#fixing the one thing that really truly bothers me about the writing of a companion to owls
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Not the kids. You can't kill kids.
#goodomendsedit#goodomensedits#goodomenssource#Good Omens#Aziraphale#Crowley#tusermyra#userfra#crowleyanthonys#tusermich#my gifs#fixing the one thing that really truly bothers me about the writing of a companion to owls#because any feelings about the mere existence of the pre-fall scene aside aziraphale invoking the angel crowley once was makes no sense her#because nothing we are shown of pre-fall crowley impacts this scene because pre-fall crowley doesn't (yet) care about the humans#he is devastated for the stars and the universe but not the humans but you know who is? the demon who takes a moment to reassure an angel#that his protection of the first two humans was the right thing the demon whose first reaction upon hearing of god's plan to drown humans#is to go 'not the kids. you can't kill kids.' the faith that aziraphale has in crowley very specifically in this very moment#according to what we've been shown in the show should not be build on the angel he once knew but on the demon that he now knows#and i understand that that line is there to show that aziraphale then understands that pre-fall and post-fall crowley are still the same#but like. if that's your message then write a scene where the continuity is actually between pre-fall and post-fall crowley lol
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I feel the NEED to talk about how much Deaf Mary Alice means to me because this story doesn't get enough love??? I have so many questions and thoughts and headcanons (headcanon over the fic yes because I can't help myself) Like.......Jasper just created a language to communicate with her?? Try to tell me this isn't the epitome of romanticism. I would very much like to know how were the first days he spent with her in South, the ideia that he let her get so close to him makes me so đđđ„°đ« (also this is very funny in my mind. I supposed she didn't know how to read back then so the communication had to be a challenge, especially if the only thing Jasper was used to teach people was murder)
Anon, I am SO happy and excited that you love Deaf Mary-Alice; I have fun writing a version of Mary-Alice that isn't as depressed and miserable. This version of Mary-Alice definitely tries to outrun her trauma and unhappiness and focus on the good.
I've only got notes for their first meeting (Mary-Alice is very much the 'lost kitten' that kind of keeps going to find Jasper over and over again. And all the other soldiers are bewildered by her, because the Major is *terrifying* and they wouldn't even make eye contact with him if they had a choice) because I keep changing my mind. I can't decide if Jasper did try to discipline Mary-Alice like the other newborns, or if he's always a little bit gentle with her.
Anon, I will cheerfully answer any questions about this verse, and squeal over your headcanons. I am always over the moon when people enjoy my weird little Jalice takes.
I've got a little snippet of some of Alice's feelings below, I hope you enjoy it!
deaf mary-alice.
Sometimes, itâs hard. Especially with the Cullens. Sheâs never really been bothered by the silence, especially with Jasper. Itâs never about living in a quiet world - she doesn't remember any different.
Itâs always been about not being alone.
But when her words run out, when she doesnât know how to say what she needs to, the quiet presses down on her. How does she explain everything she needs Jasper to know? That all of the years, all of the darkness and rage and violence that she lived through, are still there - she just chooses to let it go? That she really does understand that sheâs the weak-link, the canary in the coal mine, the thing that never should have survived? Jasper left her behind because it was a miracle she had survived her newborn year, let alone the ones that followed - at least he knew that she was surviving in the South. He had no idea if she'd last a day up North.
(That for Mariaâs rage and resentment of Jasperâs defection, Alice lived because of the lingering affection and appreciation Maria held for the Major. That if sheâd been the companion of any of the other soldiers, she would have been destroyed out of spite. Or maybe cast out and left to die trying to go north. However it might have happened, she wouldnât be here if Maria hadnât been truly fond of Jasper in the end.)
Monterrey is a time capsule, and she feels adrift and unanchored, and sheâs really not sure of what can fix her. Jasper's grasp upon her doesnât feel like enough most of the time, like something terrible is going to pull her from his grasp and this possible life will be lost to her.
Sheâs terrified heâs going to be the one to let go. That for all that she loves him and that he cares for her, itâs not going to be enough. Jasper will heal and want someone he can speak to, who can talk back; a girl who can fucking say âI love youâ out loud. Who doesnât get frustrated and bewildered when their words run out, when she has to take an extra beat to lip-read and decipher which language is being spoken. A girl who doesnât need a buffer against the world to survive.
That's Mary-Aliceâs biggest fear. That in the real world, the Cullen world, sheâs not going to be enough for Jasper. That proximity had turned him in her direction, and now she was just faulty stock. She sure as hell doesnât fit in with the Cullens - she doesnât know how to be so neat and clean and calm. She doesnât have the faintest idea how to be more human than she is. She can't even speak their version of sign language right.
But those are her problems. The ones she doesnât really like to think about unless Jasperâs at school because he always knows how she feels. Itâs only when sheâs alone that she lets it all out, that crushing terror that sheâs never going to be quite good enough.
(Maria wasnât surprised when she was found in the wreckage of one of her last battles, leg torn off at the hip. Alice had still killed her opponent. But she knows there was a second that Maria considered just leaving her on the field to perish when scouts found her. Maybe even just douse and burn her; Alice had seen Maria do that before. The terror and determination had sat entirely in her throat. Her visions told her this could go either way, and she got to live.)
And yet, sheâs still⊠hopeful. She might be terrified that Jasper is going to be the one to let go, but sheâs clinging tightly to him. The room next to his becomes hers, and Jasper is the one that helps her paint it. It takes a day, as she painstakingly hand-paints mock-wallpaper; Jasper daubs her nose with paint, and she retaliates with a swipe of paint across his face. He laughs and kisses her, tracing the words they have for love down her spine. Later, she finds a heart painted on the wall near the window sill with âM-A & J.W.â written on it, and that warms her right down to her toes.
(When she insists on painting all her furniture by hand, Jasper is the one that takes each piece apart for her; he sits with her as she works, a book in one hand, and the other locked in idle conversation about everything and nothing. He admires her work when sheâs done, and she feels bashful, not having the words to explain that she wouldnât bother with any of this if it was just her. This was her trying to build a âthemâ, trying to turn her room into theirs. She canât offer him much, especially when it comes to tangible things, but she can offer him this.)
Edward tries to speak with her sometimes. He struggles with reading her mind; she thinks in the signs she and Jasper made together, in Civil War-era Spanish read from lips. He struggles even more to speak with her - he speaks text-book perfect American Sign Language, and flawless Spanish, and she speaks neither. Alice is also not entirely literate in either language, so passing notes is out. Itâs messy. But he tries, and sheâs grateful for the effort, she just wishes Edward wouldn't weaponize her deafness when sheâs upset him. She wishes he would translate so she could be friends with Bella, instead of keeping them apart to protect the human girl. She very much wishes he wouldnât try and correct her so often.
And when he tries to talk about Jasper, about the toxic thoughts that trickle around in her mind, and his efforts come across stunted and insincere.
(Itâs easier to believe Edwardâs stilted reassurances that Jasper loves her when she realizes that Jasper walks into the house and beelines to her, insisting upon a kiss before anything else. She obliges, and his greetings are hurried and disjointed as he pulls her close. Sometimes those greetings end in shedding clothing, his hands grasping and stroking bare skin; counting scars, tracing the seams on her skin. Other times, he gathers her up and tells her about his day, asks about hers. Heâs gotten back into his old habit of signing all his conversations, even if sheâs not in the room; the same way he speaks as he talks to her, a rumbling vibration that is uniquely him.)
#my fic: deaf mary-alice#oh i'm sleepy so very few thoughts#i love the idea that jasper is always soft with her but he doesn't really know how to be kind and gentle so he's just really awkward
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twenty questions for fic writers
thank you @acorrespondence for tagging me in this! i love shiteing on about writing :)
How many works do you have on ao3?
33, which shocks me because for some reason in my head the number's permanently at, like, 8.
What's your total ao3 word count?
195,093
What fandoms do you write for?
I mean currently it's beatles rpf đ. But also Check Please (specifically jackparse, I have absolutely no interest in anything else), Wolf 359, The Social Network, Community (although none of these are an ao3 due to I wrote them when I was 15), and some random one hit wonders.
What are your top 5 fics by kudos?
live through this, and you won't look back - Jack/Kent, Check Please
if being afraid is a crime, we hang side by side - Kepler/Jacobi, Wolf 359
baby, it's all relative - John/Paul, Beatles
Time May Change Me - Mark/Eduardo, The Social Network
Five Men Roy Ruined For Jen - Jen/Roy, The IT Crowd
Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?
Yes, always, unless I forget!! I don't know why I wouldn't like, if people are reading I am genuinely excited and grateful for that. Why wouldn't I tell them? (I'm very bad at thinking of things to say which aren't just "I'm glad you enjoyed it", but I try).
What is a fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?
I think lately you've been feeling so good i forget my future (in which jack and kent go to prom) is pretty grim not even because the ending itself is the worst but also it foreshadows so much worse to come. Most of my jackparse fic is them as teenagers because I love that "the worst is yet to come" doom that constantly hangs over them in those years. Also one and one and one is three (in which john/paul/yoko have an emotionally fraught threesome). I hurt my own feelings writing that one lol.
What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?
Not one of the recent ones, I can tell you that! Although it depends if you mean fluffy or happy by my own metric because EYE think the best happy endings are the ones you have to work through some angst to get. So if you're looking for fluffy, probably Five Men Roy Ruined for Jen; if you're looking for a journey that ends in happiness, then I'd say wouldn't it be? nice makes me feel euphoric at the end.
Do you get hate on fics?
I've gotten a couple bitchy comments but generally no.
Do you write smut?
Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written?
I've only written one and it's where Jean-Ralphio from Parks and Rec becomes the Eleventh Doctor's companion in Doctor Who. It's cute, I still like it.
Have you ever had a fic stolen?
God, I hope not. Although, I did have someone once finish a fic I abandoned on ff.net without really asking me first, which I thought was both flattering and hilarious of them. So true, babe. Write the finished fic you wish to see in the world!
Have you ever had a fic translated?
I think someone translated one of my old Gossip Girl fics on ff.net, also. I can't remember what language it was though.
Have you ever co-written a fic before?
No, but I'm not opposed to it.
What's your all-time favorite ship?
All my fave ships are pretty much variations on the same dynamic with a few exceptions. It's comical how consistant I am about this without even trying.
What's a wip you want to finish, but doubt you ever will?
Tbh I never truly rule anything out. There's a post-canon Justified fic that has lived in my head for years, that I mostly haven't written because it's a lot of work, and I don't really care about sharing it that much it's mostly just for me. There's a Dawson's Creek Pacey genderswap fic I dream of writing, but likely will never bother. There's a beatles fic where Paul can talk to instruments that I actually wrote 20k for but it's so dogshit I can't bear to try to fix it so it's going to just sit on my computer forever probably.
What are your writing strengths?
I hate this question, I'm so bad at identifying these things. Vibes? I think I'm good at dialogue but that's mostly because that's what I start with, so it's like the bones of most of my fics. I've been told I'm good at like being thoughtful to all the different characters in fic even if it's not about them or their POV, which is always a nice thing to hear.
What are your writing weaknesses?
Physical descriptions probably. I don't care about them very much and therefore I don't put as much effort into them as I probably should. Also, I write chronologically so most of my endings are slightly lazier than the rest of the fic.
Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?
I don't know. I've never tried it. As a bilingual person, seeing people who are not bilingual completely miss the nuances of that is actually really irritating. Especially as someone who speaks Portuguese but grew up in an English speaking country, reading TSN fic was so specifically annoying. And don't even get me started on the concept of "untranslateable" words and "saudade".
It can be done well, but often isn't. Also, if you give me a bunch of text in a language I don't know, my brain is just gonna skip over it, so it's often redundant when it's more than, like, a sentence.
First fandom you wrote for?
First fic I published was for Gossip Girl, but when I was like 11 I wrote what was essentially a Life With Derek canon-divergence fic in a copybook that I showed to a teacher in my school.
Favorite fic you've written?
All of them. But some that have not yet been mentioned on this post:
kissing just for practice - Jack/Kent (idk, I set out to do something specific with this fic and I really felt I did)
i want every other freckle - si-5 ot3 kind of (this fic means so much to me)
tomorrow i'll miss you - mclennon before sunset au (before sunset is one of my favourite movies and i worked really hard on this one)
i thought i knew one, what did i know? - paul's girlfriend catches john and paul together (this one makes me crazy and i'm the one who wrote it lol)
tagging: @softbrah @jeanharlowseyebrows @scurator @wurmzirkus @coyotesuspect @midchelle
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Yo itâs your local late night 6.5/10 PJOTV reviewer here to offer yet another perspective, especially after the new episode.
I think the core of the issue is that this show has two major MAJOR differences from the book, those being tone and pacing. The latter has been discussed a lot, and all i really have to add to that cesspool is that it is in fact very different and faster, leading to tighter story beats and less character development, which is the only thing i truly hate.
The tone thing hasnât been talked about nearly as much as it should be, but i think it IS affected a ton of peopleâs perception of the show. The witty, dry humor of the first book that defined Percy and Annabeth as kids is kind of lacking a little? This is probably the fault of Rick attempting to write for TV and kinda struggling with humor. This makes the TV characters slightly different from the books, with Annabeth being more serious and less sarcastic, while Percy is just snarky sometimes instead of being an absolute little bitch. (This is also a lot because of the lack of narration BY Percy, where he can be a lot more humorous)
Without spoiling much, the newest episode fixes some of the issues with story and pacing elements, but still lacks in some development in terms of the subtext of the story, if that makes sense. The best part is that it reworks and redoes certain parts of the story in a way that just WORKS for TV and this specific cast.
Honestly, the only character that has 100% benefited from the change in focus with character development is Grover. The fact that the show just generally cares less about these characters somehow makes grover less of an anxious, shy companion and more of a fun, wholesome dude which i love SO MUCH!
About LMM as Hermes, iâm totally for it. LMM has pretty decent acting jobs, and the tired look he always has totally works with Hermes being canonically overworked as hell.
Another thing i do love that some people donât is the Gabe changes. IDK how much you know, but the changing of Gabe is an unforeseen and interesting change. However, i like it because it makes Gabe a more dynamic character, and makes it possible to change who is in a negative light, rather than making him go from âabusive bitchâ to âphysically abusive bitchâ. This all comes from someone intimately family with parental abuse and someone who loves reading fics that discuss Gabe AS a horrible abuser. Like, one of my fav PJO fics (that i did suggest to you) is an entire therapy fic about Percy dealing with that abuse and the scars of trauma. I know what i want from Gabeâs character is all iâm saying.
Finally, one last topic i wanna rant about on the internet is fucking LA Luke. They had absolutely no right to make this dude the most lovable bitch at camp. Hell, even the most anti-live action ppl out there can admit Luke got a lot more sympathetic in the show. Anyone can see they really cared about that aspect of the character. (not the weak-ass attempt at a scar tho lmao)
This entire rant and all of my (and everyoneâs really) feelings can change drastically as soon as the next episode drops though, so take everything ANYONE says with a tablespoon of salt and a pile of blue food.
duly noted, and thank you for the update on your thoughts with the new episode, anon - it's so interesting to see thoughts change with every new one! i'll probably binge it all in one go at the end.
from what you've said, i think the gabe changes still bother me, but i'm all for a more likeable luke. that'll make the betrayal that much more painful. honestly, i've been toying lately with the idea of a later betrayal on luke's end, rather than at the end of book 1. i feel like we don't fully get to see how much percy trusts him and likes him in the limited time we get with them in the lightning thief. one day, maybe, i'll write a fic that really gives luke and percy the Bonding Time i think they deserve before the rug's pulled out from underneath percy's feet.
i wonder how your 6.5/10 rating will change by the end of the final ep!
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I love you and your writing lot lot lot lot and lot,
Could you make juniors proposing reader infront of elders/parents?
aww thank you so so so so much!
i lob you too, i always see you around! thank you for reading!
and this is so cute, iâm picturing this in canon au!
it would be my pleasure to write for you~
â§ïœ„ïŸ: *â§ïœ„ïŸ:* ăă *:ïŸâ§*:ïŸâ§
Lan Sizhui
it is a very homely, cozy dinner
in the quiet ambiance of the Jingshi, Wei Wuxianâs laughter, Lan Wangjiâs quiet smile and Sizhuiâs gentle hand holding yours under the table
all fit together
you feel grateful that you were so easily accepted into his family
and honestly, you had only dreamed that being friends with Sizhui would be enough for you
but it wasnâtÂ
luckily both you and SIzhui came to know that it would never be enough to be just friends
and you feel so happy, so blessed, that his parents had helped you two to come together despite all the oddsÂ
orphaned and growing up sect-less, you were not the ideal candidate for Sizhui, son of Hanguang-Jun & Yiling Patriarch
but if there was anything that his family showed you, it was that love mattered first before pride, before everythingÂ
âWei-qianbei, Hanguang-Jun,â Sizhuiâs voice snaps you out of your daydream, makes you realize that dinner has finished,
Sizhuiâs eyes turn to meet yours and you smile at him as his dad coos
ây/n,â he says your name like a funny question
and you hum at him, tilting your head
âi love you, a lot, y/nâÂ
you blink, a blush rising to your face as your eyes flicker over to his parents and then back at him,Â
you nod to him as well, squeezing his hand with yours,Â
âwith my parents as witness, iâd like to give you something,â Sizhui tells you
and you blink rapidly, eyes welling up with tears at the thought, the idea
Sizhui lets go of you hand, moves it up to begin untying his forehead ribbonÂ
you watch as he uncurls your hand,
slowly brings the forehead ribbon down from his head and placing it into your palm
âSizhui,â you breathe out, because you can hardly believe itÂ
but his parents watchful eyes on the sideline, have never seen a better couple
Lan Jingyi
when you were summoned to the Hanshi you truly wondered if Jingyi had gotten in trouble again
 you walk into the the hall, catching sigh of Jingyi kneeled, head bowed in front of Zewu-Jun and Lan Qiren,Â
and you believe you must be rightÂ
you make deep bow when you approach, taking the same kneeled position as you companion on the floor
because really, no matter what it was that Jingyi did, you always knew that he had a sense of justice and righteousness within him
you donât doubt him, even with his faults
you stand by him
but you are going to give him a smack later on for always wrapping himself up in some kind of trouble-
âZewu-Jun, Lan Qiren, please let me marry y/n,â
you snap you head up to the side immediately at his words,
but Jingyi doesnât even look at you,
his eyes are staring at the two present adults, a different kind of defiance in them
you were the sole heir of a small but growing sect, a highly admired cultivator
he was a senior disciple, his only family the teachers and mentors that raised him
your statuses were different, so different
but from the way that Jingyiâs eyes stared, unflinching from Lan Qirenâs cold stare and Zewu-Junâs surprised eye
you know that
Jingyi wonât be taking no for an answerÂ
âis that not, y/n-guniangâs decision?â Zewu-Jun speaksÂ
youâre a bit surprised when all the eyes are directed upon you,Â
you meet JIngyiâs eyes, face just as surprised with that answer
âmy parents...â
âwhat do you want, y/n-guniang?â Zewu-Jun asks you, and you realize you have to be honest about what you love, who you love
because you canât imagine a life without Jingyi,
âi canât live without, y/nâ Jingyi tells you, kneeled before youÂ
and you smile at him, teary eyed
you hope that the adults in the room understand,
how much you are meant for one another
Jin Ling
this was the most formal family dinner that you had ever been to
granted it was the first time Jin Lingâs family and yours were meetingÂ
but stillÂ
the air was so tense you could literally feel it on your backÂ
all the eyes that were staring at you,
judging you,
couldnât everyone just chill a little bit
you hear Jin Ling cough into a closed fist across from you, watch him quietly get up from his seat and go into the middle of the banquet hall at Lotus Pier
his Uncle was kind enough to hostÂ
but that just made you all the more worried when Jin Ling stepped up to the highest chair,
whispered into his Uncleâs ear
you stare a little wide eyed when his Uncleâs eyes flicker over to youÂ
and then watch as the whole hall quiets down at his Uncleâs hand
âI have an announcement to make,â Jin Ling speaks up into the quiet of the room,
everyone stares at him, watches his eyes as he scans the room and then meeting yours
âi will be marrying y/n in the coming spring,âÂ
thereâs an uproar of noise from the room, hoots, hollers, shouts of surprises, gasps
in between all the talking and everything going onÂ
you only see two things
firstly, a strong hand resting on Jin Lingâs shoulder, one that you realize is from his Uncle
secondly, lastlyÂ
you see Jin Lingâs eyes, shining but brave at the same time
he stares straight at you,
marry me, Jin Ling mouthes to you across the din
a tear falls out of your eyes,Â
you nod
Ouyang Zizhen
youâre happy that Zizhen has come to know your family quite well
because your relationship with him had never been hidden,
never been stopped
always supportedÂ
and you fall in love with Zizhen as much as he adores your familyÂ
he had felt much the same wayÂ
which is why when he is eating with your family on a normal meal
sitting around the table with your siblings screaming and your parents piling food on his plate
a few words here and there get around,
namely,
âjie-jie, when is Zizhen-ge going to live with us?â you little brother asks and Zizhen beside you nearly chokes on his rice
âwell, Zizhen has to marry jie-jie first before that happens,â your teenage brother smart mouths before you can begin explaining anythingÂ
heâs only 12, you have no idea how he already knows that
âZizhen-ge, you should get married to jie-jie soon so you can stay here with us and not have to ride your horse back home all the time!â your baby brother persuades ZizhenÂ
and your boyfriend can only laugh, patting the young child on the head as the family breaks into happy but awkward laughs
on one hand you are happy that he doesnât bring it up again, not in this setting at least
but at the same time, why didnât he bring it up again, didnât he want to marry you?
the ebbing thought that perhaps, Zizhen didnât want to marry you (wasnât in it for the long run) bothers you the rest of dinner
and it ends up being really late into the night, when you finally get some time alone with one another
that being, when youâre about to see him off
âiâll come visit you, soon,â Zizhen promises, and you nod, distractedly fixing his robes for the night wind on his ride home,
Zizhen watches you for a moment before he overlaps his hands with yours, stealing all of your attention,
âyou little brothers may have heard my conversation with your father a few days ago,â Zizhen saysÂ
and you look up at him,Â
âZizhen?â âiâve always wanted to marry you, y/n. itâs been on my mind the moment i met you,â Zizhen confesses to you then
you smile up at him, feeling warmed from his words and the hand that wraps tightly around yours,
âwill you be mine forever?â
âof course-â
âJIE! SAY YES!âÂ
and you both whip around to see your brothers (and a few embarrassed, but happy servants) hiding by the awning of the main entrance
âI DID!â you shout back, happily turning back to Zizhen
his smile looks beautiful in the moonlight
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#758A87 | LEE JENO.
genre |Â fluff, domestic au, platonic love
word count | 1652
warning | noneâ
note | i am back to advocate for peeling oranges for each other. also, yes, i may be writing a little nct but donât count on it.
the way jeno kicked off his shoes and begrudgingly walked past you to go to his room told you that he was rejected.
there was this girl who he has been going on and on about for a while now. he kept it to himself fairly well in the earlier stages of his crush, but you caught on anyway after noticing the cues he dropped here and thereâsmiling at his phone, mentioning her name in and out of conversations, and mostly jaemin's constant teasing. after he came clean to you about his occupied affection, he fully allowed himself to express how ever-growing his feelings were.
although there were times when you felt an overwhelming urge to shut him up (for someone who talks so little, jeno sure talks a lot in the comfort of your shared apartment), ultimately you were happy to see that he has a reason to be so giddy and happy all the time. she makes him talk like nobody can, she makes him beam and coo, and you were grateful that this unknown girl could bring the best out of your friend.
occasionally, though, when you watch the way his eyes light up in the mention of the girl, you would feel a cold breeze of loneliness for the absence of a companion of your own. you were not in love, and neither was anyone in love with you, and there was a deep hollowness in the absence of affection, whether one-sided or reciprocated, that made you feel an unexplainable desperation to find love without being in need of it.
you turned away from your laptop that you set on the coffee table when you heard footsteps trailing out to the living room. water still dripped past his skin, showing that he didn't bother to dry himself thoroughly after the steaming hot shower he just took. his blue hair dripped wet and the towel around his shoulders was the only thing catching the rainfall from his head.
jeno moved slow and depressed, his eyes not a trace of glow in them and his jaw tightly gritted. he bent down to pick up the shoes he kicked off in a moment of a tantrum when he got home, but his fingers were flailing as if he has no will to do anything but lay on his bed and reflect on his entire love lifeâhow it started, how much he loved the girl who broke his heart, where it went wrong, and what the hell was so bad about him that she didn't love him back?
you pouted slightly in awkwardness when he resulted in placing his shoes near the wall instead.
oh lord, he totally got rejected. that was not the worst thing but the fact that you never knew how to deal with someone heartbroken. you never had to go through it yourself, neither were you ever placed in a situation where someone else needed your comfort.
what could you do? distract him by giving him tasks to do? let him vent his emotions out to you even though he has always been quiet about his negative feelings? be insensitive and remind him there were bigger problems than being dumped?
what if he didn't need it, though? do heartbroken people truly need their hearts to be mended at all? if the heartbreak is the only thing left of whom they used to love, do they truly want to get rid of it?
