#finally Lily is getting the sibling she deserves!

[ladylooch]

Our Little Family [Miles Wood] Chapter 19- Baby #2?

A/N from 👢 anon: Hey guys !! I'm sorry for the delay. Life got a little crazy, but thankfully this chapter was already ready.

Life is changing for the woods. And yes, we have sex. Enjoy people.

Since that night in the Bahamas, when Miles talked about what he wants for you, if you get pregnant again, it crosses your mind at least three times a day. 

Are you ready to go through all of that again ? 

That's what you ask yourself, looking at the mirror as you get ready for the team get-together. The season is almost here, and the leaders decided that it's good to have all the families and everybody together. 

“Babe, are you ready ?” Miles asks from the bathroom door. 

You blink a few times, coming back from the transe.

“Almost, give me a couple of minutes. Can you make sure Lily has everything ?” Miles walks to you and kisses your cheek. He looks into the mirror with you. 

“Everything for my wife and daughter.”

You smile as he moves to check Lily's bag. Maybe it's time for another one. How can you not give this man another baby ? He's the perfect dad. 

You take a deep breath to clear your mind. You finish getting ready and join them downstairs. 

You smile seeing Lily sleepy in her daddy's arms. You grab the bag from Miles. He uses his free hand to wrap around your waist for a kiss. 

“You look gorgeous, babe.” He says, leaning in for a kiss. 

Your cheeks get warm at the compliment. Miles leads his girls to the car. While he settles Lily, you get in the passenger seat. He starts the car, and you guys are on your way. He rests his hand on your thigh. You squeeze his hand softly. 

“Are you excited for the season ?” You ask him. 

“Yeah, I think this season is going to be fun.” You nod, and you look to the back seat. Lily is out. She'll have lots of energy to play later. 

Mel greets you guys, followed by Gabe, the Avs captain. Miles is holding Lily, and you have the bag. Mel shows you where you can leave the diaper bag. Miles goes outside, and you decide to greet the other halves and talk to them a little. As more people start to get there, the sounds get louder and Lily wakes up. 

Miles gives her some water before letting her go play. You move outside with the halves, and you shake your head seeing your husband playing with the kids.You sit and continues the conversation with the halves. Lily is still a little sleepy, so she's a little slow. But when she's fully awake, she's playing like her dad. 

It doesn't take long for Miles to come join you. He brings you a drink, and you thank him softly. He taps your hips, and you get up for him to sit, then he brings you to sit on his lap. You thank him for the drink with a kiss. You play with the hair on the back of his neck with your free hand. 

“Are you okay, babe ?” He squeezes your hips asking. 

“Yeah.” 

You look back to where the kids are playing. Lily is one year and a half. She's playing on her own time, but she's playing. That big diaper butt, she's so happy. You miss that feeling, to be pregnant with his baby, to go through that in a better environment. 

You look at him. 

“I want another one.” At first, it's almost a mumble. 

Miles looks at you a little confused because he doesn't understand you. 

You take a deep breath. “I want another one, another baby.” 

The biggest grin possibly spread on miles lips. 

“Are you sure ?” He needs to know. 

“Yeah, I am. I want another baby with you. Do you want another baby with me ?” 

“Yes, I do, babe.” 

You smile hearing his reply. It's such a relief.

“ And I promise if you're already expecting. My answer will be different than last time.” He says with a chuckle.

“No I'm not. But I appreciate that.” You rest your forehead on his, just enjoying this moment with him. 

Then you hear Lily's cry and call for you. You peck his lips before going to check on your baby. Miles stares at your ass the whole time. He's so ready to start trying with you. 

You squat, asking Lily what happened. She only makes grabby hands. You pick her up, kissing her head. 

One of the kids said that the ball had hit her and she started to cry. It wasn't on purpose. You assure them that it's okay and she's going to be okay. 

You sit with her on Miles’ spot. You ask her if it's hurting, she nods, and you kiss her head. Saying that mommy is there. She just clings to you. Miles brings her water cup. You give it to her to drink and just hold your baby. 

Miles asks if she's okay and you nod. Everything is okay. He sits beside you and you guys stay in your little bubble until it's time to eat. Lily feels better now. Her mama was there for her, she got cuddles, and she's hungry. You smile, watching Lily opening her mouth to get your food. Miles offers to hold her, but you say that it's okay. 

You can't help but laugh at Ross chirping Miles' curls, saying that he needs to let you help him. You and Miles share a known look. You both know why he doesn't ask your help with the curls.

Ross looks at you all seriously. 

“What did you see in Woody, (y/n) ?”

You look at Miles and then at Ross. 

“Him.” You move your hand up and down your husband. 

Miles smirks, giving Ross some shit. You chuckle and feed Lily. 

You guys stay there until Lily starts to get too grumpy. She wants to sleep, as much as you're having fun. She's a priority, and you guys are going home. 

Miles is just in his silly mood as you guys move to the car. You settle Lily in her carseat, and Miles takes care of her bag. 

He moves to your side of the car, he pins you against the car. 

“Sooooooo…” You chuckle, hearing him not being smooth. 

“Yeah ?” You arch your brow at him.

“You were being truthful about baby #2, right ?” 

“Yes, Miles. I want another baby.” He feels so relaxed hearing you say those words. 

“So… Can we start trying tonight ?” You chuckle as you move your hand lower on his abs. 

“Yeah, we can. But I need to pull the goalie. That's the only way you can score, dude.” 

You peck Miles lips. He was going to say something, but your lips feel so nice, he forgots. 

He opens the door for you. He feels so happy. After settling in the car, he holds your hand before starting the car. Occasionally, he brings your hand to his lips. 

Later that night, you guys start trying for baby number 2.

……

The past few months have been a roller coaster. Both of you are giddy and so happy. Lots of sex, but a few negative tests. That's making you sad because you can see the light disappearing in his eyes every time you say negative. 

He's been a gentleman, making sure that you're okay and assuring that everything is okay. When the time is right, you will be pregnant. 

Now you're holding another negative test in your hands. As the tears stream down your face. Lily is asleep while you cry in the bathroom. Miles will be home soon after practice. 

You're thinking of a way to tell Miles again that it's a no. You understand that it takes a little time for the pills to stop. This is just so disappointing. 

Miles comes in, and the house is quiet. He knows that it's nap time for Lily. So he needs to find you right now. He finds you in the bathroom crying. He moves to sit beside you. Miles brings you close. 

“I'm sorry, I don't know if I can continue doing this.” You just blurt it out. This has been a painful process, too.

“It's okay, sweetheart, we can take a break as long as you need.” He kisses your head, holding you close. 

“I'm sorry for continuing to disappoint you.” Miles' heart shatters hearing you say that. 

“You're not, babe. These things happen and take time. But I know we're going to be parents again.” You nod, resting against his side. This wasn't supposed to happen. Miles kisses your head and just holds you. You sigh, cleaning your tears before getting up. Miles watches you. He holds your hand, holding you in place. 

“We're going to be okay, sweetheart.” He gets up bringing you into his arms again.You hold him tight, taking a deep breath and trying to calm yourself. You say that you're going to finish lunch and ask him to check on Lily. 

Miles kisses you and says that he loves you. You reply that you love him too. You need to calm yourself and go back to that initial feeling. The giddy and happy one, where you both are full in. 

The rest of the day, you mope when you're alone. But when you're with Lily, she's the only thing that matters. 

Miles spends the rest of the day trying to think of a way to talk to you and assure you this delay doesn't change anything for him. His love is the same.

When he gets home from the game, you greet him before going to use the bathroom. Miles cuddles Lily for a little while, and then he joins you. He changes and waits for you in bed shirtless. He pulls you by the hand. You settle on his lap, hugging him. He rubs your back. 

“Babe, this doesn't change anything. I promise you.” He says, rubbing your back. 

You nod, just needing him to hold you right now. 

“Do you want to stop trying ?” You shake your head no, because that's not what you want. 

“Okay, I'll be right here when you're ready to try again.” He kisses your shoulder.

This is a good reassurance to you. You just need a little time before going full in again. 

…..

One week later

One night after Miles put Lily to sleep. He's sitting outside drinking his beer, trying to cool down from the short roadie. 

You watch him from the backdoor. You walk towards him, and he smiles, seeing you getting close. You pick the bottle from his hand before straddling his hips. 

You take a sip as you lock eyes with him. Miles hand rest on your lower back. 

“Let's make a baby, handsome.” You say grinding against him.

Miles groans as he leans to lock lips with you. 

He rests his forehead on yours. “Are you sure, babe ?” 

“Yeah, let's do this.” You smirk, licking his lips. 

Miles throws his head back as you get up. You look over your shoulder like “You're going to just stand there ?” Miles shakes his head and follows you. He closes the backdoor before following you.

You tease him the whole way up the stairs. Miles catches you at the top, and you laugh as he wraps his arms around your waist. 

He kisses you, you giggle, and he shushes you because of Lily. He likes the way you are right now. Things look good and you're more relaxed. 

Miles picks you up and throws you onto the bed, making you giggle and moan. You love it when he shows his strength. You take your shirt off. You're so needy for him. He does the same before moving to be on top of you. You bring him in for a kiss. It's been a week, and you guys are needy for each other. 

Miles lowers himself. He starts to grind against you. Feeling him get hard makes you happy. You moan into the kiss. Miles strips himself and then you. 

He kisses his way down your body, but you pull his hair to stop him. 

“Miles, I just need you. I don't need foreplay…please.” You plead him. 

Miles looks at you with big eyes. He likes this a lot. He checks if you're wet enough for him. You are but not the way he would like to. So he moves to grab the bottle of lube. He's not going to hurt you. 

Miles strips himself and pours some lube to make sure it's going to be good for you. He slides inside you, drawing a moan from you. 

He attacks your neck when you throw your head back. Miles starts to move slowly, building up the moment and your wetness. Then, he gets in a comfortable rhythm. 

You cling to his biceps, leaving marks. Miles says that he needs you to cum for him, before he can give you what you want. 

You groan, but nod, bringing him in for another kiss. Miles moves his hand to your clit to bring your orgasm closer. You focus on him- his movements, his lips. 

Miles nibble your bottom lip, that little pain brings you over the edge. You get tight around him, Miles focuses on getting you through your orgasm. 

He continues moving his hips, Miles hooks your ankles on his shoulders to get as deeper as he can inside. Now, he can focus on his own orgasm. You tell him how much you want another baby, that you want to be big with his baby. He loses it big time. 

It doesn't take long for Miles to cum inside you. Both of you are a mess, he lowers your legs down and you dig your heels on his ass. You need him there. He rests his forehead on yours while both of you are breathing heavily. 

“Thank you.” You say softly, fixing that little curl on his forehead. 

Miles can only grin at you. He kisses your forehead. You can feel him getting softer inside you. You don't want him to pull out, but he has to. He pulls out, pushing the cum that leaks out of you inside.

“We have to make sure we don't waste any drop.” He says pushing a little more cum inside you.

You sigh, making grabby hands for him. Miles chuckles as he lays beside you. You rest your head on his chest. That's exactly what you needed. 

He asks if you're okay and you totally are. Having that break helped you big time, with understanding that you don't need to pressure yourself. You guys didn't do that with Lily, and she's perfect. 

You doze off for a couple minutes sweaty and with his cum in you. But your body wakes you to use the bathroom, you shower because of the sweat. After your shower you crawl back in bed with your man. 

….

A few weeks after that night, you start to feel sick. Throwing up and feeling tired, Miles wanted to stay home with you, but you said that you were going to be fine. So he went for another roadie. 

One morning, you're playing with Lily, and she hits your boobs. It hurts a little. You look at her and your brain click. Maybe it's time for another test. You look on your period app, seeing that you're late. A little hope grows in your heart. 

You take Lily to the grocery store to buy what you guys need for the next couple days before Miles gets home. On your way back, you buy a few options of pregnancy test. 

