#fuck idk I don't tag stuff much anymore

[violet-embers]

My name change hearing is tomorrow and I'm both excited and stressed for it. On one hand it'll be awesome to get that done and changed, but it's going to be a lot of work getting everything else updated

It'll be worth it in the end to not dread having to show my ID anymore though

[thecherrygod]

I'm so fucking tired I already think the holidays are Bad why does everything around me make them Worse

[izzy-b-hands]

I keep forgetting I can't seem to get the current version of xkit to work on my new laptop and going to do stuff that it let me do fjldksafjdlsaj

[wecouldmakediamonds]

god i am fucking pathetic

[hurtblossom]

Angels of my dreams L.N.4

Pairing : Lando Norris x Singer!reader (Female)

Summary : Just singer!reader being in love with her boyfriend

Warning : People being in love + terrible english (sorry)

Masterlist

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Tagged : landonorris

ynusername die first is out huns xx

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username she's so in love > username ikr i'm actually dying

username serving as always > ynusername thanks hun xx

landonorris you muppet why didn't you tell me ? > ynusername surprise ? > landonorris i love you. and for the record I hope to die first > carlossainz actually i would like to die first

username marry me ? > ynusername i'm already taken hun xx > landonorris that's right, she is

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ynusername stream nonsense huns xx

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username am i smelling an album > username she better be releasing an album > ynusername am i being threatened ? > username you are hun xx > ynusername i dont like when you use my stuff against me (i raised you right huns xx)

landonorris how do you do this to me ? > ynusername that's what i've been asking myself ??? that's crazy > maxverstappen stop being so in love, it's disgusting > ynusername you're just jealous because he likes me more than you > landonorris don't fight kids, i love you both equally > ynusername you'll love us both equally when you'll fuck max tonight > landonorris noooo i love you more baby > ynusername that's what i thought

username what did i just witness > ynusername just the usual hun xx

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ynusername angels of my dream is out now huns xx

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usename THE ALBUM IS OUT OMG > ynusername you asked, i delivered

usename i didn't know i was missing something before this album. Thank you queen >ynusername anytime hun xx

landonorris i'm so proud of you love. I love you so much > ynusername i love you more > username you better love her, she wrote a whole album just for you

billieeilish proud of you baby > ynusername marry me ??? > landonorris NO ???!!!!

username my favorite song is paper ring, it's son cute omg > username ikr?? my favorite is die first > username how can you not mention nobody gets me ??? > ynusername i like birds of a feather

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ynusername i don't want to see you with anyone but me

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username if they ever break up, i will stop believing in love > ynusername same hun xx

landonorris i'm obsessed with you in a way i can't believe > landonorris idk if i want to be the hand or the boob here > ynusername LANDO ????!!!!! (come back i miss you) > landonorris i miss you more hun xx > ynusername i totally don't love you anymore

username mama y papa > ynusername indeed hun xx

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ynusername thank you all so much for the unconditional support i've been receiving ! I love you all so much. I also want to thank my team without whom none of this would have been possible. A special thank you to the one and only who inspired me this whole album. I'm lacking words to describe my love for you, just know that it's a lot, thank you for making my life better and for being here every step of the way. Anyways, my vision is blurry because i'm crying writting this, brb huns, just going to dry my tears.

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username i'm so happy for her guys, brb going to dry my tears with mama > username me too > username me three > ynusername there's not enough place in lando's arms for all of us, sorry huns xx

landonorris she came to me crying, i understand why now > landonorris btw we're both crying now > landonorris i'm so in love it hurts > maxverstappen i even shed a tear > maxfextrell lucky bastard > ynusername he is lucky huns xx > carlossainz you all just got hunsed

THE END

[chuuyasheaven]

♡ Addicted to your kisses ♡

♡ Tags: Dazai Osamu / afab! Reader, making out, pet names, praising, soft sex??, desk fucking??, idk what's acc happening rn, Reader distracting Dazai, p/without any/p? , might contain grammar errors, rushed drabble, cringe, etc.

♡ Notes: NEW FORMAT ?!?! But also srry for disappearing, school's already making me want to kms

Dazai had a lot to do this week, there were a ridiculous amount of documents and reports which had to be filled. He also didn't take a lot of breaks during all this, and the worst thing of all? Not being able to be around you. Not being around your sweet touches, your sweet voice and most of all, your addictive kisses. But it's probably better this way, he may be locked in his room at all times but atleast he's not getting distracted!

When you first found out, you were glad that he was catching up on stuff, but now it has been almost two days since you last been with him. Hell, you even started to get worried, so why not check up on him? Just a quick peak and small talk and then leave him be? That was your original plan, trying not to get him overwork himself, which started off innocently. . Until you kissed him. It was just a quick kiss on the forehead, how did it escalate to this?!

"S–shit, i missed you so much, 'donna.", Dazai panted between kisses, while you were just eager for his lips to touch yours again. From this one kiss, it all started from one innocent kiss for most of the paperwork to lay on the floor and you sitting on his desk, with your arms around his neck as he made out with you passionately. You were so deep into it that even his tongue entered your mouth, fighting for dominance even though you're submitting to him. Dazai's hands are now on your waist, holding you close to him. "Did you miss me too?"

"Yes, i did. . a lot, 'Samu.", you answered his question, just the way he wanted it. "Your kisses are so addictive, darling, i just can't stop after one.", he explained while looking you in the eyes lovingly. You needed him so bad, it was even a joke anymore, and trust me, he could tell. "You want more, love?", he asked, you nodded once more, eagerly and excitedly. Dazai only smirked and slid of your pants, leaving you in your panties. He then unbuckles his own belt. You could see his obvious boner, getting more excited yourself.

Dazai just took out his dick and pushed your panties impatiently to the side, sliding into you immediately. When he was in fully, you let out a quiet whimper. After waiting for a few seconds for you to adjust, you gave him the sign to start. Dazai moved his hips slowly first, already groaning in pleasure while your whimpers turned into moans. His hands were still on your hips, his head now on your shoulder trying to stay quiet. "You feel so good, f–fuck. .", he grunted softly into your ear, only getting you wetter. Dazai's thrusts got faster as this went on, he himself started to whimper slowly.