"jeno."
annoyed but kind, jeno looked up from the cracks of the wall to you. he was upset, but he thought it unfair to take it out on you. your wide eyes glanced back at him when he stood up straight again, and you flashed him a tight smile as you raised your hands to him. he looked at the oranges sitting comfortably on your palms, and internally, he sighed.
"can you peel these oranges for me?" you asked as you usually would, sounding occupied but also free.
jeno really could not be bothered with doing anything. he just got rejected by who he thought was the love of his life; he felt confident this morning, especially after you helped fix up his hair and pick his outfit, as well as jaemin's encouraging words, only to have his expectations crumble with a simple answer. some part of him felt humiliated and stupid for choosing this route, for thinking that he had a chance, and he really cannot be bothered at all.
"[name], i'm sorry but i really don't feel like doing anything right now," he confessed lowly.
he was about to turn to leave when you called him again, much more urgently this time but still with a hint of dragging laziness in your tone.
"ahâjeno, please?" you pleaded in a faint childish whine, squeezing the oranges in your hands. "just one orange? please, jeno?"
he almost rolled his eyes when he turned to face you, but the softness that erupted in his chest at the sight of you sitting on the floor, oranges in your hand, stopped him from letting you see his annoyance. his hammering brain relaxed when he saw you put one orange down and attempted to peel the other one with trouble.
he sighed with unknown but familiar endearment when your thumb tore right through the fruit, sprouting juices over your once clean hands, and a gentle defeat once again rushed over him when you frowned up at him with the failure in your hands and a pleading glint in your eyes.
the softness in his heartâhe never thought much about it. much of his affection for you was platonic, he believed, but they were also affection that seemed to trump the ones he felt for the girl he loved whenever they rush to the nape of his neck. the feelings he has for you often seemed to trump all else when he was confronted with them blatantly, such as now, and he could do anything.
he could do anything. he could declare that you are one of his best friends, maybe he could tell you he loves you, but mostly he could brush away his sadness to peel you an orange if you asked.
"jeno..."
"okay, okay," he said as he crouched down next to you and took the untouched orange from the table.
at some point, he lost his balance and he ended up sitting down next to you. he skillfully ripped the skin off the orange, carefully and precisely revealing the tasty fruit inside. meanwhile, you struggled freely with your destroyed orange by taking apart the slices and popping them into your mouth.
"oh, try it, this is good."
jeno looked up briefly when you spoke. he opened his mouth so you could feed him the orange slice, and he raised his brows in approval. you grinned, taking note that you should get more of the same ones next time you go buy groceries to stock up.
there was a moment of silence where you focused on the television and jeno on the last bit of orange slices in his hands. when he was done, he reached over to the coffee table and dumped them on the tissue you laid on top. when he was done, he dusted his hands and hoisted himself off the floor, just before you spoke again.
"you got rejected, didn't you?"
jeno pursed his lips, the sorrow rushing over him once again after having forgotten about it. he nodded. "yeah."
you turned your head to look at him. jeno felt self-conscious under your gaze. he never did so, but it felt like you were accessing what was wrong with the way he looked.
"maybe it's your blue hair," you said, pointing at his head and a playful laugher hanging on your lips. "maybe you reminded her too much of sonic, like the hedgehog, so she said noâ"
"you are not funny." he smiled patiently but humorlessly.
"i am trying my best!" you exclaimed, then you leaned back against the edge of the couch and asked to the ceiling, "are you sad?"
"yeah."
"okay then," you muttered, then you laid your head on his shoulder and huffed. "how about now?"
jeno choked on a short laugh, in disbelief yet he was kind of used to your way of comforting people, but his heart beat softly against his chest at both the proximity and your discreet care. if anything, he would have preferred your way than the way of talking and reaching into the cave of his emotions. mainly because the latter does nothing but make him realize how much he missed with just one rejection.
at least with your head on his shoulder, he remembers he has friends, a companion. he has someone he has a soft spot for, someone he can put all his abandoned love for in the meantime as he searched for another lover, someone who can make him bother when he feels like he can't anymore.
"maybe a little less," he whispered, smiling to himself.
"okay..." you reached your hand to him, an orange slice in your hand, "care for an orange?"
jeno laughed, but then he grimaced with a choke of disbelief when he saw the monstrosity in your hands.
"[name]! i said peel the orange not kill it!" he exclaimed, his eyes wide at how sticky and wet your hands have become from just peeling the orange.
"i told you i just can't do it!" you laughed incredulously, shrugging and popping another orange slice into your mouth. "this is why i have you."
jeno rolled his eyes in defeat, but he denies nothing of it.Â
you are where he puts his love into for now, you are who holds half of his soul for now. you are who he is willing to peel oranges for, maybe not just for now but for the rest of his life.
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Mold Me New (1) â Taehyung
A Small Town Swoons story
Pairing: Taehyung x Reader
Wordcount: 3.2k
Genre: ceramic artist!Taehyung, divorced!reader, Strangers to Lovers, Fluff, Angst, Slice of Life
Rating: 18+ (for future smut and explicit thoughts)
Hello to my readers!!! Welcome to the Small Town Swoons Universe! đ„°âš
In this episode: Introducing the readerâs backstory, exploring her life as a wife and then as a single woman who is slowly getting to know herself as an individual person.
TRIGGER WARNINGS: There are mild curse words, a bit of a sad vibe regarding falling out of love and getting a divorce, description of several bad dates and good ones that end badly, mention of getting drunk, mention of sex toys, mention of one night stand.
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I forgot to mention, bc Iâm dumb and bc weâre becoming one body with two souls, but this chapter (as most of the decent, edited things I post) was beta read by the magical @joheunsaramâ (sheâs recently lost her previous blog and sheâs rebuilding it, please go say something nice and YOU SHOULD FOLLOW HER SHEâS A QUEEN ,,,,, my queen đ„șâš)
Enjoy đâš
Navi: Chapter 1 â Chapter 2 â Chapter 3 â Chapter 4 â Chapter 5 â Chapter 6 â Chapter 7Â
When you fall in love with someone, the feeling is like entering a chocolaterie. The scent engulfs you, full and rich and sultry, igniting your senses, the heat making your skin glisten in a light sheen of perspiration, making you exceedingly vulnerable to pointless stuff, like the way your lover exhales. Or their hands skimming your arms.
At least, that was what your best friend had told you.
You had none of that. To you love was a daisy being twirled under your nose, sharing cotton candy, the smell of crisp apples, flannel sheets, the sound of dead leaves crackling under matching footsteps, a sturdy but shiny steel band around your finger suddenly substituted by a golden one.
That had been the beginning of the end. When practicality and simplicity had turned into conventionality and disinterest.
When gifts stopped being things you loved and became things he thought you loved. And then things everyone loved.
When love became a chore, that's when everything crumbled. When kisses became just a good morning and a welcome back, when there were no more laughs echoing in the kitchen, when leaves kept falling but it was your footsteps alone making them crackle, when flannel sheets kept feeling warm but still something was missing â because someone was missing â when suddenly there was no more time for fairs and cotton candy, when daisies became roses, Love stopped making sense. It stopped having a meaning for you.
You were no longer sure of the life you had built with the man of your dreams, the boy you had fallen in love with when you were eight, the guy who had walked with you across the corridors of your high school, who had made you twirl under the lame disco ball of your prom, who had gone through college finals with you, who had spent three summers making your hangout spot into a home, turning the small old shack into a proper place for you to build a new life together. He was your first kiss, your first valentine, your first time. He was the man at the end of the aisle, the man who would walk with you until the last of your days.
But one day he started running and you still walked.
Or maybe you were both running in different directions, no longer on the path to the same destination, your priorities somehow switched.
Of course, it wasn't his fault.
It wasn't yours either.
You had both participated in this small unraveling, and you had both expressed the intention of changing, of finding compromise, an in-between, without either of you actually making the effort of fixing your trajectory, small habits and old pet peeves pulling you even farther apart.
The attempts â multiple ones â were painstakingly embarrassing. There were tears on both sides as you wondered what had caused this sudden rift that separated you â except it wasn't sudden, only your realisation was; the crevasse had been there for way longer. Maybe it had started as a small chipping the very day you met him, and it wasn't until now that you realised how the small sign had turned into an ominous presence, and then into unfathomable, inevitable doom.
And then the divorce.
It had been disgustingly easy, both parties agreeing on the procedures.
You didn't want the house. And you didn't need it. He didn't either.
Selling it had been exceedingly painless, you had shared the money, since he wanted to offer you stability. He already knew you would both suffer and he didn't want you worrying about rent. He was still your friend, after all.
Going back to being alone scared you at the beginning, until you realised that few things were truly bothering you. At least there wasn't this ghost of a human making you doubt all of your plans. You could plan dinner five days ahead or improvise. You could go to the restaurant as a last minute deal. You could go on long walks without the 'I'm sorry baby, emergency' making you rush back to town.
It felt like a bit of a liberation.
And your family's bookshop was doing well enough, since it was situated near the college and it also offered printing service.
Of course there were bad days. Sometimes you woke up searching for a body beside yours, however that feeling had significantly subdued after you had gotten used to the new bed. You missed human contact, being close, intimate with someone, having someone who knows you that deeply.
And then the true nightmare.
Finding someone new.
You were genuinely uninterested in dating. You had given it a go and it had sufficed.
It wasn't your world.
How could it possibly be?
You had never dated. You had basically offered your heart to the person that has always owned it. It's not like you had any experience in that labyrinth that is dating. All those unspoken social norms and the pining and tension. You only knew the comfort of a warm hug, the beauty of a kiss sparking from innocence and affection and slowly turning into steady, warm passion. You didn't like infernos, you liked candles. You liked the domestic hearth. You liked moderation.
And dating was all about extremes, from strangers to 'I'm inspecting your throat' on date one. And then suddenly it's date three and the same guy who brought you to a pizza place and a diner is suddenly going out of his way to bring you to a pretentious, expensive restaurant as a way to propitiate the possibility of you dropping your panties.
You had allowed this foolery only three times. Apparently all the suitable suitors were either really prone to pushing the pedal or had a passion for tongue gastroscopies.
The first one, Albert, had been quite the gentleman on date one. On date two he started making inappropriate jokes with a heavy body shaming undertone â a bit clichĂ© for the stereotypical gym rat. And on date three he had dropped all pretenses at politeness and had outright palmed your ass in public, which made you rightfully uncomfortable. As you pointed that out, he proceeded saying that after all it was your third date and it was time to loosen up a little.
You didnât even bother staying for dinner, left a bill on the table and left.
No matter the first disappointment, you decided not to let that disrespectful fool slow you down. And since your best friend knew everything about rat headed number one, you allowed her to set you up with one of her colleagues after she reassured you he was nothing like the one before.
Except somehow he was. The first date was at the local pub, and you somehow found yourself getting along well, his jokes were funny and he had good timing, he was relaxed, confident but still a bit clumsy and shy. He could be a good candidate.
But that was before he pushed his tongue to your tonsils as he kissed goodbye.
You gagged.
On date two he admitted you werenât exactly his type. You were glad to reciprocate the statement after he told you his dream was having four children and a farm, alluding to the fact that his bride needed to be the perfect housewife.
You were pretty adamant that was not the kind of future you wanted for yourself.
Candidate number three was a guy you had met while grocery shopping, and somehow he had impressed you in an absolutely positive way on date one and two. Everything had been perfect, he was kind, considerate and well-mannered. Date three had been innocent, simple, down-to-earth. And then date four. Perfect dinner at his place. He had made you swoon and he had a very pretty cat he was very affectionate with.
He was the first man you had felt desire for in a very long time â almost eight months after your divorce.
The sex had been decent for being a first time.
And then he had entirely disappeared and never texted or called you back, which didnât sit entirely wrong with you. You wished him all the best but you were actually glad. You liked being you and doing your own thing: having someone too much down your neck, getting in a relationship, having to check in with another person again felt more like a burden than a win.
Maybe it was just a coping mechanism to avoid facing the fact that he had been someone you could have liked, someone you could have built something with.
You were a happy woman, and itâs not like you really felt lacking or incomplete, like some of your single friends felt. And you had no intention of starting a family anytime soon, no matter if your old high school classmates had begun popping out kids left and right. You were more than happy to live the teen and early-twenty years you had spent in a relationship.
You were getting to know yourself in a way most of your friends didnât have time to â you could already see them going through a midlife crisis after their kids became old enough to navigate life by themselves, which meant no more need for overprotective, and sometimes borderline suffocating, mothers, who suddenly found themselves with too much free time and too little tasks to complete.
Knowing your needs made you a stronger, better woman, and solitude had gifted you a level of introspection and balance that you doubted they could ever reach; maybe that was an arrogant consideration, but you knew there was no way knowing and loving yourself would ever bring you to crying over disrespectful, ungrateful youth whose only fault was that of growing up out of their mothersâ plans.
Unfortunately, there was no way your family â especially your grandmother â could ever tolerate the idea of you not needing a man and a family to be happy.
âOh, come on, isnât it time for you to bring a nice fellow back home?â
You shook your head as you and your grandma took a walk along the river, the sunny March afternoon feeling way too nice to stay at home. âGranny. Thereâs no people like Grandad anymore.â
âOh, darling. Youâre starting with the wrong role model. Not even back in my days we had men like him. He was the exception.â She nodded to herself with a sweet smile, remembering the husband she had lost a few years back.
âItâs so frustrating. And after all that happened⊠You know how it was. We were together for years. He was the only one I had. I donât even know how to do these things. And books cannot teach you stuff like that. The more you read, the more you realise that most of these men had never even seen a rom com.â
âOh, come on, but you have the internet these days! Canât you find him in there? You have all these phones and computers and everyone has them, there must be a good one in the internet.â
She always said that âin the internetâ. Like it was a physical place.
âI donât even want to look in there, Granny. There are so many dangers in there.â You shuddered as you thought at the funny instagram pages where the people posted screenshots of the worst descriptions. All the embarrassing playboys and the fishermen and the lame wanna-be poets.
âRight⊠How can you know he is really is a person?â She considered, patting your back proudly. âYouâre pretty. And youâve always had the most perfect bum of all your cousins. Just like mine!â She grinned cockily, giving a playful smack to your ass, making you laugh loudly.
âIt wonât last long.â You said, looking down. Solitude scared you sometimes. Being old and alone could be hard on the spirit and you had a feeling that old hag you would curse your dumb arrogance and inconsideration. However, for now you were still somehow making it through. Your divorce was finalised almost ten months ago. You could still consider yourself just fresh out of it.
âYouâre smart. And Iâm sure you have a lot to offer. Youâre a good woman, and youâre far from being too old. Thereâs never a thing such as too old. Donât let yourself be fooled. Look at me.â She said. âIâm still living a good life. Herbert has left me but Iâm still here. Walking. Cooking. Drizzle keeps me good company.â She smiled sweetly at the mention of her dog, a lovely large poodle elegantly strolling at her side, its light grey fur finely trimmed by your grandmotherâs expert hands. She had been a hairdresser for decades: learning how to keep Drizzleâs coat had been a cup of tea for her and heâd kept her distracted from grief after your grandpa passed away.
Her face formed a meditative pout. âMaybe you should just get a dog. Or even better, a cat. Youâve always looked like a cat child to me. So quiet and focused, like you knew some secret that nature would speak to you alone. You were always so attentive as a child!â
You smiled and looked at the path under your feet. Drizzle stayed unbothered as a loud, angry dachshund walked towards him, barking annoyingly. You had never felt sympathy for that small evil breed.
âI think I could get a kitten one of these days. Or a cat, from the shelter.â
âIâm sure youâll find it in the internet!â
âSo weâre really doing the party thing?â
âListen, baby. Itâs gonna be your first party as a free woman. Real mind blowing birthday sex.â
âIâm not a virgin, you know?â You stared at your face in the mirror, spreading some moisturiser over your forehead, inspecting the small lines there. You shrugged and let them be.
Maybe you would spend your best years single and find a sugar baby in ten or twenty years. Wait, werenât those called toy boys?
Who cares.
Maybe it was time to get the post-grad you had always dreamed of. You would need to check your bank account before making that decision â maybe finally telling yourself yes could be the real birthday gift. That is, beside the huge dildo waiting in your drawer. Not being attracted to men or women didnât mean you didnât like sex.
You just found it difficult to imagine being with someone.
âDarling Iâd bet an arm and a leg he never gave it to your right. You just need a bit more experience.â
All you needed was a hot bath, some candles and a good book. No man, no one night stand, no birthday sex could possibly make you as happy as decent jazz, wine and a novel.
âWhy arenât we doing that wine tasting at the winery out of town?â
âBecause I want you choking on cheap alcohol, having all the fun you didnât have on your twenty-first birthday because you were planning your own wedding. And I bet youâre the only one who wasnât fucked in the bathroom of the Wickhead.â
Terry could be incredibly crude, but you loved her nonetheless. You loved her even more for it. She had never hidden anything from you, she had told you even the most embarrassing details of her own life. And she had always been the kindest, most faithful friend: she had driven you way out of town when you were eighteen and your period was late and you needed to buy a pregnancy test without all everyone and their dog knowing; she had chosen your wedding dress for you, spotting it and telling you it was going to be the one before you could even see it. When your marriage had started crumbling, she had spent countless nights with you, keeping you company when your husband was busy with his business trips. Though Terry had insinuated cheating, you knew he would never break your trust like that, and she had decided to trust your better judgement.
You had simply fallen out of love with each other.
And when you had moved into your new apartment, Terry had helped you repaint the walls and build the extra bookcases and install the shelves and fill your wine stand. Before leaving she had grabbed an unfamiliar box from her car, placing it on top of your bed, opening it and spreading out a set of âsingle necessaireâ, as she called it. A couple toys, lube, condoms. To celebrate your re-found sexual promiscuity, she had said, though you objected, it was hard rediscovering something you had never had.
She had shaken her head and left you to âfamiliariseâ yourself with everything.
âYou know Iâm not exactly a party person, Terry. This will end badly.â You said, sitting on your bed with your back against the headboard, your legs stretched out before you.
âYou can allow yourself some fun once in a decade, you know?â You could hear her scoff on the phone.
âBut I do have fun. Book. Wine. Bingo!â You explained, rolling your eyes as the booed.
âCome on, do it for me. Do it for your single friend who wants to get drunk and possibly sixty-nine? Please?â The other thing wrong with Terry is that if you ever met her in person, you would face the sweetest five foot three and a half â she insisted on the half â human being you could ever meet, with pretty wavy blonde hair and wide, sweet green eyes, the most boopable button nose and a sprinkle of freckles on her golden skin. She literally glowed in sunlight and her flowy gowns always made her look like a goddess: you could see men fighting for her, dying for her and going to war for just one of her gentle smiles.
âDonât you have a FWB for that sixty-nine thingie?â You asked with an exceedingly inquisitive tone. It had been a while since she last updated you.
âDumped him.â She replied curtly.
You tutted before exhaling. Emotionally constipated people â whatâs wrong with them?
âHeâs dating someone since he was ready for a relationship.â Terry sounded a bit colder than usual.
âAnd you werenât?â You asked. You felt your tone hesitate with slight concern. You knew she would just put up a wall and ignore your question.
Fortunately, she didnât. âIâm not ready to talk about that. Itâs complicated, Frog.â
She was hurt and wanted a distraction.
âOkay, Terry. Weâre going to get rip roaring drunk this Saturday.â
The line went silent.
âYou know I love you right?â
âI love you too, sweetie. Now go to sleep, you have an early shift tomorrow.â
The line went silent after you bid each other goodnight, your body settling underneath the sheets once you realised your eyes were fluttering shut as you tried to read a few pages to put yourself to sleep.
Placing down the book, you hugged the extra pillow, settling your face in the corner between your sleeping pillow and your spare one, the heavy woolen comforter acting like a weighted blanket. You placed another pillow behind your back, making a soft cocoon all around you.
Yes, sometimes you still missed being hugged to sleep.
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Navi: Chapter 1 â Chapter 2 â Chapter 3 â Chapter 4 â Chapter 5 â Chapter 6 â Chapter 7
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Deep Water
Word Count: 2113
Here we go! Childe x Lumine fanfiction! This is my first time writing a story using english XD pardon my bad BAD grammar because english is not my first language. i tried to fix that :(
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Theyâre different, inside and outside.
They have different purposes when approaching each other.