You put those in your bathroom when you get home. Today, when you need Lily to go down quickly, she decides that she's not too tired to sleep when you need her to. She gets grumpy one hour after her nap time. You're patient with her until she decides that she really needs her sleep. 

You watch her a little bit, then you go to the bathroom and meet your faith. After peeing on the sticks, those 5 minutes feel like forever. You close your eyes, just hoping this test is positive.

The timer goes off and startles you a little. You take a deep breath before picking the test. A huge smile spreads on your lips, and tears start to stream down your cheeks. This time, it's happy tears. You cover your mouth seeing that “positive” on it. You take two more tests, and they all say that same thing. 

You can't believe it. It's going to happen. You and Miles are going to have another baby. You can make an announcement to him. You kinda want to tell him right now, but you're going to wait. You both deserve that moment. 

Miles facetimes you, you clean your tears and take a deep breath before picking up. You smile seeing his silly grin on the screen. You update each other. Miles says that he'll be home in a couple hours. You can wait for that. 

You hang up and sit down to think about the announcement. You know you want to use Lily, so maybe a little jersey for her. A tiny avs jersey needs to happen, too. You make the calls that night. Everything is planned. Now, all you need to do is wait. 

Miles gets home in the middle of the night. You want to blurt it out for him. But you're not going to. You guys enjoy his off day, even if you're dying to tell him. 

The next morning, he goes to practice, and you and Lily go get the things you ordered. Getting home, you let her play while you prepare everything in your room. 

You change Lily's shirt to the one you got for her, then ask if she wants to cuddle with Mommy because Mommy is tired. She agrees, and you guys wait for Miles in bed. 

Miles get home and it's quiet, he knows that it's not lily's nap time because it's early. So he goes look for you guys, he find you in bed cuddling. He moves closer to the bed, as soon as Lily sees him she's throwing herself at him. 

He picks her up like she's nothing. He kisses her head, and he asks what you guys are doing. She says that “mama is tired." 

Miles looks at you a little worried. You look at the direction of the surprise. Miles follows your gaze, and his face goes to pure confusion. 

He moves closer to the ballons and box. He sees a big “Hi daddy” in one of the ballons, he looks at you and you shrug. Miles sees there is a box, and he opens. He sees your positive test, a card in your handwriting, “Ready for round two daddy ?” and a tiny Avs jersey with daddy on it. 

His face is pure confusion, he looks at Lily and then at you. He still didn't see her shirt. 

Tears starts to form in his eyes. He puts Lily on the bed. 

“Are you for real ??” He asks in disbelief. You nod, getting teary, too. 

“Are we…. ??” He can't even finish his thought. 

“Yeah, we are pregnant.” You clean your tears as Miles crawl into bed with you. He crashes his lips into yours, hugging you tight. You hug him back. Lily crawls to join the hug. Miles opens a space for her.

“You're going to be a big sis, baby.” He tells her as he leans to kiss her head. Lily giggles and hugs your side. You clean Miles' tears. You tell Lily to show Daddy her shirt. Miles giggles, seeing the word only crossed out with older child under it. He grins at you, not really knowing what to do. 

Then, like he needs to, he says out loud. 

“We're going to have another baby !!!” You and Lily look at each other and smile. Yeah, things are going to be just fine. 

Later that night, you and Miles are cuddling after his game. You're running your hand through his hair while he lays under your boobs rubbing his hand over your flat stomach. 

“I already love you, baby.” He says to your stomach, making you giggle. Then he looks at you, more in love than he has ever been, if that's possible. 

“And I love you and always will.” You smile.

“I love you, Miles.” He kisses your stomach as he replies and enjoys this moment. 

It was worth waiting for this moment to happen. You couldn't be happier. 

[anxiousnerdwritings]

Lestrange!Daughter!Oc x Weasley!Reader though????👀

The Reader’s grown up poor and wanting things and overall a better life for all of their family that they could never have given their circumstances so instead of going the routes of Percy or the twins (I.e. striving to have a good career/move up the workplace food chain or owning their own business), the Reader goes down the path of getting what they want through whatever means necessary, particularly through illegal means. But the Reader still very much loves and adores their family so what they do benefits them all too, at least that’s how the Reader sees it, even if the rest of the family are in the dark about it. Like, the Weasley vault at Gringotts fills up just a bit more each and every time any of the family members make a visit to it or the Reader is slipping gold to their siblings for them to get something they really want or leaving some gold lying around the Burrow for Molly or Arthur to come across.

Not to mention, Weasley!Reader would use some of the extra money they’ve made to outright spoil their younger siblings, and gift their parents something every once in awhile always under the excuse of having saved up pocket money or getting a promotion at work or something like that.

I just imagine Lestrange!Daughter having this sixth sense that’s basically a criminal vibe check and whenever the Reader is near it just goes off the charts so she starts following and stalking them but the Reader has gotten so elusive and good at hiding their tracks, until finally Lestrange!Daughter is able to stick close enough to witness first hand their illegal activities and she’s captivated from then on. Especially, seeing how the Reader ‘handles’ people trying to swindle or deceive them and their ‘business’.

Imagine Molly’s reaction to the Reader coming home with Lestrange!Daughter following at their heels or Lestrange!Daughter just flat out barging into the Burrow unannounced and uninvited like they own the place. Like, I could see Molly telling the Reader that Lestrange!Daughter has to go and the Reader just being like “If she goes, I go, and if I go I’m not coming back” (mainly cause once Lestrange!Daughter has the Reader with her at Lestrange Estate she’s not letting them go, at least not anywhere without her).

Plus, Lestrange!Daughter would totally spoil and give her darling anything they wanted without question. She’ll gladly give them the life they’ve always wanted, the life she ultimately believes they deserve wholeheartedly.

Another Idea: Lestrange!Daughter!Oc x Lily!lookalike!Reader👀👀👀. Just imagining Severus’ reaction to Bellatrix’s batshit daughter with his beloved Lily!lookalike, the man would have a heart attack on the spot.

[ashesandhackles]

Prisoner of Azkaban reread notes (Part 1)

Chapter 1, 2,3, 4

Wendelin the Weird really mocks the idea of wizards facing persecution from Muggles, and the anecdote shows how they have more power.

@starlingflight had an hc that the Weasley family went to meet Bill because of the events of last year and because Ginny really looks up to him. In PS, they went to visit Charlie in Romania during holidays, and in CoS, they went to meet Bill. This is the second time they are going to Bill in a very short time. Peak eldest sibling/ third parent moment.

I love the detail in Ron's letter about Molly not letting Ginny into the last tomb, which had all sorts of mutant skeletons. This takes on a layer given what happened to Ginny in Chamber of Secrets.

Uncle Vernon complains about Sirius' hair and then shoots a look at Harry's own. I love the connection the narrative makes between Harry and Sirius from the very beginning - the hair, when Uncle Vernon looks to Harry after he makes a comment about people "deserving punishment"

Ah Marge. The way she treats Harry is special kind of vile. There is a special kind of nastiness to her giving Harry dog biscuits as a present, and then later on in the same chapter alluding to Harry as weak, runty pup that she had someone drown (and then implying Lily has bad blood - "if there is something wrong with the bitch, then there is something wrong with the pup"). Also, although Harry is written as "default white" - this is one of the times I felt such a strong undercurrent of racism here.

And Harry, after first two books of his management of Dursleys, finally rejects them and runs away. ("I had enough" - both Harry and Sirius say at some point with their families)

Interesting that in CoS, Harry is quick to believe Ron and Hermione have forgotten all about him when he didnt get their letters (major abandonment issues acting up, exacerbated by circumstances ofc), but by POA, he is confident that even if he is an outlaw in wizarding world, Ron and Hermione would want to help him. Ron and Hermione slowly help healing Harry <3

Right when Harry is considering his life as an outcast, he is being watched by Sirius, who appears right after Harry has rejected Dursleys as caregivers of any kind, and is the wizarding world outcast. (Also, Sirius has swum the north sea and escaped prison, and he wants to "catch a glimpse")

Sirius laughing at the scene of the crime is such a stark image. We see him do this at the end of the book, when Peter accuses him. ("Black started to laugh, a horrible, mirthless laugh that filled the whole room"). When Peter accuses him of breaking out of Azkaban using dark Powers, Black "started to laugh, a horrible mirthless laugh that filled the whole room." I love this absolutely contrarian impulse in him, that he is laughing at the sheer gall of Peter to accuse him after everything. It also feels like a habit from his home life - designed to piss people off when they accuse him of something, most likely unjust. And it is the same response that happens in his breakdown over James's death on the street - it is the mirthless laughter that begins because of audacity of Peter, and it goes into breakdown over James's death.

Harry returns every day to look at the Firebolt. Jock boy.

Sirius = the Grim. XD interesting how he is associated with a death omen. @artemisia-black has a meta about this.

Ron and Mr Weasley share the same stress response: ears turning red.

Mr and Mrs Weasley recreate the same dynamic as Molly as Sirius in OOTP. Molly does not want Harry to know, Arthur wants Harry to know to be on his guard. This is telling of Rowling's fixed ideas on intrinsic traits of a gender - the man wants to give Harry more agency to be in charge, while the woman is cautious (I'm not making this up, there is literally an interview with Melissa Anelli where she said this about Molly vs Sirius scene: that she wants to contrast "cautious feminine principle" with Sirius' "take charge" masculine principle")

This book feels so melancholy to me. There is a suspense aspect built up with Harry spotting the dog, seeing that it is a death omen, and Sirius saying "he is at hogwarts". On first read, these are scary things. But when you know what you know, this is just dripping with sadness.

Chapter 5,6,7

Ginny tries to join the trio and Ron tells her to "go away". @hinnyfied pointed out how Ginny followed both Ron here and when the train is dark. I really like glimpses of sibling relationships like this!

Remus is here - he is asleep. (interesting that they take note that only students use Hogwarts Express and it is unusual for an adult to be there).

Remus does wandless magic, and conjures flames in his palm. I really really love this detail. The "right to carry a wand" is heavily contested among "creatures" as Griphook resentfully mentions in DH - and it feels like something he has trained himself to be good at. @thecat-isblogging-blog also believes it is something for post transformation - when he may not have his wand and would be vulnerable.

"Ginny looked nearly as bad as Harry felt, and gave a small sob." and Hermione goes and puts an arm around her. Again the Chamber comes up. ("Didnt any of you fall of your seats?" "No, Ginny was shaking like mad though.")

Since this is a book where Harry starts to root his masculinity in James, the shame he feels for collapsing on train is a nice touch. ("I am not delicate!" Harry said crossly). Special thanks to @artemisia-black for her metas for this insight - I would not have looked at this with lens of masculinity if not for your metas!

Interesting detail that both Dean and Lavendar also have no idea what The Grim is. Rest of the class knows - so it is embedded in wizarding culture. This is also a hint to Lavendar's blood status i think? I never picked up on this before.

Dean Thomas appreciation, when Slytherins shout at Hagrid after the Buckbeak incident, Dean says, "It was malfoy's fault!"

"giving Harry a look of loathing reserved just for him" - something about this sentence really cracks me up. lmao.

Snape threatening Trevor really hits at Neville's worst insecurities. Trevor is a gift from his family after Neville proves that he is magical (and not a Squib, as they were fearing). So Trevor is a representation of that for Neville. So Neville's fear - is not being good enough, something Snape (and also his grandmother in a very different way, hits - as McGonagall says, "it's time for her to be proud of the grandson she does have, instead of the one she wishes she had" in HBP). Neville grows very subtly throughout the series.

I love how Lyall and Hope's meeting via Boggarts (as per pottermore) adds another layer to why Remus takes it on in his first class.

