#flf: freaks loving freaks

[harlowehearse]

I am allowed to draw them soo out of character and somft. As a treat.

[no-1-rosalind-lang-apologist]

Underrated scenes from each ss book

These aren't all scenes and I think the flf section just turned into a highlight reel of things i love about flf but here.

TVD

The scene where Roma picks up tiny Alisa because she was climbing inside of his walls and she's like hey don't rip my shirt it's new :( when her shirt his very obviously extremely old.

Not a scene but just the fact that the White Flower's used to have a golden retriever named Tsarina.

Idk if it's underrated exactly but that scene where Rosalind waits for Juliette in her room for three hours to tell her about the monster attack hits me like a truck every time I remember it.

"What is a Montague? It sounds Italian."

The scene where Benedikt holds Tyler at gunpoint after he threatens Marshall because he knows Marshall wouldn't have had the impulse control to not shoot

Roma beating the shit out of Dimitri

Celia coming up with her fake backstory for a Communist meeting and saying, "My mother is dead. My father is dead to me."

Juliette calling Roma a "wet blanket"

Juliette taking responsibility for Celia when she accidentally knocked Amethyst out

OVE

Juliette Cai says healthcare for all

Alisa being mad at Roma because he hasn't taught her how to catch a knife

Marshall styling Juliette's hair

Juliette making fun of newsboy cap guy

The Marshall flashback to when he met Benedikt

Roma and Juliette getting tailed by the the French White Flower guy who ends up being one of the monsters and Roma saying idk maybe he thinks I'm hotter than you when Juliette asks him why the guy looks like he wants to kill Roma

Benedikt knocking Roma out before trying to kill Juliette because holy shit

When Alisa realizes that Roma agreed to a duel to get her back

When Rosalind had Roma at gunpoint

"I would rather the two of you not burn the world down each time you choose each other."

The paragraphs where Celia starts really being Celia are just so,,,

Somehow I forgot that Alisa was already officially a Communist spy in the OVE epilogue?

fhh spoilers

FLF

Celia forcing Rosalind out of bed to go to Lourens when she wanted to die

Orion calling Dao Feng "Old Man"

Rosalind immediately making tranquilizers right when Orion moves in because she doesn't want to put up with his shit

Silas writing and publishing a fucking op-ed at 14 immediately after getting home from London (iconic)

The implication that Silas has tried to confess to Phoebe before which I call bullshit on.

Not a scene but when Orion shows back up in the morning before their first day at Seagreen, I am convinced that the red stuff on his neck was blood not lipstick.

I NEED TO KNOW IF JIEMIN'S CROSS WAS A SIGN OF ALLEGIANCE TO PRIEST?????

"Who's stealing Silas from you? You're the notorious boyfriend stealer not me." because what exactly are we implying help-

Rosalind remembering hearing Silas's parents brag about him

Phoebe "spying" on Seagreen while she has Silas wait in the car

Lao Lao instantly adopting Orion

I think a lot of the olivercelia stuff in flf is a bit underrated because a lot of us were too busy being haters for a while but the necklace knife scene!

"My little ego can always stand being snapped at by you, sweetheart."

Oliver being really really freaked out in the warehouse hit different now that we have more context ughhhh

Orion thinking that his dad might have done something to his mom. What the fuck. And also being in that house with them alone for years jesus christ

Alisa covering her walls in drawings from Benedikt

Rosalind killing Zilin

Silas taking on Orion's assignments when his headaches were really bad

The fact that Lord and Lady Hong probably knew that Oliver was onto something when Orion told Lord Hong about Oliver breaking in

The cards that Zilin had in his pocket were a spade and a diamond (spade = aroace and diamond = demi)

Rosalind and Orion's argument after the Peach Lily Palace incident

Celia being like stfu Oliver (i like telling him what to do. teehee. aNYWAY)

Ik the nation over everything quote gets talked about a lot but I think people seem to forget how pissed Celia was after he said that. Because "You're so damn selfish. Have you ever stopped to consider that I value your life just as much? If you want to protect me, don't you think that I want to protect you, too?" And then the way that Oliver is absolutely baffled by this. Ack.

Rosalind flinching when Orion pretended to kiss her forehead towards the start of flf vs her casually noting it when he actually kissed her temple midway through flf

Alisa casually having Russian classic literature at her desk despite the fact that she probably stopped receiving formal school at about 13. Slay queen.

The domestic spat. I don't think we've talked about it in a bit I'm so disappointed in us.

Alisa seeing Rosalind and Dimitri together and never saying anything about it

Silas immediately hanging up when Lord Hong picked up when he was trying to call Phoebe

Also who were Gray and Archer??? I thought they were going to be important but oh well

"She doesn't bite." "Yes, I do." like geez ok Rosalind thank you for sharing

"Phoebe walked a small circle around the hospital corridor. Silas, his eyes tracking her absently, stood with his chin propped in one palm." Yeah ok.

Then the scene after Orion sees Rosalind's scars where they're both lying on her bed together and talk for a little bit. I don't know if it's underrated exactly, but I have a very clear image of it in my mind and it is very parallely and nice I like this scene

Alisa drinking orange juice out of a coffee mug. Why? Because.

Tiny detail but Orion telling Phoebe to stop answering the phone in English because he's afraid of gossip

Phoebe immediately going DO I GET TO SEDUCE PRETTY WOMAN???? when Orion tells her he needs her help and him being absolutely exhausted by her

"You warn me for control." "I don't need your warning." I want to kiss Rosalind on the mouth.

Ok sorry but I do not interpret the scene where Orion steals the Frenchwoman's necklace as him flirting with her I think he just put on a really exaggerated twink voice because it's funnier that way

Silas knocking out a guard by holding a cloth with sedatives to his face when he and Phoebe broke Alisa out of jail.