But strangely enough, they feel comfortable. They feel like they can rely on each other.
There is Lumine, and Childe.
There is a butterfly and its destroyer.
It is dark, still, yet beautiful at the same time. The full moon that reflected on the darkened blue sea in Yaoguang Shoal. The sound of waves is so calming and somehow has the ability to heal every ache, mentally. Lumine sits on one of the rocks, dipping her feet in the salt water, enjoying the coldness that it gives. She loves being near water even though sheâs an anemo user.
Water; the stillness is giving it a mysterious sense. You will never know whatâs deep inside the water if you donât purposely dive into it. It may contain something dangerous, or it may contain something valuable, like that luxurious chest she finds at Dunyu Ruins after delivering some annoying seelies. For her, water by some means is magical and inexplicable.
Water is exactly just like Childe.
Mysterious.
Menacing.
Some people said that heâs ruthless. Merciless murderer, because of his affiliation with the Fatui, and also because heâs the Eleventh of the Fatui Harbingers. The youngest one but one of the most dangerous amongst their number.
ButâŠ
Heâs the most bold, enchanting, and clever man she ever met in her life. Not to mention he also has the sweetest smileâŠ
⊠and lots of Mora.
She smiled when remembering that moment when Childe approached her and Zhongli when they were about to buy some kites for The Rite of Parting from Granny Shanâs shop. Zhongli is⊠thinking about him makes her sigh. That man is surely a special case.
â⊠Lumine?â A small, sleepy voice brings her back in reality. âPaimon thinks that now we should camp somewhere else. Itâs so cold in here and Paimon can catch a cold anytime!â Her emergency fâtravelling companion now is awake and leans her body to Lumineâs head. âCâmon, Lumine! We can camp at Mingyun Village or get a room at Wangshu Inn, but not here, in the open field, near the water!â
Lumine chuckles. âAlright, alright,â she stands and reaches up her shoes. âLetâs go.â
Before they leave, Lumine glances over the sea once again and smiles.
***
He knows himself more than anyone in Liyueâor even in Teyvat. Or even his sister, Tonia. All the blessing and curse he has related to water. All those scars that he tried to bury, deep down in his mind. All those achievements mean nothing more than a boastful show off. He knows himself. Truly, inside and outside.
But, meeting her makes him doubt his knowledge about himself. Â
Their first meeting is quite unique. That time, when thereâs announcement about Rex Lapisâ death at The Rite of Descension, he was just arrived at Liyue to do some works delegated by Fatui to the Northland Bank when he heard a bunch of Millelith shouting to each other, ordering their comrades to arrest someone.
âYou have nowhere to run!â
That commotion is enough to get his interest. He looked up and saw the back of a blonde-haired girl that just drew her sword out to fight those trained Millelith. Before he could think twice, the water shifted from his hand, forming a water blade each in his hands and leap over, âHey girlie, hold still!â The sound of water coming through his ears while his hands are now focusing to fight those Millelith. His position as one of the Harbingers was not given to him without reasons. Easily enough, he defeated all of the Millelith guardâhe didnât kill them, but enough to make them unconsciousâthen turn back to that girl just to see her golden-yellow eyes now staring at him.
He knew her. Friend of the Knights of Favonius.
âCome with me.â That time, he knew he shouldnât do that. But he did it anyway. And from then until now, theyâve been together, side by side to fight monsters and sometimes treasure hoarders. Itâs funny to realize that because heâs more like an independent fighter rather than a group fighter. But with Lumine, everything that he knows about himself seems to become different. Firstly, He already promises himself that he wonât do anything using his feelings anymore. And secondly, He promises himself that he wonât do anything stupid by helping other people because thatâs not what Fatui do.
But yet, he failed.
Lumine is like a breath of fresh air for his breathless life. With Lumine, he feels like he can relax a little bit, smile a little bit, and importantly, see the beauty of life a little bit. A little bit is more than enough for life like his. But that little bit is not good for their relationship. Tsaritsa will find out about Lumine sooner or later. And thatâs not good. That means Lumine will always be in danger near him. Thinking about that makes him shiver. I canât let anything bad happen to her. Not until she reunites with her twin brother. Not until I can be assured that sheâs safe. This time, he tries to keep his promise. He could no longer indulge himself in all this beauty which he didnât deserve from the first time he knew her.Â
Because of that, now he found himself waiting at Liyue Harbor because he made a promise to Lumine that they would watch the sunrise before he went back to Snezhnaya. Lumine doesnât know yet about his plan to go back to his hometown. She only knew that today they would be enjoying sunrise on the boat he rented from Linling. He tries so hard to distance himself from that bright-cheerful-and-lighthearted girl but he fails dozens of times. This is the only way he can do that. Even though it means that he probably will see that girl crying in front of him.Â
âChilde!â The euphonic voice that has become his favoriteâsince when? He doesnât knowâtakes him back to the scenery of Liyue Harbor. âbeen waiting long?â Lumine asks while stabilizing her blue glider and then fixing her flower hair clip. Childe looked away to distract himself and pretend to be looking the other way.
âNot really,â he smiles. âYou ready?â
âI was born ready,â she smiled back. The smile that has always been his favorite.Â
âLetâs go, then.â Childe walked first, followed by Lumine behind him. She canât help but smile like an idiot while looking at Childeâs broad shoulder. She knows that she likes him more than friends, but how about him? He never made a real move towards her. Childe has been doing sweet things to her, but how can she be sure that it because he likes her in that way? Should she ask him first?
âOuch!â Her thoughts make her unaware that Childe is now stopped walking and tries to untie the rope that ties the boat. âOh my Archons, that hurts!â She cringed and rubbed her aching forehead. Childe turns back and chuckles. Sheâs so cute. He thinks. And the next second he tries to ignore that thought.Â
âWhat were you doing?âÂ
Both of Lumineâs cheeks become warm. I was thinking about you! âN-no. Nothing. Nothing at all, s-seriously!â
âWhoa, okay-okay,â Childe lets out a small laugh. âLetâs go.â He reaches Lumineâs arms and helps her get on the boat. After everything has set, Childe rowed the boat, heading to the best place to see the sunrise in Liyue Harbor according to his experience. It was 4 in the morning when they set out their boat. Here in Liyue, the sun rises a little late.Â
âI always love midnight and dawn,â she looked at Childe while keeping her hair from covering her face. âItâs nice and calm.â
âThought you were the rousing-type of girl,âÂ
âYeah, Iâll admit that, but sometimes,â she turns her head over the sea horizon. âOnce in a lifetime, you need to escape from those ruckus and enjoy the beauty of stillness.â
âThe beauty of stillness, huh?â he raised his eyebrow. âNever heard of that.â
Lumine smiles.Â
A few moments later, Childe stopped rowing. He is now looking at Lumine who is currently closing her eyes, enjoying the cool air. She wonât be bothered by the wind. Sheâs an anemo user, after all. Wind is her friend. Just like water is his friend. And enemy, at the same time.Â
He then looked down to his reflection on the water. That smile of his and all of the funny jokes he made so that people will like him is a lie. It was a deceitful move. But when heâs with Lumine, it all feels real. Or⊠maybe itâs just his delusion. Like the electro vision he has, given by Tsaritsa. He doesnât know anymore whatâs real in his life.Â
âChilde, look!â Lumine is now covering her mouth, feeling in awe because the sun starts to go up to its place in Liyue. âItâs so beautiful.â
Instead of looking at the sunrise, he looked at Lumineânever can get enough of herâand said, âit is.âÂ
âThank you for bringing me here, Childe.â She gives him a dazzling smile. âI really, really love it.â
âWell, now you know this place. You can come here every time you want to enjoy that âbeauty of stillnessâ.â He quoted Lumineâs words and gave a playful smile.Â
âWith you?â
âYou can go here alone. Thatâs the point, right?âÂ
âI mean, we can go here together again, right? I can teach you about the beauty of stillness that I mentioned earlier,â She said.Â
âNoâŠâ He looked down. Now is the time for you to tell her, Childe. âI-I will no longer come to Liyue.âÂ
âW-what do you mean you will no longer come to Liyue? Are you leaving?â
He nodded. âIâm going back to Snezhnaya,â he didnât dare to look at her. âMy hometown.â
â...when?â
âToday.â
She swallowed her tears, âso this is why you suggest that we should go watch the sunrise,â her voice is now trembling. âYou wanted to say goodbye?â
âYes. Besides, there's nothing else I can do here anyway,â please donât cry. Please donât cry. Please. âAnd the Fatui is asking me to go back.â liar.Â
What about me? A tear tickled her cheek, and she started chewing on her lower lip while her eyes welled up with tears. âIââ she mumbled something through her mouth and choked on her sobs. âS-sorry. I didnât know what happened to me.â She let out fake chuckles and looked away.Â
Meanwhile, Childe, his vision was blurry; it was difficult for him to see clearly, but he knew that it was a hurtful moment for them. He hears Lumine sniffing and sobbing even though she is trying to hold it. For some moment, both of them drown into their own thoughts and feelings.Â
âWill I be able to see you again, sometime in the future?â Lumine asks. She didnât turn her head to see Childe. âIs there a possibility that we can sit in this boat, enjoying the sunrise together again? Is there any?âÂ
Childe opens his mouth to say something, but closes it again. No. we canât meet. You canât meet me. Itâs dangerous.Â
âNo?â Lumine urged him.Â
âIfâŠâ Childe dared himself to stare at that girl. âIf you want to be around to see it again with me, best you stay alive until we next meet⊠okay?â And again, he breaks his own promise to not see Lumine ever again.Â
They smiled at each other.Â
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That blonde-haired girl is now sitting at one of the Mingyun Villageâs rooftop. She looked at a blue shell with a somewhat star-shaped in the center. A starconch. She misses him already but she knows that sometime in the future, they will meet again. Because he needs to take back this precious starconch from her.
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âHere, keep this,â Childe takes her right hand and places something in her palm.Â
âA starconch?â
He nodded. âYes. Itâs not just any starconch you can find, it is my precious starconch because it has memories in it.â
âWhat memories?â She asked him with a curious look.Â
âIâll save that story for later, when we meet again,â he said, which made her frown. âUntil then, you need to keep this. Because Iâll come and take this back.â
âOkay.â
âOkay, good.â
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âI guess I just need to wait a little longer, donât I?â Lumine glanced at her little fairy friend, stood then jumped off the roof. âIn the meantime, letâs blow away some hilichurls, shall we?âÂ
âLumine, wait, Paimon thinks we should eat first!â Paimon tries to keep her distance near Lumine. But she keeps running with a big grin in her face. âLumineeeeee!âÂ
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Can we have the s/o in the old eldritch one get pregnant n stuff
Oh well, it seems like the antichrist will be born-
Well not literally, but kinda.
I think⊠That maybe I should warn y'all about some possible disasters.
Tags?/Tw??: size difference boo; curious eldritch boy; illusions; apocalyptic world; also mentions of other entities and some of the events that happened in A Bad Dream. Also I'm a dumbass who should have took some medicine instead of writing while having a headache.
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Golden Years [Yandere!Eldritch x Pregnant!Reader - Short Fanfiction and possibly a follow-up story]:
It's been five years since the Earth's sky has been broken apart. The red clouds above form a connection to the other world that creatures like him came from. A portal, in a way.
To humanity, this was the end. But to them, it was the beginning of something.
Something interesting.
Not every single entity on Ibu's home was on Earth of course, it's a really small place for so many cosmic entities. And it is not like all of them have an interest in this small rock, only a few, like Ibu himself.
Always the curious one. Most would consider him naive, and possibly childish, if the "concept" of children was commonly known throughout his "brothers and sisters".
He was only a couple of stars old. 687 stars have been born and have died throughout his entire existence, to be exact. Which was pretty young compared to his "peers".
Not that they really cared about keeping up with their age, it was mostly used to devalue each other's nonsense. Someone around his age would be considered foolish regardless of what his morals and ethics were.
But he doesn't really care, he prefers to take his time and learn than pretend he knows everything in the universe. He enjoys being curious the way he is, is more fun to learn about things if you truthfully explore them.
And learning about humans while interpreting to be one is probably the best form of learning he could have ever found!
It's extremely exciting to him, in five years he has learned so much. He learned that humans fall easily into his illusions, that humans are small and easy to carry, that even if a human is in his illusion they won't notice the odd feelings of being high up or being held by bigger hands, oh! Humans are actually pretty warm, and that their living habitats are tiny but he can kinda squeeze himself in.
Which isn't the most comfortable thing, but he knows how to deal with it.
He learned that humans call each other by names depending on their relationship status and how much a human cares for them. He learned that humans are fragile, and that they like small things, and that they-
Oh, it's just so many things you know? He could keep going on, but it isn't exactly human like to point out obvious things like that.
You told him that. You've been really helpful with helping him understand your kind better.
His companions don't really agree with his actions. While he is playing "dollhouse" (he saw small humans doing this ritual of playing with inanimate objects and pretending to have an "a family", he found that so fascinating), his peers are doing more "fun things".
Like slaving humans, or executing humans, or trapping them in pocket dimensions, or adding them to their ever growing collection (like a friend of his who is obsessed with collecting life forms), or destroying everything and everyone that they meet in the way, like his sister!
She showed him a big wall the other day, it was bigger than any human, or even house. They both didn't understand the point of such obstacle. She said it probably took centuries to put it up. She simply smashed it down like it was nothing.
He doesn't know why she does these types of things, but she still finds enjoyment in doing them, so he would just let her have her fun.
She tried to convince him to give up on understanding you and just let loose, as humans would say.
But, he doesn't find it fun at all. He tried it once on a really annoying human, he thinks it was your mate.
He can't remember for sure. He tries to forget unpleasant things. Yet, he still remembers that day.
Could you stop it please? It's getting annoying.
There he was, the annoying human, and some others trying to⊠Hurt him? He doesn't understand what they were trying to do, whatever it was it wasn't as effective as they thought it was. They were clearly aiming at his eyes, but it only made them itchy.
You never stop, do you?
At that time he didn't remember that they couldn't understand him. He was getting angry, and it seemed normal to speak in his own language rather than communicating on yours.
"- Hey⊠What is happening love?" You asked him, poor thing, he wondered what you could possibly be seeing. Considering his illusions were really effective on you, he assumes that you were only seeing your husband and a bunch of pricks trying to hurt him.
In your eyes, he looks like your true husband, and your real husband feels like a stranger. It's all that he can do for now, interpret your old mate.
Also, love, you have some bad taste at picking partners, this little human seems a little too possessive, don't you agree?
Of course there are a couple of rebellious humans, trying to survive and fight for their freedom and what not. He really wishes he could care about them, but honestly, how can they expect to win a "war" that is not even happening?
It's not a fair fight anyway, so why bother so much? And also, they don't even know that the most important part of "killing" one of his kind is completely destroying their mask. Which is close to almost impossible.
Honestly, why even botherâŠ
"- L-love? Are you okay?"
"- Yes, don't worry about it." He learned how to perfectly imitate the other human's voice. It's not exactly a difficult thing to do, especially for the likes of him, but hey, he thinks he deserves some praises for doing it.
Anyway, they thought that they could have a chance against him. And although he wasn't looking for a fight, he almost did kill them out of rage.
While holding you in one hand, he made his way towards the crowd shooting at him. One little slap to the ground was enough to shake it and unbalance them. It's kinda silly from his perspective.
How bothersome, if I take these would you stop?
He took and broke (although accidentally) the guns in his fingers. He was actually planning on studying them but, oh well, he can always ask you later about how they function.
Even when he already lost, your ex partner still tries to pick up a fight. It's taking every fiber of his being to not put this insufferable little creature into an everlasting nightmare in his pocket dimension. He picked the annoying one up, while the others were trying to pick some extra equipment they brought.
It wasn't so difficult to trade places with you, but if you keep acting foolish, I don't think you'll exist for too long.
Yelling, after cursing, after more yelling, some crying in the mix. Ibu can't be bothered right now, you two were just going back home.
Can't a being tall as a building go home with his tiny mate in peace? The world has already ended, so why bother stoping him from living his own immortal life?
"- She doesn't love you, and ya know that."
âŠ
Oh.
âŠ. OhâŠ
"- Excuse me?"
"- Oh! So you can speak now-" He yelled after hearing Ibu speak in his own language. That prick heard every bit of suffering that he put him through, yet-
"- Repeat." Ibu already knew what he said, he just needed to hear it, again...
"- What?" ⊠Just to be sureâŠ
"- Repeat." ⊠That what he heard was correct...
"- ⊠What if I don't?" ⊠And that he had a free pass...
"- ⊠What would your intestines look like if they were pulled from inside out?" ⊠To lose his patience with this one.
It seemed like he could "let loose" this time around.
If only he had payed better attention at you instead of that insolent pest.
He had closed his hands a little too harshly at that moment. Even if it was unconsciously, the damage was already done.
He closed his hand, and accidentally (he swears it was an accident!) Broke one of your legs.
He dropped the other human at your sudden scream. The low sound of something breaking wasn't really reassuring.
I mean, two legs were broken that day, yours and your ex lover's. But he didn't care about the other one, so let's ignore his screams of agony-
To his sister, breaking one of your bones wasn't exactly the worst possible thing that could happen. Actually, if it was her the one holding you, she would probably do that intentionally.
As to her, it was fun to hurt humans like you. But to Ibu it wasn't, it was terrible! He really didn't mean to.
He was plagued by the sudden feeling of guilty overflowing him. It was probably the first time he ever felt like this. It was probably the first time he ever apologized for something.
I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm so sorry please shhhh I'm really sorry I'm sorry I'll fix it I'll fix it I'm sorry I'm sorry
Woah, that was⊠A terrible experience even remembering gives him headaches. And he shouldn't even have headaches! Stress can lead to his mask breaking.
That would be really unfortunate.
You didn't seem to remember what happened the day after, so he had to help you get better slowly. I guess another thing he learned in these five years was how to fix human bones.
But that was in the past, right? It didn't matter now, right?
Yeah⊠It didn't⊠Mattered.
Or it shouldn't. He never really relaxed after that incident.
Not only did he feel incapable of taking care of you, as he started thinking a simple blow of wind could make you fall. But he also felt on edge whenever he remembered those words.
" She doesn't love you."
That shouldn't have been so impactful as it was. Maybe he truly was too soft. He knows better than to listen to the delusions of that man.
He knows that you love him. He knows that! He really⊠He really hopes he knows that.
He really hopes it is true.
You started acting a little weird recently, he doesn't know how you're feeling and what you are thinking, so he started feeling like maybe you don't love himâŠ
You normally made calls to your friends, although the telephone hasn't been functional since four years ago, since if you truly were interacting with other people there could be a chance of you breaking the illusion. You would tell them what was on your mind while you thought he wasn't listening.
You haven't written in your diary, you haven't made any recent notes on your phone or computer, and you haven't told him what you were hiding.
He wouldn't know how to react if you decided to get away from him. He would probably put you inside his pocket dimension, or probably take you to his own world.
No⊠That place is too dangerous. What can he do??
He was sitting on the sofa contemplating this last few weeks you've been acting differently. And that phrase keeps popping up in his mind, and is starting to make him sick.
And the thought of you being sad or mad at him from when he broke your leg is starting to eat him from inside.
What can he do-
"- Love? Are you okay?"
"- Oh, don't worry about it⊠I'm just thinking about some stuff."
"- Is it related to work?"
Oh yeah, "work", he kinda hides outside the house whenever you think he is at work. Even if he wanted to experience a job for the first time and know how humans function under social stress twenty two hours a day through five days, each every single week, there weren't any jobs available.
As more than a half of the population was gone or dead.
"- Yeah⊠It is." He learned how to deal with this type of question. He saw a lot of tv shows with you, and they all mentioned how jobs are essentially torture chambers that suck the energy out of humans in exchange of money.
Those shows weren't lying or exaggerating, right?
"- Well, I⊠I think you should relax, and maybe take a break, I never saw you taking a vacation, maybe this is a good time, love."
"- YeahâŠ. I would love to spend more time inside." Although he literally just watches you doing mundane things all day everyday, because to him all of those things are incredible and breathtaking.
"- I⊠I have something to tell youâŠ" You seemed a little concerned, was something wrong?
"- What is it?"
"- H-here." You were worried that his reaction might be a little negative, or not as excited as you were. He works every single day, you feel like this type of surprise you probably make him worry more.
But then again, there wasn't really a way to keep this a secret. You're still wondering how hasn't he noticed your belly or your morning sickness, but you also didn't think it was because of pregnancy, so, I guess you're both equally naive?
He is looking at the pregnancy test, not knowing it's a pregnancy test or what pregnancy even is. So he doesn't really understand what it is until you say it out loud.
"- I'm going to have a baby, love."
He is still visibly confused.
"- A⊠Tiny human?"
"- Pfft, yes! Of course it's a tiny human. Oh gosh, how can you be silly in a time like this."
Yeah, he is a riot, isn't he?
Stars, help him understand what is happening, please.
"- That's kinda what I like about you, you know? You're funny, you never take anything too seriously." You tell him, being fully honest.
His presence feels comforting in a world so serious and dull.
He isn't aware of how to feel, he is confused and extremely excited about this revelation.
Would the baby be human? A hybrid of some form? Would it have his own features? Would it have a mask? Would giving birth to them possibly break the illusion?
He should consider all of the possibilities but⊠He is just, so happy! This the weirdest most confusing experience he ever had, yet he is absolutely delighted by this outcome.
He loves you so much, he really does, and he knows that now. He knows that this is a proof of love, that there is absolutely nothing that can separate you from him.
You two would be spinning around the living room, full cliche style.
Although, again, he doesn't really fit in the living room all that well. So he can't really do that, but you get the sentiment, right?
Stars, this is perfect, absolutely perfect.
"- I love you [Y/N]!"
"- I love you too, Cameron!"
It's been five years, and yet you kept saying the same name over and over again.
At first he didn't mind, it was a nice sounding name. But as time went on, being called by your ex's name is starting to become troublesome.
"- Maybe I can fix that later." Maybe he can drop the charade and give you one of his many names.
Having you call him "Ibu" would be so special to him.
"- Hun? What do you mean?"
Oh nothing, really.
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Yours, and Only Yours
--Sihtric x Virgin!Reader
After travelling with Uthred for many months the fact that youâre still a virgin is revealed in a drunken confession, from that moment on Sihtric canât help but thinking of making you his.Â
Authors note: Hey guys so this is my first time ever writing a fic so go easy on me. If you liked this let me know, constructive criticism is welcome as is general thirst :) x
part two
WARNINGS: Slightly smutty, mutual lusting?
wc: 1684
It was dark, it was late and you were drunk. The five of you surrounded the fire, Uhtred and Osferth  sat either side of you, the fire acted as both warmth and a shield from Finanâs jokes. The fire also shielded you from Sihtric. Quiet, impulsive and beautiful, youâd be lying to yourself if you said you werenât attracted to him.