Remus is polite to Snape, but he slips in the same scene - when he is asking Neville about what his grandmother wears (so Neville can overlay it on Snape), he prompts, "and a handbag?" when Neville can't seem to remember. Remus is a very subtle character, and his slip ups about his feelings are also super subtle like this. There is no reason for him to prompt Neville on this - but there is a part of him is enjoying this. (It's that part of him on the map that goes: "keep your abnormally large nose out of other people's business")

Chapter 8,9, 10,11

I love how immediately attuned Remus is with Harry, and how Harry actually does say what is bothering him after initially saying no. It is the lack of judgement from Remus, and his ability to let silence be. (Sirius does this with Harry too later on, and so does Ginny)

I love that Harry thought Lups will deny what he had observed, but he not only validates it but offers Harry an honest explanation of why he didnt let Harry fight the Boggart. It is a respect for Harry's agency and intelligence that makes Harry immediately take to him. ("I am impressed, this suggests that what you fear most of all is - fear. Very wise, Harry")

Snape, "unsmiling and watchful" that Harry and Lups are spending time together, and he has told Dumbledore that he is untrustworthy and is helping Sirius.S nape's "eyes were flickering towards Lupin more often than usual" even after brewing the Potion - Snape is super hypervigilant with Lups - there is genuine fear here. Given his teenage brush off, I can see why.

Snape being Dumbledore's angry child: trying to hint to Dumbledore that Lups may be the inside help, and Dumbledore shutting him down, and Snape concedes to it because they are in front of Percy.

Percy looked slightly abashed when Dumbledore mentions that no Dementor would cross the threshold of the castle while he is Headmaster. I wonder what Percy's views are on use of Dementors? He is very assimilationist. The next book, he is on Crouch's side for Winky debacle, so it is likely he thinks Dementors should have a look in the castle.

"his robes were hanging more loosely around him" - interesting detail to show the aftermath of transformation on Lups. It is extremely taxing on his body.

Lups both cant help himself from being concerned that Harry is sad about the match and cant help feeling guilty, that Whomping Willow, made for his use, is what smashed Harry's broomstick.

Harry is so comfortable opening a topic with Lups that he finds deeply shameful: that he fell because of the Dementors, that he hears Lily's death when they get close. It is interesting that Jily death hangs so strongly over POA, and both Remus and later, Sirius act as a stand in for James in this book.

"Lupin made a sudden motion with his arm as though he made to grip Harry's shoulder, but thought better of it." - the summary of Remus and Harry's relationship in the entire series, and Harry breaks through this wall in Deathly Hallows.

"White and shaking he was" "Give Harry to me, I am his godfather" "Black argued, but in the end he gave in" - so demonstrative of the fact that his first priority is always Harry

Sirius was absolutely doing a performance of boredom for Fudge. It is his way of fighting, even in prison - his way of saying, "you havent broken me." Because we do see how Sirius really feels around Dementors at the end of the book - hands over his head, and moaning, "No Please"

"Quite the double act" - McGonagall not mentioning Remus in the group while we get gossipy details like Remus mentioning that McGonagall told him about Harry and Trelawney. It feels like such a gossipy thing to say to a former student, and indicates fondness. So I'd like to think she is also careful and wary with regard to bringing Remus up in front of Ministry authorities, esp potentially sensitive things like Sirius and him used to be best friends.

Harry looking into his parents wedding photo, with laughing Sirius :pleading_face:There is so much longing written into these scenes, and sadness. I have said before that Harry's series wide arc is to coming terms with his parents' death.

ooh interesting stuff from Hermione. Hagrid talks about how Dementors werent keen to let him go, and Hermione says, "but you were innocent!" and hagrid snorts, "Think that matters to them?" interesting stuff for Hermione and her belief and disillusionment in institutions arc.

Dumbledore offering crackers to Snape. Love how Snape indulges Dumbledore even as he hates it lollll.

Chapter 12, 13, 14

I know the fight is about the Firebolt, but I always felt the true reason Harry is angry with Hermione is that she went behind his back. And Ron is siding with Harry. (Although it is funny that it is Crookshanks that technically placed order for the broom)

Also, interesting note about Voldemort - he refers to Lily as "silly girl" and in the most disparaging way possible, when in reality it is her sacrificial magic that stopped him. This is in contrast to how he talks about James - "Face me like a man, straight backed and proud, like your father died". It is taunt, but a compliment infused in the taunt. (We will notice this in his fixation with his father, and rather passive interest in his mother as well - and the interest in his mother is because of her lineage - "I, in whose veins runs the blood of Salazar Slytherin himself, from my mother's side?")

Hermione disappearing into her workload, and Ron, despite being angry with her, interested in what she is up to. He even asked Ernie if she missed any Muggle Studies classes, lol.

How interesting that Lups mentions that the Dementor's Kiss is the fate that awaits Sirius Black, completely unprompted by Harry. It is clearly something that bothers him. ("Do you think anyone deserves that?"). Since he read it in the Prophet in the morning, it is clearly a news that he was still processing.

"Do you really think so? Do you think anyone deserves that?" - it is obviously one way for him to process the news, but it is also a way for Lups to open space for Harry to talk about what he is thinking and feeling.

Snape reminding McGonagall that Gryffindor will be out of running for 8th year in a row if they lose the match, lol. Snape and McGonagall's background Quidditch rivalry is hilarious. This happened in CoS too ("We should get Potter off the Quidditch team until he is ready to be truthful" "The cat wasn't hit over the head with a broomstick")

Harry suggesting they make up with Hermione, and Ron tells him where she is. I get the feeling that Ron was waiting to make up with Hermione after the initial anger. He engages with her, tries to figure out her schedule and it seems to me that the only thing really stopping him is Harry's feelings and he was waiting for Harry's go ahead.

"Ok side with Ron, I knew you would" - the beginning of the series, where the boys choose each other, and Hermione knows it. This changes when Ron becomes aware of his romantic feelings for Hermione, and that forces him to step back from his buffer role, and Harry and Hermione dynamic goes through transitional storm as a result.

Hermione came to watch the match. The juxtaposition of the Fred and George juggling bottles and the festivities, and Hermione reading Home Life and Social habits of British Muggles (which she doesn't have to) really adds to the loneliness of the picture.

I don't know if this was mentioned, but Lupin keeps asking Harry that maybe it's time to stop during the Patronus chapter. I do think it's because he is seeing the physical toll it's costing him, but I'd like to think it could also be because Harry has become an earpiece to James' last moments, and Lupin is caught off-guard. His grief is rising back up and it writes "Ready?" said Lupin, who looked as though he was doing this against his better judgement.(via @thecat-isblogging-blog)

We can see Lupin losing a bit of his careful control when Harry asks him about Sirius. Not only has Lupin just gone through the circle of grief again in a space of a few minutes, but now Sirius being bought up is asking for his anger. When Harry assumes Lupins knew Sirius as well, Lupin responds very quick and 'out of character': "What gives you that idea?" he said sharply. (Also via Cat)

Sirius breaks into the dormitory with a knife. He gifts Harry a knife for Christmas later on. (@artemisia-black brought this to my attention, but he seems to have a thing for knives. )

Love how immediately Neville connects Harry to being his protector, he steps behind Harry when he sees Snape.

Obviously Snape enjoys catching harry in trouble, but his dialogue here about worrying about Harry's safety (also his life mission) is also him. ("Let other people worry about his safety!").

"Mr Moony presents his compliments to Professor Snape and begs him to keep his abnormally large nose out of other people's business" - this insult is essentially displaying Remus' anxiety over Snape "sneaking around, trying to get them expelled". And Sirius' insult, is on his intelligence ("Mr Padfoot would like to register his astonishment that an idiot like that ever became professor"). Insulting people's intelligence is go to insult for both Sirius and Snape. James' insult goes for his appearance ("ugly git") which is appearance based, and most likely to do with his jealous streak regarding Snape and Lily. And Peter follows James' lead in the ugly insult and "advises him to wash his hair, the slimeball."

I will never get over the detail of Lups clapping his hand and looking around cheerfully when Ron comes in XD covered this scene between Lups and Snape in more detail here

Remus made Sirius and James "feel ashamed of themselves sometimes". I'd imagine it would be similar to how he handled this - cover up for them as he did for Harry, and lets them hear it in private. Although some of the harshness of what Remus said here is because he agrees with Snape, and recognises his own guilt in this situation, so he is angrier.

There is something about the fact that Hermione comes to them when she gets the letter that Buckbeak is being executed that is really, really vulnerable of her? She can wait until Hagrid tells them himself, but she needs them in this highly charged emotional moment.

I love how immediate the trio's priorities shift - both Harry and hermione discuss the unfairness of the situation, and when Hermione says she has no hope, Ron says there is. "You won't have to do all the work alone this time Hermione. I'll help." Ron's offer of solidarity really gets to Hermione and she apologises to him. And that's pretty much all he needed to hear from her ("I am really sorry about scabbers") and he quickly moves to assure her- "he was a bit old. You never know, mum and dad might get me an owl now." (ron's issue with hermione is similar to his issue with Harry in DH - "you are dismissing my feelings and devaluing my needs. What is important to me is not important to you, and therefore I am angry.")

Lucius is still a background antagonist in this novel, even though he doesn't make an appearance. And like Chamber of Secrets, Hagrid is once again in trouble because of his vulnerable status in the wizarding society.

The exam chapters are so endearingly weird - the teapot into tortoise and how they are all worrying about how some of their tortoise still has spout, or breathe steam. And harry overdoing his cheering charms that meant ron had to be taken to a private classroom for over an hour cos he was doubling up with hysterical laughter.

[thistuesdaynight]

You're Good

Jegulily angst guys, I wrote another sad one, whoops

It was two in the morning when Lily woke to find a ribbon of light shining from beneath the closet door.

Her heart anchored into her stomach, and she was wide awake in an instant. It had been 2 months, 3 weeks, and 5 days since they'd had a night like this. Secretly, she'd hoped they had gotten past it. But some demons were hard to exorcise.

Lily slipped from the bed, her feet silent on the wood floor as she crossed the room.

"James!" she hissed, shaking him awake.

"Wha-" James startled, blinking up at her.

But when Lily tilted her head to the closet door, he sobered quickly. They stood together outside of the closet, knocking to let Regulus know they were out there.

He didn't always answer right away. Sometimes, he'd keep the door locked until morning and when he emerged, he'd refuse any comfort. But Lily and James stayed up with him no matter what. Whether he opened the door or not, they were there.

"Reg, sweetheart. Open up, please," James coaxed.

The silencing charm fell, and they heard a sniffle and a thin voice from behind the door.

"I'm alright."

Lily hated when he sounded like this. Like he was trying his hardest just to not break apart. She preferred him any other way: cold, superior, terse. Never like this.

"It's okay to not be alright, love. We just wanna be here for you."

A tense silence followed, with more sniffling and hushed sobs. Lily found it troubling how he locked himself in there when his mother had often used it as punishment. He still got nightmares sometimes. About his mother, about being tutored by his cousin Bellatrix, and about being trapped as the Black family heir with no way out.

Finally, the lock clicked, and the closet door opened a crack to reveal Regulus' pale and tearstained face.

He looked so small that Lily didn't even think before crawling to him and gathering him into her arms.

"Oh, sweetheart." James joined them too, tucking himself against Regulus' back and nuzzling his nose into his neck.

Regulus was shaking from head to toe, and Lily rubbed her hands up and down his arms to remind him that they were there. They were there and they weren't going anywhere.

"I don't deserve it. I don't deserve this."

"Yes, you do," Lily said firmly. "We love you so much and you deserve every bit of it."

She pressed kisses into his hair, wishing that she could get him to believe it. She knew what it was like to live in a family that didn't love you for who you were. A family that was trying to put you into boxes where you didn't fit. It was different of course, not violent. But she and Regulus had always seen themselves in each other. They had both spent so much time contorting themselves to be what they thought everyone wanted, that it resulted in estrangement from the people that they loved most: their siblings.

"She said... she said that..." Regulus spluttered between heaving breaths. "I- I was bad, and…"

"She's wrong, Regulus." James assured him. "She's a liar, and she never deserved having such a wonderful son."