Also just Silas trying to signal to Alisa that he's totally definitely a double agent in the process of betraying everyone because Alisa knows that he's aligned with the Communists somehow while Phoebe is Priest is so insane.

Silas fixing Phoebe's hair then Phoebe noticing that he shifted maybe half and inch away from her going hmm no that's not allowed and shifting closer to him. Especially since there's not very much emotion in her internal monologue in flf since you're not really getting her pov you're just getting a front.

"Are you keeping any other secrets from me, Janie Mead?" "One. But I don't want to tell you yet."

Orion faking a nosebleed

"His proximity was supposed to be some sort of tactic to make her flustered, she guessed, but she was only concentrating on the fact that Orion had missed a sport right by his jaw." Rosalind you absolute genius (I am so obsessed with her)

Phoebe entering Silas's house then immediately going hihihihihihi pay attention to meeeeeeeeeee without telling him that she was planning on coming over

Probably not underrated but. "Phoebe's scowl was immediate, taken aback as to who was in his bedroom, but she realized seconds later that the voice was too grainy and distant to be a visitor." Just something about Phoebe not recognizing it as her own voice and being jealous of a part of herself that she doesn't really recognize as herself is just. so. ahhhh.

aDmIrAtIoN

Not underrated but. The scene where Rosalind is like. Orion put his head on my lap to annoy me. His hair looks dumb. I am going to yoink it. To bother him. Then just. Starts playing with his hair.

A random guy selling flowers seeing a boy and a girl in a car together and thinking ah yes. customers. then fearing for his life and running away after watching phoebe yoink Silas out of his car

Phoebe conning Silas into thinking she wanted him to drive her around so she could observe architecture. Damn he is easy to trick

"'Can't I convince you to partake in a different outing instead?' Silas pleaded. 'I'll buy you cake. Or pastries? You like pastries.' 'No! We have to do this.' Phoebe separated her clasped hands, clutching at her skirts instead. 'Do you want to watch me beg?' 'pHOEBE-' 'So help me, I'll get on my knees right in the middle of the street, and then you will have to answer for my virtue-' 'Fine, fine,' Silas hurried to say, unable to withstand her theatrics. There were two red blots deepening on his cheeks." .......................ok.

Alisa purposely freaking Silas out by telling him that he has to handle the explosives. Then they end up being firecrackers she bought from a middle schooler.

Phoebe making the 🥺🥺🥺 face and Silas covering her eyes

Alisa faking a middle aged man voice

Rosalind looking at Orion and being like hmm he's really pretty it kind of looks like he's wearing mascara. Anyway.

To be continued because I'm hitting the word limit oops

[elizabeth-mitchells]

Ella Purnell was so real for saying that jackie is a "freak" who is afraid of being a freak.

shaunajackie confirmed flf (freak loving freak)

[real-total-drama-takes]

Wait wait wait ezekiel and sierra actually kind of makes sense. Cody is just a normal (if somewhat reprehensible) loserboy but ezekiel is a true freak loserboy to go with sierra’s hypercompetent freak energy. We were robbed of the true flf (freak loving freak) representation we could’ve had

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[typingwithmyhandstied]

Do you have any guesses for what some of the Taylor Swift references in fhh will be?

I have no real solid it will definitely happen guesses. I do have some that I would really like that might actually be possible.

Mine: it is very plausible with Rosalind and Orion's pasts. Plus, I would love it.

Last Kiss: I don't think Chloe could resist it at this point.

Would've Could've Should've: it's on the playlist, and it would be a very fitting one. I will be taking it as a reference if she uses any of these words in the same paragraph or even page.

It's Time To Go: I swear if this is referenced in Oliver's pov in flashbacks of him leaving, I might actually like him (I don't blame him for leaving to begin with only other crap). I also think this could be referenced in other contexts too.

Daylight: this is the one I am betting on. Mostly because I would freak out. I really love this song (I got to see it live yayyayayay). I do think Chloe already kind of referenced it in TPATS but-

It's Nice To Have A Friend: I do think this would be possible with a Rosalind and Orion wedding most likely being the ending. This would be one of the songs to reference for sure. If she referenced this with Philas, I think I might faint.

No Body No Crime: you never know... mostly putting this on here because if it was referenced in regard to Alisa, I would freak out.

I feel like there's a good chance there'll be a few Midnights references. Maybe midnight rain, hits different, mastermind, etc. Paris is in the FLF playlist too.

I feel like there is more I might be forgetting at the moment, so I will reblog if I think of any. I'm curious to know what you think!

[movedtodykedvonte]

Sunrise would definitely get along with DJ Music Man cause the stage is bright and colorful and DJ is meant to keep kids moving. Plus he’s huge so Sunrise could climb around him and while entertaining the kids and dancing.

[porloquevivoyo]

[tank-grunt]

metaphorically waking up from a cold sweat after having a vision and rushing to write down the vision before forgetting: vidcund/newlow

[tatsumi-harem-chronicles]

ghdbsjdfnd flf dm fmf dnfkfn it takes literal months for them to even get around to it solely because of mayoi’s neuroticism but the first time tatsumayo kiss, mayoi gets so nervous, he accidentally nicks tatsun’s lip open with his sharp teeth and becomes absolutely convinced hes going to hell when he dies, if not struck down by god on the spot

(tatsumi's kinda into it) (he tells mamayoi as much and he just fucking shatters)

GHDBSJDSOFBFLEJG aira: would you like to explain why youve got blood streaming down your chin for the fourth time this week tatsumi: freak car accident

hiiro: oh mayoi! i didn't know you wore lipstick! it looks good on you! mayoi: * starts sobbing * * runs away * * unholy screeching trailing in his wake *

shdjAkdbdXnf tatsuhimemayoniki ft himeru getting so fed up with seeing tatsumi Beaming With Glee, he teaches mayoi how to do a proper kiss without injuring his partner, despite having absolutely No experience himself

ah yes, the good ol' "kissing practice" love route thats so fucking gay * head in hands * * screaming *

i love gay people for real

asbsbdjdn himeru: mayoi ayase. you are doing. well. himeru supposes. niki: so when youre done sucking faces its my turn to chew on him right himeru: HOW. long. were you HERE? niki: he keeps biting people let me bite him back mayoi: NOOONNONO N

[savnofilter]

FLF 7

𝐃𝐚𝐛𝐢/𝐓𝐨𝐮𝐲𝐚 𝐱 『𝐅𝐄𝐌』𝐑𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫

↬ ᴡᴀʀɴɪɴɢ(s): Genophobia — fear of sex. sexual content, mentions of losing virginity, safe sex, anxiety, over thinking.

