#from either withdrawals or

[bibleofficial]

i hate living !!!! woke up w a migraine feelin like someone hit me w a crowbar in the head, then slammed my toes under the door, my pussy angry & my colon is likely the crowbar culprit

[desired-misery]

Just want y'all to know I am thinking about Ashley Graham one day giving a moving speech at an event (maybe a BSAA thing, maybe a Tera Save or equivalent) talking about the importance of fighting bioterrorism and talking about her own experiences with it for the first time publically.

She is not a gifted orater by nature. She practiced a lot, she spent a lot of time planning it and getting assistance from speech writers to help her write it (because she cares so much about making sure it has the right impact/she is conveying the meaning she wants to say). So many hours practicing. It is clear she is nervous and she stumbles over it, especially the parts that are emotional (maybe she is speaking about some current event, or perhaps this is some kind of fundraising or awareness press event). The parts about Spain are hard for her to get through because she is doing her best to make sure people understand how dangerous/how important it is to support anti-bioterroism efforts.

But even though it is not as polished as Ashley wanted it to be, it is a damn good speech. Because she is honest and passionate and she clearly means every word she says. When she is done, she gets thunderous applause. That almost sends her into tears again.

This is what starts her anti-bioterrorism career. She tackles more of the political side as a great spokesperson. She continues on to become involved in multiple organizations. Maybe she even ends up in congress on a special committee.

[quins-makeshift-menagerie]

Gentle reminder that my kofi link is in my pinned post. While The Other Q’s ER trip won’t financially destroy us it’s still going to be a big hit on top of having to get some major repairs done on the car before winter hits

[angelnumber27]

I dont think some people understand how truly awful and hellish withdrawals from some psych medications are.

[probablyaparadox]

The funniest part about crocodile isn't actually any of his shenanigans we always forget about from Alabasta (I.E. the vip vs. the pirates signs- god that man is a clown in his heart). No. It's the fact he's SIR Crocodile. Which means one of three things. 1. That's his actual last name 2. Transgender power move, "Actually my full name and title is Sir Crocodile and you will address me as such" 3. We don't actually know his last name and HE GOT KNIGHTED SOMEWHERE- LIKELY ALABASTA AND THEY JUST NEVER TOOK AWAY HIS KNIGHTHOOD AFTER HE TRIED TO TAKE OVER ALABASTA AND GOT THROWN IN JAIL. Personally my favourite is the latter.

[locamotivednp]

dug too deep into my past and "accidentally" found my old bffs new tumblr

[normalbrothers]

gif sets definitely don't account for actual meta/analysis, and i think just putting two scenes together doesn't immediately reveal what they Mean both individually an in context of each other. hdhd i guess nothing is better than actually watching the whole thang, but it's fun; it's like i'm making my own little tommyarthur tapestry here thank u

[lavampira]

you know the day is going to be a doozy when you wake up with anxiety already eating you alive 🫠

[unproduciblesmackdown]

among the boundless billions zaniness like laugh track as it definitely has that moment of expressing "rolling my eyes as The Left makes a kerfuffle of Acting like they have a stance as a veneer over the true belief that [xyz] is cool & chill actually" like what, approximate 0.000% chance wendy isn't, as usual, given the Objective Stance of "yeah yeah ohh we are cancelling involved parties talking about how we Don't watch this But. we all love this damn epic movie & already have it memorized so shut the fuck up, kids today" like. don't wanna really delve into how much billions thinks taylor or anyone is "really" trans / nonbinary like not too much benefit of the doubt in this material including what does provide info abt that specifically

& the general like [head in hands. what do you think any of this could possibly be about (you're the one that made your show at all about Power)] of "yes, it's bad/wrong to be someone that someone has done something to / victim of something" like that to be anti misogyny All Women Must Be Epic Winners b/c there's something to be proved: that they don't Deserve to be victims (of misogyny), not taken as a Given. while when we see some epic winner men stepping on other men (who need not all be guaranteed Winners so as to say misogyny is wrong), that's often Good, well beyond any assumption that various forms of basic disrespect / violation / patterns of emergent/entrenched power difference as Bad (for being things done to people, not for there being people they're being done to), & generally billions has to take an extra step when ppl get shitted on & tell us the Specific Cases when it was undeserved actually & someone was being mean to a specific person who didn't deserve that. & the specific cases when hey guess it wasn't that bad(tm) or when hey It's Okay that you're someone something was done to, in this case. & tell us what we were supposed to know all along like when someone who something was being done to (wrong Of Them, whether b/c they inherently deserve it no matter what, &/or b/c they failed to be someone who could make it Impossible to do anything to them, which, how do you do that besides being The Authority / Superior yourself, exactly? nonrhetorically? what if the in group vs out group / fascism / authoritarianism protected Me?) was actually being treated Too Well b/c ah well the abuse meant you were getting any attention, maybe it meant you were claimed as any superior's property, maybe it meant you weren't Already disposed of, as all Losers were in the end, You're Welcome.

