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canisalbus · 1 year ago

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I just recently started following you so i don't have the full lore of your murderous gay religiously traumatized doggos, BUT, from my understanding, they are Italian and i don't know what part of Italy they are from, yet i can't help headcanoning Vasco as Tuscan, while Machete is probably from some part of Veneto. And as an Italian who has heard Tuscans and Veneto dialet, well it's an hilarious mental image.

Vasco is indeed Tuscan, Florentine to be specific. He comes from a wealthy and influential noble family that has lived in Florence for centuries. He's proud of his roots, and it's usually easy for strangers to tell where he's from. He's a resonably successful politician and has worked as an ambassador and representative of Florence on numerous occasions.

Machete is originally Sicilian (ironically about as far from Veneto as possible), although he was taken to mainland at young age and has lived in several places since then, before ending up in Rome. The way I see it, he exhibits very little local color, his demeanor and (even though Italian hadn't become a standardized language yet) way of speaking are formal, neutral and scarcely give away any hints about his personal history, at least in the 16th century canon.

#I tend to take the easy way out with the various Italian dialects/languages and temper their effect on how the dog world works #even though to my understanding in reality they differ drastically from each other even today and they aren't always mutually intelligible #especially when you compare northern and southern ones #I know at least Sicilian is so different from modern day Italian it's considered a separate language entirely #it isn't the only one but I'm not a linguist and not even Italian so I'm not really qualified to be explaining any of this to you #main point is that my dogs are well traveled educated and adaptable so I'd like to believe that they manage #otherwise making this whole scenario work would become very complicated #language barriers aplenty #Machete is a fast learner with a natural knack for languages so he absorbs/decodes new ones easily #and I can see him acting as an interpreter if necessary #which is a valuable trait for someone working as the secretary of state I'd imagine #a lot of people he ends up dealing with speak at least passable Latin so at a pinch they might perhaps try switching to that?#Vasco might have a Tuscan flavor but Machete is more of a blank slate (at least in public and at work)#answered #fallenoftheromaempire #feel free to correct me if I've gotten something wrong I'm not an expert and this stuff is complicated for an outsider

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dykedvonte · 2 months ago

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I think the most baffling thing about the Tulpar as a vessel to me is the fact that the ship really did only have a one way communication system.

I know it was cheap but even the most basic of vessels regarding major transport would have some way, shape or form for outside communication. Not only that but there was absolutely no form of innate emergency signal to show they may have been offline or in trouble despite clearly having a system to dock credits if they went off course. It's another factor that really shows that bad situations are made to get worse by design. One person who is required to relay all information to the crew and make all the choices without feedback. No way to update or call for help in case of a dire situation. No way to inform of inner personal conflicts and acquire procedures accordingly.

It really is like they are all in some sort of fucked up solitary confinement. They have their own world with strict roles that are meaningless in the end, as long as the cargo makes it, it doesn't matter what happens on that ship to the company. They don't want to hear anything and will come to conclusions on what happened based on how much pay they can withhold from the workers. Even what they do send is short, sterile and corporate to the extent it was likely written and sent out with a command by some random unmanned computer in an office.

There's something to be said about how unfair it is to force absolute power and control onto one person when you as an entity could do so much more to offload it but I've said it many times before so I won't again.