↬ ᴡᴄ: .9k words [3 minutes].

↬ ʀᴍ: february love fest

↬ ᴀ/ɴ: okay so major s.o to my friend (hi, ily if youre reading this) for giving me like an idea push for this. because of the nature of the nature of this fic, i have decided to go for another approach to losing the whole losing virginity thing. i have also rewritten this four times so im sticking to this one. 😭 Its a lil messy (i might rewrite it if i really dislike it later vnfvjnf) cause i wrote this after balling my eyes out. after this should be hawks and that will conclude phobias, bless 🙏🏽 hope this is enjoyable, and as always if there is something that needs to be fixed lmk A.S.A.P!

"Are you all right?" The lips of his mouth were hot against your skin and the palms of his hands were moist from the sweat of anticipation.

"Y-Yeah, I’m okay." Your voice trembled as you felt his hand glide over your skin. 

You were already naked under him and that was all you could think about. You tilted your head back against the pillows, closing your eyes.

‘what if he's just playing me?’ ‘i can't do this, i want to go back.’

You are forced to look up at Dabi as his hand grips your cheeks. “Relax, doll. I will not hurt you." 

Your ears have never heard a voice like this before. Your cheeks were already hot with the adrenaline pumping through your veins, but this brought a wave of comfort that you needed. As you tried to calm yourself, you were glad he was checking upon you and ceasing his actions at each moment.

“Okay.” You breathed out. His hand that held your face caressed your cheek in an oddly rough way. You figured it was because of his calloused skin. It may have been a little gesture, but it had the effect of calming you just a little.

"Let me know if you need to stop." He gave you a look that he meant business; he did not want to mess this up. Until you confirmed his request verbally, he did not move forward.

“Yes.”

Dabi gave you a moment before he let his hands touch your naked skin again. He was careful in placing his middle finger on your erect clit, pleased to feel that your labia was at least moist. You sucked in a small breath as you had never felt this type of feeling before. Your senses were all over the place, and holding onto him didn't ground you sooner. 

You softly gasped as each stroke went straight to your cunt, eyes rolled back as he took his time playing with your clit. His finger stroked your labia, spreading your slick and teasing at your opening, then returned to rub at your clit again. Having his hands on your private parts made you shiver. 

An unfamiliar feeling in your cunt pounded in arousal, creating another ache of need. All of this was coming at you too fast and you had never even touched yourself before. You were enjoying yourself but the rush of emotions and stimulation that came with it scared you. The sensations were starting to become too much. 

“W-Wait s-stop." Your trembling words immediately made his fingers stop, just as you anticipated. 

Fuck. Was using your safe word a better choice? Have you destroyed the mood by asking him upfront? Could you be unintentionally pushing your negative feelings on him? Should you have been more prepared for this-? 

“Hey, what’s up?” Dabi cooed, a hand quickly wrapping around your waist and pulling you closer. It was like your head was spinning and your heart was beating 100 miles per hour. You felt terrible for breaking down like this. 

“I’m sorry, Dabi I-” you could not bring yourself to finish your sentence. You already felt humiliated. Your eyes pricked with tears in your body shivered in terror. 

Dabi softly sighed as he had no idea what to do. He could only hold you close and only hope that you would stop freaking out so much. Despite not having good speaking skills, he held you close. His oddly comforting hand-rubbed your back while the other rested on your hip. He held you to his chest until you stopped shaking. He peeked down at you with his same neutral expression, his brows raised only a bit to show the emotion that sat behind his closed-odd barrier.

"You good?" His thumb rubbed your hip. You nodded and slowly pulled away. Your hands came up to wipe your face as he brought your covers up to shelter your body. 

After getting out of bed, he found his boxers and shirt that had been discarded. As he lifted your arms to put your shirt back on, you hadn't noticed he had changed you into a pair of shorts.

"I'm sorry for dumping that on you, Touya. I don't know what I was thinking by even trying to have sex knowing I wasn't ready." You voiced your regrets.

“We don’t have to continue, babe. “Don’t get so worked up,” Dabi said, rolling his eyes. Although he couldn't understand why you were upset, he was determined to help you out of your low mood. "We can do it whenever you feel comfortable. Even in'a hundred years." He teased.

His words managed to make you chuckle. His voice was monotone, but you could still hear the gentleness in it. Nodding in understanding, you inhaled softly as you couldn't bring yourself to look at him. Again, he gently held your chin, lifting your head as he made you look at him. Your cheeks lightly heated up against the tone of your cheeks, flustered as he has given you the first forehead kiss in a while. He pulled away from you as he thought the best option would be to leave you alone to cool down.

“Please don’t leave.” Your hand gripped his arm, staring up at him willingly this time. “Please?”

Dabi gave his signature smirk as he got back onto the bed, pulling you in close. "Thought you'd never ask."

You nuzzled his chest as he wrapped his arms around your waist and gave you a gentle squeeze. It wouldn't hurt if he stayed a while longer with you. He nuzzles your hair and murmurs to you,

“I’m not going anywhere.

