEOMGYU

YOU: Hey, Oppa...

BEOMGYU: ?

YOU: I'm so tired.

YOU: I want to cry

BEOMGYU: Huh? Why?

BEOMGYU: What happened?

BEOMGYU: Is everything alright?

BEOMGYU: Y/N?

BEOMGYU: Y/N????

BEOMGYU: WHERE ARE YOU???

BEOMGYU: Y/N!! 😡😡

YOU: Calm down, old man.

BEOMGYU: the audacity

YOU: 🙄

BEOMGYU: What happened?

BEOMGYU: Speak, or forever hold your silence.

YOU: Why am I even taking to you

BEOMGYU: Idk either

BEOMGYU: jk

BEOMGYU: What is it?

YOU: 😐

BEOMGYU: Sorry for joking around.

BEOMGYU: What is it, really? What happened?

YOU: I've been very unproductive lately. I feel tired, drained, and confused.

BEOMGYU: *sends cat pictures*

YOU: Dude, seriously?

BEOMGYU: WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO SAY???

YOU: You're unbelievable...

BEOMGYU: Heyyyy

BEOMGYU: Sorry

BEOMGYU: I thought it would cheer you up ☹️

BEOMGYU: Like, I genuinely thought it would make you a feel little bit better. U lyk cats right??? ☹️☹️☹️

YOU: Nvm

YOU: I'm sorry too.

YOU: The cat made me smile a little...

BEOMGYU: That's good to hear.

BEOMGYU: Wanna go out?

YOU: Sure...

YOU: Your treat, right?

BEOMGYU: U r unbElievAble

YOU: Okay.

YOU: Your treat.

YOU: I'll be ready in 20 minutes

BEOMGYU: 👍🏼

+x+

SOOBIN

YOU: Soobs...

SOOBIN: Y/N...

YOU: I'm tired

SOOBIN: Me too...

YOU: Oppa, are you okay?

SOOBIN: Yeah 😎

YOU: Take the sunglasses off

SOOBIN: 😭

YOU: Naurrr

YOU: Cuz same ☹️

YOU: Is this sIbLing G0aL$?

SOOBIN: I guess?

SOOBIN: Anyways, what happened? What made you feel tired?

YOU: Idk actually. I am so unproductive lately. I feel so empty.

YOU: You?

SOOBIN: I feel so pressured to do good. I feel so pressured with all of my responsibilities as the leader.

SOOBIN: I feel tired too.

YOU: ☹️☹️

YOU: #SiblingGoals 💯💯

YOU: #MomWouldBeSoProud

YOU: Where are you?

SOOBIN: In my room

YOU: Wdym in your room? Here at home or in your dorm room at Seoul?

SOOBIN: I legit brought you chicken wings when I went home yesterday...

YOU: You're here at home?

SOOBIN:🤦🏻‍♂️

YOU:🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️

SOOBIN: Where are you?

YOU: In my room...

YOU: Hello?

YOU: OPPA? ARE YOU THERE?

YOU: Where did you go?

SOOBIN: *Sends a pic of your room's door*

YOU: ?

SOOBIN: Go out

YOU: You're outside my room?

SOOBIN: No shit, Sherlock.

YOU: Y tho?

SOOBIN: go out

SOOBIN: Let's go snowboarding

+x+

TAEHYUN

YOU: Hey, Oppa. Are u at home?

TAEHYUN: Sorry late reply. What's up, Y/N?

TAEHYUN: Yeah. I'm at home.

YOU: You busy?

TAEHYUN: Not really. Why?

YOU: Can I vent?

TAEHYUN: YEAH?

YOU: I feel so tired lately. I want to cry.

TAEHYUN: Are you coming home today?

YOU: Can I?

TAEHYUN: Can you?

YOU: Yeah, I guess.

YOU: I only have one class tomorrow. Maybe I'll just skip it.

TAEHYUN: Okay. Let's talk about this over ice cream.

TAEHYUN: Mint chocolate, right?

YOU: YES 🤩🤩

YOU: But, we can eat cookies and cream instead if you want...

TAEHYUN: It's fine.

TAEHYUN: Where are you now exactly?

YOU: Outside school.

