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i don't normally participate in these redraw challenges but it's megumi so i'll make an exception
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#megumi fushiguro#fushiguro megumi#fanart#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen fanart#jjk megumi#megumi#looks at clock UHHHHHHHH oops#i got lost in the sauce that is rendering his gd chin and under his lips.... ive been in stylized anime mouth land 2 long i fear#i had forgotten how much of a pain those shadows are :'>>> eSP at a lookdown angle#fought a bit but little did he know i spent years doing coloured pencil portraits. this is My domain#god but the rest of the skin render was so FUN i love . warm grey in2 brown in2 red/orange fr the deep underneck shadow#lip tint heavy blush freckles glossier model fushiguro megumi...........im a believer i fear#had a bit of a hard time finding a middle ground between how i normally draw his hair and a more Realistic take on it#the model in the og has hair that's pretty close but i think the strands r a bit short n too heavily curved fr my tastes#its my brand im afraid i simply must give itfs both longer hair#nothing else feels Right#but god i underestimated how Good this photoshoot is as megu material . i get the hype now i get it#i did the sketch n i looked at it and i had an oh /oh/ moment#smh megumi put those lustrous emerald orbs away before u hurt some1#his gaze is too powerful . slaps a red bg on him makes him my new icon :)#anyway its 6am it is morning time do i sleep fr like 3 hrs or do i say megumi voice Whatever we shall see
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#vent#narrowly dodged being sent to the hospital today when we told our therapist our suicidal thoughts are getting worse#at least it’s jsut me and not the others in the system#every day it gets harder to think of my mom and my brothers when i get like this and it’s too hot to use my weighted blanket to calm down#the semester is almost over but that’s almost making it worse#i don’t know what i want. i want to die but i don’t want to because it would hurt people and i want to go home to see my family but also i#don’t because i won’t be able to go outside again and i’ll have to go to my dads every week#dying feels easier#but if i don’t die then i’ll get kicked out#of school#my therapist said i should make a list of things i want to live for but i am not in a space#for that right now. gd#this is probably some kind of punishment from gd for being the way that i am#i don’t know. i don’t know what to do. nothing helps. nothing works. nothing is going to get better. everyone else in the system is getting#better except for me. and i’m so proud of them#but i wish i was a better host#i’m probably not gonna kill myself so don’t worry @ my friends if you see this#i’m just having a moment.#tw suicide#suicide#religion#religious guilt tw#kinda wanna cry in my moms arms like a fuckinh baby#ngl#i miss feeling loved
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i finished it, was kicked out of the game, and then spent the next 10 minutes drawing this. i will now go take a shower, most likely cry, and then go through the emotional turmoil of convincing myself to reset so i can do a geno run. i hate it here :D
#undertale yellow#uty#my art#<- ifg#spoilers under these tags beware. although it is mostly just me being very very sad#that entire thing was heart wrenching. anyways#CEROBAS FIGHT??? HELLO???#i had to exit out of it the first time (i got to the last phase) to get better items but i came back and won pretty quickly#but THE CUTSCENES?!?!?#JFC NO WONDER THIS WOMANS SO MESSED UP. HER HUSBAND PRACTICALLY DIED IN HER ARMS AND THE LAST THING HE LEFT HER WITH- HIS DYING WISH- COULD#ONLY BE FULFILLED BY PUTTING THEIR ONLY CHILD IN DEATHS WAY. AND THEN WHEN SHE TOOK THAT RISK THE WORST THING HAPPENED AND SHE NOW HAS TO#LIVE WITH THE GUILT OF BEING THE ONE TO. MOST LIKELY. KILL HER ONE AND ONLY DAUGHTER#ALL THE WHILE SHE WAS PUSHING AWAY HER CHILDHOOD BEST FRIEND AND CONVINCING HERSELF THAT SHE WAS IN THE RIGHT TO SACRIFICE CLOVER WHO HAD#BEEN ONLY KIND MERCIFUL AND JUST THIS WHOLE TIME. EVEN TO THOSE WHO WERE TRYING TO KILL THEM. FUCK.