[volfoss]

Seishirou x Hisoka Twitch Streamer AU headcanons:

(I apologize for my sins <3)

Ok so hisoka is definitely not the best at gaming but he does a lot of PvP and online games to harass people on them

I think if he ever played Sims he would murder the sims and make a weird backyard graveyard and get his sim married there

Anytime he kills a player in the game he adds their username to a list or smth to murder later

Would publically dox people and gets really mad if anyone shows up to murder ppl

But Seishirou shows up because he is madly in love with the twitch thot clown hisoka and wants to see if he can fall in love with him or murder him or maybe both

Enemies to lovers kinda stuff but Seishirou is like really weirdly obsessed w hisokas streams

Hisoka is constantly chomping gum in the worst way (haha bungee gum haha wow so clever) and Seishirou will donate to him to tell him to stop before he shows up to murder him

Seishirou thinks he won't fall in love but when he and hisoka have their first murder match against each other he realizes I can love someone that's not a kid and it's maybe like flf (freak loving freak) solidarity

I think that hisoka would like make invitations mid stream for Seishirou to try and murder him and sometimes u see hisoka clad in way too short of shorts getting up and fighting a bit before returning to gaming

I think that hisoka would be his discord kitten

[gingerly-writing]

York went silent — Astra schmastra, he wanted to say, but didn’t, because he didn’t like lying, especially not about Astra. (OKAY so this comes from my Camp WIP this April and these two were never supposed to be so close but now they are and that’s why it’s my favourite line???? York loves Astra and is so soft for them,,,, anyways happy Favourite Line Friday!! I hope Camp is going well, if you’re doing it this year! 😄)

ASTRA SCHMASTRA I LOVE THIS LITTLE BEAN!! also also ‘he didn’t like lying, especially not about Astra’ is so freaking PURE I can definitely tell that he’s soft for them! babies!! 😍🥰😍

I stan sharing something from your Camp Nano WIP, and I hope the writing is flowing easily for you! my own Camp is off to a slow start because I have to finish up all my end of year essays, but hopefully they should be done either today or tomorrow and I can catch myself up!

thank you for joining in with FLF!

[crmmudblood]

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[no-1-rosalind-lang-apologist]

more fhh spoilers

FLF Continued

The third category of memory scene isn't underrated, but I haven't ranted about it in a while so. The way Orion was in that scene contrasted with quite a bit of his previous characterization. Because once Rosalind takes the antidote, he almost gets kind of awkward and isn't sure what to do when previously he hasn't been that way at all. It's not that they haven't had genuine scenes together prior to this but like. Just his realization that he's seeing a side of Rosalind that she doesn't show often. Especially when you have the context that outside of this scene she is literally physically incapable of being that vulnerable. And the amount that this almost feels intrusive to Orion because he has never been this genuine with someone is so. ahhhhhh.

Not underrated but. "He has loved me since we were children. Me. Not this Priest." The way that when you have the full context this translates to Phoebe being confused and freaked out at the prospect of Silas genuinely loving her and not just a front that she's been putting on is very ack.

Then also. Same scene but. "She could pretend to be clueless as much as she liked when Silas followed her around. She would still glance at Silas every time she made a joke to make sure he laughed. She would still check his reaction before everyone else's if she said something intentionally terrible, hoping to catch the roll of his eyes and tease him about it." This is so interesting to me because until FHH, you hear about her doing stuff like this constantly, but in her povs, you can hardly detect any emotion behind it? But in other characters' povs, particularly Rosalind's and Orion's, you can see that they can see that there is so much more to her (Rosalind sees this a bit more than Orion). And it's so interesting I want to dissect this book under a microscope.

Rosalind seeing the vial and being like ehehe weird green juice what if i drank it lol

Ok I'm going to try to keep it to stuff that's actually underrated now because I have restraint

Orion greeting Silas by saying, "Fancy seeing you here, pal."

Orion giving Phoebe his tofu pudding but telling her not to touch the second cup because it's Rosalind's

Oliver and Orion running into each other and Oliver trying to talk to Orion and Celia having to drag Oliver away because Orion keeps trying to fight him. Thanks I hate it.

Ok I am rereading the scene where Oliver and Celia break into Rosalind and Orion's apartment and oh god I misinterpreted so much I need to hug Oliver. Poor guy. And also Phoebe and Orion. Actually no I need to shake Orion like an etch a sketch.

"She thought that she had been careful in winding and unwinding the threads of her past, placing them where they needed to be, but instead they were coming alive like a python, intent on choking her with her own lies." I'm pretty sure there's a direct parallel to this in one of Phoebe's povs in fhh

Hmm I wonder how Silas driving Phoebe home from that scene where Oliver and Celia break into Rosalind and Orion's apartment was because we don't get that pov, and I'm guessing she was either really visibly upset and just,,, refused to acknowledge it. Or was just like. Disconcertingly normal.

"I've seen what love does. It's powerful. It's selfish." Ok we have not talked about how watching what happened with Roma and Juliette in TVD affected Celia I think. And oof.

Also Oliver being like. Hello. I am in love with you. . . . aNYWAY. bruh.

Also Orion was dressed in all black in that scene where Rosalind was trying on the new qipao. So he had just gotten back from being brainwashed... :/

"Any substance in large quantities can kill. Something good in large quantities will kill too."

"Just because you wouldn't hurt me doesn't mean you wouldn't hurt others. I mean nothing." Hmm Hmm Hmm interesting

Just realized that Silas is literally pulling up in his car with Phoebe during the scene where Rosalind is about to shoot Orion. That's soooooo crazy.

Phoebe being a backseat driver (passenger seat technically but still)

Phoebe and Silas clearly overhearing Rosalind and Orion's extremely alarming conversation about there mission.

Jesus Christ what is it with the Hong siblings and the dO i NeEd To PlEaD sHiT what is this the YA HotBoyTM Olympics?

Alisa and the "You were far nicer than I would've been," thing. Hm.

Phoebe getting Rosalind and Orion to dance together.

