#fic: showing up at my door
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sighh cherik au where they meet in a coffee shop but they both work there
Charles runs the cafe while Erik is the new hire who is a bit too good at his job
calm down Erik youβre just a barista π€¨π€
uhhh classic rom-com type scenarios ensue with maybe a dash of angst in there and then happy ending wahoo!
hrmm employer x employeeβ¦. not entirely sure how i feel about it but oh well
maybe they can be based more on dofp versions⦠that would be fun
the cafe is running low on business and Charles is taking it personally (likely added on from other stuff as well)π then boom new guy comes around (Erik) and makes everything better huzzah!!
i donβt see many fics where Charles is just doing shit before he meets Erik. hmmmβ¦
#the devil couldnβt reach me so he made so i could only come up with fic prompts#and then never be able to write them π#GAWDDAMMIT ππ#anyway be free little idea! off into the void with you!#where do these things even keep coming fromβ¦#they just show up knocking on my door π¨π°#cherik#charles xavier#erik lehnsherr#xmen#professor x#magneto#cherik au#xmcu#wish does not shut up
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the chances of tim minear being an ao3 user get higher and higher each time a new episode comes out
#to my author mutuals: be careful out there. you never know when tim might steal all of your ideas and put them in the show#like im sorry but the AMOUNT of fics ive read where buck breaks up w tommy and then immediately runs to eddie? and now its canon?#also iβll be fully honest and admit that for like two seconds i thought they were gonna make out against the door. THERE I SAID IT#tim minear i know what you areβ¦β¦β¦β¦. ao3 user buddiestanforeverandever2000#alice talks#911 abc#911 spoilers#tim minear#buddie
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(alan wake-gravity falls crossover) man i love that character. you know, the deeply paranoid author who made a pact with a dark entity that ultimately ended with him stranded in another dimension separated from his loved ones for years at a time? takes place in the pacific northwest? has twin imagery associated with him and a reoccurring specific piece of symbology related to the unfortunate situation they're in? doesn't ever explain the reasoning behind his actions and instead just kinda goes "bro trust me"? yeah he also wears an outer layer of clothing with elbow pads on it, that one.
#my art#stanford pines#alan wake (the man)#ford pines#gravity falls#alan wake#remedyverse#SAtT au#i am. normal about the crossovers i make up.#what do you mean the esoteric weird horror game about stories and the disney cartoon about family dont have a shared audience. sounds fake.#anyways the comic on the right is in honor of a joke i had to scrap in my fic wip due to a perspective switch.#rip that joke i thought you were pretty funny. i like the idea of alan critiquing his own manuscript pages upon the events happening.#oh i should probably do a warning since theres that crunchy image of the aw2 alan death screen huh. uh#blood#aw2 alan death screen my beloved. literally made me go ''oh god'' out loud in shock and horror when i first saw it#anyways did you know theres an au to this objectively already an au crossover. i call it ''bill cipher gets sent to the shadow realm''#bill doesn't show up a lot in this au he gets one scene where he taunts ford abt alan being a danger#with the implication that the dark place/presence genuinely freaks him out. but in this self indulgence of a self indulgence#alan essentially manages to trick bill into swapping places with him and bill ends up trapped in the writers room/the dark place.#lmao get yΓΆtΓΆn yΓΆ'd idiot. YOU are aleksi kesΓ€ now.#also i like the idea of zane and bill meeting as well as door and bill meeting. i think they might scare bill a little bit.#just like how zane scares me <3 what a cool character what the fuck is his deal#also you may be wondering why alans in his aw2 look and not aw or awan look despite the fact that lines up closer#to when gravity falls happens-ish. well the answer to that is 1: the crossover uses a lot of the elements from aw2#and 2: i like alans long hair and suit and beard. i like the pathetic sopping look when his hair is in his face
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Do you have any vision on the other old folks in the retirement home when mention them through out the series like are they just like you general old folks in a retirement home or is there more like some of them are characters from The Hex I.e the bartender and the boxerβs mom
if you asked me this like three months ago i would say that the other old folks in the home are pretty faceless, with a couple exceptions (anytime i mention a short old person of indeterminate gender wearing thick glasses itβs my old person self-insert lmao)
however, i have deigned to learn of the hex since then. and i do find it very funny to imagine some of those characters knocking around in the background of this inscryption AU.
so feel free to imagine any of the below old folks populating any and all prospective crowd scenes lmao
deterβs silly detail corner below the cut, because i have had a bit of a think about some of these guys for funsies:
reginald is retyrement lionelβs actual grandfather, of course; he was a prolific entrepreneur in bar service before getting in some unspecified trouble with the mob
cooking granny and grimora are on pretty decent terms; bryce is still her grandson and he volunteers food service at the home sometimes
mr. shrewd and mr. squarrel are dating and/or married obviously, being the canon old man yaoi couple lmao; also iβm too sentimental to widow mr. squarrel they get to be happy together. weasel kid is shrewdβs grandson, heβs a massive furry and shrewd doesnβt really get it but heβs supportive
dustbowl danny is retired but he has a side hustle testing arm prosthetics; sometimes he brings them to poe and theyβll have a good laugh over it
rust is your average retired vet, rocky is still his son and comes to visit him a lot; him and danny do not get along
#retyrement au#doot answers#the hex#daniel mullins games#reginald the hex#cooking granny the hex#mr. shrewd the hex#mr. squarrel the hex#dustbowl danny the hex#rust mcclain the hex#hi hex fans#i feel like i'm poking my head into the next door neighbor's yard lmao#highly unlikely any of these folks are going to show up proper in the fic#but i do have a laugh thinking about them sometimes#so this is on the same level of the mycos#in that i'll only draw more if people ask about it lolol
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only bad thing about being in a fandom where one of the characters canonically has wings is the painful lack of classic wingfic. where is my everything's the same but people have bird wings watford au where one day baz notices simon hasn't been grooming his wings bc of an injury to his ribs so he sits on his bed and makes a whole fuss about how "i'm not doing this to be nice, snow, your wings are just a travesty to look at" and then proceeds to carefully and lovingly tidy his feathers in drawn out silence while they both pretend grooming someone else's wings isn't one of the most intimate things you can do for another person. will this heartbreak never end
#i have an old wingfic that never left the zero draft stage and it was suuuper fucking plotty#simon was still the chosen one in it but not in a weird sex magic kinda way like he was just home grown like that so no humdrum#so lucy is alive and he grew up with her and the mage (and they have a dog!) (simon named her ''little simon'' lmfao)#meanwhile baz isn't a vampire but natasha still died when he was five bc ok i don't know how to explain the lore behind this#bc it has to do with a skeevy blackmarket trade involving human wings like it was kinda dark ngl#but the long and short of it is that baz and tasha are kidnapped and tasha is killed keeping baz safe but baz's wings are damaged#pretty severely and so one of them never grows to full size and it leaves him flightless#n e way simon and baz don't get on bc the mage is still the mage and the old families are still the old families#but they are roommates as usual#and half-term their eighth year pitch manor is raided by blackmarket poachers and mordelia is kidnapped and the whole grimm family is#in shambles so baz goes right to simon about it and there's this reverse of the simon-showing-up-at-baz's-door scene#where baz shows up at simon's door a complete WRECK to ask for help getting his sister back#and simon is like. why are you asking ME for help?#and baz is like. bc you're the only one i know who can#and then they fucking steal one of the mage's cars and hit the road [so good right now by fall out boy starts playing]#and then it's just kind of a normal mission fic about them finding mordelia and saving her life and baz falls out a very high window#and simon catches him etc.#i love wingfics so much#sighs wistfully#i think i need to be alone w my gdocu for while#valen and the void
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and then no one said anything about the fact that if i watched ONE MORE episode tenax pulls a "i'm not angry i'm just disappointed i'm hurt" about scorpus signing with the white faction.
#do you see the vision here <- guy who has a watch rate of one episode per month#oh the implications of scorpus not being there for tenax in his time of need... the death of the child who is not but is symbolically their#is that a separate fic completely yes but it is ALSO in some ways a divorce fic. tenax like i needed you but scorpus also needing him#OH MY GOD THEY LITERALLY DO SAY FELIX WAS HIM and i can do SO much with the concept of a βstrayβ. oh please. please strays instead of rats#one knife to the ribs one fixed race one apartment board THAT'S A STORYLINE BABY RISE OR DIE THE ROMAN WAYYYYYY#i do see your calla/tenax storylines i do. i could be swayed but we are not here for that currently this is the same as the chariot racing#like i KNOW what i said about the gold faction representing everything that scares scorpus a dream he never thought they'd reach#and then to have it ripped away now he no longer even has the dream untarnished i do understand. which is why the βi'm disappointedβ#kills me even MORE because it shows he gets it. like on some level he does understand why scorpus had to but it's his pride that's wounde#so to continue from what i WAS saying with:#sets the bar so low because how else would tenax love him (as if tenax would not do the same thing if he lost) and they have even MORE#questionable celebratory reward sex. yes i assigned scorpus a degradation/praise kink the world works in wondrous ways don't question it#scorpus/tenax#those about to die#tenax making sure to care for the kids is what's killing me too because i REALLY want to draw a parallel with scorpus making sure he takes#care of the prostitutes. yes he's a notorious hedonist yes he has a lot of sex but he always pays well doesn't he. over-well. he pays too#much and ends up in debt he pays enough to buy girls freedom. so that they only have to if they want to. it gets him a reputation sure AND#it gets whole houses of girls under his (and therefore tenax's) protection. you can't bruise her up; that's scorpus' favorite girl.#she can charge more for being favored. he can pay for massive parties where no one else is invited and if he falls asleep midway drunk#off his ass after a race the girls would never say. they still get paid. if tenax comes to watch and give instructions they'd never say.#if tenax tells them all to leave and it's just him and scorpus in the golden room and all the girls see before they shut the door#and latch it behind them is scorpus on his knees in the soft plush cushions with tenax offering him grapes one by one from his fingertips#like a favored concubine instead of the champion whose laurels are tilted on his head they won't say a word. not even when the noise#inside the room continues for long after the hour runs out the girls still stand watch until it's quiet and then crawl back in around where#scorpus is alone in the big wrecked bed with a smear of blood or wine on his mouth who could say. certainly they wouldn't.#no matter what they still get paid. whether they did the work to wreck him or not.#ANYWAY#they take care of the selves they couldn't protect is what i'm trying to say. for tenax it's the child he was/scorpus it's the body he sold#only he hasn't stopped having to sell it. & i guess as we're learning with the extortion tenax is still a child running from a burning hous
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6.09 Dog Eat Dog
#csiedit#csi cbs#nick stokes#george eads#george eads thirst club#mk.op#mk.gifs#mk.edit#csi 6x09#so interestingly i will dream of nick in various hairstyles#like a few weeks ago he was bearded#i'm pretty sure i've had a bald nick dream#had the late season 13 look show up once#but last night for just a few seconds#this appeared#he was dressed in a trenchcoat and entering a door?#but then when he showed up again later in my dream he was uh...different#i might write a fic about it but idk
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||. thor misunderstanding earthen housing norms in the modern day is SO funny to me to think about. He's doing his best, but between being from another planet with far more advanced technology (and much more "archaic" culture customs) on top of also being a PRINCE, I would imagine some normal practices and understandings of things simply don't click with him more than others.... Not because he's not smart. Thor is incredibly intelligent. ONLY because of the huge culture divide. But... that said: the concept of having neighbors who own their own land right next to yours, but the plots of land are TINY ??? absolutely crazy to him. Why aren't the plots of land BIGGER? why don't more people utilize it to farm crops???
Also don't get him STARTED on the idea - or nature of - apartments.
#(it's justβ i'm realizing that living with jan.e fo//st.e.r would have taught him SO much??)#(i can imagine him questioning everything about /everything/ on occasion...)#(just... ja/.ne and th.o/r chilling around breakfast and he decides he's got a severe case of the toddler why's)#(he's curious about a common practice and wants to understand the logic of itβ who better to make it make sense than his beloved)#(even something as basic as a house key. why does he NEED that? he's never needed a βhouse keyβ for his palace)#(he can just /walk in/??? ask the guards to open the doors??? use a biometric lock??? )#(β ah but is the βhouse keyβ for a secret compartment perhaps? a hidden passage? a secret chest???)#(what's the house key for if not for something particularly worthwhile??? it's so archaic ?? it must be very old.)#(what??? it was made yesterday??? It actually /IS/ for the front door????)#(what do you /mean/ you haven't got guards or sentries and the po-lice can't offer THEIR services with compensation)#(the avenger's tower does it??? shield does it???? he thought that would be normal for earth houses???)#(he doesn't see how that's supposed to keep j.a//ne safe all that well >> he's decided he's going to fix /that/ first thing.)#(granted: i doubt he'd actually ask or comment most of this out loud but it'd likely be what he's thinking)#(anyways he wouldn't /use/ the key when he has a balcony they can just keep unlocked so he can get in from there)#(and he'd probably have a similar setup on the avengers tower)#(it isn't as though anyone will reach it from up so high. he can fly. it'll be fine.)#(furthermore ...... he'd probably break his house keys....)#(...always on accident tho.... he'd want to keep his house key from ja.n//e safe bc it's from her)#( ooc . ) β stories that leap from the page .#(i'm mostly rambling my thoughts out loud - this would make a really cute domestic fos.ter/s//on fic)#(someone write this and then show me)#(or maybe i'll do it idk)
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I've kinda seen some pushback to the idea of representation in media and I don't necessarily think it's bad to point out actual rights are more important than Disney's thousandth first gay character that's fine, but I've had a LOT of people comment on my works about asexual characters and tell me what I wrote changed their life-and it's always that phrase- because they now have the language to describe what they feel. I've had people who ARENT ace or aro comment that what I wrote finally made a concept they didn't understand make sense, or that the way I explained things was interesting and enlightening and I'm kind of a mediocre writer who hasn't written anything in ages.
Like idk, if reading something from a writer who is fucking around and only somewhat talented can genuinely impact someone because they've not seen anything like them reflected back at them in life or media I don't think pushing for representation in media is as "needless" as some people seem to think and caring about that doesn't mean you don't care about more "important" (although if you think seeing people like you in media ISNT important it's because you already have that representation or are privileged enough to not care if you do, in which case maybe pipe down) stuff. Hell, I even got a Facebook message ages ago from someone who found a comment I left in an ace group about QPR's and what they meant to me and how I perceived them and the person no joke said what I wrote two years before they even found it changed their life forever because they finally knew what kind of relationship they actually wanted.
So like sure, of course there's always bigger fish to fry them diversity in media (you know, like diversity in real life lol) but I don't think it's as frivolous as some people are beginning to act like it is. At least not if you're an aspec person it's not, I STILL don't see ace characters almost ever and I'll bet my whole everything if I asked a writer of a show why they'd tell me that EVERYONE has to be in a sexual relationship and characters that aren't won't sell and are boring- I say this because in film school I had a teacher TELL ME every character needed to basically be sex obsessed and when I pointed out a GREAT MANY CHARACTERS are not revolved around sex (Supernatural stars two brothers, I pointed out) and when she asked if I had love interests I was like ??? That doesn't matter- using my aforementioned supernatural example almost all their love interests die or get mind wiped because at the end of the day that's not what the story was about. So actually I think writers who act like that teacher need like 50 reality checks, and representation in stories isn't unimportant and also support indie writers you'll probably find more funky shit there then Disney anyway lmao.
And also even the asexual characters I DO see in media don't remind me at all of myself even if I appreciate the effort, but they never feel real or genuine and their sexuality doesn't get a lot of exploration so π€·π»ββοΈ I actually could use more media focused on characters that I can genuinely see my sexuality reflected in in a meaningful and narratively impactful way because I've got nothing.