#AAND WHEN CLOVER HUGGED HER I DOUBLED OVER IRL BC *THATS EXACTLY WHAT I WANTED TO DO IN THAT MOMENT* I HATE IT (read: love it) HERE#n dont even get me STARTED on after that. when clover started moving on their own and the gd white screen came up and we got flashbacks of#everyone's words. thats when the tears rlly started coming bc it clicked for me. 'oh. this is it. isn't it?' and IT WAS#WHEN THEY GAVE THEIR FUCKIGN HAT AND GUN AWAY TO MARTLET AND STARLO WELL THATS WHEN I REALLY STARTED CRYING#AAND THE GROUP HUGG#I WAS SOBBING WHENEVER I HAD TO WATCH THEM CRAWL UP AGAINST THE WALL AND DIE AND HAVE FLOWEYS WORDS PLAY OVERHEAD#AND THE FUCKOGN#THE F U C K I N G#AFTEWRCREDITS SCENE WHERE WE GOT THE 'You heard someone calling for help. You answered.' I GOT CHILLS SO BAD#to think that all the other souls have stories just as expansive and emotional as clover n frisks. how fucked up is that. in a good way tho#and finally the last scene where we got all 4 of our main friends sending us off in waterfall and we see clovers items end up in the dump#just waiting to be found by bratty and catty. fucken hell man this was a masterpiece#anyways time to reset and obliterate everyone and never emotionally recover from that ever!! really is feeling like 2016-17 again w the way#this game has me sobbing my eyes out and feeling the guilt of knowing that i dont HAVE to kill them all but im too curious not to#oh well. at least i have the balls to do it this time around instead of letting a youtuber do it for me ig
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Oh yeah Daisuke likes Elder Scrolls IV: Oblivion, by the way. From Guilty Gear 1st Gig
#photopost#Can't be assed translating this right now but it says he likes it and real time strategy games#And honestly this makes Overture's aesthetics make so much more sense#That gd bloom filter. Yeah... Daisuke was on that Bethesda Bullshit#I love that so much
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every horror movie has me wondering how tf they could afford this absolute MANSION and the dad is the only one who works, and his “job” is like FUCKING FREELANCE WRITING.
not saying it isnt MAJOR work, but bitch it does not pay that well haha at least not for me.
where you mf finding these gigs?
#at least coraline got the budget right (and the writer depression/exhaustion lol)#like with both of us working 80 hours a week we can now afford PART of this house#horror#horror movies#scary#scary movies#haunted house#1970s#1975#seventies#70s cinema#movies#films#cinema#just as gd intended#funny#funny memes#funny stuff#funny post#funny shit#jokes#humor#memes#lol#haha#my thoughts
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Rewatched TMP and got so emotional about it that I wrote a 2.6k word spirk fanfic in one sitting. It's 2AM. I have a huge pile of dirty dishes in my kitchen that I was going to do. Before this I hadn't finished a fanfic in nearly 2 years. I'm going insane and frankly it feels great
#thank gd i dont have to work until 11am tomorrow#star trek#tos#ill post it tomorrow btw i need to like edit it and stuff first but right now it's long past bedtime
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Zodicat and Catnos,,, fluffy dudes.. gahhh I wanna make a warrior cats au so bad 😭😭😭 he would be astralfluff or star and kenos would be voidclaw or grubtail�� from starclan and the dark forest respectively where the dark forest is just home to all hell level cats shfhdh…
#a bit of an oldie but aghhhh#geometry dash#gd#gdtumblr#oc#Twitter is going to poopoo right now welp#loafeebuns#gijinka
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#that first gif... he is deadly#james spader#alan shore#boston legal#*#favorite#there's a full-length shot in this scene where you can see his belly. stretching the fabric of his shirt just above his waistband. ougghhh#trying to focus on how sexy this is but this episode was so. soft and suffering alan#once again everyone expects the worse from him. they ASK it of him for their own benefit#and he doesn't disappoint. he is the worst and he loses his temper and finds himself on the ledge again#when he storms out of denny's office so mad he can't even look at him. went home alone and furious and upset#drank himself to sleep for the first time in months if not years bc after a good run it feels like things are falling apart again#the way they always do. because that's what alan shore deserves#he thought it might be different this time. he thought well my parents didn't care about me. my wife died. I got fired. everyone leaves#maybe this time will be different. but now he's in the hotel room where he lives. without his best friend. about to be disbarred. stupid.#this was always going to happen because he doesn't deserve any better. they were all right about him. they were right to run away#everything is fixed the next day he and denny go on a field trip 🤠 but GD!!!!!#alaaaaannnnnnn 😭
