#fuck cm puke

[slutfortheeclaymore]

Drew got a new bracelet!! And it’s 💯 hater certified!! I love his petty, sexy, DM Hunky ass!!

[thedman0310]

Posting this for no particular reason ;)

[writingoddess1125]

Just a Peak- 👀

Crack-Head Headcanon

You accidently see the guys naked

Spicy Themes 🔥 including oral 18+

Buggy, Mihawk, Crocodile, Shanks,

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Also a quick side note for everyone, This took forever since I had to do actual math! I looked at ALL of these damn characters and their height then based off of Odas fucking drawings figure out how their anatomy would lay in how he drew pants. Was it excessive- Absolutely 💯 was it worth it IDK

Buggy

• You all had been drinking on the ship, it was a fun party in all honesty. Buggy of course wanting to be flashing and show off how fun he was. Buggy who was fairly well drunk stumbled out for some reason you didnt hear-

• You stumbled out to potentially puke over the rails, However when you did you saw your Captian standing there clearly having finished relieving himself and now simply too drunk to put himself away as he stared out over the open ocean.

• You now knew why Buggy was so damn confident all the time...

• Thicccc, easy 8 inches flaccid and fit so well in his gloved hands it damn near looked picturesque.

• Have you ever seen a pretty cock!? When are cock pretty!? It's literally a perfect shape and color, with nicely trimmed ocean blue curls at the base.

Mihawk

• "AHH!! WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING HERE!?" Buggy screamed as he caught you staring- His face as red as his nose as he quickly tried to tuck himself away with sloppy hands.

• You quickly doing a U-Turn back into the hull of the ship- Face as red as a cherry and the image now seared into your brain.

Crocodile

• Being acquainted with Mihawk definitely had its benefits, in case really good drinks and the Bartender giving you free drinks cause they were hitting on The famous pirate!

• Mihawk had disapeared around 4 drinks ago, so you walled out of the bar to see if you could spot him. Turning the corner you spot him, but he definitely wasn't alone.

• There he was with thay flirty Bartender, her on her knees sucking him off. He looked mildly bored as well as he glanced down at her- However you couldn't help but stare when you saw her pull back for air.

• Long a solid 9+ inches , A bit thin for what you expected but clearly he made up for it in length. Pale, Slender, curved ever so slightly and thick hair at the base.

• You now understood the wide walk-

• Seeing the young female Bartender taking him fully into her mouth once mkre with a deep blush. Her nose pressed against the thick layer of black hair at the base- You see his eyes go up from the Bartender right to you

• His eyes met yours and he smirked- Like he was amused you had caught him this way, or that he was turned on by this possibly.

• Your face burned as he stared such strong eye contact with you. Quickly you snapped from your thoughts and hurried back into the bar. Finishing your drink quietly as the memory played in your mind.

• When Mihawk returned he sat next to you, not saying a work but you felt his eyes following you.

• Being a secretary was hard- being one for a famed dangerous pirate was harder- and then there was Crocodile

• He was a very picky and meticulous man that you knew better then to displease. So you had gotten his clothes from the cleaner (sands a bitch to wash out) and was dropping them off at his current residence. You had a key anyway so you walked right in, not expecting him there anyway.

• You were dead wrong however- Walking in it seemed Crocodile had just left the shower and didn't bother with a towel either. Stepping out steaming and having water running down his form.

• He was a big man (8ft3in -253 cm) you knew that... however you never connected it how that would translate in terms of.. his other anatomy however this just didn't seem fair!

Shanks

• It was easy 11 inches, the size of some people's forearm! Paired with it being very girthy it looked more like a weapon then an organ

• Paired with the lazy mess of wavy black curls at the base he clearly didn't bother taming.

• His eyes locking on your shocked face and how red you looked. A noise similar to that of a chuckle leaving him as he didn't even bother closing his robe.

• "Come here-" He said, taking a drag from his cigar and waving you to come back in... it seemed you would have a much closer look now-

• It had been a eventful day- A successful treasure hunt were the whole crew had pulled in a few billion berries for their own pocket. So you had all celebrated, Getting far too drunk in a short amount of time- Paired with delicious food.

• You still feeling buzzed you decided to drift off to get some rest before you got totally shitfaced

• Walking into one of the near by rooms to get some rest, the alcohol still making you fuzzy you realized far too late you'd stepped into the Captian's Quarters- and Far far too late into noticing their was your Captian half undressed clearly about to retire himself.

• A lovely white and pink member laying at a easy 8 in flacid and a forest of untamable red curls are the base of his cock that just lead your eyes there and only to there.

• He blinked at you surprised before cracking one of his signature smiles-

• "You okay Darling?" He said with a laugh, seeing your face so red and shocked.

• A twinkle in his eyes as he gestured for you to come fully inside.

• "Seems something has caught your eye, why don't we close up that door and talk about it?~" He said with a smirk. You nodding and closing the door behind you with a shy smile.

• Now how could you refuse that?

[mamirhodessxox]

Mamirhodessxox Masterlist

Hi & welcome to my masterlist! This is where I put all of my hard work in here all together in an organized manner as-well as listing things &who i will take requests for! You will find many fan-fictions, head-cannons, blurbs, and Oneshots within this Masterlist and this Masterlist only! Please do not translate my work and re post it onto your blog, if i find out you do I will block you, report you & publicly announce what you did,

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RULES

I do not write things such as Pee Kinks, puke fetish, Underaged sex, Foot Fetishes, CNC, R*pe, Sexual assault/harassment, Abortions, Drug addictions, Alcohol addiction, Miscarriages or Incest/step-cest, Period sex (just not my thing.)

I do write things such as Pregnancy, Marriage, Divorce, conflict, Violence, Knife Play, Ice play, Witchcraft, Daddy Kink, Mommy kink, Degrading, Praising, Little space (Do not send me smut about little space or anything sexualizing little space it is a coping mechanism for others & it does not need to be sexualized, it is an age regression which is why I will not be involving sex with it.)

Please feel free to send me multiple requests or suggestions of your liking, but do not send the same exact request multiple times or message me the same exact request just because you didn’t get a response, I’m either working on it or it’s waiting to be worked on.

Do not re post my work or translate it and repost it, Reblogging is fine but do NOT use my work to gain your own following I work hard to publish my writing & the last thing I need is my work being stolen

I also do not write about people that are personally known and not even famous in whoever I’m writing for in my FFS out of respect & privacy for that person, So if you send me a request involving Cody Rhodes please do not send things that include his child, his personal family as I feel like it would be disrespectful, If you do please send something else.

Do not send me any fucking request that involves sexualizing a coping mechanism. Little space is an age regression It means that there you or someone else regresses or goes into the mindset of a different age group. This could be from the age of 2+. The relationship aspect basically means that there is a caregiver (daddy/mommy or any other nickname) and a little.

Do not send me requests for AGE PLAY. I am not going to write a fanfic smut involving a grown ass adult having sex with another grown adult but roleplaying it as they are underaged. That is disgusting and fucked up & if you ask me again I’m blocking you.

All comments are appreciated :)

I will absolutely not take requests involving Liberty out of respect for Cody & his family, if you want a request for dad Cody please come up with a different name for the child. Do not involve his personal life whatsoever ever please. This goes for Seth Rollins requests as-well.