And that just made it all the more embarrassing when it came tumbling out of your mouth. âItâ being the fact that you had never laid with a man. The ale that you shared had made you relax and your tongue loose. Finan had been teasing the baby monk, nothing out of the ordinary but you couldnât help yourself when lack of experience came up. You really couldnât help yourself, it just fell out. As soon as the silence had settled sobriety hit you and heat rushed to your face. Â Finan and Uhtred shared a look, a mix of shock, amusement and the knowledge that they now had infinite ammo to torment you with, a favoured past time. The monk at least had the decency to look down, Â his own embarrassment evident, even in the low fire light. And then there was Sihtric, you could feel his eyes. You wanted the Gods to open up the earth and swallow you whole but no such luck. As long as he wasnât sympathetic, sympathy would have been the worst case scenario. The man that made you feel the most unholy of things looking at you with pity, like a little girl? It would haunt you far more than any joke Finan could make. Â You couldnât take it. His eyes were fixed on your own as soon as you looked up, the amusement was there, as was quiet surprise. But what else you found you couldnât quite fathom and it sent an entirely different type of heat through your body.
Sihtric couldnât figure out what had shifted and it bothered him. You had recovered quickly from your drunken outburst. Finan, and on occasion Uthred, exploiting it as far as you would allow them, but you were a Dane and the threat of your blade acquainting itself with their balls soon silenced them. But no number of threats could put an end to the dreams he had been having. He had dreamed of you before, even before the official dissolving of his marriage. The sight of other women on long rides were rare and he was not blind to your beauty. He often found himself admiring the way your thighs spread across your saddle or the simplicity of watching droplets of water run down your throat as you drank. Now he was free to dream of you and since your confession he couldnât help but let his dreams slip into his waking life. He wondered if your laughter would be as light and breathless with his head between your thighs, his beard brushing against your soft skin. He wondered if youâd give yourself so fully to the act of love making as you did sword play. Even now, after a full days ride he watched you splash water on the back of your neck and wondered if youâd make the same content sigh as he pushed himself into you. He took one final look before adjusting himself. He could have you in his dreams but first he needed a drink, you all did.
The ale house was warm and inviting, a table becoming free just as the five of you stepped through the door and you didnât miss the way each of your companions glanced towards the sky; a small blessing from each of their gods. It had been a hard ride through Mercia, despite this a room filled with Saxons was a welcomed sight. There was music, whores and plenty of ale.
It took all of half a pint before Finan had a woman in his lap. She had large green eyes that fluttered in delight at the flirtation from both the man whose lap she sat on and Uhtred from across the table. Sihtric watched Finan caress her curves and let his mind wonder to you. He wondered if youâd enjoy it if he nipped at your neck just as Finan did to his busty whore, if you could take such a public teasing. He enjoyed the thought. He enjoyed watching you dance too.
Youâd had no desire to sit and watch your friends get drunk, the more they drank the harder it was to reason with them it became and you certainly had no desire to spill any more of your secrets. You didnât want to convince any of them that they couldnât afford the women who they so desired and you certainly didnât want to watch your boys go home with them. Well, you thought, you didnât want to see only one of them go home with someone that wasnât you.
But that wasnât an option, so you danced.
You had grabbed the hand of a young serving girl and took her to the middle of the floor. It was obvious that you were a Dane but no one seemed to mind as you spun together, breathless and giggling, letting the world around you filled with violence and enemies melt away. Your face was already flushed when you caught Sihtricâs eye over the brim of his mug, you knew he well enough to see that he was enjoying himself but that look was there again, the one you didnât understand. He was half facing you, half facing Finan and began laughing at something that was said. He broke his gaze as he did so, eyes creasing with joy and you took this as an opportunity to move away from the dance, the desire to drink and admire from afar becoming too strong for you to deny.
It had taken you some time to earn everyoneâs trust but that was just their way, now you just enjoyed admiring what you considered to be your family. And Sihtric. It felt impossible to draw your eyes away from him, even if you couldnât see his face. You could admire what you could see and by the gods did you admire it. His neck, the expanse of his back in light armor and his arms on full display. Gods, his arms. While the touch of a man wasnât known to you, your own hand was no stranger and the idea of those arms pinning you, to anything, had your fingers twitching with anticipation. It wasnât until a cough interrupted your fantasy that you realised just how intensely you had been staring. The stranger took your blush as interest and your interest as an invite into your bubble of existence. He wasnât unattractive but had a distinct plainness to him, one you werenât accustomed to given your chosen company. His smile was easy and his eyes heavy lidded due to drink and when his hand met your waist thatâs when you knew you were headed for trouble.
Drinking didnât usually clear Sihtricâs head, in fact it usually clouded it enough he lost half his sense and half his coin but tonight the single glass heâd had made him realise something. As he watched you allow another man to lay a hand on you he realised that he didnât like it. It made his blood race just as it did moments before battle. The strangerâs hand on your waist was enough to make Sihtric realise that you were more than a favoured daydream and friend, that he liked you distinctly untouched.
Sihtric had never been any womanâs first. His first had been a slave girl, older than him and wiser when it came to sex. Heâd lasted longer than she had expected and as a boy he took pride in that. As he grew he was no stranger to alehouse women and their ways. Heâd married one and while he had loved her and believed in her love for him, he was not shocked when she returned to her previous occupation once he wasnât there to provide nor satisfy her needs. She had never truly been his, nor where any of the women he had shared his bed with. But you, you were untouched by any man, untainted by disappointment and countless hands. And he wanted to be the only man to touch you. To let him touch you. Not for sliver, not for protection or for the amusement of fucking Kjartanâs bastard. Simply because you wanted him just as badly as he wanted you. And by the Gods did Sihtric want you. The fact that you had saved yourself for this long when so many men had tried their luck flipped a switch and his desire seemed so blatant now. He would have turned to ask the advice of his friends but the sight before him kept him transfixed. The Saxon bastard didnât try to hid his roaming eyes and Sihtric could see you losing patience. Your smile was beginning to falter and you had placed down your ale. He felt although his jaw was about to break from how hard he was clenching it when the man placed his hand on the back of your neck. The Saxon was pulling you in and Sihtricâs axe would already be in the mans torso if it wasnât for the brief flash of steel in the candle light.
Sihtric watched you push your dagger deeper into the manâs thighs and he could imagine the uncomfortable pressure that must be building. The satisfaction he felt watching you deal with this almost rid him of the burning desire to remove the mans hands and eyes and cock for even thinking about touching you. He felt another desire growing, not just from looking at you. The room was filled with Saxons, no friends, no allies, bar himself and the three men that sat with him, and despite this you chose to draw a weapon to defend yourself from an unwanted advance.
He watched, awe filled and hardening, as you slipped from the alehouse.
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Ranking the Doctorâs Companions (9-11)
While working on a fanfic Iâve been writing, I got the urge to rank the companions (we love procrastination). So, anyway, here we go. *Spoiler Warning for seasons 1-7 of New Who, purely because I donât really remember a lot of Twelveâs episodes* **light cursing warning**
EDIT: I fixed a few spelling errors/name mistakes
8. Clara Oswald - A part of my dislike to her may just be Moffatâs writing, but I just never really liked Clara with Eleven. She grew on me a bit with Twelve, but I never really vibed with her. When I first watched the show, I cried when all the Doctorâs regenerated and when the companions left, but I honestly just never felt any connection to Clara. I think she was interesting in the Asylum of the Daleks and The Snowmen, but I feel like she just kinda fell short. I didnât really enjoy any of the episodes she was in, but I think that a lot of that is one Moffat. I wasnât a huge fan of her being intertwined in the Doctorâs history in the Name of the Doctor. If Iâm being honest, sheâs the only companion that I dislike.
7. Amy Pond - Amy is the low on the list because I wasnât a fan of her character in season five. But, if Iâm being honest here, from here on, this is just me showing who I like the most, not who I like the least. Iâm not really a fan of how her character is made to be one of the most important people in the universe. I really liked her in the later seasons, even though I really wasnât a fan of the episodes (but thatâs a story for another day), but her relationship with Rory really changed her and I really began to respect her. I think season five was my favorite of Eleven, and the episodes were really good, but Amyâs immaturity really got to me for some reason.Â
6. River Song - River is a badass and I love that about her. And sheâs got her flaws and sheâs done terrible things, and she understands that. But she cares so much for Amy, Rory, and the Doctor, and the fact that sheâd do anything for them is beautiful. I wish we got to see more of River, but at the same time, I feel like the scarcity was also a good move. Her introduction in season 4 absolutely killed me. I think it kinda refreshing, but thereâs also something so alarming seeing someone else be dangerous like the Doctor. Overall, I really enjoy her story line and character.Â
5. Rose Tyler - This is something Iâve been mulling over for years. When I first started watching the show back in 2015, I adored Rose. But, as I started reading fanfiction, I began seeing a lot of Rose bashing. So, for 5 years, I have gone back and forth between hating and loving Rose. A big thing about Rose is how different she is between seasons 1 and 2. I love season 1, itâs actually one of my favorite seasons Iâve watched so far. Rose is so young, selfless, and the curiosity she has throughout the season is so nice to watch. However, I feel like she has a change in personality, and at least to me, she acts more selfish and as though she knows everything there is to know about aliens when she obviously doesnât. Now, going back to this statement: â Iâm not really a fan of how her character is made to be one of the most important people in the universeâ. It does really bother me that Rose is such an important factor in Martha and Donnaâs seasons. I donât think itâs fair how much the Doctor idolizes her, but thatâs not entirely her fault. And while she is Bad Wolf, I donât think it has the same power as Amyâs Time had. I think the Bad Wolf storyline was interesting though, with how it followed. Overall, I can say that I enjoy Rose, her flaws and all.
4. Mickey Smith - The Man in Havana is someone Iâve always enjoyed watching. Although the Doctor calls him Mickey the Idiot, heâs anything but. I mean, he literally hacked into the government from his house. I feel like heâs fairly rational for having been abducted my an alien by pulling him into a trashcan. I love his transformation throughout the series, and I love that he ended up with Martha. I always felt bad for Mickey, how he was always the second choice, and it was so nice getting to see him be the first pick. Rose and the Doctor took him for granted, and he proved that he was important and resourceful, and Iâm so proud of him
3. Rory Williams - I think he complimented Amy so well. Heâs honestly just the perfect guy if Iâm being honest, I would love to have my own Rory Williams. I like how much he tried. He showed Amy how much he cared and loved her, he showed her what heâd do for her, but I feel like that gets overlooked by the Doctor, which just isnât fair. When the Doctor left them behind for 2 years, Rory actually researched him and the TARDIS, he waited 2000+ years for Amy and guarded her. Heâs a lot like Mickey here, as he was seen as the second option for a while, but having Amy choose him and truly love him was so nice to see. Rory is smart, caring, and a little quirky, but I think thatâs so refreshing.Â
2. Donna Noble - Her departure was, in my opinion, one of the saddest in the whole show. We got to witness her growth from The Runaway Bride to Journeyâs End, and it was such a nice growth. I loved how caring she was, and she had such a large heart. The fact that she grew and became her best self, and then lost it all and had to forget some of the bests parts of her life. I am really glad though that she ended up married and having a baby. But I think she was just such a fun character, and that she knew how to be serious but also so funny.
1. Martha Jones - Now this is probably super controversial, but Martha has been my favorite companion since the beginning. Martha is such a badass, and she had so much respect for herself. She recognized that she was done traveling and got out of there. She used the knowledge she gained from the Doctor and used it to help people by working for UNIT. The third season is one of my favorites, and all the episodes were so good. Martha was such an amazing person before she met the Doctor, and all he did was amplify her greatness. I hated that she lived in Roseâs shadow, but I love that she didnât stand for the Doctorâs (or anyone elseâs for that matter) bullshit. Sheâs just so amazing *chef kiss*
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Prince of Shadow
Pairing: Aerin x F! MC
Summary: Aerin reflects on why he chose a path of darkness and receives a visit while imprisoned in the dungeons.
Authorâs Note: Iâm back at it again with the clownery! Canât help myself but write about some villains. I will not rest until I get redemption arcs. Anyway, this takes place after the finale of Blades Book 1, and the only warning I have is that it is angst and contains talk of abuse. Thank you to anyone who takes the time to read it, I really appreciate you.
Word Count: 2,671
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Water splashed against the hard stone, the sound echoing in the silent dungeon.
Prince Aerin Valleros sat in the corner, listening to the scurrying rats on the other side of his cell. One ventured closer and withdrew when it felt the dark energy radiating off him. His lips curved up in a smile as he watched the creature disappear into the shadows.
With a sigh, Aerin cast his gaze to the cell door.
âWhat are you looking at, prince?â the guard sneered.
The prince shook his head and looked away. Two weeks had passed since he woke up in this cell. Only once had his father bothered to visit; first to beg that his precious son come back to him, and then to curse him for killing Baldur. As if his father had ever cared about him.
No, he had never felt loved by his family.
They were weak. Pathetic. Worthless.
All his life, Aerin had been abused by his brother, while his father stood by and watched. Life as a prince meant nothing when he spent every moment wishing that someone, anyone would care for him. Love him.
Heâd thought he may have found that in the adventurer. Raine had convinced him that she cared. But like everyone else, she had deceived him and let him down.
And now you are alone.
Foolishly, he briefly allowed himself to believe that she would visit him in the dungeons. Perhaps those feelings were mutual.
But she had never appeared.
âHave you heard word from my father?â Aerin asked, tired of spending his days wondering what came next.
The guard took a moment to respond, and even then, refused to look at the prince. âNo. King Arlan has been trying toââ
âAnd just what do you think youâre doing? Our orders were to watch Prince Aerin. Not engage in a conversation with him.â Another guard sauntered up to the cell, sneering when he glanced at Aerin. âIgnore this traitor.â
Someday, he would make that guard pay for all the mistreatment he had faced in this cell.
Footsteps filled the air, and for a brief moment, hope flared in Aerinâs chest. The excitement vanished when he saw that it was simply another guard. Of course it wasnât Raine. He was foolish to believe even for a moment it might be.
âBut why, Aerin? Why would you do this?â
âWhat life did I have before? Forever trapped in the shadow of my fool of a brother, doomed to a life of pathetic obscurity? Bullied. Doubted. Mocked. I hated it here. My only reprieve was in my dreams.â
No one understood how it felt to live life as a constant afterthought. Baldur had spent every possible moment torturing him, making him feel insignificant, while their father stood by and encouraged it.
Aerin may regret some of his decisions now that the Dreadlord had been defeated, but he would never regret ending his brotherâs life. Baldur got what he deserved. He had been the truly evil one.
âHave you heard word of the heroes?â Aerinâs voice echoed in the cell, and he tried to mask the desperation he felt.
If Raine would appear, just once, he might allow himself to believe that things could change. Despite all that happened, he still wanted her. He wanted to be with her. If she would have him.
âWho said you could speak?â The guard who had arrived last glanced at him with a look of disgust. âKing Arlan has been inconsolable these past two weeks. The crown princeâs death has devastated the kingdom.â
Unable to help himself, Aerin snorted. âOf course.â Bitterness wrapped around his heart once more. âPoor, poor Baldur.â
Pain burned throughout his body, the Nerada Stone still fused to his chest. It had grown worse since he awoke here, in this dark cell, his only companions the rats that shrank back in fear whenever they wandered too close.
âHow dare you speak his name. You tarnish the good reputation of Morella through your very existence.â
Those words may have hurt once, but Aerin no longer cared. Morella was not a great kingdom. Humans, elves, orcs, they were all weak. Any goodness that may have remained had long been corrupted, and the world didnât need his help for that to happen.
âPlease, do tell me more of how much of a traitor I am.â He was growing tired of this daily routine. It seemed many of the guards felt it necessary to remind Aerin of his sins, as if he wasnât already aware.
The guards ignored him, chatting amongst themselves while Aerin stared at the wall across from him. It was damp, water gliding down the stones, staining them a dark gray. Outside, the sounds of life raged on.
This was the way things had always been. For as long as he could remember, he had been cast aside. Forgotten. Treated like a foolish child. No one pitied the younger prince.
Resentment bloomed inside his chest.
âSome of the heroes left, but others remain.â The whisper was so low, he believe he may have imagined it.
Aerin looked up, locking eyes with the one guard who often gave him snippets of information. To his surprise, the guard gave him a smile, even if it was a weak one.
Perhaps kindness wasnât completely lost in this cursed world.
âDo you know who remains?â he whispered back, directing his attention on the two other guards, who were engaged in what appeared to be a heated discussion.
The guard glanced at his companions briefly before turning back to Aerin. âThe two siblings, I believe. And the priestess.â
The two siblings. Those were the only three words he needed to hear.
Raine was still here. She had not yet left. Maybeâ
âAlright, letâs go! I doubt the little prince can do much anyway. Someone can stand guard nearby.â The rudest of the men walked past the cell, pounding a fist against the bars before he disappeared from sight.
Not much later, the other two followed, leaving Aerin in silence once more.
Tears started to well in his eyes, and he wiped them before they could fall. Crying wouldnât fix anything. He had failed. The Shadow Court was in pieces. Now, he would spend the rest of whatever life he may have left trapped in this cell.
Alone. Hated. Abandoned.
Memories of his first encounter with Raine and her friends in the Deadwood haunted him. He remembered their first kiss. In those fleeting moments, he had allowed himself to believe that people might value him more than Baldur. For the first time in his life, he had been shown kindness.
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Everything about the situation felt like magic. The air came alive, and Aerin could forget for a moment about the pain that burned throughout his body when Raine looked at him.
She gave his hands a tight squeeze, shifting closer until her lips brushed against his.
Wow. He was sure he said something without realizing it, a flicker of joy igniting deep within as she kissed him again. Aerin never wanted it to end.
When Raine said that she was glad they understood each other, even more hope worked its way into his heart. Perhaps he was not as alone as he had thought. Perhaps someone truly could understand him. The thoughts stayed with him until they parted ways. Then, the pain returned.
Do not forget the objective. The words hissed inside his mind, and he glanced back at Raineâs tent, narrowing his eyes.
How was it that this young woman could cast doubt on him?
âGrowing quite fond of the peasant, are you, pipsqueak?â Baldurâs voice induced rage that Aerin had to try his best to ignore. âCanât say it surprises me. Of course you would associate with those scum.â
Aerin tried to walk away, but Baldur grabbed him by the back of his tunic and yanked him backward.
âWhen your future king speaks to you, you are expected to answer. Or shall we visit the good old days, brother?â Baldur stared into his eyes, malice reflected in them.
One day, Aerin would make Baldur pay. But today was not that day.
He tried not to retaliate when his brother shoved him so hard, he fell to the ground. Ever since childhood, things had always been this way. And no one cared.
No one cared that the younger prince was bullied by the crown prince. King Arlan even encouraged Baldur at times, brushing the abuse off as childâs play. No one could see him for what he truly was. A coward. An imbecile. A fool.
âThey saved our lives,â Aerin said, brushing the dirt off his tunic as he rose to his feet. âHow else should I treat them?â
Baldur started to approach, his face twisted into a sneer. âJust you wait until we return home. Iââ
âIs there a problem here?â
Both princes turned their heads in the direction of the voice. The orc watched them, a scowl on her face when she looked at Baldur.
âN-noââ His brother fumbled over his words, his eyes wide.
Aerin hid a smirk when Baldur scurried away, the terror giving him amusement. âThank you,â he said to Imtura, who grunted in response and focused her attention elsewhere.
Once he was alone, the smile dropped, and he leaned against a tree, trying to steady his breathing. The Stone fused to his chest caused constant pain. No matter how hard he tried to ignore it, it would not go away.
But it was a price he was willing to pay to become the King of Shadow.
The Dreadlord was his one friend. Before this, Aerin had no purpose. Heâd been little more than his older brotherâs punching bag, forever ignored by the rest of the court.
Soon enough, he would have all he needed. The shards would help him to return the Shadow Court to glory. Finally, people would bow to him. He would no longer live in his brotherâs shadow, forced to endure endless torment and abuse.
His time was coming.
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The people above ground continued going on with their lives while Aerin sat in darkness.
Time lost all meaning in the dungeons. Sunlight could no longer reach him here.
âYou have a visitor.â
Aerin looked up at the sound of the guardâs voice, trying to conceal the surprise he felt at that statement. âWho?â
Without answering the question, the guard craned his neck back and called out down the dark hallway. âHeâs ready to see you!â
âWhat? You didnât answer my question! Iââ Aerin paused mid-sentence when a familiar figure emerged from the shadows, her lips set in a hard line. He couldnât stop himself from smiling, speaking her name in a breathy tone. âRaine.â
Her hair was in its usual low bun, parted down the middle. The last signs of her injuries from the fight were fading, the bruises just visible in the dim lighting.
âAerin.â For a moment, emotion flickered across her face, but she composed herself so fast he may have imagined it. âHow are you?â
He grinned, looking around the cell. âWell, Iâm alive. How are you?â
âListen, Iââ There it was again. The conflict. Raine cleared her throat, her eyes shining with unshed tears. âIt is not too late to change. The Dreadlord is gone. You donât have to worry about your brother anymore. Weââ
âYou have five minutes. That is all we can give you.â Aerin focused his attention on the guard, sending him a glare that was enough to make the man retreat. âTen minutes,â he said as he hurried down the hallway.
As soon as they were alone, he looked at Raine again. âYou lied to me. You said youâd still have me, even as I am. And you lied.â
She uncrossed her arms, and the stony expression fell away. âI didnât lie. Aerin, I do care about you. That moment we shared in the forest was real. But what you were doing was wrong. We couldnât let you win.â
âYouâre just like the rest of them. No one understands me.â He turned away, regretting that he had spent the past two weeks awaiting her visit.
Raine watched him without speaking a word. The water continued to drip onto the stone floor, creating a quiet melody.
âI know that the Aerin I fell for is still in there.â
The words made him inhale sharply, and he turned to look at her. Had they crossed paths sooner, perhaps everything would be different.
She made him forget about his terrible childhood, of the abuse heâd faced at the hands of Baldur. Only Raine had shown him true affection. She almost made him want to believe in the Light. That things could get better, if only he had the courage to fight off the fragments of corruption and evil that were intertwined with his soul.
âThat Aerin wasnât real. I stopped believing in the goodness of the world a long time ago.â He wanted her to leave. To let him live out what little time he had left in silence.
