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cinnabeat · 6 months ago

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oh wow ok when the sun explodes and you are on the night side of the planet it gets pitch black! terrifying

#the supernova is too small and too far away and the planet too big for light to reach you #idk its like #imagine u didnt know abt the loops #like ur just a regular person on this planet #and then u hear a distant explosion so distant it might as well have been the thunder of the planet youre on #and then the light is suddenly gone #you cant see in front of you. only the distant light from lightning strikes and the artificial light provided from the nomai structures and #your flashlight #you dont know whats going on. this is new uncharted territory. and then u hear this whooshing noise. and like the sun is rising light begins #to brighten your surroundings #you. as a scientist and astronaut might think it was an exlipse or something #and then streaks of light like meteors glow across the sky and that whooshing noise grows louder and louder and the lighter brighter and mor #more bluer than youve ever seen #and then you hear a great explosion as the light reaches its peak and then you no longer exist #and then you wake up at the start of your last day to do it all again #you dont know it you dont remember it its just another day to you but its endlessly repeating #you will never rest and you dont know it bc its just another random day to you #you dont know the horrors to come youll never know bc even as it happens you wont understand #fucking hell i dont even understand #michi tag #anyways #not to get poetic abt this #but this game has me fucked up #time loops...........#anyways play outer wilds <3

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commander-revan · 7 months ago

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What the fuck was the point of all this

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eternalmomentss · 8 months ago

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matt said hey robbie welcome (back) to the family, how about unpacking your character's trauma and self loathing in front of a huge ass crowd during the first live show of this campaign? Good?

#i fucking love it you dont even understand #critical role #critical role spoilers #bells hells

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mohntilyet · 3 months ago

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Personal headcanon about the "you picked the wrong dellamorte" line, I don't think illario actually likes rook outside the context of them being someone close to lucanis. Like rook on their own isn't much to him, but when they meet it's yet another person talking about his cousin (why isn't he good enough for whatever job they're hiring for?) and on top of that they somehow bring him back from the dead (another whole can of worms for illario). Now he starts turning on the charm, but whether he's actually interested or this is just one more thing his cousin has that he doesn't and it gets under his skin, who knows. Either way, rook ignores illario, the guy who lives off his charm, and is instead interested in the guy who's never even dated before and thinks giving someone a knife is how to flirt. Infuriating

NO THANK YOU !! i am genuinely sorry if i have ever implied illario is into rook like i see some takes about it and unless it like ties into your rook's personal backstory i don't seriously think he's romantically jealous. at all. my enjoyment of that line stems from illario's pathological need to make it about himself and not see his strengths but what lucanis has, and therefore what he doesn't. he's annoyed enough to try and goad you in the middle of a fight about the 'wrong' dellamorte and completely blind to the fact that the venatori are at best, a stupid fucking alliance, and at worst, a cult that will devour the crows from the inside out and illario would have been the one to give them the keys. he sees lucanis make allies, needs his own, and instead of charming the other talons/houses as he should, he (probably spitefully) picks the venatori. or maybe he just thought it would be easier. ugh he makes me want to telekenetically throw him around

#and you raise a very hilarious point too LMFAO #not that he is jealous. just mad as hell its not working <3 I LIKE HIM VERY MUCH AND A NORMAL AMOUNT #to be clear i think his characterisation changed dramatically from wigmaker's job and a lot of his uh #very rash decisions about achieving power feels like they just needed a traitor character for lucanis #to really max out the use of spite. i really wish honestly that there was some canon support for illario #who would probably be a little more liked/popular than lucanis. bc lucanis is respected by the crows #but he's also a very distant 'dellamorte heir' figure. respect is not the same as being liked. so you know #there's the serious assassin with a rep for how good he is at killing #and there's a friendlier assassin with a rep for sweet talking #and neither of those reputations are necessarily true. but i know which one i'd be less afraid of #and i think illario would know that. and be able to use that. BUT WE DONT GET IT. WHATEVER.....#illario dellamorte #veilguard spoilers #answered #also we're introduced to an illario that understands being a crow. and has had all that drilled into him since childhood #why. would he. ally with the venatori.#why would he put himself into a situation that he couldnt control. other than 'the story needs a villain'#what im trying to say. is . there were the makings of a crow civil war here that ends with him tragically dead #if you asked me to expand on this i dont think i could. but like the main issue being the crows not standing together making #the antaam invasion worse (btw regarding this why the fuck were the antaam even invading) so lucanis' quest is #idk. something like uniting the crows together and potentially repairing his relationship w illario #or hardening him and convincing he needs to kill illario #this is me spitballing. dont even mind me #(glances at the 'illario mention' alarm going off in the background)#EDIT: AND ALSO IT JUST CAME TO ME #killing illario as an ending also makes lucanis first talon (oh we're really in the cycles now)#forgiving illario ends with illario becoming 'talon' tho he and lucanis work closely. like a ceo vs cfo #and ends with them repairing their relationship #in the ideal world lucanis would fully leave but im alright with crows making small steps towards becoming a bit healthier