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Who I write For

Cody Rhodes

Rhea Ripley

Seth Rollins

Cm Punk

Request Inspo

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Cody Rhodes

Cowboy!Cody Rhodes

Mad Scientist!Cody Rhodes

Dashing!Cody Rhodes

Undashing!Cody Rhodes

Black Hair!Cody Rhodes

FBI Agent!Cody Rhodes

Officer!Cody Rhodes

Ex Boyfriend!Cody Rhodes

Ex Husband!Cody Rhodes

Single Father!Cody Rhodes

Fitness Trainer!Cody Rhodes

Security Guard!Cody Rhodes

Professor!Cody Rhodes

Pornstar!Cody Rhodes

Pirate!Cody Rhodes

Prince/King!Cody Rhodes

Seth Rollins

Cowboy!Seth Rollins

FBI Agent!Seth Rollins

Officer!Seth Rollins

Ex Boyfriend!Seth Rollins

Ex Husband!Seth Rollins

Single Dad!Seth Rollins

Fitness Trainer!Seth Rollins

Pornstar!Seth Rollins

Rhea Ripley

Dance Instructor!Rhea Ripley

Officer!Rhea Ripley

Ex Girlfriend!Rhea Ripley

Ex Wife!Rhea Ripley

Pornstar!Rhea Rhipley

Single Mom!Rhea Ripley

Pornstar!Rhea Ripley

Dexter Morgan

(nothing ab these are ooc for him btw he’s still a serial killer lowkey just different varients of him)

Professor!Dexter Morgan

Single Dad!Dexter Morgan

FBI Agent!Dexter Morgan

Husband!Dexter Morgan

Ex Husband!Dexter Morgan

Ex Boyfriend!Dexter Morgan

Fitness Trainer!Dexter Morgan

Roommate!Dexter Morgan

Y/N / OC (Fem)

Kindergarten Teacher!Reader/Oc

Babysitter!Teacher/Oc

University Cheerleader!Reader/Oc

Model!Reader/Oc

Actress!Reader/Oc

Singer!Reader/Oc

Single Mom!Reader/Oc

Plus Sized!Reader/Oc

POC!Reader/Oc

Criminal!Reader/Oc

Cowgirl!Reader/Oc

Camgirl!Reader/Oc

Sorority!Reader/Oc

Pornstar!Reader/Oc

Littlespace!Reader/Oc

Nurse!Reader/Oc

Influencer!Reader/Oc

Serial Killer!Reader/Oc

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Interaction

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Cody Rhodes

Series/Stories

His Strange Addiction (Series), Part 3 (I lost part 2), Part 4, Part 7 (I lost 5 & 6), Part 8, Part 9, Part 10 (Final Part), Bonus chapter

Hey There Delilah (Series) Part 1, Part 3, Part 4, Part 5, Part 6, Part 7, Part 8, Part 9, Part 10, Part 11, Part 12 Final Part Bonus Chapter

I Hate You more (Series) Part 2, Part 3, Part 4, Part 5

Dead Witches Wish, Part 1

Too Sweet (Series), Part 1, Part 2, Part 3

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Oneshots/Imagines

Millions

(Smut, Fluff, Angst, Cody x Fem!Reader)

Dummies In love

(Smut, Angst, Fluff, Cody x Fem!Reader)

Settle Down

(Fluff, Angst?? Cody x Fem!Reader)

On The Pole

(Fluff, Cody x Fem!Wrestler Reader)

Nervous

(Fluff, Cody x Fem!Reader)

Absolutely Not Having it

(Angst, Fluff, Cody x Pregnant Fem!Reader)

Welcome to the family

(Fluff, Cody x Fem!Reader)

Last Friday Night

(Fluff, Smut, Dashing!Cody Rhodes x Playboy Model Fem!Reader)

Chocolates & Blankets

(Fluff, Cody Rhodes x Fem!Reader)

Cherry On Top

(Cody Rhodes x Baker Fem!Reader, Fluff)

Before You Leave Me

(Cody Rhodes x Fem!Reader, Fluff, Angst)

I Adore You

(Single Dad!Cody Rhodes x Babysitter Fem!Reader, Fluff, Smut)

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Head canons & Blurbs

Dating Cody Rhodes

(Fluff, Smut, Cody Rhodes x Fem!Reader)

Cody Rhodes Wedding & Honeymoon HCS

(Cody Rhodes x Wife!Reader, Fluff)

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Seth Rollins

Series/Stories

(Coming Soon)

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First Date <3

(Seth Rollins x Fem!Reader, Fluff)

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Rhea Ripley

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Dexter Morgan

Series/Stories

Ultra Violence (Introduction):

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[cigaretteslutz]

cigaretteslutz' masterlists

hi hi hello! this is my collection of writing organized into one spot so that you don't have to search around for my works! under this you will find my rules for requests, and the different things you can request. (im not the best at this so pls be nice)

rules;

things i will NOT write: pee/scat/puke, abortion/forced abortion/miscarriages, things with no consent, addiction, actual wrestlers fucking each other (unless its a 3some with the reader but other then that no), things featuring age play/little space, incest/step-cest. if you request any of these you're blocked.

if you make a request and want a wrestler to have a child, please give their name and age because im not using anybody's REAL child in a fanfic thats just...😭

things i WILL write: marriage/divorce, pregnancy, violence, mommy/daddy kinks, praise/degradation kinks, rough sex (??), more to come as i write

please dont translate or steal my work! i work hard on these and if i want my work to be translated, i will ask someone, but as of right now no.

who i write for/request inspo;

wwe: austin theory brie bella cm punk cody rhodes cora jade damien priest dominik mysterio drew mcintyre finn balor grayson waller jade cargill john cena la knight liv morgan logan paul maryse miz nikki bella randy orton rhea ripley ridge holland roman reigns seth rollins aew: alicia atout (my friend held a gun to my head and forced me to add her. you know who you are) adam cole adam copeland adam page bryan danielson buddy matthews claudio castagnoli darby allin hook jay white kenny omega kyle o'reilly mjf orange cassidy sammy guevara saraya tay melo wardlow

inspo: officer porn star/cam star professor pirate/mermaid ex-partner single parents model actress sorority/frat princess/prince/king

if you like my work, please consider following me! comment if you would like to be added to the tag list !!

[jeffgerstmann]

Tony Khan needs to stop the "media" scrums and hire someone to talk for him. He's a fucking moron who not only gives non-answers, he pukes up a million words to say nothing. And that's when he's not lying his ass off.

"AEW is the safest company, we have the best safety track record."

Andrade punching people to get out of his contract.

Bryan Danielson wrestling with a fucking eyepatch and half his top guys out on injury.

"We had to fire CM Punk because I was in fear for my life."

Zero credibility and just tedious to listen to.

OK

[godtiers-for-real-justice]

I'm so sick of this.

They can't even have a normal fucking discussion about getting us out of here without four people crying so hard they puke up a lung and (on a GOOD night) only THREE people wanting to rip the speakers organs out! Amazing group of people to be trapped with for the rest of time. Fucking love it. And I'm supposed to heal these people up after I kill myself on a rock for them? Fascinating.

God, even without 🌌 being dead there is NO way in hell we would've made it out of here. I don't even believe in half of these bullshit game rules anymore but it's not like I won't be reduced to a red fucking stain the moment I open my mouth around the wrong person.