#its just like idk i dont think Curly was a bad captain because we only have this scenerio and I certainly dont think a man like Swansea #would like him or have very little issues with him specifically if he was incompentent or too lienent in the past but I do think the stress #was making him worse and worse as being a present leader as it dawned on him how much he actually had to handle like I really think he #just wanted to do yknow normal captain pilot stuff and fly the ship and yknow the little stuff like make sure things run right and over tim #the constant stress and strain of having to make every major choice started to grate on him and freak him out cause they cant even fucking #eat unless he pulls out the scanner and starts cooking like he has to choose the meal likely or have a vote and i make that part of the #reason he seems so indecisive and inactive is the fact he has to make the choice all the time and he's hoping he can at least make the crew #feel a little more in control of themselves as people by staying out of affairs like the game or disputes because god he literally has to #choose for them all the time like thats a lot of responsibility monitering their sleep their breaks food consumption thats all on him like #it really should be another persons job entirely as thats almost like absoulte contrl over the lives of everyone else that PE forces onto #that title and its also crazy how everyone accepts it even if they dont like it like they broke the food machine open rather than get the #scanner they all waited two months before Jimmy appointed himself leader its so scary how conditioned they all are to the environemnt #cause that sort of mindset is sadly real where people just wait everyone just waited until it was getting real dire and then they still #followed Jimmy without too many complaints like i saw a fic or post where Anya acknowledges they all kinda just let Jimmy do what they want #because he became the captain and it was stupid on all their parts cause they could clearly see how bad he was and yet he was captain so #they just fell in line to their roles and thats a bigger point towards how PE treated them and the complacency capitalism brings to you #just like something that irks me because idk I know Curly is slow to act but he's not as like unopinionated as people make him out to be #like he does try to find solutions but they are still restricted at the end of the day by what PE provides them and I think his biggest c #crime is being in his own head too much and not giving Anya that emotional stability cause like idk man was he supposed to go to Home Depot #himself and install like padlocks? even if the let Anya sleep in medical after she pointed it out she was already pregnant at that point #like we arent seeing the inherent issue that no one not even Anya herself was thinking of the preventative measures because a)there was a #point nothing was happening that necessitated them b) it would've been the responsibility of PE to address them pre and post incident and c #there is only one person on the entire ship given the authority to do anything. You can not make multiple important choices in one instance #in such little time and Curly should not have had that total power like i think the most interesting thing in takes that really blame Curly #is that level of control they give him over the company. Like again i think about the three days we miss between the eval/party and the #convo/crash like i think people switch them around as if those scenes happen in succession when they are broken up and its heavily implied #Curly and Jimmy just havent been talking vs the depiction that she told him and for like three days Curly was just chummy despite the fact #Jimmy and him just had a blow out fight like the next time we assume they talk is during the crash sequence cause he honestly hangs #around Anya more which i think is really important because she trust Curly to defend her himself but not his judgement to give her somethin #to defend herself as she knows he believes her but also knows she's not seeing the danger the same and its heartbreaking and more

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etoilesombre · 3 months ago

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Chapters: 1/? Fandom: The X-Files Rating: Explicit Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence Relationships: Alex Krycek/Fox Mulder Additional Tags: Angst, Semi Slow Burn, Canon Disabled Character, Aftermath of trauma, Pining, References to Canon Typical Bad Things, Along the lines of alien abduction/torture/medical experimentation, Krycek gets to be in charge for once, his life is still pretty terrible though, set during the first Chechen war, Sexual Tension, The Inherent Eroticism Of Being Beaten By Fox Mulder, Mytharc (X-Files), substance use, additional tags will be added with updates but don't worry they definitely fuck Summary:

Set in vague early season five, sometime between Redux and Patient X. . Mulder chases a case across the world to a secret Russian facility in Chechnya, and right into the hands of Alex Krycek. Krycek has problems of his own, but believes his interests and Mulder's might be aligned. When disaster strikes, they have to rely on each other to survive.

#so uh #its possible that I got reobsessed with one of my very first ever baby pairings #and my hand slipped #i have no idea if there is really any fandom around them these days #but i'm throwing it out here just in case folks are interested #heads up I would say that I have a ... maybe slightly more Mulder critical view than is typical #it was interesting to rewatch the x files coming off black sails #also I am and always have been a massive Krycek apologist but no surprises there #anyway Mulder falls into Krycek's lap and Krycek can't even have fun about it #and eventually they go on an awful survival road trip through the first Chechen war #is this because I feel like making a point about Russian imperialism right now?#PERHAPS #anyway pirate friends I'm not switching fandoms i'm taking a detour #but try it you might like it there is really a lot here for you #amputation trauma and scrappy survivalist paired with arrogant idealist #the x files #x files fanfic #fox mulder #alex krycek #mulder/krycek #my writing

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huldrabitch · 7 months ago

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All the DA2 romances alsmost feel a bit unfullfilling to me, are there many others that prefer Hawke single with the subtext of an unspoken Varric thing?

