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i NEED to take a break from work
#the bin#:/ hhhhh.#well. i think i can take a break in the second half of march#if my next paycheck is big enough and my sister pays me back soo like she said she would then i will request like 10 days off#im tryna get my life fixed. it was doing ok for a bit but my apartment being a mess makes it hard#im gonna try to get that fixed asap. i was preoccupied with a new source of stress this past week but its gone now i think#idk. there was time recently when i was cooking food nearly every day even thevdays i worked and being more functional and i wanna#get back to that but my apartment is just too big a mess for me to do it#well. hopefully i can actually do it. i always feel like work is gonna totally drain me but my job is really ok#idk why i so often have this stress reaction to going to work :/ its so stupid#i dont wanna use my requested time off just to clean so i wanna get stuff cleaned before i take time off#i just really need a mental health break. im dealing with way too much stuff and i need a preplanned proper break#theres so much stuff im tryna fix. i hate having all this mess on top of it. i hate that my sister just completely ditched me and left it#for me to clean up myself#i wanna be completely free of her altogether#i wanna focus on fixing my weird brain issues. not all this trash. hhhh.w#i wanna ditract myslef but my brain is like incapable of enjoying anything without making me feel weird. i hate it. i git into some stuff#more recently and my brain did the thing again where it makes me feel cringe for it. why?? i hate it so much. thinsg are either boring to me#or i REALLY like them and my brain makes me feel weird abt it. i just wanna escape from reality but my brain makes it so hard to
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what cipher has done to my hands
#gravity falls#stanford pines#bill cipher#ford pines#billford#maybe?#idk#ermmmm anyways i just wanted to draw bloody knuckles 🤒#and also i love love love this excerpt from the tbob i think about it literally all the time#it haunts my every waking moment#'i hope f's gloves will hide what cipher has done to my hands'#like???? are you crazy?????#i'm killing myself asap#this was from a magma doodle that i cleaned up but i think i lost the original vibe 💔 this feels really stiff to me idk#BLEGH feeling. crazy.#okay bye#mods art#mods draws#my art
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day 3: red
alts because im indecisive
#my art#smallishbeans fanart#smallishbeans#joel smallishbeans#trafficblr#RED LIFE JOEL MY BELOVED YYAYYYYYYY#yes i did skip day 2 yes it is a tragedy yes i am very sad#i just couldnt come up with a good idea for it fhfgfh#maybe i’ll go back and do it later#7 holy nights of jeremy#ive been allowing myself to be very messy with these and its super super weird for me because im normally VERY meticulous with my art#like clean lineart and thought out details and blah blah blah. but its been super fun to just let loose lmao#It does also mean that these are very much “trust the process”#like boy…. you have so many ugly stages…. boy why are you ugly…..
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WIP!!! Stealing glances amidst victory celebrations in Suna….
#narugaa#naruto uzumaki#gaara of the sand#Naruto#fanart#other fandoms#other fandoms: naruto#GUYSSSS this one is gonna take a while so I’m letting myself post this much of it now#much of it needs to be cleaned up lol…..#thanks to Jane who let me screen share as I drew and helped me every time I went:#“does this expression convey that they’ve been looking at each other the whole night and this is the first glance they catch each other#and are now blushy because Naruto suddenly realises this look in gaara’s eye is Different and he’s the only one that recognises the nuance#as something perhaps intimate. perhaps erotic. perhaps suggestive that they should get up and leave soon#anyway I’m working on it ok….#trying to expound on the visual culture of Suna a little by making like… a shisha lounge#grew up on shisha (my lungs are recovering these days now that I’ve quit smoking completely) but I hold it near my heart#also I changed Naruto’s hair. they’re wearing the ‘The Last’ outfits but I just couldn’t do short hair Naruto I’m sorry#his fluffy spikey blond hair appeals to me so much I’m sorry I refuse to cut it short#also it’s like vaguely mussed and messy here to imply some things about how much he’s had to drink LOL#Gaara has a few strands out of place but that’s it#kazekage duties etc etc#anyway#OK ANYWAY
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a fool and a sinner