I just need to keep them on my side and I'll be fine. Just keep saying stupid jokes and staying out of their way and following along with their magic metal wizard Cuckooland bullshit until we finally get the cue to reset it. (If ⚙️'s even right about there being a reset. But for that, refer to the above paragraph about being reduced to a red fucking stain.)

Hopefully this is the last you hear from me for a while, if anyone's even still fucking left to read this. Either this will kill everyone here (including myself, good riddance!) or I'll be beaten to death for even daring to trying it. Best odds I've had here for a while, honestly.

CM out.

[becomehaikyuu]

Haikyuu Chapter 4: The Strongest Ally

REFLECTION:

It's training time! And Hinata is eating shit! Kageyama keeps trying to activate Hinata's superhuman reflexes through passing but Hinata wants to practice jumps and spikes. Tanaka reminds them and the audience that while Daddy Sawamura is a nice guy, he's very scary when he gets mad. Luckily, this tense moment is broken by the arrival of Sugawara, who comes in to help and, most importantly, not snitch. Eventually, Kageyama straight up tells Hinata that he will not serve to them during the game because he sucks at receiving (no comment). Hinata takes his very insulting put-downs in a surprisingly mature way, simply asking if he learns to receive the ball in a way that he's satisfied with, will he toss to him? Kageyama brushes him off but Hinata doesn't give up! He practices with Sugawara while going into detail about how he appreciates his friends for helping him practice, he could never see them as real "teammates". That's when Sugawara offers to moot the whole point to him himself. However, Hinata knows in his little yaoi heart that he will never be satisfied with Sugawara tossing to him even if Sugawara is objectively prettier than Kageyama on his best day.

Hinata goes into detail about why he needs Kageyama to toss to him. You see, Hinata doesn't just need to beat Kageyama. He has to be as good as Kageyama if he want to beat opponents as strong as him or stronger than him. In a way, Kageyama is a goal (The Lord Is My Shepard...) and Hinata needs him to keep from losing any more. This is a perfect rival dynamic. For you see, the true rivalies of Shonen (Yusuke and Kuwabara, Naruto and Sasuke, MJF and CM Punk) had one thing in common: it's not just about beating your rival, it's about getting them to acknowledge and validate you. And Hinata can't go forward unless the best volleyball player he's ever seen says that he's good enough. In a way, Kageyama is Hinata's Daddy figure (I FUCKING TRIED, ALRIGHT?!).

So they practice for the rest of the week until Kageyama (who was eavesdropping on the earlier conversation) is finally able to get the receive he wants from Hinata...after putting the poor munchkin through the fucking gauntlet. The two finally recognize each other as allies, Kageyama has a tsundere moment, Hinata pukes, roll credits.

Great chapter and I love how it implies that Kageyama is capable of the one human quality that seems to escape me and most of the people on this site: empathy.

Chapter Rating: 9/10

[kayfabekelpie]

First Lines

Rules: List the first lines of the last ten (10) stories you published. Look to see any patterns you notice yourself, and see if anyone else notices any. Then tag some friends.

I think @sybilius grabbed anyone who I’d tag so if you want at this then go for it. Also I’ve only published four stories so you get some WIPs in here...

1. From the mountaintop i took down the sun

There is, Punk thinks, something strange happening here.

2. You belong somewhere you can be free

Adam hasn’t done this as long as Kenny has. He didn’t lose someone as fundamental, didn’t harden himself as surely, didn’t slip so far so fast. There are still places inside of him that are soft.

3. The stars hurl all their fundamental

He was told, once - some friend with a cheap tarot deck playing at mind reader - that the Tower is bad news. That it’s change, it’s alteration, a fall from grace. An upheaval, a lightning strike - Lichtenberg figures branching through veins and burning from the inside out. It’s supposed to be scary. When she pulled it from the deck, she’d waggled her fingers with a grin and an exaggerated wooooooo and pronounced him cursed.

4. Take no scorn and wear the horn

Punk can't resist the Eye. He knows he can't, he knows it's inevitable, but the skin-crawling disgust he feels for himself whenever he indulges, gluts himself on someone else's thoughts, dreams, fears, doesn't make it easy. The first time he dips into an(other) avatar's psyche - Kingston, at least it's Kingston, who for all the hopped up snare drum-heartbeat aggression of the Slaughter is unbothered enough to cast a lazy wave and tell Punk to hang out or whatever while they both blink blood out of their eyes - he pulls himself out with a desperate gulping gasp and ice water rushing down his spine, and then immediately pukes on Kingston's shoes. Kingston's gracious-ish about it, at least, and Punk buys him new Timbs as a thank you.

5. Untitled Kenny/Hangman(/Kenny) t4t time travel nonsense

Adam hates getting texts from either of the Bucks because they usually mean either something terrible is happening or something terrible is going to happen imminently, probably as a direct result of them texting him. And there is no way in hell that come upstairs and bring your strap is in any way going to change that pattern.

6. Untitled Dom!Hook Taking Care Of Adult Human Men - CM Punk version

Punk hadn’t wanted help backstage after the match. Hadn’t wanted the fans to see him as weak, as feeble, but. God. He’s regretting it now. He barely makes it back through the tunnel before he collapses against a wall, fighting back nausea. His head is spinning, he probably has a concussion. Fantastic. Great.

7. Untitled Dom!Hook Taking Care of Adult Human Men - Hangman version

Adam feels like shit. He’s not hurt, not really. Sore, yeah, of course, he just got dumped through a chair by Lance Fucking Archer, and his emotions are bruised (there are too cows in Virginia, Lambert), but he’s fine. He’s had worse, on both ends.

8. Untitled ‘I had a hair up my ass about the nature of sacrifice and chose wrestlers to talk about it also something something folk traditions’ ft. Hangman and the Bucks

Adam has known, since the distant days of this childhood, that there are rules in the woods.

9. This one’s working title is “welp guess im writing a BDSM au”

CM Punk is the finest whore in all of Chicago.

10. One hand on the sky (historically inaccurate western AU)

Adam has never liked being the Hangman.

As for analysis, uh. I really like either ‘get the entire exposition out of the way’ style first lines or single-line intros that tell you nothing; I think Adam Page looks his best when he’s mildly bothered; and CM Punk is the finest whore in all of Chicago.

[shayveridekidd]

here are my 2am sleep deprived cm ramblings. enjoy.

that totally sucked so now here’s my cm s13 ep 1 episodes as i watch (which i definitely pirated because good tv hates canadians)

- STEPHEN😭😭 i accidentally found out he was gonna die when googling the actress that plays his wife & i had a feeling he wouldn’t be on the show for long because i hadn’t seen him in any random compilations or pics i’ve seen but ugh i was really starting to fall in love with him i’m so sad

- miss penelope garcia just shatters my heart. between saying they’re all gone to not wanting to leave stephen’s side, that girl is an angel and i just can’t handle watching her world constantly crumble around her the poor baby

- WHERE IS EMILY

- oh my god he took her

- also seeing jj and tara so injured not my girls stop hurting my girls

- YOUR TEAM IS FINE? ONE OF THEM IS DEAD

- what the fuck is he doing to her oh my god

- jj’s new intro is the one redeeming quality so far she looks so good

- SPENCER RUNNING STRAIGHT TO JJ💔💔 my soulmates. my heart.

- rossi taking charge as he should. i love that man so much.

- reid repeating ass clown in a confused voice reminds me of better times on the show so thank you writers for that

- garcia keeps making me cry.