#Ive romanced everyone save sebastian #with isabela being my first and i think fenris my last #i think all of them are good in a way where it has you knowing the chracters better and getting some really deep sides of them #but i never felt them as too romantic so many of those scene could have been platonic? Like sure theres sex but tbh hawke could just fuck #idk i think i might like anders the most just because of the heavy emotion involved and plot relevance #however nothing feels like it fits perfectly with hawke #fenris was the one that surprised me the most with how much it changed my perception of him i guess because he softens up more with romance #I switch out my saved worlds a lot with da2 whilst dao is mostly on zevran rarely leliana and dai is mostly cullen #I was soooo dissapointed when i played dao and couldnt romance sten lmao i for some reason wanted to get with felix my first dai playthroug #da2 has some of my favourite npcs in the whole franchise but the core group never made me feel to heavily on wanting romance #might have to replay to remember stuff #not a bad thing just a thing which is unfortuate because you get less content when ou dont pick a romance.

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du-hjarta-skulblaka · 3 months ago

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Some mild existential dread in the house today

#im just feeling reeeeally really drained #works taking a LOT out of me #like. it feels less intense day to day? or maybe im reacting less? but its still very much piling up #and im just feeling very...idk. like im still waiting for permission to live my life #except now the permission osnt coming from any one person its. having the money to docit #and the time and the energy #and i guess thats just what adult life is? waiting #and hoping #and along the way losing sight of what i even wanted in the first place because im so *tired*#idk. i definitely need a project of some kind but im struggling to settle on something and then organise it #i have stuff to do today anyway. alfie had a lil bit of emergency cash saved so i need to go shopping #and i need to tidy the kitchen and do some dishes #and have a bath and shave at some point #i also want to draw but again. struggling ti pick something and idk if ill have the executive function spare #AND i want to try and be more social and talk to folks but thats its own kind of difficult #part of me would like a disc server that just has all of my friends in it bc i find it easier to dip in and out of conversarions #but i imagine that would be weird for folks who dont know each other #idk. lot goin through my mind when all i really want is sleep #which also hasnt been...greeeeat lately #mainly because Alfie wakes me up in the mornings bc they dont like being alone but also have a very different sleep schedule to me #and can take multiple smaller naps over a day whereas i really need a solid 8 or so hours or i just. dont fully switch on #but theyre also struggling atm (mentally and also they got an injury at work AND seperately broke their foot ffs)#so they need me more and its just #this never ending cycle of SOMETHING needs my attention #and its fucking exhausting asfghfkd #but!!! we keep goin!!!!! been applying for a bunch of jobs and havent heard anything positive yet but. we keep tryin huh

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creativity-deficient · 6 months ago

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Soooo what are y’all’s hcs on the Tweak family 🤔🤔🤔

#lowkey I like to hc it as a generational trauma type of thing for Mr Tweak #I feel like Richard was a LOT like Tweek when he was little #very anxious and unsure of himself #he mentions in the gnomes episode I believe that his business has been going on 30 years #and was passed down to him by his father by his father before him #growing up I think that he too was given a lot of this coffee by his father #and over the years he was conditioned and manipulated into accepting this as the norm #in hopes that he would one day take over the business #when he was finally old enough his father shared the family recipe with him and at that point he had pretty much been brainwashed #I think he sees a lot of his younger self in tweek which is why he’s so condescending towards him and so determined to steer him down the #same path. Repeating the cycle and all that #and when Tweek is old enough he plans on sharing the family’s secret as his father did with him #MRS Tweak on the other hand is an interesting one #we know so little about her but I feel like her personality also says a lot about her #she’s definitely better than Mr Tweak but she’s still very complacent and neglectful #I think what stands out to me the most about her though is the way her personality can completely switch up at times #most of the time she has this eerily calm almost docile personality #but other times she’s a LOT more attentive and caring #yk like a normal mom #COMPLETELY different from how she usually acts #but the episode that gets me the most is “Gnomes #where she actively goes against Richard’s attempt to manipulate the kids and use them for business ventures #yet this is the same mom that actively poisons her son? presumably for the business??#like it doesn’t make sense to me #I’ve seen someone suggest that Richard has been drugging her too #and BOY would that be a twist #definitely would explain the sudden shift in personality #i definitely think it would be interesting if she was in the dark about a lot of this too #not using this as an excuse as I still do think she is SOMEWHAT negligent on her own but I do think it could explain some things #south park