"You're not bad," Lily smoothed her hands down his cheeks, wiping away tears. "You're good. You're so good, I promise."

"I want to," Regulus sobbed. "I want to be good."

"You are, sweetheart. You are."

He didn't believe it yet, but James and Lily would tell Regulus every day until he did.

[notsocheezy]

Welcome to The Author's Archive

I'm Cassandra Erica, local girlish-shaped thing carrying she/they pronouns under each arm (despite how much more difficult it makes grocery shopping). I'm traumatized and so are mostly all of my characters, and they deserved it just as much as I did (none) but that's the cards they're dealt. By me. I swear, I tried to stop writing about childhood trauma, it just didn't work. Though nowadays I also put my characters through terrible heartbreak. It's growth!

"So," you're wondering, "what have you written so far? What are you working on? Are you going to keep up this weird reflexive second-person perspective?" To answer back-to-front: no, many things, and not quite as many things. Here are some lists!

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RELEASED ON NOTSOCHEEZY.COM!

The Real Me (2022, Short Story)

There's something a bit off about businessman Mr. Shirley Jones. What's he hiding?

Three Takes on Death (2022, Short Story)

What might happen when we die?

Pink Bow (2022, Novella)

Who knew trying on one dress at the mall could change a person's entire life? Chris - or, uh, Kris - certainly didn't. Was it just a dress inside that box with the pink bow, or was it something more?

Passable. Episode One - The Virgin (2024, Writer's Block Short)

The pilot episode (of sorts) for a trans sitcom. Lily gets herself a date with a little something extra. Sarah racks her brain to keep her boyfriend sexually satisfied without breaking chastity. Alice and Brayden run a 'scientific' study with a virgin busboy.

Plus some other things, don't worry about it.

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BRAIN CURDS

Brain Curds are lightly edited daily writing - usually flash fiction and sometimes terrible on purpose. Click here to see some of the greatest hits! Here are some of the ongoing series:

The Frank Program

Frank hosts a podcast with high profile guests, and he's not afraid to tell you "what they don't want you to know," but he has plenty of his own secrets.

Passable.

Four trans college students share an apartment in Irvine and screw up each others' lives through sheer lack of scruples.

Government Man

Government Man is from the government.

Cole Nicole

Genderfluid femboy model, Cole Nicole, navigates life just outside the spotlight.

Veronica

Via gruesome means, Veronica gets her revenge - a dish best served at 98.6 degrees.

The Prom Consort

Kelly finds herself roped in to an arrangement (don't call it a love triangle) that might just be profitable. That is, if old wounds don't prove too painful.

Dominic of the Darkness

The antichrist is about to celebrate his sweet 666th birthday by breaking hell - that is, going to live on Earth for a week.

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WIP!

Anthill Theory (Short Film) Finished - Waiting for Soundtrack

An exploration of free will through a time loop that the protagonist doesn't know he's in.

A Covenant of Rust (Novella) Expansion and Rewrite Phase

A newlywed couple moves into a 1950s prefab home in early 2020, but finds more hidden beneath the surface than the floor plan could reveal. Will forgotten secrets and isolation bring them together, or tear them apart?

Blue Rabbit (Short Story) Pre-Final

Sequel/companion to A Covenant of Rust. I keep telling myself I'm going to finally finish this one, but it'll have to wait for its sibling project.

One Late Night Easter Morning (Short Story) First Draft

A chance encounter at a bar leads to late-night musings about humanity.

The Order of the Degenerati (Novel) Outlining

A secret society was formed after the tragedy of the holocaust to make sure it never happened again. Unfortunately, nowadays the most they can do is make YouTube videos go viral.

It Goes Up (Never Never NEVER NEVER NEVER) Complete

You will never read it.

Memories Retained (Novella?) Outlining

Ever had a dream where you were back in high school, before it all went to shit, and you decided to do something differently? Ever woke up and found out it really happened?

Seeing Other People (Novel?) Brain Curding

A story of love, polyamory, Dissociative Identity Disorder, and heartbreak. Gee, I wonder why I feel compelled to write this one?

And MORE! THERE IS ALWAYS MORE!

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MY BOOK!(?)

Publishers don't seem super interested in collections of short stories, and I'm afraid a collection of short stories and novellas may make a literary agent's head explode, so expect to see Tales from Starved Childhoods as a self-published debut! It includes a fully rewritten new version of Everyone Has Their Price (2017); newly revised versions of Next Day Delivery (2017), The Real Me (2022), Three Takes on Death (2022) and Pink Bow (2022); and all-new stories still in progress.

Tales from Starved Childhoods is set to be the physical manifestation of my early career as a writer, so stay tuned and look for it someplace books are sold!

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If you'd like to be one of my readers or vice versa, don't hesitate to reach out! I'm shy but I won't bite without consent.

I'm always happy to have more eyes on what I'm making and I'm always happy to read something new. It helps with the burnout. I'm open to most any genre - I don't really think much about labels when coming up with ideas.

If you work for a publisher and you see something you like, send an email to publishing@notsocheezy.com with the subject line, "Business Factory."

[lilacella]

So this could be the end of the fic if you want to end on a untainted happy/fluffy note. There will be two more chapters but then the ending will be a bit more bittersweet, so suit yourselves.

Also, I am being very nice to the traitorous rat here because I think he deserves some happiness too (in this parallel universe at least)

Nightsky

Chapter 9: Old married couple

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"Of course he will be a Griffindor! He is our son. How would he be anything else?" James cheerfully loaded cake onto their plates. It was the day before Harry's first year at Hogwarts and of course the upcoming sorting ceremony was topic number one at the table. James seemed so convinced about the outcome, that he had gotten Griffindor themed cake for the occasion, full with red and golden decor.

Harry made a nervous but excited face.

"I can't wait for tomorrow! Do you think I will make friends on the train dad?"

"Of course you will! We all met on the train back then and look at us now." James gestured at the other marauders.

James and Lily had invited everyone for Harrys goodbye party: Of course Sirius and Remus were there but so were Grimsley and Avery, Mary, some of their Auror friends and the few magical kids, Harry had befriended in his time at muggle elementary school. Even Peter had shown up with his wife, Christie and their baby daughter Rose.

They hadn't had such a big get together in a while, probably not since Sirius and Remus housewarming party three years ago, when they had moved to a little cottage in the cotswolds. Sirius had gotten it for a reduced price. He had been the one who finally had managed to relocate the agressive poltergeist out of the house and into a more suitable, abandoned asylum. There it could socialise with similarly inclined ghosts and terrorize the youth that occasionally broke into the place to party. Sirius had haggled the price so low that even Remus couldn't find any counterpoints in giving up the shack for the humble limestone building with the overgrown backyard. He had actually loved it from the first time he'd set foot into it but had tried to remain neutral towards Sirius. He hadn't wanted to sound demanding.

It was nice seeing everyone again.

Lily returned to the dining room with a sour expression. "Petunia will not be coming. She says that 'such a ridiculous occasion' is no place for her precious little Dudley."

"Did you tell her there would be cake? That usually attracts that boy."

"Don't be mean, James. He's just a kid..."

"He's a little greedy Bastard, that's what he is."

"James! There are kids at the table!" James shot his wife an apologetic look and then glanced over to Sirius, faintly rolling his eyes. Sirius smirked back from over his tea cup.

"You should be glad they're not coming. They would have ruined the mood anyway," Sirius tried to cheer up Lily. She sighed.

"But she's my sister..."

"So what. Regulus is my brother and I for sure won't invite him to anything. Sometimes siblings are better left where they want to be."

Lily sank down in her chair and started listlessley picking in her cake.

"Maybe you're right. But it still bothers me..."

"I am glad they aren't coming," Harry stated. "Dudley always tries to take away all my stuff."

"Next time he tries that you call me and I will give him something special to take home," Sirius said grimly. Remus kicked him under the table and shook his head.

"Sirius. We've talked about it. No cursing the kids."

"Just this one..."

"No."

"It wouldn't have to be a bad one, even. Just something that makes him grow a little fur or maybe some beaver like incisors..."

Peter almost snorted out his cake, laughing at Sirius suggestions.

Remus shook his head again.

"No. None of that. They are muggles!"

"You two sound like an old married couple, you know that," Avery exclaimed amused.

James smiled fondly. "They always did. Do you remember that time when Remus would keep forgetting his beard shavings in the sink?"

"He still does," Sirius said grumpily.

**

On the way to the platform Harry suddenly plucked on Sirius sleeve.

"My shoe's open," he said sheepishly, pointing towards his untied shoelaces. Sirius frowned. Harry was by far old enough to tie his own shoes. But maybe he was too nervous? Sirius decided not to press the issue and knelt down instead, tying the shoe, while the others kept walking. Harry suddenly bent down to him.

"Uncle Sirius? What if I don't...what if I don't get sorted into Griffindor?" His voice sounded anxious and it broke Sirius heart. He looked up to the boy and put a reassuring hand on his shoulder.

"Harry. You will. And even if you don't. It doesn't matter, we all will love you no matter where you end up."

"Even if it's Slytherin?"

"Even if it's Slytherin. You know, my cousin Andromeda, I think you've met her once, she is a great person. She was a Slytherin too. There are some good eggs in between all the idiots."

Harry smiled relieved.

"You promise?"

"I promise." They shared a tight hug.

"Harry?" Lily called out, having noticed the absence of her son.

"Coming," Harry called back and took off towards her.

When Sirius stood up, dusting off his knees, he saw Remus watching him with fond eyes.

**

"Gadding with Ghouls." Sirius read the title of the book in his hand with a mocking tone. "He claims he captured a ghoul with a tea strainer! Well I'd like to see that in action!"

"Can we leave please? All these people are 'gadding' on my nerves," Remus grumbled and looked around the overfilled Flourish and Blotts in disdain. Sirius chuckled and put the book back.

"But Remus, don't you want to meet the famous adventurer Gilderoy Lockhart?"

"Juding from the success of the adventure I witnessed I'd say he seems rather incompetent," Remus said and tuggedd on Sirius arm. He had really no interest being stuck in this crowd for any longer. This had supposed to be a nice little trip to diagon alley, running some errands together but of course this attention seeking twat had to have a book signing today. Sirius smirked at him and wrapped an arm around Remus waist.

"Alright, Moons let's go."

They were about to leave when they bumped into someone.

"Oops sorry, just trying to get out of here," Sirius said cheerfully only to stop in his tracks when he recognised the man. Elliot.

Remus clenched his jaw.

It had been twelve years, but still. Remus couldn't surpress his jealousy.

"Sirius?" Elliot looked pleasantly surprised. "Fancy seeing you here. Got your book signed by Gilderoy?"

Sirius snorted.

"Certainly not. That guy couldn't catch a ghoul if it was already tied down at his feet."

Elliot raised an eyebrow. "I...You think?" He glanced thoughtfully towards the table at which Gilderoy was holding audience.

"I do. Now would you mind." Sirius tried to squeeze past Elliot but he turned to stop them.

"Sorry, not to hold you up but..." He mustered Remus closely. "Are you Remus?"

Sirius rolled his eyes.

"Yes. Don't know why..."

"Oh, that's nice! I'm so happy for you," he smiled genuinely at Sirius but he didn't return it. "You put him trough so much pain. I'm glad you two figured things out. Maybe...maybe we could all meet for tea sometime? I could bring Gilderoy."

They gave Elliot a puzzled look.

"Oh," Elliot explained. "I'm here for him. He is my boyfriend you see. Anyway, I'd better get over there. Was good seeing you Sirius." He patted Sirius shoulder and Remus was tempted to shove him into the next shelve. Sirius looked after his ex with raised eyebrows.

"He...and Gilderoy. Huh. Weird combination."

"We will not be meeting them for tea, won't we," Remus asked pleadingly. Sirius smiled at him and shook his head.

"No bloody way. Let's go."

"I really think it's weird they are together. I wouldn't have thought that Elliot would be fooled so easily," Sirius said thoughtfully while they walked up the path to their cottage.