YOU: I'm waiting for the bus

YOU: It's so fucking cold.

TAEHYUN: Go to the nearest seven eleven

YOU: Istg

YOU: I don't have enough money left to buy you foods, Tyun.

TAEHYUN: Dummy

TAEHYUN: I'll fetch you there. Wait at the nearest seven eleven store and drink some latte.

TAEHYUN: I'll buy fries on the way.

TAEHYUN: What do you wanna eat?

YOU: YOU'RE REALLY GONNA DRIVE 3 HOURS JUST TO FETCH ME 😭

YOU: 😭😭

YOU: ❤️🤩❤️🤩❤️🤩❤️🤩❤️

YOU: YOU ARE NOT THE WORST SIBLING AFTER ALL

TAEHYUN: 👍🏼

YOU: 🤩

TAEHYUN: Where did you put your knitted sweater? Do you want me to bring that or the black denim one instead?

YOU: The knitted sweater please.

YOU: THANK UUUUUU ✨✨

+x+

YEOJUN

YOU: Oppa

YOU: I'm so tired. I want to cry.

YEONJUN: *sends a picture of a finished bowl of ramen, placed on top of a mountain, with a gorilla and platypus dancing beside it*

YEONJUN: *sends a close up pic of the gorilla and platypus where they looked eerily realistic, with hair, texture, and pores visible on their faces*

YEOJUN: That's sad.

YEOJUN: Are you okay, Princess?

YOU: *replying to the pic* The heck is that??????????

YOU: *replying to the pic* You know what? Sometimes, I feel like you are butt sending your replies.

YOU: Dear lord, cleanse my eyes.

YEONJUN: Oops, my bad.

YEONJUN: That was meant for Beomgyu

YOU: That doesn't make things any better????

YOU: Because, wtf are you guys even talking about????

YEONJUN: ☺️ stuffs...

YEONJUN: Anyways, back to your problem.

YEOJUN: Why?

YEONJUN: What happened?

YEOJUN: Why do you feel tired?

YEOJUN: Is it tired like you're back is aching or tired that you just want to fall asleep and float around the Pacific ocean?

YEOJUN: HELLO?

YEONJUN: Y/N

YEOJUN: Hello?

YOU: damn

YOU: I literally just forgot what I was sulking about

YOU: Fuck that ramen animal zoo dancing thingy

YEOJUN: More like 'thank you'

YEOJUN: You sound like a dying hyena btw

YOU: ?

YEONJUN: I can hear your laughter from here

YEOJUN: 🤯

YEOJUN: Didn't know that this pic could cure sadness.

YOU: WOW AMAZING

YEOJUN: Wanna eat ramen?

YOU: 😬

YOU: PASS

YEOJUN: Come on. The picture is not even that bad.

YEOJUN: How could you possibly be bothered by that?

YOU: 🙄

YEOJUN: Come on. My treat

YOU: Now we're talking

+x+

HUENING KAI

YOU: Oppa...

KAI: Y/N...

YOU: I'm tried.

YOU: *Trd

YOU: ***tird

YOU: **TIRD

YOU: Dammit. This keyboard sucks.

KAI: Are you okay?

KAI: Do you mean you're 'tired'?

YOU: THANK GOD YOU'RE SMART

YOU: This keyboard is stupid

KAI: What happened?

KAI: *calling*

YOU: *decline*

KAI: Why aren't you answering?

YOU: I'm in class

KAI: Then why are you using your phone????

YOU: Because I want to vent

YOU: Can I vent?

KAI: You can

KAI: I'm always here to listen ❤️

KAI: It's okay. Everything's going to be alright.

YOU: shoot

YOU: prof almost caught me using my phone

YOU: 😭

KAI: Let's just talk about this at home later

YOU: Wait, I thought you won't be home until Friday?

KAI: Yeah

KAI: But, I just asked our manager and he told me that I have a free sched tomorrow.

KAI: Let's watch a movie!

YOU: Yes!

YOU: Finally, something worth looking forward to.

YOU: I miss you so much, Oppa 😭😭

KAI: I miss u too.