Oh god ugh the Phoebe flashback to when Orion "fell" but he looked like he had been beaten up repeatedly

"Lady Fortune, how did you come to be?"

"He brushed his thumb over her wrist again. He seemed to like doing that."

Ok but how did Phoebe get Silas to look away for long enough for her to commit several murders when they were breaking Rosalind and Orion and Alisa out?

"I've already hurt someone I love. I'm not going to risk hurting you too." Gah I think that was the last thing he said to Phoebe.

Ok but how tf did Phoebe get away from Silas after that and get to the Warehouse fast enough to act as Priest. How.

"God. Had Oliver known?"

"Another lover of mine never felt any shame when he hurt me. But all I feel coming from you is wave after wave of it."

Oh totally random but Rosalind probably sets her hair.

Ok but the way that the theme of misleading perceptions of people even extends to Lady Hong is so.

Lady Hong recognizing Silas's car is so fucking creepy I hate that.

Ugh the way that Phoebe had to watch that. And took out all those soldiers. And then her mom just popped out of nowhere. ughhhh.

I love that Oliver basically kidnapped his neighbor's cat and just seems to carry it around with him. I love him.

I want more details on the thing where everyone is like omg Oliver is so scary and has caused so many casualties. Because I'm pretty sure he only ever kills one person on page???? And it didn't seem like a super unusual occurrence for him but still? Probably the incorrect perceptions of people thing?

Oh and the way that Oliver feels responsible for everything that happened to Orion

Also it seems like Roma and Juliette knew that Orion was the killer because I think they were the source Jiemin tapped into?

Also the way that the Phoebe pov epilogue starts out with her noting how she doesn't like the way that people are looking at her with pity or suspicion now instead of her letting herself grieve for Orion because she refuses to let herself process any of it...

Also. I cannot imagine how fucking weird it was for Silas to tell Phoebe about what happened to Orion. Because like. I'm guessing that that night she got him to drop her off at home so she could follow Rosalind and Orion somehow rather than staying with Silas. Which probably looked really weird to Silas. Then Silas hears about what happened to Rosalind and Orion and probably does not take it well. Because Orion. Then he goes to tell Phoebe and she just,,, does not react. Because in her internal monologue she's like. Silas thought I was going to break. But no. I was totally calm and collected because I am fine and do not experience negative emotions ever (lying).

"With every movement, she felt her earrings swing, the pearls brushing against her skin; all her impractical accessories jangled with constant sound...." Not to read way too far into a random sentence but. This might symbolize how a lot of her personality is feigned and meant to distract people so they can't really see her.

"Phoebe smiled. It was unlike her other smiles, quiet and subdued rather than a bright grin that aimed to dazzle." If I had to pick and exact moment where you really, truly get her pov for the first time, it would be this.

TPATS

(I will never shut up about tpats so I'm giving it its own section idc.)

"'Are you being good?' Lady Hong asked... 'I'm always good,' Phoebe replied."

"At eleven years old, Phoebe was getting too tall to be carried, but she raised her arms anyway, and Lady Hong hefted her up." vs flf ch 3 "Once, his father would come home at five o'clock on the dot. Orion would run at him, and even though at nine years old he was getting too big to be picked up and swung around, his father did it anyway." (Don't mind me I'm going to go eat glass.)

Gah. The thing where Lady Hong is weirdly fixated on Orion's health and gets Phoebe to bother him about it is so so weird and I hate it.

The thing where Phoebe so so clearly just wants her family to all be happy together absolutely kills me. She wants to see everyone else happy so badly that she'll twist herself into knots to make it happen. All three of the Hong siblings are very self sacrificing in different ways and it is very not good.

I love how Phoebe is just like. Ah yes. Silas. Orion's best friend. What is he to me? Orion's best friend.

Not underrated at all but the sentence, "He had always reminded Phoebe of a teacup puppy that she could put in her purse," is absolutely everything to me.

"Silas Wu dug into his rice quietly, trying not to let his metal chopsticks clink against the side of the bowl or else the noise could be irritating for the rest of the table... Silas was already an intrusion, and he hardly wanted to draw attention to it." My brain is too finals to elaborate on this, but this says a lot about him I think.

Hmm Silas also has abandonment issues to an extent I think just in a different flavor. He doesn't like being alone very much.

Also. "Silas sometimes flipped between feeling nothing at all and feeling so angry that he would freeze up in the middle of the room, needing Orion to shake him out of it." This does not get talked about nearly enough I will be talking about this more. Autism.

*nick nelson voice* "Hi, Silas."

TPATS does such a good job of establishing how entirely genuinely in awe of Phoebe Silas is I think. And prior to FHH, I thought that he might be putting her on a pedestal and have to learn to see her as a normal flawed human but no. He's just so genuinely in awe of everything about her and it is so.

Then also Silas folding the letter he was going to send his parents asking to come home into a flower and giving it to Phoebe because he can't go home yet because she's there because he can't leave her is so painful to read

Also the contrast between Phoebe's mom calling her "little moon" and seeing her as something to "provide happiness" and just sort be the tacked on addition to Oliver and Orion (her accomplishments) but Silas comparing her to the sun and being absolutely baffled by the idea that anyone could ever leave Phoebe behind because she's Phoebe and then her still being absolutely terrified of losing him because she doesn't comprehend that anyone could ever care about her like that and him being the only person she has left in FHH even though she's actively pushing him away. Chloe why.

And the tiny details of Lady Hong smoothing Phoebe's stray hair and fixing her collar before she leaves after giving her the toy gun and encourages her to lie to people about it is very very some type of way.

And the way Orion is very clearly upset by his mom quickly saying bye to him then having a full conversation with Phoebe but still trying to take care of Phoebe and make sure she's okay. I'm giving him an honorary eldest sibling badge.