- this man is cutting his nails? wtf

- i liked the hot evil lesbians much better.

- nice tickets rossi :)

- i’m really liking matt simmons. i never watched beyond borders but he seems super cool

- wait emily knew where hotch was?

- i wrote a whole excited rant about hotch and emily corresponding but then deleted it when i promptly was disappointed to learn it was not real:(

- i’m so worried about reid though that kid is not ok

- will & jj’s relationship is so sweet god i want that

- jj’s survivor’s guilt god my poor baby

- emily’s speech about jack... just stab me in the heart now.

- reid bestie... get some help.

- ok i know emily’s gonna live but that doesn’t stop my heart from beating out of my chest holy shit HE STOPPED HER HEART??!!?!

- why tf did they go to a puke den???? my emetophobia is very unhappy.

- WAIT so emily has been hallucinating this whole thing? what the fuckkkk

- yes bestie emily use that big brain of yours fight the system

- SHE BIT HIS EAR OFF??

- uh reid with a gun while having a psychological break sounds like a recipe for disaster please don’t do anything stupid bestie

- oh thank god he let him fall off the roof

- monica is a strong, classy woman.

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My IUD story (part 2)

She gave me some time to myself to relax. She came in and checked on me and I sat on the table, mask down and bare from the waist down out of breath.

“Yeah im alright i just dont feel so well but im okay” with a puke bag in-front of me dry heaving.

She gave me some more time to myself but i forced myself to get up, put my leggings on and vans back on and got out of there all while shaking and crying. My ptsd taught me better than to stay somewhere you got hurt so naturally i bolted out of there

I called my boyfriend multiple times despite getting texts saying hes back at the apartment accepting our couch delivery. I texted him “Chris please” and called again which he answered immediately.

I cried and said please come im in so much pain

15 minutes later he pulled up and i got into the car and as soon as i sat down i broke down even further. I kept repeating “that was so bad” in between tears.

He hugged me and reassured he’s taking me home now to rest.

The other details dont matter too much. I spent the rest of the day in bed. I couldnt walk. Moving hurt. I just tried to sleep it away.

24 hours later I continued with the cramping which is normal for an IUD insertion. I developed a localized pain on my right side radiating to my back. If i moved too much it got worse. Staying still was my best bet.

I thought maybe a cyst got bothered, maybe I’m constipated, maybe this is normal.

As the day went on and it wasnt going away I thought fuck it. I’ll just call my doctor. Better safe then sorry.

She told me to not go into work tomorrow. She told me to monitor the pain. She told me its a possibility my IUD is misplaced. She told me if it doesnt get better she needs to see me on Monday.

I got angry, naturally. I joked while I called my mom and said if they need to take it out I’m gonna fist fight the first person I see in the parking lot. I’m not really sure if I’m joking. I’m having flashbacks of the spiked bowling ball being forced into my cervix that doesnt open until you’re giving birth or half a cm when you’re on your period.

My doctor asked “you didnt have pain afterward though?”

Yeah i did. It was debilitating. I couldnt walk

She said “oh”

[slutfortheeclaymore]

Drew beating that crusty bag of ass made my night!!!

[rainingspellforlove]

captivated.

Chanhee likes being alone. he likes to enjoy his me-time the most, even he had so many friends out there. sometimes he hangs out with his squad, but mostly he likes strolling the street alone while sips a coffee in the nearby cafe he found. he mostly spends his time alone or with his friends.  but everything changed when he met this guy. this very guy that he met in the club few months ago.

it’s the first time chanhee went to a club. it was because  his friends forcefully asked chanhee to come.  chanhee didn’t like crowds at all. he hates it so much. so he never to come to crowd place especially a club. that’s the first place that he didn’t want to go to so much. that day, chanhee (unwillingly) came with his friends. he just loved his friends and didn’t want breaking the friendship, so he decided to come. he just wears his usual shirt and jeans. while his friends totally went off like a fashion models. their friends basically are bunch of lovers. he had 4 friends and there’s 2 couple from it. first is younghoon and changmin and the second couple is kevin and jacob. that’s why he likes to go alone because he’s always left out when the 4 of them being such a lovey dovey. he’s really gonna puke if he stayed too long with them but their friends are so caring about chanhee. they would like to do anything for him to get a good catch. actually, that is the reason his friends bring chanhee to club. to get a hot guy. 

“i really hated this so much but i love you all sooo much, thats the reason i come today okay, dont get me wrong” chanhee said

“i promised you’ll get a hot snack today” kevin said enthusiastically

“hot my ass, lets just go there then back home quick”  

they arrived at the famous club in the center of the city where most of them wears expensive clothes and accessories. chanhee didn’t pay for this, younghoon paid it all. he’s extra rich so he’s willingly to pay for the five of them. changmin is the luckiest for sure. he got a hot and rich boy out there without even trying, because younghoon made a move first. 

chanhee felt he went to a wrong place moreover he wears just plain clothes. 

“wtf i just wear this... ugh bye i dont care, i just sit my ass of in the bar” 

 chanhee just went off leaving his friends who right now enjoying themselves out in the crowds. he looked at the menu but he’s like 

“the fuck i didn’t have that much money.. should i ask younghoon to pay or ugh but he already paid for this ughhhh” chanhee just blabbering himself with frustation until someone tall came approaching him in the bar

“what do you like? i buy it for you” he said it softly. 

chanhee seems a bit surprised by a approachment. he dressed casually with a black top shirt and black jeans also. this guy is tall, but not so tall as younghoon, maybe 2 cm lower. he had his raven black hair which it seems he styled it so good. he seems like an actor coming out from the tv. he had sharp-edged nose which made him looked even more like a celebrity. 

“o-oh no no it’s okay i didn’t feel like to drink tonight. i must go back sober because im sure my friends wont be sober at all later” chanhee got panicked a little by the coming of this real hot guy. so kevin is true? is it their plan afterall? 

“it’s okay, you can order some cocktails.”

“no it’s okay-”

then the tall guy ordered some cocktails for chanhee and for himself too. 

“it’s my treat because i need someone to talk to and you seem not interested, i guess?”

“uhm, thank you for the treat i guess.. i promise i’ll pay it soon-”

“no, there’s no need. it’s okay. it’s really okay”

“okay fine, thankyou anyway. and yes im not interested in this kind of amusement. it’s not amusing at all for me”

“so what kind of amusement you like to see mr? what should i call you?”

“chanhee. call me chanhee” chanhee finally looked at him. that tall guy sat beside him in the bar. chanhee can finally looked that guy’s feature even more clearly right now. 

“hi chanhee, im not weird person, so dont be scared okay, im just like you. bored with these kind of stuffs. im just dragged here along with my friends too.” he chuckled

“no i didnt think it that way, you seem like a good person. but i dont know it’s just my guts, hey you didn’t tell me your name yet”

“yes right, sorry. im juyeon. nice to meet you chanhee”

“of course nice to meet you too”

they talked for a while there while having their cocktails. somehow juyeon is fun to talk to even with his lame dad jokes. and juyeon is easily to be fooled. chanhee really likes to fool someone and laughing at them. they really having fun talking to each other like that. chanhee found they kinda had no ending convos between each other. juyeon just told him that he’s actually working as a new journalist, because he’s a fresh graduate and it stressed him out because there were so many tasks to do. and it turned out they are in the same age but juyeon graduated first because he entered the college one year early. after those fun and funny convos between each other, juyeon stated something.