"You're s–so pretty, I can't–,", Dazai started, getting cut off by his cock twitching so good inside you, that it he had to take a deep breath to continue. Dazai giggled drunkenly before continuing his sentence. "I c–can't control myself. But you like it, don't you? You l–like the way you have me wrapped around fingers so easily.", You arched your back as he trusted into you deep, letting out a slutty moan during it. "Y–you're such a good girl, I love you so m–much.", he whimpered softly, twitching a second time.

The skin slapping in the room got louder and sloppier, meaning that you and Dazai got closer to your orgasm. You placed your legs around his waist, resulting into him going even deeper than before. "D–dazai,", you whimper loud enough for him to hear. "Y–yes, my love?", he asked while lifting his head from your shoulder, smiling drunkenly at you, very slight drool rolling down the corner of his mouth. "C–can I get a kiss, p–please?", he just leaned in, kissing you again. As his lips smashed against yours, your back arched again. Dazai twitched once more before cumming inside you, both of moaning into the kiss while you came with him at the same time.

Letting go of the kiss, you tried catching your breath and Dazai pulled out a few minutes later, sitting down back onto his chair and leaving you still on top of his desk. "Did you finish your work, 'Samu?", you asked, while Dazai just laid on your thighs breathing lightly. "Not really,", he stated. "Then go finish it. You know what happens when you don't.", you warned him until you felt his warm breath get closer to your inner thighs. "Relax, darling, let me clean you up first, hm?", before you could protest, Dazai was already breathing towards your cunt's direction.

"—I can't leave you leaking our juices onto my desk, can I, 'donna?"

AHHH I ACC LIKE THIS !! ♡

♡ Random tags:: @soukokulatte, @rxyyyyy, @miloofc !!

[faeyells]

NEW INTRO POST

hi, my name is fae, legal name yes. enjoy my mutterings, they usually come to me in moments of fervent sadness, gayness, or mental illness

joined on jan 12th 2025, that is 12/01/25 for all my sane people

previously @faerie-remuslupinsversion

My worldbuilding blog :)

she/her/whatever the fuck you want, call me anything, use any pronouns I couldn't, care, less

wuh luh wuh

15!

I am gay, depressed and a poetry kid, of course I love the Marauders.

wolfstar, jegulus, moonwater, rosekiller, nobleflower and pandalily have me by the throat

I love reading but I can’t finish a book for the life of me. I mean, I do eventually. I just almost finish like five books then I give up. I can actually read quite fast if I’m motivated to, but boredom, mental illness and my screentime sorta make that less of a rare thing, more of an endangered one.

Books that changed me:

Rebecca by Daphne DuMaurier (READ IT) (I NEED SOMEONE TO FANGIRL WITH AND NONE OF MY FRIENDS IRL CARE (thank you Liv<333)) the illuminae series, white nights by by Dostoyevsky, the scythe series, playing Beaty bow, the year of less by Cait Flanders, the foxhole court (still on the second one don't spoil). I think that’s it idk. OMG BUNNY BY MONA AWAD how could I forget, it’s one of my favs.

My spelling is horrendous, sorry bout that. If I have random uppercase horribly misspelled words that’s because-

STORYTIME!!!

I made this rlly good online friend last year and they were a marauders fan and introduced it to me and got me to read Choices. They lived across the globe from me so I’d stay up all night talking to them on insta and then we’d tell each other about our days and shit. Then my mum found out I had an online friend and tried to like… organise a call with their mum and shit, then there was a whole kerfuffle and both of us just stopped talking to each other, it was rlly sad. But when we were talking we were so exited we’d talk in all caps and misspell everything so my phone just got used to it and started autocorrecting like that. So if you ever see one of those random words just know they happened out of fervent gay maraudersness.

-anywayssss YEHA sorry bout that.

Oh my god it happened. I’m keeping that as an example.

"I have no moots ig. And I’d love to meet people so yeah. I’m down to be friendssss." (hii so this is two-moths-later fae and i have SO many moots now and love yall sm)

Oh, I kin moony. I dress like a mix between him and lily and Luna. like a depressed autistic lesbian (funny that) anyway I love Apple, paint tube, cherry, star + other stuff shaped hair clips, nightgowns over baggy jeans, my ratty old docs and my once calico, now bleacked ginger hair which i keep in two fat plaits that stuck out like pippy long stockings.

Music:

Mommy long legs, Kate bush, queen, Bowie, mitski, Lana del Rae, tv girl, GRLwood, portishead, nirvana, korn, girl in red, Gigi perez, Chappell Roan, slipknot, big theif, anything, literally anything, like... give me all of those, but also ayesha erotica .

I love ashnikko but I don’t listen to her much anymore. Been following her for ageesss tho. (ITTY BITTY JUST CAME OUT I AM TWEAKING)

Oh right, I’m Aussie. Straya is great down here. Not as many spiders as you’d think. The mozzies r the real kicker.

My tags!!!!

#fae yells (Random shit I’m saying that I still want people to see)

#fae yells at clouds (Rants and stuff)

#fae yells at literal clouds (weather)

#Adalheidis (marauders knight/pirate fic)

#fae saves for later

#fae saves for drawing later (commissions)

For palatable

#fae saves for first year

#fae saves for second year

#fae saves for third year

#fae saves for fourth year

#fae saves for fifth year

#fae saves for sixth year

#fae saves for seventh year

[drownedrow]

I’m new to the Raphael fandom but everyone is so nice here :-) everyone is so sweet and accepting of dark content and all the fan arts and fics are SO good!!! You all make me less shy and I’m totally inspired to write my own longfic/dark doc I’ve been putting off since forever!! Majority antiship spaces are so soul draining

Awww!!! That's so sweet!💞

Yes the Raphael lovers are generally pretty accepting of all kinds of content, we're talking about devils in the Hells, it's nice that very different interpretations of him can exist so easily. He has a lot of interesting little bits and bobs that make him so fun to shake and twist. My little weirdo.