Raine stepped closer, wrapping her hands around the cell bars. âYour father sent me here to try and talk some sense into you. He told me that none of what happened was your fault, that the Onyx Shardââ
âDo you have any idea how it felt to spend my entire childhood beaten by my brother as my father stood by and did nothing?â Aerin refused to look her in the eye. âAll I ever dreamt about was having someone who loved me. I found that in the Dreadlord. He promised me power. He told me that I would no longer be weak, that I could find a family who cared about me when the people of Morella did not. How could you possibly understand how that feels?â
âIââ Raine shook her head, chewing on her bottom lip as she searched for the words to say. She remained just outside the cell, watching him. After some time had passed, she opened her mouth to answer. âI donât understand how that feels, youâre right. But youâre wrong when you say no one loves you. Or that the Shadow Court was a family that cared about you. Iâm here to help you. You donât have to live in fear anymore.â
They both tensed when footsteps pounded on the stone toward them. Raine turned to look, frowning as the guard approached.
He spared Aerin a quick glance before returning his attention to Raine. âTimeâs up. Letâs get you out of here.â
âWait! Justâhey!â The guard grabbed her by the arm and started to drag her away, but she elbowed him in the side, flinging herself against the cell door. âAerin, I believe in you, okay? I know thatââ
The guard grabbed her again, and she once more fought him off.
âIâll come back to see you again. You arenât alone. Iââ
This time, the guard grabbed her around the waist and heaved her back. Raine tried to fight him some more, but he called for backup. Together, three guards dragged her away from the cell, all the while she continued to yell promises.
âIâll return!â Her final words echoed throughout the dungeon, followed by the sounds of a struggle as the guards carried her off.
Once silence rushed back in, Aerin struggled to his feet, crossing the cell to the door. He peeked outside, unsurprised to see the dungeon empty. If he listened close enough, he thought he might hear the sounds of a continuing fight overhead.
You arenât alone.
It was too good to be true. Part of him didnât believe her words. And yet, he wanted to take consolation in that statement. Perhaps Raine really did mean it when she said she cared.
Aerin shook his head and started to laugh. His laughter rang out in the cell, and for the first time in years, he felt hopeful.
#choices: stories you play#choices fanfiction#aerin valleros#aerin x mc#prince aerin#bolas#blades#blades of light and shadow#play choices#this is a mess but I kinda like it
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Operation Confession (Dimitri x F!Reader) [Ch. 3] [FINALE]
hi!! well, this is it. the final chapter of operation confession. to be very honest, with everything going on it was quite difficult to write this, but i hope the quality is still relatively the same as my previous chapters! i had so much fun writing this series, and i hope reading it was just as entertaining! thank you so much for sticking with it-- it means the absolute world to me :)
this will prob be my last post for a bit before i head off to college; please rest assured i do not plan to leave this blog or this wonderful community anytime soon! thank you for being patient with me as i adjust to this very new chapter of my life!!
without further ado, please enjoy ch. 3!
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âHey, false alarm!â Sylvain traipsed back in, hands behind his head. â(F/N) and Felix are actually gonna freshen up a bit before heading to dinner.â
Groans and angry huffs spilled out of the frazzled Lions; the menacing stares that the redhead bore made him squeak, and he cleared his throat.
âHey, look, Iâm sorry! They ran into us while His Highness was changing--â
âWhile he was changing?â Dedue and Ingrid looked like they were about to have a stroke.
âI-Itâs a long and,â Sylvain looked at The Hand, âpainful story, but whatâs important is that they didnât see him! All thanks to Yours Truly.â
âYou were a blubbering idiot. The only reason why (F/N) didnât bother questioning you further was because she was too tired to care.â Felix joined in, the permanent scowl on his features deepening.
âFelix!â Sylvainâs countenance lit up joyfully before hazing into confusion. âWait, I thought you were gonna freshen up before heading to dinner.â
âI donât need to. Hardly broke a sweat during training.â
âW-What?! How?!â
âI guess you wouldnât understand, seeing as how your only form of exercise is chasing after anything that wears a skirt.â
Sylvainâs eyes took on a glossy, hollow quality as the Lions hollered in laughter.
âUh... So Sylvain, whereâs His Highness?â Asked Annette, having expected him to walk in.
âOh, he ran back to his quarters to put his clothes away. He should be coming back any minute now.â
â ℠⣠----------------------------------------------------------- ⣠℠â
After neatly hanging his uniform in his closet and giving himself a quick once-over in the mirror, he gave himself one last pep talk before swinging the door open and--
Seeing the side of your head as you idly engaged in conversation with a fellow student.
Oh Sothis, help him.
As quickly (and loudly) as he opened the door, he closed it and promptly went back inside to scream into his pillow. Where in the world did you even come from? Werenât you supposed to be âfreshening up?â Your quarters werenât even down this hallway; what in the Goddessâs name were you even doing here?
He pressed his ear further into the door, straining to pick up bits and pieces of your conversation in hopes to inform himself on your sudden visitation. Nothing. All he could hear was muffled banter bouncing between either of you-- muffled banter that didnât sound like it was going to end any time soon. He screamed curses in his head and awkwardly slid down onto the floor, lightly banging his cranium against the solid wooden door.
He desperately wished for someone, anyone to save him.
He sighed while rubbing his temples-- a desperate attempt to quell the arising headache. Dimitri combed through his options, each less viable than the last. After eliminating any and all half-baked ideas of escape, he was face-to-face with the one option he didnât want to consider.
Sit here and wait until you left.
So Dimitri sat (more like paced) in his room, occasionally pressing his ear against the door in hopes that he didnât hear your lighthearted banter outside. Why was it the one time he didnât want to run into you, there you were! Right outside his door. You might as well have come with a giant bow on your head!
The floor beneath him rumbled slightly, pulling him from his thoughts; the even pacing grew stronger and stronger until it stopped just a little ways past his door.
â(F/N).â
Wait... Thatâs... Itâs unmistakable! That has to be--!
âDedue! Hello!â
âI apologize for the interruption, but I have come to remind you that it is your turn to tend to the greenhouse today.â
A short pause ensued, followed by an audible gasp.
âWait, yes! Youâre right! Iâve completely forgotten, thank you so much for reminding me!â
Dimitri heard muffled apologies and goodbyes sputter out of your lips, followed by light footsteps scurrying away. Your former companion proceeded to engage in very light talk with the Duscur man before quickly excusing themselves from the scene; Dedue, glancing down the hall to ensure that no one else was nearby, approached and gently rapped his lordâs door with calloused knuckles.
âYour Highness, you may come out now.â
The inner mechanisms of the door clicked softly, the hesitancy of the roomâs occupant translating directly through the brass knob.
âOh, thank the Goddess you came, Dedue. Frankly, I had given up any hope of escape.â Dimitri rubbed the back of his neck tiredly.
âI knew something was wrong when you did not return. I am glad that I came.â Dedue gave a curt bow.
âThank you Dedue. Come. Let us head to the dining hall, shall we?â
âOf course, Your Highness. (F/N) should be preoccupied with her greenhouse duties for a time.â
âYes... Actually, Dedue, how did you know it was (F/N)âs turn to tend to the greenhouse today?â
âTruthfully, Your Highness, I didnât. It was pure luck she was scheduled today.â
âYou mean--â Dimitriâs eyes widened.
âYes. That was just a fluke. I have no knowledge of the schedule, other than the times either you or I are assigned.â
âHah!â Dimitriâs hand landed on his retainerâs shoulder. âWhat luck! After hearing that, I can not help but feel a bit more confident about tonight.â
âAnd why is that, Your Highness?â
âIf fate is as real as the ground beneath us, I would say that, perhaps, (F/N) and I are truly meant to be together.â
âThat is quite a romantic notion, Your Highness.â
âIt is, isnât it?â Dimitri sighed as they crossed the threshold to the outside. The sun was just starting its descent past the hills; the slowly extinguishing rays of light brushed the sky with vibrant hues of vermilion and marigold.
âDespite that, I can not help but feel... hopeful. And... happy.â
âI am glad that this whole experience has collectively been a pleasant one, Your Highness.â Dedue responded as they neared the dining hall. âYou deserve to be happy.â
Dedueâs words echoed in Dimitriâs head, ringing alongside Sylvainâs previous sentiment. Guilt wrung his heart until the familiar pangs of remorse pounded in his chest.
âDo I... Do I really deserve such a thing?â
âWithout a doubt, Your Highness.â
âEven after everything that Iâve done... Even after... everything... I still... deserve it?â
âOf course, Your Highness. You deserve to be happy, just like everybody else.â
As the duo ascended the stairs and approached the Lions that were all congregated together for Dimitriâs cause, the princeâs features relaxed and-- just for a moment-- the voices that incessantly plagued his thoughts ceased.
âThank you, Dedue.â
âI am always happy to help, Your Highness.â Like his prince, Dedueâs rough exterior melted away to reveal a warm, genuine smile.
âHey, there you are!â Sylvain bounded up to them, meeting them halfway across the platform. âWe were gettinâ worried about you! What happened?â
After Dimitri and Dedue explained what transpired, Sylvain couldnât help but laugh at the terrible wonderful luck that Dimitri possessed.
"Dedue really got you out of a tough spot, huh?â
âAs he always does.â Dimitri cast a grateful look at his retainer.
âI was shocked when I learned that (F/N) was actually scheduled today.â
âWhat were you gonna do if she wasnât?â Sylvain queried.
Dedue paused thoughtfully.
âPerhaps I could have asked her to help me weed the courtyard, or to tend the horses.â
âFair enough.â Sylvain nodded. âWell, itâs getting late so people are starting to leave the dining hall. Hopefully by the time (F/N) is done tending the plants, you two will be all alone.â
Sylvain wriggled his eyebrows and peered cheekily at the reddening face of the prince.
âPlease do not be so nervous, Your Highness. (F/N) will surely appreciate all the effort you had put in.â
âYeah!â Sylvain propped an arm on Dimitriâs shoulder. âRemember what I told you, Your Highness? Youâre the leader of the Blue Lions! Start actinâ like your namesake! You gotta be bold!â
âR-Right. Bold.â Truthfully, Dimitri looked anything but; however, this only prompted a deluge of much-needed encouragement and hype that the two happily supplied-- Sylvain taking a more... fiery approach to his psyching while Dedue slightly doused the ecstatic flames set by the redhead with more grounded assurances.
âNow remember, Your Highness. Look her in the eyes, smile, and tell her that sheâs beautiful. Like this!â Sylvain turned to Dedue, who suddenly became an unwilling participant in the playboyâs example.
âHey, babe. You look gorgeous tonight. I gotta admit, Iâm no mathematician, but I can still see youâre a ten outta ten.â
âPlease get away from me ... Thank you, Sylvain.â
Dimitri stared at the duo with a confused fixed smile plastered on his face. The gears in his head took their sweet, sweet time to churn and process the cursed pick-up line, but it eventually clicked.
âHah! I get it now! Thatâs a great one, Sylvain. Iâll definitely remember that.â
A flush of pride stained Sylvainâs cheeks and he rubbed the back of his neck.
âThanks! Oh, hereâs another one. This oneâs also super popular with the ladies.â
Sylvain cleared his throat and turned to Dedue, who was quietly trying to shuffle away.
âHey, hun. Do you have a map? I keep getting lost in your eyes.â
âIf that is the case, perhaps it would be in your best interest to stop looking at me.â Dedue lightly glared. Dimitriâs eyes crinkled gleefully.
âAh, these are all wonderful! I look forward to using them on (F/N).â
âGreat! But remember Your Highness-- too much of a good thing is a bad thing. You canât just spout a couple lines like that and expect her to fall for you instantly. You gotta do it tastefully.â
âTastefully... Got it.â
Dimitri nodded his head, soaking and digesting this newfound knowledge. His eyes suddenly shot up, excitement bubbling out of its watery depths.
âOh! It appears that I have come up with something!â
âGo for it, Your Highness!â
âIâve got no taste, but Iâd still like a bite of you.â
. . .
. . .
. . .
âSylvain?â
. . .
. . .
âDedue?â
. . .
â... Perhaps the map one wasnât so terrible after all.â
âYou said it, Dedue.â
âWha--! Surely it wasnât that atrocious, was it?â
âI believe it would serve His Highness well if you taught him more pick-up lines, Sylvain.â
âSure. Whatever it takes to keep him from saying stuff like that.â
âH-Hey!!!â
â ℠⣠----------------------------------------------------------- ⣠℠â
After sprinkling the few remaining drops of water onto a patch of slightly wilting plants, you dropped the empty watering can with a clatter and threw your arms high above your head, stretching all the bundles and ties that knotted in your shoulders. Your stomach gurgled and a pulse of hunger radiated throughout your core. Perhaps it wasnât the brightest idea to completely skip your meals.
You placed the watering can in the shed and, making sure everything was as orderly as it could be, stalked out of the greenhouse while still massaging the few stubborn knots that remained tied in your muscles. The sun had long disappeared below the horizon; whatever light remained served only as a prelude to the beginnings of a starry night.
A nippy breeze nibbled your exposed skin, contrasting the slightly humid atmosphere that youâve grown accustomed to in the greenhouse. Teeth chattering and tummy churning, you hastened your feet to move faster to the brightly lit dining hall.
As you approached the door, you were pleasantly surprised to see that the hall was practically empty, save for some guards and faculty sneaking in a nightly snack-- but even they didnât linger for long. As you were racking your brain for ideas on what to eat, you walked into the warm building; the ambrosial aroma of succulent, roasted duck caught your attention immediately.
To say that you didnât shed a small tear from the experience would be a lie.
You scouted and scoured the kitchen for the fowl of your dreams, but it eluded you. Where in the world could this duck--
âA-Ahem.â
You had come dangerously close to collapsing from shock.
Your body jumped and slowly turned around to face the owner of the voice.
âGood evening, (F/N). You look as radiant as ever.â
A young man wearing a white suit decorated with small pins and medals stood before you. Gloved, quivering fingers delicately brushed the lone strands of hair that slipped onto his forehead to the side.
âD-Dimitri...? Is that you?â
âAh y-yes, it is I. Please forgive me if I had surprised you.â
âN-Not at all!â You replied, your cognitive processes hiccuping at the sight of this magnificent angel. The light from the torch gently surrounded the prince with an almost ethereal quality, rendering him simply divine. The corner of his lips turned up slightly, pulling his handsome features into a half-smirk.
âPlease, allow me to escort you to our table.â
âO-Okay...â
He took a step towards you and his eyes flickered down; you followed his gaze and saw his slightly shaking hand slowly reaching for yours.
âMay I...?â
Whether it was a simple case of the jitters or the excitement bubbling from within, it didnât matter much as you enthusiastically clasped your hand in his. Dimitri froze in place, every muscle in his being stiffening at that small point of contact. However, he managed to get his racing pulse (somewhat) under control-- just enough to pull you into a stiff walk at least.
âPlease follow me, (F/N).â
The pounding in Dimitriâs heart found its way into his ears, drumming and thundering an aggressive beat. He never knew that fear and glee could intertwine so readily with one another-- until he felt your hand gently press into his palm. Worries and questions and warmth spurred his thoughts into a hazy flurry of emotion. Was he squeezing too hard? Was he holding your hand correctly? Were you at all uncomfortable? Oh Goddess, you look so beautiful when you smile like that--
âAh! Dimitri, what is all this?â
âW-Well,â Dimitri swallowed what felt like a boulder, âit is our dinner.â
âOur... Dinner...?â
âYes. Um...â His locked fingers reluctantly separated from yours. âWe have prepared a roasted duck, a fine, savory pastry called âgarlic bread,â a simple salad, and baked sweets made by Mercedes. I pray this is enough to whet your appetite.â
âYou whet my appetite Everything looks so good...â You swallowed thickly, eyes resting heavily on the succulent fowl. âHeh, well... I actually didnât eat at all today, so--â
âI beg your pardon?!â You blinked and immediately found yourself sitting in front of the palatable entrees. Dimitriâs countenance-- full of concern and tinged with anger-- stared at you from across the sea of food.
âYou mustnât skip meals. That is terribly unhealthy for you.â
âYouâre one to talk, Dimitri!â You laughed. âYou skip meals all the time!â
Dimitriâs visage fell and his entire face took on all shades of red.
âI... admit, I am not one to berate you on this matter, but regardless, I ask that you still heed my warnings... You should never skip meals.â
Giggling to yourself, you rested your chin on folded hands and your head tilted slightly. That, combined with your killer smile and rosy cheeks, introduced Dimitriâs palpitating heart to a livelier pace.
âOkay, okay. Iâm sorry. I promise Iâll do my best not to skip meals.â
âUrgh-- Yes! Please... donât.â
Your lips curved into a smile and your eyes lustily darted to the food in front of you.
âWell, letâs dig in, shall we?â
You, of course, immediately reached for the duck-- as did Dimitri.
Your hands collided en route to the silver cutlery by the fowl, and a fountain of apologies spewed out of either of you. Dimitri, somehow managing to awkwardly bounce back from the innocent error, cleared his throat and took this opportunity to impress you with his... gentlemanly charms.
âPlease excuse me, (F/N). Allow me to cut a slice for you.â
âOh! Well, um... sure?â
Dimitriâs fingers rounded the shiny handles of the knife and fork before cutting into the tender meat. Delectable smells spilled forth from the bird, eliciting a growl from your stomach-- a... very, very loud growl. A growl that was loud enough for Dimitri to stop and look up.
âUh... Iâd like to apologize...â You mumbled ashamedly, your cheeks growing hot to the touch.
Dimitri chuckled, slipping a thick slice of duck onto your plate along with a small bushel of salad, a few pieces of garlic bread, and some sweets.
âDo not worry, my Beloved. I know you havenât eaten all day.â
You smiled, graciously accepting your plate filled to the brim with food. You cut the slice of meat into more manageab--
Wait...
âBeloved?â
It seemed that Dimitri realized his mistake around the same time you did.
âDimitri--â
âEr, (F/N)! Aside from this morning, how was your day?â
âHuh? I-I mean it was fine, but Dimitri--â
âAh, splendid! I am glad your day had gotten better. I was really worried when you suddenly left class like that.â
âDimitri,â you cut in, âdid you just call me... your... âBeloved?ââ
Dimitri simply sat there as his brain was fried and shriveled into a crisp.
âW-Well, uh, I-- You see-- I deeply apologize for-- That was, very inappropriate of me--â
âOh! No, no, itâs okay... Um, I was just a bit surprised is all.â You brought your cup to your lips in a pathetic attempt to cover the bashful grin that threatened to escape.
âAh... Of course...â Dimitri stabbed a small tomato with the prongs of his fork and shoveled it into his mouth, his cheeks seeming to absorb the color of the little red berry.
You cleared your throat and thumbed the surface of a macaron with light fingers, a heavy silence blanketing the table. The quietly screaming royal took a bite of some garlic bread, his brain hardly processing the soft, fluffy texture of the dish.
Dimitriâs eyes widened inconspicuously, his mind flashing to the one thing that could save this dumpster fire of a date from certain demise--
His pick-up lines.
He could only pray that you were a fan of such things.
He cleared his throat and borderline slammed his fists onto the table, rocking a handful of mini cupcakes from their tiered seats. You quite literally jumped in your seat and got caught in the fierce stare of your house leader.
He can do this.
Come on, Dimitri! Remember your training with Sylvain!
He can do this.
Be a lion! Be bold!
He can do this!
âA-Are you ten? Because y-you look lost and Iâd like to bite you.â
. . .
. . .
. . .
If-- in that moment-- Dimitri were to suddenly be thrown onto the path of a charging chariot, he would make no effort to move.
Simultaneously, you were well on your way to combusting into open flames-- if your swiftly coloring cheeks were any indication of that.
Neither of you spoke for a long time, gawking at the other in a silent, unconscious contest to see who could reach strawberry red first.
And Dimitri was the unwilling winner.
âI--â
âYou--â
âI am so--â
âWhat did you--?â
âI am so, so sorry--â
âYou want to bite me--?â
âOh Goddess, I am so sorry (F/N)-- I can explain--â
âU-Um, perhaps it would be best for me to go...â
âWait!â Dimitri shot out of his seat with a clatter. âI-- um--â
âGoodnight, Dimitri.â
You made a mad dash for the door, leaving the flustering royal a metaphoric fish out of water.
â(F/N)!â
He tailed after you, the delicious food that he and all the other Lions labored to prepare becoming a distant memory.
The sun and any trace of it had all but vanished from sight, replaced by its nightly counterpart. You were speed walking to the stairs when your wrist was snagged by a firm grip.
"(F/N)...!â
âDimitri, listen, I really appreciate the food and everything, but I really should get going now--â
âWait, please! I...â He gulped, finally throwing caution to the wind. âI love you.â
Your heart had stopped beating altogether and your lungs ceased operations. Your clenched jaw prohibited you from speaking, and you simply stared at him as those three simple words resonated in your mind.
âEr, that is to say...â He sighed, resignation taking hold of his features. âCan we... talk about this please?â
He loosely pointed to a nearby bench shaded under a tall tree. His hard grip softened, moving to interlace his fingers with yours as he led the two of you to the secluded spot. He sat with a deep exhale and pulled you beside him.
â(F/N).â He gazed at you steadily, his fingers rubbing shallow circles into your hands. âIt is no exaggeration on my end to say that you mean everything to me. I-- along with the other Lions-- labored to make tonight the best it could be. Though truthfully, I never imagined my confession would turn out like this. But alas...â
Dimitri chuckled tiredly then sighed.
âIâm afraid I canât hide my feelings for you a moment longer. I love you, (F/N). With all of my being. You motivate me to work harder, train harder-- to be a better man. You are so kind, and smart, and... absolutely mesmerizing. I can not keep my eyes off you, really.â
He laughed at your sheepish response then continued.
âYou mean the world to me. So... I humbly ask that you... Um...â He cleared his throat and lowered his voice to a husky whisper. âBe mine.â
A gentle breeze swept through, carrying his small plea along with it. He stared at you, intensely and unblinkingly, with bated breath.
âAlthough,â he added, pain thinly veiled in his eyes, âif you do not feel the same way, I understand. I promise I will not hold anything against you. If itâs not too much trouble, I... I hope we can still be friends after all this--â
You dove straight into Dimitriâs arms, effectively knocking his words and the air right out of him. You felt his muscles tighten and the thumping in his chest blared loudly in your ears. You nuzzled your face into him and looked up, smiling.
âI love you too, Dima!â
D-Dima...?!
Poor Dimitri looked like he was about to choke. The little streams of moonlight that slipped through the holes in the trees reflected off of the princeâs reddening face; for a long time, all he could do was stare at you-- cheeks darkening and eyes widening.
Finally, the Goddess re-granted him the ability to speak.
âR-Really...?â
âYes! Yes, I do!â Your arms moved from his torso to snake around his neck, pulling him a bit more to your level. âI love you, Dimitri. Iâve loved you for so long...â
You drew him into a hug again, burying your face in the crook of his neck. The crisp, sharp scent of his cologne flooded your senses, sending pleasant tingles and goosebumps throughout your body. You felt the princeâs arms wound around your frame, pulling you closer to his racing heart.