“chanhee-ya, you looked so pretty today, i cant take my eyes off of you since you come today” he looked so serious and his eyes told him so. the way his black pearled eyes see chanhee thoroughly and softly. chanhee looked at him back. in his eyes. 

chanhee didn’t realize he’s been drowning into his eyes the whole time he had this long convo with juyeon. he rarely looked at someone’s eyes while having a not serious conversation, but today is different. juyeon’s eyes. the way his eyes looked at chanhee is a whole different. chanhee is captivated into them. he’s so lost into juyeon’s eyes. he admired those pretty and captivating eyes which made him forget that he’s right now in the least place he wants to go. but right now, he’s stuck here in someone’s eyes for some moments. he felt like there’s no one here in this shitty place, but he’s right here  with juyeon only. both of them alone. 

chanhee looked so flustered. and he started to blush withouth he even realized. 

“uhm- i- that’s so much blunt of you wow thank you i guess..”

“such a pretty boy doin here alone, im scared you’ll be get kidnapped or something while your friends out there,” then he moved closer to chanhee’s ear then he whispered

“there’s so many guys lookin at you lustfully if you didnt notice.. look at your surrounding”

chanhee didn’t realize it at all, there’s really some guys lookin at him with nasty look that he’s really gonna puke at them right now. 

“shit. i should go home i guess. that’s why this is the least place that i wanna come sigh, but wait how can i know youre not like them huh?”

“uhmm, you’ve been with me an hour, so i conclude youre comfortable with me”

“yes youre right...” then he looked at juyeon for a while, he really like a good boy with his fool-like smile but still handsome. and the eyes which can smile too. 

“lemme take you home can i?”

“ugh why? you have your friends right, and i got my friends too..”

“it feels like you didnt want to stay here longer right”

“how did you know though”

“it’s seen by your face you dummie cutie” he pinched chanhee’s left cheek softly. 

“uhm right.. we  just talked for 1 hour but why i feel like it’s already 2 hours... time really ticks longer here”

“go tell your friends then, i’ll take you home.” 

“how should i trust you, youre not like the nasty guys right there?”

“i promised i’ll drive you safe and sound without even do anything nasty to you. i promise please let me take you homee, im just wanna talk to you longer though. i kinda had so much fun talking to you and bonus you’re pretty”

“finee let me chat my friends first okay, then we can go”

“yes!”

he’s enthusiastically happy and he smiled like a puppy. chanhee for the countless times drown into his eyes again and he said this without even he realized.

“juyeon, did you know that you are so cute?” 

“ah- oops, it went off from my mind” chanhee said again

juyeon just smiled 

he moved closer to chanhee. he looked at chanhee’s eyes softly and took chanhee’s hand. he carressed it softly. then lookin at chanhee’s lil cross tattoo in his pinky and carressed it again. after that, juyeon just kissed chanhee’s knuckles one by one. 

“but you’re way more cuter.”

“i- i- o-okay.” 

chanhee flustered as hell and blushed like a tomato. he feels his ears hot like a pan. 

“lets go” juyeon dragged chanhee out from the club with his hand intertwining in chanhee’s.

juyeon brought his sport car with him today and chanhee will ride in there the expensive car. 

“oh my, it’s really your car? oh God you didnt look like a rich sugar daddy but you really are?”

“im not yet a sugar daddy, im still in my twenties, im just a hot man that you just met in the club” he teased

“okay whatever” 

then juyeon laughs and they both entered the car. 

“do you want to straight go home or?”

“i didnt feel asleep yet. do you want to go somewhere?”

“not really, but do you have a place to go in this hours?”

“uhm let me think, there’s a cafe near my house, it’s just a small cafe but it’s really cozy and-” chanhee didnt even finish but juyeon just smiled softly

“yes lets go there anywhere you want”

 “okay” 

 juyeon always looked at chanhee everytime there’s a traffic light. 

“stop looking at me like that, you seems like wanna eat me alive or what”

“sorry you’re just so pretty”

“stop telling me!!”

“why? it’s true though, you’re really beautiful, did i make you uncomfortable?sorry-”

“no no it’s just, i cant take compliments, cant you look at my ears that flushed red like a tomato right now?”

juyeon laughs and seems enjoying it so much

“you’re really pretty. really.”

“i even just wear this pair of not so expensive clothes, you still call me pretty?”

“uhm” he nods and smiled like a puppy again

“geez whatever you say” 

they drived along and arrived at the place. 

“it’s a cute place so thats why you like to come here. so cute people tend to go here”

“stopppp” 

juyeon laughs again and they both entered the cafe

the barista knew chanhee and actually it’s his childhood friend too. his name is sunwoo. and sunwoo looked so surprised seeing him with a new guy

“HYUNG WHO IS TH-!” he almost shouts

“shut up sunwoo or i kill you” chanhee said while glaring at him

“oh you know him?”  juyeon asked

“yes he’s just my annoying childhood friend that eventually lived around here too.” 

“oh, he’s not gonna into your lane right?”

“what?”

“so i will not have any rival to get into you”

“lee juyeon please stoppp” 

“okay i’ll stop for now idk later” juyeon just laughs

they sat in the side of the cafe while lookin at the street outside. 

“it’s my usual seat anyway if you dont mind we’ll sit here”

“anywhere you go princess” 

“geez stop it lee juyeon!” chanhee blushing again

juyeon enjoys chanhee being like this so much. 

they finally sit together in the side. they had their own world again, they talked so many things again even their TMIs. they had so much fun talkin to each other until they didnt realize their cups of coffee almost empty. 

“lee juyeon, i dont know you are just dumb or just being pure. it’s slightly the same!”

“it’s just good being pure, like it’s pure my thought that i pour in and it feels so genuine right? i like being pure, because it’s me, that’s my charm hahaha”

“i guess so, but don’t be so pure too much juyeon! you can be easily fooled!!”

“i will try hahaha”

they’re being quiet for a while to take a sip of their coffee. chanhee quietly looks at juyeon’s features again. his smile. his jawline. his sharp-edged nose. his eyes. then his lips. he almost imagined how it feels to place a chaste kiss to his lips. juyeon is beautiful. how can someone like juyeon being with him right now in here in his usual cafe. today is beautifully weird. but he loves it. it’s a whole new feeling. he never been feeling so light and joy like this before. even with his friends. it’s a new feeling. 

“i know youre staring chanhee”

“o-oh im-no- im not staring” he quickly looked aside to the window

“cute. i like how you’d been flustered.” he teased

chanhee felt his ears hot again. 

“dont tease me!”

“fine fine i’ll stop” juyeon chuckles

then chanhee quickly takes a sip again to his cup of caramel latte. chanhee suddenly said bluntly

“sunwoo had a boyfriend”

“hm oh? why suddenly-”

“there’s his boyfriend, the cashier boy. his name is haknyeon.”

“ah” he smiled so widely and chanhee knew he’s about to tease chanhee again

“stop saying anything okay, i just stated facts maybe you should know about this” chanhee didnt look at juyeon directly and just lookin at the window

“okay okay i know” juyeon just smiled again looking at the shy boy in front of him

“you know that im straightforward right?” juyeon suddenly said

“uhm yes so?”

“i’d really like to kiss you right now”

“uhm- s-sorry, w-what?”