"Why, is he so smart?" Remus asked not without salt. Sirius raised an eyebrow at him.

"Are you jealous? I know that tone."

"Well," said Remus while unlocking the door. "Can you really blame me? You dated that guy for months and now he wants to meet you again? And did you see the way he looked at me..."

"I did what?" Sirius interrupted him.

"You dated Elliot."

"I didn't."

Remus stopped in the hallway and put down the bags he'd been carrying.

"What do you mean, you didn't? You brought him to James and Lilys wedding. James told me you'd been seeing him for a while. Said you were 'quite a match'."

Sirius laughed loudly.

"James said that? Well I suppose I never really talked to him about it much...Remus, we never dated. We were never together. I just brought him to the wedding because I didn't want to face you and Greg all by myself. I honestly just met with him because he would listen to my whining about you..."

So that's what Elliot had meant. You put him through so much pain. The words kept ringing in Remus ears.

"So you never..."

Sirius shook his head.

"I mean...we hooked up once, after the wedding but it was...it wasn't great. I kind of regretted it."

Remus frowned.

"What do you mean?"

Sirius just shook his head defensively.

"Just wasn't great."

Remus chuckled.

"Was he bad in bed?"

Sirius flinched, but shook his head again.

"I don't want to talk about that. Let's just get this stuff put away."

Remus suddenly felt uneasy. He wondered what had happened between the two. Sirius had been really cold towards Elliot but he had thought that it probably had something to do with their breakup. But now he knew, that they never had anything to break up to begin with. What did Elliot do? Remus decided not to press this issue further. Sirius didn't want to talk about it and pressure him would only make him shut down.

He followed Sirius into the kitchen.

"So you never dated Elliot then? Did you...But you did date people while you were gone, right?"

Sirius didn't look up from sorting the potion ingredients they had bought and shook his head once more.

"Noone?" Remus asked in disbelief. "I mean I'm sure you had options..."

Sirius turned around looking annoyed.

"Yes Remus I did. But we have talked about this so many times. I don't want anyone but you. And after the Elliot thing I was quite certain that I also don't want to sleep with anyone else. I know it sounds fucking pathetic but I guess that's just who I am!"

Remus felt gutted, like always, when Sirius proved his utter devotion to him. He didn't deserve any of this. He didn't deserve to be able to hurt Sirius, to make him desperate, to ruin him for everyone else. But, like always, he didn't know what to say. So remained quiet and helped Sirius put away their purchases.

**

They sat on the couch, wrapped up in the same banket, Sirius cosily snuggled in Remus arms, and watched the rain pour down outside.

Sirius leaned his head against Remus shoulder and Remus nuzzled his hair.

"Is Harry coming home for Christmas?" Remus asked, finally breaking the comfortable silence.

Sirius nodded. "As far as I know. Do you want to go this year?"

The Potters had, like every year, invited them to spend the holidays with them, but so far they had always either declined or Sirius had gone by himself. Remus had a difficult relationship with Christmas since it had been then, almost thirty years ago, that he had been bitten. It had been then, that Greyback had ambushed him and changed the trajectory of his life forever. Ever since, Remus couldn't quite find it in him to feel particularly festive. James and Lily knew that and understood and Remus knew that Sirius did too but he also felt bad, for always being such a Grinch. Harry had introduced him to the movie a few years ago when he and Sirius had been babysitting and Remus had felt called out.

This year would be different. This year, he wanted them to go.

"Yes. I think I will." He gave Sirius a smile who looked up at him in surprise.

"Really? Are you sure you'll be alright? You don't have to. I understand..."

"I know. But I want to." He kissed Sirius head. This year he had a plan.

Remus was indecisively picking through the rings on display when the clerk approached him.

"Looking for anything in particular, Sir?" she asked.

"Yes. I need a ring. An engagement ring."

"Ohhh, how nice! These are the regular rings, may I show you the way to the diamond ones?" The clerk was already on her way but Remus shook his head.

"No, no diamonds. I'd rather take one of these, thank you." The clerk mustered him disparagingly. She probably thought that Remus was trying to be cheap. But that wasn't the point. Sirius didn't like diamonds.

"Do you happen to have any with a black opal? Preferably silver?"

He could still remember the discussion they had had in 3rd year, when some girl had asked them all what their favourite gemstones were. Remus had said amber, and Sirius had been adamant that amber wasn't a gemstone because it was technically just fossilized tree sap. Only to pick opals, a second later and Remus had made the point that opals weren't gemstones either, but rocks. They hadn't stopped playfully bickering about this for years. It still was one of their rare inside jokes that James wasn't a part of.

"There is one but it isn't a classical engagement ring. I really think that you should..."

"Show it to me, please," Remus said kindly but firm. He knew what he wanted. He finally knew.

Remus was standing at the sink, thoughtfully twisting the ring between his fingers. It was perfect. Sirius would love it. Or would he? Sirius had said his favorite gem was black opal, but that had been twenty years ago - Merlin, he was getting old. What if his taste had changed? What if he liked diamonds now? James had gotten Lily a diamond. Maybe he was being cheap and just hiding behind the thought of getting Sirius something special. Maybe he should return it and...

"What've you got there?"

Remus spun around, startled, fumbling and finally dropping the ring which rolled across the kitchen tiles before it tipped over with a clink, right before Sirius feet. Sirius raised an eyebrow.

"Well that's a way to propose," he joked and picked up the ring. Remus stared at him like a deer in the headlights. This was not how things had supposed to go. He had intended to propose at Christmas. Wrap the ring up like a present. Maybe with a little note. He would have had enough time to figure out what to say.

"I didn't hear you come in," he said stupidly.

"Got off early today. Thought I'd surprise you."

Sirius stepped towards him, obviously entirely unphased by the situation.

"So what's this about? It isn't cursed, isn't it?" Sirius held up the ring, inspecting it suspiciously.

"I certainly hope not, I just bought it." Remus voice was weak with anxiety. Why didn't Sirius say anything? Did he think this was stupid? Was he making fun of him?

"You bought a ring? For what?"

For what?!

"I...For you!"

Sirius looked surprised.

"For me?"

"Yes. I...," Remus reluctantly took the ring back from Sirius, nervously fidgeting with it. He finally straightened up and forced himself to look at Sirius. At this point, he might as well do this now. He took a deep breath. "Since we've been together, you showed me over and over that I am the only one for you. And I just wanted...I wanted you to know that you're the only one for me as well. And I wanted to ask you if you want to..." he paused, steadying his voice "If you want to marry me?"

Sirius eyes widened and then immediately filled with tears. He dropped into Remus arms clinging onto him for dear life. Remus hugged him back tightly, feeling Sirius trembling. Was he crying?

"Sirius? Are you okay?"

Sirius lifted his head from Remus shoulder and looked at him with glistening eyes.

"I...Yes." He wiped his eyes. "I'm okay." His voice croaked and Remus gently cradled his face with his right hand.

"So, is that a yes or a no?" He asked, still a little anxious.

"Yes! Of course I...Remus I love you so much!"

Remus let out a relieved laugh and clumsily pushed the ring on Sirius finger.

"Is that an opal?"

Remus nodded. "Remember how you said they were your favorite?"

Sirius nodded and tears were rolling down his face again. Remus had once again made him cry, but this time at least they were happy tears.

**

Sirius looked breathtaking. His silky black robes falling perfectly around his body, the silver stars on it shimmering in unison with his eyes. Remus couldn't believe how he ever got so lucky. Sirius was smiling at him happily, holding his hands in his. A strand of his dark hair had fallen in front of his face and Remus wanted to reach out and brush it behind his ear but he was interrupted by Sirius expression changing first to expectancy, then to confusion and finally worry. Before Remus could wonder what could have upset Sirius on this special day, Peter nudged him violently from behind.

"Remus! You have to answer!" he hissed. A quick look around told Remus that everyone was staring at him. Including the officiate. Right.

"Uh...sorry! I do! I do...I was just distracted." He mumbled the last part more to himself but Sirius must have heard him and squeezed his hands in reassurance.

"And do you, Sirius Orion Black take Remus John Lupin as your husband?"

"I do."

Sirius smiled again.

They were sitting on the terrace of the venue. It had grown dark and it was still cold outside but they bothe had needed a break from the constant attention of other people.

Huddled together for warmth they were enjoying the stillness of the night around them. Sirius gently turned Remus head towards him and pulled him into a tender kiss. Remus let out a happy sigh, muffled by Sirius lips and threaded his fingers into his hair. Sirius licked teasingly against his lips and Remus immediately responded, deepening the kiss. When things, quickly, became a little too heated Remus pulled back, catching his breath.

"We can't get too carried away, love. We're still in public."

"It's our wedding night. Who can blame us?"

Remus chuckled.

"We should still wait util we're home."

Sirius rolled his eyes and buried his face in the crook of Remus neck and snuggled against him.

"Hey, I didn't say we should stop kissing all together," he protested, putting a finger under Sirius chin to lift Sirius head back up. Their lips met once again, gently, Sirius hand cupping his cheek.

"Can't we just stay here?" Sirius asked lazily. Remus smiled fondly.

"I'm afraid that would be considered quite rude. It is, like you said, our wedding night. We have guests to entertain."

"They can entertain themselves." They shared a giggle.

"Just five more minutes," Sirius mumbled and pressed his lips on Remus again, rendering any sort of protest useless.

[moonstruckme]

Ooooh my love, ive just had a devastatingly brilliant idea for a fic while reading another (i also had to do a little research on HP ghosts as well). Of course only if you have the time and feel like it x

What if slytherin!reader went to hogwarts with the marauders + lily and was wolfstar!Sirius' little sisters but she died tragically/mysteriously before graduating. Now shes one of the ghost at Hogwarts because she wasn't finished proving her brothers innocence. Skip to PoA, shes sooo excited about Remus (Remmy) being there and having a part of her family back. She'd missed him so much. So on the night with pettigrew, Remus made her wait in the castle for 'safety' (hes still 1 of her 4 older brothers) but if he wasnt back to come get him when the moon was nearly at its peak. And she does, appearring in the willow causing both Black siblings to pause. Reader because she finally found Sirius, but him because no one had bothered to tell him she was dead. But a happy ending where Remus stays professor, Sirius is pardoned and they both live on Hogwarts ground with reader and Harry (and maybe even Mattheo because technically he is just another child of Black suffering at his parents hands)

Side note: I also imagine her attending classes, being a pain in Snape's ass (especially when he's mean to Harry - she definetly favours him), standing up for the 🐍boys (taking them under her wing) and messing around with Peeves.

Anyway darling, love you lots and i hope your midterms go well!! Try not to stress over them too much and take care of yourself xx

Hi my lovely!! Let me tell you, I had SUCH a good time reading this over and over. I feel like it's already so fully fleshed that I wouldn't really have much to add, so I hope it's alright if I just share it like this? (The people need to see and left to my own devices it might sit in my inbox for months </3) I'm particularly obsessed with the idea of big brother Remus, I've always wanted an older brother (though I've been told repeatedly they're bullies) and I feel like he would be so soft and kind even if he does get annoyed with you sometimes. And thank you for giving our poor boys the happy ending they deserve :')

Love you so much sweetheart! My midterms did in fact go well and this week I'm rewarding myself with Halloween movies and coziness, hope you're taking care of yourself just as well (if not better, you deserve the world) <33

[madlyn5ever]

Another part to my cast list for HSMTMTS for different musicals, but I lack the energy to refamiliarize myself with the full casts of stage musicals so tonight I’m gonna do musical episodes of tv shows and based purely on vibes

Buffy The Vampire Slayer: Once More, With Feeling

Buffy: Gina!! Maybe a part of me just thinks HSMTMTS would so make some sort of call back to Andi Mack like they did with the airport episode with Asher Angel, and I’d eat it up honestly. But also Gina is the strongest contestant to play THE SLAYER HERSELF.