âIf this is a dream, I wish to never wake.â He muttered into your hair, thankful that he could appreciate the light apple notes that came from it to the fullest.
âThis isnât a dream, Dimitri.â You whispered against his skin, causing a sweet shiver to run down his spine. âI love you, Dimitri. I love you so, so much...â
âMy (F/N)... My Beloved...â He pulled away from you slightly, cupping your cheeks in his hands and brushing it gently. He could hardly contain all the love and pure adoration he held towards you; the way that you and only you reflected in his beautiful eyes showed that. With a gentle smile he pressed his forehead against yours, relishing the moment.
âMay I... May I have the honor of kissing you, my love?â
His hot breath tickled your sensitive skin and you couldnât help but laugh at the sensation, in addition to his endearingly adorable politeness.
âYes, you may.â
Dimitriâs eyes flickered to your slightly parted, wet lips and leaned closer, his eyes fluttering shut. You followed suit, guided only by the synchronous beating of your hearts. A warmth like no other blossomed upon your lips, melting any and all tension into nothingness. Your lips engaged in a clumsy yet heartfelt dance, eliciting an airy chortle out of you.
Dimitriâs chest rumbled with a chuckle of his own and he parted to catch his breath. Not a moment later, his lips found yours again and again, more ravenous than the last. Each kiss left your head spinning faster and your heart wanting more, more, more. His teeth nibbled your bottom lip, drawing out a gasp from you; his fingers found residence in your hair as he slipped his hot tongue into your mouth. He explored your wet cavern excitedly, every one of his senses wracked with newfound pleasure. Your moans and sharp breaths intertwined heatedly, sending your thoughts into a frenzy and numbing oblivion all at once.
The chatter of guards and metal boots clanking against cobble spurred warning bells in your head, and a painful reminder of how exposed you were for any curious passerby. Dimitri reluctantly leaned away, still pressing his lips to yours until the last possible moment.
âAhem... M-My apologies... I got a little too excited just now...â Dimitri panted, a dazed yet elated expression on his face. You, panting as hard as he, shook your head in response and pressed a chaste kiss on his forehead, down to his nose, his cheek, and finally stopping at his flushed, pink lips.
âNot a problem, Dimitri. I know you mentioned you wanted to bite me.â You gazed at him teasingly.
âT-Thatâs...â Dimitri sighed, burying his face in your neck to hide his blush (though how hot his skin felt against yours was all the confirmation you needed). âPlease donât tell anyone what I said...â
You snickered and patted his head, smiling when you felt him relax into your touch.
âOkaaay, I promise.â
âGood. Thank you, (F/N).â
He pulled away from your neck and adjusted himself into a more comfortable seating position. He securely placed his arm around your shoulder and you both sat in comfortable silence for a long time.
âItâs getting quite late, no?â Dimitri mumbled out of the blue. âAllow me to walk you back to your room.â
âActually, Dima... Do you think we can go back and finish dinner? Iâm still really hungry...â
âO-Oh! I have completely forgotten about that! Yes, of course we can. Although... Regrettably, our food would have gotten cold by now.â
âThatâs okay. Being with you warms my heart anyways.â
âAh-- Um--â Dimitri coughed, looking away. âI confess that your teasing will take some getting used to... But it is a pleasant thing nonetheless.â
You giggled as he stood up and helped you to your feet.
âHey, Dimitri?â
âYes, my Beloved?â
âI love you.â
Dimitri planted a soft kiss on your forehead and stared fondly into your eyes.
âI love you too, (F/N).â
bonus: despite swearing to himself that he would *never* use pick-up lines ever again (its powers being too great for any mortal to fully wield), dimitri would still indulge a line or two for you if you asked him hard enough (and swore on your life you would never divulge what he shared with you to anyone else). and yes, when you two eventually got more comfortable with each other, he did get a bite of you from time-to-time but thatâs a story for another day.
#fire emblem#fire emblem three houses#fe3h dimitri#fe3h#dimitri fire emblem#dimitri x reader#fluff#dimitri alexandre blaiddyd#fire emblem x reader#x reader fanfiction#x reader insert#i had to pull so many all nighters for this one#hopefully the quality didn't tank or anything IJSDLFJLSDJF#fire emblem three houses fanfiction
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Your Shape.
notes: never in my life thought iâd write an original thing again, but i had a lot of fun!!! i was feeling super overwhelmed and decided to put my maladaptive daydream about a meet-cute with a mysterious entity in a forest into words. rating: teen, we stay tame in these woods pairing: mysterious entity boyfriend idk / reader word count: 3,286
The shape in the forest wants to know if you are warm enough. Moonlight falls over the crown of your head, so yellow and full as to be a parody of sunshine. This late in September, with the harvest coming soon, it is easy to confuse the two.
But the shape does not ask, he does not want to scare you. Your shoulders are slouched, cheeks pressed to your palms to hide tears and sobs. He wants to know if you are unhappy, too. He imagines you have already given him a fair answer, despite not having spoken at all.
A dirt-caked hand curls around the trunk of a tree. The shape leans out of the dark, eyes aglow and horns in danger of bumping on a branch overhead. He ducks a bit, takes a careful step forward. If he were anyone else, the twig under his foot might have snapped and made a sound. But there is an understanding between them, an old promise. The only noise in the night is of your crying.
âItâs too much,â you whisper, half-wailing around the air being pushed from your lungs. You press a hand over your mouth and for a moment, all is quiet.Â
The shape decides he does not like that at all. You are unhappy, heâs sure of it, so why not express it?
âWhat is?â he asks, compelled to speak when before he had stayed silent. You were not crying before, he rations. You did not need help then as you do now.
You turn at the sound of his voice, it is as cold and as full as the moon in the sky. It belongs there, that voice, between the trees. You peer into the dark, not afraid of what might be speaking, but why. Creatures are not uncommon, it is their motivations you have been taught to fear.
A breeze picks up, pushing cool air at your hot cheeks. The feeling is almost pleasant, itâs accompanied by the sound of rustling leaves. Or perhaps of footsteps from your newfound companion.Â
He does not walk as a human might, though he is shaped like one. With the grass, too, he has an understanding and his gait is as noiseless and natural as the way that he speaks. You stare up, up, up at him, craning your neck until you find his face.
It is a handsome face, which does not immediately set you at ease. You see the outline of his head and shoulders, framed by two horns extending back against the starlit sky. But the rest of him is a mystery. It disappears into the shadows that knit in a circle around the glade.
âEverything,â you answer with honesty, for it is the best policy.
âI can understand, then, why you are upset,â he replies.Â
Your sweater scratches your cheeks as you wipe away tears. But you are very careful to keep one eye open and fixed on the shape, the visitor. It is not very smart to do more than blink in their company.
Still, you make noise. Soft sounds of life, of breath as you try to stifle sobs. Crying gets you nowhere, you remember, especially not with an audience.
âHow long have you been watching me?â you ask, careful not to sound accusatory. You are not accusing him of anything, you are only curious.
âI did not mean to infringe on your privacy,â he returns.
âThis forest is your home,â you reason. The shape gives a slow shake of his horned head.
âIt is home to everyone,â he says, âespecially to those who need somewhere safe to cry.â
âThank you,â you nod, âbut have not answered me.â
âLonger than you would be comfortable with,â he replies, âI am sorry.â
âThatâs a little vague,â you say.
âNot to me,â he says, âI have seen you here before. Not often, but I have.â
âOh,â you pass your sleeve over your left eye once more, âI meant tonight, but I appreciate the truth.â
Itâs becoming easier to control the way your chest moves. The compulsive need to breathe quickly slows with your heart rate. You are not calm, but you are managing.
âYou looked happy before,â he says, âthe last time you were here.â
âThe last time I was here, things were---â you sigh, dropping your hand and your head. Though you remember very suddenly the dangers of doing so. But when your eyes return quickly to the shapeâs again, you notice no change in his appearance. âThey were different.â
âThey were better?â he asks. Defeated, you nod.
âI am so tired,â you let out a slow breath.
âIf you slept here,â he begins, âno one else would bother you. That is a promise.â
âAnd you keep your promises,â you state, knowing better than to insult him by phrasing that as a question.
âI do,â he says, âthe grass is comfortable, the trees keep out most of the rain. Every night I have known life, I have spent it on the floor of a forest.â
âThat sounds nice,â you admit. But you are not so foolish as to blindly trust visitors. âI donât want to go home.â
âIs it very difficult to be there?â he cocks his head to the side, the moonlight falling on a sharp cheekbone. A shadow pools there, you stare with more curiosity than perhaps you ought. The shape doesnât seem to mind.
âIt is,â you reply, âitâs quite lonely, too. Even when Iâm spoken to, I feel alone.â
The visitor hums, the sound like the wind against tree boughs. Could he understand?
âI am here,â he says, âfor what it is worth.â
You pause, considering his eyes that have not left yours once. Not even to blink. They are a strange colour, glassy but focused very intently on the curve of your face. They look, you consider, like the yellow moon that hangs so close to the edge of the forest.
Round and wide and curious, he stares at you. Not as one might stare at an insect, but as an interesting person.
âSo am I,â you reply. And a hesitant smile of your own joins his.
âYou have family,â he says, âfriends who love you?â and the question at the end cuts like a knife.
âI have nobody,â you say, âthough a few would likely search for me. It would be out of habit.â
âHabit?â he asks.
âBecause I would do the same for them,â you explain, âmy friends and I look after each other. But weâre not very close.â
âYou need not be afraid of me,â he says. And that otherworldly smile returns, but it does little to dissuade the butterflies in your stomach.
The shape moves a bit closer, until only his horns are silhouetted against the inky sky. You can see him a bit better, though his lower body still remains a mystery.
You find yourself looking closely at his hands, searching the dirt and grass stains for signs of blood or cruelty. You find neither.
âI am not afraid,â you say, following a shiver.
âYes, you are,â he says, âI am sorry. I frighten people, I know. But you need not reassure me that you shall be looked for.â
âForce of habit,â you say, âIâve been told stories all my life, advised to be careful about what I say to visitors.â
âI understand. It is wise for you to follow that advice, but I will not hurt you,â he says.
âAnd you keep your promises,â you repeat, the smile once again curling on the corners of your mouth.
He surprises you with a laugh, the sound fills your chest even by proxy. As full and soft as his voice, the shapeâs laugh makes you feel whole. It isnât cold any more, you realize. A familiarity blooms in the way he speaks to you already. Perhaps he truly does understand the need for companionship.
You shift a little on the log, deciding to believe him. Not trust, not yet, but to believe.
âI am afraid, but Iâm not scared of you,â you say, âwould you sit?â
âCan you be both at the same time?â he asks, though he starts forward towards where you are. Youâve straightened up, your cheeks have dried. That pleases him.Â
âI am afraid of what would hurt me, of the stories Iâve been told. But you are not like the stories, are you?â you ask. The shape slowly shakes his head. He sinks down beside you, with not a creak from the wood beneath.
âI try not to be,â he admits.
âThe woods are lovely,â you say, âI cannot blame visitors for wishing to protect them. It should be protected.â
âBut not from you,â he replies, âremember, this is also your home.â
âI never thought of it like that,â you confess.
âPerhaps not, but you do choose to come here every so often. Why?â he cocks his head to the side again, a strand of dark hair falls over his shoulder, having come loose from where it was gathered into a low plait at the back of his neck.
âNo one knows me here,â you say, âexcept for you. And donât apologize, I donât dislike that.â
âYou do not?â he straightens his neck again. His eyes widen a fraction, as does your smile.
âI forgive you for watching me. I know you meant no harm,â and the visitor nods. âI come here because I am unknown, I can be myself. I have no obligations here. The sounds and sights are never too much, the moonlight is never too bright.â
âElsewhere you feel overwhelmed,â the shape summarizes. You nod.
âPrecisely. And I sit on that feeling until I have no choice but to cry,â it is harder to admit out loud than you like. But in his bright, yellow eyes you find some form of agreement.
He really is quite handsome, you note the longer youâre allowed to look. And though you are less worried about when to blink around him, you find no evidence to suggest he is changing his shape. You suppose that a visitor with ill intent, looking to ensnare a foolish human would choose a less challenging mask.
The visitor is not quite right, unearthly as his beauty may be. His unbroken stare is a colour no mortal thing could ever have. His hair is braided, yes, but this close you can tell a brush has never touched it. What you can see of his ears is sharply triangular at the ends, rather than rounded. Dirt and dust are caked under his fingernails, you wonder if he might be a gravedigger.
But no blood, nor memory of blood pools at the corners of his thin mouth. His lips are not tinged with pale blue the way corpses are. While he is wan and waxy, he does not carry the chill that wraps around you. He may not be fully separate from the night, but he does not seem to belong to it.
âWho are you?â you ask. Youâve spoken at length about your sadness, but it has never felt so far away as it does now. The shapeâs smile falters for just a moment.
âI am not certain,â he replies.
âYou and me both,â you try to find his grin again, giving him your own so that he will not worry. âI only ask because---â
âBecause there is something sinister about me,â he finishes. And he nods, as if he has heard it before. His head dips a fraction, turning from you. All the better see the horns that sprout from it.
They are long and black as his hair, arching back from his brow. They curve, just once and end in a delicate point. And yet he moves as if they are barely a hindrance, with grace that would accompany experience.
âQuite the opposite,â you reply, âI have never heard of anyone like you.â
âI am not a gravedigger,â he replies, âand I am not a monster.â
âNo,â you agree, âyou donât eat people, living or dead?â
He curls his lip in disgust rather than answering, it makes you choke on a small giggle. The shape turns back to you, as confused by the sound as you were when he laughed. There is similar awe in his face.
âThen you could be a forest spirit,â you try, âthat would make sense.â
âIt is possible,â he concedes, âbut I do not know. I have been alone for as long as I can remember.â
âThatâs so sad,â you speak without thinking, usually a dangerous game. But the shape is unoffended by the obvious pity in your voice. Youâve given him plenty to pity you for, after all. âDo you speak to other people in the forest very often?â
âI have, but never frequently,â he replies. You still do not trust him, but his slight anxiety appears to match your own. As much as he belongs here, it appears he is not sure if he belongs here with you.
He stays a safe distance from you on the log, you shift a little closer. Though your cheeks still sting and the whites of your eyes are still red, you feel less lost in your misery. Less alone.
âI wish I never had to leave,â you sigh, âI could sit in this glade and watch the sky move forever and ever.â
âI have done so,â he says, âit is a very good way to spend oneâs time. I enjoy it.â
You trust that to be right, at least. Still, for all his flawless strangeness and otherworldly beauty, he seems very lonely. Heâs unhappy.
âI wish---â you start, but cut yourself off.Â
âI could steal you,â he says, so suddenly that you wonder how long heâs been holding it back.
âSteal me?â you ask, turing to the shape with an arched brow. But you do not, in fact, sound repulsed.
âYou would not have to return home if I did. You could stay here,â he reasons. Taken aback, you smile for the confusion.
âHave you stolen many people?â you ask.
âNo,â he says with a firm shake of his head.
âIs it a great honour?â a teasing tone creeps into your voice, your smile turning impish. The visitor smiles too, as if your joy gives him joy by proxy.
âI think it would be my honour, as you would be my guest,â he explains.Â
âBut why take me?â you ask, resisting the urge to dismiss this completely as some sort of joke.
âSo that you will not cry,â he says. And the faraway solemness in his voice stuns you to silence for a moment.Â
âLots of people cry, lots of people are afraid,â you try. He shakes his head.
âBut you are here, I am here. Your home is here,â he says. You make a sound, like a sob but softer and more amused. Bewildered.
âIs it allowed?â you know the rules in part, never to accept food from visitors or stay too long. But he isnât like the creatures in your grandmotherâs stories. And if he is, you might be willing to take the risk. Going home with this exchange behind you feels wrong.
âI do not know, I have never offered before,â he admits. You give a slow sigh.
âAre you afraid? There may be consequences,â you try to rationalize why it could never be, and the way his face falls is heartbreaking.
âI am lonely,â he confirms, ânothing else.â
âI was worried you were,â you say. You look at him, horns and all in the moonlight. You dip your head and try to catch his big, yellow eyes. He looks back with no hesitation, like he was hoping for you.
âSo, will you stay with me?â your visitor asks. His face softens, more vulnerable now than youâve seen before. And you thought you had known it all. If this is a lie, you might like to be lied to.
âRight here?â you say, foolishly. His reedy laugh fills your chest again.
âPerhaps not only here, not all the time,â he replies, still looking happy. âI could take you to the places that I like best.â
âI wouldnât mind staying in the forest,â you consider, pulling your eyes away. The circle of woods around you feels far bigger than before, more free and ready to explore. There is excitement under your tongue.Â
Your visitor hears it, he leans in just a bit with your back turned. He couldnât help it if he wanted to, his mind is already pushing against the confines of his skull. Itâs such an old mind, such an old skull. And it has been too long since another voice occupied it the way that yours does.
When you look back to him, you are not afraid. He watches your face very intently, ready to see fear or watery sadness return. He dreads both, he cannot stop himself from saying,
âAnd I would not mind your staying, say that you will,â your visitor does not know if he has breath the way humans do, but you have taken his. It will be so hard to part with if you decline.Â
To his immortal joy, you lean in a little closer as well. Your shoulders slouch, you relax.
âWhere is your most favourite place?â you ask, distracting him from the clutter of his desperation for a moment.Â
âAlong the bank of the mirror pond, it is not far due east from here,â he replies. It is hard not to smile when thinking of it. The perfect circle of still water, flanked by willow trees and daisy clusters. You might like it there.
âI havenât been swimming since I was a little girl,â you admit. Itâs almost sheepish, embarrassed that such a mundane joy has evaded you.
âYou could again,â he suggests, brightening further. Until your visitorâs enthusiasm is dulled by his own hand, worried at reminding you of whatever dreadful situation youâve come from. âBut I would not make you.â
âDo you promise?â you cock your head to the side this time, tilting your head back a fraction to appreciate the full length of his horns.
âI do,â he insists. He would like to have an understanding with you, to understand you. The grass can keep his promises, but it never speaks back.
Your visitor looks so hopeful, youâre shocked by the realization that it may be mirrored on your own face. You are just as desperate, searching for a reason you could say yes. Itâs right there, hiding just at the back of your throat. Another word from him and it will come.
He is made of smoke, youâre sure. Of dirt and red clay. Of pine needles and the daisies that you saw when you tried to get thoroughly lost in the woods. And of a kind thought or ten. He is so very sweet, it seems right.
âIf you offer and I accept, is that still stealing?â you state your question, the final one before you answer. Youâve decided on that.
You reach into his lap, over thin knees that appear under heavy fabric. You did not see it before for the shadows, but he wears a cloak of green canvas--- so dark as to be almost mistaken for black. His dirt-caked hand, boney and cold from the night air rests against his thigh until you pick it up.
He fits his palm to yours as best he can, it is good enough.Â
He smiles, showing his small fangs. You give his hand a squeeze, hoping to warm him. But, you remember, you will have a while to do so. Slowly, you stand and he follows.
âI have no idea,â your shape says.
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Absolute Truths
This idea wormed its way into my head and for the life of me I couldnât get it out.
This oneshot is a little longer than the stuff I usually write (a whopping 8539 words), but I loved every minute of it. I tried editing it to the best of my ability, but honestly I suck at that. No beta, we die like Glenn. #SorryNotSorry #TooSoon ?
Please note this is non canon. The time frame for this is sometime after the Battle of Gronder post time skip and it is a mash up of the GD and BL routes (ie. Dimitri joins Claude and is no longer crazy; Rodrigue still dies. RIP).
Cross posted to ao3.
Pairing: Sylvain x Felix
Warnings: mentions of child abuse and PTSD
Synopsis:
When Felix and Sylvain get hit with a dark magic spell that reverts them back to children, the Resistance Army gets a deeper look into their bond and learn 5 absolute truths that form the foundation of their relationship.
OR
5 undeniable facts of Sylvain and Felixâs relationship.
Word Count: 8539
âFelix!â
Fuck. Sylvain loses sight of him for only a minute but that is all the enemy needs to overwhelm the already bombarded swordmaster.
Pulling the reigns sharply to the left, the Paladin charges across the battlefield, skewering any unfortunate enemies that dare block his way, the lance of ruin glowing like a beacon of fury despite the thick coating of blood on it. The air is heavy with the smell of smoke and dark magic, making it hard to breathe and blurring the red headâs vision. Regardless, Sylvain presses on; determined to get to his best friend in time before the group of mages over the hill finish casting⊠whatever ominous looking spell they are aiming at Felix.
âSylvain, get out of here!â Felix shouts angrily, not even pausing his fighting to face the sight of Bella charging her way through the throng with her master astride her.
Shit. Felix cuts down another enemy.
It is never ending. No matter how many falls to his blade, another two enemies take their place. Felix isnât stupid â he can see the group of mages prepping a dark magic spell in the distance, which makes him even angrier when he spots Sylvain riding to his aid.
Like hell heâll give his childhood friend another reason to toss himself into harms way. Felix isnât weak. He doesnât need protection. And he sure as hell doesnât want Sylvain to be the one who gets hurt trying to fix his mistakes just because he got a little too cocky and split from the rest of his battalion.
âFuck.â Felix grunts and pushes his sword hard to disengage the thief that has him in a sword lock. He doesnât bother to see if he is being pursued and dashes towards Sylvain who is now dismounting a short distance away, Lance of Ruin making quick work of anyone who strays too close for comfort.
Sylvain was undoubtedly within hit range of the spell now. If that idiot insists on being his usual self-sacrificing self, then the least Felix can do is use his own body to shield the older man and take the brunt of the damage.
The tell-tale crackle of magic behind him sets the hair on his nape standing.
Shit. Shitshitshitshitshit.
He isnât going to make it. Damn Sylvain for being so slow â this is exactly why he keeps telling him to take his training more seriously-!
âFe!â
The last thing he knows before succumbing to the darkness is a hard chest plate knocking the wind out of him and warm, strong arms that remind him of summers spent with a heart lighter than air.
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1.      Sylvain always has, and always will protect Felix until the day he dies.
Leonie is one of two on the first shift of babysitting duty.
Undeniably, the orange haired paladin would be the first to admit that she wasnât the greatest with kids, however there is only so much the tiny, and thankfully unconscious, Fraldarius boy can do given his current predicament.
No one really knows what happened after the enemy spell envelops Felix and Sylvain, the larger of the two curled protectively around his companion as they fall. No one even knows what the spell is.
But what they do know is that now, instead of a regular sized Felix Hugo Fraldarius and Sylvain Jose Gautier, they have a chubby cheeked blue haired cherub and an unfairly-cute-even-as-a-child ginger.
It is in the middle of bemoaning her poor luck at drawing straws when the mini-Felix begins to stir and she feels panic clawing its way up her throat.
