#fr I'm crying over them
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mofufu-fufu · 9 months ago
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pikachu-deluxe · 10 days ago
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hey, image of my beasts coming up sometime tonight in like a few hours, if not check back tomorrow in my art blog, it should be there by then
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beanghostprincess · 1 year ago
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sanji and usopp start dating and the crew knows almost instantly because, well, it's not hard to tell and they've been invested in their relationship for a long time (invested = fucking tired of seeing them pining). and now they can finally be happy together and show it to the world freely which, in retrospect, it's fucking awesome. in theory, it's great. but sanji is not used to PDA and even less to people wanting to touch him or accepting his touch. most of the time he's just talk and girls pretty much always ignore him and, well, men- he doesn't have good experiences with men.
but the way usopp touches him in front of the others, oh so domestically and casually... it make his heart go crazy. the cook never knows how to react to that. and, turns out, that even if he's known for his flirtatious personality, he's a blushing mess when things like this happen. but usopp takes this new phase of their relationship so, so well... he's the calmest sanji has ever seen him.
it starts with usopp holding his hand when the crew is walking around a new island together, and they are not even behind them. in fact, everybody can see them holding hands. people often look at them in the streets, strangers. or perhaps that's just sanji's perception. but even if he's all anxious about this and his hand is obviously shaking, he doesn't let go of usopp. the sniper seems to notice this and squeezes his hand a few times to catch his attention and smile at him. sanji's heart lets go of its insecurities for a second, then.
it seems that usopp is extremely comfortable when it comes to touching sanji which, okay, it's understandable because the whole crew is extremely clingy and sanji is not far behind that fact. but he always rests his chin on sanji's shoulder while his hands find their place on his hips to pull him close, as if sanji's body is exactly where he belongs. and the cook is not used to somebody wanting his warmth this much. even less when they're around other people. but usopp does this constantly, with a hint of protectiveness and a little possessiveness. sanji is still getting used to it, but he always ends up holding the hands on his hips or kissing usopp's forehead whenever it happens. his heart feels a bit lighter once he does so. he thinks that, maybe, he can start doing these things too.
usopp doesn't even think about it when he touches sanji, the cook realizes. it happens almost instinctively. because whenever they're sitting somewhere together with the others, his hand always ends up resting on sanji's lap. the first time it happens it drives sanji so fucking insane that he has to take a deep breath and try really, really hard not to focus on it. because otherwise, he'll probably end up going into cardiac arrest. but he likes the feeling of usopp's fingertips on his legs, especially whenever he's talking to somebody else. because it's like telling sanji that he's there for him, even when he isn't even talking to him. that sanji is appreciated there, too.
the way the sniper intertwines their feet together under the kitchen table when they're eating with the crew does things to sanji. because they always sit in a corner of the table (that way sanji, if he needs to go back to the kitchen, it's easier for him to move) and it seems that nobody else notices the way usopp is grinning at him. but sanji knows. sanji knows they could just see the blush covering his face at any moment. and yet, he sits closer to usopp anyway while he takes another bite of his food.
sometimes, depending on the island and the adventure, they sleep in the woods. which is fine with all of them (for the most part. nami isn't that happy about it and sanji wouldn't mind an actual bed), except that it's always so fucking cold. so it's not weird to see them cuddling. it's not odd to see robin and brook resting against franky's huge chest or luffy practically lying on top of zoro. nami cuddles with chopper and jinbe, too. so usopp holding him in their sleep should not be a problem and should not make sanji this nervous. but it makes his heartbeat pound harder and faster than usual. and so he just cuddles closer to him because, well, if he's going to be unable to sleep because of having his boyfriend this close, at least he can enjoy his warmth for the night.
it doesn't matter if they're talking with strangers. people they just met on a new adventure. whenever they're sitting next to each other on a couch, usopp's arm ends up behind his head. which- okay. well. sanji needs a moment to process all of this because even if it isn't a romantic gesture necessarily and they're not even touching, the urge to rest his head on top of usopp's shoulder haunts him. and even if usopp isn't actually doing anything, the fact that they're so close (their legs touching, too. hips touching) isn't doing anything good to sanji's critical way of thinking.