Also the mention of Phoebe dragging Silas to a bakery on her birthday reminds me of the pleasepleasepleaseplease don't make me commit breaking and entering i'll buy you pastries scene in flf

And then Phoebe's first priority getting her mom's approval with her shooting when she comes to visit again. ughhhh.

The thing where Orion knows that something changed with his parents but can't pinpoint when vs Silas being absolutely terrified of enough time passing that something will be different when he get back.....

"Maybe she had expected Silas to catch her. The thought gave Silas a strange tickle in his stomach." Chloe Gong is absolutely insane for writing all of this I cannot even brain.

Also why does Orion have a gun. And why does Phoebe know about it but not Silas. Orion. You dumbass. What are you doing.

Also I periodically rotate "co-conspirators for real this time" in my brain like a rotisserie chicken

Then also Phoebe hiding her excitement at doing well at shooting in front of her mother while also wanting nothing more than approval from her is so ughh

And Phoebe and Silas both being upset because Orion is going to leave before them and leave them all alone but Silas thinking that he should be okay because Phoebe's alone with her tutor like he will be when Orion leaves and if she's okay like that he should also be when they are both worried about the same thing.

Lady Hong clearly encouraging all of her children to exist for other people but Phoebe especially in this case is so sick I hate it.

And the way the last time Lady Hong visited them in London she didn't bother finding Orion to say goodbye

"Her mother disappeared along the path before Phoebe could wonder further, leaving her in the park clearing alone. She always ended up alone." Ok but thinking about this then "I'll get you the world if you need it." at the end of FHH. Brb gotta go drink cement.

Silas isn't good at making small talk. Wow . That's sooo crazy.

Also Silas who is an absolute genius not being able to see that in himself but seeing Phoebe as smart when very few other people see that in her is some type of way.

WHO WOULD EVER LEAVE PHOEBE BEHIND? SHE WAS MORE LIKELY TO SOAR SO HIGH THAT EVERYONE ELSE GOT LOST IN HER FRAME OF VIEW

Also the is this a blood oath because if it is you did it wrong thing? Autism.

WITH EVERY BIT OF NERVE HE HAD SILAS FINALLY FORCED HIMSELF TO LOOK UP TO LOOK RIGHT INTO PHOEBES EYE SHE TERRIFIED HIM SHE GROUNDED HIM SHE SHOULD HAVE BEEN NAMED AFTER AN EPITHET OF THE SUN INSTEAD OF AN EPITHET OF THE MOON BECAUSE IT WAS INEVITABLE THAT EVERYTHING IN PHOEBE HONG'S VICINITY WOULD CIRCLE HER IN ORBIT

DO WELL TOGETHER NO ONE LEFT BEHIND

ok i'm normal again.

YOU KNOW YOU CAN ALWAYS DEPEND ON ME RIGHT FEIYI

Also the thing where Silas is like. Ah yes. I don't ever have to tell Phoebe that I love her directly because? I don't think I actually have to do that? Is very interesting because I think that that on one hand it wouldn't have mattered if he had told her sooner because she wouldn't have believed him. But also him not telling her didn't really help.

I need to inject this into my veins

FHH

I'm not really sure what's underrated yet since I haven't done a full reread I think.

Underrated scenes from each ss book

These aren't all scenes and I think the flf section just turned into a highlight reel of things i love about flf but here.

TVD

The scene where Roma picks up tiny Alisa because she was climbing inside of his walls and she's like hey don't rip my shirt it's new :( when her shirt his very obviously extremely old.

Not a scene but just the fact that the White Flower's used to have a golden retriever named Tsarina.

Idk if it's underrated exactly but that scene where Rosalind waits for Juliette in her room for three hours to tell her about the monster attack hits me like a truck every time I remember it.

"What is a Montague? It sounds Italian."

The scene where Benedikt holds Tyler at gunpoint after he threatens Marshall because he knows Marshall wouldn't have had the impulse control to not shoot

Roma beating the shit out of Dimitri

Celia coming up with her fake backstory for a Communist meeting and saying, "My mother is dead. My father is dead to me."

Juliette calling Roma a "wet blanket"

Juliette taking responsibility for Celia when she accidentally knocked Amethyst out

OVE

Juliette Cai says healthcare for all

Alisa being mad at Roma because he hasn't taught her how to catch a knife

Marshall styling Juliette's hair

Juliette making fun of newsboy cap guy

The Marshall flashback to when he met Benedikt

Roma and Juliette getting tailed by the the French White Flower guy who ends up being one of the monsters and Roma saying idk maybe he thinks I'm hotter than you when Juliette asks him why the guy looks like he wants to kill Roma

Benedikt knocking Roma out before trying to kill Juliette because holy shit

When Alisa realizes that Roma agreed to a duel to get her back

When Rosalind had Roma at gunpoint

"I would rather the two of you not burn the world down each time you choose each other."

The paragraphs where Celia starts really being Celia are just so,,,

Somehow I forgot that Alisa was already officially a Communist spy in the OVE epilogue?

fhh spoilers

FLF

Celia forcing Rosalind out of bed to go to Lourens when she wanted to die

Orion calling Dao Feng "Old Man"

Rosalind immediately making tranquilizers right when Orion moves in because she doesn't want to put up with his shit

Silas writing and publishing a fucking op-ed at 14 immediately after getting home from London (iconic)

The implication that Silas has tried to confess to Phoebe before which I call bullshit on.

Not a scene but when Orion shows back up in the morning before their first day at Seagreen, I am convinced that the red stuff on his neck was blood not lipstick.

I NEED TO KNOW IF JIEMIN'S CROSS WAS A SIGN OF ALLEGIANCE TO PRIEST?????

"Who's stealing Silas from you? You're the notorious boyfriend stealer not me." because what exactly are we implying help-

Rosalind remembering hearing Silas's parents brag about him

Phoebe "spying" on Seagreen while she has Silas wait in the car

Lao Lao instantly adopting Orion

I think a lot of the olivercelia stuff in flf is a bit underrated because a lot of us were too busy being haters for a while but the necklace knife scene!