Aha that's so nice! I need to recommend some people who make lovely Raphael focused content besides my own that I just adore!

Art:

Oniishi does amazing art, I've commissioned them before and they were wonderful.

Crimson-Nemesis makes adorable art, lots of cute Raphlep.

Raccoonattack makes suchhh GOOD STUFF. Meph shows up sometimes...even Gort rfoeragvsdeg ugh OBSESSED!!!!! And they draw a lot of Fem!Raphael which I just loveeee.

Noxarionart this person is mostly on blue-sky which I barely use so I linked their tumblr but their art is some of the sexiest shit wrfsfrres drooling.

Jasmindarnell not sure they actively make Raph art anymore but one of their pieces is currently my lock screen so I'd be remiss to miss them.

Fanfics:

SharpLittleClaws Hottest Raphael PWP fanfics /TO ME/ (I like him bottoming/being switchy.). When I tell you the CHOKEHOLD "Pretty Gilded Cage" had on me.....yum.

Aqeldroma She writes mostly Durgetash but she has two Raphael fics and I love them both. I will caution I again enjoy Raphael very flawed and fucked up and I like to see him whumped bad, but if you liked my stuff you'll probably like hers. Her long-fic with him I doubt he'll end up winning in, but I am a Raph/Gort connoisseur and she feeds me.

Misterkingdom Not really active but feeding a Raph/Gort lover with many a fic. They made some excellent fics that honestly have inspired me. Droit Du Signor is my favorite.

Not_Rin Actually not smut so far lol, Black Earth that Made Us is another HoH Enver long-fic with the author's OC Slyvie (Enver and her are twins), I very much like canon characters a lot of the time but Slyvie enchants me. Can't wait to see where it goes and have been enjoying it immensely so far. It is not super Raphael focused which is why it's at the end but this fic needs more love.

Bonus:

Akelan has made some really nice fanart for me just because he's a sweetheart. He mostly does Durgetash but he's awesome, both his art and writing are great. :3

Oh-Moth does mostly durgetash but he’s drawn twoooo really wonderful Raphael pieces and their art in general is just awesome.

Tinselace writes Mephistopheles focused fics, I love her work very much, yay MEPHYYYY.

Anyhoo, you should write what you want, I hadn't written in years and the Forgotten Realms sucked me back in so much, it's so nice to have a creative hobby to focus on, once I finish Annals I have a FORTY TWO (outlined to chapter 35 lol) Raphael/Gortash Warlock AU I am so so excited to start working on. I totally get that it can be soul-sucking, the only other fandom I've ever been in was Naruto and it was pretty chill there but I've seen some stuff especially devils adjacent- looking at some OTHER devil focused franchises (Never watched but Hazbin Hotel I get stuff bc of tag overlap) and omg...thoughts and prayers. Idk I truly do believe art is art and a story is a story and the world is better to have more creative work in it. I personally find writing about traumatic and dark stuff so cathartic lol. Even if I was writing to three people I would be writing, because I love these fucked up little men so much, so please don't hide your fucked up story under a bushel. Like please write your story and tag me when you do. ^^

[kevin-the-bruyne]

If people get upset that you're not posting about FK they need to get a grip. I'm sorry to be so blunt but there it is. If you or anyone isn't feeling it anymore for whatever reason, or if you're still feeling it but just getting excited over something else, that is fine. I know this sounds mean and I like the FK delulu stuff as much as anyone but it's dumb to be upset about it.

Like I think we're all aware you're not gonna stop posting about Khaoting at least. Come on. It's not the end of the world if you for whatever reason don't ship him as much with First anymore. And getting bothered by talking about another ship independent of them is weird. They might be monogamous but you don't have to be 🤣

I ship khaotung so hard with first is the funny thing about this. first's place in khaotung's life is near equivalent to that of his mothers. I've been obsessing over this hug for days, totally unable to forget about it, it is imprinted behind my eyelids.

LIKE!!!!!

That's not husband wife or a boring romantic dynamic thats just straight up Pocahontas with her weeping willow grandmother like good for them coming in strong with the Disney ride or die dynamics. They are Ariel and Flounder, Mushu and Cricket. There are two men's hands on that boy and he's still trying to climb first!!!! Like damn son I'm sorry that First's ribcage doesn't open up so you can climb inside, I agree that god made a Very Serious Design Flaw when he made First opaque so that Khaotung can't spend all his free time staring at his heart beating.

Does First live in Khaotung's house? How the fuck should I know??? The only thing I know for sure is that if First wanted to be a fish, Khaotung would be the aquarium - does this mean they want to get married????? idkkkkk? I got bigger problems than obsess about who Khaotung will get married to. [for example: who will *I* get married to??? I've had two back to back LTR duds in my 20s so I'm not feeling very hopeful atm]

But I'm interested in everyone's viewpoint. The point is that there's a little bit of RPF for everyone to enjoy here. If you don't enjoy RPF why are you here and if you do but my content is still stressing you out - how is that even possible just scroll down to a different post in the delulu circus tag??

I ask for people to tell me what they're interested in so I do get a lot of opinions on what I post more or less for the entirety of circus posting - good and bad. Sometimes the bad is not that nice but at least it's in alignment with the kind of things I post. And I really don't care about WHAT people think of my clowning. If people hate it I'll stop posting it if they enjoy it I'll keep posting it. But I'm always clowning on my own time regardless.

But the people in my inbox this past week are so angry and I feel so bad for them. I am starting to think there is a contingent of users or one very passionately disapproving user who blames me for Joongkhao's popularity (at least on Tumblr) and like???? idk???? many people told me they like Joongkhao because of me so??? maybe they are like 10% right even????? No one puts me on a pedestal like an angry anon let me tell you.