it becomes a habit to bother sanji while he cooks, even when the others are around, too. every morning usopp stays with him while making breakfast. and every morning usopp's hands find their way to sanji's hips. he lazily kisses his neck while he does so, and if sanji burns their food, it's going to be all usopp's fault. it doesn't help that he always finds usopp wearing one of his wrinkled shirts. it- it doesn't help at all.
usopp takes every opportunity to kiss sanji, too, now that he doesn't have to hold back. and it isn't like sanji is complaining in the slightest (he's literally the luckiest man alive) he's just afraid he might fucking die from blood loss. because sanji now has the necessity to bring usopp little snacks and drinks whenever he does so for the girls, and unlike when he did so only for nami and robin, usopp kisses him as thanks every. damn. time. so he has to offer food to his boyfriend after he already has done it for the girls, because if usopp kisses him this tenderly when he's holding food, he might as well drop it from the way his heart beats against his chest.
and, well, sanji is still getting used to this. getting used to being loved like this. it's easy for him to just go over some girl and yell cheesy stuff with a grin on his face because that's not- that's not real. he worships women like goddesses and he does not expect them to love him back. there's safety, there. he knows they're going to reject him and he does not care. but he has been holding back from touching and talking to usopp in so many ways, fearing rejection, that now he doesn't know what to do with everything he feels for him. he thinks he's going to explode. besides, men are- men are different. men's bodies are something he likes, of course, now that he has realized. but it's harder to accept since all the men he has ever known have been so violent towards him. usopp would never, that's for sure but... it still makes him nervous to touch him.
even if he's extremely touch-starved and wants nothing but to kiss his boyfriend every second of his life.
he kind of feels guilty about it. not being able to be the one touching usopp first, even if he always responds to his boyfriend's caresses when the sniper makes the first move.
so sanji thinks that maybe words will help. if he can't be the first one touching usopp, then words will have to be his way of showing affection to him.
sanji keeps calling him everything but his name. honestly, he has forgotten the last time he called usopp something else that wasn't stuff like: mon chéri, mon trésor, mon amour, mon coeur, ma moitié... and, well, all the things usopp has to ask what they mean because he has no idea when it comes to french and sanji loves that just the tone of his voice makes his sniper all flustered. "his sniper" being another pet name, by the way.
it's hard to say he loves usopp at first. because those are strong words and even though it's exactly what he feels, he isn't used to saying it to anybody this seriously. even with his father back at the baratie those words were something they always expressed with actions or were only said when sanji had a particularly rough night when he was younger. but once he gets used to saying them, he can't stop. sanji loses count of how many times he tells usopp he loves him every day. when they wake up. between kisses. between smiles. when they're fighting. when usopp's sleeping. when he's working. when he gives him food. the words always come whenever they're together. and when silence speaks for both of them, sanji feels the need to whisper them into usopp's lips. and whenever they are not together, sanji keeps telling the sea he loves usopp, even if the sniper can't hear him then.
he lets usopp do the talking in bed, most of the time. but whenever sanji gets the chance to speak, he doesn't miss the way usopp's body twitches with every word of praise he pronounces along with his moans. and it's always quiet and low, fearing somebody else might catch them, but it's not like he needs anybody but usopp to hear his confessions of love between his sounds of arousal, thank you very much.
sanji speaks about sogeking the same way he speaks about usopp, perhaps a bit more dramatically. it always makes his boyfriend blush with embarrassment, but he never admits he knows sanji is talking about him. it makes everything more fun, sanji thinks. and perhaps it's easier for usopp to take praise when it's directed to his alter ego instead of him. sanji has always loved the way that cape looks on him.
so they keep touching and talking and showing their love to everybody around them and... they don't care. the crew does not care. in fact, they look happier than when they weren't dating (if you ignore mosshead's rolling of eyes every damn time, as if he wasn't all over their captain on a daily basis, but alright. whatever. fucking idiot).
and sanji feels, after a long time, that he finally has somewhere to call home and more people to call family. and if they finally let him show his love (the way he truly wants to love someone) he isn't going to hold back anymore.