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lovelyrotter · 5 months ago

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ill probably delete this in a minute but ive just been fuckin boggled by what ive seen across tumblr in the last few days in particular. its why i havent really been around. like holy fucking shit, its really like some of yall just dont want a chunk of the trans community to exist. like some of yall are thisclose to saying it verbatum. way too many already have. 'shut up sit down be quiet and smile for us' type shit, gee where have i heard that before. oh yeah my entire life cause i was forcefully gendered as someones daughter. shock horror i know. you might be surprised to remember and/or learn that very few trans folks know theyre trans before we're 5, or even 10, and that that gendered experience stays with all of us in both/either small or large ways. either bc we literally dont have a solid identity yet (bc we're very small children), dont have the words, we're repressing it out of fear from how others will treat us, we're actually enjoying or enjoyed being another gender in our childhood, or we just genuinely didnt fuckin know until shit lined up later in life. weird isnt it that transmascs dont pop out as 6'1 brick shithouse cis men when we're born so yall know for certain that we're confused lost girls/women oops i mean big dangerous scary men. its almost like we're transgender too. none of yall actually know what intersectionality is or means

#my t #transandrophobia #yeah ill tag it why tf not #i just dont understand why transmasculinity is scrutinized and dissected like this within the trans community #when its just not the case for other gendered trans folks amongst themselves more often than not these days #which is a good thing! a really really good thing! but why are we scapegoating transmascs #''we need more weird trans people!!'' yall cant even handle like. a pre-everything trans guy coming out for the first time #yall cant handle a pre-everything tguy wearing a tshirt without tearing him to shreds & calling him shit like afag/theyfab & ukelele boy #im tired of my identity being treated as a debate. i had enough of that in highschool as #very literally. **the only trans kid in my grade** surrounded by cis teachers & peers USING ME AND MY BODY AS A TALKING POINT #i was the only one who wasnt deeply closeted that is. and holy fuck do i still not blame anyone for being closeted in that school #why is it only okay to try to separate trans ppl from our gender when we're not fem/me #why is one celebrated and the other treated like radioactive waste **within our own community**#god i need to find an irl community fuckin badly online trans circles are hell on earth #ill be describing smth that happened to me as a clocky tguy and someone else will say TO MY FACE #that what happened to me wasnt bc i was a clocky guy but purely bc i was trans #like i. what. how. how does that make any kind of fucking sense #i wouldnt be clocky if i wasnt trying to look like my gender. like i. hello?#would u say that to any other trans person or am i just that special?

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phoebespenglers · 1 year ago

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can we please stop telling people to kill themselves and to rot in hell and that they deserve to be bullied and that they are inherently horrible people who deserve to die and get doxxed. please. can we please stop doing that.

#like #okay first of all. do you understand the gravity of what youre saying or are you just throwing words into sentences #second of all. that kind of language is so fucking harmful for people with ocd or just obsessions with morality #because i mean not to make this abt Me (though this is kind of a vent ) but when i see people saying that it just. Sends me into spirals #because if people can say that to other people then what if they say it to me because i secretly believe the same things (even if i don't #-most of the time!)#what if im an inherently horrible person deep down? am i going to rot in hell for feeling slightly bad for this person?#i cant imagine that others dont feel like this or something along those lines.#im so fucking sick of death threats they do nothing. they do fucking jackshit except make more people feel terrible.#if you send death threats to people or say shit like this im blocking you. i dont want you in my space #bee.txt #moral ocd #scrupulosity

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funkervogt · 17 days ago

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(Realizes that the most common transman experiences perfectly align with my life and feelings about myself and fascinations and who I want to be with) Ohhhh Okay i am fucked