But most of it's not even about me? Nothing that people have come into my inbox yelling at me for this past week are things I actually say???? Like I wish I knew WHAT was going on with that person that sent me A PARAGRAPH of anger in response to this post. I can't believe anyone can be THIS mad about my antisocial son making a friend 😭😭😭

Everything is fake!! Anguish over fandom is pointless!!!! I do realize that there will be anguish in fandom with or without me. But man I do feel really bad when I've made a joke about Khaotung wishing Joong on his birthday and it just ruins someone's day. It wasn't even that good a joke, if someone is going to ruin their day at least let it be a Grade A circus post 🤧

I operate on a belief that khaotung's gay love for his every friend should be a vehicle for peace and love on planet earth 😔 I think I'll be fine eventually and resume my regular clown-assery. I really just haven't paid any attention to fandom since December and I think I'm just in a little bit of shock over how starkly different everything is.

[naughtynanzhu]

gonna write out the beef with my coworker under a read more so I only have to type it out once to send to the homies lmao

so one of the guys at work, Jim, and I have been working friends for like ? two years? and it was always easy and chill even when the rest of the shift spread rumors that we had something going on (disgusting. he was born the same year as my mom and has the same name as my dad lmao) (I never really hear the rumors bc I'm the supervisor and people don't wanna say it in front of me but I definitely know) (when it would come up, he'd always get worried that we weren't gonna be friends anymore and it was like bruh... chill. lmao)

anyways the last couple months I've been going through it, like I'm worried about my brother nonstop bc he's got cancer and going through chemo and lives states away, and my mom's got stuff going on too with her kidney stones, and you know ... the Facism. also I've been in a bad mental state bc of that and also other things and my doctor and I have been changing up prescriptions to find better combos and it's exhausting. and on top of supervising some of the dumbest fucking people ever...

and he knows this like I'm pretty open about stuff and told him and a couple other people that yeah I'm gonna be in a bad mood bc it's all A Lot.

so like maybe a month or so ago, he started constantly asking me if I was mad at him bc I acted like I didn't want to talk to him... and like the first dozen times I was like Jim. I'm just not in a great or talkative mood. I'm not mad at you. you're making your own problems by taking shit personally. you need to chill.

like actually what I would say.

but AFTER A DOZEN OR MORE TIMES, YEAH. IM GONNA START GETTING IRRITATED.

so his bullshit became a problem. he started doing the "you're mad at me 😔" attention grab and then would be like "I'll just leave you alone.... 😔" and I started avoiding him as best as I could right

but then like last Monday, it escalated and no matter what I did or where I went, he was there. (like coincidentally). I would go to break, he'd show up right behind me. I'd go off the floor for something, he'd be there. I'd try to hide in the back break room, he'd show up and 0: like it was a surprise. I'd get a drink from the water cooler, suddenly he'd park the forklift and come over for a drink too. I'd go up to my office, he'd come upstairs. I'd be BUSY fucking WORKING THE LINES when we're short staffed and he'd come down the lines to "bother" me. we have a room downstairs only used for morning meetings and to print tags. literally a lights off room that is unused and I went to pick up tags I printed and I turned around and he had followed me in.

and like... holy shit. and since then, his mood swings have gotten worse. he keeps SAYING he knows he's bothering me and that he'll leave me alone or stop talking to me but it lasts maybe an hour and then he's back being purposefully annoying and not understanding why I'm irritated? and it never used to bother me that much, but now it does that he pokes or pats or punches my shoulder and always super slow and it went from feeling like "he's just a dork" to "he's trying to touch me as long as possible"

so day before yesterday I went to HR and told her about it and she didn't quite understand how serious it was, she thinks he just thinks we're real friends instead of work friends and I'm like ☝️☝️☝️ no. but she said she'd talk to his boss and let her know that he's been doing parts of his job badly and needs more to do.

I do not believe he's been spoken to.

yesterday, I almost cried about it AT work lmao and there's been so much of the same shit over and over idk but at one point he came up while I was going back and forth on the radio with maintenance during a breakdown (fucking busy) and he wanted to talk but when I didn't have time, he got huffy and said he'd like to talk to me at break. (and I was like... I am never going to break again.) which, he ended up catching me on the lines later bc I hadn't gone to break and he told me he felt like I didn't want to talk to him and was always mad when he came around and he said he'd leave me alone (again. for like the 100th time) and I just said Okay. That's fine.

and then an hour later, firkfkdkdkf

it's like right after 10, and my shifts over at 11 right. he comes up and stands as close as possible to let me know he was going to head home and I was like. pretty early. and he said that we could "regroup tomorrow" and that I was still his favorite and i was too slow to dodge his shoulder punch so when he walked away I was so fucking livid kzkdkddk I started slamming shit around. and then like? a half hour later??? I see him still wandering around??? and I was like Jesus FUCKING Christ. and about ten till it was time to go, I saw him hanging out by the stairs to my office and I thought I'm not going up there to close out my shit and if they ask why, I'll fucking tell them. ...when I didn't go over, he came to me to let me know again that he was leaving and would see me tomorrow

FUCKING exhausting and I wanted to cry

so today :) my birthday :) I didn't really want anyone to know especially him, but I was hanging out by an office person that I'm chill with and then one of the girls from my crew, and I told them and was like keep it on the DL, bc I don't want Jim to know bc he's been bothering me and I had to tell the office girl that I meant it bc it's a whole HR thing right

so he rolls up. the girl from my shift looks him dead in the eyes and goes "it's her birthday 🤪" and I ... the betrayal. like I wish y'all could've seen my face.

so of course... he wants to talk to me and I'm like what. what is it Jim. and he apologizes for being a dick and I was like. Okay. and he said happy birthday and patted my shoulder and I said Stop. then he said he'd come over and bother me later and I said No. and walked away. I had been in the building fifteen whole minutes at that point.