obviously referring to winston where it's spelled out all the abuse towards him was deserved, & More than he deserved in the case of rian having more access & taking advantage of that, all for billions' enjoying its own sendoff there of, again, maximizing violation & violence short of [real violence is physical & leaves bruises / draws blood / Literally kills] which would be distasteful in general But doesn't it make wags look like the winner & winston the loser is that the former's completely unrelated completely impersonal ego blow gets way amplified taken out on winston, the most vulnerable recurring character when spyros as [first & ultimate Everyone Hates Him role] is more entrenched in there & billions still magnanimously pities tuk, as it does winston too, just not quite as much. again that like completely surface level realized power fantasy of forcing the mirror up to the Inferior so they're like nooo my inferiorityyyy & in doing so like, the projection in that lmao, we get it re: the valuing of & need(tm) for such Power Tripping & Reaffirming My Superiority & My Ego Restored; Everyone Claps like good god. & then for all ben & tuk are the slightly softer Two Too Nice Boys duo to the rian & winston quant duo, also like too nice i guess but not as much, ben is in charge of tuk but Any instance of rian being in charge of winston outstrips them in that "yay interpersonal abuse" dynamic, like then in the end billions may be like "yeah it's possible to be mean to them unlike how being mean to winston is actually Nice b/c he deserves everything he gets, we only vicariously enjoy it vs Feeling Bad for tuk & ben sometimes (still magnanimously & it's Not That Bad / just goofin)" like ben & tuk still Fail by not being people it's impossible to do anything to. & not Exceptions who anyone is really being Too Mean to. like if they were women, in which case, no problem surely with a "positive" kind of victim blaming where there is something Inherent that Will be victimized so hey how about to cancel that out there's this special Paternal Protection you Need always, Or Else? :) but instead they are men who are asian & is ben gay & w/tuk & winston nobody mentions glasses or fatness but billions doesn't really do much or very in depth textual mentioning of Anything, even w/nonzero mention that there may be gender & race in this world. a gay man, once. no disability. we just Know who are the inferiors who deserve it when they're treated inferiorly, or if they don't, they start deserving it when they fail to stop/avoid it, but if you start mentioning the factors behind who we all totally agree is inferior like whoa nobody was Saying any of that? being the real agent of oppression on the basis of the factors only You spelled out, much? nonbinary? i never say anything about the Gender Binary when i'm subscribing to it, sounds like You've created & enforced it. obfuscation & deflection onto [so Just Normal nobody has to label, explain, or argue it] couldn't serve a purpose & protect the existing power differences as they are. maybe You're the problem? perhaps you brought it upon yourself & now you're causing too much trouble standing up for yourself while everyone else's criticism is laser focused on you as the prior & continuing negative actions done to you are taken as a given / unquestioned / covertly protected to overtly encouraged?

anyway so wild if the Completely Normal(tm) Victim Blaming is uncritically recreated & oft embraced for "if you're watching this & don't wish you were axe / find him appealing" [billions as a sequence of vicarious power trips] purposes in this series....but a bit wild considering like this is your multiseason show that wasn't just purporting to be those power trips for [enough demographic & apparently specific personal tastes overlap w/creators] & was at all purporting to question the matters of power at play in the material, or yknow, at least to not be completely superficial material while said material is textually & thematically all about power difference being leveraged, how, the consequences, & so on. thus i will have to intermittently talk about it forever like this like lord unbelievable. & the funny little & sometimes less funny less little characters it has trapped in there so that those of us who were never meant to be in the audience can be cursed with this knowledge. like i have some feedback. "imagine not victim blaming" & "imagine adjusting your perspective can go beyond superficial layers added to politely defer to some other ppl while they're present but really like cmon do they deserve that. am i not just saying what we're allll thinking"

[britneyshakespeare]

Also wasn't the 2020 election so miserable with how we were all waiting for results for literal fucking days??? Oh my God...

[echidnana]

honestly thinking more about mouthwashing and how badly every one failed anya. especially curly

[fuzziemutt]

The fact that Fritz's hand shakes with the gun when he comes out of the casket lives in my mind

A side effect of diazepam are tremors

But they're also a symptom of withdrawal.... Alongside sweating (pale skin), insomnia, and nausea...

And sometimes numbness

[tera-starstorm]

[there-will-be-a-way]

No sleep meds and quitting weed is a baaaad combination

[nix-that-rad-lass]

Me, off my meds for 3 days: Idk what all this shit about withdrawals is, I feel fine! Maybe I don’t even need my antidepressants anymore!

Me, 3 days and 6 hours off my meds: screaming crying rocking back and forth ripping my hair out on the bathroom floor and not being able to think coherently

Me, 3 days 7 hours off my meds, having just found them: thank fuck I don’t wanna hear the voices anymore

Me, back on my meds for 2 hours: I’m tired but I can’t sleep. Tummy hurty

[nerianasims]

Oh BOY am I sick blogs that say "ugh I guess Biden's better than Trump but he's still SO awful ugh I guess if we have to vote for someone I guess Biden but UGH GROSS they're really not different"

And then I look at the blog and it's a European. Or a Brit -- I guess some of them might take exception to being called "European" these days.

Jealous that Biden's leadership has been great for the U.S. economy while you're in a recession due to your aristocratic runoff, are you?

(*Not all Europeans of course. Plus I'm wondering how many of these are actually from where they say they're from, considering that they sound exactly like the Russian propaganda blogs that were nuked in 2016.)