Xander: Ricky would get Xander but find out in secret that his actor irl is entirely problematic and offer the role to EJ as if they need an extra person and EJ, entirely unaware, happily obliges and even gets all giggly and peppy (yes PEPPY as he practices his lyrics.

Willow: Ashlyn. Listen, she doesn’t get that much here and her voice deserves more and better, but redheaded and gay and gets to wear a renaissance fair style dress is the vibe and trust me the outfit would get a ‘dying deceased yes’ from her.

Tara: Maddox. Okay stick with me. Dresses are clearly not her thing, nor is acting, but this whole episode is just singing, basically no other lines. Literally. And besides I think she’d play my favorite Tara SO well. They’re kinda similar to me idk, it just fits. And she gets to wear the green ren fair dress to match her girlfriend, and her big song is a love declaration to Willow, so I need this immediately.

Anya: Nini or Seb for sure (I was gonna do Maddox cause Anya’s the autistic coded one but these two fit better.) (she sings -and really goes for it- about her bunny phobia and it’s one of my favorite moments from the episode.)

Dawn: she doesn’t sing. So, I’m gonna give this one to someone who deserves to play a younger sibling who’s naive enough to get kidnapped by a musical devil. Danny.

(Bonus points that Lily is coaxed into joining and thinks she’s getting a good role but SHE’S playing the devil.)

an alternate for Dawn would be Emmy, but there’s no singing for this role and her voice is too talented for that. So maybe they’d make a new song to add just for Emmy so she could sing.

Giles: Ricky. And yes it’s entirely awkward that he’s playing his girlfriends mentor who has gotten with her characters mother. But Ricky’s siked about wearing ‘specks’ as he’d call them to get into character.

Spike: Jet! He’d be so good as spike he’d live for playing a vampire and he’d love the leather duster coat. Maddox would get tired of hearing him talk about this coat. But it’s a good coat!

Ensemble: Carlos would get the role of the guy in the dry cleaning flash mob who sings “they got, the mustard, OUTTT!”

And Kourtney would be set to be chosen for one of the main cast roles, but some antics would lead to a domino affect that gets Kourtney stuck in that musical number and nothing else, holding a plastic dry cleaning bag with clothes in it doing the full ensemble flash mob with Carlos instead. She will not let it go until they finally perform and she admits she had a good time.

(Also Miss Jenn is low on students, so the main cast has to join in on the flash mob scene, including herself and Mazzara, in separate costumes that look like their characters in disguise. It’s all very chaotic. Nini ends up in an animal maybe cow, or farmer costume because of some mix up and she just goes with it because she’s not even sure why she decided to come back to East High but she’s happy to be here.)

[heylavellan]

Rhiannon Amell

They hold sacred all the little joys in life because their gods are always with them. Whether they see Bjarte dancing on the wind or Embla following them in dark forests, spirits are everywhere for the Avvar. Yet the Templars found Rhiannon Pyotrsbarn, so they were promptly delivered to the Circle and harrowed. To see one of the Avvar rise above and save Ferelden was a mark of pride.

˚∘⊰⋆ about ⋆⊱∘˚

other names: Rhiannon Pyotrsbarn, Rhiannon Mountain-Heart

age: 27 (after Awakening)

pronouns: they/them

class: mage (arcane warrior, spirit healer, then dalish keeper)

beliefs: Avvar gods

strengths: practical, powerful, dedicated

weaknesses: stingy, tactless, outsider

family: Revka Amell (mother), Pyotr (father), Nessa, Eirian, Fausten, Grant, Seren (half-siblings)

After Revka's firstborn, Nessa, was taken to the Gallows, she ran away with her cousin Leandra to Ferelden. While her cousin managed to settle down in Lothering, Revka met Pyotr when he visited a nearby village to trade. She joined his hold and eventually bore him a child, who like her other children, ended up being a mage. In the hold, Revka got to see her grow into a young adult until a scarce winter resulted in Revka's death. From her journal, Rhiannon was able to piece together their family history. She left the hold with their blessing, but would never return when she learned that the Fereldans cared little for mages.

˚∘⊰⋆ thoughts on companions ⋆⊱∘˚

romance: Alistair, until he makes the final sacrifice. Falls in love with Zevran.

best friends: Velanna, Anders, Alistair

close: Morrigan, Zevran, Sigrun

associates: Oghren, Shale, Nathaniel Howe

dislike: Sten, Leliana, Wynne

˚∘⊰⋆ after the blight⋆⊱∘˚

Jowan: "He was stupid to break the oaths of the Circle. That he got out proves he deserved a chance to live. I wish him well."

Lily: "She punished herself for the mistakes of another. I will never understand why followers of Andraste love punishment so."

Anders: "My hold would love him. He found every draft in the tent to get out. The Grey Wardens were lucky to have him."

Nathaniel: "I cannot judge him for a crime he did not commit. He was less intense when Anders was around."

Finn: "Florian was skittish. A good head on his shoulders, but he was weak and couldn't fend for himself."

Hawke: "Even if they no longer bear the Amell name, it is good to know that someone is still out there making tales worth telling with our mark on it."

Bethany: "She helped me connect with Seren. For that I am grateful."

Carver: "One of our finest wardens. He earned the respect of his peers quickly. Velanna seems to really like him."

Cullen: "It seems strange to me that people who can barely fight off spirit possession are expected to watch over those of us who can commune with the gods. That he rejected that life seems a good omen."

˚∘⊰⋆ related works⋆⊱∘˚

none atm!

[the-inkwell-variable]

Friday Kiss and Writing Bliss Tag!

Thank you, @the-golden-comet, for the tag! SURPRISE I ACTUALLY HAVE A KISS FOR YOU TODAY! It's familial, so don't get too excited - I'm way too nervous to write the kiss y'all deserve. ALSO STRAP IN FOLKS THIS IS A LONG ONE

She locked the door behind him and leaned against it, exhaustion crashing over her like a tidal wave.  This was not how she'd expected today to go.  

Strong arms slipped around her waist, comforting and warm and real.  “I thought I'd lost you.”  Hendryk sounded as exhausted as she felt.  “When I came home and you were gone, I - I didn't know what to do.  I've poured so much of myself into taking care of you that the thought of losing you…”  His breath shuddered against her shoulder.

Amara turned to wrap her arms around his neck.  “I'm so sorry, Hendryk,” she whispered, her throat thick with tears.  “If I had known-”

“You didn't.  You couldn't have.”  But his grip on her didn't loosen, as if he was afraid she'd disappear if he let go.  “Just… do you understand now, why I've been begging you to drop this case?  Do you see now, dalninil, how dangerous people can be?�� I can protect you from the Underdark’s vengeance - I can protect you from Luc's greed - but I can't protect you if you continue to do dangerous things.”

“I know.  I just…”  But there was no excuse, was there?  She shook her head.  “It doesn't matter.  I wanted to convince the Sheriff that Lily was innocent.  Tonight proved that.  I'm leaving it in the sheriff's hands from now on.”

“You promise?”

“I swear it.”

He brushed an ivory ringlet to the side with a rough thumb and pressed his lips between her horns.  “I just want to see you safe, little spider.”  with an awkward chuckle, he pulled away from her embrace and cleared his throat.  “All right.  Enough of this mushy gushy vulnerability.  I'm going to go do the dishes that someone didn't do last night.”  He shot her a playful wink, as if she couldn't see the raw red lining around his eyes.

Amara rolled her eyes at his retreating back, more than happy to put that uncomfortable conversation behind them.  “I'm going to clean my tarot room.”  He called something over his shoulder, something she didn't understand, but she wasn't about to distract herself with sibling banter.  If she didn't clean it now, when she had the gumption, she wouldn't do it for weeks.

She hadn't expected it to be this bad.  Sheriff Kain had clearly downplayed it to spare her.  Clearly the killer had taken their time, made it personal.  The perse curtains were shredded from ceiling to floor.  The crystal ball rolled away from the opening door, covered in concentrated bursts of cracks that splintered out from white focal points; clearly someone had beaten it with a hammer over and over, expecting it to shatter after only a few strikes.  Her tarot cards scattered across the floor, halved and quartered, completely ruined.

Wait… not every card.  Three cards had escaped the killer's notice - the same number she normally drew for a tarot reading. If she were truly superstitious as her occultery suggested, she would probably take it as a sign.  Amara stepped gingerly over some of the mess and picked up the first card - it showed a tall circular building shrouded in orange flames, a bolt of blue lightning splitting the roof from the flame.

The Tower.

The same card she drew first when she drew for Glendara.

A coincidence, she decided, setting the card face-up on the deeply gouged table.  There weren't that many cards in a deck - it wasn't that unlikely.  She bent to pull the next card from under the table leg.  This one portrayed a man facing three summer suns, a long ornate staff in his right hand.  Six identical staves surrounded him, three on his left, three on his right.

The Seven of Wands.

The second card she'd pulled for Glendara.  

All right.  This wasn't amusing anymore.  She tossed the second card on the table and stared at the final undamaged, unflipped card for several long uncomfortable seconds.  “This is stupid,” she said aloud.  “This isn't a reading.  This room is not haunted.  It's just a stupid card.”

It still took almost a full minute to gather the courage to reach for the card, and it was trembling fingers that flipped it over.  A blindfolded woman, barefoot in a puddle of blood, stood before two oil black moons.  Several rusted sabres pierced the dead soil around her.

The Eight of Swords.

The third and final card from Glendara's final reading.

Despite all time that had passed - despite everything that had happened - the message remained the same.  

Despite best efforts, trapped.

TAGGING @drchenquill and @theink-stainedfolk for the From Matcha to Murder snippet! TAGGING @willtheweaver - @rita-rae-siller - @leahpardo-pa-potato - open tag!

[idyllic-affections]

YASSSSSSSSSSSSSSS, ALL THE DRAGON KID-FRIEND-SIBLING HUGS FOR FURINA.

It bugged me so god damn much how we never actually apologized to her at ANY POINT for what happened. Yes, it needed to happen, yes it was something that was absolutely inevitable if we wanted to save Fontaine from the wrath of Celestia, and finally free Furina from her torment. But we still manipulated, lied, and put her in an extremely uncomfortable position to achieve that end.

You'd think the least we could offer was a brief "I'm sorry."

🐉Anon

JUST LIKE. IDK. I NEED TO HUG HER SO FUCKING TIGHTLY DUDE SHE DESERVES SO MUCH AFTER EVERYTHING SHE SUFFERED THROUGH. DID ANYONE EVER SAY "I'M SORRY"?? NO. AND NOT EVEN A "THANK YOU"...... BRO THESE PEOPLE ARE SO FUCKED UP, DIDN'T EVEN THANK HER FOR NOT GETTING THEM ALL KILLED, BUT SHE LOVES THEM ANYWAYS AND STILL THINKS THAT THEIR ANGER TOWARDS HER IS VALID AND JUSTIFIABLE 🙏🙏🙏 GOD. MY ROMAN EMPIRE FR. FONTAINE IN GENERAL IS MY ROMAN EMPIRE NOW. I CANNOT STOP THINKING ABOUT HOW INHERENTLY TRAGIC ITS STORY WAS. YES FORCING FURINA'S HAND WAS NECESSARY, BUT GOD??!?!???? YOU ALL COULD, IDK, APOLOGIZE?????? EVERYTHING SHE DID WAS FOR THE PEOPLE OF FONTAINE. EVERYTHING. AND YET YOU ALL THINK YOU JUST GET TO MOVE ON? NO. APOLOGIZE. RIGHT FUCKING NOW 🗣🗣❗️❗️❗️❗️🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥

idk man. just imagine. perhaps neuvi's child was born shortly after she was instated as the "hydro archon," or perhaps slightly before. it really doesn't matter. the point is that they've known her all their life. she's like family to them at this point (Umm. something something a dragon's possessiveness of their loved ones..... Yeah) and to see how literally no-one has bothered offering her an apology or a thank you for her efforts makes something unidentifiable burn in their chest. i choose to believe that neuvillette apologized 😇 or we could go with canon and say he didn't, and you know... slight father/child angst. anyway. so, when seeing how no one has apologized and thanked her, they decide to do it themselves. they get her address from their father and show up to her home with a lakelight lily and one of her favorite cakes (they remembered, of course they did, she's their best friend, why wouldn't they remember?). and when she invites them in, because... they're probably the first person to come seek her out, you know? she would miss them after moving out. :( they quietly set down the gifts they've brought for her and just squeeze their arms around her. and quietly apologize to her and tell her that all of her efforts have been acknowledged (by them, at least), and they're so proud and thankful because fontaine would literally be gone by now if it werent for her.

idk i am so normal about furina i promise (is lying) 🙏🙏

[forthedancingandthethriving]

(This is a bit out of order but it was in my head and I needed it out fast so I didn't lose it. For context all of the kids (so Lily, Lil Coding, all four Haltmann siblings, and Timmy) ended up in the same place together without anyone else, got found by the Cutie Mark Crusaders, and their group has somehow ended up in possession of an airship and mostly figured out where Ozzy and Gary's hideout is. Lil Coding has been extremely unhelpful the whole time and making some pretty over-the-line statements about Root, and is getting on everyone's last nerve. This scene is when somebody besides Lily (who has been arguing with him the whole time but can't get through his thick skull because he's calling Bias due to her usual relationship with Root) finally snaps and calls him out on not just his current bullshit, but his behavior ever since the end of Raging Riptides.)