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suffercerebral · 8 months ago

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me having gone to bed at 6 am every day for the past week and generally spiraling mentally while rotting in bed waking up this morning: a 4 mile hike in the heat is a really good idea right now, and while we're at it let's start like 3 art projects

#maybe my mom was onto something all these years telling me i'm bipolar #no i don't think i am but i do technically have a bpd diagnosis so like. mood swings up the fucking wazoo are not new #but i am not one to be like 'exercise will fix me'#i've also just come to terms recently with the fact that i didn't kill myself already so might as well start thinking of the long term #so not being in constant pain when im older is something im actually thinking of now #so like. gotta move more which i was doing during this semester! walking like 3 miles a day which didn't help brain but #it's gotta be good for you anyway even if i don't get the endorphins everyone says you get when working out #that's neverrrr been me bc also chronic illness w exercise intolerance #so it's like. wah i have a desire to move my body more and know it's beneficial #but chronic illness + mental illness + trying not to think about exercise in terms of weight loss bc i'm trying not to make that the goal #although certainly wouldn't be mad if that was the result but if i prioritize it over just overall health it's gonna make me obsessive #i'm saying a lot of words. i have no one to really talk to so i once again come to tumblr as a public diary #ANYWAY. trying to find balance with wanting to exercise for overall well-being but dealing with other factors like chronic illness #which has actually been under the most control it's been in years i barely even consider myself (physicslly) disabled these days #and also balancing the fact that while my disordered eating has never recovered and i still have extremely bad relationship with myself #im in a relatively better place with that. i'm not starving myself and im not going through binge/purge cycles #but my relationship with food and eating is still very much unhealthy #and i don't think that will ever really change bc it's so ingrained in the everything about me #i don't really know what i'm talking ahout anymore or what prompted this #i can't simply just say 'i'm gonna go for a hike today' and be normal about. always gotta psycho analyze myself #im in a very weird stage in my life where i feel like i have control over nothing and i barely even exist in my own body #im just like a cacophony of voices trapped inside a meat suit but im not in the drivers seat im stuffed in the trunk and tied up #and the guy driving is an old blind mind who should have lost his license his ass is NOT road safe!#so it's like i have all these ideas and desires and feelings and ahh!! but hey i'm locked up here let me out please #and also the state of the world. so bleak and hopeless and paralyzing that i've just kind of shut my feelings off so i'm rapidly switching #between numbness and overwhelming agony #what the fuck am i talking about

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friend-of-a-cat · 4 months ago

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The Gender Crisis™ is still Gender Crisising™ but I don't have time for that right now lmao.

#my ramblings #considering genderfluid to be honest but i also still don't know if i want to label it lol #it's hard because i literally cannot pinpoint it and sometimes i get overwhelming feelings that switch so often that they confuse me so idk #like i fully don't know if i don't feel gender at all and am sometimes attatched to presenting myself different ways void of gender #or if i only don't feel gender sometimes and the other times i do feel gender #lol idk #to be honest sometimes i do feel a strong pull to different genders and then the next day i'm repulsed by the thought of it #and then two weeks later i'm back in the fucking building and then i'm like oh okay #and it's becoming a pattern now so i could very well be genderfluid lmaoooo #but i still don't knowwwww #because i still feel very agender a lot of the time #and then sometimes i'm like no wtf i'm a woman #and then other times i'm like no wtf i am not a woman #and then sometimes i'm like what if i woke up as a guy tomorrow huh wouldn't that be so great actually #and then three hours later i'm like no wtf i am not a guy #and then sometimes i'm like oh well i'm certainly a gender #yep #don't know which one though #and then i'm like nah i'm just a woman #and the cycle continues #bro if i am genderfluid i switch so often that it's honestly annoying but also kind of funny #anyway thanks for coming to my ted talk