+x+

Bye... This is so random. I wrote this at school this afternoon. Anyways, good luck to our research paper chapter one. I hope things will turn out good this sem.

[rewh0re]

HI HANA idk what time it is in ur area BUT it is ur birthday here where i live (it has been for a couple hours bc i just got home from school lol) so i have come as a cat w birthday pancakes for u („ᵕᴗᵕ„):

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY BAE !!!! 😽🌷✨🥂🎂

ok look my love language is words of affirmation / quality time so like i’m gonna slap a shit ton of text but i hope u like it anyways hehe

while we may not have been mutuals for too long, i still appreciate u SO MUCH as one of my first mutuals on this platform ! and of course, as a friend 😚🤍

u genuinely are one of the kindest and most welcoming people i have ever met, and the fact that u always match ur energy w everyone u talk to is so so admirable ! legitimately—there has not been a moment where i have talked to u and it’s been awkward (my girl u are just THAT good <3)

like there have been times where i felt like i didn’t rly “belong” (bruh idek if that’s the right word but) here and u treated me w sm love and enthusiasm ☹️😭 LIKE GIRL U ARE JUST SO COOL AND ACCEPTING ?!?!

plus u have always been incredibly supportive of my works and I WILL FUCKING LOVE U AND THANK U FOREVER FOR THAT >:( especially bc my relationship w my writing has always been a battle, and the fact that u reblog w tags and comment in them makes me feel like what i write isn’t too shitty heh >.< words aren’t even enough to express my gratitude to u 💞😾

(thankuthankuthankuthankuthankuthanku) 🏃🏻‍♀️🏃🏻‍♀️

AND I ADORE WHAT U WRITE BC GOD IT’S ALWAYS SO CUTE AND FLUFFY AND THE CHARACTERS ARE SO ARGH I WANNA KISS THEM ALL ON THE CHEEK (and u ofc mwah mwah) so pls keep writing and i will keep reblogging 🏃🏻‍♀️🫂💓

ur vibes will continue to be my everything AND I HOPE U HAVE THE BESTEST FIRST DAY OF BEING AN ADULT LIKE 18 WHATTT ?!?! THAT’S CRAZY 😯

btw TELL ME WHAT FLAVOUR OF BIRTHDAY CAKE U WILL HAVE BC I AM INTERESTED AND I AM A BIG ADVOCATE OF CHOCOLATE CAKE hehehe

I LOVE LOVE LOVE U HANA BAE !!! LOTS OF KISSES FROM URS TRULY 🤍😽✨

i hope u liked my dumb paragraphs

SAKI OMG ISTG I WILL CRY. I CAME BACK HOME AND I SAW YOU HAD SENT THIS AND I'M NOT LYING I WAS PACING BACK AND FORTH IN THE ROOM BLUSHING AND SMILING BECAUSE BDJSHFDHDB AHHHHHH

I appreciate the birthday pancakes alot and you are so so cute ilysm I just wanna say I'm so grateful that we are mutuals and that we are friends too because honestly you are one of the best ppl I've met here😭😭😭😭😭

I WILL ALWAYS BE A HYPE WOMAN FOR YOUR FICS BECAUSE THEY ARE SO SO GOOD MY GIRL AND YOU HAVE ALSO NEVER FAILED TO MAKE ME SMILE WIDE (including this text pls I'm smiling as I reply)😩😩😩🤭🤭🫶🏼🫶🏼

and no matter what you will always belong here bbg, ily and I appreciate you so so much so thank you for following me one beautiful day and becoming my friend🫶🏼🫶🏼🫶🏼 I truly can't even put into words how grateful I am for this message and how grateful I am that I came across you🫵🫵 I will have any cake you give me bbg cuz it's from you😘😘😘

I absolutely adored your paragraph it made my whole day babe ilysm

[ghostboyhood]

SPOILERS!!! genuinely dont read if u plan on watching or dont know the ending..