“sorry i- it’s just my mind that slips out- i didnt mean to-”

“later okay, we can kiss but later” chanhee just smiled at juyeon and continue to sip his coffee while looking at his black pearled eyes who captivates him so deeply in the past hours they’ve been together. 

juyeon looked a bit flustered and suddenly he grabbed chanhee’s hand.

“lee juyeon- wait-”

chanhee cant finish his words and just followed juyeon along. chanhee got so confused and say goodbye to his friend sunwoo quickly. sunwoo mouthed 

“congrats hyung youre gonna get laid today!!” 

then chanhee just mouthed “fckk youu kim sunwoo!!” 

then chanhee really got dragged away from the cafe. 

“lee juyeon what’s wrong? why suddenly?”

“just get in” he seems serious but didnt express any emotions too. 

“o-okay”

then they both got in the car. 

they were being quiet for a while. juyeon started the engines but he didnt press the pedal yet.

“lee juyeon are you mad or-?”

“im not chanhee..”

“so why?” juyeon being silenced and then looked chanhee closely. his black pearled eyes lookin more clearly while looking directly in chanhee’s eyes. chanhee feels like he’s drowning and drowning again into his eyes. his captivated gaze. chanhee really been lost in these beautiful eyes of juyeon for these past hours and he didnt deny it. he really wants to go deeper into his eyes.

“can i kiss you?”

so chanhee nods softly after that. 

juyeon  leaned in as well as chanhee who moves closer to juyeon. juyeon really placed chaste kiss into chanhee’s lips. juyeon puts his wide palm around chanhee’s soft jaw and softly carressed chanhee’s cheek with his thumb. chanhee grips his jeans tightly while feeling a soft kiss in his slim cherry lips. juyeon kissed chanhee slowly, from chanhee’s bottom lips then decided to kiss it even more deeper. chanhee’s lips just move along with juyeon soft kiss toward his lips. chanhee really melts into juyeon’s. chanhee feels like he’s already get into juyeon. when they already a lil out of breath, juyeon pulls away and moves to place a kiss to chanhee’s corner of the lips. then moves along to kiss chanhee’s chin softly, moves along again and kissed chanhee’s fluffy cheek. chanhee feels like so much butterfly flying over in his stomach. he almost died because of tachycardia. juyeon still place a soft chaste kiss in chanhee’s face. he moves to chanhee’s eyes then his nose. and lastly his forehead. 

juyeon finished his long lasting kiss towards chanhee and they still few inch apart.

“you’re really beautiful. i do really mean it. it’s just few hours but why i already really like you. admit it, you kinda had a spell on me huh?” while carressing chanhee’s soft cheek with his big thumb. chanhee still blushed red. 

“i cant say anything for now or my heart’s gonna explode”

“cute.” juyeon smiled while looking at chanhee’s eyes. 

“lee juyeon. let me state this. we just knew each other for just few hours why did you make me like this?”

juyeon just chuckled and keep carressing chanhee’s cheek softly. then chanhee brings his hand to grab juyeon’s hand. 

“uhm-” chanhee tried to say something

“can i-” he stutters then try to look into juyeon’s black pearled eyes. 

“can i kiss you again?” chanhee finally looked at juyeon’s beautiful captivating eyes clearly

“no need to ask” juyeon smiled softly and started to lean in again

chanhee circled his arms into juyeon’s neck and they melted into each other. juyeon can feel chanhee’s caramel latte into his bitter lips of americano. they kissed so deeply until juyeon pulls away. then juyeon lifts chanhee’s small waist 

“juyeon what are you doing?”

“sit on my lap”

“w-what?”

“come” juyeon didnt let chanhee finish his words and just pulls chanhee into his lap softly. chanhee just moves along and he’s already in juyeon’s lap.

chanhee puts his both hands in juyeon’s shoulder.

“i-”

“ssh, im not gonna steal your virginity for now. not now. and not here. “

“okay but-”

juyeon just pulls chanhee’s waist closer and pulls chanhee’s face into his. juyeon can feel chanhee’s hot lips after kissing him too long. juyeon just kissed him so deeply again while hugging his tiny waist. chanhee grips juyeon’s shoulders harder while feeling the kiss. juyeon’s lips dominate chanhee’s and chanhee didnt mind at all. he moves along and just follow juyeon’s moves. 

it lasted for awhile after suddenly chanhee’s phone buzzed. 

chanhee pulled away suddenly and there’s 5 messages already. from kim sunwoo. 

“YAHH GET A ROOOM NOT IN FRONT OF MY CAFE PLEASE”

oops. chanhee just realized they both just been makin out in the parking lots in front of the cafe. 

“uhm- i think we should go- sunwoo just-”

“okay sweetie we can do it another time” juyeon said while carressing chanhee’s hair and kissed chanhee’s corner of the lips. 

“uhm right. uhm- do you mind if- uhm”

“uhm?” juyeon leaned in closer

chanhee still blushing red as hell. but he’s not himself right now he’s just gonna explode at anytime

“you can go to my house if you dont mind we can-”

“we can? what?” juyeon teased.

“uhm eish just drop me then in front of my house.” chanhee said frustatedly

then juyeon chuckled again and whispered to chanhee’s ear

“lets go home and continue our unfinished tasks” 

chanhee blushed red red so red. 

but then he just nods and go back to passenger seat quickly. 

juyeon finally press the gas pedal and started to drive. 

he began to drive to chanhee’s house to finish their uncomplete tasks ;)

- fin 

[transrightsjimin]

urgh im less upset abt grandma dying nd more upset abt my family being so fucking STUPID for acting like they cant do anything anymore during the pandemic nd inviting me for a christmas dinner nd my cousin saying they ‘should just do w/e we want instead of look at rules, because this loss is more important now’ nd the rest agreed O_O

like u fucking DUMBASSES, THE VIRUS IS THE FUCKING REASON GRANDMA DIED ND U WANT TO HAVE CHRISTMAS DINNERS ND MEET UP W THE WHOLE FAMILY IN 2021???? 

THE CONCEPT OF FORCED 'GEZELLIGHEID' ('cozy togetherness'?) IS LITERALLY WHAT IS HAVING PEOPLE KILLED IN THIS FUCKING COUNTRY 

also i feel fucking disgusted for letting my brother pull me in a hug (nd my mom hugged me too which i hate bc shes literally a risk group) bc hes a fucking fascist nd i saw him in a whatsapp group w antisemitic meme today nd i want to puke !!!!!!!

i dont want to fucking see my family during this pandemic but they always force me to be together w them bc thats considered 'GEZELLIG!!!' and normal and fun nd im too bad at saying no when im peerpressured, i fucking hate it nd don;t want my mom or other grandma to die bc of their dumbass behaviour by continuing to visit ppl inside their homes. they really talked about how different it was this cremation vs. decades ago at the same place bc “now we couldn’t enter at the same time nd people could touch each other and sit closely” LIKE U??? LITERALLY SAT NEXT TO PPL WHO DONT LIVE W U W 0 TO 30 CM DISTANCE BETWEEN EACH OTHER?? U LITERALLY HUGGED PEOPLE TODAY?? THERE WERE LIKE 40 GUESTS IN A WAY TOO TINY ROOM FOR THAT AMOUNT LIKE R U KIDDING ME??? I DONT WANT TO FUCKING SEE THIS EVER AGAIN. ALSO i wish death upon my brother but not rly bc it would hurt my mom nd his daughter but jfc i fucking hate him. also my cousin nd his dad are just like him. fascism is so normalized in dutch society nowadays idek where to draw the line between a person who is slightly bigoted nd the ‘never talk to a fascist‘ scenario jfc.