(Also keep in mind that everyone in this scene except Lil Coding and Barney are currently ponies and everyone except the two of them and Lily currently have hooves. Because Equestria.)

“Okay, I have had it with your shit the last few weeks, you stupid cat!”

Everyone on board whirls around in surprise to see that Hex of all people is the one who spoke, and she’s now stomping up to the target of her ire, who makes the mistake of opening his mouth again.

“Wha-”

She briefly pauses her approach and slams a hoof down onto the deck to interrupt him, “Nope! It’s HMG2’s turn to talk!”

“Yes, we get it, you did the “good-aligned cheap knockoff of a villain gets manipulated by a trick-ass bitch” first. What, do you want a medal!? This might be hard to believe, but not everything has to be about you and your problems!

“Now, I’m not saying you don’t have a right to be mad about what Root did -though you probably have the least reason to be this mad out of everyone who was directly involved, quite frankly- or that you have to forgive her! Hell, I was pissed at her too for a while and I’m pretty sure Vee’s at least still on the fence. But at least we’re not bitching and sulking while there are lives on the line or saying a literal disabled and abused child deserves whatever that omnicidal maniac’s doing to her-seriously, what the fuck, man!?

“I was willing to put up with whatever hangups you’re dealing with back home where we weren't mid-crisis and the adults could deal with you, but they’re not here right now and you’ve apparently made it your mission to be as much of a burden as possible, and I can’t FUCKING take it anymore! So you can take your Messiah Complex and Catholic Guilt and SHOVE 'EM UP YOUR HAIRY PURPLE ASS!!!”

By now she has him backed against the ship’s railing and is right up in his face, “Now shut up, get over yourself, and either help us or find a corner to sulk in and stay out of our fucking way!”

She spins around and stalks off, not looking back as he falls over stiff as a board, and sees all the other kids staring at her, “Anypony else have some grievances they need aired?”

Scootaloo ducks back down behind the wheel in a panic while everyone else vigorously shakes their heads, which prompts Hex’s mood to do a complete 180 back to her usual quiet cheer, “Great! Let’s keep going then.”

While most of them go back to keeping the airship running (albeit now visibly unsettled), Lily can’t help but keep looking at her sort-of cousin in confusion, “The hell was that?”

“Well, she is based on SMG4,” Barney notes, “I suppose it makes sense that she inherited his temper.”

WOW. WOAH. OKAY, I LOVE THIS A LOT.

The idea of Hex being the one to call LC on his bullshit is such a nice idea, I love it. The fact that she gives him no room to argue, points out all the flaws in his shit, and still manages to get her point across is flawless. Also, the idea of this pony gradually backing up a cat, that is probably taller than her at the moment, up against the railing is hilarious.

OUGH YEAH,, her being based off of SMG4 too,, man that temper can be deadly when unleashed. At least someone's knocking some sense into LC!!

[willowve01]

Well now I've gotta know

What do the Fellowes parents think of Korey? (And possibly her brothers)

Uhhh- before and after Lily's death for David

There's a lot—

Before:

Lily is kidnapping all of the Adiel children. Yeah, she's a teen mom (19) but she'll take the risk. No child deserves a life like that. Ever.

Tbh she adores all of the Adiel children. She admires Esra quite a bit, he reminds her a bit of David; quiet, intimidating yet kind and charming. She honestly wanted to learn sign-language just so she could talk with Diana. Just like Raine, Lily has the best experience with kids. Alya with be in the best care and active all day.

She adores Korey. She honestly reminds her of herself in her youth- only she was much calmer. She's happy that Raine finally found someone that looks past her...in-human strength, and love her as a person. She's caught onto all of Korey's self-hate; she's going to have a long chat on how beautiful Korey is.

"Scars mean you went through something tough in the past, survived it, and came back stronger."

Noah is going to kill this poor woman by cuteness overload. She absolutely adores him and Everlynn's relationship. Just like Everlynn, she is extremely patient and gentle towards him. She caught on that she's not at all social, but she's all ears when he's ready.

~

I think David would relate to Esra the most out of the kids. He admires his strength and bravery to return back to that hell-hole to check up on his siblings. He also loves that he finds his daughter just as unique and competent as he does.

He adores Korey and Raine's relationship and is astonished on how much energy Raine can actually handle. He loves that Korey is getting his little Raine to open up a bit, she used to be such a shy thing because of the bullying she went through.

He honestly doesn't know how to handle Noah's extremely shy demeanor. I mean, he'll acknowledge his presence but he doesn't know how to start a conversation with a kid that won't talk. There's a tinge of Papa-Bear when Noah and Everlynn are alone together, but he enjoys seeing that little boy open up around his youngest.

After:

Honestly... David's too drunk to care. If any of them try to talk to him, they'll either be ignored or earn a "tch" and an eyeroll. (He knows he can't do anything because Bill and Raine will jump him.) If they're persistent with trying to reason with him or talk about his daughter, they better get ready for a long and loud argument.

He either avoids Esra or sees him as a threat and squares up with him. He also thinks Korey his just plain stupid and reckless like a child; knowing where she stands in Raine's life, he keep's his distance.. for now..

He goes after the weaker links, an example being Everlynn- or Noah in this case. He will square up to him like he's an adult man; Raine having trauma about a similar incident, she'll do more than just snap when she finds out about this.

"Everlynn, take Noah outside. I need to have a 'chat' with father here." (David presences to be thrown through several houses/she's hunting him down even when he's down.)

[unravellingsilencehq]

“Oh, Merlin, tell me, does THE ALCHEMIST get what he deserves?” He is in THE DEATH EATERS & OPEN to finding out. 

— he walks through the world as ;

name → severus snape pronouns → he/him identification → cis male year of birth → september 1959 - september 1960 face claim → viveik kalra blood status → half-blood sexual orientation → up to applicant occupation → potioneer at mr mulpepper’s apothecary in knockturn alley future information → traitor to the death eaters, eventual member of the order of the phoenix

— he is best described as ;

DARK and GLOOMY like that of a closed off lab. The SOLITUDE one finds when alone in their room, a LONER who prefers to get lost in HISTORY than the present day. He’s a SHARP TONGUE poised in defense, ready to FIGHT the threats that come his way. An OUTSIDER who shaped himself to fit in with the crowd. With a COLD HEART, he TURNS his BACK on those who once offered him a hand.

— his story starts with ;

Severus Snape always believed himself to be the smartest person in the room. He was the only born child to a Muggle, Tobias Snape, and a witch, Eileen Prince, who lived in Spinner’s End. From a young age Severus had been a curious boy, preferring the company of books and journals to the children that lived near him. Unusual for someone so young, Severus enjoyed the peace and quiet that came from being alone. No siblings to follow him around, no friends to continuously pull him away from his books, his room became a sanctuary of silence and Severus thrived in it. Despite his mother’s worries that he should start making friends, he stayed put with his abnormally large nose buried deep in his books. Finally realizing her words were falling on deaf ears, Eileen left him to his room, especially as time went by and Tobias grew colder. A man that never saw fatherhood in his future, Tobias spent most of his time in Spinner’s End wasting away with a glass of whiskey in hand. The only acknowledgement he’d give to his family was a scolding for the littlest of things. Severus grew to hate his father and his Muggle side, though he was never brave enough to admit that to Tobias, and instead let the feelings fester year after year.

With his father being the result of his disdain for all things Muggle, Severus leaned heavily into his wizarding side of the family. His thoughts were if Muggles could be this cold and cruel to their own blood, what were they like towards strangers? He enjoyed his sheltered life, not even realizing what else the world had to offer to him. Locked in the four walls of his room, Severus tried to drink in as much information as he could. To Severus, knowledge was power and if yielded correctly, he could do anything. His lonely world changed though the day he met LILY EVANS [former friend/object of affection]. Passing her by chance on the street one day, he extended a rare hand of friendship. A Muggle-born witch, Lily had no knowledge of abilities she possessed, let alone anything of the Wizarding world and Severus was more than happy to fill her in. Normally one to stick to his own devices, the wizard enjoyed the complete awe on Lily’s face as he spoke of magical creatures, wizarding shops, and most importantly Hogwarts. They became inseparable, spending many afternoons sitting by the lake near Lily’s home exchanging stories. Soon enough when September 1st rolled around, they were both boarding the scarlet train to school.

Quickly being sorted into Slytherin, he had to watch from his table as Lily anxiously made her way to Gryffindor, her new house and his rival. The jealousy that flowed through him as he watched her make new friends, unbeknownst to either of them those new friends would become his biggest enemies. The idea of spending their Hogwarts years together came crashing down but Severus distracted himself by befriending his roommates, JASPER AVERY [close friend] and LARKIN MULCIBER [close friend]. They formed a close knit trio, targeting those they deemed less worthy of magic with pranks. Having a rather silent childhood, Severus enjoyed his roommates' company in small doses, often finding his nose back in a book when they weren’t around. His loner attitude is what drew a target on his back to JAMES POTTER [adversary], SIRIUS BLACK [adversary], REMUS LUPIN [adversary], and PETER PETTIGREW [adversary]. Known as the Marauders, they were famous amongst all the students. And Severus could only sit back and watch as even Lily wasn’t completely immune to their charms. Severus could feel his position in her life fading away the closer she got to the Gryffindor boys.

What had started as a curious eye following the boys whenever they approached Lily at the Gryffindor table, it quickly grew to an obsession. James, the Marauders ringleader, was the first one to show signs of dislike towards Severus and his little gang of brothers quickly followed. Words would be exchanged and more often than not spells would follow. Severus truly despised James; he was arrogant and egocentric and Severus had no idea how someone like that could capture Lily’s affections so quickly. Years had put a heavy strain on his friendship with Lily, although they both tried to keep it alive but the differences in friend groups grew too strong. In his spare time, the Slytherin found himself trailing the boys, determined to prove they were hiding something. Never in his wildest of dreams did Severus ever think he’d owe a life debt to Potter. A horrible prank orchestrated by Black to invite Severus along turned into the Slytherin coming face to face with Lupin during his werewolf transformation, a stag being the creature to rescue him from his classmate during the full moon. It wasn’t until meeting with PROFESSOR DUMBLEDORE [former headmaster] that he discovered the stag had been Potter in his animagus form.

