#fuckin burn them all

[front-facing-pokemon]

[nc3rdeye]

Third Eye

[pyrosomatic-metamorphosis]

something about qbad mentioning how much horror he put red team thru every time purgatory gets brought up... something about how proud dapper was of him.

like this is just my late-night read but- it feels like guilt qbad is trying to twist into pride. he keeps needling away at it. “i killed them all, over and over and over again.” “they were hunted by a monster.”

it’s like- reassurance. like a nail he’s trying o beat into his head. he’s had SO much trouble with legitimately hurting his friends, despite making that vow all the way back when the eggs first went missing, despite all the tree talk and the promises to save the kids no matter what. He never faltered with elq, and that protected them. He keeps faltering now. Sometimes he doesnt remember the code, or cucurucho, or skeppy. But that doesnt matter, right? Because he’ll protect the eggs. He’ll be the monster. he is the monster. he can and he will protect them even as his seams start ripping and he keeps breaking further and further apart. even at his worst, he’ll do whatever he needs to protect the eggs.

he’ll be the monster. wont he?

[luck-of-the-drawings]

THE ORDER OF PALMS An order of holy folk that serve The Helm, working to create powerful Aasimar Paladins for the purpose of protecting any who hire their help. [BACKSTORY UNDER CUT]

One day, Gjör and her peers were lead by their mentor Opheria, to a mission far from their home. On the peak of that mountain village, they saw upon the horizon, the castle of their home go up in flames. Horrified and scared, the apprentices sought to follow their mentors guidance, and followed her lead into a small barn. It was there, that Opheria proceeded to slaughter each and everyone of the apprentices. It seemed she somehow had a hand in this sudden attack on the Order of Palms. Gjör D'annevual survived a sword through the 'heart', on account of a rare condition, that places her heart on the other side of her chest. When she finally managed to bring herself back home, the Order was insulted by her survival. She had so many better peers, why couldn't any of them have survived? This runt was seriously the only thing that survived Opherias wrath? It was better to just wash their hands clean of this. Thus the Order decided to banish Gjör from their ranks. She now travels the land in search of a purpose.

[who-is-page]

Life is hard! Consider buying my stuff!

My life isn't quite falling apart, but things have gotten really tricky lately. One housemate (and their super destructive, permanent houseguest) is refusing to pay their share of rent or utilities for the next three months, and another is refusing to pay their full share of rent for that same amount of time and is making us cover around $75 every month, and I'm having to double-up my hours at work while still being a full-time student (and also one of my professors, who we're 99% sure is using ChatGPT to generate her citations because none of them exist and we pointed this out, hates my guts and has been grading me really harshly and forcing me to go full-sail on every assignment to ridiculous degrees in order to pass this required class).

My spouse is working on getting full-time at their job, but it looks like they won't be able to until December, and we also have no idea how much rent is going to increase this year-- my guess is it's going to go up another $500, same as last year, to a total of $3,000, so things are gonna get really fucking bumpy until around January, probably.

So basically, if you like the work I've done, consider throwing me a tip on Ko-Fi or buying my stuff on Itch.io:

(Also I promise we have more stuff lined up that we want to polish and publish, life has just been super-duper fucking busy! There is so much more going on right now than what I've mentioned here, especially in terms of surprise medical bills and other horrible surprises. And we haven't forgotten about Inky Paws issue 2, either, which we're still hoping to have done by December and which will STILL always be entirely 100% free to download, no matter what our living or money situation looks like. That will never ever change, so please don't worry!)

[snekdood]

bug found its way into my cup. looked real happy and smug about it. this pissed me off and motivated me to prove a point. I made sure it couldn't leave. i put bleach in the cup. now neither of us can be happy. I hope it was worth it you shit bug.

[quietwingsinthesky]

lied again. it’s also a game preservation issue to me. last year, the wii and 3ds e-shops closed down. i believe there was an effort to archive all the games on there that went as successfully as it could, but that was only games on there available before it closed, not counting games removed beforehand for one reason or another. how many games did we just. lose? because game companies don’t give a shit about preservation, and even less for preservation of games that just aren’t impressive, aren’t meaningful in the way things like. the legend of zelda are.

who in their right mind would dedicate resources to making sure that Rio on the ds is made continuously available for archival purposes, right? but it matters. even the shit games matter. every terrible atari game from when people really didn’t know what the hell they were making, every nes title that probably has its own angry video game nerd rant dedicated to it, and every terrible wii tie-in game that no one asked for. leave it up to the companies who made those games, and they’d disappear. especially nowadays with the prevalence of digital copies over physical ones, it feels so precarious. at least there was some stability in know that there were probably going to be thousands of physical copies made of those past games. take down a digital-only game when nobody’s looking, does it make a sound?

idk. it upsets me, the idea that these things, even as seemingly worthless and bad as they are, could be lost. would be lost, if the people in charge had a say in it.