i always feel so fucking mixed abt my family urghfhgh like i truly do care abt my parents nd i guess one aunt nd uncle maybe but i dont want to fucking see them during this pandemic nd i preferrably dont see my brother either. but fuck i REALLY dont know how ppl cut family out of their lives bc i would have to pick and choose who i would stay in touch w but they all communicate to each other so u rly cant keep a secret. if i were to try to close off family i would need to delete my fb + ig bc i do have an aunt who keeps finding me there, nd i would need to never tell any of them my new address if i ever move. but also we never had a huge fallout so i dont think theyd get it?? nd my family on my mother’s side, aside from my american uncle nd aunt, all live rly close in either this city or one nearby so idek how you could avoid them. like im conditioned to care abt them but i honestly really dont care

i got invited by my parents to this christmas dinner over at their house and they didnt see the issue in inviting me, my friend, my brother and his daughter, “bc it’s legal to invite 3 people and children under 13 years don’t count [according to the legislation]” nd said ‘oh your friend will feel lonely on christmas if he’s just home alone‘ NO HE WON’T?? HOW DO U KNOW?? WILL IT LITERALLY KILL U TO TRY TO NOT KILL OTHER PEOPLE??

the only reason i cried at the cremation today was bc i thought of my mom dying nd having no idea what i would say in a speech then. like i dont remember my mom’s speech well but i was impressed how she said positive things abt her mom considering she was rly physically nd mentally abusive of her kids in the past nd left my mom scarred for life. it made me think when people deserved to actually be remembered for the ‘good’ stuff, just because fucking family is supposedly important. nd i just couldnt remember positive stuff abt my mom other than ‘i would miss her‘ but i couldnt think of what exactly i would miss abt her bc our personalities rly clash.

she rly stressed me out today, like she kept honking for the whole neighbourhood to hear bc i wasnt immediately outside when the car arrived in my street, nd at a certain moment said i should take a flower from the bouquet (tht was paid by the nephews nd nieces (minus me bc my parents paid it bc im broke)) nd so i did but then my aunt complained right beside me that she thought it was wrong that people just pulled out flowers ffrom the bouquet so i was like :( oh ok, but my mom kept yelling ‘NO TAKE MORE FLOWERS!! COME ON TAKE ANOTHER ONE!! PUT IT IN YOUR HOME!!‘ nd my aunt kept complaining nd i felt so guilty suddenly for having those flowers as i got more pushed into my hands by others. like my best friend has a rly chill family who srsly didnt pay visits at home or vice versa once nd im so jealous bc when your whole family understands how the fucking virus / social distancing works nd doesn’t look egocentrically only at the lax legislation or treat forced gezelligheid as the ultimate goal, it would prob be a lot easier to actually just not meet up. bc the question of meeting up or having to see each other all the fucking time isnt even a thing. but to him my family is rly weird nd strict while before him i only knew ppl w stricter parents nd i had the easy ones bc i was allowed to drink nd go out nd date even though i didnt want that. urgh im just in conflict nd feeling a bit desperate abt the ppl in this country. nd i worry abt my mom getting sick

[cph-dreaming]

Extract/dribbles # 14/1 (@boysrunaway this one is for you)

Sander decided to walk back to the Academie dragging his bike along. He had time enough before his appointment with Finn. Sometimes after sessions with his psychiatrist he felt nothing at all. But today had been hard. He took out his phone and sent an identical text to Robbe and his mother:

“I’m going back to the Academie to work. It was tough today.”

Normally all the talking at their sessions was up to Sander which often resulted in an hour spent in near silence. Today had been different with his psychiatrist not only talking about that missing filter, but also about how a diagnosis wasn’t a static thing. That they didn’t like his prolonged periods of depression and had decided to put Sander on new meds, that he would have to monitor how they affected him, that he had an obligation to himself now, that... Sander felt drained. And he still had to meet up with Finn to finish his Valentine’s Day gift for Robbe.

Sander hated Valentine’s Day. The whole idea that there was one day a year, an arbitrary date in the calendar set by corporate straight white men, where he had to buy flowers and chocolates to the love of his life just made him want to puke and spray paint the whole facade of McDonald’s at the Meir. He scrolled through his Bowie playlists on Spotify and put on “I’m afraid of Americans”.

But what about Robbe? Sander had spent sleepless nights staring at his boyfriend. What if Robbe didn’t feel that way about Valentine’s Day? In his heart he knew that Robbe wouldn’t anticipate anything. His boyfriend never burdened him with untold expectations, just graciously accepting whatever Sander seemed fit to give him. Did he ever ask for anything? The fourteenth could likely pass by without Robbe ever noticing. Well, unless he bought flowers and chocolates for his mamma. Robbe would probably do that, wouldn’t he?

Robbe deserved a proper present, especially after their gift-less Christmas. It had been Robbe’s decision, of course, ever the observant one. He had known that Sander didn’t have the mental reserves to go out looking for Christmas gifts, so they had decided that their present for each other would be the lock on the Mr. Lovelock bridge. “You’re more than enough gift for me,” he had said, echoing Sander’s text from days earlier. And he had stolen a sketch from Sander on Boxing Day. Picking it out of Sander’s bag and looking at him with a mischievous smile, he had asked “It’s us, isn’t it? Our lips?” Sander had tried to take the piece of paper from him, tried to explain that it was a sketch, some new style he was trying out, that he didn’t really like it himself, but Robbe had looked at him with such a tender expression on his face that melted all of Sander’s reserve when he asked “Can I keep it?” Sander had only replied, that if Robbe really wanted to keep that piece of trash, then he expected Robbe to frame it and hang it above his bed. Robbe had, of course he had.

So Sander had decided already weeks before that he wanted to paint a new picture for Robbe to hang above his bed. A real picture. A picture Sander would be proud of seeing. And Valentine’s Day seemed like a fine occasion, no matter how much he hated the concept. But it had to be something special, something he hadn’t done before. No more pencil and charcoal. And another mural was out of the question. Robbe already felt intimidated enough by the one at the Waagnatie, especially since it had been decided that it wouldn’t be removed. Sander still had an inkling that Jens and the other boys had been behind that petition.

Sander had sketched and sketched, drawing out every possible idea he had. In the end he had decided on a portrait of the both of them. Well, if one could call anything a portrait when no faces were involved. But to Sander it was a portrait of their love. Even the size of the final sketch was different from most of the things Sander had worked with before, the dimensions being 100x50 cm. And he had no idea how to proceed from there. Could he find a canvas suited to what he wasn’t even sure he had in mind? He went to Professor Mathysen for help one day during class.

“Watercolours, Mr. Driesen, watercolours are what you are looking for,” Pieter told him.

“Yeah, that’s not really my...”

“It’s the perfect medium for what you’re trying to convey! If you have the guts, that is,” his professor said with a provocative smile. “Ask the hobbit for help.”

“The hobbit?” Sander was confused.

“Yes, Finn, the guy over there,” Pieter replied, pointing at one of the other students. “Ask him to show you the piece he made of his friend from the Netherlands. Between us, there actually are other people in your class besides you who know what they’re doing!”