The result of the disastrous prank had the wizard keeping his distance from all the Gryffindors, pushing himself into his classwork, excelling in DADA and Potions specifically. Though spell invention was something that came as a surprise to him. The Levicorpus spell had quickly become popular, and not knowing Severus was the creator of the charm, James used it to humiliate him in front of Lily and his friends. That was the day the last thread of their friendship fell apart, not taking into consideration the crowd that had gathered the Slytherin had uttered the horrid word ‘mudblood’ as Lily attempted to defend and help him. Things happened too quickly and the only thing he could remember was watching Lily turn her back on him forever. After that Severus fell further into the crowd of Slytherins, welcoming the invitation from Larkin’s older brother to meet with a wizard known by the name, THE DARK LORD [leader] after graduation. Fueled by how things ended in his last years of Hogwarts with the Marauders and Lily, the Half-Blood wizard signed himself up for the cause. 

Having secured a job at Mr. Mulpepper’s Apothecary in Knockturn Alley, Severus had found himself unsure of the cause until he was thrust into the spotlight. His first significant mission had him teaming up with his fellow Death Eaters LUCIUS MALFOY [acquaintance] and REGULUS BLACK [acquaintance] at the Yule Ball of 1983 that had ended in a disaster after they failed to kill the proper target. He was then sent to retrieve a prophecy that had previously failed to get in the Dark Lord’s grasp, from the Fountain of Fair Fortune with Regulus and ALEXANDRA ROSIER [acquaintance]. Thankfully that mission had turned around in their favor and he had been branded with the Dark Mark as a reward. Having been instructed by the Dark Lord to lay low after the Summer Solstice ball, Severus has been busying himself with his work. The potion making is tedious but it has kept his mind occupied to think on the decisions that have led him to 1986. He felt he had been making the right decision in joining these dark crusades at the time but now things have mellowed, Severus was giving more time to think about things and what having this tattoo etched into his arm will mean for his future.

— he is a LEVEL 7 WIZARD & readied for war ;

[anewnewcrest]

From Lily Miller's Diary

Having Baker here in Newcrest is lovely beyond belief! I'm so happy, I'm so in love with him (though we have not said that yet, so as not to give too many pieces of our hearts away), it's so much fun taking him around to all of my favorite spots, hearing his stories about his childhood, and rediscovering the neighborhood together. My whole family is involved in chaperoning us so we don't repeat the long frontal hug we had when we saw each other after our long separation, and my dad especially is watching us like a hawk!

I've thought about it and I've prayed about it, and while I love my family here in Newcrest very much, it's a woman's Watcher-given duty to get married and (hopefully) have children. I always knew that I wouldn't be living with mom and dad forever, that I'd get married and leave and cleave, and it seems that that time has come now, much sooner than I anticipated. And surprisingly, I am at peace - of course I'll miss them very much, but in Strangerville, I'll have Daisy and her family, and of course, Baker's family, and that will be enough. That there won't be a little sibling at every corner making sure we don't kiss is just an additional bonus!

From Baker Graham's Prayer Journal

Being here in Newcrest with Lily is such a joy. Her family has been so welcoming to me, her brothers all excited to hear about the military, her mother so happy that Lily has finally found a young gentleman to court, even her father asking me to lead the family prayer before meals, and approving heartily of me thanking the Watcher for this meal and my good fortune in finding such a wonderful woman in Lily. Still, it was a shock to see the Millers' house. Everything so much smaller than I remembered, the childrens' beds crammed into the living room, four of them sleeping in the master bedroom with their parents... I didn't realize how Lily grew up, and now I know, and I want to do better by her with a fierce passion. Lily deserves to have a real provider at home, and I'm now more determined than ever to pursue a career as an officer so she'll never lack in anything.

Exploring the neighborhood where I grew up is exciting, but it also brought up painful memories of my mother. The Millers live just across the road from where we used to live, and every place I see seems to hold some significance, the park we used to go to, the old bowling alley that's now closed, the café she loved, the pirate ship where she had so much fun playing the sea monster for Chelsea and Riker. Lily's presence was such a blessing when facing those bad memories, she has such a kind and generous spirit and heard me out instead of thinking less of me as a man because I allowed my grief to show. I am now, more than ever, convinced that she is the one the Watcher wants me to marry, and I do so hope that she'll say "Yes!"

[oneluckygoose]

Continuation:

Walburga and Orion are horrible: controlling and abusive and manipulative. They destroy their children. Unfortunately for them, James Potter exists.

Sirius starts off wanting to please his parents and be everything they want him to be; it's how they raised. That changes. Sirius always had a fire inside him that his parents could only push down for so long. Once he gets into Gryffindor, everything changes. And, fair warning, it doesn't end pretty.

Regulus' relationship with Orion and Walburga is that of a child who has watched their older sibling be abused for rebellion and is fucking terrified of that happening to him. He hates them, but he has to please them to save his own skin.

!!!Neither of the Black children are bad for their respective reactions to abuse. That is not something they can control, but is only something they have to work to heal, and they do.!!!!

Also, all the Skittles are in Slytherin for being ambitious, cunning, and calculating. Not because they are evil.

Not all Slytherins are pure blood fucks who toss around slurs and unforgivable curses while chanting "praise the dark lord". Some of them are good/some of them don't deserve treatment as if they were. Understanding this is essential to James' character development.

Not Snape though, he is exactly what it says on the surface. Sure, he loves a muggle born, but he also is obsessed with her, manipulated her, called her slurs, and hurt the people she loved. He has no such qualms with being as horrible as possible to anyone else. Not saying James and Sirius were good, but Snape wasn't a fuckin' hero either. "Always." BITCH THAT"S CREEPY NOT ROMANTIC.

How long does it take Lily to realize Snape is the worst person on the planet earth? Much, much too long. He calls her mudblood and that is the last straw.

Also fuck JKR's timeline (also just fuck JKR), I don't even understand how the prank could happen before Snape's Worst Memory or after 5th year so the cannon fuckery is going to happen mainly in 5th year and around the prank. I have a plan laid out, and it shouldn't change its cannon compliment status too heavily.

I've put in a lot of OCs and worldbuilding elements in the story. It's still the Marauder's story, I just filled out the world in a lot of places I see it lacking a lot. Also, whose to say that the Marauders' days at Hogwarts weren't just as dangerous and insane as Harry's? Hogwarts is a strange place where a lot of strange things happen, I plan on using that.

For this final one, I just want to emphasise it by saying: The thing under this is very important.

Nothing will be glossed over. I see a lot of vagueness about the Cruciatus curse, and just, no. People need to see in detail what shapes the characters and why they are the way they are, especially Regulus and Sirius. I'll do CWs before every chapter, but I'm not holding back. It'll be graphic, it'll be skin crawling, but maybe that's the point. Remus goes through torture every month, that needs to be known. Sirius and Regulus are broken by their parents, that needs to be known. Mary was raped and assaulted by blood purists, that needs to be known. Things won't be pretty, they never have been with the Marauders. But maybe that's the most beautiful thing about them. Things aren't pretty, but they find a way to love despite that. (James Potter tends to have a large hand in that, too)

There is and will be a lot more to this story than mentioned, and even still I feel like I've given away too much. I guess this is just for those reading to know what they'd be getting into. I heed and hawed over writing this for a very long time, but now I'm actually doing it! Currently upload schedule is fairly inconsistent because I am in school, and I don't think that'll change for a long while. Unfortunately I plan on putting a lot of things in here, so it's going to be a long fic. As of writing this, I already have 31k for just four chapters, one of which isn't even done. But, I'm trying to do the best that I can writing this, so I really really hope you enjoy!

Also, I know I'm writing very seriously in these descriptions, but my normal writing style isn't like this. I just didn't want to put an absurd amount of gags in my information post(s whoops), lol.

House of the Rising Suns

Info post about my Marauders era fanfic! It will be edited and added to as things about it change, so if you plan to regularly read, I suggest checking in every once in a while to see if something's changed.

It will be posted on Ao3 exclusively, so if you see it anywhere else it means someone has stolen my work. Don't be afraid to report it.

Here's a link to the first chapter: Dear Minerva

It is a fic starting in 1971 and ending 1981 following the Marauders, the Slytherin Skittles, and the Valkyries through their journey through Hogwarts and the First Wizarding War. I don't yet know if it is cannon compliment or not, but I will figure it out with time. All posts I make about it will be tagged with "#house of the rising suns" and "#house of the rising suns oneluckygoose"

Here are the characters that will have POVs: Minerva McGonagall, Remus Lupin, Sirius Black, James Potter, Peter Pettigrew, Lily Evans, Marlene McKinnon, Dorcas Meadowes, Mary MacDonald, Regulus Black, Barty Crouch Jr., Evan Rosier, Pandora Lovegood (Rosier), Frank Longbottom, Alice Longbottom, and (ew) Severus Snape.

For the shippers out there --- Endgame ships: Wolfstar (Remus and Sirius), Jily (James and Lily), Dorlene (Dorcas and Marlene), Rosekiller (Evan and Barty), Fralice (Frank and Alice), the Lovegoods (I don't actually know their ship name, but it's Pandora and Xenophillious). --- Ships in the story: Jegulus (James and Regulus), Marylily (Mary and Lily), Pandalily (Pandora and Lily), Remus and Marlene, Sirius and Mary, and characters with OCs that I've added (none of them will be endgame or treated like well known and endgame ships, they're all destined to end eventually).

NO SMUT AT ALL! I'm asexual, I do not feel comfortable writing it. It'll happen eventually, but it won't be explicit. When it does, though, it will be fade to black or very very vague descriptions. They're teenagers, I get that, but I refuse to write it in detail. Sorry, but no.

There is a greater description of it all under the cut! (and in the reblog, this got really long)

!!!!Disclaimer: The last one is extremely important, so if you don't want to read all of these, at least scroll down and read the last bullet point (which will be in the reblog)!!!!!

Scottish and Desi James; Welsh/Jewish Lily, Remus, and Severus; French/English Blacks; IRISH Peter; SCOTTISH Marlene; Dutch Dorcas; French Mary; British Rosiers; and British Barty, Italian/British Frank, Taiwanese/British Alice.

Jegulus, personally I think Jegulus is a very important thing for James’ growth and for Regulus to distance himself from his family’s ideals, but I also don’t think it could ever last. It will probably be a 5th-6th would be a 6th year arc and they break up after Regulus gets the Mark beginning of James' 7th.

Endgame Jily because their story is one of my favorites, and if I do make it a canon compliment ,then I would need to write it with natural progression. Also I just love Jily.

Get ready for a lot of 70's music. It becomes a big deal when Lily brings her record player in second year and then when Queen debuts in 1973 and Sirius falls in love.

I’m on the fence about making it a canon compliment because I choose to be HAPPY, but I don’t need to make that decision now and so I won’t (also I like the idea that Peter is good, screw me)

Aroace Peter, my little boy loves his friends and doesn’t understand why he doesn’t love like they do. A dating spree probably in 5th year but he just cannot figure out how to do the romance thing.

No sex, sorry guys we’re keeping this M rated. I’m asexual and do not feel comfortable writing that in the slightest, it would all be fade to black

Asexual Lily, to whoever HCed that, can I marry you? I love ace Lily and I think it just adds an arc to her story that is normally extremely sexualized. My girl will punch you in the face if you look even a tiny bit lower than her eyes.

*Side note* Lily's taste is also so funny. Like it goes: badass, rolemodel, stunning woman to badass, loving, protective, also stunning woman to badass, ethereal, insane, overwhelmingly beautiful woman to that one guy over there making love eyes and doing finger guns. God I love Jily so much. *End of side note*

Asexual Regulus. I am sick and tired of seeing Jegulus being completely sexualized in every single piece of content I encounter. I firmly believe their story can be extremely compelling and beautiful without falling into sexual stereotypes and just literally making everything about them sexual. All that aside, being asexual makes a lot of sense for Regulus' character, in my opinion. I want to make it clear I'm not doing this just to change Jegulus, I genuinely believe that Regulus' character is compelling with him being asexual, and I don't see a lot of asexual representation in the marauders fandom, so why not add in something good? (There'll be a lot more to Regulus' character though, trust me.)

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