"My little ego can always stand being snapped at by you, sweetheart."

Oliver being really really freaked out in the warehouse hit different now that we have more context ughhhh

Orion thinking that his dad might have done something to his mom. What the fuck. And also being in that house with them alone for years jesus christ

Alisa covering her walls in drawings from Benedikt

Rosalind killing Zilin

Silas taking on Orion's assignments when his headaches were really bad

The fact that Lord and Lady Hong probably knew that Oliver was onto something when Orion told Lord Hong about Oliver breaking in

The cards that Zilin had in his pocket were a spade and a diamond (spade = aroace and diamond = demi)

Rosalind and Orion's argument after the Peach Lily Palace incident

Celia being like stfu Oliver (i like telling him what to do. teehee. aNYWAY)

Ik the nation over everything quote gets talked about a lot but I think people seem to forget how pissed Celia was after he said that. Because "You're so damn selfish. Have you ever stopped to consider that I value your life just as much? If you want to protect me, don't you think that I want to protect you, too?" And then the way that Oliver is absolutely baffled by this. Ack.

Rosalind flinching when Orion pretended to kiss her forehead towards the start of flf vs her casually noting it when he actually kissed her temple midway through flf

Alisa casually having Russian classic literature at her desk despite the fact that she probably stopped receiving formal school at about 13. Slay queen.

The domestic spat. I don't think we've talked about it in a bit I'm so disappointed in us.

Alisa seeing Rosalind and Dimitri together and never saying anything about it

Silas immediately hanging up when Lord Hong picked up when he was trying to call Phoebe

Also who were Gray and Archer??? I thought they were going to be important but oh well

"She doesn't bite." "Yes, I do." like geez ok Rosalind thank you for sharing

"Phoebe walked a small circle around the hospital corridor. Silas, his eyes tracking her absently, stood with his chin propped in one palm." Yeah ok.

Then the scene after Orion sees Rosalind's scars where they're both lying on her bed together and talk for a little bit. I don't know if it's underrated exactly, but I have a very clear image of it in my mind and it is very parallely and nice I like this scene

Alisa drinking orange juice out of a coffee mug. Why? Because.

Tiny detail but Orion telling Phoebe to stop answering the phone in English because he's afraid of gossip

Phoebe immediately going DO I GET TO SEDUCE PRETTY WOMAN???? when Orion tells her he needs her help and him being absolutely exhausted by her

"You warn me for control." "I don't need your warning." I want to kiss Rosalind on the mouth.

Ok sorry but I do not interpret the scene where Orion steals the Frenchwoman's necklace as him flirting with her I think he just put on a really exaggerated twink voice because it's funnier that way

Silas knocking out a guard by holding a cloth with sedatives to his face when he and Phoebe broke Alisa out of jail.

Also just Silas trying to signal to Alisa that he's totally definitely a double agent in the process of betraying everyone because Alisa knows that he's aligned with the Communists somehow while Phoebe is Priest is so insane.

Silas fixing Phoebe's hair then Phoebe noticing that he shifted maybe half and inch away from her going hmm no that's not allowed and shifting closer to him. Especially since there's not very much emotion in her internal monologue in flf since you're not really getting her pov you're just getting a front.

"Are you keeping any other secrets from me, Janie Mead?" "One. But I don't want to tell you yet."

Orion faking a nosebleed

"His proximity was supposed to be some sort of tactic to make her flustered, she guessed, but she was only concentrating on the fact that Orion had missed a sport right by his jaw." Rosalind you absolute genius (I am so obsessed with her)

Phoebe entering Silas's house then immediately going hihihihihihi pay attention to meeeeeeeeeee without telling him that she was planning on coming over

Probably not underrated but. "Phoebe's scowl was immediate, taken aback as to who was in his bedroom, but she realized seconds later that the voice was too grainy and distant to be a visitor." Just something about Phoebe not recognizing it as her own voice and being jealous of a part of herself that she doesn't really recognize as herself is just. so. ahhhh.

aDmIrAtIoN

Not underrated but. The scene where Rosalind is like. Orion put his head on my lap to annoy me. His hair looks dumb. I am going to yoink it. To bother him. Then just. Starts playing with his hair.

A random guy selling flowers seeing a boy and a girl in a car together and thinking ah yes. customers. then fearing for his life and running away after watching phoebe yoink Silas out of his car

Phoebe conning Silas into thinking she wanted him to drive her around so she could observe architecture. Damn he is easy to trick

"'Can't I convince you to partake in a different outing instead?' Silas pleaded. 'I'll buy you cake. Or pastries? You like pastries.' 'No! We have to do this.' Phoebe separated her clasped hands, clutching at her skirts instead. 'Do you want to watch me beg?' 'pHOEBE-' 'So help me, I'll get on my knees right in the middle of the street, and then you will have to answer for my virtue-' 'Fine, fine,' Silas hurried to say, unable to withstand her theatrics. There were two red blots deepening on his cheeks." .......................ok.

Alisa purposely freaking Silas out by telling him that he has to handle the explosives. Then they end up being firecrackers she bought from a middle schooler.

Phoebe making the 🥺🥺🥺 face and Silas covering her eyes

Alisa faking a middle aged man voice

Rosalind looking at Orion and being like hmm he's really pretty it kind of looks like he's wearing mascara. Anyway.

To be continued because I'm hitting the word limit oops

[savnofilter]

FLF Day 3

𝐒𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐬𝐨 𝐱 『𝐆𝐍』𝐑𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫

↬ ᴡᴀʀɴɪɴɢ(s): Trypanophobia/Aicmophobia — Fear of needles. angst.

↬ ᴄʀᴇᴅs: x, x, x.

↬ ᴋᴇʏ: e/c = eye color.

↬ ᴡᴄ: 1.1k words [4 minutes, 30 seconds].