#winters ramblings#todd from bojack horseman im sure is SOMEONES version of asexuality but i dont see ANYTHING of myself in him#great character dont get me wrong but not relatable to me on any level including our shared sexuality#sex ed got a bit closer with their brief ace character although maybe she got more exploration in season three or four??#the latest one i havent watched lmao. but being closer and having a moment wjere shes told shes not broken#while DEEPLY vindicating isnt necessarily all im looking for either#like i wamt a REAL character thats ace or aro or both thats written by people who UNDERSTAND what theyre writting#not just well meaning people who dont know what theyre doing its kind of tiring#also idk why theres no dating shows with gay men because reality dating shows are ALL ABOUT who fucks who and who gets together#gay men would be hooking up ALL OVER THE PLACE and the DRAMA youd think reality tv freaks would be SALIVATING#but no none of that lmao. just ru pauls drag race and thats great it is like its not my bag but people love it#back on yrack though the weord blowback representation is getting is strange and its VERY clear to me#the people writing those posts havent gotten dozens on dozens of messages from people like them who found their writing#and haf their life altered forever for the better because someone who KNOWS what theyre talking about wrote a character like them#and it opened doors they never knew existed. doesnt even need to happen with fiction either i had a friend i had in toronto#tell me the info i sent to her on being aromantic changed her life- THAT'S the phrase i keep getting thats TELLING- because it describefld#described** how shes felt her whole life but didnt have words for. how frivolous IS representation if im getting these messages?#not very i dont think if some rsndom indie fic writer who hadnt written anything substantial in years can change someones life#REPEATEDLY might i add. ive been getting a LOT of messages like this lately and seeing this new bramd of discourse latetly too#like maybe YALL have enough that you dont care anymore but speak for your fucking selves
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Iβm just curious if most people tend to sleep facing their door or not. This is mostly for people who sleep alone but if you sleep with another person at night feel free to answer please say in the tags if you donβt sleep alone.
#tumblr polls#polls#oddly specific poll#sleep poll#sleep#the main reason Iβm curious is because I wanted an excuse to why I changed a characters room around in my fic#because I imagine them sleeping on a certain side of the bed and it makes no sense in the show for their room to be that wayβ¦#but now that Iβm thinking about it they ended up falling asleep on that side and now itβs messing with my set up lmao#but maybe it was just an odd night because there was someone else in their bedβ¦now Iβm just making excuses#but also I tend to switch sides depending on where Iβm sleeping at home I sleep in the right side#but at my parents I sleep on the left cause thatβs where the door is and the outlets#I prefer the right side though
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π€‘, π, and π!
π€‘ "Whatβs a line, scene, or exchange youβve written that made you laugh?"
the entirety of like a dog, but specifically-
"Hawkeye gives Frank aΒ βgo onβΒ look. βHe started it!β Frank accuses, the picture of petulance, βHeΒ bitΒ me!β
For any single other adult person in this godforsaken war, Henry would laugh at such an accusation.
But this is Hawkeye.
He looks at him. He hopes theΒ βplease for the love of all that is holy tell me heβs lyingβΒ is obvious in his eyes. βPierce.β He says.
Hawkeye suddenly finds a loose thread on his sleeve very interesting.
βPierce,βΒ Henry says again, with feeling, βDid you.Β Bite.Β Frank?β He canβt believe heβs asking that of a grown, adult surgeon and not of one of his children. The temptation to drink is rising.
Hawkeye shrugs. βI warned him!β He exclaims, βI told him βFrank, if you donβt stop pointing in my face, Iβm gonna bite you.β And he didnβt stop pointing in my face.β
βSo you bit him.β Henry fills in the blank, remembering a time when this kind of disappointment was reserved for when one of his girls put chewing gum in the otherβs hair.
βSo I bit him.β Hawkeye echoes, nodding, with not a hint of remorse."
and-
"βYou tasted bad.β Hawkeye informs him.
βGo soak your head.β Frank grouses as he shoves past."
made me laugh very very hard when I put them down. I reread this one whenever I need a good laugh
π "Has there been a point in a story where you did something just to be playfully mean to your readers?"
ending the second chapter of and miles to go before i sleep on a cliffhanger of the emotional high point of the Hawkeye and BJ kiss. I did that purely to be mean and make people yell at me
proceeding to take a month long break from that fic due to god slapping me upside the head with writer's block was NOT part of the plan and I genuinely felt so bad for leaving people hanging on that but my god the writing machine really just BROKE
π "Is there a fic of yours that broke your heart?"
both leave your roles at the door and what remains, but ill give the shoutout to leave your roles at the door for this one because the reason it breaks my heart is it resonates with a personal area for me for this bit specifically-
"βIt should- it shouldnβtβa been him-βΒ Radar whimpers,Β βNot- not him, not- βs not fair-βΒ Margaret combs her fingers through his hair where it pokes out of his cap as his voice cracks into another sob,Β βHe wasnβt- h-he wasnβt supposed to die, I- I loved him,Β I love him,Β he canβt be dead, he canβt-β"
in February of 2022 my Nonna passed away. my Nonna and I were very close, she moved in with my family when I was 8 years old as my Nonno was living full time in the hospital at that point and it wasn't good for her to be alone, and she lived with us for 14 years. she played a large role in raising me, and I loved her and continue to love her very dearly. needless to say, her death, though expected, completely wrecked me
Radar here acts much the same way I did. this bit above specifically is how I felt. she wasnt supposed to die, I loved her, I love her, she cant be dead. I wrote Radar to feel the way I did, and sound the way I sounded- like a little kid who didnt understand. Radar cries like a child here, because I cried like a child. I wrote this from the experience of my own grief, which I sometimes still find myself sitting with, and it broke my heart but... in a good way. it felt cathartic. it felt healing
and then I inflicted the sadness on everyone else cause im an evil fic author and I like making people cry and yell at me for making them feel things
#fic bitching#mash#ty Sarah!#leave your roles at the door is very poetic for me personally#2022 was one of the worst years of my life#if you asked me to name you all the good things I had happen last year#I could probably count them off on one hand#and one of those things was watching MASH#it might seem silly but I was deep in depression and here was this show#that showed humanity in the worst of conditions and showed love and hope persevering#and it felt like it grabbed me by the arms and pulled me up to my feet#and told me that I would be ok#that things were bleak and I was allowed to feel the way I did#but things would get better#because I still had love and hope#sometimes it felt like Hawkeye was giving me a hug#and sometimes it felt like he was clapping me on the back and telling me to make life my bitch#so yeah#felt poetic to sit with some grief and write for this show that means so much to me
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it's just me and my cake vodka & pepsi against the world
#bailed mandy out and then got to spend over an hour waiting for her piece of shit ex to show up and unlock the door#only for him to say '20 minutes' and then not show up#he read her texts and didn't answer#p sure this is why he was putting off getting her home#he was off doing drugs#mandy is 100% sure and tbh it wouldn't be a first so yeah probably#eventually i called my josh to get the spare key from his mom so mandy could at least get in#btw if you pay bail with a debit card here there is a 9% fucking fee#like my 500$ wasn't enough#here's an extra 25$ for funsies#the guy said its bc they do it through a 3rd party system but jesus fucking christ#we live 15 minutes away btw so my mans did in 15 minutes what her ex couldn't manage in two hours#fuckin reliable#i'm a lucky bitch#josh is asleep now but i've decided to stay up and drink and do.. idk what#catch up on article??#work on my fics??#something else??#who knows!!!#maison speaks
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βguilty pleasureβ | 8.6k
worst!logan howlett x f!reader
SUMMARY: After saving Earth-10005 from impending disaster, Wade convinces Logan, the alcoholic and easily irritated mutant, to stick around for a while. Heβs convinced that nothing good can come out of this experience, until he meets you: the charming bartender with a soft spot for swearing that matches his own. Suddenly, sticking around doesnβt seem so bad after all.
WARNINGS/TAGS: mdni - smut 18+ fluff. drinking. dirty talk. slow-burnish. grumpy!logan x sunshine!reader. reader is really kind but cracks a lot of jokes. age gap (25 vs 200 - theyβre basically the same age). oral sex (f receiving). fingering. finger sucking. soft dom!logan. wade being the funniest asshole. logan calls reader "kiddo/kidβ.
A/N: HI! first of all, i'd like to thank you for all the support you showed me on my recent post. let me just tell you that iβm LOVING writing for logan. but none of this would be possible without YOU, so yeah, i fucking love yβall.
** regarding this story, i was planning on making it even longer, but writing these two has been so much fun, and i didnβt want it to end just like that (i have attachment issues as you may infer from this note). therefore, iβve made the decision to write a second part to this fic, which will contain fluff and other stuff (you already know the drill). i donβt know when iβll be posting it, but iβm sure it wonβt take me that long.
*** iβm also working on other one shots (purely fluff/domesticity because i want this man to cradle me in his arms). anyway, i donβt know if anyoneβs going to read this, but still, all I have to say is THANK YOU FOR READING MY WORKS! i hope you really like this silly story i made up :)
**** english is not my first language so if you come across any mistakes donβt hesitate to tell me :)
special recognition to @zloshy who allowed me to rant about my own fic π the sweetest human ever
The bar is far from packed, but then again, it never truly is.
Studying your regulars has become your favorite hobby. Soon you end up knowing their names, the drinks they like, and what time they come through the door. Itβs what happens when standing on your own two feet and refilling glasses lose all their charm. A part of you thinks you also do it to make them feel safe. No matter how much you try to deny it, you truly care about their well-being.
Is this your dream job? Nope. Definitely not. Youβre pretty sure that holding some strangerβs hair while they empty their insides wasnβt on your bingo card for this year. But sadly money doesnβt grow on trees, and university isnβt going to pay itself. Plus, this was the only job in which your resume was not immediately rejected. It should also be stressed that the drunks happen to love you.Β
Perhaps this isnβt the life you had always imagined for yourself, but you were getting closer to it. Youβd often talk to Adam, a retired psychologist in his seventies. He was without a doubt one of the most loyal clients youβd ever encountered. In the past, heβd even given you free advice on some of your failed hookups. You once told him that in less than two years, youβd be just like him when you got your degree in Psychology. To your surprise, he replied: βYouβll be much better than me, doll. Iβm a mess, canβt you see it? You donβt wanna be like me,β his voice was hardly above a whisper as he continued. βI should be at my daughterβs birthday right now, but I didnβt get an invitation this year. Believe me, you donβt want to end up like this old man.βΒ
Like Adam, most of the men who frequented the bar day-to-day saw it as an opportunity to hide within the shadows. In comparison to the other pubs in the area, the one you work at doesnβt receive that much attention from the general public. A dimly lit place where only music from the 80s is allowed. Youβre certain that if a health inspector ever came down here, youβd be in serious problems. But hey, you know what they say: do not worry about tomorrow; instead, live in the now.
The atmosphere of the bar shifts dramatically as the main door slams shut with a resounding thud, pulling you abruptly out of your daydreaming. You turn to see whoβs arrived, but as soon as your eyes meet his, youβre compelled to look away. Nevertheless, the brief glance you catch of the strangerβs features is enough for you to unlock your phone and send a quick text to your best friend.Β
You:
cutie patootie alert
thereβs this really handsome guy at the bar
i donβt think iβve ever seen him before
i think iβm in love with him
my night just got a 100% better
Allison:
age
what does he look like
is he bald?
You:
he looks like he could be in his early fifties??? itβs hard to tell UGH i wish you were here
brown hair, beard, 6β2 if iβm not wrongΒ
i didnβt stare at him for too long
otherwise that wouldβve been very weird
and no heβs not fucking bald
that happened only once and i was not aware of that gentlemanβs lack of hairΒ
Allison:
so youβre dating retired now
get it grandma!
You:
oh fuck you allisonΒ
Allison:Β
itβs okay girl we all have our flaws
just make sure itβs nobodyβs father
wait itβs not mine right?
You:
nah your dadβs way hotter donβt you worry about it
Allison:
bitchΒ
Even with the music blasting through the speakers that are attached to the ceiling, you can still hear the low murmur and the whispers. The mysterious stranger seems to have attracted the attention of the other patrons, some of whom have even raised their phones to take photos. Your eyebrows draw together. Why would they do something like this, approaching the man as if he were a celebrity? Since curiosity never fails to kill the cat, you decide to get involved.
βDo I have somethinβ on my face?β you hear him ask the crowd, his raspy voice making your knees wobbly. He sounds enraged. You step on your tiptoes, trying to see what all the fuss is about, albeit itβs pretty hard considering how these men are caging him with their bodies.
The glow of a phoneβs flashlight catches your attention, and suddenly, a chair is dragged without much elegance. βEnough of that, yβhear me?β
Enter you now. βOkay, gentlemen, Iβm sorry. Iβm gonna need you to make some space for me, alright?β you mumble as you gently push them aside. βThank you, thank you. Yβall can be real sweethearts when you put your minds to it.β
Then you spot him, and it becomes clear why everyone is making such a fuss.Β
Gary, your worst client ever, steps forward. His nasty breath clouds your senses as he rests one of his sweaty hands on your shoulder. βDoll, itβs the fucking Wolverine. Donβt ask him for a picture, though. He doesnβt seem to be in the mood for that.β
The last thing you needed to see today was a fight (despite your knowledge of who would be the winner). You locate yourself amidst them, shaking your head like a disappointed mother, so as to add a tiny bit of drama to the situation.
βGuys, what youβre doing here is completely inappropriate. I thought Iβd taught you better. Imagine if I were to pull this crap on you. You wouldnβt have it.β
Adam presses his lips together, flushing a bit. βShe does have a point.βΒ
βThank you, peanut. Youβre still my favorite,β you flash him an honest smile. Scrutinizing the rest of the men, you continue with your speech. βYou can still make up for it and fill my tip jar all the way to the top. Deal?β they all scoff, barking their disagreement. βOh, you donβt like the sound of that? Then leave him alone, okay? Class dismissed! Back to your places,β you clap your hands repeatedly, signaling them to go away. βChop chop. All this alcohol wonβt be drinking itself.β
Just like that, everything goes back to normal in the blink of an eye. Wolverine sits back down in his chair, leaning closer to the table and resting both elbows on it. He examines you, lifting his chin while his brown eyes take in every inch of you.
βThank you,β he utters, his eyes still trained on your features.Β
βNo need to. Itβs what Iβm here for,β you point to your work clothes, which consist of an antiqued apron and a silly sticker that has your name written on it. βCan I get you anything to drink? Itβs also Burger Night. You can get one for half the usual price.β
(No. Itβs not fucking Burger Night. You just happen to find yourself deeply attracted to him.)
He doesnβt seem too eager to hear you talk. βNot hungry at the moment. But I could use some whiskey.β
βYou sure?β
βYeah, kid. Very sure.β Well, now he does look annoyed.
βGreat. Iβll be back in a minute,β you move as if you were in a race, returning to him after a hot minute. Setting his glass down on the table, you fill it with some old whiskey you donβt even know the name of. Still, he omits that detail, gulping down two-fingers of whiskey as if it were water. βI see youβre thirsty.β
βCould you leave the bottle here?β those brown puppy eyes are begging you to do as he says, and although youβd be happy to oblige, rules are rules.Β
βActually, I canβt. The bottle stays on the counter. But you can always join me at the front,β your proposal doesnβt appear to have the desired effect on him. βI wonβt talk to you if thatβs what you want.β
βIβll take your word for it,β he rubs his neck, drawing a long breath as he stands up.Β
You can feel many pairs of eyes searing into your soul. The others ask you for more drinks and you pour them, pricking up your ears when you hear them talking about him.
βWhat a weirdo. Didnβt you see it on TV? Heβs not even from this universe,β Gary explains, looking for accomplices to hate on Wolverine. βLet me tell yβall something: he shouldnβt even be here. Heβs fucking dead on this earth.β
Yeah⦠that you knew.
It had been all over the news for weeks. Some would even swear that he was back from the dead, but that was until the representatives from the TVA spoke their truth. If someone wouldβve told you a month ago that multiple universes were a thing, you wouldβve laughed in their face.
As if that werenβt already difficult to process, your mind does the job of reminding you that thereβs a man with metal claws sitting a few meters away from you. Despite that, you canβt seem to be scared of him. Thereβs something magnetic about his personality and that donβt-come-near-me-or-there-will-be-consequences expression that he has. Why had you promised not to speak to him? Dammit.
βI can hear your thoughts,β a muscle in his jaw twitches after knocking back another glass of whiskey. He squeezes his eyes shut before tapping the table with two fingers, silently asking for a refill.