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tag's been too dead, have a pic from my drafts
#snap that twink in half saturday#hoffheight#mark hoffman#adam stanheight#saw fanart#pipeshipping#this is fanart of a fic by flirt - go read hammer & nail right the fuxk now i swear to gd#i literally reread that fic like...weekly.. so fucking good#saw#hoffman#adam#olly art
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ooo u know when just someone’s voice fills you with butterflies?? like let me get a fucking grip
#please this about an ACTOR it’s not even REALLLLLLLL#i’d be down so fucking bad if i ever actually met anyone i found attractive#like kicking my legs giggling and shit oh girl get a hold of yourself !!!#as you can tell period horniness has hit me like fucking truck this month#literally the line was ‘what are you doin right now? how is this helpin anyone?’ and i FOLDED like a gd lawn chair#he was saying it to his boxing coach????? not even a love interest and yet!!! here i am in a puddle of my own making#stelle yaps
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for @cherryys who (rightfully!) hcs lategame megumi as having a bunch of scars befitting his status as resident punching bag
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#megumi fushiguro#fushiguro megumi#fanart#jjk fanart#megumi#guess who hasnt slept its meeeeee#finding refs fr this took forEVER#mostly bc all the pinterest boys are too gd beefy to use as megu ref#but even once i found good refs i am so used 2 drawing beef!!! so used 2 shirtless torsos tht look like yuuji's!!!!#had to keep Undefining my lines n slimming him down#n then he didnt look toned enough!!!!!!!!#constant too hot/too cold . endless suffering .#bangs head on desk all i know to draw is BEEF and this boy is 100% sinew........#but we got there . th render helped a LOT#but then right back 2 suffering bc i asked sam fr Scar Recs n they had th idea 2 give him a lightning scar from when he was taming nue#and i was like omg ya!!!! (voice of some1 who did Not know what lightning scars look like)#so to say i looked them up and uh . new least favourite thing 2 draw just dropped :)#th more accurate i tried to be the more it looked like a weird artsy tattoo#n that scar wasnt even part of what cherryys mentioned they envisioned !!! optional hurdle !!!!!!! i torture myself but fr naught!!!!#th scars tht they mentioned are the glass eye/eye scar from th sukuna/gojo fight + burns up the jaw + abdomen stab wound a la toji#everything else is just visual flavour#sighs at least i got some good shameless torso practice out of this#once i got 2 painting i took my sweet time with him and i am happy now . sleep deprived but happy <3#one of my megumi mutuals(tm) says jump i say how high
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We are still trying to finalize a contract on this house (a 100yo house has a lot of problems, my friends!) and there are TOO MANY LAWYERS involved. Adam is a lawyer, and he asked his uncle for a recommendation to represent us, so we have that lawyer (Steve) plus Adam's uncle has not excused himself so we also have him involved (Kenny). This is too many cooks! (too many cooks!)
We had a zoom with our inspector yesterday and he said be careful, a lawyer can protect you right out of a deal and YEAH. Kenny you need to stop asking questions! Adam put what we wanted for credits with the advice of the inspector (who I love and is my friend Marti's husband, he is GREAT, if you are buying a house in the chicago area I cannot recommend him more highly), Kenny does not need to keep offering his thoughts!!
Ugh I just want to start decorating!!