↬ ʀᴍ: february love fest

↬ ᴀ/ɴ: LNAISNSK i miscalculated the days id be gone because i was under the assumption that i had posted day three when i didnt. 😭 here is day three!! part four and five be posted in the afternoon, and maybe some drabbles or fics tonight for tamakis birthday mwuahaha. also ive barely written shinso so apologies if this is ooc. </3

“Heyyoo—wake up sleepyhead,” Shinso called out to you, lightly jostling your shoulder.

Your head hurt. You don’t know what happened but all you knew was that your head was throbbing in pain. You lifted your head and hissed at the sharp feeling that knocked against your skull. 

“Ow…?” You sit up and look around. He’s quick to hold his hands out, one hand supporting the back of your head while the other on your back. "What happened…?"

"Damn, you hit your head that hard?" Hitoshi replies as he manages to successfully set you up on the infamory table. He pulls his hand from behind your head to grab the ice pack that waited for you, still cold and ready. "You freaked out again when you saw... it."

Still, you looked a little lost.

He softly huffed as your grogginess was probably slowing you down with the fact you did in fact hit your head when you had clocked out. He carefully lifted his hands away once again to show what he was talking about, not wanting to accidentally push a sensitive nerve within you. It was hard for the blunt male to tiptoe around the actual word, but he was trying his best.

“Y’know… the pointy things.”

Oh. It. 

You knew what, it meant. You didn’t have enough brain cells to formulate a proper thought, a sigh only managing to escape your lips. You managed to look around the room to see it was the same as it always was. The same medical pamphlets on the counter, the health posters on the wall, and the sink that sit one corner while the corner closest to you had a trash can. 

“Do you still need me to hold you up?” Hitoshi asks. 

You gently shook your head no. “Could you get me some water?” 

He nods at your request and turns to walk to the small fridge in the corner of the room. He gets the requested item from the cool box, closing the door, and walking back to give you the cooled bottle. 

You softly thank him as you take it from. You removed your hand from behind your head to unscrew the cap and take a much-needed sip from it. The room was silent as Shinso was nothing but patient, the only thing bugging him that he couldn’t tell if you were okay or not. He stares at you for a moment before deciding to sit down in the seat next to your bed. 

“Did they still give me ‘it’?” You ask. He sits up from your question, shaking his head as he answers.

“I told them to give you some time.” 

You sigh in relief at his answer, a small smile coming to your face. “I knew I could count on you.” You joke lightly trying to alleviate the looming tenseness in the room.

“Are you okay, though? Honestly.” The question left you quiet. You weren’t too sure yourself. You had spent some time trying to get better at your fears and today was not the day for it. With the preparations of graduation soon, the busy exams both combat and school work wise combined with the heavy bonus of interning left you no room to personally work on yourself. 

Your eyes beaded with hot tears and your nose stung as you tried to keep it in. Your firsts clenched as you tried to keep strong, not looking at him anymore and keeping sight on your lap. Your shoulders started to tremble as you couldn’t hold it in longer, no longer than a second later you could feel his arms wrap around you. You let out a shaky breath as you allowed yourself to lean into his chest, quietly trying to save face from what you could. Had it been the early stages of your relationship Shinso would have awkwardly stayed in his seat and watched you cry. For you, both parties had something to grow on. But now, he was confident enough to show you affection like this. 

Shinso pursed his lips as he could do nothing but nuzzle your hair and keep you close. For a few months now, he had been practicing something as well. He made a promise that he would work on his affection skills while he encouraged you to get over your fear and he has some bountiful strides—you as well. His mind searched for ways to say something, not entirely sure what comment could you make. 

After letting you cry it out, he pulled away with enough space to wipe the tears from your cheeks, leaning in to give your forehead another kiss. He loved you so much it pained him to see you feel down about something like this. While to other people, this would seem exaggerated but he understood where your disappointment and probably frustration came from. He was the first to smile between you two, his hands moving to cup your cheeks to have you look up at him with your still freshly dampened e/c eyes. This didn’t stop him from trying to lighten the mood. 

“C’mon, where’s the badass I know and love?” He gives the middle of your forehead a poke, an unusual ticklish spot for you. The smile you wanted to keep back for the dramatics tugged at your lips anyways, his touch making you tumble out a giggle. You softly nodded trying to collect yourself. You could see the sun was starting to set, the realization that you’d have to get going soon coming to your attention. Shinso reaches over to the nearby counter to get some tissues to get rid of the rest of the tears that stained your cheeks.

“I am okay, thank you, Hitoshi.” You smile at him, crumbling up your tissue to get the paper balled up to throw out. You lift your hand and aim to shoot it into the bin, the piece of paper managing to perfectly land in the garbage bin. “At least I don’t have a concussion.” 

“Now that’d be a different story.” He snorts at your cheap joke, separating from you once you’ve calmed down. He stretches, managing to pop a few joints, grunting as he takes a look at his phone. “We should get going.”

“Yeah, yeah…” You mumble carefully hopping down from the table. You check yourself to make sure everything you needed was on you, keeping the icepack on the back of your head. You gestured to him that you were ready, following his lead to leave the room and enter the hallway. Your smile grows more as he holds out his hand for you, tugging you closer to him as you walk together in the big hall.

You two have more maturing to do together, and he's more than willing to have you along the way.

[gingerly-writing]

Favorite Line Friday! From Horseshoes ad Hand Grenades: Too late, Harding thought. If only he could go back to his college self and warn he'd get a more vivid trip with a high fever and experimental drugs.

you KNOW I already love this line, kelley! ever since you shared it in the server I’ve been all 😍😍 about how well it shows off a) Harding’s current terrible, awful, no good, very bad, inordinately shitty situation and b) his character voiiiiiiice like omg he’s so! freaking! fun to read! I adore his pissy narration style and I can never get enough of reading it!

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