βI thought you didnβt want me to talk,β you raise one of your eyebrows, and you behold how the corners of his mouth turn up for an instant. βI can assure you your liver hates you.β
βAlcohol wonβt kill me, so donβt be afraid. Keep βem coming.β
For nearly twenty minutes, he does nothing but drink. He attempts to light a cigar at some point, and you stop him. βYou canβt smoke in here.β
βNo special treatment?β he inquires, placing the cigar between his parted lips and tilting his head back. Heβs soβ¦ dreamy. He has to know it.
βI saved your ass today. The least you can do is not cause me any trouble.β
His eyes widen at your words, blinking owlishly. βYou saved my what?β
βYour goddamn ass. You were about to start a fight.β
βBlame the idiots you have for clients,β he says, jerking his thumb toward your direction. βI was just mindinβ my own business. They came for me, not the other way around.β
βLook, Wolvie. Iββ
βWolvie?β giving a bitter laugh, he rams a hand through his hair. βThatβs the worst nickname Iβve heard in a long time,β he looks at you through his lashes, getting rid of his leather jacket. βItβs Logan.β
βWow. Your name is very boybandish.β
You succeed in making him laugh once again. Itβs the perfect opportunity for you to observe his face without feeling like you were just about to get caught. He has deep creases and worry lines etched between his eyebrows, a brown beard that perfectly frames his jaw, and a few white hairs scattered in his sideburns. Pearly teeth that go hand in hand with one of the most impeccable smiles youβve ever seen, and a pair of brown eyes that make you feel weak in the knees. You know for a fact that heβs a lot older than you; his exact age remains a mystery, but his appearance is enough for you to start fantasizing.
Shit, you want him. You should feel sickened by the mere thought of being with him. He was born God knows when, has lived hundreds of years. Still, the idea of tracing his cheekbones with your fingers while lying on his chest doesnβt leave you. This is fucked up. You are fucked up. A fucked up Psychology student. The joke is pretty much self-explanatory.
βSo this is where youβve been hiding, you preening slut. Canβt even bother to answer my calls now?β
The tension between you shatters like a glass dropped onto the floor. He doesnβt dare to look in the direction of the owner of that voice, not even as the seat next to him gets taken. He pinches the bridge of his nose in frustration. βWade, what the hell are you doinβ here?β
βIt hasnβt been exactly easy, raising our kid on my own. I donβt even have money to hire a babysitter, Lo. I spent nine months carrying your child, and for what? You end up going after a bartender,β the masked man turns to you, giving a sly wink. βNo offense, baby. You must be a real sweetheart. In fact, do you want my number? The nameβs Wade, but you can call me whatever you like.β
βYou dumb fuck. Are you flirtinβ with her?β
βNo shit, smartass. Youβre the future of this country.β
A soft giggle escapes you despite your attempt to hold it back. You take a step back, admiring the two men. βWell, arenβt you two a beautiful couple?β
βYou should see our little munchkin. Heβs got my eyes and Loganβs hair. His first word was gubernatorial.β
βWould you like to have a drink while youβre here?β
βA beer would be great. Thank you, sugarbear. Youβre the cutest,β Wade sinks back into his chair, resting his chin on his palm. He jerks his head in Loganβs direction, bumping his shoulder. βSheβs the cutest. Are you two together?β
Logan rubs his forehead, speaking through gritted teeth. βHow did you find me?β
βIt's the power of love, baby. I had Itβs All Coming Back To Me Now on repeat for hours. Couldnβt stop thinking about you.β
Handing Wade a cold beer, your eyes scan Loganβs face. βI didnβt know patience was your strongest suit.β
βMe neither.β
βEnough of that! I canβt stand not being included in a conversation,β Wade throws his hands in the air, and you look at him. βThere you are. So, what about you? Are you even allowed to be here? Did bars change their policies?β
You canβt help but snort. βIβm 25.β
Wade looms closer, lowering his voice. βNow that I think about it, you could totally be Loganβs caretaker. Heβs been having some issues recently, given his age. Do youβ¦ know anything about adult diapers?β
But then Loganβs face contorts, turning crimson. He rises from his seat, grabbing Wadeβs arm. βThatβs it. Weβre leavinβ,β his eyes lock on you for a moment. βHow much do I owe you?β
βDonβt worry about it. Itβs on the house.β
The things youβre willing to do for a man, right? You should be ashamed of yourself.
(But you arenβt.)
His mouth hangs open in disbelief. βKiddo, are youββ
βCompletely sure,β you finish his sentence for him, bowing your head and clasping your arms behind your body. A tight-lipped smile takes over you. βJust donβt tell my boss.β
Wade shifts his gaze back and forth between Logan and you. βI usually donβt mind third-wheeling, but I sort of feel left out.β
βIβm gonna sew your mouth shut, Wade.β
βOh, come on! I was just making small talk,β the masked man tries to excuse himself while Logan pushes him towards the door. βIt was a pleasure meeting you, sunshine. Iβm free on Thursdays. Hit me up if his whiskey dick fails to impress you! Mineβs way more agile and young!β
As you watch them leave the bar, you remain frozen in your place amidst the clamor of ongoing chatter and clinking glasses.
What the fuck had just happened?
βPatrickβs normally the first one to get wasted during weekends,β you explain to the blonde woman sitting in front of you, and she writes that information down in her notebook. βHe can usually handle himself, but at some point, heβll try to call his ex-wife, and thatβs when you know you need to stop serving him.β
She clicks her tongue, the color draining out of her face. βThis isβ¦ definitely a lot to remember. I think I already forgot half of what you said.β
You shake your head, shoving your hands in your pockets. βYouβll get used to it, believe me. Iβll be with you at all times, so if you have any doubts, just ask me.β
After a whole year of working solo at the bar, you finally get to have a coworker: Gwen, a mother of two teenagers in her forties. You had met her at the grocery store, and in the process of helping her find a specific brand of cookies, you found out that she had recently lost her job. One thing led to another, and now sheβs your trainee.
Your savior complex strikes again!
It has been four days since your first encounter with Logan. The thought that he could show up at any moment makes your heart race and your hands sweat. Allison had received countless voice messages where you narrated the entire experience in full detail.Β
Touching your arm softly, Gwenβs face lights up. βAnother man came in. Is he a regular? I donβt think you told me about him.β
Fuck, itβs him. Manifesting does work wonders. He locks eyes with you and raises a hand in greeting.
βLeave this one to me,β you tell her as your feet take you to where Loganβs sitting, contemplating the way in which his leather jacket hugs his wide frame. βLong time no see.β
βHey, kid,β he grins. βWhatβs up?β
βNothing much. Nobody has puked yet, so thatβs a good thing,β you crinkle your nose, shifting your weight from one foot to the other. βWhiskey?β
βYou know me so well,β a smirk takes place in his lips, and he smiles cockily. βThough this time, I wonβt be leavinβ without payinβ.β
βWeβll see about that,β you go back to your usual spot behind the counter, looking for a glass. Your cheeks kind of hurt from smiling so hard. Next to you, Gwen studies your reaction to seeing Logan. βIs that your boyfriend?β
You almost drop the whiskey bottle. βGod, no. Heβs not my boyfriend. Barely know the guy.β
βItβs funny,β she says, raising her eyebrows with a knowing look, as if she knows something you donβt. βHe hasnβt stopped looking at you since he arrived.β
βItβs probably because of this,β you reply, lifting the bottle in her direction before pouring a small amount into a glass. Just as youβre about to walk over to him, a girl slides into the sit beside him, her long blonde hair swept up in a ponytail. Sheβs wearing a stunning red dress and black heels. You wonder if sheβs a model, because she certainly looks like one.
Her hand creeps up his arm, fingernails scraping against the worn leather. Although Loganβs expression is hard to read, he doesnβt even flinch.
βYou know what? Hereβs his drinkβ You take care of it. Iβll stay here,β you donβt give Gwen a chance to talk back, instead staying behind the bar, engaging in small talk with other clients.Β
βDoll, are you okay?β Adam asks you after noticing you struggling to open a beer bottle. He takes it from your hands and opens it with ease. βThere you go.β
βThank you, Adam. Iβm fine, never been better. Why you ask?
βYou sure?β
βAffirmative.β
βYou mixed up our drinks,β he explains in his most psychologist-like voice. βThis never happens to you. Michael has my wine, and Iβve got his martini.β
βFuck! Iβm so sorry. I justβ I donβt know whatβs wrong with me,β you chew on your bottom lip, rubbing your temples. βI feel stupid.β
βOh, please. Donβt say that. Youβre far from being stupid,β he sits up straight, reaching for your fingers and giving them an apologetic squeeze. βIf you ask me, I think youβve got your mind on someone else,β he must notice how you visibly get tense because he adds: βRemember: I know when youβre lying. You didnβt charge him the other day, which means that you must really like him,β taking a tentative sip of the martini he didnβt even ordered, Adam shrugs. βIβm a great observer. Thatβs all.β
Out of the corner of your eye, you see the blonde girl from before returning to where her friends are chatting. Logan is left alone, and you watch him grab his glass and head towards the counter.
βAs I said, your mindβs somewhere else,β Adam sighs, a tiny smirk tugging at his lips. βGo get your man. Iβll survive.β
βNot my man. But thanks, older-and-wiser-version-of-cupid.β
Pretending not to have seen Logan, you continue with your work. He remains silent for some minutes before finally saying: βHi.β
Hi? It sounds so out of character for him.
βHey, claws,β you force a smile, still avoiding to meet his gaze. βDo you need anything?β
Logan points to his empty glass, like a toddler asking for more cereal. βI also wanted to talk to you.β
βI thought you were busy over there,β you say, surprisingly managing to sound nonchalant, despite the jealousy bubbling underneath your friendly tone. βDid you get her number?β
βWhat? No.β
βWhy not? Sheβs cute.β
Yeah, maybe you donβt sound as collected as you think.
Whether Logan notices it or not, he chooses not to mention it. He folds his arms over his chest, fixing his brown eyes on you. βIβm not interested.β
βAnd what is it that interests you, champ?β your question elicits a low chuckle from him. Just as he opens his mouth to seemingly reply, Gwen appears out of nowhere to ask you about the price of a certain drink. Your gaze shifts between her and Logan, who remains focused on you while sipping his drink.
After that, Gwen leaves. The man in front of you goes poker-faced, pursing his lips, and his abrupt change in demeanor alarms you. βWade wants to have dinner tomorrow at his apartmentβ well, our apartment. I live with him now. Itβs complicated,β he adds with a dismissive wave of his hand, and you laugh. βAnyway, he asked me to tell you that youβre invited. I know we donβt know each other that much, butβ¦ he said you seem like someone worth havinβ around,β he mumbles awkwardly, eyes downcast. βI think the same as well.β
You could die at peace.
βYouβre a lucky fucker because I donβt work on Sundays,β you quip, smiling. βIβd be more than happy to attend your feast.β
βGreat. I thought you would turn down the invitation.β
βNow why would you think that?β
ββCause you barely know meβ us,β he corrects himself rapidly. βPlus, Wadeβs annoying as hell when he puts his mind to it. Youβll see.β
βMarital problems?β he actually in response. βIβll take that as a βyesβ. Oh, Iβll bring the dessert.β
βYou donβt have to.β
βBut I do want to,β you tilt your head in an effort to hide your longing for him.
βJust want to get under my skin, huh? I can see why Wade likes you,β Logan beams, reaching out to tuck a $100 bill into the pocket of your apron. βThe tipβs included.β
βI donβt know how things work in your universe, but youβre giving me way more money than youβre supposed to. I can't accept this.β
βOh, but you will,β his gravelly voice fucks your system up, and youβre glad he canβt see how you squeeze your legs together behind the bar.
He writes down Wadeβs address on a random napkin, holding his breath as he stands up. βI should get goinβ. See you tomorrow then.β
Before he walks out the door, you stop him. βLogan? You didnβt answer my other question.β
His back shakes momentarily with laughter. Turning around to face you, his stare leaves you even more confused. βGood night, doll.β
This is becoming a habit: every time he goes away, you feel as though youβve just run a marathon with no water available. Your mouth is completely dry, your fingers are numb and thereβs a knot in your stomach thatβs becoming all too familiar.
βWould you mind telling me where you got him?β Gwenβs voice makes you almost jump out of your skin.
βHeβs not from around here. I think heβs Canadian.β
Youβve got this. Youβve got this. Youβve got this.
Knocking softly on Wadeβs door, you step back, the container holding the tiramisu cold to your touch. Itβs your first time trying out this recipe, so youβre expecting it to at least not taste like shit.
Wade answers the apartment door, acting surprised when you remain silent. βWell, look what the wind blew in: if it isnβt my husbandβs lover. How dare you? Weβre still going to couples therapy.β
You show him the container, and he squints at it. βTiramisu. You want it or not?β
βI hate twenty-somethings,β he says with a defeated sigh, stepping aside to let you into the apartment.Β
Leaving your purse on the nearest surface, you scan the living room, wondering where Logan might be. Thereβs a small mirror beneath the couch, and you check yourself for the hundredth time tonight. οΏ½οΏ½οΏ½Donβt get too excited. Heβs still showering,β Wadeβs voice rings in your ears, and you turn to look at him, your eyebrows knitted. βYeah. I noticed. Youβre already drooling over that big piece of metal between his legs.β
βKeep quiet!β you cover his mouth with your palm, noticing the scarred state of his skin up close. βWade, you fucking dog. Are you licking my hand?β
βCouldnβt help it. You taste like mascarpone cheese and espresso.β
Then Logan emerges from the bathroom, with only a white towel draped around his waist. Droplets of water fall from his wet hair, tracing the muscle of his abs, ending somewhere beneath his happy trail. Your eyes keep flickering between him and his torso until he clears his throat. βI thought you were cominβ later.β
βMe too, but Iβ¦,β you trail off, your brain struggling to catch up, βI didnβt know what else to do at my place.β
βItβs fine. Justβ let me put on some clothes.β
βPlease donβt,β Wade murmurs next to you, but Logan only scoffs. βI was just being honest. Communication is key.β
When Wade and you are alone again, he lets out a harsh breath. βThat was probably the hottest thing Iβve ever seen. My pants are really tight right now.β
βThin walls, buddy!β Logan shouts from his bedroom, earning a laugh from you.Β
Like A Prayer starts playing. Wade moves his hips to the beat, getting lost in the melody. βIs that your phone?β
βYeah, but I always take a few seconds to dance to it. Such a banger!β he says, then picks up his phone, accepting the call. βHey, Ness! WhatΒ΄s up?β Wade covers the speaker before telling you: βItβs Vanessa. My ex-girlfriend. We fuck once a week, sometimes even twice.β
From behind, Logan nudges your arm with his, looking at you. βHey, kid.β
βNo, Iβm not busy at all,β Wade exclaims, grabbing his crotch and thrusting into the air. βIβll be there in ten, cupcake. See you,β he spreads his arms wide and whistles. βSomeoneβs getting laid tonight!β
βYou made me come all the way hereβ¦ and now youβre leaving?β
βWhat? My friend Wolverine wanted to invite you over. I just had to provide the apartment,β in one quick movement, he presses a kiss to your cheek, then does the same to Logan. βShave yourself, will you?β
βGo fuck yourself, will you?β
βLove you too, honey. Hope you two lovebirds have a good night, because I know I will!β
Wade throws a wink over his shoulder before heading out, the apartment going dead silent. Logan and you stand frozen, staring at each other, although he quickly drops his gaze, unable to maintain eye contact. A giggle threatens to escape you: he wanted to see you. Could he possibly enjoy your company as much as you enjoy his?
Logan watches the spot where Wave had just been. The absence of his chaotic energy makes the room feel strangely empty now. He coughs lightly, the sound awkwardly loud in the quiet room.
βSo... I, uh, bought pizza,β he says, his voice a little too casual, as if trying to cover up his nervousness. Averting his eyes, he focuses on the pizza boxes on the table.
You catch the hesitation in his tone, your curiosity piqued by his discomfort. Tilting your head, a teasing smile forms on your lips. βPizza, huh? You sure know how to impress a girl.β
Logan chuckles, the sound strained, as he scratches the back of his neck. βYeah, well, I figured it was a safe choice. Didnβt want to ruin it, yβknow?β
You move closer to the table, the warmth from the pizza boxes radiating against your hands as you open one of them. The rich smell of melted cheese and pepperoni fills the air, a comforting scent that makes your stomach growl softly. βThank you. Iβm a big fan of pizza.β
He sits in the chair across from you, taking a bite of his slice. You watch him quietly, your own thoughts churning. The truth of his origins had been a shock at first, but now, it just made you want to know more about the man. What was his life like in the other universe? Did he miss it? Was he happier here, or was he longing to return?