I came upstairs to check my email and he followed me up to tell me he found a possum in his trash can and then he apologized again and said that he likes me and will come talk to me again later and I sat on my phone like 😑😑😑😑 the whole time.

like he KNOWS he's bothering me he's doing it on purpose he's admitting it and then he's turning around and throwing a pity party and saying he'll go away but then he doesn't I'm literally being stalked by this 62 year old douche who's acting like a 14 year old that got dumped and is trying to win a girl back and it's like... we have had NOTHING going on we don't even have each other on fb or each other's numbers. we do not go out together. we sit like three tables apart on break. but he's being a freak and I sent an email to HR for a follow up last night and haven't heard back but I am DISGUSTED. it's only 3:30 I've got 7.5 hours to go and it's already shit like I knew it would be

also I don't care if it's wrong but the girl that ratted my bday out to him is a piece of shit employee anyway and I am going to turn her in for all her bullshit till she gets fired and I don't care. maybe don't suck at your job and then also do this to me. like. die.

also also, thought I'd add that I've been taking my breaks in the women's locker room 😞

[magicalmelancholy-blog1]

AO3 Author Ask Game

I did this on my own because I saw this post but I'll tag people at the end because I wanna.

Total Number of AO3 Works: Not counting orphaned stuff or alts 92

Total AO3 Word Count: Not counting orphaned stuff or alts 95,899

Fandoms I've Written For: Len'en is the big one, but I've made efforts towards being a Homestuck author before, dabbled in Touhou, and for a few months back in 2022 I even thought I would abandon Len'en for Ciconia. Lol. Also made various one-shots for other fandoms. Oh yeah, and a Vocaloid Longfic I haven't orphaned for some reason. Probably memories.

Top 5 Fics By Kudos:

Mishaps At The Summer Festival (Love Live Superstar)

100 BPM (Vocaloid, this fic's placement here is very carried by it being in this fandom)

Realization (Len'en, very surprised a fic in this fandom managed to break top 3)

Massage (Project Sekai)

Dealing With Failure (Friday Night Funkin')

As you can see, 3/5 of these fics are one-shots for larger fandoms that I wrote in like once.

Do I Respond To Comments: Yes Yes Yes comment please I'm begging you

What Has The Most Angst-Ridden Ending?: Probably Unpleasant. Tbh I don't remember exactly what I wrote in here beyond the fact I put those tags and that age rating there for a reason but. I put those tags and that age rating there for a reason. Think this fic is part of the reason some random asked me if I was okay in uwom once. Fair question but I don't know you so like, do I traumadump on a stranger? Lie?

What Has The Happiest Ending?: The Three Fairies Charity Theatre. I wrote this one to be pure fluff and I think I succeeded <3 Reimu gets to have money and feel appreciated!!! And isn't that what we all want in life?

Have I Received Hate?: Not for my fics. Part of me is disappointed but I think it's better that way. I'll probably get some someday though.

Do I write smut? If so, what kind?: If fate wills it, you will be shown the way.

Do I Write Crossovers?: No. Sometimes I'm tempted but it usually just amounts to a different lens of character analysis on discord.

Have I Ever Had A Fic Translated?: No. Feel free though~

Have I Ever Co-Written A Fic?: A few round robins here and there.

A WIP I will never finish: So many. The one with the least hope compared to my desire however is that Ciconia one where Chloe and Gunhild went on a date "for reference". I don't remember shit about Ciconia 😭

Writing Strengths: According to others, I'm very good at conveying a character's emotion. I definitely agree. I also think my sense of humor is something to be proud of. Was also told that I'm good at making the world feel alive. I feel like I tend to skimp out on additional worldbuilding, but apparently readers will just eat up whatever scraps you give them. Or is it just that I'm in the "eating up whatever scraps you're given" fandom?

Writing Weaknesses: Ugh I hate writing fight scenes so much they suuuuuuck. And I keep repeating phrases too. I think I kill them all and then they fucking come back the next time I reread it.

Do I Like Foreign Language Dialogue?: Idk I've never written it.

First Fandom I Wrote For: Gravity Falls. Everything I posted publicly is buried in a dead Facebook group.

Favorite Fic I've Written: Unpaid Debts. I know I'm actively posting it right now so there's recency bias there, but trust me when I say I put my entire ass into this. I wanted Fumikado to have a breakdown, and like sure I could've just written a one-shot where they had a breakdown. But it wouldn't have been satisfying. I need to see the process; how their mental barriers break down so utterly that they can't cope their way around it anymore. After some failed attempts I finally concocted a scenario where this could happen, and I am so happy...

I haven't actually posted the part where they break down (and I won't for a little while) but I hope you enjoy it when the time comes.

Now to tag some bitches!:

@maideninorange @hyikal @mimicteruyo and whoever else wants to

[neverendingford]

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[pedroshotwifey]

Christmas Countdown Day 20 - Dave York

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Pairing: Dark!Dave York x afab!reader

Word count: 2.2k

Tags/Warnings: no use of y/n, dddne, this is not the darkest thing I've written, but it is the darkest I've posted. Non-con piv, non-con knife play, reader gets cut, blood as lube, spit kink, spit as lube, degrading nicknames, restraints, Dave is MEAN, multiple slaps, literal abuse, stockholm syndrome vibes? Stuff im forgetting

Summary: Dave comes home after a rough day to find out that you didn't do the one thing he asked for.

A/N: Y'all, I want to like this one so bad, but I just read over it and I didn't think it was as good as I anticipated. 😭 Maybe it's just because I know I wrote it, or maybe I'm just tired out of my mind. Idk, I'll try to read it in the morning. Anyways, please keep in mind that this is a DARK FIC. If you don't like it, don't read it.

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You’re sitting on the couch, idly watching TV when Dave gets home. You smile brightly, jumping up from the sofa to greet him at the door, resisting the urge to cross your fingers in hopes that he’s in a good mood. 

You had pampered yourself today, making yourself look soft and pretty, your hair shiny and perfectly in place. You had slipped on a dress that he had brought home a week or so ago as a reward. He’d been so happy and kind that week, and you’d felt so special with the way he paid so much attention to you. 

You hope that he’ll do the same again when he sees you like this, all dolled up just for him. Though it’s a reward enough just to know when you have his approval. 

“Hey, baby,” you say tentatively as you peak your head into the doorway. 

Dave turns around to look at you as he takes off his coat, his expression blank as he takes in your appearance. Your smile falters, though you try to keep it up. His eyes are dark, his jaw set with a particular hint of annoyance. He’s had a bad day. 