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the-lark-ascending69 · 17 days ago
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Working on a chrismas card for my family and I find myself questioning my entire relationship with them, because I'm going the extra mile to make it extra beautiful because gifting them a work of art of mine that isn't beautiful is considered unloving by them. I remeber my mom yelling at me when I was six or seven because she said I'd drawn her to look like a pig. She asked me if that was really how I saw her. They've always been supportive of my art and told me it was beautiful, but I can't help but feel anxious working on this, wondering if they'll hate it, because I keep adding "traditional" Chrismas symbols, like reindeer and holly and stuff, struggling hard to find symbols universal enough because our country doesn't have any particularly unique Chrismas symbolism and I don't want to add snowflakes or wintery stuff (I feel like i'm already stretching it with the reindeer) because it's summer here, and I'm scared the holly and stuff will read as "foreign USamerican symbolism", and they hate anything USamerican. They also hate religion so angels and stuff are out the window, and there are only so many stars I can add.
So I'm here agonizing over whether or not they'll be offended if I give them this, and I just... why am I worrying about this? They were horrible to me! I spent my entire childhood feeling anxious and depressed and hating myself because nothing was ever good enough for them, because they always got angry, threatened me, destroyed my stuff, invaded my privacy, violated every boundary, publicly humilliated me, destroyed my self-esteem... and I still wasted all of my scholarship money on something I HOPE they will like, even if I also fear they'll be offended when they get it (it's a board game they've wanted for ages, but I already gave my dad a board game for fathers' day and I'm scared they'll notice the repetition and call me lazy and accuse me of not loving them, because if I loved them, I would have been more imaginative with my gifts). And now I'm agonizing over whether or not they'll be angry to see reindeer on the chrismas card I'll be sending them.
I'm just... really glad I'll be spending chrismas with a college friend and his family. Honestly, that family has been my lifeline for two years, I have no idea how to thank them, I just had no idea it was possible to feel anything but anxiety and guilt and shame during family celebrations before meeting them. I'm glad my family is thousands of miles away. I'm glad my girlfriend is here with me. I have a lot of things to be thankful for, but for some reason I can't let go of my family and stop worrying about them being mad at me. I'd rather die than making them mad at me.
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umberandmochaagate · 1 year ago
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When you're tryna be reasonable about getting all rejections except for one place when a lot of your groups got more but wise mind feeling like a struggle rn
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robinsnest2111 · 1 year ago
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just saw a recipe video for a cake that looks just like a cake my late grandma used to make and now I got tears streaming down my face oops
#like. she died so suddenly and with the whole inheritance and oops my uncle is an evil bastard actually fiasco#and my parents never having the time to visit more than twice a year i never got to ask her for her recipes#ever since her death i thought i'd never get to taste or see that cake again#BUT HERE IT IS RIGHT BEFORE MY EYES. WITH A RECIPE DETAILING HOW TO DO IT. WHAT#i think i never really worked through her passing away. i'm still crying...#screw difficult family dynamics and situations that made it almost impossible to bond with relatives fr#all i have is that idealised image of her during the holidays. cooking up a storm in the kitchen#making delicious food. organising the easter egg hunt around the garden for us kids#decorating the christmas tree and preparing little treat platters with chocolate and clementines for us kids...#man i miss her.... wish i could've spent more time with her... talked about knitting and sewing and cooking#and growing plants and veggies. she used to have a greenhouse in the back garden. her tomatoes were the best#all the different shades of red orange and yellow. some even green!#i can almost taste them...#damn... i miss her so much... i also miss my early childhood. when it was just me and my cousin and her and grandpa#when they'd babysit us over the weekend. the walk to the little village bakery down the main road. the handmade sweet raisin bread...#the chocolates my grandma used to have around the house with the adorable kittens on the box...#really missing my grandma tonight...