#heyy WATCH REVUE STARLIGHT[TRAIN PASSES OVERHEAD] I SAID WATCH REVUE ST [FOGHORN] [SIRENS]#revue starlight#revstar#hikari kagura#kagura hikari#shoujo kageki revue starlight#Girl you're so damn dramatic get your ass up and continue the cycle#STFU AND START ONCE AGAIN BUILDING THE TOWER THAT WILL INEVITABLY FALL 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣#i'm back in my bimonthly revsta haze. Oh my god starry session revival was SOOOOOOOOOO.#i missed seeing kukugumi performing together. And oh my god mayanana sirius. OH MY GODDDDDDD#PRIDE AND ARROGANCE WAS ONLY SUPPODE FTO BE KAORUKO AND THEY WERE LIKE THATS CRAZY CAN WE MAKE TOXIC YURI OUT OF THIS? IKUTERU GET UP THERE#i screamed. all i can say#semester AMOST OVER assignments MANAGEABLE status: ALIVE#pretend i didnt post a drawing of myself coughing uo blood on twitter 24 hours ago. teehee#i need to rewatch gekijouban. Will be a little treatfor me after my last assignment gets handed in#Also theres this rpgmaker game ive been following that finally came out this year and inknow it will give me brain worms im so excited to#play it. ALSO I HAVE AN EMU TO POST I DID AN AGGIE WITH MY CLASSMATE but i gotta clean her up. maybe tonight after homework. amen#its her n cinnamorolllll so cutessss SOOOO CUTES
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I met the me who made different choices
#idk what this means so dont ask#got the words stuck in my head and this is what I wanted to draw for it immediately#me at my desk. so.#I dont look exactly like this obviously. doesnt matter. anyways#hard time recently in a lot of different ways#lots of work to do!#given up on getting everything done I kind of failed at that. it was too much#so now I'm just trying to get anything done that will make the next 6 months not kill me again#ideally. 3 episodes. or the book#or like at least close enough to that that its basically that#I'm feeling really screwed LOL#I dont know how I've been working every day for so long and still havent done enough...#(its because the work load is way too much)#every time I take 1 hour for myself. to cook. or clean. or draw something else. or play a game. I feel so guilty auauau#I hate webtoon I hate this damn green app...#DOESNT MATTER!!!#what DOES matter is my art is good as hell... look at this shit...#the light. the colors. I love you red I love you green#I need to get more red pants I only have the one pair.#I saw this guy with red pants that had skeleton legs on them and I was like FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK!!!!!!!!! I need them!!!!#I need to start sewing again. I dont have a sewing machine cause my apartment is too small so I havent sewn in years but I really want to..#I want to make clothes again... I need some vests I need some dresses..#I will not make pants or sleeved shirts because I dont hate myself#sketch#art#vent art I guess LMFAO its not#its just this fun little thing we like to call self expression#also this isnt how my desk setup actually is I scooted things around cause I didnt wanna draw anything twice. fuck it we ball#ok back to work
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#this was a 2 page comic once upon a time ago!#but the other page is one of the many that was lost when my files got deleted last fall#was able to clean this one up enough to post it though#my art#gtav#trevor philips#michael de santa#gta v#trikey#gta 5#gta5#grand theft auto 5#tum/blr dont get me on this. nothing is shown only implied so it should be fine#also sorry will reply to asks 😬 eventually#got some recent work stress on my plate and it makes me more avoidant than usual#i promise im not ignoring u guys on purpose i just cant make myself not freak out these days
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characters that put up a front and a performance so constantly that they start to believe the caricature they've created of themself is more authentic than their core and/or elements of that fabrication start to become ingrained in their actual perception of self 🤌
#finding a throughline for characters i think about a normal amount.#bc i'm having a brainrot moment#.d#also back in my mp100 era so im cleaning up an analysis thing i wrote last year and having thoughts#it's not projection it's not i swear (sweating)#anyway some character tags for myself don't bully me#reigen arataka#shigeo kageyama#goro akechi#joshua kiryu#des#.....#pla volo#homura akemi#*
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snf sob... his favorite regular... wailing in the club rn
#ive never drawn a sheet before. much less a sheet covered caterpillar! it shows!#MANNNN THESE TWO AUGH#thank you halloween record for the crumbs. im sated <3#the fact that he Barged past sally gave me the image of him lightly tackling barnaby#bro had to pick up some Speed his legs were Goin#at some point i may clean up the og base sketch and make a non-halloween-costume version#because! your honor! i love them!#scribble garnish#laughingstock#barnaby x howdy#howdy x barnaby#welcome home#i was gonna try to make it more ~ambiguous~ and non shippy and then my hand slipped and they're both blushing now oops#i tell myself 'be normal about them' and i Fail Miserably
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Draw a close up of Natoris lil lizard 🦎🦎🦎
I’m not so secretly obsessed with the lizard….