Ignoring the part of your brain that screams at you to go hide, you step toward him slowly. He doesn’t move as you approach, just continues to watch as you gently undo his tie and hang it up on the rack next to his coat. 

The air is thick with tension around the two of you as you look into each other’s eyes. Where your gaze is hesitant, exposing the fact that you have to put effort into not cowering in his presence, his is hard, revealing the fact that he gains something from your submission. 

You try so hard not to be afraid of him anymore, but you just can’t help it sometimes. He’s good to you when you’re good, only mean when he says you’re not. The only problem is that he seems to decide when you’re acting good or bad, even if you’re on your best behavior. 

Because of this, you’re in a constant state of reluctance and worried anticipation. You never know when he’s going to snap again. 

“D-Dave?” you ask, breaking the silence. “Do you want to talk–” 

“Would you shut the fuck up for just one second?” He’s quick to interrupt as he shoves past you and into the kitchen. You close your eyes, gulping down the sudden disappointment that bubbles in your throat. 

That’s okay, though. You’ll brush it off. You’re probably just over-reacting again. 

You sigh and spin on your heel to follow him into the kitchen. 

“Are you hungry? I can make you something if you wan–”

“Christ, woman! Do you have a damn off switch? If I want something, I’ll fucking tell you I want it.” 

You reel back at his harsh words, not expecting them quite this early. You open your mouth to comply, but the warning look he gives you makes you shut it and nod instead.

He moves to the sink, rolling up his sleeves to wash his hands, when he stops abruptly in front of it. For a moment, you’re confused, but then you remember what you had forgotten to do today. Your eyes go wide and your stomach drops. 

“I ask you for one. fucking. thing,” Dave says, his back turned toward you. His voice makes you shudder, the tone much too low to mean anything good. He turns around now, fury in his eyes as he breaks under the last straw. 

“Useless goddamn bitch,” he slowly seethes, stalking toward you. Your breathing goes shallow, your body tingly as you watch him get closer, already knowing what's to come. 

You sink back, your ass hitting the floor as you scootch back until you hit the wall. You’re cowering, your body already shaking as you wrap your arms around your head and squeeze yourself into the tiniest ball possible. 

“Dave, please! I swear I didn’t mean to forget, IswearIswearIswear, please, I–”

You're cut off by your own scream as Dave yanks you up by your hair, your scalp stinging as strands rip from the force he uses to pull your face to his. You’re blubbering as he spits degrading remarks your way, far too panicked to hear everything he’s saying. 

You catch snippets here and there as you push against his chest, only serving to hurt your tender head more as he tightens his grip on your hair to keep you close. 

“Fucking dumb—can’t remember shit—Don’t even know why I keep you here—can’t even tell you to do the dishes–”

He just keeps going, every beration digging into your skin until you feel like you’re being coddled by razors. 

“D-Dave, Please–” you try to stop it, even though you know better. His hand comes down sharp across your cheek before you can even process it being raised. Your neck aches from the way it’s forced to the side, almost distracting you from the stinging pain coming from your reddening skin. 

You choke on a sob, your tears stopping momentarily from the shock. Through the ringing in your ears and the pain that spreads through your jaw, you register how your makeup has been messed up from your crying, and you almost want to laugh with how stupid of a thought that is. 

You don’t, of course, because Dave’s quickly pulling you back to reality with a firm hand on your chin, making you look into his eyes. Tears continue to run hot down your face as you let him move you, feeling too defeated at this point to try anything else. 

“You hear me, bitch?” He asks, giving your jaw a firm shake. You blink at him, forgetting at this point that you have the ability to speak at all. It’s not like he would hear you anyway. 

“Said I’m gonna get some fucking use out of you. Seems there’s only one thing a dumb whore like you is good for.” 

You just keep watching him, your expression fallen as you watch it happen. Again. What else can you do? It’s never helped to do anything else before. 

He snarls, clearly annoyed that you’re not giving him another reason to reprimand you. He stands to his full height, tossing you back to the floor as he does so. 

The back of your head knocks forcefully against the tile, and you feel your teeth rattle as the light above you starts to blur. You think faintly that you may want to move, but your body doesn’t want to comply. It’s not like you have anywhere to go. 

You settle for blankly watching Dave as he tugs his belt through the loops before unzipping himself. His eyes stay on you the entire time, and you think you whimper at some point because of the smirk on his face. 

You hate the way your tears run thinly into your hairline, settling there uncomfortably, but you can’t be bothered to wipe them away. You’re tired, you just want to disappear. Unfortunately, you know you can’t do that, so you settle for the next best thing—staying still and silent in hopes that you can block everything out, dissociate yourself somehow. 

Your body jolts as Dave kneels down in front of you, pulling your hips closer to him. You must have been watching the light again, lost in your hazy thoughts. A pathetic sob slips through your lips, and you taste blood as they open. You must have bit your bottom lip when you hit the floor—or maybe it was split from the slap. You don’t know. Don’t care at this point. You just want this to be over. 

Vaguely, you register that it hasn’t even started. 

“You just going to lay there?” Dave points out more than asks as he reaches for your panties. “You really are damn stupid. Must want this, fucking slut.” 

Your eyes close tightly as you feel your panties get ripped in half. 

He’s right, you are stupid. Only a stupid girl would let this happen. Stupid, stupid, stupid. 

The word repeats like a chant in your head, your eyelids tightening and your lips quivering. Your body shakes and shakes, it’s all it can do through the headache you’re starting to get from the screaming in your mind. 

Another harsh crack makes you gasp, trying pitifully to take a breath as you take in the fact that he just slapped you again. You feel it less this time, though you don’t know why. 

“Look at me,” he spits once your eyes are opened again. Hesitantly, you look into his eyes, trying with all your might to keep them open. It’s like a nightmare, and the only way you can escape is for you to shut your eyes. 

The only difference is that this is real, that even if you closed them, you would still be able to feel the way he notches himself at your entrance, still feel his threatening stare, still feel every ache and pain that he inflicts on your body. 