So Sander had approached his classmate. It wasn’t that Sander had never talked to him before. He had smiled at him, said hello when they had met, hadn’t he? Sander had always tried to be kind to his fellow students but with everything happening since he had enrolled in September he knew his classmates saw him as being reserved, if not arrogant.

He wasn’t really that short, Sander thought to himself, studying the slender boy working at his easel. He was the same height as Robbe and had the same delicate features, but the hair colour was light brown. In the light of the class room there was a golden shine to it.

“Sorry, I don’t want to bother you, but Professor Mathysen said, I should ask to see a portrait you made of a friend of yours?”

His classmate didn’t reply but with a slight blush on his cheeks went over to his portfolio bag and retrieved a carton enfolding, handing it over. Sander carefully opened it and looked at the picture with genuine astonishment. Pieter had been right. Sander knew what he was watching was not a mere casualty of an attempt to paint. It was pure talent.

“This is... this is really beautiful!” He said with reverence in his voice.

“He is,” his classmate replied quietly. Sander looked into a pair of green eyes, that had a pain in them he knew all to well.

“Ok, I’ll carry your bag to school, fuck that, I’ll carry you to school every day for the next month if you’ll help me! I’m Sander,” he tried with one of his persuasive smiles.

“Do you even own a marten-hair brush?” There was a crooked smile on the young man’s face. “I’m Finn.” Sander knew he couldn’t have asked for better help.

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Training wheels - Huang RenJun

(Cry baby series 1/16)

Huang RenJun x Na JaeMin

Warnings: teenagers! AU, light mention of WinKun, violence, bullying. Smut.

RenJun was always something that people would describe as “pure”. And that made many boys go crazy for him. They wanted his innocence and his weakness. Only to corrupt his mind.

To be fair, RenJun was beautiful to them. To everyone. He was the type of person you would expect to have lots of ex’s waiting for a text from him for a one night stand or something that teenagers think that a healthy relationship is about. But he was totally the opposite. A shy Chinese exchange student that didn’t knew that much of the Korean language.

One day, RenJun went out for a walk to the little park that was near his house. His parents weren’t worried, his little RenJun was a big boy now, they trusted in him. Plus the neighborhood was a very secure and small place. SiCheng and Kun knew that they had raised their son well.

RenJun went to a really calm place to read his favorite book. But the evening would not be as peaceful as he thought. As soon as he started reading his book, a boy crashed his bicycle into a tree. The boy fell from his bike and landed on the hard soil of the forest, knocking out immediately.

RenJun was confused. How could someone faint by crashing into a tree. But what could he know, he was just 15. The boy seemed to be around his age, but fairly taller than him. Maybe 20 cm taller than him... —That is.... Even bigger than Dada Kun!— the only boy who wasn’t unconscious though. He grabbed the bicycle and placed it near the tree. Then he ducked down to see the boy clearly. He had brown hair that looked fluffy, white skin and was dressed in a blue shirt with white shorts. His mommy was going to be mad at him when she discovers that he stained the shorts. Or maybe his dad is going to be mad. RenJun doesn’t know. He doesn’t cares tho.

RenJun adjusted his glasses in his nose. He moved closer to seethe boy. When he suddenly opened his eyes and sat on the floor, causing RenJun to jump backwards and to hit the hard ground with his butt.

—What am I doing here? Who are you?— the unknown boy asked.

—I-I don’t know. You came here with your bicycle and crashed into a tree. Then you passed out.— Remjun was kinda shocked.

—Really? Well I’m sorry. I don’t know how to ride a bike yet.— the strange boy seemed to be embarrassed about the fact that he was already a high schooler and didn’t knew how to even ride a bike. Let alone drive.

—You don’t?— RenJun asked curiously, he didn’t talked often with other people, so it was unusual for him to hear that somebody couldn’t ride a bike. His Daddy SiCheng thought him how to do it. —I can teach you if you want!—

RenJun seemed excited for the idea, this could be his opportunity to make another friend. It wasn’t that he was bored of ChenLe, his best —and only— friend. But he wanted to make another friend. Maybe the 3 of them could be best friends and do sleepovers!

—Would you do that for me?—

—Sure. I mean, why not? You seem to need help and I am an expert. — Said RenJun as he got up form the ground and lifted a foot to put it on the tree log he was sitting before the boy crashed. Forming an “heroic” pose.

—Thank you— the boy said — What’s your name by the way?—

—RenJun. Huang RenJun. Yours?— RenJun asked smiling.

—JaeMin. Na JaeMin.

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RenJun didn’t knew the terrible situation that he had got into. Everyone on JaeMin’s school knew that he was a player. He took the best out of girls and boys and then leaved them. But RenJun was in another school, the one who lets you put pins in your uniform sweater. RenJun had a moo in one.

Both of the boys went to the place they met every Tuesdays and Thursdays. Only to teach JaeMin to ride his bike. But RenJun started to feel strange around Na. But not that kind of creepy strange, but good strange. Do you know what he means? Nah, he doesn’t even knows to be fair. Maybe it was the milkshake his Dada Kun have to him before coming. Or the cookies his Daddy SiCheng baked.

He felt a weird thing when he saw JaeMin. Every time they met he felt so happy, but so nervous at the same time. He wanted to puke and smile at the same time. And when Na gripped his hands searching for balance he could faint.

—Junnie, I’m so tired— the older cried. —Lets do something else—

—Okay. What do you want to do?— RenJun was thinking on grabbing some snacks, or going to the park games. Even going to the arcade that was 4 streets below his house.

—Come here RenJunnie, I want to play a game—

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Renjun wasn’t concious of how he got into that situation. His legs were trembling and if it wasn’t because of the tree he had leaned on, he would have already fallen 5 minutes ago.

—Fu-Fuck... You are a fucking dumb Jun— JaeMin was at his highest.

—Ahh...Ack-Ahhhg...— And RenJun was a moaning disaster. His chin was dripping with his sweat, and his back was slippery.

But RenJun was happy, his parents always told him that he had to give his special gift to the person he truly loved. And that person was JaeMin. The clumsy boy with a the big smile.

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RenJun was walking to their meeting point. Face flustering every time he remembered one of those pitiful whines that came out of his mouth the day before. Halfway through the road he found Na, riding his bicycle at full speed. Riding without his training wheels.

Both of them stopped a meters away from the other.

—Hey, JaeMinnie~ I- I have something to... to tell you— the smaller claimed. — I... I really really really really like you! I mean... I think I’m in- in love w-with you...— RenJun wanted to mentally and physically slap himself. How can he be so stupid?

JaeMin only smirked. He knew that. RenJun was a sweet and cute guy. But he took the best out of him and it was useless for him at this point. So JaeMin just started to ride his bike again. Getting closer to RenJun.

Huang leaned for a kiss. A kiss that never came. JaeMin just passed by him.

— I love everything you do! When you call me fucking dumb for the stupid shit I do! — RenJun thought there was something wrong. This is not like the stories his Daddy SiCheng used to read him when he was younger.

But JaeMin just got away in his bike. Smiling. He was satisfied with what he did, not a single drop of regret. The next day RenJun went to the place where JaeMin told him he lived, but the house was empty. A cute old woman told him that the family that used to live there moved out of the country the day before. Na was gone. He just disappeared. And with him, RenJun’s happiness.

Needless to say, RenJun never went to the park again. And he never rode his bike again.

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