#finding kintypes

[calmlyy-chaotiic]

Hello ockins/fictionkins

i need advice

(tw for mentions of fictional abuse, violence, and related trauma)

I'm trying to figure out if I'm an ockin or not, and I could use some input. This is gonna be a long post so check under the cut for the info.

So, the oc in question is Leona. She was originally created back when I was a teenager (a few years ago). She was made as an avatar/player character for the game Pokémon: Legends Arceus. At the start, she was basically just me, but cooler. Typical sona type thing. Fast forward a few months, and I start changing her story, eventually creating this whole dark au of the game and giving her a bunch of trauma and all that jazz.

I got... VERY attached to her, very quickly. Thinking about her all the time, coming up with new details, rambling about her. More characters joined her story, and she formed bonds with them.

I'm starting to realize that she might be a kintype of mine.

Since I've been writing her, I've gotten moments where it feels like I AM her. I know what she feels, how she views the other ocs in her story, how she reacts to her trauma, and I sort of... share those feelings. I'm terrible at explaining things, but it's more than just "getting to know the character" like I've seen other writers talk about.

As she's gotten attached to her friends and her family, so have I. It's like I see them as MY family, and not just because they're my ocs.

For example: there's a character named Ricochet that was originally going to be her best friend. Purely platonic. I was in one of my "Leona moods" where I was thinking like her, feeling like her, etc. That's when I started wondering if there were any romantic feelings towards Ricochet, and BAM. I could SEE her face, picture her voice and her laugh, and it felt like I was genuinely in love. However, I only feel like this when I "am" Leona.

It probably sounds stupid/weird, but I don't know how else to explain it.

Another thing that I think about a lot is this one time my mom was jokingly asking me questions and talking to me like I WAS Leona, and calling me Leona, and I got this HUGE dose of euphoria. I don't really get species euphoria, and normally I'd dislike being referred to by a feminine name, but it felt RIGHT

Now, onto the problems with her being a kintype.

Leona is a violent person who does bad violent things.

She has violent urges.

When I "am" her, I sort of get them too. It's a lot like what I imagine some predator therians deal with, like wanting to bite people or hunt things? (I'm a canine therian, but I've never gotten urges like these for any kintypes before Leona)

Also, Leona has a lot of trauma and mental problems (namely familial abuse and ptsd) that I don't have, and I feel like by "being" her I'm disrespecting people who actually struggle with those things

Another thing I feel like is weird is that she is a cis woman, and a lesbian, and I am neither of those things?? I'm a genderqueer guy, I prefer masc terms, and I'm omni, so??

Finally, outside of when I'm getting "shifts" for her (if that's even what these are), I don't act like her at all. We still have some similarities left over from her being a past sona of mine, but otherwise there's nothing.

So, ockins!! Fictionkins!! What're your opinion? Is it plausible that I'm an ockin? Do I just have something deeply wrong with me??

[wanderingcritter]

went to a thrift store earlier today and got this super cute collar + vintage rabies vaccination tag

im not super big on wearing collars (hate the feeling of pressure against my neck, also im not domestic lol) so i'll probably use the collar as an accessory for my pants or something, and I think i'll turn the rabies tag into an earring !! 𐂯 ‧₊˚ ⏾

[magicdragonz]

I'm a dragon but instead of a big, ferocious, fire-breathing dragon with huge claws and teeth, I'm actually this

[cryptic-decay]

Ghostkin moodboard based off me <3

[teabo]

I love the thought of insane alterhuman identities so here's some thingymabobs y'all have never even considered (with visuals bc idk names YAAA)

(CW: POSSIBLE DISTURBING IMAGERY)

[16-puppies]

A Quick Note on Death and Therianthropy

TW: mentions of animal death. Nothing super graphic but I thought I would make it as obvious as I can.

I wish there were more discussion about therianthropic origins that are outside of the spiritual/psychological/physical … like there are so many ways to be a therian or become one that I don’t see discussed at all. I also don’t know if there’s any discussion being had on how pet death may affect therianthropy, which is most of what I want to talk about here.

For example, my scenthound dog theriotype is specifically of emotional origin. I had never heard of anyone describing their experience this way , and I started using this term for myself nearly a year ago because calling my dog type just “psychological” didn’t feel right. I also think there may be a past life connected to this type as well, but I feel less focused on that part

This theriotype specifically came from my childhood dog and her death. She was a boxer beagle mix. Her death is integral to my identity because it happened right around the time I was questioning being a Vizsla dog, and it changed my perception of that theriotype forever. I was no longer a Vizsla but rather a mixed/uncertain breed of scenthound dog, and how I view myself as this theriotype has permanently changed to look more like my childhood dog. Dark masking, occasionally white markings, black claws against tan paws… quite the opposite of the uniform color of the Vizsla, who is a golden rust from nose to claw.