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c0rpsedemon · 2 years ago
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it's soooo fucked to think about how everything that's ever happened in your life is connected, no matter how mundane. what do you Mean my 5th grade teacher's seating arrangement is the reason i lived past the age of 13
#it goes. have to sit next to the girl who's really into animal jam > get REALLY into animal jam bc of her > discover wattpad through animal#jam youtuber fanfic > spend all my time on it > discover those marysue appraisals that used to be so popular > read all of them > run out#of generalized ones and end up stumbling across one specifically for kuroshitsuji ocs which is titled in a way where i don't think it's#media-specific until i'm already reading it > find it really funny > go to the library the next day > figure 'what the hell. i'll check the#dvds of this show out.' > the dvds are checked out > 'well in japan the adaptations better match the source material' (<<< no idea where i#got that from but it's HILARIOUS that i tried to apply it to kuroshitsuji of all franchises) > take out the entirety of the manga > go#insane over it to the point where i had brought like. 5 volumes to school and started fr Crying over the fact that i finished reading them#and still had hours to go before i could go home and start a new one > make a tumblr account bc i'd been possessed w a love of 2 characters#from the weston arc and no one on wattpad was making content that wasn't centered around the anime or musicals > my phone breaks in 7th#grade and it gets replaced w a new one which works better and thus i can't get around parental controls which means no more wattpad >#tumblr works wayyyy better on my recently acquired school ipad than on my phone so i start using it more > summer between 7th & 8th grade i#consider throwing myself out of a third story window > 'wait. who will tell my tumblr mutuals that i'm not ghosting them. i just died.#no one knows my password and i don't want to be rude' > i close the window > i'm still alive to this day#romeo.txt
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icharchivist · 2 years ago
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All of France have been protesting the most recent laws Macron has been pushing and today i'm seeing a fucking tweet from "Youth with Macron" about how Macron now set up a "Free condoms in pharmacy for people under 25" campaign, which has for slogan, and i kid you not, "Make love, not protest :)" i'm going to yell i'm going to yell i'M GOING TO YELL MACRON YOUR PEOPLE WANT TO KILL YOU MACRON THEY'RE SINGING ABOUT BEHEADING YOU WHAT ARE YOU DOING.
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kittlyns · 1 year ago
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Just got a check from the IRS that cured my depression
#at least for a month or so 🥹#apparently my taxes got fucked up so they owed me that + interest so girls.... fast food dollar menu is on me tonight ✨️#no but fr I can make a substantial dent in my credit card debt and have a bit left over for savings which is HUGE#since the whole phone incident wiped me out#my mom was saying stupid shit like 'it gets bad before it gets better' but for once she was actually right. even if it's just briefly#I actually cannot stress how much this means to me and I think I might actually cry in a minute#I try not to complain much cuz I know there are so many people worse off than me but it really has been bad lately#and I don't really have anyone to talk to it about irl cuz my family can't help so they'll just feel bad and suggest I work more#and my friends are people who (while I love them dearly) HAVE family who are fully capable of helping them financially without trouble so#they're always like 'just ask ur mom' and I always have to explain that there is literally not a single member of my family who has savings#like I said I do love them but that is the one area that frustrates me the most. they joke about growing up poor when in reality they were#actually middle class and then I was born and raised well under the poverty line and don't remember a time we werent on WIC or food stamps#I'm a little bitter about it. esp because they still rely on family to help and that's never been nor is it going to be an option for me.#but whatever. little rant over. tonight I can go to bed knowing I can cover my bills this month and hopefully next month is better#time for me to go have a cathartic cry.
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snowdeong · 2 years ago
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The anti-bullying ad of it all I'm crying jggf
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hyunin · 2 years ago
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beastblade69 · 26 days ago
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trying to draw shay cormac y'all
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chmerical · 5 months ago
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i'm so sleeeepy!!! gotta send out the rest of the memes tomorrow <3
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mishellii · 8 months ago
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♢ꜱʟᴇᴇᴘɪɴɢ ʜᴇᴀᴅᴄᴀɴᴏɴꜱ♢
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ɴᴀʀᴜᴛᴏ, ꜱᴀꜱᴜᴋᴇ, ᴋɪʙᴀ, ꜱʜɪᴋᴀᴍᴀʀᴜ, ɴᴇᴊɪ & ᴋᴀᴋᴀꜱʜɪ
a/n: sooo my first headcanons yeiih!! this just came flowing out of me while watching boruto tbh because i'm delusional lmao,,,, anyway, very self indulgent as always :) ignore typos pls i cant spell aaaand enjoy xx
likes & reblogs appreciated <3
warnings: none! SFW :) not proofread
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♢ɴᴀʀᴜᴛᴏ ᴜᴢᴜᴍᴀᴋɪ♢
✿sUCH a messy sleeper
❀he'd toss and turn throughout the whole night, ending up somewhere completely different than where he fell asleep on the bed
❀matching pyjama sets !!!