oughhh i love young jake gyllenhaal and heath ledger <3

this movie might confirm that i have a thing for cowboys... i suspected it but we'll see ig

good lord its so green and pretty where they are

theres so many sheep holy shit

i love their voice sm omg.. the way jake gyllenhaal talks is so like... unique ?? idk

carving a horse outta wood, sick as fuck

i cant get over how beautiful it is oh my god.. id give anything to live some were like that

in love w this movie already honestly nd im only 17 minutes in.. the atmosphere, the way its filmed, the characters.. its very like.. peaceful??? not the word but its nice, its real

i love jake gyllenhaals outfit

PLEASE I LOVE THEM!!!omgharmonica

damn that bitch is gutted poor sheep 😭

dude being naked w just cowboy boots on is fucking sick as hell

NO THE WAY HE GRABS ONTO HIS ARM WHEN HE KNEELS DOWN PLEAJDJWJDJSBfuck dude ognsjajdn

YAYAYDHDJ

NO THEM CHASING EACJOTHER JS SO SWEET STOP IT

Bitch why is he watching them...

HOW AM I 40 MINUTES IN

look at them bright blue eyes 😍😍

THE LASSO THEM TUMBLING I CANTSHDHWNAA

DAMN OKAH JESUS NVM 😭😭

no stop "come here im sorry youre okay" AHSHSJSJSJ PELAKDKEJDJWND oh boy im liking this movie too much.. idk how it ends but im pretty sure its NOT good

icant do this literally nothing that horrible is happening yet but im getting like chills involuntarily what

IM GONNA BE SICK STOP THATS NOT FUNNY HIM CRYING NONO

hi michelle williams

AND IF YOU DONT I WILL" IS FUCKING CRAZY

is that a baby

it is oh boy OH MY GOD TWO??

so much blue denim

GET EM HELL YEAH !!!!

hi anne hathaway

that man is QUEER!!!! he is waiting for a MAN

god the shots in this movie are so pretty..

help hes so cute w the kids,, "the what?" "ketchup"

the time skips are fucking w my head jesus christ

AAAAAAAAUSHEHXHSHXJANXBWJZ

NO PLEASE THIS IS SO SWEET HES SK EXCITED THEYRE SO HAPPY

PLEASE BE KISSEDHIM FIRSTBAHSHWJXJSNXNWD

oh boy she saw them...

him holding ennis ☹️

i feel bad for his wife

I STILL HAVE AN HOUR LEFT??? HOW

ough i feel sick he wants to be with him forever so badly.. they both do.. no jack saying how they could go off n shit n what theyd do HES THOUGHT ABOUT THIS ARGHHH

those poor guys what the fuck....

please i love jack so much...

hes gotta be one of my favoritest characters ever i think.. smt about him is so.. idek..

ough them both fighting w their families :(

yeah that... checks out

HELP "i gotcher message about the divorce" HE SOUNDS SO HAPPY LMAOO

please hes so optimistic fuck

NO HES CRHING STOP STOP IM GONNA CRH I CANT

he has a mustache

WOAH honestly fucking hoof for jack hell yeah

help he has that motorized cutter thing like frank has in rocky horror picture show

holy shit oh my god...

ennis needs to chill out i completely understand where hes coming from but hes being so mean 😭😭

HELLO DAVID HAROUR WHY ARE YOU HERE????

jacks got that homo energy about him goddamn they all know

he did not say that he didnt say that oh my hod

"the truth is... sometimes i miss you so much i can hardly stand it"

IM GONNA BLOW MY FUCKINT BRAINS OUT RIGHT NOW STOPSTOPSTOPS DONT SAH THAT ☹️☹️☹️☹️

LIGHTEN UP ON HIM??? DONT SAY THAT DO YK WHT U JS FUCKING DROPPED ON HIM

oh my gof ob gmdt

"i wish i knew how to quit you"

this is the end! im SOBBING WHAG THE FUCK THIS ISNT FAIR jake gyllenhaal dont DO THIS TO ME

HES CRYING STOP HIMTACKCKOKGHSIAJDBSND FUCK

ENNIS HUGGING JACK FROM BEHIND ASHDHEHCJSB

wtf is he eating that looks like absolute shit

no

nonosklno

yourejoking youre actually joking

no that didnt happen that didnt happen no no fuck off no youre joking youre joking please hes not dead he didnt die no

im gonna be sick

wow that house is so fucking white there is NO color

oh my god he never washed that shirt stop

ITS HUNG UP IN HIS CLOSET BY THE PHOTO STIP STOP STOP

i feel dizzy oh my god i cant do this i dont ever wanna watch a movie again 😭

god i thibk that might be top ten movies... jesus christ everyone should go watch brokeback mountain right now i was fucking crying half the movie

im not gonna scale rate it bc i suck at those but man if i did it would be high

might watch brokeback mountain rn

[fushigur0ll]