βLoganβ¦,β you begin, your tone gentle but probing, βCan I ask you something?β
He glances up at you, eyes widening. Thereβs something in your eyes βan understanding, maybeβ that makes him feel like you could see right through him.Β
βSure,β he replies, trying to sound more at ease than he really feels. βAsk away.β
You hesitate for a moment, not wanting to push too hard. βI was wondering... would it be okay if I asked you some questions? About, you know, your life. Where you're from.β
The bite of pizza suddenly feels heavy in his mouth. He hadnβt talked much about his world, not even with Wade. Partly because it was too painful, and partly because he wasnβt sure how to explain how things turned out for him. He nods slowly, setting his slice down. βYeah, it's okay. Iβll answer what I can.β
βI just... I want to understand you better.β
βWell, first and foremost, Iβm no hero. You should know that by now.β
βI beg to differ.β
βKid, Iβm the worst Logan. A complete failure. Of all the variants out there, Wade just had to pick the one despised by every living soul on his earth,β Logan looks away, his voice low and heavy. Youβre wondering if doing this was a good idea. βI need a drink.β
He gets up and you follow him into the kitchen. He rummages through the fridge, in search of a cold beer. Meanwhile, you attempt to find the right words. βI donβt thinkββ
With a sharp flick of his wrist, three metal claws sprout from between his knuckles. A gasp catches in your throat as he uses his claws to pierce the beer can, drinking from the punctured holes. Once heβs done, he goes back to staring at you. Your gaze, on the other hand, is still glued to the now-empty beer can. βWhat?β he asks, exhaling slowly.
βThat was completely unnecessary,β you mutter, and he lets out a bitter chuckle, tossing the can into the trash. βBut, back to what you said beforeβ I donβt think youβre the worst Logan.β
βYou didnβt know me back then, darlinβ. I fucked it up,β he leans against the counter, arms crossed defensively over his chest. βLike the Logan from this universe, I once belonged to the X-Men too. I remember that Scott used to beg me to wear my suit. So did Jean, Storm, Beastβ All of them,β his gaze grows more distant, and you can tell that memories are flooding his mind. βWanted me to be part of the team, but I wouldnβt do it. Told them they looked fucking ridiculous.β
The pizzaβs long forgotten. You take the risk and get a bit closer to him, your eyes never leaving his.Β
Loganβs silence stretches for a moment before he speaks again. βOne day, while I was off on my own, the humans came. They went mutant hunting.β
Your heart clenches at the pain in his voice. He still remembers everything as if it had happened yesterday. βI can guess the rest. You donβt have toββ
But he cuts you off. βNo, let me say it. I need to say it,β he takes a deep breath, lowering his head. βBy the time I stumbled home, shit-faced from the bar, it was too late. They were dead. They called after me and I walked away.β
Reaching out, your hand gently brushes against his. He doesnβt pull away, but instead searches for your eyes. βMy suit's all I've got to remind me of who they were. What I did. I found them and they wereβ¦ dead. I started killing, and I couldnβt stop. I didnβt want to stop. I turned the whole world against the X-Men.β
You tighten your grip on his hand, knowing thereβs nothing you can do to change how he feels. βYouβre not a bad person, Logan,β he shakes his head, mumbling something you canβt quite catch. βI mean it. What happened back then doesnβt define you. You took the blame for their deaths upon yourself. I can tell you loved them deeply, and Iβll never fully understand the pain you feel. I wish I could. I wish I could take it away, make you forget somehow, but I canβt. Thatβs not how life works. But you got your second chance: you saved this world. My world,β gently cupping his face in your hands, you allow your fingers to caress his cheeks. He leans into your touch, watching you with half-lidded eyes. βYouβre my hero. Iβm your biggest fanβ after Wade, obviously, which is a lot to say.β
He grins, letting out a laugh. βEasy there, bub.β
βShould I give you some space?β
Thatβs the last thing he wants from you right now. You already know that as he looks you up and down, placing his hands on the small of your back, his thumbs drawing small circles on your skin. Thereβs no turning backβ The warmth between you feels almost like a fever dream. βFor a long time, all I wanted was to disappear. I couldnβt stand waking up every morning, knowing that another day awaited me.β
βAnd what happened?β your breath mingles with his, his closeness becoming nearly intoxicating. βWhat changed?β
βI met a pretty girl at a pub, thatβs what happened,β he murmurs, his dilated pupils flicking up to meet your gaze. βIβm gonna kiss you now.β
βDo all your kisses come with a warning?β
βGod, do you ever shut up?β
You donβt have time to respond because he kisses you there and then. His stubble scrapes your skin as your mouths meet again and again, needy hands that hold you as if you were prone to breaking. Logan licks into your mouth, sliding his tongue against yours and swallowing every one of your whimpers.
βSo this is what it takes to shut you up, huh?β he murmurs against your lips. You can feel him smiling, and it makes your heart skip a beat.Β
βKeep talking and you wonβt get a single bite of my tiramisu,β you tease him, kissing him again, the taste of beer numbing your senses. βI really like kissing you.β
βThe feelingβs mutual, but now that youβve mentioned that tiramisuβ¦β
βAm I that easily replaced?β
βNo. Youβre just a pain in the ass.β
Jokes aside, youβre as happy as a clam.
Since that night you and Logan kissed, youβve been living your best life. Like a freaking schoolgirl with a crush. Some things never seem to change.
He hasnβt been to the bar in three days. Yes, youβre counting them. No, you havenβt lost your mind. You want to see him, but thereβs something about making the first move that gives you the chills. What would his reaction be if you showed outside of apartment?
Itβs been a long time since youβve been with anybody. On top of that, all the guys youβve dated were your age. Being with someone that older than you certainly wasnβt no your plans. Youβd be lying if you said that the mere idea of being with him in that way didnβt excite you.
Oh boy, you miss him. You miss his scruffy voice, his gorgeous hair. And you two arenβt even official yet. To be honest, you donβt even know what he wants from you. Is he even the type to be in a relationship?
βNighty night, gentlemen,β you say to Gary and his friends as you find yourself in front of them, smoothing your apron. Gwen had called in sick tonight, so itβs just you at the bar babysitting a bunch of grown-men.
βWhatβs up, doll? Youβve forgotten about us. We miss you coming in here to chat,β Garyβs eating his burger at the same time he speaks, something you find repulsive, but youβve seen worse. βYβknow, Iβd love to take you out someday. I have a place youβd like.β
The other men laugh and punch him in the back, just boosting his ego. Pathetic.Β
βIβll let you know when Iβm free,β you reply with the most polite smile you can offer, intending to go on. βWhat are you having tonight?β
βYou always pull that shit, baby. I donβt think youβre so busy that you canβt accept a date.β
You hate the way heβs looking at you, as if you were wrong for not being interested. As if you didnβt know any better.
βYouβre reading minds now? Shocking, Gary.β
βOh, doll. That attitude of yours shows youβve never been with a real man like me, thatβs all,β he leans back in his chair, resting one of his arms on the table and the other one near his crotch, manspreading. βItβs alright. I like you bratty.β
βIβll be back when you finally have something to order,β you attempt to turn around but he grabs your wrist, pulling you closer. Your eyes lock, and he seems to enjoy this: being in control. Like a predator hunting his prey. βCome on, Gary. I donβt want to have to kick you out.β
βItβs not that you don't like me, right? Youβve already got your mouth full.β
βCareful.β
βWhat? Donβt tell me youβre not fucking that useless mutant. I see you like βem older. Pretty little things like you drive me wild.β
You laugh in his face, showing him your teeth. βIt was never about your age, Gary. Youβre right: I do like them older. Iβm just not into bald, vertically-challenged pricks.β
His entourage of idiots goes silent after that. He looks up at you, eyes burning with hatred. His grip on your wrist tightens, probably leaving a mark. βFucking bitch.β
βGet your hands off her.β
Loganβs voice forces the two of you to look in his direction. It seems that heβs just arrived at the pub, his jacket still on.Β
βYou joining us? Weβre just getting started here, big boy.β
βDid you not hear me?β Logan lunges forward, his nose almost touching Garyβs. βThe fuck is wrong with you?β
βEasy there, cowboy. Iβm just having a chat with your girl. Sheβs one of the good ones, Iβll give you that,β arching a sly brow, his forehead puckers. βYou donβt like sharing? We can even take turns.β
Logan clenches his jaw, lips set in a grim line. βSay one more word, and Iβll fucking kill you.β
βIβll give you a full sentence instead: can you even get it up?βΒ
The tension in the air is thick, every second stretching out as Logan's anger simmers dangerously close to the surface. Garyβs smug grin only makes it worse, pushing him to the edge. Before you can react, Loganβs fist swings forward, connecting with Garyβs jaw with a sickening crack. Gary staggers back, realising your wrist. Blood seeps from his nose, his white shirt becoming stained with it. βYou fucker! You broke my nose!β
βWeβre just getting started here, big boy,β Logan mocks him, repeating his previous words.
βStop!β you shout, moving quickly to grab his arm, trying to pull him back. But heβs beyond hearing, his rage blinding him to everything else. He shakes you off, and with a fierce growl, drives another punch into Garyβs stomach. The latter doubles over, gasping for air, the wind knocked out of him. He then falls to the floor, curling into a ball. People start to gather around you, and soon your beloved bar becomes a box ring.
βThatβs enough, Logan! Heβs barely conscious,β you murmur under your breath, stepping between them, hands up in a desperate attempt to create some space. Logan pauses, chest heaving, fists still clenched, as he finally looks at you. The wildness in his eyes starts to fade, replaced by a dawning realization of what heβs done.
βHe deserved it,β he nods vigorously to himself, as if trying to explain his point. βHe was hurting you.β
βIf you keep that up, youβre going to kill him. My bar is not a fucking cemetery,β your voice trembles a little bit, expecting to talk some sense into him. βI wonβt let you do this.β
The room is quiet now, the only sound being Loganβs heavy breathing as he stands there, still tense, still processing. You turn to Garyβs friends, cold fury in your eyes. βGet him out of here,β you watch as they haul him up, practically dragging him to the door. The other clients continue to stare at Logan, their mouths hanging open. βEverybody out, right now! Go home. Weβre closing earlier tonight.β
Adam is the last person to leave, slamming the door behind him. You rush to the counter, searching for a mop to clean the fresh blood off the floor. Still agitated, the images of Logan hitting Gary flash in your mind. He approaches you from behind, his fingers circling your forearm. βBubββ
βDonβt. Now is not the time.β
βI was protecting you.β
βI told you to stop, and you didnβt. You just shook me off,β you snap, glancing at his knuckles which are not even bruised. Slamming your eyes shut, you get to your feet and wash your hands in the sink, the remaining water becoming reddish for a moment.
Logan moves closer, resting his chin on your shoulder. He wraps his arms lazily around your middle section. βIβm sorry.β
You turn in his arms, your back flushed against the sink and your nose in the air. βWhy didnβt you call me?β
βI donβt have a phone.β
βButβ Jesus, Logan. You couldβve come sooner. I thought you regretted what happened the other day,β you say and the muscles in his face twitch, his body stiffening at your words. βThought you no longer wanted me.β
βNo, bub. Iβ I still want you. I want all of you, trust me,β he murmurs, and you allow him to press his body against yours, the scent of the cigar he must have smoked recently enveloping your senses. βI justβ¦ donβt know how to do this. I have a habit of ruining things, and Iβm trying to figure out the best way to be with you without hurting you.β
βPushing me away also hurts,β your eyes flick up to meet his gaze again, and he whispers under his breath. βI canβt read your mind. You need to tell me whatβs going on in that ancient skull of yours.β
His face falters, flashing you a mischievous look. His hand creeps under the fabric of your shirt, fingernails scrapping against your spine. βIβm sorry, princess. I truly am.β
βYou canβt just say βsorryβ with that voice and expect me toββ
Youβre cut off by his lips crashing down onto yours. You melt into the kiss, unable to deny what your body has been craving for the past days.Β
βI thought your kisses came with a warning,β you say, detaching your mouth from his, a smile spreading uncontrollably in your face as you see his toothy grin.
βShut up and kiss me, will you?β
In a clash of tongues and teeth, your mouths meet once again. Tugging the hair at his nape, you feel him growl against your lips. His strong hands trace every curve of your body, kneading the flesh of your hips and undoing the knot at the back of your apron. Youβre becoming one with the sink, but in a moment like this, you couldnβt care less. Loganβs hard on nudges your lower stomach, and he ruts against you like an animal.
βYou said you wanted to know whatβs on my mind, right?β his teeth nibble on the skin of your neck, syrupy voice going straight to your core. βWell, Iβd love nothing more than to touch you right now.β
βRight here? On the counter?β
βYeah, on the fucking counter,β he grabs you by your thighs, hosting you up and placing your body on top of the cold bar. He nudges your knees apart, his bulge meeting your clothed cunt deliciously. βWill you let me, baby? Can I make you come in here?β
βPlease. Iβm glad we have such a low budget. Camera installment is tβtoo expensive these days.β
βDo you always talk this much?β he slowly unbuttons your pants, and you help him to remove them.
βYes. Next question,β your breath hitches in your throat as you feel the pad of his thumb circling your clit through your panties. Your eyelids drop, your head lolling back. βFuck, that feels good.β
Logan hums, mesmerized with the way your hips roll into his hand, your whimpers sounding like music to his ears. βYou have any idea how I felt when I saw him touching you? Wanted to rip his hands off you,β his eyes drift to your chest, how it rises and falls with impatience. βBut itβs me who gets to have you like this. He can fantasize about you all he wants: Iβm the only one who touches you, ainβt I right?β you sigh with content as his fingers graze your slit, aimlessly bucking your hips. He doesnβt go any further, and you tug at the collar of his flannel, needing more of his callousand hands on you. βNuh-uh. You want something, you gotta use your words. Got it?β
βI wβwant your fingers inside me,β you donβt even recognize your own voice at this point. The few guys you had slept with had never been very talkative during sex. But Logan isnβt like them. This is just the beginning and youβre already starting to realize that he has a dirty mouth, that expectant look on his face as he waits to see your reaction to his words. βPlease, Logan. I want you so bad.β
βOh, I know, bub. Thereβs something about me I donβt think you know,β he inserts one of his fingers in your cunt, your slick coating the palm of his hand. βThese claws I haveβ¦ they didnβt come on their own. Letβs just say my sense of smell isβ¦ pretty good,β Logan can almost see the gears turning in your head as you try to think coherently. He moves his middle finger in and out of you, stretching your walls. βAnd youβ¦ have been wet ever since the first time you saw me. Always nice to everybody, making sure they feel at ease,β you feel like youβre being stretched even further, another one of his fingers sinking into your warm pussy. βBut youβre so needy, too. How long has it been since someone touched you like this?β
βToo long, fβfuck. Too long,β youβre squirming, a totally whiny mess. He retratcs his wet fingers and instead goes back to flicking your clit, this time with much less delicacy. His left hand squeezes your tits, and you hate the fact that youβre still wearing clothes. βShit, Logan. I need you to fuck me. Please. Need your cock.β
His face comes to rest at your neck, and you feel lingering kisses and bites that keep you grounded to earth. βNot here. I need a bed to fuck you properly. Youβre only getting my fingers now,β he positions them inches away from your entrance, testing your patience. βTell me who owns this pussy.β
βL-loganββ
βTell me and Iβll make you come,β his husky voice is making you dizzy, tears shimmering in your eyes. βCome on. Know you want it as much as I do.β
You succumb to the tentation, like divinity turned to sin. He kisses you roughly, and you struggle to find the correct words. βItβs you, Logan. You own my pussy. Itβs f-fucking yours.β
With that, he goes back to nudging that spot that makes you see starts, that filthy squelching sound getting mixed up with your moans. The knot in your belly keeps growing tighter the more he pumps his fingers in and out of you.Β
βI said you were only getting my fingers for now, but fuckβ¦ I need to gest a taste of this sweet cunt.β
Heβs on his knees in an instant, urging your legs apart to make room for his body. Your thighs tighten around his face as he licks a hot stripe up your folds, tracing a heated path on your cunt, not wishing to waste a single second. Pleasure builds quickly, your breath hitching as your hands find their way into his hair, pulling him closer when your body begins to tremble.Β
βIβm close,β you pant, breathing hard, grinding your hips against his face. βIβm so close.β
βThatβs it. Come in my mouth like the good girl you are.β
Who had given him a damn script for this?