#I do really wish i could just snap my fingers and pilot a cisman's body around #Rather than go through the crucible of visibly transitioning. it seems like a waste to do it when the times are so awful.#I honestly still doubt myself so much but #I can only do so many years of Why are you perceiving me as a woman #Before the shit starts getting real #People really just dont take you fucking seriously. Like even at this point where im at now i still dont know if im quote unquote valid #Because maybe its just a feminist issue and the misogyny is rampant #But an emotional sensitive defensive anxious reactive woman is what i am seen as. Somehow.#When I have gone lengths to ensure that even those close to me do not see a hint of my unchained emotional reality. Just really beats it in #I am entirely logical when I describe my experiences to my family. Clinical and detatched and intentional. And they think i am to be coddle #All the fucking time. Exhausting. I don't want that. I want to come to mutual understanding. Not to beg for emotional attention.#Thats the only thing that ever visibly cracks me. Being horribly misunderstood and taken out of context. Logical self defense being denied.#And being full of estrogen just reinforces that shit. Im a frustration crier. If I had testosterone maybe it wouldnt prove people right.#When you bite back as a woman you are just a bitch.#My fear is that I will be an emotional transgender man that wants to be coddled. I am afraid it will be worse to be that.#I really do just want to be able to live and work and be taken seriously when I say what I mean and what my mind is like.#I want a chance at life. I feel like I'm seen as a hapless girl. Damaged and begging to be freed of all responsibility #No bitch I want to move out and actively build a life for myself and RAISE MYSELF! after years of being misunderstood and alone #And also i want to do homosexual war reenactments with another man or something i dont know i just wish it could be me #Maybe ill just donate blood and faint again #Anyway. Joker. Society. I am the joker #Who wanna reply and tell me if im a valid transman or not. I get chest dysphoria when i have proper posture.#I get ass and hip dysphoria.#Low key having a bangin body as a woman though confuses me still bc maybe i just like being hot more than i gaf about transitioning #It reeeeeally helps that my face has an impeccable T zone. Its kind of masc as hell.

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puppppppppy · 1 year ago

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man

#maybe im being pessimistic abt this. im not saying u should wear a mask every waking moment of your life god knows i cant #but also. hell no i dont trust u if anything i distrust u ppl even more after how things played out for the past 3 years #like there are situations where it might be inevitable catching covid. most of my family members are nurses and in constant contact #but there are also a ton of ways to make that risk low as possible like masking and wearing a face shield and having sanitizer #for me its not enough to just say oh we're in a small group and we're all vaccinated #motherfucker your kid is sick from preschool EVERY TIME WE VISIT. of course ill be wearing a mask she gave me covid last year #also no the fuck it isnt seasonal the cases go up because lack of caution makes the virus spread and mutate especially around times when #ppl gather. add that with virus transmission in cold weather and its a matter of different factors increasing the risk of spread #im also tired of ppl not understanding that i wont be their responsibility if i do get sick. maybe they can help me recover #but at the end of the day the risk of death and long term health is all on me. i cant change that #the govt barely gives me accommodations what makes u think theyll do anything for every individual case of long covid or worse #im so tired. im so tired #i dont even know if its possible to want this to be over anymore i just wish we didnt have to deal with this in the first place #ALSO COUGH INTO YOUR SLEEVE SERIOUSLY HOW IS THIS SO HARD TO REMEMBER #oh its just a cold/dry throat its not like i have covid or anything. no!! its basic hygiene!!! how is this so hard to understand!!!!!!!!!!#and no this isnt abt whether people have the means to protect themselves this is me bitching abt my relatives not taking me seriously #vent #my art #myart #doodles #covid 19

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jennilah · 4 months ago

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chrome was like "aw.... ublock origin doesnt work anymore.... aint that so sad..."

im stubborn but i saw the utterly unusable vanilla internet for all of 1 minute before i moved all my bookmarks to firefox and resumed there. go fuck yourself ♥

