#gadrhys

[toomuchdivergentformyneuro]

i hate when i’m distant from all my problems going on. i hate that i have so many problems, and that some of them aren’t there at the surface, like i’m not feeling them but i will again eventually.

i have so much to mourn, so much to think about, so much to cry over, so much to resolve. and yet so often, i find myself escaping it all, and then feeling bad because i don’t feel bad about it, because i’m avoiding it all.

i’m tired of being tired, and yet at the same time i’m tired of not being tired as often as i probably should be.

my subconscious is protecting it all from me, protecting me from it all. but i’m tired of that, although i know it’s probably cuz i can’t handle it all yet, even though i might want to.

the mind is so complex, and i’m tired of knowing what is going on, and yet not being in control of it at the same time.

so heads up, to anyone who may be concerned, knowledge isn’t everything, and it’s actually quite exhausting.

[toomuchdivergentformyneuro]

my brain when my GAD exists: “there’s someone behind the shower curtain, open it”

my logical brain: “there literally is no one there ever, also i would hear if someone came in, also there’s other people in the house, how could someone come in and go behind the shower curtain when there’s so many people in here, and ALSO WHY WOULD THEY”

my brain with my GAD: “idk, but there’s definitely someone behind the curtain, we must have it always open to eliminate that hiding spot”

my logical brain: *sigh* “fine”

[toomuchdivergentformyneuro]

‼️[TW: mention of SH and SI urges]‼️

are any other neurodivergents extremely sensitive to how not eating enough effects them?

like, let me explain some more.

when i don’t eat enough and continue to not eat enough, it feels incredibly similar to depressive episodes.

i get really low, emotionally and mentally, all energy is drained from my physically and executive dysfunction is there so much more, and all of the skills to healthily cope and work through stressors/depressive thoughts/emotions in general just completely go out the window or are extremely harder to do, and i also start having SI and SH urges and thoughts, my PTSD is triggered more easily, my GAD goes out the roof, and etc. etc.

that happens whenever i’ve forgotten to eat.

and it just makes me wonder if any other neurodivergents have that experience as well. can anyone relate?

[toomuchdivergentformyneuro]

guess who just got a job?!? (me, i did) i’m incredibly anxious about it, especially since it was so unexpected. i start Wednesday. i’m also anxious cuz school is starting in like two days, so there’s gonna be that and the job at the same time. and i also thought that i was gonna wait to get a job after i at least got some of my stuff diagnosed, so that i could possibly get accommodations if i find out i need any. (this is my first job also, so i don’t know what to expect😭) i also don’t know what position i’ll be getting. but yeah, anxious, very anxious, but it’ll be okay once i see what’s going on, get more information, and get adjusted to it all.

[toomuchdivergentformyneuro]

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