The release is explosive. Like the peak of a roller coaster: you go up up up, ascending higher. You think you almost see Jesus, but at some point, you also have to crash down with force. Your shoulders slump, your entire body cramping up; yet he doesnβt let you go that easily, his fingers still working, scissoring within you while you ride out the final waves of your high, drawing out every last moment of ecstasy.
Once you finally manage to open your eyes, there he is, staring down at you. He taps your lower lip with his fingers, and then mutters: βOpen.β
And you do, because youβre just as messed up as he is. Your mouth parts, and he slides his fingers between your lips, dragging them smoothly across your tongue. His knuckles brush the back of your throat, and you gag around the intrusion, tasting yourself. He pulls his fingers out of your mouth, clearly satisfied with the way youβve cleaned them off.
βI think we should really pay a visit to your apartment,β he suggests, groaning in defeat, and you feel his bulge poking your hip. He must be painfully hard. βI meant what I said earlier. I need a bed if weβre going to fuck. My backβs hurting.β
You raise an eyebrow, the corner of your mouth curving into a smirk. βWhy not go to yours?β
βWadeβs in there. I wouldnβt be able to concentrate.β
You canβt help but laugh, pausing a moment to collect your thoughts, heat rising to your cheeks. βSo weβre going rodeo?β
Aiming to silence up, Logan kisses you, pinching your chin between his thumb and forefinger. βOnly if you can handle it.β
part 2: βGIVE ME THE FIRST TASTEβ
dividers by: @/cafekitsune thank you!!! :)
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au - vampire!alkaid | roses for the blushing bride
Your attempt at killing your kidnapper goes awry. How tragic it isβthat the man who killed your love wore his face first.
2.1k, mentions of murder, suicidal thoughts and suicide, vampire/vaguely historical/reincarnation au, mentioned non-con kissing+biting, unhappy ending, reader is mc, inspired by my little ramble in the tags of this gif post, series: none
THE DOOR CREAKS LIGHTLY AS it opens, the warmth of your candlestick highlighting the steps beyond it. The monster that resides in this manor is foolish, and your Alkaid isβwasβnot. The hefty lock that once guarded against you sits carelessly beneath a portrait of a woman who looks like youβwho was once you, if the ravings of a mad man are to be taken seriously.
And if they are, then you will meet him soonβthe man you were set to marry, with the same bright green eyes and light blond hair, and a warmth that the lord of this manor greatly lacks.
And if they aren't, then, that is simply not possible. Because, you think, how else can this be explained?
Your fingers lightly graze over the most recent puncture wound at the base of your neck. They play connect the dots and the monster's claim draws a circle. It ends where it starts, with the gemstones on the dagger's obnoxiously decorated hilt digging into the palm of your hand and your teeth gnawing at your bottom lip.
There sits a bruise there, the likes of which you've only ever allowed one man to gift you. You can still taste your own blood upon your tongue, metallic and bitter, but you can no longer remember your lover's smile.
Yearning overwhelms you, for a man long dead. It is something you can fight off almost as well as the monster. And it is a maddening thingβthe way your carefully-groomed nails desire to claw your skin off. The way your hand twitches, dagger still in hand.
It is a mistake to think of him at all.
You cannot afford any mistakes, not when your weapon has been promised a different target. You cannot afford any mistakes, when your next life is to be a happier one.
So, the candlestick lifts higher.
Heels you might've chosen for yourself in another life clack against stone, the sound echoing throughout the darkened chamber. Yet, the monster still slumbers, oblivious to your intrusion. At the very end of the room lies a coffin, and there he waits, surrounded by white and green. By roses and their stems carefully preserved, a silent mockery of the promise Alkaid once made you.
Eternal loyaltyβbut this is not the eternity you desire.
In hopes of composing yourself, of chasing away the familiar disgust, fury, loathing, you tear your gaze away from the coffin. The grey floor has borrowed an orange hue from the candlelight. As you cross the distance, you do not look at the portraits that line the walls, with their never-changing subject, the contents of which you know only because the monster brought you to his lair exactly once.
You, with the same dead eyes and the same dead love and the changing fashions doing little to distract from your likeness. You, who were unfortunate enough to fall in love with that monster in some other lifetime, having been blinded by his pretty face.
And the bile that climbs your throat at the thought, which you choke back with a tired grimaceβthat, too, is familiar.
WHEN YOU REACH THE COFFIN, the first thing you do is yank the flowers out of your sight. Your dagger comes in use much earlier than expected, handling all that your hands cannot.
It is the least you can do for Alkaid.
The monster remains asleep throughout. It's convenientβif you'd known it was that easy, you would've done it sooner. You would've avenged him sooner. Alkaid was a light sleeper, and you had assumed the same held true for the monster.
With the same hand that carries the dagger, you open the casket. It takes a bit of effort to ensure you never lose sight of your targetβquite literally. The payoff lies in the way the candlelight illuminates the man resting within.
His lighter hair takes on a warmer hue, thought it's incomparable to the way Alkaid's hair would gleam golden under the sunlight. He is blue, dressed in an outfit that looks to be the furthest thing from comfortable sleepwear. Alkaid was beige and green, and he was always getting on your case about dressing comfortably.
Marking the spot where your hands should hover, you set the candlestick beside you, careful to ensure its enthusiastic flame avoids the hem of your dress. You're almost giddy with excitement.
You'll see Alkaid soon. You'll get to him, even if it takes ten or twentyβ
The monster mumbles your name lovingly.
Alkaid?
The dagger freezes just before the blade can slice through the layers of fabric guarding his heart. Your heartbeat quickens. You watch the figure warily, waiting for anything that could signal his monstrous nature.
Why would Alkaid be here when he is meant to be dead?
But the monster has never said your name before. You are simply his bride, just the most recent in a long string of replacements. If you did not share the same name as all the rest, you're certain he wouldn't know what it was.
And if it is Alkaid, if he has turned into a monster, if he is just as much a victim as youβ
How could you ever dare to hurt him?
You can't lose him again. His family and yours, if they're still alive, would gladly testify about the absolute wreck you'd been when he disappeared a few days before your wedding.
It was only when one of his friends mentioned that he had seen Alkaid near the monster's manor that you'd found the resolve to crawl out of your bed for the first time in weeks.
Of course, you hadn't known just yet that there was a monster at all. You hadn't known of all that was to transpireβthat had already transpired.
Your grasp on the dagger's hilt tightensβyou don't want it anywhere near Alkaid. You want to know if he's Alkaid. You want to shake the man awake and ask, Are you him? Are you the one I've been searching for? And what about the monster?
You know that if he says he was the monster all along, you'll forgive him with an ease he would not deserve.
Again, the man mumbles your name. It does much to distract you from your spiralling thoughts.
After all, it sounds like coming home.
You want to believe it sounds like coming home.
"Alβ"
As if sensing that his name is on the tip of your tongue, the man rouses himself from his slumber. The first thing he seems to gaze upon is youβand the dagger you've pulled close to yourself.
Ah.
You tremble. His gaze is cold and his grip is bruising. Alkaid has never looked at you so unkindly. You used to find it disconcerting how easily the glare on his face would slip away if he glanced at you. Now you wish for it more than anything.
What have you done wrong? Why is he upset?
In your desperation, you almost beg: Alkaidβ
Then, you blink, remembering the weapon in your hands. It coincides with the moment that a sense of clarity washes over you, beckoning you to recall your mission. To rememberβ
This man isn't Alkaid.
"Oh." Your heart flutters strangely. You want to claw it out too. "The monster."
Alkaid is dead, after all.
"Yes," the monster agrees.
The dagger plunges into his heart.
AN ORDINARY MAN WOULD KEEL over from the pain. The monster only grunts. You might as well compare it to bumping into the furniture by accident, with the way he seems so unfazed.
His gloved hand climbs down to your clenched fist, as if hoping to wrench the dagger away from your fingers. He is a monster and your Alkaid was notβthat is what makes the difference between living and dying.
"You didn't die," you note, disappointment plainly evident in your tone. "Did you know?"
Did you know this would happen when you gave me this dagger?
"I'm difficult to kill," he responds flatly.
You wonder who the scorn in his voice is directed to. His gaze seems distantβwhich one of your predecessors is he thinking of? But you've never learned to tell the difference, so it's not as though the answer would make any sense to you.
"Unlike Alkaid?"
The monster remains silent. It only infuriates you more.
"I hate you," you spit out. Tears well up in your eyes, though for what reason, you're not sure. "I'm sure they all hated you too."
Anger briefly flashes across his bright green eyes. Instinctively, you pull your hand away, pulling the dagger along with you. Blood drips onto your nightgown, dying its white fabric a bright red.
Beyond an sharp inhale, the monster's expression remains unchanged. You're almost surprised at how easily he lets go of your hand, at only the slightest show of resistance.
"I know they did," he says, eyeing the new stain on your dress. You don't want to put a name to the emotion on his face. A monster like that doesn't deserve it. "They all told me as much."
You fill in the blanks yourself. Before they died. But they must've been the same as the monster when they diedβthat is why he refrained from performing that particular act with you. That is why the blemishes on your skin have nothing to do with any sort of traditional violence.
He hates it when you're hurt.
"And how did they die?"
He doesn't care enough to see that you're past that point.
He looks haunted. "That's not something I want to tell you."
A spiteful part of you delights in watching his expression. It wonders how much more his face will crumple when you meet the same fate. Dying is the only part of your gambit that was guaranteed to work out flawlessly in the endβthe only time you've ever tried to trust the monster sitting in his coffin.
(I will turn you only if you truly desire it.
...I don't believe you.
Do as you please. I will hold onto my word regardless.)
The dagger is still in your hand. You pull it away from the monster's reach and nod almost imperceptibly. You cannot kill him because you do not know how.
But you are not beholden to the same laws of nature as him.
"And you won't tell me where to find whatever it is that killed them either?" you ask, though you know it's useless to ask.
For you, it is either death or a life spent with the very monster that stole your lover away. You will remember nothing of this conversation, nor of the pain you went through when you awaken once again. And you will go through the same pain and suffering, all the while cursing your predecessors for not taking care of what should be their mistake.
But you can still meet your beloved.
You want to meet your beloved.
"You have no need for such a thing," he says, with your name on his lips.
That is enough for you.
HIS EYES ARE GREEN JUST like Alkaid's. It's something you've noticed before.
As the dagger pierces your flesh, they widen in horror. You can't feel much of anythingβif your hands were not holding onto its hilt, you wouldn't know you'd been stabbed.
There's an odd expression on the monster's face. Pained and familiar. It reminds you of the time you tripped over your own two feet, leaving you with scraped knees and elbows, and your dinner for the night littered across the ground.
You'd left Alkaid behind in a hurry, the siren's call of a warm meal too difficult to resist, and he hadn't been quick enough to catch you.
But the man in front of you is not the man you love.
Your lips pull into a faint smile regardless.
You're not sure why.
THE HANDS THAT WRAP AROUND are so terribly cold. You know for certain they belong to the monster. His tears drip down onto your cheek and you're surprised to learn that he can cry. But the blood on your hands, on the dagger lodged into your stomach, is sticky and warm.
Your neck remains untouched. His previous words echo through your mindβa man can only watch the woman he loves die so many times, after all.
You think you might pity him.
That is, before the memory of his confession, of the way he killed your love, leaves you with nothing but fury coursing through your veins.
You think you curse him.
You think he welcomes it.
#fics by aya#lovebrush chronicles#lovebrush chronicles x reader#for all time#for all time x reader#alkaid mcgrath#alkaid mcgrath x reader#lbc alkaid#lbc alkaid x reader#lovebrush alkaid#lovebrush alkaid x reader#rambles from here on ->#looking up card arts and guessing what's going on seems like a very productive use of my time#i already have a second alkaid card in mind (it's wedding unascended)#but i don't know what the plot is even though ik i want it to be witch!alkaid+reunion#some kind of friends to strangers deal like my mind is saying time travel shenanigans waking up 10 years in the future#also have something for ayn but it's more mundane βoops accidentally got married and now we have to live togetherβ#or something along those linesβthere was another card where he was the most beautiful man alive but#idk how to translate that into plot#im thinking late night return from a trip turns into a proposal from mc or somethingβhe was REALLY beautiful#that or idol boyfriend shows up at 3 am at your door for some godforsaken reason and it's still a proposal#also for some reason i really love alkaid and white roses...whichβfair enough
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#i looove all the details of intimacy!!! knowing his fave movies and the books on his shelf. finding out his favourite food.
#how he rubs lotion onto your hands :(( & it ties in with his comment earlier :(( and just !! How all the care feels like it shouldnβt belong with the two of your together but it does and itβs calming and comforting and :(( the healing!! your hands no longer cracking. what that means!!Β
#HE HOLDS UR HAND FOR THE SAKE OF HOLDING IT :((
#him choosing the colour of your eyes too :(( sdjhbfsj i looove the silent care they have for eachother. how not asking feels like that. how they protect eachother :(( im so sad 'i should have died that day i would have been more useful as legend' UUGH SO GOOD
#how he separates himself from it like a god oh thats so good that entire scene aches oh my god???? SO GOOD
#i love that beach scene i love the dialogue in this entire thing its just so raw and tender and SO MUCH in the unsaid
#the cogs in my brain are always turning when i read your stuff op and i love how there are a lot of things left to interpretation idk i have NO IDEA if how i'm reading it is correct but i love it bc it allows me to dig deep and try to figure that out!!
"you're so pretty, sometimes it makes me miserable" GODDDD how can he say that oh my GOD and and and how he tells you he'll do all the things you want to :(( 'i don't want my pieces i want yours' :(((
WAAAAH i love this so much. THAT ENDING!! GOSH. the way they see eachother :(( IM SAWBING this was so good thank you so much op, you're fantastic amazing wonderful everything!!!! as always!!!!!
ariadne's thread (3,839 words) Rating : Mature Gojo Satoru/Reader Tags : Fix-It, Jujutsu Kaisen Manga Spoilers, Major Manga Spoilers, Hurt/Comfort, Are You Gojo Satoru Because You're the Strongest, Or Are You the Strongest Because You're Gojo Satoru, Reader Has a Cursed Technique (Jujutsu Kaisen), Reader is JADED, Clingy Gojo Satoru, Mythology as a Motif, Vanilla Sex
Summary: He loses himself. He finds you, instead.
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#oh my god one of my fave gojo writers ever dhfbsad so good#pls read this#jjk#satoru#i loooove the read on gojo always; how op writes him with so much depth and character and just IT'S ALWAYS SO GOOD#everything feels so painfully accurate like gojo believing religion is more fallacy than faith. that opening paragraph:#i'm not a fan of ghost stories / too bad he is one <- UUUUGH I LOVE THAT#i also absolutely love the creativity put into the cursed technique of the reader it's so cool#there's also always this air abt op's fics that feel simultaneously comforting yet unsettling IDK HOW TO DESCRIBE IT it's like warm black#gojo showing up so persistently on reader's door is SUCH a him thing to do hsdfb + the dialogue?? AMAZING SBDFJ it's so in character#he's so insufferable i want to strangle him AHJSFB#i loooove the exploration of his cursed energy; how it trembles shifting in and out of reality sbdfjs#and that bit. 'i only have half a soul' / 'maybe i lost it a long time ago' HOW HE SAYS IT WITH A SHRUG wow. i love that.#gojo having a strange respect for time too. i love that little detail; and generosity being a habit left from his boy-prince upbringing#i love love love the way you write op because you're able to write in so many details about a character so intimately!!! but they all#contribute to the bigger picture; they all speak of history and how it plays into who they are now idkidk it's just. such a way with words#i think gojo withholds a lot of things and the more he talks about something the less it matters to him.#i love descriptions in this; how the healing sessions parallel to how he's feeling idkidkidk!!! i can't even describe it properly#GOJO SATORU PAIN IN MY ASS DAMN RIGHTBSDBFJA I LOVE THAT#omg. and just. gojo being his petty ass not contacting you for three weeks sdshj there is SOOOO much intensity within him GOD#everything about this is so so so interesting bc of the condition/state he was left in after the fight#and the consequences of that + when it gets too much it's soooo. wow. op your brain is >>>>#'You realize youβre not just a comfort for Gojo. Youβve been keeping him alive.' and the scene after oh my god#:(( take me with you next time :(( only if you pay me overtime :(( CLENCHING MY HEART RN#and he keeps you with him after. ooh my god. i loove that :( how the day just drags on and you never leave and it just repeats#op you are soooo good at writing scenes like this and i adore it so so much :(( the words and sentences are simple but they hit so much#i love that being with him kinda just happens and you grow comfortable to it and you have to touch him a lot bc of ur CT but#that becomes something natural too :(( and when hE RECIPROCATES AND EVERYTHING STARST ESCALATING OOOHH I AM#and that kiss omfghsbdg HE'S INSUFFERABLE I STG im gonna strangle him#what is the point of talent without enjoyment? <- wow
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misunderstood hero with a heart of gold - mv1
summary: max verstappen has never been one to read books, but everything changes when he comes across a pretty booktuber who describes him better than anyone else did before
word count: 8.2k + social media posts
folkie radio: another one of my babies finally sees the light of day π₯Ή this fic is really special and i was lowkey gatekeeping it but i feel ready to share it, plss take care of it <3 i hope you like it
MASTERLIST | MY PATREON
Max Verstappen was bored.