𝐃𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐑𝐘𝐔𝐒𝐄𝐈 𝐒𝐇𝐈𝐃𝐎𝐔

note — just fluff and a little dialogue mixed into this

character(s) — ryusei shidou x black!reader

⌗ oh man man man…dating this man? you’re in for a wild ride!!

⌗ baby was so shy to talk to you when he first seen you☹️ you’re so beautiful and pretty and that just threw him off because he’s thinking ‘she would NEVER talk to me’ and other stuff like ‘she will probably..no, DEFINITELY find me scary and will never talk to me’

⌗ he wanted to talk to you so bad but every time you look at him and smile he just trips…over words and air. until one day he didn’t even have to walk up to you because you did for him speaking so soft and shii😮‍💨

⌗ after that your friendship just grew and that 3 years of friendship turned to 2 years of dating each other FINALLY!

⌗ you both know each other a little too much to the point where if you guys had a gun to your head and had to be asked questions about one another, you’re coming out without a scratch🧘🏾

⌗ no matter how much you are used to it, you will forever be worried when he comes home with cuts and bruises from his little..accidents💀

⌗ you will patch him up and he is there to hug you and give you kisses afterwards telling you how much he loves you and that he is a strong boy who can handle anythinggg

⌗ he will get any chance..any damn chance to slap your ass. you bend down? you know what’s coming. you laying on your stomach? get ready for impact. you walking past him? you’re flying forward.

⌗ it’s not that he does it on purpose, it’s just his hands are already so roughed and calloused but soft at the same time, if you understand. he can’t control his power is what i mean. so numb ass for probably half an hour☹️

⌗ will find any chance to kiss you forehead just to show you how much he cares and love you. when you’re sleeping, eating, studying, or cooking— IT DONT MATTER! THAT MAN WILL SHOW HOW MUCH HE LOVES YOU😖

⌗ babes will call your pretty, pretty girl, baby, sweet mama….don’t— don’t question it💀 any wild pet names he will call you at random times

“baby shakes, wanna go out and eat?”

“kittenfoot, can we watch this movie”

“damn crockpot, watch your height and tone with me”

⌗ don’t even know what to tell you🥲

⌗ he adores you so much mannn. like his friends has told you that he talks about you ALOTT. you’re his first priority 24/7 on a never ending road and he don’t mind it at all because it’s his princess before ANYTHING

“i told you about them before right? their so freaking beautiful- Oh! and and and, i love it when they talk back to me it just makes me WHEW!”

“they could come back from a dugout and still look so damn FINE like for what! it’s a crime at this point. they are so caring about me too..i can never ask for someone better”

⌗ will take you shopping almost all the time just because he loves the way you style your clothing. no matter how much you tell him you don’t want him to spend his money— SHUTUP! he’s not gonna listen to you, babes he’s too stubborn 🚶🏾‍♀️

⌗ he will take you to a full body mirror and stand behind you, telling you how fucking lucky he is to be the man you sleep with, kiss, walk with, and share your love to. he does that while staring at you so LOVINGLY BRO OH MY GESHHHH🤕

⌗ will fuck up someone who tries to make fun of you or just messes with you in general. you talk to him about it and boom, there’s no getting him back after that..and that person that did whatever to you? is not coming out with all of his teeth

⌗ let me tell you something right NOW. though he is a sweetheart, the bitch is a asshole🏃🏾‍♀️the man will try to kick your feet out when you’re putting on your pants. you shorter than him? holy damn, he will put everything on the top TOP shelf. you smart talking him? he’s putting his whole big ass hand on your face😐

⌗ you both have that relationship where you just call each other names and do shit to each other and not get hurt by it. he will call you an asshole, you call him a bitch— it’s just back and forth repeatedly