While I still do feel connected to Vizslas, especially the general short haired dog with floppy ears look and their behaviors, they just aren’t quite *me* anymore because of this.

I feel like pet death, or even just death in general is overlooked as a source of therianthropy or certain theriotypes… I think ultimately it comes from a place of deep empathy, which is why I felt “emotional kin” was more accurate to my experience than “psychological kin”. Thinking about this really makes me wonder how many experiences and awakenings aren’t talked about that include death in some way. Are there bovine therians who awakened as such after seeing one die on a farm? Are there deer therians who saw one of their own being hunted and realized then that they were one? Are there therians who found their kintype after being exposed to taxidermy of them? And, are there others like me who witnessed the death of their beloved nonhuman family member and watched their identity shift right before their eyes? What about therians with family and close friends who are therians? When they die, will they feel the sudden pull to “adopt” the theriotypes of their loved ones, so that a part of them is always there? So many questions, and I fear not enough research or discussion to answer them. It’s interesting to think about, at the very least.

[sable-dream]

Animals I thought were my theriotype that were not my theriotype

(Some of these are technically otherkin but whatever you get the idea)

Horse

Owl

Norwegian forest cat

Dragon

Pheonix

Selkie

Gryphon

Australian Cattle Dog

Border Collie

Puffin

Pegasus

Mouse

Rat

Raccoon

Ferret

Wild Pig

Bay Cat

Jaguarundi

Welsh polecat

Weasel

Stoat

Harp Seal

Opossum

Dhole

Wolf

Dog (several different breeds)

Golden Jackal

Anyways I wanted to post this because it's a good long list of all my years of questioning - and none of these were my theriotype. A handful were even in the same classification, but they still weren't.

Don't feel discouraged if you've been cycling through animals over and over and can't seem to find your theriotype. Sometimes it takes a while, and a LOT of animals before you find it

[sw33t--t00th]

All of my kintype's crammed into a stimboard🐈‍⬛️👁🧸

[thorn-the-silly-druid]

druid doodles ,,...,..

[the-crystal-femmes]

There's a lot of fandoms I'm not in but if I did go into them I would probably end up being a character or two which is what I don't need

[confused-canid]

cryptif 👍👍👍👍 <- likes crytids and is one

👍

[petrichorvoices]

i love finding blogs run by young alterhumans and seeing how excited they are to be alterhuman, making moodboards, talking about their identities every chance they get, and just being so loudly alterhuman. we’ve known we’re alterhuman for many years now so we don’t have that same sort of energy any more but seeing blogs like that makes me think hey, maybe i will make a moodboard, or practice vocalizing, or post about our kintypes

[altardream]

we like hanging around angels, they're chill. i feel like we'd just get territorial around other gods but angels are just far enough removed that it doesn't kick in our instincts while still being divine

[the-haven-keepers-collective]

trick or treat? :3

Ranboo

Absolutely! Here's what you got from our hoard:

[antlerkitty]

Why do I always take so long to find my true identity?

*Remembers I’m a bigender shapeshifter and part of a system of 7 with multiple queer alters*

[sleepingtimber]

Update on my jacket patches! I've added a bunch that I really like and feel the need to share to the creature side of Tumblr.

Pardon the dog hair, it gets in everything and cannot be contained. I shared a few of these before on their own/before they were added to the jacket. I posted the local werewolf (+ meat, coyote x-ing) way back when I first made them, and finally added them! My theta-delta is still going strong, and is joined by my pronoun pin, which was gifted to me during pride last year. I also made an egg (inside joke) and was gifted a frog made by my best friend! I made a trans symbol and lavender sprig to symbolize my queerness and connection to the community.

Next is my trans flag that I made, and another patch made by my best friend of a worm OFF the string! What crimes will he commit?

These next ones aren't sewn on yet, but these will be the latest additions! All gifts from my best friend! On the left is a desert patch for my coyote theriotype! I'm an anxious dog and have honorary handlers (both my boyfriend and my best friend), hence the service dog patches.

After those ones I want to make more canine themed ones ofc, but also want to try making patches for my fictotype/kintypes too! I'll probably add others that are silly or cool, and maybe get other pronoun pins. I'd like to add all my names somewhere but there's a lot and they have switched up a bit so idk yet. If you happen to see this thing irl in public (unlikely), you are welcome to come say hi 🐶🐾

Thanks for reading and looking at my jacket!! If you've made it this far this is your sign to make fun stuff and diy yourself some creature gear 🌲🐾