It was late and he was alone in his hotel room. He had a race the following day and he knew better than staying up late. His team was already on his ass for sim racing at ungodly hours of the night when he had a race, but nevertheless, he was bored and not sleepy yet.
He scrolled through his phone, not really paying attention to what popped up on his Instagram feed, Tiktok for you page or Twitter timeline.
After a few minutes, his finger landed on the YouTube app, one that he barely used if he was completely honest, but for some reason he never deleted it.
A bunch of videos showed up on his main page, most of them about F1, gaming, fitness or cats. He scrolled through the thumbnails absentmindedly until one title caught his eye: "Formula 1 Drivers as Romance Book Character Tropes."
Max had no idea how that video ended up in his suggestions page. He wasn't much of a readerβhe had only read two books in his entire life, for crying out loudβ but curiosity got the better of him. He clicked on the video.
The screen shifted to a bright and lively setup, where a young woman with vibrant energy and a contagious smile greeted her viewers. "Hey everyone! Welcome back to my channel. Today, we have a fun video where I'll be pairing Formula 1 drivers with romance book tropes!"
Max found himself smiling for some reason, he thought she was really engaging and funny β and really prettyβ. He leaned back against his pillows, more intrigued by the second.
"As some of you might already know, books are not my only passion, I'm also a huge Formula 1 fan since I was a little kid thanks to my dad, so I thought it would be fun to do a little crossover of my two obsessions."
Max grinned again, finding himself oddly invested in this unexpected combination of romance literature and Formula 1. Or maybe just mesmerized by the pretty girl who was talking on his screen.
"Let's begin with Mercedes," she said, clapping her hands together, "Lewis Hamilton is definitely our 'Charming Prince Charming.' He's got the looks, the talent, and that air of royalty about him."
Max chuckled, thinking it was a fitting description for his rival.
"Now for George Russell," she continued, "I'm going with 'The Boy Next Door Who Grew Up Hot.' I mean, have you seen his glow-up?"
Max chuckled again, nodding in agreement. George had indeed transformed quite a bit since his Williams days.
"Moving on to Ferrari," she continued enthusiastically. Max wondered if that was her favorite team on the grid, "Charles Leclerc is our classic 'Childhood Best Friend You've Always Had a Crush On.' He's got that sweet, familiar charm, but with a spark that makes your heart race every time you see him."
Max raised an eyebrow, surprised by the change in description. He had to admit, it fit Charles quite well.
"And for Carlos Sainz," she paused dramatically, "he's either our 'Older Brother's Best Friend' or the 'Bad Guy Who's Mean to Everyone but His Sweetheart', just think about it, he's got that rugged exterior, but you just know he's a total sweetheart deep down."
Max laughed, realizing she had Carlos pegged perfectly. He watched with growing interest as she continued.
"Now, let's talk about McLaren," she said with a sparkle in her eye. "Lando Norris is our 'Adorkable Comedian Who Steals Your Heart.' He's funny, relatable, and has a way of making you fall for him before you even realize it," Max grinned at the description of his good friend, "And Oscar Piastri... he's 'The Shy Genius.' Quiet, reserved, but incredibly talented and intelligent. He might not be the loudest in the room, but he's someone you'd definitely want on your side."
Max nodded in agreement, thinking of how Oscar had impressed everyone since joining McLaren. She continued pairing each driver with a character trope, she described Daniel as the "Life of the Party with a Sensitive Soul," highlighting his infectious energy and hidden depths. Pierre was dubbed the "Resilient Underdog," emphasizing his ability to bounce back from setbacks. Yuki was described as the "Fiery Spitfire with a Soft Center" and Logan was labeled the "Rookie with Untapped Potential," suggesting a character arc of growth and discovery.
With each driver's description, Max's anticipation grew. He found himself eagerly awaiting his own characterization, both curious and slightly apprehensive about how the pretty girl with an obsession with books and Formula 1 would describe him.
When she finally got to Red Bull, he sat up a little straighter, his interest piqued.
"Now for Sergio Perez," she said, "he's our 'Loyal Wingman Who Deserves His Own Happy Ending.' Always there to support, but with a story of his own waiting to be told."
Max nodded, thinking it was a pretty accurate description of his teammate.
"And finally, saved the best for last," she said, her eyes twinkling, "we have Max Verstappen."
Max held his breath, oddly nervous about how this stranger would categorize him.
"Max is our 'Misunderstood Hero with a Heart of Gold,'" she said with a warm smile. "Often perceived as cold or distant, but actually deeply caring and protective of those close to him. He's the type who shows his love through actions rather than words."
Max felt his cheeks warm significantly. This description caught him completely off guard. It wasn't the usual 'aggressive driver' or 'arrogant champion' narrative he was used to hearing. Instead, it felt... true. Uncomfortably true. He wasn't sure how to feel about being seen so accurately by a stranger.
As the video ended after she said her goodbyes, Max found himself staring at his phone screen, replaying her words in his mind, his thumb hovering over the comment section. He had never left a comment on a YouTube video before, but something about this one compelled him to break that habit.
After a moment's hesitation, he tapped the comment box and began typing, Once he was done, he paused, reading over his words. It felt strange, almost vulnerable, to acknowledge her characterization of him. But there was also something liberating about it. He added a thumbs-up emoji at the end and hit 'Post' before he could second-guess himself.
As Max set his phone down and settled into bed, a small smile played on his lips. He had a important race the following day, but all he wanted to think and dream about was the pretty stranger who had somehow seen through his carefully crafted public persona.
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f1gossip βI went to bed early last night. Just listened to the teamβs orders, you know?β
Max Verstappen for media day today, however he left a comment on a YouTube video around 2:46 am π
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username1 HES SOOOOO
username2 the fact that he left a comment on a BOOKTUBERβS channel MAX VERSTAPPEN YOU DONT EVEN READ BOOKS π
username3 he looks so pretty tho
username4 MAX WE ALL SAW YOU
username5 max was actually checking which romance trope is him according to booktubers
username6 HES SO RANDOM
username7 maxβs search history: lestappen as fictional couples
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username2 that max comment was so random but so real
username3 max verstappen, the man who has read two books in 27 years watching booktubers was not on my bingo card
username4 @/maxverstappen1 you favorite youtuber will do another video about you
username5 BOOKS WITH RACING THEMES
username6 books inspired by f1 circuits would be fun
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username2 max ??? bookshop ????
username3 WHAT SHIFTED
username4 he thought it was jimmyz
username5 HEELPP what is he doing there
username6 hello i work there. he arrived with a list of books in hand that he wanted, he bought around 15 action and fantasy books
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If someone had told Max that this year he would spend his summer break reading, he would've laughed at their faces. Yet here he was, lounging by the pool in his Monaco house, a book in his hands and a smile on his face.
As he turned the page of "The Martian," the latest sci-fi recommendation from YN, Max couldn't help but reflect on how different this summer break was.
Usually, his days off were filled with lavish yacht parties, exclusive clubs, or intense training sessions and hours of sim racing to stay sharp for the second half of the season. But now, he found himself eagerly devouring books and spending hours chatting with YN about plots, characters, and everything in between.
As the weeks passed, Max found himself growing increasingly close to YN, despite never having met her in person. Their text conversations flowed effortlessly, ranging from in-depth discussions about the books they were reading to playful banter about racing and life in general.
Max was surprised by how much he enjoyed her company, even in this digital form. Her wit, intelligence, and genuine interest in his thoughts beyond his racing persona were refreshing. He found himself sharing things he rarely discussed with others, and looking forward to her messages became a highlight of his day.
He also thought she was absolutely gorgeous.
As if on cue, his phone buzzed with a new message from her.
Max chuckled, about to reply when he heard the doorbell. He remembered Lando and Daniel were coming over for dinner. As he got up to let them in, he quickly typed a response, telling her that he would talk to her later.
"Well, well, well," Daniel's voice boomed as Max opened the door. "If it isn't the newly minted bookworm of Formula 1!"
Lando peered around Daniel's shoulder, "I half expected to find you wearing glasses and a sweater vest, mate."
"Very funny, guys. Come in," Max rolled his eyes as he stepped away from the door.
Ever since his friends noticed his brand new habit, they took it upon themselves to tease him whenever they could. As they made their way to the backyard, Daniel spotted the book on the lounger.
"The Martian?" he read, picking it up. "Isn't this a bit advanced for your reading level, Maxy?"
"Ha ha," Max deadpanned, snatching the book back. "It's actually really good. It's about this astronaut who gets stranded on Mars and has to use science and engineering to survive-"
"Whoa, whoa," Lando interrupted, holding up his hands. "Who are you and what have you done with Max Verstappen?"
Daniel draped an arm around Max's shoulders. "I think our boy here is trying to impress a certain bookish YouTuber. What was her name again? YN?"
Max felt his cheeks warm. "It's not like that. We just... talk about books and stuff."
"And stuff," Daniel repeated, wiggling his eyebrows. "Is that what the kids are calling it these days?"
Max rolled his eyes, trying to brush off their teasing. "Seriously, it's not like that. We just have a lot in common."
Daniel and Lando exchanged knowing glances before bursting into laughter.
"Sure, mate," Daniel said, patting Max on the back. "Whatever you say."
They settled by the pool, beers in hand, and started chatting about the upcoming races and their plans for the rest of the summer. Despite the playful ribbing, Max found himself genuinely enjoying their company. He hadnβt realized how much heβd missed his friends.
As the evening wore on, the conversation eventually circled back to Max's books and his little friend on his phone.
"So, Max," Lando started, a mischievous glint in his eye, "have you color-coded your bookshelf yet? Or are you more of a chronological order kind of guy?"
"Nah, mate. I bet he organizes them by how many times YN has mentioned them," Daniel chimed in, "Top shelf is probably her favorites, right Maxy?"
Max felt his cheeks flush, but he couldn't help grinning. "You two are impossible."
"When are you finally going to meet her in person anyway?" Lando said, sipping from his beer.
Max shrugged nonchalantly, trying to hide the slight flutter in his chest. "I don't know. That's not something I've really thought about,"
He lied. In truth, the thought of meeting YN had crossed his mind countless times. The idea of finally seeing the girl who had captivated him with her intelligence, humor, and beauty made his heart race. He'd catch himself daydreaming about her smile, wondering if it was as warm and infectious in person as it seemed in her videos. But he wasn't ready to admit that to his friends just yet.
Lando and Daniel exchanged a look, clearly not buying Max's nonchalant act.
"Oh come on," Lando scoffed, rolling his eyes dramatically. "You expect us to believe that? You've been glued to your phone for weeks, mate."
"I bet he's already planned their first date," Daniel leaned in, "What'll it be, Max? A romantic book reading by candlelight? Or maybe a visit to the library?"
Max felt his cheeks heating up again. "It's not like that, guys. We're just friends."
"Friends who talk every day and have you blushing like a schoolgirl," Lando teased, nudging Max with his elbow.
"I do not blush like a schoolgirl," Max protested, knowing full well that his face was probably bright red by now.
"Sure, sure," Daniel said with a wink. "Just friends. So, have you at least thought about inviting her to a race? You know, show her what you do when you're not reading about Mars?"
"Why would I invite her to a race, that would be weird," Max protested again, "And she already knows what I do, she's a fan of the sport."
"Man, you're so stubborn sometimes," Lando rolled his eyes at him, "If you like this girl, why don't you invite her to a race? It could be a great way to finally meet in person."
"And who said that I liked her," once again, Max's defensive self came through.
Daniel and Lando shared an exasperated look before turning back to Max.
"Come on, mate," Daniel said, his tone gentler now. "It's pretty obvious. We've never seen you this invested in someone before. Not to mention, you're reading books voluntarily for the first time since... well, ever."
"It's written all over your face," Lando said, shaking his head. "You like her, and there's no shame in that. You light up every time your phone buzzes. It's kind of adorable, actually."
Max sighed, running a hand through his hair. He knew his friends were right, but admitting it out loud felt like a big step. "Okay, fine. Maybe I do like her. But it's complicated, you know? We've never even met in person."
"That's exactly why you should invite her to a race," Lando insisted. "It's the perfect opportunity. She gets to see you in your element, and you get to finally meet face-to-face."
"Plus," Daniel added with a mischievous grin, "if things go well, you can always show her your trophy collection. I hear that's a great way to impress the ladies."
Max couldn't help but laugh at that. "You're ridiculous, you know that?"
"Maybe," Daniel shrugged, "but I'm also right. What have you got to lose?"
Max pondered this for a moment. The idea of meeting YN in person both thrilled and terrified him. What if they didn't click in real life the way they did over text? But then again, what if they did?
"I'll think about it," Max finally conceded.
Lando and Daniel exchanged triumphant grins.
"That's our boy," Lando said, patting his back.
After a few more beers and food, Lando and Daniel left.
As the night deepened, Max found himself lying in bed, staring at the ceiling. The conversation with Lando and Daniel kept replaying in his mind. His phone sat on the nightstand, silent but somehow still demanding his attention.
Max's thoughts raced. Should he text YN? Invite her to Zandvoort? The idea made his heart beat faster. He imagined seeing her in person for the first time, wondering if her smile would be as pretty as it was in her videos. But doubt crept in too. What if things were awkward? What if the chemistry they had online didn't translate to real life?
He rolled onto his side, eyeing his phone. The urge to reach out to her was strong, as it always was. Max realized that Lando and Daniel were right - he did like her. A lot. The thought of meeting her filled him with equal parts excitement and nervousness.
Taking a deep breath, Max grabbed his phone. Before he could overthink it, he started typing.
Hey YN, hope I'm not messaging too late. I was wondering if you'd like to come to the Dutch GP at Zandvoort? It's the first race after the summer break, and my home race. Thought it might be fun if you could make it.
He hit send before he could second-guess himself. The wait for her response felt eternal. When his phone finally buzzed, Max's heart leapt.
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As Max headed to Zandvoort Circuit for the Dutch Grand Prix, he felt the familiar weight of expectations settling on his shoulders.
The second half of the season loomed ahead, and the pressure to maintain his championship lead was on. He knew the team was counting on him to deliver strong results, especially at his home race where the orange-clad fans would be out in full force.
But amidst the pressure and responsibility, there was another emotion bubbling up inside him - a giddy excitement that he couldn't quite contain.
The thought of finally meeting YN in person after months of texts, calls, and shared book recommendations made his heart race in a way that had nothing to do with driving at a car at a very fast speed.
As he drove to the track, Max found himself smiling at random moments, his mind drifting to imagine what it would be like to see her smile in person, to hear her laugh without the filter of a phone call.
Max realized that for the first time in a long while, he was looking forward to a race weekend for reasons that extended beyond the track.
Unfortunately, his busy schedule kept them from meeting right away. Media commitments, team briefings, and practice sessions consumed his time, leaving him feeling frustrated and guilty for not being able to see her sooner. He sent her a quick message apologizing for the delay, promising they'd meet after qualifying.