✿especially seasonal ones, he adores them
✿BLANKET HOGGER !!!
❀but not on purpose really, he just pulls it with him due to all his movements
✿u always wake up with it either on the floor or him laying atop of it
❀sometimes he hits u with his elbow or his feet, but pls don't tell him he WILL cry
✿just push him away, boy will not wake up under any circumstances
❀the both of u alWAYS cuddle when falling asleep
✿the usual position is with his arms around your waist, legs thrown over ur own and his face resting next to ur shoulder
❀for that exact reason he's a BIG SPOON !!
❀so so quick to fall asleep, and wakes up after u as well
✿but not at all groggy in the morning !! he's energetic from the second he opens his eyes and sees u preparing breakfast
❀overall just the softest boyfriend ever
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♢ꜱᴀꜱᴜᴋᴇ ᴜᴄʜɪʜᴀ♢
❀now thIS dude sleeps like a corpse
✿he's not particularly prone on cuddling u, but he fairly enjoys having ur head on his chest and feeling ur fingertips draw circles against his skin
❀he'd never admit it tho obviously
✿mostly wears a black lose t-shirt and some short sweats or sumn 
❀just comfortable all around
✿i'm a firm believer in the back position
❀laying flat on the mattress, one arm either around u, or both resting on his belly
✿light sleeper, if i may
❀takes him pretty long to fall asleep as well, but counting ur breath usually calms him and makes it easier
✿u make everything easier for him actually
❀doesn't really care about a blanket, it all really depends on what u prefer while sleeping
✿often awoken by nightmares, but won't ever wake u up or tell u the next day because he thinks it's embarrassing
❀refuses to leave the bed in the morning, but isn't moody at all just very quiet
✿always helps u make breakfast and makes the bed without having to ask him to
❀overall just a calm lover
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♢ᴋɪʙᴀ ɪɴᴜᴢᴜᴋᴀ♢
❀without a doubt, a snorer
✿like IM SORRY LADIES but c'mon
❀but not annoyingly loud, just breathy lil snores
✿the problem with it is: he won't move an INCH away from u ever, he's all up in ur business while sleeping
❀doesn't matter how, he's always got to feel u next to him somehow
✿i take him as a sleep talker too, mumbling incoherent words against your neck which only make u laugh tbh
❀akamaru's got his own bed next to the two of u, but some nights he crawls in between ur bodies, practically suffocating u
✿you really don't mind on colder nights, but in summer kiba makes him get off, due to having such a high body temperature already and he doesn't want u to complain even more
❀wore a shirt and pants at the beginning of ur relationship
✿but now??? u'd have to FORCE him to wear anything more than boxers
❀hates when u don't want to cuddle :(( might as well kill him fr
✿why need a blanket when he has you??
❀doesn't leave the bed AT ALL in the morning, u literally have to grab him by the feet and drag him out of it
✿he's a sweetheart, really
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♢ꜱʜɪᴋᴀᴍᴀʀᴜ ɴᴀʀᴀ♢
❀dude HATES cuddling at the beginning of ur relationship, me thinks
✿but fear not, it just takes a bit of convincing from ur side and he's in on it
❀but it's subtle touches really, like holding his hand or having ur feet intertwined
✿if u've had a bad day, he'd definitely play with your hair to make u fall asleep, he's not a diCK
❀grey sweats all the way !!!!!
✿rarely ever wears a shirt, except for when it's cold of course
❀he seems much more like a light sleeper than not, but he's so grouchy when something wakes him up it's a drag really 
✿has to be completely dark and quiet in his room or he won't be able to close one eye
❀always sleeps on the side closest to the door
✿big on talking about both ur days at night because he's a very private person and loves spending time with u ALONE
❀deep talk at 2am?? u can bet on it
✿forehead kisses!!! once u wake up and neither of u want to get up and start ur day
❀he's such an attentive lover in general, i'm actually going insane 
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♢ɴᴇᴊɪ ʜʏᴜɢᴀ♢
❀oh my lovely boy
✿i feel like he wouldn't move a MUSCLE while sleeping
❀sometimes you have to poke him to make sure he's still alive
✿AHEM
❀a light sleeper foshou
✿also ????
