#fucking hate that sh so much

[fjordfolk]

at this point both of my dogs' dams have passed so now every time someone refers to me as their mother i get to look them in the eye and say "her mother is dead."

[sleeping-at-sea]

I already knew the things Calypso did to Odysseus but honestly just listening to Love In Paradise over and over really just finally had it click and I realize how much projection I've done onto Odysseus and how most of it is honestly true and could most likely be true

[hershey-not-the-chocolate-maybe]

everything fucking sucks

[sualne]

hii! honeslty just curious, I read/watched kuroshitsuji AGES ago and I don't think I've finished the manga anyway, does grell go by she/her?? I vageuly remember ppl headcanonning them as enby though iirc in canon he's a guy?

Your tags peaked my curiosity, I haven't seen any Kuro content in a hot minute, but I remember it being the absolute must watch in my peak anime watching years lol And I absolutely loved the manga's artstyle

in canon grell is a trans woman, yana toboso has said something like "grell is a man with a woman's heart" ages ago and sometimes around 2014/16 had tweeted something about wanting to be more careful with her representation of people like grell in the future, don't quote me on that thought because i only read that tweet once and only remember reading a shitty screenshot of a translation of that interview where she allegedly said that.

i can however show you this:

it's from a bonus chapter (after chapter 108) about the popularity polls (it's a very convoluted non canon chapter) but it's one of the most blatant example of her being trans.

there's also the way she constantly refers to herself as a "young maiden" ect. idk how it goes exactly in the og but in french they translated it so grell always refers to herself with feminine terms while everyone else misgender her including the narrator. she very consistently reaffirm herself as a woman through every single ones of her appearances, like it's a thing she very much does, every single time she's on screen.

i haven't watched the anime in forever (cause it's kind of a disgrace and insult to the manga lol) but if i remember properly (which i mostly likely don't) they did omit/lowkey censor some of grell explicitly going "i wish i had been born a woman/could have been able to carry children" when she first properly introduce herself as a shinigami & the other half of jack the killer. (the anime also really did lean a lot more into the pervert queer caricature whereas in the manga she's given a bit more dignity, especially the further the story goes. though that might be my own impression and maybe it didn't change that much i just love her a whole lot).

also because i have to, please forget the anime (the first two seasons that is) and read the manga first and foremost because oh boy, what a disaster the anime is (nostlagia and atmosphere wise it's entertaining, i really love the op & ed, but it just, i just cant man it doesn't even compare to the manga at all). only watch book of circus -> book of murder -> campania movie -> the new private school arc that's coming soon (idk what they called it) after reading the manga.

[d3athanddecay1]

The urge to sh is so strong rn ;-; but we stay stronger... ♥︎

[xoxonevyscasket]

I really hope tonight is the night I die in my sleep randomly I don't wanna be here tomorrow.💋

[guilibagelz]

i keep failing my stupid english mastery tests so i cut myself

[iwakuraz]

it's not going too well

[todostoast]

me when i make a joke relating to suicide or sh and someone looks genuinely concerned instead of laughing: 😐

[catinasink]

i wanna. slam my head into something reepeatedly

[jamiessad]

Currently having a fucking breakdown during PE so ya some cuts are guaranteed for tonight.

[kit-katsuki]

ohhhb venting...

[twist3dserenity]

It’s been too long since I’ve been useful to someone, don’t you think?I’m rather useless. I can’t do anything right. I just take up valuable space in this world. And you know what? If I’m going to continue to be worthless, then I should be punished. it is now my job to stop eating, stop drinking, stop sleeping, hurt myself, and isolate myself. Counterintuitive? Yes. But if I really want to be alive, then I’ll start being worth something. If not. Then I’ll just suffer.

that’s just how it is everyone.

[labratboygirl]

i see you in everything. i think of you every day. you appear in my dreams. why?

[d3athanddecay1]

I tried to cut myself - my pocket knife is officially too dull

so now Im just debating, switch fully back to razors, or wait 24 hours and get my good knife back

[xoxonevyscasket]

CHOOSE ME! FUCK!