He grunts as he starts to shove his cock into your unprepared cunt, and your mouth falls open to squeal at the sudden burn between your legs. No sound comes out, your tongue thick and dry as sandpaper. 

He doesn’t stop you this time when your eyes screw shut in pain, your body squirming beneath him as you try to get away. Your fingers twitch, as if just now regaining the ability to move. 

Dave chuckles at you before pressing a hand to your abdomen and spitting onto your pussy, letting his saliva run down to where his cock is half-way disappeared inside of you. He repeats this action three times before there’s enough lubrication for him to slide the rest of the way in. 

“Tight little hole. All mine to ruin.” 

Dave grabs your face again, pinching your cheeks until you look at him through blurry eyes. As soon as they’re open, you can watch him spit on your face, already soaked from your own fluids. 

You heave, trying to control your breathing as he starts to rock in and out of you, keeping a firm grasp on your face. You need to let it happen, the sooner he gets what he wants, the sooner this is over. It needs to be over. Let it be over. 

His pace grows quicker and more harsh, a sob leaving you each time he punches into you with his thick cock. It hurts so much, always does when you’re dry like this. 

Suddenly, your arms are pulled above your head, Dave’s cock still shoved inside of you as he ties your wrists with the remnants of your panties. 

“I have something for you, slut,” Dave tells you, a tear slipping down your cheek as you keep trying to imagine yourself far away. 

That quickly becomes hard to do, because there’s suddenly a gross feeling coming from above your cunt and to the left. The feeling of your skin being sliced open. 

As soon as you realize what’s happening, a scream you didn’t know you had erupts from somewhere deep inside you. It’s full of an agonizing pain as your senses hone in on the way his pocket knife digs deeply. 

You know what he’s doing, what he’s threatened before. 

You know that the next time you look in the mirror, you’ll be able to see Dave York’s initials carved in front of your hip, deep enough to leave an ugly, jagged scar. 

Dave laughs as you scream and try to simultaneously move away and keep your body still. You don’t know what would be worse right now. 

It’s a white hot pain that courses through you as he moves on to the next letter, his movement sloppy from the way he still shallowly thrusts into you. The wetness of your blood dribbles down until it reaches his cock, making the glide easier yet as he pushes it back into you. 

He laughs even after your screaming stops, the shock taking over you and halting all reactions but the silent sobs that wrack your entire body. He pulls the knife away after a moment, after he’s sure he’s dragged the edge deep enough to be permanent.  

Your gaze focuses on the kitchen light again, and you can hear someone calling raspily for help. It’s weak and wet sounding, and you don’t quite understand where it’s coming from because you swear you’re not trying to say anything. 

“God damn,” Dave grits out. “Will you ever shut your whore mouth?” 

You suppose you do, because the sound stops, and the kitchen is filled with nothing but your whimpers and Dave’s moans. You can feel him getting close, the way he stutters and pulses. 

“Gonna come in this tight little pussy,” he grits, grinding himself down.

You don’t care what he’s going to do. You’d let him do anything to ensure that this will stop, that it won’t go on forever. You just want it to stop. 

You don’t realize he’s coming until he’s almost done. His seed stings as it hits your burning walls. 

You’ve stopped crying. Your throat’s dry, your eyes sting, your cheeks ache, your cunt throbs, your hips are littered with tender bruises, yet your mind is numb. 

Dave only lingers for a moment before he lifts off of you. He chuckles to himself as he says something, but you don’t think you could hear what even if you tried. Your hands fall limply away from each other as he uses his bloody pocket knife to cut away your restraints.

Your eyes close as he walks away, and you don’t try to open them again.

**** Thank you for reading, please lmk if you would like to join the countdown taglist <3

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[givemedamage]

i dont really ramble slash just post my thoughts that much anymore bc im like an on edge bitch plus ive gotten ten times more incoherent off my meds and i dont wanna subject anyone to that except for in tags on art posting maybe sometimes ill be like BARRRRFFF WORDS but i wanna do it now bc. i just want to On that note like i definitely have posted dipshit dumbass stuff like oversharing stuff or stuff i no longer agree with or wish i worded better or didnt speak so soon on like i have a journal if i really need to tell the universe i just took a shit but ANYWAYTHATS NOT EVEN THE POINT OF THIS RAMBLE WAIT THIS WAS ART RELATED RAMBLING ok so like i've been trying to quote unquote relearn art for a hot minute cold second now and sometimes, ill think of that one ask i got that was like 'how do you draw furries' or How do you draw anthros or IT WAS SOMETHING LIKE THAT and i cant remember what exactly i replied ,GIVEN THAT IS A VERY VAGUE QUESTION BUT LIKE i definitely replied something strange and unhelpful like 'ufhhh just practice :D !!!!! find fun ways to furrify the furry idk' AND LIKE IF THAT WAS YOU IM SO SORRY i feel like there's so much stuff i didn't AND STILL DON'T OBVIOUSLY know even though ive been doing furry art since babyhood like how important fundamental whatever is WHICH I KNOW SOUNDS DUMB LIKE OBVIOUSLY FUNDAMENTALS ARE IMPORTANT but like. learning perspective and actual shading not just guessing and using people pose and animals pose references and doing figure studies and outside places studies has HELPED ME SO MUCH LIKE WOW WHAT THE FUCK there's just little things i never learned in art class. little things i'll notice like 'huh foot (paw?) placement is actually rlly awesome and also important drawing a character standing' or like 'so that's what a trapezius is' or like 'ohhh i get it now, things are scaled bigger when they're closer and i should be thinking about the pov also' which like the last time i was in an art class i was literally a FRESHMAN IN HS so like. like yeah But how to draw furries individual , i apologize but if i was asked that again id probably be like ''References and youtube tutorial and especially that animal skull github angle reference website saved my hide'' WHICH ISNT REALLY THAT BETTER OF A RESPONSE NOW THAT IM LOOKING AT IT BUT LIKE I COULDVE more concisely said (ironic sonsidering how fucking long this spiel is becoming)that i don't know what the fuck im doing but i love resources and i love pencils and skecthing and i love wawa color and painting and digitaling arting and i love my fake world and artists i love you and artists who struggle making art they want i love you and artists who want to do art but are nervous to start or are preoccupied with other shit i love you . i know stuffs really hard out here for everyone and excuse me for being so unspecific about it but it seems like everyday it's just another thing it's honestly getting hard to keep up with much less sum up my frustrations towards in a single already tragically rambly post and i hate it so much and stay safe and i'm sorry do not die quietly plus never kill yourself. Tl,dr; i run on sentence about how art is good and fun, (somewhat gushily and long windedly )

[nananarc]

Gonna disclose my income as a freelance artist because I feel like it might give some perspective. And mostly bc I'm feeling a bit burnout and I want pity points ok? Lol.