❀he would 100% wait for u to fall asleep first
✿would always run his fingertips over your back to make you tired
❀unfortunately, the closest to cuddling u two do, is ur head on his chest
✿he gets sweaty quickly, so he'll often sleep without a shirt (which u don't complain about obviously) and that's the reason why he doesn't necessarily NEED body contact (in this situation only!!)
❀but HUGE PLUS he'll sweet talk you to sleep almost every night 
✿asking about ur day from begin to end
❀he wants to know it ALL
✿in general, he's really big on making you as comfortable as possible before bed
❀would even wait till the morning to go pee because you look so peaceful laying on his chest
✿don't mind him watching u he just thinks ur so pretty ok
❀u wake up to the smell of coffee almost every morning
✿overall, as we been knew, the gentlest gentlemen to perhaps ever gentleman goodbye
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♢ᴋᴀᴋᴀꜱʜɪ ʜᴀᴛᴀᴋᴇ♢
❀poor baby's the king of light sleepers
✿always ready to jump into battle and protect u if he has to, even if u convince him that ur safe and nothing's going to happen :(
❀casually wears a black tanktop and some sweats, mask and shinobi headband easily reachable on the bedside table at his right side
✿definitely enjoys u playing with his hair too much
❀he prefers to fall asleep with his head either on your chest or tugged just under your chin so he can hear you breathe and ur heart beat
✿he's so tragic oh my days
❀anYWAY light snores but only when he's REALLY gone and u rarely ever see him in this state so,,,,,
✿loves listening to ur stories before falling asleep
❀legs & arms intertwined and allathat 
✿you will never lay in bed without him picking up one of his books at least ONCE
❀it really calms him down u know
✿but start a conversation with him, and he's all urs, book long forgotten next to his mask and headband.
❀always wakes up earlier than u, preparing breakfast with said book between his fingers 
✿(he swears he'll close it once ur awake tho)
❀((he does))
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a/n: AHEM i hope u liked it ???? pls tell me ??? AAAA i will see u beans next time bye bye xx
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noxtivagus · 2 years ago
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i love love ffxiv sm fr (to the edge)
#I ACCIDENTALLY FELL ASLEEP LAST NIGHT 😭 my alarm didn't wake me up sob. gna do a lot today but rn i just.#wna listen to music n think to myself n write for a bit. hdfkalsjdf oh my god the effect to the edge has on me.#it's. genuinely probably. if i had to pick one song. wld be to the edge. hard choice but nothing else would be right.#n well. the fight's more for hmm i guess elidibus fans? apollo likes him more than me bcs i'm uhhhh an unfortunate emet-selch liker#but. that wave. THAT WAVE 🥹 such a simple movement but one that just. revealed the identity of that. yk shade that arrived#the bittersweetness in the whole exchange. n it hurts so much when you think of how. how they all used to be so happy#but now everything they've known is torn apart. for thousands of years.. that loneliness must've broken emet fr#the burden of all those lives lost. being able to see n feel them w his affinity w aether n the underworld#n then. elidibus forgot. n lahabrea's.. twisted beyond himself. tragic isn't it? n emet-selch's the only one that remembers#cries. but w endwalker what they did. i rmb crying so much throughout all that. gave me some closure fr 😭��#n then when it comes to the musical comp too yk the. oh my god w neath dark waters yk the theme of amaurot n#the ticking.. time. n then the lyrics. i'm. technically catholic christian sob but i'm not religious n i'd consider myself agnostic.#but yk the references w the bible or christian mythology. n then the lyrics in general. 'we only fly when falling far from grace' 🥹🫶🏼#i love all the expacs in ffxiv sm i just have these phases where i'm all over each of them n rn it's shb#all the. expacs r like. arr was the start yk n i went through most of it w school n. it was comfort. esp bcs smth painful irl happened#around then. heavensward was. my fav expac at that time yk? for so many reasons.. alphi aymeric haurchefant n the story n drk n#end of the free trial. stormblood was the start of when we subbed. i cld finally play tgther w apollo. our freedom too in our own way#n then it was such a real story n touched on pain n. yk. rlly was a very compassionate story n i enjoyed thoroughly w my empathetic heart#shb was. my endgame for a while. i mean. we started out 5.3 but was still in the free trial n finally got the game 5.5#we started raiding n that's where most of our growth to who we are now happened. n the story is.. it's so. perfect.