[britneyshakespeare]

you know i don't bring this up as a light anecdote because it involves me being talked about in really perverted ways behind my back. but when i was like 20 i was part of this large group of friends that was mostly a bunch of guys, and a couple of girlfriends. and the energy if you were a girl starting to hang around them was like. "ok, so who are you gonna hook up with/date?" and it didn't last long bc of course when the answer ended up being "well none of you," the patience they had for me evaporated. lol. so i was being talked about among literally every single one of them behind my back in a gigantic group chat, of like literally everyone in the original group chat (including the ppl who never fucking used it, and it was over twelve people) minus a few other ppl they didn't like, decidedly. and eventually one of my GOOD friends (that i am still friends w to this day) told me about it and then there was the whole drama of people not being able to accept consequences for their actions, not owning up to being cowardly bullies, etc... yawn yawn yawn. truly that was some stupid middle school shit from a bunch of immature ppl that i didn't really take to heart. not the guys, anyway. i was honestly very hurt by a couple of girls who partook in it though, that i thought genuinely liked me and who i genuinely liked in return, so that was shocking to me.

but anyway. after this all happened my sister went OFF on this one guy in particular. bc he had been a nuisance before. he was a slimy creep honestly. i used to feel a lot of pity for him bc i thought he was just sad and wanted attention but that was just my 20-year-old nonsense brain way of interpreting it. he was incredibly annoying and would wear girls down, would hop from one girl to another week after week, each one not reciprocating his constant desperate flirting and lovebombing. and there was a joke he participated in about me and my (also queer, female) friend that was particularly crossing a line. so kaily just ripped this guy a new one when he went to try and offer an explanation. like imagine trying to even talk to someone after you just humiliated and bullied their sister... couldn't be me. like i was literally the one being bullied in this instant but i can't imagine the kind of white hot rage i'd be in if someone did that to my sister. you know? so yeah.

at the end of this rant kaily told him "go to hell." you know. like fuck off. go fuck yourself. go to hell. good old indecent words to throw out at someone you loathe, right? i'm literally ONLY bringing this up because i cannot stop thinking, all these years later, about how one of the girls who participated in it, and was the least apologetic about it (in fact weirdly a year later she came back just to taunt me again and tell me how much better her life is without me and how stupid i was for breaking up a 'wonderful' friend group?? yeah that sounds like the behavior of someone who is over it)... i don't remember where but someone told me she talked particularly about that message to that guy and said "kaily told (name) to burn in hell" like. like that whole time she interpreted my sister as like a conservative christian who was calling him a dirty sinner. bc presumably she had never heard the phrase "go to hell" in a non-literal context before, or just never understood it?? like that girl didn't necessarily strike me as incredibly bright or something, in the short time i knew her, but i never would've guessed she could be so dumb...

but for the record that pervert guy yeah he is gonna burn in hell.

[starlightkun]

saw someone say sungchan got his teeth done and i fear it's true 😔 i hope whoever told him he needed to change his cute smile can never find a convenient parking spot again or smth idc

[youngpettyqueen]

went looking for a creation myth

ended up with a pair of cracked lips

[angeltrapz]

I am. exhausted today (uh. emeto warning in the tags but its very briefly mentioned)

[tovaicas]

ONE MORE NOTE ABT THE HW RANTING. I think it would’ve hit really really hard on the Dravanian front and been an amazing plot beat if Estinien was actually made to confront the reality that his profession as a dragoon and identity as a dragonslayer (which is so integral to his sense of self-worth he made it his surname and he can’t imagine himself as anything else) has ripped Dravanian families apart and left Dravanian children parentless and killed Dravanian children in droves and sowed the exact same tragedies and never-ending pain as he has experienced from Nidhogg onto innocents and their homes just like him who have gone to war in their rage just like him and he is made to confront the reality that in his violence and his rage he and Nidhogg are one and the same and how his role in perpetuating this violence reflects back onto his sense of self and the inherent horror of how the Ishgardian church has so thoroughly used his anger to propagandize him into dehumanizing sentient beings with deep, rich lives into beasts to murder instead of him just going. ok. and immediately racing 10km to the right to punch Nidhogg in the face

[designernishiki]

I think I’ve said this before on here but. it really baffles and somewhat annoys me sometimes how people hear that a character is in their 40s-50s and immediately assume they should be weak or feeble or less attractive than they are. like. no. i think everyones just been brainwashed to think that attractiveness/health/worth is determined by how young someone is. why is it more understandable to view a teenager as more attractive and capable than a fit 40-50-something year old. kinda wack

[dogbunni]

ok I think I will start on chapter 7 of CTTD now

[wawawawawawawawawawawawawa]

some of you may know that i had a popular bnha fic a few years back. however what i DIDNT tell you was that the premise itself was inspired by someone else's headcanon. for a ship that was not the focus of my fic. because they hated my ship with a vitriol and tried to moralize it. (yk in the IF YOU SHIP THIS YOU SUPPORT ABUSE IN REAL LIFE way) so i took they fucking headcanon. now everybody knows me and i dont even remember their url. *this is the koment walt becomes heisenberg voice* i won

[iamthepulta]

elaborating on spending 7hr at the cafe near me:

Ate a delicious mushroom tartine for breakfast at 9am and then pulled out my notebook and began brainstorming Fake Rocks and Fake Minerals.

Spent two hours researching how bismuth and arsenic behave together since bismuth is hypothetically similar to unnamed element 115. Renamed it Pynkium from Greek. The Greeks knew what they were doing processing silver and lead because their economy was based on it. Except spending it on warring with each other. RIP.

Proceeded to write up the informational page (still in progress) and the key so I could start coloring the map.

Spent 3hr coloring the map.

At that point I'm pretty sure all the staff had noticed me and I think they'd rotated shifts, lol. Bought more two more pots of tea and an earl grey scone which were extremely good.

Spent most of the last hour+ rendering, trying to improve the colors, and stressing about how to make the text visible. When I looked up there was almost nobody in the cafe except two lovebirds on a first or second date who were sitting two tables over.

The guy who was on shift at the restaurant asked me what I was working on in the way they'd been dying to ask their whole shift but were super embarrassed and god its so hard to explain sunless skies . i need to come up with a quick synopsis for random people. But they were super curious in the map so I got to show it off and all my hard work and chemistry background were worth it.