#natsume yuujinchou#natori shuuichi#not a punch#fan punch#animation#anon#could have probably cleaned up the linework a little more... oh well aahah!#been telling myself for YEARS now… ‘reanimate the lizard…. make a nice one…’#so here we go!#this one’s for the both of us lol!#its a scuttler... it scuttles...#if anyone knows how to export a decent quality gif outta procreate let me know i'm dying out here lol!#ask and be answered
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isat pokemon au, my liege?
my rambling in tags
#my art#in stars and time#isat#isat spoilers#pokemon#siffrin#mirabelle#isabeau#odile#bonnie#i am not individually tagging pokemon sorry. floragato eevee ursaring scorbunny meowstic <- for anyone who does not know them#im personally a big fan of when artists mold pokemon designs like clay to fit their characters so i tried to channel that#siffrin really does have the perfect mystery dungeon backstory. washes up on a beach with no memories of their past type of deal yknow#i imagine that he was still a sprigatito then? and evolves at some point during their journey? dont ask me for details i dont know them#veryy tempting to make him an absol but ive already seen that done very well!! so i kept most of these to floragato sif#mirabelle being an eevee is suuuch low hanging fruit sorry. i could not resist the evolving pokemon not wanting to evolve trope#i was concerned that sif was no longer shortest party member until i realized they just stand on their back legs all the time to feel talle#when quadruped like mira he is still shortest. sorry siffrin#isa gave me such a hard time. like i never thought i would turn a character into ursaring of all things but it really was the best choice#my other choices were bewear or pawmot if you care. he’s so bear coded#if going purely based on looks i probably would have made odile a sneasler. but i wanted her to be psychic#ill be honest bonnie was purely vibes. they carry the treasure bag :)#never draw bonnie's hat in profile worst mistake of my life#loop is still cat shaped here but i’ve seen the idea of them changing species thrown around. much to think about#i like the idea of the party seeing sif and loop side by side and immediately clocking their entire deal#the change god is mew btw. very important information to no one but myself#eurasie as hisuian zoroark?? lots of hair. and the king can be darkrai#don’t mind the inconsistencies. me and my 2781 ways of drawing the same character#wait what does an eevee look like again. googles it. oh i really crabbed this one up#uhh. looks around. been sitting on this one for a bit too long i think. maybe ill clean up some more sketches later
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by some miracle I managed to acquire this notebook! :D
#rc9gn#randy cunningham 9th grade ninja#yes i will be printing out that cleaned up page to use myself#yes you may do the same!#well as long as disney doesnt come after me or anything LOL#this is the coolest thing i own#my post#my photos
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I have more beard now 😩
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i have other things to draw but these new kmhn fits from the merch drop have enamored me
(my comms are open, btw!)
#martzipan#komahina#hajime hinata#nagito komaeda#they're SO CUTE it immediately made me feel like they were out on a pleasant date.... they look like college kids... WAAUGH#i always tell myself it's just gonna be a rough sketch. you aren't gonna color it#and then i'm like 'well rough color wouldn't hurt.'#and then i blink and i've cleaned up the colors and thrown an overlay on it head in hands#anyways that's why the lineart's messy. this was meant to be a quick 'get out of my head' sketch#but. the heart wants what it wants i guess#anywho#i actually really really want some of this merch but. monies. lmao#maybeeee commission me so i can afford it :3 pretty pease
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day 100
genres of magical girl
#day 100#year 5#jade harley#roxy lalonde#rose lalonde#june egbert#homestuck#this is a wip im gonna clean it up and add some others but this is as far as i got tonight SO! this is what yall get#im trying to let myself post more unfinished stuff instead of like#putting pressure on myself to put out a finished work every single day#i think it's been kinda stifling my ideas lately & keeping me from doing anything like#more complex or time consuming than can be achieved on an average weeknight??#and that sucks and is NOT the point of the blog#or even the practice of doing daily art stuff anyway
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uh oh guys, hot take alert:
i think revali may have invented hand held aerial archery HEAR ME OUT- (this is a long one boys)
okay. evidence one: why the fuck would a rito shoot like that. like, it makes nearly zero sense, it would be such a hindrance to their flight and their main stake is that they can be higher than you can shoot whilst still pinging you... which revali has overcome with his gale
evidence two: tulin and the concept arts. obviously rito style archery would be held in their talons. before totk came out idk if anyone had really thought about it too much, but the developers had, as you can see in concept art (from the creating a champion book). and like, its logical, powerful, and allows for peak maneuverability. also, when in flight revali (and teba) holds his bow in his talons before switching to his wings. surely its easier to keep it in your wing (obvi ignoring the effects to flight but hes doing that anyway firing the damn thing) rather than switch back and forth- unless you were taught that way, because why would you hold it elsewhere, you need it in your talons to shoot.