#In Illinois you have to have a lawyer to buy a house and it's a lot of rigamarole#but I guess ok bc our realtor is in gd paris at the olympics right now#this is a real family affair#lawyer is adam's uncle's friend agent is my mil's next door neighbor inspector is my friend's husband
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so fucking busy the rest of the year. being alive is awesome :]
#i have 4 classes this semester and 2 of them r music relateddd i love my major#my financial aid package FINALLY PROCESSED after like 7 months lol#so i just have to figure out disbursement#i have surgery in october to have a hysterectomy and oophorectomy#and then i am gonna be out of work for 4 weeks (but still doing classes lol...)#and i have 2 more cohorts to facilitate#and a training video and some projects to pull together#and a brainstorm session tomorrow#and im going to a baseball game for work on thursday!!!!! exciting!!!!!!!!!!#and if my finaid is as much as theyre saying it will be my rent for the rest of the year is paid#which would mean all my paychecks can go directly to#medical costs and other bills n savings#which puts me so fucking closer to moving out next year#if i play my cards right i can pay all my debts between now and march/april of next yesr#and then i will be able to fucking!!!!!!! move!!!!!!!#wait guys im emotional i had a shitty medical procedure i had to endure as part of pre op a d#literally in the last hour im back to feeling so fucking energized#ohhh my gd i love being alive please please please lef this work out#im gonna stART PLANNING W MY FRIENDS FOR A SPRING TRRIP NEXT YEAR?#AAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!! maybe even planning another trip w 19 bc i saw a cool cabin to stay in LMAO#just. yells. oh my gd#please please let this work out even 50% of the way of what it looks like it could be
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not only serving it up, but also dishing it out
(they/he)
#i feel so gd hot right now it's unfair to everyone else#selfie#me#nonbinary#gender?? i don't even know 'er!#genderfluid
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reading this chapter i felt a light enter back into my body.. it was some kind of spiritual experience I MISSED JANE SO MUCH !!!! yes matt too BUT JANE😩😩😩😩❤️❤️❤️❤️ im so glad everythings been much better for you recently and hopefully even better in the future❤️❤️❤️❤️
THIS IS SO SWEET OH MY GOD, ESPECIALLY BECAUSE I MISSED THEM TOO😭
I feel the same though. Being able to return to Jane writing-wise (cause she's now kinda always in my head wandering around) has been so amazing. I've missed Matt too, don't get me wrong (Especially TRT!Matt just because that's how I see him), but I can also at least get some Matt in Daredevil even if it's not TRT. I can't get Jane anywhere but in these stories. And it was one reason I continued thinking about it even when I had all that chaos going on. I'm just as much a fan of this world as anyone else, of Jane and all of these characters. I wasn't in a good place, and I absolutely had no brain power for it, but I still missed it so gd bad. I'm absolutely delighted to be back writing TRT again and that things are going better now. 🥰
#i missed it so gd much so i feel this#getting to crawl back inside Jane's narrative skin (and matt's too!) felt RIGHT#like#i've spent SO LONG with her and Matt and all of you have spent just as long reading TRT!#and i was so worried i'd try to dive back in and wouldn't connect but like#they were just like 'oh you're back cool let's do this' and off we went#they waited and so did we and now it's going againnnnn <3
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hey do you know what would be a sad as fuck fic concept
yknow that trope of aizawa adopting various students. and when it’s todoroki there’s always that extra little bit of conflict because of endeavor, the number one hero, we can’t prosecute him, yada yada yada.
but it always works out, because fanfiction!
but consider. a version where it doesn’t work out. where todoroki—or really it could be anyone, i suppose, but todoroki is who i’m thinking of—doesn’t get adopted. and has to go home. where he finally managed to speak up, to ask for help, and it didn’t work. maybe, maybe he gets pulled from UA entirely. and aizawa just tries and fails and despairs for two entire years, because all the willpower in the world won’t actually change the law.
then, in the middle of a january night, as aizawa is preparing for his very last term with the class todoroki used to belong to, there’s a knock at the door.
and todoroki shouto asks if there’s still a spare room for him.
#bird noises#bnha#todoroki shouto#aizawa shouta#i’m so! thinkin about this now#theres not a lot of point to it. and ofc it could continue past that#but i’m so SAD about it you guys#everyone trying so hard and just. no. no! go back to your dad#and then how do you even….what is todoroki and aizawa’s relationship after that#like its been TWO YEARS#and he has every right to be like#mad about it#aizawa is DEFINITELY mad at himself#and theres the issue of shouto’s birthday falling where it does and his last term of high school#he walks back into 3-A like hi everyone#and they collectively lose their gd minds#idk i have Thoughts and Feelings clearly#if anyone wants to they can steal this from me god knows i cant write it rn#but you legally have to show me bc i DO want it in my life ty
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