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dizzybizz · 2 years ago

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a wuhwuh that took way too long bc i decided to try krita and i was so lost the entire time

#i feel like i spent more time trying to find my way around than actually drawing and thats probably correct.#couldnt be arsed to fully render this one RIP #trigun #nicholas d. wolfwood #trigun fanart #my art #me throughout the entire process: wuh??? wuh.......?? WUH??!????????#krita is so confusing...... why is it like that.... didnt help that i switched language in the middle of it bc english was different than #what im used to for art programs but then everything was different and i could barely locate the blending modes i wanted and #it was a whole mess #i like some of the brushes a lot tho #i feel so exhausted after that #i could sleep for 24h #im like sluggishly working my way through the manga atm #started it AND the 98 series AND stampede on the same day bc apparently i hate myself like that #i havent been keeping up with stampede since?? ep9??? i think???

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phagodyke · 2 months ago

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2nd hearing test today and it looks normal thank FUCKKK. well ofc I'm still deaf, normal For Me

#actually idr if i mentioned it on here before i think i typed a rant and then closed the app before i hit post #but basically just a jumpscare my last audio tone graph came out Bad and they were like aw fuck youve lost a lot more hearing #which is WORRYING bc my deafness is sensorineural ie. from auditory nerve/brain damage not physical damage #so if it was suddenly getting worse well nothing they can rly do to figure out WHY its getting worse let alone try to fix it #but nah second test came out pretty much the same as usual. i think maybe bc i did the other one at the end of the day instead of early #morning maybe my auditory processing was just worse or smth it happens lol #well anyway they took fresh moulds so should be able to replace my 3 year old ones in a few weeks yayy #and im on the waiting list for new hearing aids with them too...and once i get them i can get an accessory to hook em to bluetooth #altho the nhs prolly wont cover it. but access to work should do if it comes to that 👍#my life is gonna get so much fucking easier when i can tune them into shit instead of switching them for super loud earphones #anyway gotta get my ass to work now blegh. always feels weird having my workday routine broken up #.diaries

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captain-lovelace · 8 months ago

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#Watching ‘egg discourse’ go around frustrates me. Not even fully certain what the current round is about but. Augh.#Especially seeing a lot of transmascs get worked up about it #Like. 1. Reacting so violently and negatively to what is in reality a harmless comment by a trans woman is being #transmisogynistic #2. You get on trans women’s asses for ‘assuming’ genders but you are ALSO assuming someone’s gender. You are assuming they’re a cis man.#3. As one of my mutuals said very well: ‘misgendering’ a cis person does not carry the violent connotations of misgendering a trans person #And 4 and this one is transmasc specific: If you are reacting like this because a switch has flipped #in your brain and is saying ‘this is a sign that no matter what I do I can be seen as a Secret Girl’. Turn that switch back off.#Just because you feel uncomfortable or unsafe doesn’t mean you are #Versus the trans women who are ACTUALLY unsafe right now because they’re being harassed. This is a You Problem.#And it’s also not what’s happening #You are not being misgendered! You are not in danger of being misgendered!#and you know what? One day another queer person may in fact mistake you for a trans woman! It is not that big of a deal.#This has happened to me! It was fine! It was honestly a compliment in some ways! It is easily clarified!#Calm the fuck down! You are not in danger! No one is in danger!#It is not such an awful thing to be mistaken for a trans woman #YOU need to work on that. It’s on YOU to interrogate your discomfort.