⌗ on sunday’s before the sun could set, he will take you to the park and you both would just play on the playground like kids and when the sun is going down and the street lights are on, he will give you a piggy back home. it’s just so quiet and it’s just you two on the street with the sun just setting down so perfectly💔

⌗ you both have matching gold rings but you both wear it as necklaces and when you would go to his games, every goal he makes, he always kisses his ring right after because he said it brings him good luck😖

⌗ family, family, family…your whole family loves him!!! congrats!!! they will take him away from you for the day just because of that. they will interrogate the shit out of him, tryna make him crack and shit…HE DID ONCE, he did but he won’t admit it🚶🏾‍♀️

⌗ siblings love his ass off man. every-time you bring him over— ‘SHIDOU!!!!!’ and just dragging him away from yourAGAIN. he loves your family back though. they make him feel so loved even though they tried to almost..kinda kill him but THATS NOT THE POINT HERE

⌗ will hype you up in any outfit you wear. this is a rule he has for you. NEVER GO OUT WITHOUT SHOWING HIM WHAT YOU’RE WEARING FIRST!!

⌗ it’s not that if he sees it he will stop you from wearing it, no no no. it’s that he just wants you to feel nice in everything you wear and he genuinely thinks that you deserve all the hype you can get👩🏾‍❤️‍💋‍👨🏾

⌗ he learned how to braid hair for you….you found ‘learning how to braid with 4c hair’ in his youtube and google search history…..marry this man now. i mean it.

⌗ IM TELLING YOU FROM NOW AND I WILL TELL YOU ALWAYS!! you dating this man? you set for life till you’re last BREATH😮‍💨

⌗ he loves you sm just marry him

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[lunaticsandidiots]

hi! i have read most of your adrian thoughts and i just love them so much. i was wondering if you had any thoughts of adrian with a s/o who is asexual. i rarely see asexual content, even less for my boy adrian☹️

neptune hi! thank you angel! im so glad ur loving them, because (as you can see) i have a concerning amount of thoughts a out adrian.

and while i’m not asexual myself, and definitely don’t know every nuance about it (and also i know it is a spectrum so different people feel differently about different things at different times) i do have a few more general thoughts on how he’d be n i feel honoured to provide some content for all my ace baddies <3

adrian with an asexual s/o…

ok first up fuck my life, i SWEAR i saw an adrian HC today that said something along the lines of ‘he honestly wouldn’t be that bothered about sex’, which is what sort of made my brain go 💡 (please i beg if you know who this was pleaaaaaaaase lmk i wanna credit them!)

obviously i write often about what a nasty guy he can be, but i think that his very blunt, simple, one-track way of thinking means that like… if he ends up with a partner who’s asexual, i dont think he’d really think about it much at all?

like he’d truly be no thoughts head empty about it. he wants to be with you, you make each other happy, that’s just the way that you guys are, and thats that. literally end of thought process. i don’t think he’d notice.

i think it was ever discussed, it’d be because you wanted to talk to him about it and get him to understand, and i think he’d just listen and ask questions (they might be a bit blunt to start out with but it’s out of pure curiosity).

maybe he’d bring it up if chris was going on and on and on about what he gets up to in his free time.

but i think it would be more of a completely innocent observation. truly just like a ‘chris kept talking about all the stuff he does and its so funny because we’re best friends forever and so similar like we’re the same person but thats like the one thing we have different. anyway babe did you want takeout for dinner?’

(especially because i HC him as ND/autistic, due to the fact that your intimacy has always taken the form of gentle touches and loving embraces and words of affirmation, that’s what he’s used to and that’s what he expects, nothing less, nothing more. ‘thats just the way that is, and that’s how we like it’ is the only way i can describe how he thinks about it)

you spend your nights watching movies or trying to bake or holding each other close and talking absolute nonsense for hours on end, it’s the thing he looks forward to every single day - you’re his safe place.

if you did ever want to try something, or you liked to do stuff occasionally, i think you would just have to communicate really clearly so he knows where you’re coming from and what your boundaries are, but once he got it, he would get it.

(i hope these were kinda what you were looking for? thank u for popping into my inbox angel!! hehe <3)