As he made his way to the garage, a familiar voice called out behind him.
"Oi, Max! Ready for the big day?"
Max turned to see Daniel jogging up to him, his trademark grin in place.
"Yeah, should be a good quali," Max replied, trying to sound nonchalant.
Daniel raised an eyebrow. "I wasn't talking about qualifying, mate. Your special guest arrives today, right?"
Max felt his cheeks warm. "How did you even remember that?"
"Please," Daniel scoffed. "It's all you've been talking about for weeks. So, have you met her yet?"
"No, my schedule's been packed. We're supposed to meet after quali."
"Ah, saving the best for last, eh?" Daniel's grin widened, "Smart move. Nothing like the adrenaline of a good qualifying session to make a great first impression."
"Or to completely mess it up," Max muttered.
"Hey, none of that," Daniel clapped him on the shoulder. "You'll be fine. Just be yourself. She already likes you for who you are, remember?"
Max nodded, feeling a bit reassured. "Thanks, Dan."
With a deep breath, Max headed into the garage, Daniel's words echoing in his mind.
Qualifying went smoothly, with Max securing a front row start to the delight of the Dutch fans. The cheers of the home crowd were deafening as he climbed out of the car, but his mind was elsewhere.
After the post-qualifying interviews, Max sent YN a quick text letting her know that he was free now and she let him know that she was around the hospitality area.
As he walked towards there, Max spotted YN standing near one of the motorhomes, looking around with wide eyes. She hadn't seen him yet, and for a moment, Max just watched her, taking in the sight of the girl who had been on his mind for months now.
She was even more gorgeous in person than he had imagined.
Her eyes sparkled with excitement as she took in the bustling paddock around her. The way the sunlight caught her hair, the gentle curve of her smile as she observed everything with wonder - it all took Max's breath away.
He noticed little details he couldn't have seen through a screen: the way her eyes sparkled, the subtle freckles across her nose, the graceful way she moved as she looked around.
Taking a deep breath, Max walked over, his heart pounding. "YN?"
She turned, her face lighting up with a radiant smile that made Max's breath catch. "Max! Finally!"
They moved toward each other, and without hesitation, Max pulled her into a hug. The embrace felt natural, as if they'd done this a hundred times before. He was aware of how perfectly she fit in his arms, the subtle scent of her perfume, and the warmth of her body against his.
"It's so good to finally meet you," he murmured into her hair. "I'm so sorry it took so long, this weekend's been crazy."
She pulled back slightly, looking up at him with understanding in her eyes. "It's okay, Max. That qualifying was amazing! I've never experienced anything like it."
"I'm glad you enjoyed it. Come on, let me show you around."
He took her hand and he was struck by how natural it felt. Her fingers intertwined with his perfectly, and a warm sensation spread from their joined hands throughout his body.
They strolled through the paddock, Max pointing out the various team motorhomes, the garages, and the media center. YN was all wide-eyed fascination, asking questions and soaking in every detail. As they walked, Max found himself relaxing more and more, his previous nerves about their chemistry being gone fading away.
As they rounded a corner, they nearly bumped into Lando Norris. Who couldn't help but smirk at the sight of their hands intertwined.
"You guys met already!" he cheerfully said, "You must be YN."
Her cheeks flushed, clearly surprised that Max had mentioned her to his friends. Max felt a warmth spread through his chest at her reaction.
"Yeah, this is YN," Max said, unable to keep the smile off his face, "Meet Lando, the perpetual pain in my ass."
"Nice to finally meet the girl who's got Max reading," YN laughed, and Lando extended his hand, "Quite the accomplishment."
"Nice to meet you too, Lando," YN said, shaking his hand. "I've enjoyed watching you race, I'm a big fan. Congrats on the pole position."
"Cheers," Lando replied, then turned to Max with a mischievous glint in his eye. "So, has he bored you with car talk yet, or has he actually remembered how to discuss books?"
Max rolled his eyes good-naturedly. "Shouldn't you be preparing for tomorrow, Lando?"
"Alright, alright, I can take a hint," Lando chuckled. "Enjoy your tour, lovebirds!"
As Lando walked away, Max felt a mix of embarrassment and pleasure. He glanced at YN, relieved to see her smiling.
"Sorry about him," Max said, shaking his head with a chuckle. "Lando has a way of making everything awkward."
YN laughed softly, her eyes twinkling. "It's fine. He seems like fun."
They continued their walk, finally making their way to the rooftop terrace of the Red Bull hospitality area. The view was stunning, offering a panoramic look at the circuit and the sea of orange-clad fans below.
"This is incredible," YN said, leaning against the railing and taking it all in. "Thank you for showing me around, Max."
"Of course," Max said, standing beside her. "I'm really glad you could come."
They stood there for a moment, enjoying the view and each other's company. Max felt a sense of contentment wash over him, the stress of the weekend melting away in her presence.
"Max," YN said softly, turning to face him. "I know this weekend is important for you, and I don't want to be a distraction. But I'm really happy to be here and to finally meet you."
"You're not a distraction," Max replied, reaching out to take her hand again. "You're the best part of this weekend, honestly."
They shared a smile, Max was well aware of the butterflies that fluttered on his stomach and the high school girl blush his friends teased him about, but he didn't care. He felt happy with the pretty girl who had been his source of comfort for months, finally face to face.
"You know," YN said softly, "when I made that video calling you a misunderstood hero with a heart of gold, I never imagined I'd get to see it firsthand. But being here, seeing how you are with your team, with the fans⦠I was right about you, Max Verstappen."
Max felt a warmth spread through his chest at her words. He had always been guarded about his public image, but hearing her perspective meant more than he could ever imagine.
"I'm glad you think so," he said softly, his voice filled with sincerity. "You know, that video... it changed things for me. Not just because it led to us talking, but because it made me reflect on a lot of things."
"Who would've thought," YN said with a smile, "When I recorded that video, I never thought you would ever see it, let alone have an impact on you and let alone lead us to talking and me being here."
"Everything happens for a reason, right?"
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username1 OMFGGGG
username2 no one deserved this more than her for real
username3 SHE MET MAX TOO?? DESERVED
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username4 red bull finally inviting people who actually love the sport
username5 GIRL WE NEED A VLOGGGG
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When it came time for YN to leave the Netherlands, Max insisted on driving her to the airport himself. The car ride was filled with comfortable silence and soft conversation, both of them trying to stretch out their remaining time together.
Despite their short time together, Max found himself completely smitten, captivated by YN's intelligence, humor, and the way her eyes lit up when she talked about books or reacted to the thrill of the race.
He didn't want to admit it to himself, but he was head over heels for her.
As they stood in the departure terminal, Max felt an overwhelming urge to kiss her. He hesitated, his heart racing, but ultimately settled for a long, warm hug, breathing in her scent and committing it to memory. As he watched her walk through security, he already found himself missing her presence.
Now, a week later, Max was in Monza for the Italian Grand Prix. The day had been busy with media commitments and team meetings. Finally back in the quiet of his motorhome, Max flopped onto the couch, feeling drained but content. Without thinking, he reached for his phone and hit the FaceTime button next to YN's name.
Her smiling face appeared on the screen, and Max felt an immediate surge of warmth.
"Hey, you," she said, her voice soft and welcoming even through the phone's speakers.
"Hey," Max replied, unable to keep the grin off his face. "How's your day been?"
"Oh, you know, the usual. Editing videos, reading, missing the excitement of the paddock," YN teased. "How about you? Surviving the media circus?"
"Barely," Max groaned dramatically, "I swear, if I have to answer one more question about RedBull and their big mess, I might go mad."
YN laughed, the sound making Max's heart skip a beat. "Poor Max. Whatever shall we do to take your mind off your beloved team?"
"Well," Max said, shifting to get more comfortable, "I've been reading that new sci-fi book you recommended. 'The Martian-like Odyssey to Titan,' or whatever it's called."
"'Project Hail Mary,'" she corrected, "And? What do you think so far?"
"It's incredible!" Max's eyes lit up, "I mean, the science is fascinating, and the way the main character problem-solves is just... I don't know, it reminds me a bit of what we do in racing, you know? Constantly adapting, finding solutions on the fly."
"That's exactly why I thought you'd like it! The way Andy Weir writes about scientific problem-solving is so engaging."
They dove into an animated discussion about the book, Max marveling at how easily conversation flowed between them, how YN's passion for books was infectious. As they talked, a thought that had been brewing in Max's mind for days suddenly surfaced.
"YN," Max said, his voice softer than before. "There's actually something I've been wanting to ask you."
"Oh? What is it, Max?" she tilted her head, curiosity evident in her expression.
Max took a deep breath, suddenly feeling like he was about to qualify for a crucial race. "Well, I was wondering... have you ever been to Monaco?"
"No, actually, I haven't," YN's eyebrows raised in surprise, "It's always been on my travel wish list, though. Why do you ask?"
Max felt his heart rate pick up. He'd rehearsed this moment in his head countless times over the past few days, but now that it was here, he found himself fumbling for words.
"Well, you see, I have a two-week break coming up before the Baku GP, and I was thinking... maybe... if you're free, of course, and if you'd like to... you could come visit me in Monaco?"
The words tumbled out faster than he intended, and Max felt a blush creeping up his neck. He watched YN's face carefully, trying to gauge her reaction. His mind raced with possibilities - what if she said no? What if this was too forward?
YN's eyes widened, and for a moment, she seemed at a loss for words. "Oh, Max, that's... wow. That's really sweet of you to offer."
Max, sensing a hint of hesitation, quickly added, "You could stay at my place. I have plenty of room, and it would be great to have you around. Plus I have two adorable cats that I'm sure you'd love."
YN's expression softened, a mix of excitement and uncertainty in her eyes. "That sounds amazing, Max. But⦠are you sure? I wouldn't want to impose on your personal space or your time off."
Truth was, Max wanted to spent every free moment he had with her, but he wasn't sure how to let her know without sounding too forward or like a creep, so he just pressed on.
"You wouldn't be imposing at all, I promise. I really want us to spend more time together, away from the craziness of the race weekends. And I'd love to show you around Monaco."
He watched as YN bit her lip, considering his offer. The silence stretched for a moment, and Max found himself holding his breath.
"If you're not comfortable staying at my place," he added quickly, "I could book you a hotel room, or there are some great Airbnbs with amazing views of the harbor. Whatever makes you feel most at ease. I just⦠I really want to see you again."
As he spoke, Max realized just how true his words were. The thought of having YN in his space, sharing meals, exploring the city together - it filled him with a warmth he couldn't quite describe. It was more than just attraction; there was a comfort in her presence that he craved.
YN smiled, a warm look in her eyes. "You really mean that, don't you?"
"I do. Look, I know it might seem like a big ask, but I just... I can't stop thinking about how much fun we have together. And Monaco is beautiful this time of year. We could go for drives along the coast, have dinner at some amazing restaurants, or just relax by the pool if you prefer. No pressure, just... us. And well, the cats."
Max held his breath, waiting for her response. The thought of having YN in Monaco, of being able to spend uninterrupted time with her away from the pressures of the race weekend, made his heart soar. He imagined showing her his favorite spots in the city, maybe taking her out on his boat, or just lounging by the pool and talking for hours.
"Alright, Verstappen, you've convinced me. But I have one condition."
"Name it." Max grinned, relief and excitement washing over him.
"If I'm staying at your place, you have to let me cook my infamous waffles for breakfast. They're a secret family recipe, and I guarantee they'll be the best you've ever tasted."
"Deal," Max's smile widened, a burst of joy exploding in his chest. "But I warn you, I take my waffles very seriously. They better live up to the hype."
"Oh, they will. And I can't wait to meet the cats."
As they continued to chat and make plans for YN's visit, Max felt a warmth spreading through his chest. The prospect of having YN in his home, of waking up and knowing she was just in the next room, of being able to spend lazy mornings together over homemade waffles - it all seemed almost too good to be true.
He found himself imagining what it would be like to have her there. Would she curl up on his couch with a book? Would they watch the sunset from his terrace? Would he finally get the courage to kiss her?
The thought made his heart race. He remembered the moment at the airport when he had wanted so badly to kiss her goodbye. This time, he promised himself, he wouldn't let the opportunity pass by.
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The day of YN's arrival in Monaco had finally come, and Max felt like a giddy teenager preparing for his first date.
In the days leading up to YN's visit, Max had found himself unusually preoccupied with preparations. He wanted everything to be perfect for YN's stay. He'd bought new sheets for the guest bedroom, making sure they were the softest he could find. He'd stocked the fridge with an array of foods, unsure of her preferences but making sure to have options. He'd even gone so far as to buy a small collection of books he thought she might enjoy, arranging them carefully on the nightstand in her room.
The morning of her arrival, Max woke up early, his stomach a knot of excitement and nerves. He double-checked everything one last time - fresh towels in the bathroom, extra toiletries in case she forgot anything, a vase of fresh flowers on the kitchen counter to brighten up the space. He felt almost silly with how much effort he was putting in, but he couldn't help himself. He wanted everything to be perfect for the girl he was smitten with.
As the time to leave for the airport approached, Max found himself pacing, checking his watch every few minutes. He'd planned the route to the airport meticulously, factoring in potential traffic to make sure he'd be there in plenty of time. Just as he was about to grab his keys and head out, the doorbell rang.
Confused, Max paused. He wasn't expecting anyone - he'd made sure to clear his schedule completely for YN's visit. Frowning slightly, he opened the door to find Lando standing there, a wide grin on his face.
"Lando? What are you doing here?" Max asked, glancing at his watch.
"What, can't a mate drop by for a visit?" Lando replied, trying to peer past Max into the apartment. "Thought we could hang out, maybe play some FIFA."
Max shifted awkwardly, blocking the doorway. "Lando, mate, I'm actually just about to head out. I can't hang out right now."
"Oh, come on," Lando's grin faltered slightly, "Just for a bit? We haven't had a proper catch-up in ages."
"I'm sorry, I really can't," Max insisted, glancing at his watch nervously. "I have to pick up a friend from the airport."
Lando's eyes narrowed suspiciously, a mischievous glint appearing. "A friend, huh? Is it that your book dream girl? You're flying her out over here?"
Max felt his face heat up, a blush creeping up his neck. He tried to deny it, but his reaction gave him away.
"It is! Oh man, this is brilliant," Lando's eyes widened in delight, "Max Verstappen, blushing like a schoolboy over a girl."
"Shut up," Max grumbled, but there was no real annoyance in his voice. He couldn't help but smile.
"So, YN is finally gracing Monaco with her presence," Lando teased. "No wonder you've been so distracted lately. When do I get to hang out with her?"
"You don't," Max rolled his eyes, "Now if you'll excuse me, I need to go."
"Alright, alright," Lando stepped aside, still grinning. "But I want details later, yeah? And tell YN I said hi."
Max waved him off, hurrying to his car. Despite Lando's teasing, he couldn't wipe the smile off his face. The excitement was bubbling up inside him again as he drove to the airport.
As he parked and made his way to the arrivals area, Max felt his nerves almost making him want to throw up. He found himself fidgeting, alternating between pacing and sitting, his eyes glued to the arrivals board.
Finally, he saw that YN's flight had landed. His heart rate picked up as he watched the doors, scanning the crowd for her familiar face. And then, suddenly, there she was.
YN emerged from the arrivals gate, looking a bit tired from the journey but still radiant. Her eyes scanned the crowd, and when they landed on Max, her face lit up with a brilliant smile.
Max felt his breath catch in his throat. He raised his hand in a small wave, a grin spreading across his face as he walked towards her.
"Hey, Max," she said as she reached him, her voice warm and slightly breathless.
"Hey," he replied, suddenly feeling shy. "How was your flight?"
Without thinking, he pulled her into a hug. As he wrapped his arms around her, breathing in the scent of her hair, he felt a sense of rightness wash over him. It was as if all the pieces were falling into place.
"It was good, just long," she hugged him back tightly. "I'm so glad to be here though."
As they pulled apart, Max found himself reluctant to let go completely. He kept one hand on her back as he reached for her suitcase with the other. "Here, let me get that for you."
"Always the gentleman," YN teased, but her smile was soft and appreciative.