#i have a lot of memories in endwalker too but shb as an expansion was where most of my memories w other players n all happened#n. i'll ramble too much oh no but endwalker was. the first i experienced from the start. n the story is so.. oh my god#i have. the highest praise for ffxiv's story. obvs still has some of its faults here n there but the highs are worth indescribably much.#n i really mean each of those words. oh my god ffxiv rlly saved me. but i'll. also ramble more if i entertain that thought n write rn so#yk these. stories n songs n just wtvr. just has sm themes that. oh fuck it idk how to put it into words bcs it just all resonates w me sm#like. to the edge it has such a lovely composition n i love listening to every single part of it. n then the lyrics r so well-made. yk?#n then the story behind it too is.. they just put so much thought into it n w so much love n it's just so meaningful. it means so much to m#it just has. so much. n i find so much comfort in it. hdlkafjsd n then themes.. yk w amaurot for example n to the edge#underwater. angels. wings. remember. time. tomorrow. n then the stuff w morality n. just. sm of that has resonated a lot w me#ever since i was young so yk in finding ffxiv it was like i found smth that finally. finally matched w me n smth that'll continue for long
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nochepsicodelica · 4 months ago
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You know how sometimes you think of a scenario but just its exact moment and beyond?? There's no clear background on how things got to that point, unless you want to think up that background or it's just that single scene and whatever rolls from it? Well my little spoof is about being pregnant with Toji's baby, but as someone he loves and isn't embarrassed to partake in pda with and just overall someone who he can't wait to come home to every day. Like, he's ready to do this with you.
If you thought Toji was protective of you when it was just you two, then you had no idea of what was to come with having the smallest bean in your stomach, his little cub growing in your womb. You felt a sense of relief when months passed and—through his actions—he continued to remind you that he was in love with going through the process of having a baby with you, but sometimes you would get so caught up with the things that carrying a child entailed, that it would slip your mind.
He catches you crying a lot and even though he knows that it's perfectly normal for your emotions to be all over the place, he still worries. So you can imagine his reaction to watching you waddle around the house while rubbing your belly, in tears. You're breaking his heart with the sound of your little hiccups and sniffing and it won't stop, so he takes your hand and pulls you along to sit on the couch with him.
"You okay, mama?" He asks, rubbing your belly.
You give him a shaky smile and take a breath before responding, pausing the stream of tears for a very brief moment. "Yeah, it's just... my back hurts... and we're hungry... and I feel-" you can't get through the sentence before you start sobbing again.
"You feel what, baby?" He asks, wiping away the fresh stream of tears.
You shake your head, unable to talk through these intense emotions. All he can do is wait and listen until you calm down. He takes your hands in his and squeezes them, affectionately, showing you that he has all the patience in the world for you. Your eyes remain downcast, but eventually the waterfalls running down your cheeks cease.
"You feel what?" He asks, again.
"Fat and ugly, and I don't wanna go to the bathroom because of the mirror. It'll make me feel worse."
He hums, acknowledging your words, despite how severely untrue they are. "Sorry, baby, don't cry, but i'm gonna have to disagree with you. I've never seen someone as pretty as you. It's part of the reason for why you have a baby in your belly."
"It's unfair. You don't look any different. You're still so handsome and... and..."
"Hey," he says, distracting you before you break down again. "You want me to gain some weight?"
You nod, twinkling eyes meeting his warm gaze. You scoff, your thoughts on the suggestion immediately shifting. "You'd still be fine as fuck with a few extra pounds on you."
He laughs, rubbing your belly once more before standing up and sitting behind you for better access to your back. "What do you guys wanna eat?"
- EnD sCeNe 🥀 -
No, but fr this was just casually rolling around in my brain like a dog rolling around in mud.
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