âNgghhâŠâ small, unscarred hands balled into fist come up to rub at bleary amber eyes before they widen almost comically as they take in his surroundings.
âUhh⊠hey.â His gaze snaps towards Leonie and she can feel her terror rising with mini Felixâs hysteria, clearly evident by the shiny glaze beginning to cloud his eyes and the fat crocodile tears gathering at the edges of his almond eyes.
âItâs okay, Felix. Itâs just me.â She reaches out a hand tentatively in a placating gesture, but quickly withdraws back as young Felix lets out a squeak and scurries as far back into the corner of the bed as he can get, taking his older selfâs wool Fraldarius crest blanket with him, as if it could shield him.
âWh-wh-who are you?â The poor thing is absolutely terrified and damn it, Leonie wants to comfort him, but she is equally as distressed here and this is exactly why she didnât want to babysit.
âItâs me, Leonie. You donât⊠you donât recognize me?â
It comes out sounding more like a statement than a question.
Itâs so painfully obvious that little Felix has no idea who she is.
Which means he doesnât have his memories.
Which means they are down two of their best generals.
Which means they are well and truly fucked.
So, Leonie does the only thing she can logically think to do.
âCome on,â She says, rising from her bedside chair and reaching for his arm. âWe need to go tell Linheartd that the situation is much worse than we had originally thought.â But as soon as her hand wraps around his forearm, Felix screams.
âOh shi-! Felix! Calm down, Iâm not going to hurt you!â
If anything, this just seems to have the opposite effect and the wails increase to near piercing.
Leonie thinks it may be a trick of her mind, and probably her ears because holy crap does little Felix have a set of lungs on him, but she is pretty sure that Felix is screaming out a name.
Specifically, a name belonging to a certain red head that is, the last time she checked anyways, unconscious two doors down from his room and currently being watched over by Caspar.
âFe!â The door bursts open and suddenly there is chaos.
Was being watched over by Caspar, Leonie amends in her mind.
âGet back here!â The blue haired warrior lunges and swipes his arm out trying to catch mini Sylvain who is slipperier than a fish in water, using his short height to duck between legs and launch himself onto the bed.
âLeave Fe alone!â Honey brown eyes that are so very familiar yet also so different, are glaring holes into Leonie and Caspar, proudly defiant and blazing with determination. Short arms stuffed into the smallest adult shirt they could find on short notice stretch out protectively, completely shielding Felix from sight.
âS-Sylvain,â comes the little sob from behind him and the older boy spares a second to throw a comforting smile behind him. âDonât worry, Fe. Iâll protect you.â And Goddess, he sounds so genuine and earnest that it makes Leonie wonder what happened to cause their Sylvain to hide behind fake laughs and charming lilts of the tongue.
âSorry, Leonie.â Caspar is gasping for air like he has just run a marathon. âI tried to keep him in his room but as soon as he heard Felix screaming, he was out faster than I could blink.â
âUgh. Just go get Ingrid and the Professor.â
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2.      Sylvain hates himself and his crest, but Felix likes him in spite of it.
A day later finds Ingrid watching over the five year old Felix (âWhat?! Heâs five? But heâs so tiny.â âDonât let him hear you say that or heâll cry again.â) and seven year old Sylvain.
âJust stay in this area, okay?â She calls out over the din of raucous laughter echoing throughout the courtyard. âI donât want you two wandering off and getting into trouble.â
The play wrestling pauses for a brief moment and little Sylvain sticks out a tongue at her.
âWe donât get into trouble! Youâre just a party pooper!â
âYeah! Party pooper!â
Shoving down the urge to smack her childhood friends into the next moon, Ingrid settles for watching with pursed lips as Felix dissolves into giggles, Sylvainâs grabby hands finding purchase in his sides and tickling him relentlessly. The look of such carefree happiness on their faces makes her heart clench and eyes sting.
If Ingrid is being completely honest⊠she misses this.
She remembers what it was like not carrying around a broken heart for a man buried six feet under, his remains not even whole enough to bring home. Back when she could play wrestle with Fe, Sylvie, and Dima in the dirt and then go to Glenn to kiss her knee better when one of them inevitably accidentally activated their crest and used too much strength, resulting in tears and scrapes and bruises.
It doesnât do her any good to dwell on the past.
The dead should be left to rest, and the living should move on.
For an emotionally constipated guy, Felix is dead on with his philosophy.
Though she has long come to terms with her betrothedâs death, the small sliver of envy she has for her two oldest friends still lingers in the deepest, darkest recesses of her heart.
Theyâre lucky that they still have each other, even though they spend half the time bickering and denying their feelings.
âIs that the Gautier boy?â
Two monastery staff members stop beneath the path archway and look with undisguised admiration.
âSo handsome at such a young age!â
âAnd I hear heâs incredibly charming too.â
Ingrid knows that Sylvain and hear them. He has always been keen of hearing, especially when it involves others gossiping about himself, for better or for worse.
Felix takes advantage of Sylvainâs distraction to get the upper hand and rolls on top, completely oblivious to the onlookers.
âIf I were his mother, I would have secured him a betrothed as soon as he was tested for a crest.â
A hum of agreement. âYes. His family is blessed with good looks so it would not be hard to secure an advantageous match. The Gautier line will likely continue on stronger than ever with such a prized heir.â
âSylvain? Why did you stop?â
Felix is all wide eyes and adorable pouty cheeks, staring confusedly down at his best friend underneath him who has gone strangely silent with a strangled expression.
âDonât you have duties to attend to?â
The two gossipmongers snap to attention at Ingridâs sharp tone, her expression clearly telling them to get the hell out of here or risk facing her wrath.
With rushed replies of âyes, sorry miss!â and âour apologiesâ, they scurry off down the pathway and disappear around the corner.
But unfortunately, the damage is already done.
âSylvain? Whatâs wrong? Why are you sad?â
Gently, the older boy extricates himself from Felixâs death grip of a grapple and stands up with his eyes cast downwards. âSorry, Fe. I⊠I donât want to play anymore.â
âWhat? What do you mean? Where are you going?â
âIâm tired. I want to go back to our room.â
It only takes one look at Sylvainâs expression before Felix is latching his fists into the fabric of Sylvainâs pants with a scowl on his face.
âYouâre lying to me. Why are you lying?â
âIâm not lying, Fe! I donât want to play anymore.â
âWeâre best friends arenât we?â
âWell, yeah, of course we are.â
âBest friends donât lie to each other.â
Ingrid has patiently watched the exchange between Felix and Sylvain to this very moment, hoping that they can sort out this argument without her intervening like she always did as a child, but through years of experience, she can sense that one of them is about to snap and she would very much like to avoid that.
âYou know the only reason weâre best friends is because our parents are friends and we both have crests.â
There it is.
Itâs absolutely heart breaking how Sylvain has already learned to self destruct at the tender age of seven. If Miklan were still alive, Ingrid would skewer him a thousand times over for instilling the mantra of âyouâre not worthy of loveâ into Sylvainâs head.
âHey guys, do you wanna go-â
âYouâre a stupid head if thatâs what you think.â Felixâs interruption shocks her. His usually bright amber eyes are fixed in a watery glare leveled at the boy opposite him. Right now, Ingrid may as well be invisible for all Felix cares.
âWhat?â
âYouâre a stupid head!â
Sylvain looks absolutely affronted.
âNo, Iâm not!â
âYeah, you are!â a few tears have managed to slip beyond the barrier and trail down Felixâs cheeks. âI donât care that our parents know each other. And I donât care about any stupid crests.â
Felix marches up to Sylvain with all the anger he can muster in his five year old glory and reaches up to smoosh his cheeks together. âIâd still pick you to be my best friend in the whole wide world because youâre funny and nice and Iâm always happier with you than Ingrid or Dima.â
Sylvain can only stand there with his lips parted in round âoâ from his cheeks being pushed together and a dazed look in his eye. Felix takes this as a sign to continue his little tirade.
âAnd I know youâre smart so you should stop being such a stupid head because I donât care what you think. Youâre my best friend and Iâll always pick you over any stupid crest.â
âFeâŠâ
She recognizes that tone. Ingrid looks away then because she fears that if she doesnât, the part of her heart that belongs to Glenn might just twist its way into her throat and choke her with envy.
Sylvain is giving Felix that look that she has seen many times throughout their lives whenever she watches her two friends from afar. Itâs one that everyone, except for Felix, has seen a million times and knows that to Sylvain, the world around him has fallen away except for one person.
âYouâre my best friend, Sylvain. So, donât lie to me.â
For the first time since the gossipers appeared, Sylvain lets a smile slip through.
âOkay. I promise.â
Felix eyes him warily and searches for any hint of a lie in Sylvainâs expression. Once satisfied, he loops his own pinky around the one outstretched to him.
âGood. Now letâs go play Knights and Bandits!â
Perhaps it is because Felix is always looking ahead that he never sees how Sylvain looks at him like he was the one who hung the stars and moon in his dark sky, illuminating his life with happiness and love.
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3.      Felix feels so much and Sylvain is the only one who understands him even without words.
A collective sigh echoes throughout the monastery when they find out that mini Felix and mini Sylvain arenât too picky with their food.
Granted, even as a child, Felix shows a proclivity towards eating meat; but with a little friendly jostling from his best friend, even the youngest Fraldarius son can be convinced to eat his brussel sprouts.
Which is exactly why Claude is so baffled when Felix starts to protest eating during mealtimes.
âWhat do you mean he wonât eat?â
Heâs well aware that he probably sounds like an idiot, if the exasperated look Lorenz is giving him is anything to go by; but they havenât had any trouble before so it makes absolutely no sense that Felix would start being picky now.
âItâs exactly as I said,â Lorenz frowns. âWe were all simply sitting together enjoying a meal, when Felix stopped eating and refused to finish his dinner. Iâve been told this is now the third occurrence in a row that his has happened.â
âWas he full?â Byleth pauses from looking through some supply requests to chime into their conversation. Although she has not outright said anything, Claude knows his love well enough to tell that she is stressed about their current predicament. Felix throwing a silent protest against food is just one more thing to add to her pile of worries that she doesnât need.
âDonât worry, Teach,â Claude winks and flashes his signature grin. âIâll get to the bottom of this. You just worry about securing our supplies for the next moon, yeah?â His chair lets out a deafening screech as it drags across the floor, drowning out any protests their former professor may have and providing Claude the distraction he needs to usher Lorenz out of the room with him.
âClaude, are you sure you know what you are doing?â The doubt rolling off Lorenz would have offended a lesser man, but Claude has spent his life being the underdog and he lets the words bounce harmlessly off him. âFelix is not an enemy to be outsmarted. He is simply a child who only adheres to emotion.â
âI am aware of that, yes.â
âThen why do you look as though you are about to hatch a scheme?â
Because he is.
And although Felix is not an âenemyâ, per say, doesnât mean that Claude canât use his usual tactics of watching and observing his opponent until he has hatched a plot to take them down. Hence, leading to Claudeâs current position tucked away in the far corner of the mess hall during the following breakfast.
Even on his off days, Claude is always watching and learning. He knows the favourite foods of all his fellow comrades in arms and he also knows whom everyoneâs preferred companion is.
There is very little that escapes his notice, and the Resistance Army leader is confident that he will have a plan by sundown at the very least.
It is a little past 8am when the two children sleepily trudge their way into the dining hall with Bernadetta, their ward for the day, close behind them.
Nothing seems particularly strange or odd when they join the line to retrieve their meal; and nothing remarkable happens either when Bernie leads them to the only empty table left in the middle of the hall.
âGood morning, Bernadetta!â Raphael greets cheerily and shuffles his mountain of food over to join the trio at their table. âGood morning, Felix, Sylvain!â
The little ones mumble back a greeting, but their voices are lost in the din of the morning meal chatter.
So far, so good. Felix is still eating his porridge (albeit with an adorable frown on his face) and talking animatedly about goddess knows what with Sylvain, who occasionally turns to answer a question from the adults.
âOh, good morning, Bernadetta, Felix, Sylvain!â
Slowly but surely, the table begins to fill as their friends meander into the building in search of food to start their day. Greetings are exchanged and unsurprisingly, Felix and Sylvain garner a lot of attention due to their current forms. Sylvain, ever the chatterbox that he is, fields most of the questions; Whether it is because he is being considerate of his quieter friend or if he simply relishes in the attention is debatable, but Claude cannot help but notice how his eyes constantly dart back towards Felix who grows increasingly frustrated.
âOh, youâre just too adorable!â Annetteâs squeal of delight reaches even Claudeâs remote corner and he assumes that the wince he sees from Felix is due to the sheer volume of the orange haired mage. Sylvain, the current object of attention, just flashes her his prize winning smile; his dimples making him look even more endearing than he already is.
The adults gathered around the children donât even notice that Felix has stopped eating. Nor do they see Sylvain quietly reach below the table to grab Felixâs smaller hand in what looks to be a gesture of comfort.
In fact, it takes another five minutes of cooing and fawning before Raphael, of all people, notices that Felix is now glaring with teary eyes at his bowl of half eaten porridge.
âWhatâs wrong, little buddy? Not feeling well?â
Immediately the attention shifts to him and the effects are just as disastrous as Claude predicts.
âIâm not hungry.â Some of the porridge finds its way onto the table as Felix pushes his bowl away with such ferocity, Claude is half surprised it doesnât completely tip over.
âWhat do you mean youâre not hungry?â Annette frowns. âThis is the fourth time youâve left a meal unfinished. Are you not feeling well? Do you need to go see Mercedes?â
âNo. I donât wanna eat anymore.â
âAre you sure youâre feeling okay, Felix? We just want to make sure youâre not getting sick.â
âIâm fine.â
Itâs a big fat lie and anyone with half a brain can hear the distress and frustration in the blue haired boyâs voice. One lone tear manages to squeeze its way out of Felixâs water logged eyes and thatâs all it takes for the table to burst into a flurry.
Claude almost feels bad for Felix as the adults descend on him like a pack of vultures, all of them crowding him and trying to coax the reason for his distress out of him. The Almyran prince has half a mind to go over and rescue his friend in arms from a situation that is probably in his top ten worst fears, but before he can even get out of his seat, Sylvain is already bounding out of his chair with a teary Felix in tow.
Sylvain shouts something about âKnights and Banditsâ and theyâre out the southern doors before Bernadetta can even process what has happened.
Felixâs half eaten bowl of porridge sits on the table completely forgotten.
----
At lunch, Claude decides to test a hypothesis.
He asks Mercedes and Hilda to sit with the kids at lunch and pay special attention to Felix.
To everyone else, he gives them strict orders to leave their table alone.
Satisfied with how his experiment is set up, Claude finally seats himself back in his observatory spot with his own lunch sitting in front of him.
Heâs not expecting amazing results. In fact, heâs not expecting his first hypothesis to be a success at all, but he wants to try it none the less because there is always the possibility that mini Felix fundamentally operates much differently than the Felix that he is used to.
What he doesnât expect is for Felix to immediately shut down the minute Hilda tries to engage him in some conversation about the games him and Sylvain play in the courtyard.
Todayâs lunch special is Daphnel Stew and Claude has it on good authority that it is a favourite of Felixâs (technically Dimitri is a reliable source, right? They were childhood friends after all).
Sylvain tries his best to jump into the conversation and pull some of the attention to himself, but Hilda is every bit as smooth of a talker as Claude is; deftly maneuvering the conversation back to Felix no matter what Sylvain does.
This time, it is Felix that reaches for Sylvainâs hand under the table.
Except instead of just holding Sylvainâs hand, Felix starts to pull at it every time Mercedes or Hilda asks him a question, as if pleading for his friend to save him.
At least Claude could now say for sure that Felix is not, and never was, a fan of being the center of attention.
When the first afternoon bell tolls signaling the end of lunch, Felixâs stew remains uneaten and untouched. On the way out of the hall, Claude looks the other way and pretends not to notice when Sylvain steals an apple from the pantry.
His experiment doesnât exactly succeed, but he cannot write it off as a failure either. The information gathered from his two observation sessions is plentiful and a solution is forming within his mind even as he makes his way up to the war room to meet Byleth for their afternoon strategy session.
By the time he pushes open the door to his usual haunt, Claude is absolutely certain of two truths.
One, that Sylvain knows Felix better than anyone could ever hope to compare, and two, Felix Fraldarius is incredibly lucky to have an attentive best friend like Sylvain because stars above, does he suck with using his words.
----
When the hour before dinner time rolls around, Claude makes sure to talk to everyone he passes by and give them the order that no one is to approach Felix and Sylvainâs tables at mealtimes anymore. He tells them to pass the word around and it doesnât take long before the entire monastery is in the know of their Leaderâs command.
âCare for company?â Byleth smiles and sets her tray down beside his own without waiting for a reply.
Claude does a quick survey of the area to make sure no one is looking before leaning in to land a quick peck on Bylethâs cheek. Joy flutters in his stomach at her rising blush and he merely laughs and winks at her stuttered protests.
âCheck it out,â Claude quickly changes the subject and nods his head over to where Bernadetta sits exhausted with a now cheerful Felix and Sylvain. The latter nodding enthusiastically to their conversation with the occasional laugh and both of their plates near devoid of food.
A tiny rush of pride swells when he sees the relived expression on Bylethâs face.
âTold ya Iâd take care of it.â
Underneath the table, he flips his palm facing upward so that he can intertwine his fingers with her searching ones.
âYes, you did.â The unspoken thanks lingers in the air between them, louder than the constant buzz of activity in the room.
For the first time in a while, the former professor looks more at ease. And Claude, being the shit stirrer that he is, cannot help but toss a little fuel into the fire.
âSo⊠who do you think will wear white at the wedding? Between the two of them, I think Felix is the better choice.â
âWhat?!â
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4.      Felix has an unwavering faith and belief in Sylvain that heâs not afraid to stubbornly stand by to the bitter end.
âAnnie, are you sure this is a good idea?â
If Mercedes is concerned, then Lysithea is absolutely certain that no, this is most definitely not a good idea.
They are at the part of the training grounds where the various magic users can come to practice and hone their spells. The ground is singed with charred marks from stray thunder and fire spells, the black streaks contrasting starkly with the pale stone underneath. To the side, there is also a sand pit where mages can practice some more destructive flame based spells.
âIâm just a little curious, is all!â Annette whispers back. âI know Sylvain is really good with magic even though he never uses it. He was the one who helped me understand that magic formula that I was stuck on for a week, after all. I was thinking maybe he might show an aptitude for Reason as a child.â
âThatâs fine and all; but Iâm not really sure how safe it is to teach a child how to conjure a fire spell. That just seems like a recipe for disaster.â
The orange hair mage cannot help but look slightly put out by Lysitheaâs comment.
Yes, maybe it wasnât the safest idea ever⊠but Annette just really wants to find out the extent of Sylvainâs inherent abilities. Even after she makes him promise to take his training more seriously, she still feels like he is holding back on her when they are paired together.
âWhat kinda magic are you gonna show us?â Felix is eager and bouncing on his toes. The House Fraldarius specializes in swordplay, not magic, so this is a treat for him and he can barely contain his excitement.
âOh well, I was thinking we could start off with a basic fire spell!â
âOooh, fire!â
Annette really hopes that Felix doesnât have a penchant for pyrotechnics.
As much of a bad idea as this is, Lysithea canât exactly bring herself to leave them in case something goes terribly wrong. She is the strongest, most advanced Gremory the Resistance Army has; with her around, sheâs confident that the worst that could happen would be some singed eyebrows and possibly an impromptu need for a haircut. But even that is an outcome that she is hoping to avoid.
Once the target is set up, Sylvain and Felix eagerly make their way over to the sidelines to watch Annette demonstrate a basic fire spell.
Itâs nothing special really. Even the older Felix and Sylvain could probably cast it without much problem, but to their younger versions, the small ball of fire is so grand and spectacular that it warrants ooâs and ahâs and enthusiastic applause.
âWow! That is so cool! Isnât that so cool, Sylvain?â
Felix is pulling on Sylvainâs sleeve and the older boy nods emphatically with admiration shining in his eyes.
âDo you think you could do it too?â
Lysithea is startled to hear the question Felix asks Sylvain. Of course, Annette was already planning to ask the Gautier boy to attempt the spell, but that was out of curiosity.
From the shining look on Felixâs face, Lysithea knows that he is asking because in his mind, there is nothing that his smart, talented best friend in the whole wide world cannot do.
âMagic is difficult to learn and takes time. It can take years for some to learn just the basics.â She cuts in before Sylvain can answer.
She doesnât want Felix to unwittingly trap him with an unrealistic expectation that he cannot meet and she figures it is better to disappoint him now rather than allow the red head to try and then feel guilty when he disappoints his friend.
âSylvain is smart. I bet Sylvain could do it!â
Felix is pouting in that way that they are all quickly learning means âIâm right and you canât convince me otherwiseâ.
âIâm sure Sylvain is very smart!â Mercedes agrees and gives the boys her best placating smile. âBut Iâm not so sure that a person could learn how to cast a Fire spell in one day! Why, it took Annie and I at least a week of practicing before we could do it!â
âYep, I remember I almost burned my eyebrows off the first time I tried! But I can teach you the basics maybe and then we can bring you here again next time to practice?â
The urge to verbally reprimand the warlock for her relentless pursuit to satisfy her own curiosity rises and Lysithea has to physically clutch her biceps to stop herself from bursting.
Fine. If they were so eager to set themselves down this path, then so be it.
âYeah!â Felix is literally vibrating with excitement and Sylvain looks nervous but determined to not let his admirer down.
Heaving a sigh, Lysithea moves to settle next to Mercedes who sends her an apologetic smile.
It was going to be a long afternoon.
----
Unsurprisingly, Felix does not do so well with learning the basics.
The diagrams and symbols are a little too much on the side of complex and it becomes apparent rather quickly that there is a reason the Fraldarius men carve through the battlefield with swords instead of magic.
âAw, itâs okay Fe! Youâre still the best with a sword anyways. You donât need magic!â Sylvain ruffles his hair and smiles. âYouâll always beat me at swordplay.â
The small admission is enough to cheer Felix up and after a bit more nudging from the older boy, he runs off to play around with the wooden practice swords they have on the other side of the training room while Annette and Sylvain continue to work on creating basic magic circles.
Itâs only after the third hour and Mercedes has long left to attend to various chores that Lysithea turns to watch Felix go through rather crude sword forms instead.
âYou need to spread your feet farther apart.â Using her own foot, she nudges Felixâs left heel to the side to widen his stance. âTry striking again now.â
The wooden sword wobbles a bit in its trajectory, but the swing is undoubtedly much better than before. The sheer delight that lights up in Felixâs eyes almost makes Lysithea laugh out loud because she recognizes it as the same gleam she sees in the older Felixâs eyes when he executes a particularly hard maneuver.