#jennilargh #im so fucking mad theyre really going down this road haha i am not looking forward to learning new things suddenly #like i noticed i cant chromecast for obvious reasons and to get that working seems to be a whole process i dont understand yet #but liike haha im not gonna watch 2 ads every 3 minutes on youtube hahahahahahaha no <3 #love my content creators but youtube is just gonna have to deal bc the way their ads run now is COMPLETELY over the line #my mind cannot be changed. 2 ads every 3 minutes on a 40 min long video on top of sponsored segments..#loud ass ads interrupting calming sleepytime videos... cant watch passively bc you have to be READY to hit the skip buttons..#dont even get me started if u just want to have a video on in the background while you are not physically able to hit skip #lord help you if you get an ad thats several minutes long and your hands are covered in dough or something #or even if youre just enjoying a more information-heavy video and an ad interrupts mid sentence and youre like “wait im lost now”#thats not even touching the malicious ads from every other website on this hell of an internet #we live in the stupid timeline

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magnusthepuppet · 1 year ago

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fuck hbo max. fuck them for everything they keep doing to shows that deserve to finish their journey, but fuck me for believing that they would let them in the first place.

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beeduoo · 10 months ago

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originnssssss who remembers origins i Loved origins

#origins smp #i heard theres been like three failed origins revivals WHAT EVEN HAPPENED i was only there for the first one😅#beeduo #otubbo #oranboo #beeduo fanart #i rewatched some origins streams a little while ago oh my god theyre SO FUNNY #DUDE DOES ANUONE REMMEBER THAT ONE STREAM I COUDLNT FIND RHIS ONE STREAM #IR WAS LIKE THE ONE WHERE TUBBO WAS SINGING SUGAR BY MAROON FIVE and they were being really Funny thay shit h #ad me CRYING in 2021 Please i swear this happened imnot crazy but also they might have been separate streams actuallu i dont rememebr its #been wayyyyyyy too long #BUT IT HAPPENED I PROMISE Sorry i've been gone for a while ive been very busy lots of Things going on went to Six flags then jad a surprise #bday party then i had to buy shoes for prom then Go to prom and also i do figure skating and am out like every day idknt have Time im sorry☹#had a crepe yesterday it was sooooo goood im like learning to drive too that shit is boring as hell my dad kept gettign 😑 bc i couldn't stop #yawning DRIVING IS SO BORING its not my fault😭😭😭😭#ok what else ohhhh. y god i locked in SO HARD for this physics essay u guys dont even knowim getting ONE HUNDRED on that trust i just really #wanted to share ok i love you bge #WAIT ACTUALLT SORRU IM LIKE REMMEBERJNG THE ORIGINS STREAMS K WAYCHED #RANBOO WAS SO FUCKING FUNNT IN THOSE STREAMS TOO LIKE I REMEMBER NIKI WANTED TO SEE THEIR BASE and tubbo was like ooh maybe we can put like #water down here for you niki we need a water system and ranwas like Do we though?I WAD WAYCHING THAT .LIKE DAMMMNNNNNN OM LIKE GIGGLING WRIT #ING THIS RIGHT NOW I CAN HEARTHE CLIP HE DID NOTTT WANT HER IJNTHEIR BASE😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#I NEED TO FIDN THAT STREAM WHERE IRS LIKE TOMMY AND JACK A D FHEHRE LOKE TALKING ABOUT DUOS AND THEN JACK SAYS THE MOST OUT OF POCKET SHIT I #VE EVER HEARD LKKE I LITERALLU HAD TK PAUSE. H PHONE AND BURST OUR LAUHJIMG MY JAW WAS ON THE FLOORRRRR DO U GUYS R EME ER WTF IM TLAKING AB #OUT IDK HOW TO FIND THESE STREAMS Oh my god u really Had to be there early 2021 that was liye the funniest era of mt life i wlild be #Tearing up from lauhjimg every day I MISS WAYCHING STREAMS LIVE CHAT WAS SO FUNNY I wishe it was archivedI WISH MORE STREAMERS KEPT CHAT ON #SCREEN i defiently understand why most didn't like Wyd when chats annouing ad hell but also Me 3 years later is interested in what the pub #lic had to say.... ok Now bye

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artificer-real · 25 days ago

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ive started to really despise self help posts because all they do for me is illustrate just how apparently fucked i am compared to most other people