As they walked towards the exit, Max found himself stealing glances at her, still hardly believing she was really here. "So, um, I thought we could grab some lunch if you're hungry? Or if you're tired, we can head straight to my place so you can rest."
YN considered for a moment. "Lunch sounds great, actually. I'm starving, and I'm too excited to sleep just yet. I want to see Monaco."
Max chuckled, feeling a warmth spread through his chest at her enthusiasm. "Lunch it is then. I know just the place β it has a great view of the harbor."
As they made their way to Max's car, chatting easily about YN's flight and Max's plans for her visit, Max felt a sense of contentment he hadn't experienced in a long time. The nervousness from earlier had melted away, replaced by pure happiness.
Loading YN's suitcase into the trunk, Max caught her eye and smiled. "I'm really glad you're here, YN."
She returned his smile, her eyes sparkling. "Me too, Max. Me too."
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Three days had passed since YN's arrival in Monaco, and Max couldn't remember a time when he'd been happier.
True to her word, YN had cooked her infamous waffles for breakfast on the second morning of her stay. As Max had taken his first bite, his eyes had widened in surprise and delight. The waffles were light and crispy on the outside, yet fluffy on the inside, with a perfect balance of sweetness and a hint of vanilla. He'd declared them the best he'd ever tasted, earning a proud smile from her.
The days that followed had been filled with laughter, conversation, and exploration. They'd spent hours by Max's pool, talking about everything and nothing. YN would often bring a book, reading aloud passages that she found particularly interesting or amusing, while Max listened, content to hear her voice and watch the way her eyes lit up when she spoke about something she loved.
They'd explored Monaco together, with Max showing YN his favorite spots and discovering new ones together. He'd taken her to the Monte Carlo Casino, where they'd marveled at the architecture and people-watched. They'd strolled through the streets of Monaco-Ville, the old town, where YN had been enchanted by the colorful buildings. They'd even spent an afternoon at the Oceanographic Museum, where YN's enthusiasm for learning had been infectious, and Max had found himself just as excited as she was about the marine life exhibits.
Throughout it all, Max felt himself falling deeper for her. It wasn't just her beauty or her intelligence that captivated him, but the way she saw the world. Her curiosity, her kindness, her ability to find joy in the smallest things - it all made Max see his surroundings through new eyes. He found himself noticing details he'd never paid attention to before, appreciating moments he might have otherwise overlooked.
What struck Max most was how easy and right it all felt. There was no pressure, no awkwardness. Being with YN was as natural as breathing. They could talk for hours without running out of things to say, but they were also comfortable in silence, simply enjoying each other's presence.
As they returned from another long day of exploring the city, both Max and YN retreated to their respective rooms to change into more comfortable clothing. Max opted for a soft t-shirt and sweatpants, relishing the feeling of being relaxed and at ease in his own home.
When he emerged from his room, he found YN already settled on his couch, her legs tucked under her, a book in her hands and one of his cats curling beside her. She was wearing one the t-shirt she picked the night she arrived when she realized she forgot to pack pajamas. It was too big for her frame but Max felt like melting knowing she was wearing his shirt.
The sight made Max's heart skip a beat. There was something so intimate and domestic about the scene - YN looking completely at home in his space, in his clothes, absorbed in a book as if she'd always been there.
Max couldn't help but smile, a warmth spreading through his chest. He found himself wanting this view in his life every day - coming home to find YN there, comfortable and content. The thought both thrilled and terrified him. He'd never felt this way about anyone before, never wanted to intertwine his life so completely with another person's.
YN looked up from her book, catching Max's gaze. Her lips curved into a soft smile. "Hey. Want to join me?"
Without hesitation, Max crossed the room. Instead of sitting next to her, he surprised both of them by lying down on the couch and resting his head in her lap. He looked up at her, his eyes vulnerable. "Would you read to me?"
YN's expression softened, her eyes twinkling with affection. "Of course," she said, her free hand moving to gently run her fingers through his hair.
Max closed his eyes, reveling in the sensation. He felt her shift slightly, getting comfortable, and then her voice filled the air, soft and melodious as she began to read.
Max's lips curved into a smile. "Emma," he murmured. "I remember you mentioning it was one of your favorites."
YN paused her reading, looking down at him with surprise and pleasure. "You remembered that?"
"Of course," Max opened his eyes, meeting her gaze. "I remember everything you tell me."
A huge grin appeared in YN's face, and she bent down to press a soft kiss to Max's forehead. The gesture was so natural, so tender, that it made Max's heart flutter.
As she continued to read, her fingers still combing through his hair, Max found himself only half-listening to the words. Instead, he was acutely aware of every point of contact between them - the warmth of her lap under his head, the gentle touch of her fingers, the soft cadence of her voice washing over him.
In that moment, Max realized with startling clarity that this was what he wanted for the rest of his life. Not just the glamour of racing or the thrill of victory, but this - quiet moments of intimacy, the comfort of being with someone who understood him, who made him want to be better.
He reached up, gently taking YN's free hand in his own, intertwining their fingers. She paused in her reading, looking down at him with a question in her eyes.
"YN," Max said softly, his voice filled with emotion. "I'm really glad you're here."
She squeezed his hand, her smile radiant. "So am I, Max. So am I."
As she resumed reading, her voice mixing with the soft sound of the Mediterranean breeze outside, Max closed his eyes again, a sense of peace settling over him. Whatever the future held, he knew that this moment, this feeling, was something he'd cherish forever.
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As the final day of YN's stay in Monaco dawned, Max found himself feeling so many bittersweet emotions. The past week had been nothing short of magical, and the thought of it coming to an end left a hollow feeling in his chest. She hadn't even left yet, and already he missed her.
For their final day, Max had decided to take YN out on his yacht. He wanted their last hours together to be special, just the two of them away from the bustling streets of Monaco. As they prepared for the day, packing a picnic and gathering sunscreen and towels, Max couldn't help but reflect on the past week.
Daniel and Lando had teased him mercilessly about his sudden disappearance from their usual hangouts. They'd made jokes about Max being "whipped" and how he'd fallen hard for his "YouTube dream girl." But Max didn't care. He was too happy, too caught up in the bubble of joy that surrounded him and YN.
As they boarded the yacht, the Mediterranean stretching out before them in shades of turquoise, Max felt a pang in his chest. This perfect week was coming to an end, and he wasn't sure he was ready to face reality again.
Once they were out on the open water. YN leaned over the railing, a look of wonder on her face.
"This is incredible, Max," she said, turning to him with a dazzling smile. "I can't believe I'm here, experiencing all of this."
Max moved to stand beside her, their shoulders brushing. "I'm going to miss you," he said softly, "This week has been⦠I don't even have words for it."
"I'm going to miss you too, Max. So much. But you know I have to go back home. I have videos to make for my channel, work stuff to catch up onβ¦"
Max nodded, understanding but not liking it. "Maybe you could make a video about 'A Week with an F1 Driver'? I'm sure your subscribers would love that."
YN laughed, playfully shoving his shoulder. "Oh yes, I'm sure that would go over well. 'Day 3: Watched Max eat his bodyweight in pasta. Day 5: Learned that F1 drivers are actually big babies when they lose at Mario Kart.'"
"I am not a baby!" Max gasped in mock offense. "I'm just⦠competitive."
"Uh-huh, sure," she teased, her eyes twinkling. "Is that why you pouted for an hour after I beat you?"
"I did not pout," Max protested, but he was grinning.
"You know, it's still surreal to me that a random video I published got us here. If someone had told me a year ago that I'd be spending a week in Monaco with Max Verstappen, I would have laughed in their face."
Max reached out, caressing her cheek softly. "I'm glad you made that video," he said softly. "I'm glad I stumbled across it. I can't imagine not knowing you now."
As they stood together on the boat, the gentle rocking of the waves mirroring the tumultuous emotions within them, Max found his gaze drawn to YN's lips. They were slightly parted, soft and inviting. His heart raced as he lifted his eyes to meet hers, a silent question in his gaze.
YN's eyes, warm and full of affection, met his. A small, knowing smile played at the corners of her mouth, and in that moment, it was all the permission Max needed.
With a gentle tug, he pulled her closer, one hand coming to rest on the small of her back while the other cupped her cheek. Time seemed to slow as he leaned in, their breaths mingling in the space between them. And then, finally, their lips met.
The kiss was tender at first, a soft exploration. But as YN's arms wrapped around his neck, her fingers threading through his hair, it deepened into something more passionate. Max poured all of his pent-up emotions into the kiss - his joy, his longing, his hope for what they could be.
When they finally parted, YN's eyes were sparkling. "You know," she said, a playful tone to her voice, "I've been waiting for you to do that all week."
Max couldn't help but laugh, a mixture of relief and happiness bubbling up inside him. "Really? All week, huh?"
"Mmhmm," she nodded, her smile widening. "I was starting to think I'd have to make the first move myself."
"Well," Max said, his voice low and teasing, "allow me to make up for lost time."
With that, he pulled her in for another kiss. This one was different from the first - more confident, more passionate. His hands roamed her back, pulling her flush against him as her fingers tangled in his hair. The world around them faded away until there was nothing but the two of them, the taste of salt on their lips, and the warmth of the setting sun on their skin.
When they broke apart this time, both were slightly dazed. Max rested his forehead against YN's, unwilling to put any distance between them.
"I really like you," he said softly, his voice thick with emotion. "More than I've ever liked anyone before. This week with you⦠it's been incredible. I don't want it to end."
YN's hand came up to cup his cheek, her thumb gently stroking his skin. "I really like you too, Max," she replied, her voice equally soft. "These past few days have been like a dream."
Max pulled back slightly, just enough to meet her eyes. "I know you have to go back, but⦠I want to make this work. Us, I mean. If that's something you want too."
"I do want that. Very much. It might not be easy with our schedules and the distance, but I think you're worth it."
"We'll figure it out," he said, determination clear in his voice. "I'll come visit you when I can, and you can come to some of my races. We'll make time for video calls, and I'll text you so much you'll get sick of me."
YN laughed, the sound like music to Max's ears. "I don't think I could ever get sick of you," she said, her eyes twinkling. "But I'm holding you to that promise about the races. I expect VIP treatment, Mr. Verstappen."
Max grinned, pulling her close again. "For you? Always," he murmured, before capturing her lips in another kiss.
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The month following YN's stay in Monaco had been blissful happiness for both YN and Max. Their parting at the airport had been bittersweet, filled with lingering kisses and tight embraces. They had spent a good hour cuddling in Max's car in the airport parking lot, neither wanting to let go.
"I'm going to miss you so much," YN had whispered, her face buried in the crook of Max's neck.
Max had tightened his arms around her, breathing in her scent. "I'll miss you too. But we'll see each other soon, I promise."
When they finally managed to separate, their goodbye kiss had been passionate and filled with promise. As Max watched her disappear into the airport, he already felt a piece of his heart leaving with her.
In the weeks that followed, they took every opportunity to be together. Max would fly to YN's home during his breaks between races, often arriving exhausted but immediately revitalized by her presence.
Their reunions were always intense, filled with desperate kisses and roaming hands as they made up for lost time. But it was the quiet moments that Max treasured most - waking up with YN in his arms, her sleepy smile the first thing he saw; cooking breakfast together, stealing kisses between flipping pancakes; or simply sitting in comfortable silence, each lost in their own tasks but finding comfort in the other's presence.
Now, as they walked hand in hand through the paddock in Austin for the USA Grand Prix, Max felt a sense of pride and joy unlike anything he'd experienced before. Having YN by his side at a race weekend, this time as more than just a friend, felt right in a way he couldn't fully express.
"This is incredible, Max," YN breathed, squeezing his hand. "I don't think I'll ever get used to it."
Max grinned, his heart swelling with affection. He loved seeing the paddock through her eyes, rediscovering the magic that he sometimes took for granted.
"Wait until you see the track," he said, pulling her closer. "And the sound when all the cars start up⦠there's nothing like it."
They paused for a moment, watching as a group of mechanics wheeled a set of tires past them. Max took the opportunity to really look at his girl. She was radiant in the sunlight, her hair catching the light and her eyes sparkling with excitement. He couldn't resist leaning in to place a soft kiss on her cheek.
YN turned to him, a playful smile on her lips. "What was that for?"
"Do I need a reason to kiss my girl?" Max replied, his voice low and teasing.
She laughed, the sound music to his ears. "I suppose not. But maybe save some for later? We are in public, after all."
"You're killing me," Max groaned dramatically. "How am I supposed to focus on racing when you look like that?"
"Oh, I'm sure you'll manage," YN teased, patting his chest. "After all, I hear you're quite good at this driving thing."
Their playful banter was interrupted by a familiar voice calling out. "Oi, Verstappen! Finally decided to grace us with your presence?"
Max turned to see Daniel approaching, his trademark grin in place. Lando was close behind, an equally mischievous look on his face.
"Hey guys," Max greeted, unconsciously pulling YN closer. "You remember YN, right?"
"Ah yes," Daniel's grin widened. "Nice to see you again, love."
"It's great to see you too, Daniel," she smiled warmly. "And you, Lando."
Lando's eyes darted between Max and YN, a knowing smirk playing on his lips. "So, Max, finally managed to seal the deal, huh?"
Max felt his cheeks heat up, but before he could respond, YN jumped in.
"Oh, he did more than that," she said, her tone light but with a hint of something that made Max's pulse quicken. "He's been quite⦠impressive."
Daniel let out a low whistle while Lando burst into laughter. Max couldn't help but join in, marveling at how effortlessly YN fit into his world.
As they chatted, Max couldn't keep his hands off YN. He found himself constantly touching her - a hand on the small of her back, playing with her fingers, rubbing her arm softly. Each touch was like a spark, reminding him of their passionate reunions over the past month.
He thought back to their last meeting, just a week ago. He had flown to her place straight after he was done with some meetings in Monaco, exhausted but desperate to see her. The moment he stepped through her door, all fatigue had vanished. They had barely made it to the bedroom, leaving a trail of clothes in their wake. The memory of her skin against his, the taste of her lips, the sound of her gasps and moans⦠it was enough to make him want to whisk her away to his motorhome right now.
Max was pulled from his thoughts by the approach of another familiar face. Charles Leclerc was walking towards them, his trademark charming smile in place.
"Max! Good to see you, man," Charles said, clapping Max on the shoulder before turning his attention to YN. "And who might this lovely lady be?"
Without hesitation, the words tumbled from Max's lips: "This is YN, my girlfriend."
He felt the girl stiffen slightly beside him, and for a moment, panic flared in his chest. Had he overstepped? They hadn't explicitly discussed labels yet. But when he glanced at YN, she was smiling warmly at Charles, her hand still firmly in Max's.
"It's a pleasure to meet you, Charles," YN said, shaking his hand.
Charles raised an eyebrow at Max, a hint of surprise in his expression. "The pleasure is all mine. I hope you're enjoying your time in the paddock."
After exchanging a few more pleasantries, they parted ways. Max led YN towards his driver's room. Once inside the relative privacy of the small space, YN turned to him, a playful glint in her eye.
"Girlfriend, huh?" she said, her tone light but with an undercurrent of something Max couldn't quite identify.
Max felt a flutter of nervousness in his stomach. "Iβ¦ yeah. I mean, if that's okay? I know we haven't really talked about it, butβ¦"
YN stepped closer, her fingers playing with the collar of his shirt. "It's more than okay, Max. I was just surprised. We've been in this beautiful bubble, and hearing you say it out loud⦠it made it feel real in a way it hasn't before."
Max let out a breath he didn't realize he'd been holding. His hands found their way to YN's waist, pulling her closer. "It is real," he said softly. "I've never felt this way about anyone before. Feels like you're everything."
Her eyes softened, her hand coming up to cup his cheek. "You're everything to me too, Max. I love you."
The words hung in the air between them for a moment, both realizing it was the first time either had said it. Then Max surged forward, capturing YN's lips in a kiss that was equal parts tender and passionate.
When they broke apart. Max rested his forehead against YN's, his eyes closed as he savored the moment.
"I love you too," he whispered. "God, YN, I love you so much."
YN's answering smile was radiant and she pulled him in for another kiss.
"So," he said, his voice husky, "ready to watch your boyfriend win a race?"
YN laughed, the sound filling the small space and Max's heart. "Always," she replied. "My misunderstood hero with a heart of gold."
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