Context 1: For sake of simplicity, all figures are net income (minused all fees, charges, insurance, benefits, etc)

Context 2: I live in a big city in Việt Nam and the cost of living is relatively low. A salary of 1000$/month is considered really good for someone living alone with one pet, no family or children, no debt or other liabilities. Entry level jobs usually start at around 200-300$/month.

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Let's start in 2021 because that's when it can be considered when I started doing art professionally.

In 2021 and 2022, I was juggling between art school, a part-time online side gig, building social media for my art, and of course try to get commissions. But coms were few and far between, mainly because I didn't have an online present before and I only hang in relatively small fandoms. So all I earn through side gig and art were only some change, in total avarage to about 40$/ month. Some months made up for no income months.

In 2023, things starts to be a bit better as I get more confident in my skill, but coms are still few and far between and months with no income is still common. Side gig was few and far between too and pay less. Overall I'd say it goes up to about 80$/month.

This year 2024, art school is done, I can finally do art full time. But I was severely burnout because all the accumulated stress since waaaaay before catch up with me and i couldn't cope anymore. I have to spend a lot of time resting instead. Fortunately, I received a decent amount of coms each month, and the new patreon surprisingly got a few supporters (I fully realistically expected it to sit at 0 for at least a year). Overall, I have an 8 hours 4 days work week: 4 hours a day on com and managing social media and other stuff that actually makes money; 4 hours a day on my own projects and personal indulgence that doesn't directly make money. As of now, my income is about 180$/month.

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You are probably wondering how the fuck do one live like this in this economy.

It's because my family is middle class and can afford a freeloader like me in their house, receive their pocket money and tuition fee. I'm privileged.

But of course my family isn't rich and if just one catastrophic event happens to us, we'd be in bad shit. I'm constantly in anxiety of money, work, and the future. It doesn't help that I'm late 20s and many people around keep reminding of how I'm not making money yet still leeching off parents. It doesn't help that, for years all i hear about art is it will just lead to failure and no money.

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But still, I am thankful of my family for letting me stay here. And all my friends and supporters for giving me money oc lol, but more importantly, believing in me more than I ever do in myself. I read all of your little tags, your keysmash and compliments, and I keep them all dear to my heart, and I went back to them everytime I need motivation. I can't see where my future as an artist will be, but I cling to your support and love as the will to keep going. Thank you all so, so fucking much. I'd have been literally dead in a ditch somewhere without you guys.

Anyway, idk, I've always been adamant about wage transparency (especially in a corporate setting) but I rarely see this in freelance artists. except to flex, to promote the hustle culture, or to sell some courses they made. Most of us don't want/can't subscribe to the grind and have nothing to flex either. All we have is this shit economy. I'd wish we could have been more open about this and many of us wouldn't have to feel so lonely and despair all the time.

[birdiedoesdc]

hi birdie!! for the questions for fic writers ask game: 2, 13, 15, 37, 45, 48?

HOLY SHIT HI. WHAT A WONDERFUL ASK THIS IS THANK YOU!! kissing you firmly on the forehead.

(questions for fic writers)

2. Go to your AO3 “Works” page, to the sidebar with all the filters, and click the drop-down arrow for “Additional Tags.” What are your top 3-5 most used tags? Do you think they accurately represent your writing habits?

fluff, angst, hurt/comfort, jason todd-centric, and pov outsider!! i'd say this is more or less accurate--i like writing the goofy fluffy shit, but i've also been diving into the heavier stuff recently. and of course jason todd. my guy. my dude. my silly little rabbit. i don't write pov outsider fics as much but man oh man do i love them. i think theyre so much fun.

13. Are there any tropes you used to like but don’t anymore?

hmmm i don't know!! i will say that when i first got into dc fandom, the main fics that i was getting recommended/stumbling upon were those tim-centric whumpy ones and i don't read as much of those now because they can get idk. a little stale after a while.

15. What’s your favorite AU that you’ve written?

crime matriarch and the dog she didn't want my absolute BELOVED!! this au means soooo gd much to me i am biting and gnawing on them constantly!! the angst inherent in immortal jason. bringing sofia fucking gigante into it and getting to pick apart all of her complexities. throwing sofia and jason into a salad spinner and shaking them up. percy grant is also here. im having so much stupid fun :))

37. Promote one of your own “deep cut” fics (an underrated one, or one that never got as much traction as you think it deserves!). What do you like about it?

you know i understand that this fic is incredibly goofy and extremely niche but. i think the maws slade/lex hr fic i wrote is actually very funny. i have no clue how hr works and i'm sure anyone who does is cringing like crazy but i had fun with it and that's all that matters. it was an absolute blast to play around with different employee's different voices in their reports. also slut fuck assistant is one of the funniest phrases i've ever written.

45. What’s something you’ve improved on since you started writing fic?

i think my prose has gotten...sharper?? if that makes any sense?? i also feel like my pacing has gotten better--i don't have to add as much stuff when i'm editing for it to feel balanced.

48. What’s the last fic you read? Do you recommend it?

according to my ao3 history the last fic i read was tower, tumbling by @spiritsglade!! i do absolutely recommend this fic. SUCH a unique take on the whole titans tower incident and already the tim-jason characterization is fantastic. really excited to see where this one goes next!!