âWhy arenât you watching Sylvain and Annie?â
For a five year old, Felix is incredibly perceptive.
Rather than lie to him, Lysithea opts for honesty because she is sure thatâs what older Felix would have wanted.
âI donât think heâll succeed.â
Felix frowns. âYou donât know that.â
âYes, I do. I know how hard it is to learn magic. Iâm sure Sylvain is very intelligent, but it takes a lot of hard work to use Reason.â
âSylvain can do it. I know he can.â
She sighs and turns a baleful eye down at Felix. âYouâre a stubborn one arenât you.â
âGlenn said that to me too when he didnât believe me that I could stay up all night waiting for Sylvain.â
âAnd did you prove him wrong?â
Felix turns to full face her, expression full of gravity.
âYup.â The dead seriousness of his tone looses Lysitheaâs first laugh of the day and she cannot help but be drawn towards this little boy, the same way she was drawn to his older self.
Deigning not to continue a lost conversation, the cake loving Gremory opts to turn back and watch the progress that the other two have made, leaving Felix muttering to himself about his steadfast belief in his best friend.
----
âAlright, letâs see what youâve got!â
The sun is setting and it is nearly time for dinner by the time Sylvain and Annette break away from Magic and Sorcery: Vol 1. to actually put some practice to the theory they have spent all day studying.
âNow, donât be too disappointed if you canât get it.â Annette says while moving out of the way. âYou did just learn the basics and it takes a lot of practice!â
Lysithea has not moved from her perch from a nearby bench. Sheâs still extremely skeptical that Sylvain will manage to do very much at all. Yes, it is true that he had a budding talent for Reason during their academy days, but Sylvain hardly ever applied himself to any of his studies. The professor had to literally force him to attend one on one magic lessons with her before his aptitude for spells finally emerged.
Although, she muses, this younger Sylvain seems to be more enthusiastic to participate in things he was interested in. Even now, the scrunched up look of concentration on his face is indication enough that the Sylvain Lysithea is used to is a much different creature than the one before her currently.
House Ordelia does not really have any established trade routes with the Gautier territory, but the Ordelia heir has heard enough to know that the current Margrave is an arrogant, crest-obsessed prick.
It doesnât take a prodigy to connect the dots and surmise that Sylvainâs carefree attitude and refusal to apply himself to anything is a product of his fatherâs suffocating expectations.
Fuck Margrave Gautier.
Maybe Lysithea does want Sylvain to prove her wrong and succeed; then at least he can go back home and light his fatherâs breeches on fire.
Sheâs only slightly disappointed when her expectations prove correct and the best Sylvain can conjure is one tiny flicker from a lone flame in his hand. However, it is still much more than she thought Sylvain would be able to do and for that, she is genuinely impressed.
Annette is also very much awestruck with Sylvainâs quick learning and happily informs the boy of this all the way to the dining hall. Sylvain is uncharacteristically quiet as he listens to the older mage praise him, but he is not yet skilled enough in the art of hiding behind a mask and the slight downward tilt of his lips does not go unnoticed.
âYou really did an amazing job learning so much in such a short time, Sylvain! Donât be too disappointed that you couldnât do it.â
Sylvain gives a weak smile in return, but it is Felix who ultimately responds; one hand clasped tightly in the Gautierâs and the other one balled into a fist.
âSylvain can do it. Just watch.â
----
Dinner passes without much fanfare and the boys are eventually tucked in for the night. Claude and Byleth have long decided that a full-time night chaperone is no longer necessary; although occasionally, one of their friends will peek into the room in the dead of night before they retire, but very rarely do they find anything wrong that requires their attention. A week has already passed with no incident, so there should be no need to exhaust their soldiers by keeping them up at night.
Except this time, when Petra nudges the door to their room open â being extremely careful not to open it too fast lest the hinges squeak â she does not see any sign of Felix or Sylvain anywhere.
It is the dead of night, but Garreg Mach Monastery blazes alive with a flurry of panic at the toll of the emergency bell.
âYouâre absolutely sure no one saw them leave their room?â
Seteth slams his palms on the table and interrogates the night shift guards; his brows furrowed and mind racing a mile a minute.
If the enemy has somehow managed to sneak into Garreg Mach and kidnap the children, then they are well and truly fucked. They may have to abandon their home base or at the very least do an extensive investigation of their current ranks and re-evaluate their current passive defense.
âThere were no signs that a struggle was happening.â Petra voices from her place around the war table. âI am having confidence that they left with willingness.â
âGoddess, please keep them safe.â The situation leaves a bad taste in Flaynâs mouth; it is much too reminiscent of when she was kidnapped and although it has been years since the incident, the memories still plague her.
Bylethâs voice leaves no room for discussion, âeveryone split up and search the grounds. Most of our facilities are locked up at night so that should help limit the number of places we need to search.â
Everyone dashes out of the room with their orders and branch off at the second floor corridor. Those once belonging to the Black Eagle house comb through the main hall while the former Blue Lion students check all surrounding independent buildings; the Golden Deer fanning out to cover the outdoor grounds of the monastery.
An hour passes. Then another. And another.
Soon it is 3 in the morning and the panic is truly beginning to set in, giving rise to an unsettling fear clawing its way up from the depths of the night.
âDimitri, Dedue! Have you found anything?â Ingrid pants and skids to a halt just below the stairs to the Sauna; the rest of her Blue Lion classmates run up to join her and debrief their findings.
âNothing,â Dedueâs tone is flat as usual but his strangled expression is enough to betray his underlying worry. âWe have searched all the open buildings and the grounds. There is no sign of them at all.â
Annette is near tears now and Mercedes places a hand on her shoulder, offering her silent support even while she herself is fiddling with her shawl, an attempt to keep her mind occupied before it spirals.
âItâs not like them to run away,â Ashe frowns. âDid anything happen today? Were they acting weird at all?â
âNot really. All we did was practice magic at the training grounds.â
Mercedes frowns. âPerhaps they left something there and went back to retrieve it?â
âThe training grounds should be locked at 11PM. No one should be able to get in or out until sunrise.â Dimitri shakes his head.
âWell then weâre clearly running out of ideas here!â Ingrid throws up her hands in frustration and rakes them through her hair which is on the verge of looking like a birdâs nest. âWeâve checked the dining hall and the greenhouse but ââ
âYour Majesty.â Dedueâs raised voice cuts Ingrid short and they look over to see the doors to the training grounds swing open slowly with a slight push of the manâs hands. âThe doors were not locked as we thought.â
It takes only a heartbeat for them to scramble through the large wooden doors and down the hallway, their rushed footsteps echoing like thunder in the stone corridor.
âOh Goddess. I smell smoke. Does anyone else smell smoke?â If her heartbeat accelerates any more, Annette is pretty sure she will have a heart attack.
âItâs coming from over there!â Their King leads the charge towards the magical training arena where the smell of smoke is the thickest.
When they burst into the open area, they are prepared for the worst. Weapons are drawn and hands raised with spells on the tips of tongues, but the sight they are greeted with is enough to shock them into stasis.
There in the middle of the sandpit, hunched over and panting hard, albeit with a brilliant grin on his face, is Sylvain. The practice dummy a few feet in front of him is alit with flames, illuminating the room with an orange glow, casting shadows along the stone walls that flicker like a live audience.
And off to the side bundled up in a woolen teal blanket that they all recognize, is a tired, but extremely proud looking Felix Fraldarius staring directly at the newcomers.
âI told you he could do it!â
----
5.      Sylvain has given Felix all the pieces of his fragile, fractured heart, even if he isnât aware he possesses it.
Although once his greatest secret, Ignatz no longer hides his passion for art from his fellow Resistance Army members.
Itâs not uncommon these days for people to find him at random places in the monastery with his art supplies sketching away at preserving a moment in time on blank paper forevermore.
Today, he is sitting on a bench next to a large oak tree, just a stoneâs throw away from the main grounds. Beneath the shade and tucked between two large roots lie Sylvain and Felix, both completely tuckered out from their earlier attempts at climbing the towering tree. Sylvain is starfished on the ground with his arms stretched wide; to his left, Felix lays curled away from him with his head pillowed on the outstretched limb.
Sylvain and Felix have been the talk of the monastery for the past week and it is pretty obvious why. Itâs not every day that you see two high ranking generals revert back to their child forms. Especially the most notorious bother-me-and-Iâll-bite-your-head-off and if-it-breathes-Iâll-flirt-with-it Generals to boot.
Of course, stories of their shenanigans and troublemaking usually fill the daily meal conversations, but there is one topic that floats above all else; the one that makes the maids in the kitchen giggle and even the burliest of knights crack a smile:
It is clear that even from a young age, Sylvain Jose Gautier and Felix Hugo Fraldarius are absolutely smitten with each other.
The two are inseparable and Ignatz is pretty sure that even a blind man would be able to see the absolute trust and unspoken devotion they have towards each other.
Ignatz has spent the day watching Felix and Sylvain, not just because itâs his turn to babysit, but also because he is fascinated with their bond. He had once thought that the Goddess was the most beautiful thing in the world, but the rawness and purity of their relationship fills him with more piety and awe than any portrait or statue of Sothis ever did.
It is like they are two parts of a well-oiled machine. Where one gives way, the other will step in to fill the gap; whenever Sylvainâs insecurities flare up, Felix is always there to chase the demons away with clumsy words and a physical display of affection, using his own body to ground his best friend and keep him close. Likewise, whenever tears well up in the youngest Fraldariusâ eyes (which is unfortunately quite often), Sylvain is there to wipe away the salty tracks and light up Felixâs heart with a smile warmer and brighter than sunshine.
Ignatzâs original plans were to draw the oak tree and the beautiful meadow of primrose flowers, but it seems that there will be a last minute change in muse.
Taking up his piece of charcoal, he begins the outline of what he thinks will be his fondest work to date.
Ignatz doesnât know how long he spends sitting on that bench hunched over his sketchbook in silence with only the occasional birdsong floating through the silence. Itâs so calm and peaceful that he doesnât even notice that Sylvain has begun to stir until he looks up to find one of his subjects in a different position.
Leonie had warned him that Sylvain has a tendency towards nightmares. She had discovered that unfortunate fact in the first three days when each time she tip-toed into their room to check up on them, she found Sylvain wide awake with wild terror in his eyes and a sleepy Felix clinging to him comfortingly.
Strangely enough, Sylvain also does not startle awake from his nightmares. Instead, he slowly rouses himself as if from a deep sleep and if it werenât for the glaze of lingering fear in his eyes, none would be able to tell that he had just woken up from a night terror.
That same glazed look is now flickering rapidly around him as if searching for the shadow of a monster that exists only within his mind.
âSylvainâŠ?â
Wild brown eyes finally settle on steady molten amber ones.
âFe.â
âItâs okay, Sylvain. Iâm here...â
Felix yawns and shuffles around until he is half wrapped around Sylvain with his left hand settling over Sylvainâs pounding heart.
âI wonât let anyone hurt youâŠâ Small hands curl around the material of Sylvainâs shirt in a death grip. Felixâs loyalty and protectiveness so painfully evident even when the boy himself is half asleep. He manages to cling to the realm of the conscious for a little while longer, until the rapid thump thump thump of Sylvainâs heart slows to a steady lulling rhythm, pulling Felix back down under the veil of sleep.
Ignatz has silently watched this entire exchange and to be honest, heâs not really sure that Sylvain or Felix even remember that he is here with them. He cannot bring himself to make his presence known, so he continues to watch and observe.
He watches as the fear that was once in Sylvainâs eyes slowly recede again, the monsters inside his head vanquished in the company of his best friend. It only takes one more glance at the boy cuddled up to him with a hand protectively hovered over his heart to melt away the chains that bind him to the expectations of the people around him.
Here under this oak tree in a field of blooming young love, there is no crest or Miklan or nobility. There is only Felix and Sylvain.
Sylvain holds onto that truth as he wraps his free arm around the younger boy, tucking him more securely under his chin, letting the cool summer breeze lull him back to a dreamless sleep.
Ignatz pulls out a new page and starts a fresh outline. It takes him a little longer than anticipated to finish his drawing, but he figures itâs not such a bad thing since he likes this new version much better.
Later, as he trails after the now energetic boys back towards the monastery, Ignatz tucks his newest masterpiece securely under his arm, being very careful not to smudge the drawing or crease the paper.
After all, Claude did mention something about a wedding and Ignatz thinks that his drawing will make a fine gift.
----
Bonus: Theyâre just two idiots in love.
âGo away. Canât you see Iâm trying to enjoy my meal?â
âAww, donât be like that, Felix! You know, the younger you was much cuter. Definitely less prickly, too.â Dorothea pokes his cheek and snatches her hand away before Felix can stab it with his steak knife.
Itâs been roughly a week since Felix and Sylvain have returned to their normal sizes, the dark magic having run its course and fizzling out without so much as a final spark. To the rest of the Army, this is a joyous occasion as it means that two of their best generals are now back to normal and can command them again. But to the last class of the academy⊠it is bittersweet.
Of course, they want their friends to return to normal. But that also means that Felix will go back to hissing and spitting with all the fury of a spooked cat and Sylvain will go back to seducing any individual that makes eye contact with him for longer than half a second.
âBetter do as he says, Thea. Felixâs looking extra grumpy today and we wouldnât want you to lose a pretty little finger.â Sylvain winks at her as he sets down his own meal and settles in the seat across from the swordsman.
The opera singer snorts, âright back to the flirting as usual. Save your hollow words for some other girl.â
âOuch. Give a guy a break! I just recovered from a dark magic spell after all. Doesnât that warrant some pity?â
âThe only pity is that you immediately lost all your innocent and cute appeal when you reverted back to your regular body.â
Felix scowls at them, âif you insist on continuing your flirting, Iâll just eat my meal elsewhere.â He moves to stand but Sylvain is quicker and grabs his wrist, preventing him from moving.
âIâm sorry. Iâll stop. Just stay, okay? Please? For me, Fe?â
Sylvain is looking at Felix with that expression which he knows he cannot resist and Dorothea takes this opportunity to slip away while the two engage in a silent conversation with only their eyes.
âFine.â
Their meal continues with little fanfare and easy conversation. Around them, their old classmates are scattered in their own little groups and if they notice, none of them mentions anything about how everyone seems to avoid sitting at Felix and Sylvainâs table.
Easy conversation flows into dessert, or more specifically: Felix wordlessly giving Sylvain his peach sorbet and Sylvain beaming a rare genuine smile and promising to join him at the training grounds first thing tomorrow morning.
The sun is slowly dipping below the horizon when Sylvain and Felix gather up their dishes. On their way out of the dining hall, Ignatz stops them with a heartfelt congratulations and a bundled up package that looks suspiciously like one of his works.
âCongratulations? For what?â Artfully tousled red hair shifts as Sylvain tilts his head in confusion and reluctantly accepts the gift.
âO-oh, well Claude just saidâŠâ
Dread rises up from the pit of Felixâs stomach. âWhat did that schemer say this time?â
ââŠHe said that you two were getting married.â
âWhat?!â
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Hey! Idk if you do these type of requests but I was wondering if you could a Cal Kestis imagine based on the song "Say Love" by James TW? Where Cal is ready to say "I love you" but the reader is a but hesitant because of how messed up things are with the empire and her past. If not that's okay!thank you first taking the time to read this!â€â€
âSay Loveâ | Cal Kestis x Reader
To Anon: Hi Anon! Iâve been listening to that song whenever I write and itâs one of the fluffiest things Iâve ever heard!! Oh and btw, reeeaaaallly sorry if I kept you waiting for a long while since I had a lot in my WIP fic list đ But I hope you still enjoy this fic!
Additional tags: Song Prompt, Love Confession! Cal Kestis
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The liberating of the Wookiees was a victory indeed. It may be miniscule to the Empire, but to the partisans, it was a giant leap of faith.
You and Cal joined the partisans in retreating back to the landing pad, some of them have personally invited the two of you to come drink with them. Itâs a tad bit early to celebrate, but itâs good of a reason to celebrate either way.
âCome on, weâve ransacked their rations in the southern trench!â a partisan urged.
âIs it true that Imperial ration packs have liquor in them?â you inquired.
âThatâs what weâre gonna find out! Come on!â
Like children in a schoolyard, the lot of you climbed over the wrecked walker and found an outpost on the ground. The blast door entrance had been damaged but your companions assured you that the goods are still intact.
âWhat do we got?â
âUsual foodstuffs, purified drinking water⊠Aha! I got a bottle of Dust Juice here!â
âHoly hell, they got Corellian alcohol here too!â
The soldiers murmured amongst one another, apparently discovering that each crate of rations had a different kind of alcohol stored in themâbut by the bottle, perhaps meant for sharing. They gathered all bottles of alcohol on one side and then the foods in another. Each partisan carried a single bottle and whatever rations they can carry; you and Cal did the same.
You and your newfound comrades camped by the wrecked AT-AT, away from the eyes of the sterner adults who wouldnât want anyone seen horsing around with the Imperial rations. All eight of you gathered around a power lamp that paled in comparison to an actual bonfire, thankfully enough, the weather in Kashyyyk isnât too cold. Cal even borrowed Cereâs hallikset for this one occasion.
âOkay, okay, letâs just go with the classic game!â the same male partisan from earlier hollered, but was consequentially shushed by his more sober mates.
With an empty bottle of what was once Dust Juice, a single flick of his hand made the bottle spin. Everyone was either anxious or eager to know where the tip of the bottle will point to; they all leaned closer, nearly touching heads with one another. Eventually, you and Cal accidently bumped temples with one another and an awkward chuckle between the two of you followed.
âSorry about that,â he chuckled.
âNah, Iâm fine. I mean, I got a thick skull,â you awkwardly joked.
The bottle pointed at one of the partisans, prompting them to close their eyes and reach out for one of the drinks that they mixed togetherâit was the dare of the game. All of you watched the poor, marked partisan hold out his hand towards the row of glasses, take one and then chug. Awaiting his reaction, his grimace made everyone laughedâapparently, it was a bad mix of Meiloorun juice and then Corellian brandy.
The game went on for a few minutes until an older partisan from the landing pad had spotted them, scolding themâexcept for you and Calâand made them go to bed like children hanging out past their bedtime.
âSome celebration, huh?â you joked.
You leaned against the foot of the walker, resting your back and tilting your head to look at the stars. Cal fixed his gentle gaze on you while youâre too busy counting and tracing the constellations in the night sky. Every time he looked at you, heâs reminded of the one thought that has been troubling his mind ever since.
He has the words prepared, but they always go back right into nowhere when he parts his lips. When you ask him if there was something bothering him, he just ends up making up an excuse to lure himself away from whatâs really in his mind. Of course, youâre too smart for thatâhe knows it perfectly well.
To shake away the thought, he distracted himself with a song heâs making up right from the top of his mind with the instrument, while sitting next to you. Light strumming twanged and chimed across the forest floor, you continue to gawk at the white dots riddling the dark blue sky; little did Cal knew that his thoughts were the verses to his wordless song.
âI wonder what youâre thinking right now,â you mutter out of the blue, practically startling Cal. âThe same way you wonder what Iâm thinking now.â
âSorry, I thought I got a hold of my thoughts for a second there,â
âOh, but you do,â you lowered your head to face Cal. A little chuckle escaped you. âItâs just that thereâs this one thought that slipped.â
Even in the night, the vibrant red flushed across his face. You found it endearing to see his freckled cheeks burn a bright pink hue. Cal knew that you got him backed to a corner and there was no excuse to save him this time.
âListen, Iâve been thinkingâŠâ
You bobbed your head slowly, mirroring how low heâs hung his head while waiting for him to continue.
âYou and I have been going around together in a while and I guess it just happened to me naturally,â
âWhat did?â you pressed.
âI canât explain it, [y/n], but I know I canât deny it,â
For once, your eyes have truly metânot just with subtle glances or quick glimpses, but genuinely looking into oneâs eyes and from there. From that exchange, Cal felt his chest become light, as if an AT-AT has taken one of its feet off of him; but after one weight has been removed, another replaces itâyour would-be reaction.
Your breath shuddered and your palms got clammy all of a sudden. You fiddled your fingers, hoping that your circulation hasnât halted for reasons unknown.
Not planning to keep Cal waiting, you take a deep breath.
âCal,â you awkwardly chuckled. âIâm not that dense. You probably have sensed I was feeling the same thing for you too, butâŠâ
Calâs eyes lit up and then softened as fleetingly as a shooting star comes and goes, eager for you to finish.
You sighed, averted your gaze back to the stars.
âEverythingâs just a mess right nowâwith the Empire and all our little endeavor with Cordovaâs holocronâIâm just afraid that if I ever give myself to connect with someone, the consequence of loss will always scare me. I wouldnât even dream of losing you. I donât wanna end up going back to the time I was alone, yâknow? I guess thatâs what the Jedi was trying to warn us about: attachment leading to fear, aside from that stoicism stuff.â
Your heart felt heavy, knowing that as much as you feel the same way towards Cal, the pressure and risks that came along with it frightened you. Not once did you ever doubt Cal, but with the Inquisitors constantly chasing you, how long until heâll be caught in their net? Youâve been used to being alone and afraid of it at the same time, that you end up thinking of one too many outcomes of every situation that sits in front of you.
You awkwardly tried to dismiss yourself out of this situation. It was too emotionally exhausting for you to handle, even if youâve already said your piece with Cal and have said every point in your mind. You bring yourself up, attempting to slowly walk out of this predicament while hoping that he doesnât misinterpret your answer.
âYou wonât lose me. I wonât leave you alone at all,â
That promise stopped you in your tracks, slightly glancing over his shoulderâhoping that heâd repeat what he said even if you heard it loud and clearâand watch him fiddling with the hallikset.
Cal felt like a door had been left open for him, but no one to greet him. He didnât know what to feel with your reply. It wasnât a ânoâ after all.
Oh, what the hell, [y/n]?
âOh and by the way,â
Cal had little to no reaction time when you sat yourself next to him and cupped his cheek gingerly.
Your first kiss.
It was so sudden for him that his heart almost exploded through his ribs. He had his eyes open when you locked your lips with his, and when he realized what was happening, he kissed you backâsavoring the lusciousness of your lips with hints of tonightâs liquor. He even dared to dip his tongue into your mouth, a mischievous curl appeared at the corner of your mouth.
Finally withdrawing, you kept his cheek nestled under your fingertips, âJust so you wonât misinterpret what I said seconds ago.â
You left for real this time, leaving him flabbergasted in the best way possible. One quick look behind your shoulder and your eyes bade him âgood nightâ as you walked back to the Mantis. He chuckled to himself, unable to firmly plant his fingertips against the frets of the hallikset and strum a single note. His free hand softly ran across his bottom lip, hoping to find more of the taste that your lips left in his mouth.
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