#vent #bloody hell #like gods this shit works for you??#such bullshit #i know its not good to be mad at other people for being happier than you #but fuck dude why cant i ever get a win bigger than ''fine i guess i dont wanna kill myself''#like thats great and all but im still in the exact same hole as before!#ive never even needed self help posts in the first place- all i need is to pull myself together and fix things #... no thats a lie. i havent been able to do that in years.#call it lack of energy or motivation or willpower or whatever #nowadays even when people like my brother try to help me as much as they know how #i just cant manage to try #i tried so hard for years and where did that get me? burnout 2 electric boogaloo #i can try to light the spark like i used to as much as i want #never gonna catch if theres nothing left to burn #cant even slow down #because i know that wont fix anything #ill be just as exhausted as before because my energy levels are perpetually at 0 i guess.#''just try harder'' WHY???#WHY ARE YOU TRYING IN THE FIRST PLACE??#what is giving you the motivation to keep pushing on like that??#what could possibly be so important to you that its worth ALL OF THIS!??#i dont understand #i remember i used to push on despite everything #but there was no reason. i was fighting cause what else could i do?#but as soon as i realized that i ran out of steam. not quite the same when you realize youre ruining yourself for literally no reason #because you never considered doing anything else #what a fucking joke

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passerinesoncaffeine · 3 months ago

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tonight on thinking about homura and madoka.

#........................................dude #head in hands #ALMOST A HUNDRED FUCKING TIMES SHE WAS TRAPPED IN THE LOOP ALMOST A HUNDRED. FUCKING. TIMES #god #they give me so many emotions #theres something about doomed timeloops where over and over again you have to watch the one person you gave everything to save #die over and over and over. and you just have to get back up again knowing that you wont be able to save them #but you get up anyways and you try again even as you slowly lose yourself to the point they dont even recognize you anymore.#they barely know you at all. but thats okay because it was always for them anyways so who cares if they dont know you as long as theyre saf #it was always for them. because they were everything. and without them you are nothing at all. even if they dont know you.#at one point they did. at one point they loved you. and it was everything.#and holy FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKk #you guys I could talk about homura for hours #SHE SPENT 12 YEARS IN THAT LOOP. 12 YEARS.#GUYS. SHE WAS 14 YEARS OLD WHEN SHE MADE THE WISH. 14. SHE WAS 14 FUCKING. YEARS OLD.#i love homura. she is my daughter she is aksifhmkjhsngkjnhajfsjkgnskjgh #augh. doomed yuri. my doomed daughters. they just wanted to protect each other. and it cost them everything.#pmmm #raven rambles #theres a pattern here. you see. you see how my favorite characters are always the ones who only live for one other person #to the point it kills them. it leads them to kill. they felt unconditional love for the first time and it is their death.#they know it is. and they walked into hell willingly but they couldnt die. not if there was a chance they could have that again.#not if there was a chance the one who loved them could be safe from that pain. do you see. theres a fucking pattern here #they'll watch themselves become someone they hate but someone who might be able to save them this time. do you understand #augh. okay I'll shut up and go to bed #Im just having Emotions tonight ig

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whatacreepything · 2 years ago

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tiktok gays when they go in public and see gay people being gay instead of discussing the latest microlabel discourse that was posted from an account called bobthebuildersbignaturals

#like seriously i actually hate the internet #who. the hell. cares. if you dont understand someone elses identity #the whole point is that its not your identity so you dont have to understand it #“i dont understand neopronouns!!” okay i dont understand german and i know its a fucking language #“youre invalidating xyz which has a complicated history tho-” blah blah blah blah EVERYTHING IS MADE UP #jesus fucking christ is someone really going to burst into flames because someone is calling themself a bi lesbian #if you are so concerned about someone else's identity idk what to even say to you. worry about your own life #touch grass losers jesus fucking christ #gay #lesbian #bisexual #transgender #microlabels #lgbt

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bellamygate · 4 months ago

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the thing that gets me abt religious ppl is they'll demand u respect their religion & that religion hating your existence but they won't respect ur right to be like yea my belief says god isn't real so thats a dumb reason for hating other people or ye ok then ur god is homophobic thats kinda shitty they go APESHIT like. it goes both ways? like they can say i hate gay ppl bc of my religion but when a gay person says well i dont respect that religion bc it doesnt respect me its ww3. I'm not walking on eggshells for people who are too quick to condemn me to hell