evidence three: we dont see any other rito do it (...kind of). throughout botw and totk, we never see another rito flying with a bow in their hands. in totk, its mostly tulin, who holds it in his talons, but in botw the big one is teba. during the medoh quest, he actually gives *link* his bow, and therefore does no shooting in the sky. teba and harth had both tried to take on medoh before, but we never see this, and while they holds their bows in their hands *on the ground,* we dont see it.
...except for aoc (uh, spoilers?). there are two times we see a rito other than revali hold their bow in their hand for aerial archery. but it is not with any rito soldiers, either during cutscenes (the bows are only on their backs) or gameplay (they swoop down, and then hand hold bows on ground. they arent seen flying at all but thats prolly for the same reasons as botw: its very hard to code that (and so they write the lore around that fact)). the first time we actually see another rito do this, we dont see it. Its teba, as he comes thru the portal, but all we see is the arrow shot, and then him freeze frame with the bow in one wing. we dont see the bow in his hand for the rest of the fight. the second time we actually see him fighting like this, it *is* in the air, but its noticeably different to revali.
hes a lot slower, it clearly takes a LOT more effort to shoot the bow, and he only pulls off one arrow at a time. its canon that revalis bow is heavier/harder to draw, and he manages to effortlessly stream arrows whilst fucking floating midair. i think teba, forever a revali fanboy, heard of how the champion mastered his own style of archery and sought to teach himself, but lacked one key thing: revalis mastery of wind.
evidence three point five: revali could easily use his powers to hold him in the air longer/slow his descent long enough for him to fire his shots. it makes sense, really. if he can use his gale to propel him, he can sit on the updraft for a hot sec, or even curve the path to carry him along while he lines up the shot. this would mean he wouldnt need to flap as much as other rito, who would obviously need to keep flying
evidence four: revalis fighting style and his needs. revali works with non rito, obviously. he needs to be able to communicate with them on the battlefield, and they wont understand the muffled chirps if he holds his string in his beak, so he needs his mouth free to speak hylian. also, revalis main tactic is fly up with gale, shoot, fall, either shoot more or use velocity and weight to knock around opponents, and then fly back up. he often needs both feet planted firmly on the ground to get a good hold of his gale, something that is harder to do if you have a bow in the way.
also, take for example the kick he delivers link in their fight (aoc). that would possibly damage the bow, or give the opponent a chance to grab his weapon, if he held it in his talons. and to switch from feet to back is a risky maneuver during freefall, and could lose precious seconds, and then when you get back in the air you need to get it off your back again. its much easier to keep the bow loosely in your wing the whole time, meaning your free to attack melee, land and rise all while not wasting a single moment getting your next shot lined up.
so yeah, i think the rito used the talon grip for aerial archery, and would often use the hand held method on the ground for a variety of reasons (more powerful shots?, easier in some situations like hunting), but revali was perhaps the first to use hand held aerial, another reason he was one of the greatest archers ever.
#you cant fly and i cant hold a bow in my wings midair so this is the perfect middleground to#fight each other on but jokes on you i literally invented new archery to beat this flaw and im going to kick ur ass and/or teach it to you#its late rn i hope this makes sense#also from a revalink perspective its giving#idk i might go back through this in the morning and clean it up but probably not i have never done that before i always forget about it#this came to me as i was talking to myself trying to justify WHY ON EARTH rito would shoot like that when i went#“wait. have we even seen other rito do that.” and the answer was basically not it was only one other guy#important to note that 1- those two times we see teba do it hes on vah medoh which has A LOT of updrafts and wind which would make it easie#and 2- his moveset is all very close to the ground and often doesnt involve a lot of actual flying so im choosing to be selective about it#god DAYUM i love thinking about these birds#revali#teba#harth#tulin#rito#botw#totk#aoc#loz#archery stuff#hoping a certain moot sees this and gives their opinions bc i know they know archery stuff#moss' madness
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