#likeeee. ppl have been homophobic to me bc 'their religion condemns it' but i cant be like ok well then fuck ur religion?#but they can say okay fuck you and be hateful and intolerant like that?#why do i tolerate u if u wont tolerate me? im just #like to me as an atheist/agnostic im like. hearing that something i dont even think is real is why u hate me as a person is so insane #like 'its unnatural and wrong bc my religion says so' like ok. why does that have to affect me as someone who doesnt follow said religion #jusr wish more religious ppl were as understanding and non judgemental as they claim they are??#like ur gna say that shit to me? u think god likes that ur speaking for him rn? u rly see urself on the same level as god?#u think YOU can judge others? embarrassing #*smacks own ass* this baby can fit so much religious trauma #i love religion sm for some ppl but then other aspects of it im like why cant yall just modify this as society progresses #them books old as hell them writers didn't even know electricity but ur talking their word abt an entire group of ppl being wrong & evil?#i like when religious ppl apply the teachings to modern society & take into account how shit has changed #when ppl take the good parts of religion and focus on them and bring that religious warmth w them where they go is so nice #(my friends<333)#like they live by them teachings and are good ppl but dc abt divorce or abortion or gays bc society has changed & ppl ultimately deserve #control of their own bodies and shouldnt have to be trapped in bad partnerships #& girls who love other women and dont agree w the typical 'woman serve men' that a lot of religious old folk got goin on #if u can modify some stuff in the religious books whats stopping u extending that grace to literal people just being who they are

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jrueships · 1 year ago

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https://twitter.com/danfetes/status/1712166167572361344

josh says people saying stuff about stef ticks him off 😭 that's the meanest he'll ever get off the field 😭

that was kinda... 😏😏😏

and i definitely know stef feels the same... 😏

" tired of hearing all this nonsense... lot of guys in this league that have that same fire that don't get talked about, but--"

" frankly that kind of ticks me off when people wanna say stuff about him, but... we'll keep that all internal here 🙂🙃🫥."

this is allen at his boiling point omg 😭😭 held back by pr

#reporter: we talked to josh and we asked him a question about y-#stef smirks in Yeah. I Bet You Did. Bitch.😎 we're a two packaged deal. inseparable 😎 (insufferable) im his right hand man. his silly rab-#the sassy pose and the fond smile. theyre so untouchable dramatic ass top of the foodchain powercouple it's Unreal.#WHERE IS THE RPF!?!??!?!????#josh and allen sooooo fucked after this #fucked HARRRRD bro fucked HARD #and they were both soo ready for it like you cant tell me they didnt fuck nasty after this HELLO #we cant always bet on them winning but the fuck nasty is surely guranteed #diggs had the bed all set up with romantic candlelight and roses and josh hurdled over all that shit just to hold him in his arms #josh caught on fire a little bit but diggs patted the flames down before he could notice #all the snow piled up around their home in buffalo could not muffle the 'youre my qb.. ure my qb' pants& moans which shake those very walls #josh '🙃🙃' the hell outta this interview #he said YOU may not understand diggs horrors but **I** DO!!@@! **I** UNDERSTAND. I GET THEM.#the frustration of seeing everyone hate on his husband when he knows all of that pales in how much stef hates himself #AND THAT MAKES JOSHS LITTLE STUNNED FACE ALL THE MORE SAD LIKE. HES SO HURT FOR STEF.#AND HE JUST KNOWS. he KNOWS the public is gonna spin this horribly. make stef the diva they always degrade him as #josh has CONSTANTLY with like a bear pacing around the cracked glass enclosure barely disguised rage #defended stef from misinterpretation and disdained the diva drama so vehemently #so everytime josh messes up or stef messes up or they lose all josh is thinking and feeling is 'im fucking this up for him even more #i dont care if theyre gonna be mad at me. diggs is hurting. somehow some way. diggs is gonna get Hurt.#and i cant do anything but talk. and i cant even do that well.#it's all my fault i cant do anything im so stupid im so stupid'#saint bernard song 1 hour #that single wide eyed stare he gives his wr bcs all he can do is stare as stef's pain surges #it's not fear of stef as the media tries to portray for qbwr tension. it's fear For stef.#he knows theres hurt. and he knows theres gonna be even more hurting. and. the nail. he knows he cant do anything to help it from stopping #'why couldnt i throw better. i need to just run it to lessen the chances. i need to do something. i need to be better. i have to be better'#meanwhile diggs could care less abt what everyone else thinks about him. he just cares abt how josh thinks. about josh #stef wants to perform well so josh can actually feel well. be able to express anything he wants without worry or treading #diggs/allen

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