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yuukimiyas · 1 month ago

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GOOD MORNIE EVERYBUN!! ☆૮꒰ˊᗜˋ* ꒱ა SANTAS COMIN TONIGHT!!! eeep!! im so excited!! ٩(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )و im seein sm fam tmrw & im gonna have ALL the winter treats!! hehee don’t forget to leave a lil plate out for santa!! :3 i hope this holiday season treated you so kindly & if not don’t fret!! bc you ALWAYS have a home right here in the city!! (◍´꒳`(´꒳`◍ ) ♡ happy holidays my loves!! <33

#ᕱ⑅ᕱ.* journals!#hiiii!! *⸜( * ॑꒳ ॑*)⸝* happy holidays & merry xmas to all who celebrate!! woo!! we made it!! were almost to a brand new yr!!#the city is all lit up & sparklin w sm lights & the BIGGEST tree in the town square!! - ̗̀ෆ(˶'ᵕ'˶)ෆ ̖́- all for youuuu!! <33 #this past wk has been kickin my butt ໒꒰ྀི𖦹﹏𖦹꒱ྀི১ you guys know the holidays in retail oh boyyyyy #i’ll be queuein up my lil tree in case anyone wants to leave a lil ornament!! i feel like ive missed sm this yr :’<#i’ve been a v busy bun but im hopin 2025 will be super good!! & give me lots more time on here!!#some of my rb’s never happened for some reason ??? so you might see me reblog some fics again !!! i gotta support all my bbys!!!#i’m wrkin a lil baby shift today & im bringing my switch to play some anch w my cowrkr!! (∩ˊᵕˋ∩)･* hehee!!#HAVE THE GREATEST DAY IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD!! 𓂃 𓍄 𓄽𓇬𓈒 MWAH MWAH!!

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hawkzeyes · 1 year ago

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#I always wonder like is my blog too chaotic cause one day I’ll literally switch up between like 3-4 comics a day depending on how I feel #and that’s gotta be like… a lot to follow for yall 💀#and then some days it’s crickets #hawkzeyes

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daz4i · 1 year ago

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how and why is there discourse about whether or not certain queer identities exist/if people should be allowed(???) to use them. why is "people know their own identity better than you ever could, and they're the only one who get a say on what they are" such a tough concept to grasp

i think if you find yourself offended by the label someone uses (especially if they're a stranger) or think it invalidates your own, it's a good idea to look inside yourself and question why that may be. more often than not, it's a result of insecurity or uncertainty of your own identity (or many other things, but i won't make a whole list here). whatever reason it is, until you resolve it, you shouldn't take it out on people for having an identity you don't understand

many have said it before but it's worth saying over and over. infighting only helps our oppressors. conservatives don't care if you're a cis gay or a xenogender aegosexual aplatonic lesbian, they hate all of us either way. trying to fit in by going for people who are easier targets for them isn't gonna help you, it'll just alienate you from your own community, and you're never gonna please them. the momentary rush you get from hearing you're not like "one of /those/ gay people" is not worth it and is gonna do more harm in the long run, i assure you

also, it is important to me to say this, but having some less than nice kneejerk reaction caused by confusion about an identity you don't understand doesn't mean you're a bad person or anything. as long as you aren't mean to that person, and you take a second to think smth along the lines of "wait a minute, this isn't any of my business" after having said reaction, you're good 👍 a lot of reflexive reactions we have to things are ingrained into us simply by. well. living in a society 🤡 and you're not terrible for having those thoughts. it's your actions that matter, and your second thought (the "wait, why did i just think that?") is more defining of your actual character and morals than your reflex. i know that having thoughts like this, even tho they're unwanted, can very easily make one spiral, so it's important to me that whoever needs to hear this knows this doesn't make you a bad person 🙏 you're good, keep taking actions to be good, accept other people even if you don't understand them, and you're on the right track :)

#i considered adding that last part in the tags but i figured it'll be too long for that 😭#i noticed i'm posting a lot of rants lately. sorry. but i do wanna make sure no one's actually feeling bad over them #if i complain about something that you do or call it mean and such. that doesn't make you a bad person #you can always work to change and grow 👍 it's not easy but it starts with smaller steps than you'd expect #and now i just switched to a whole other topic from my original point. oops #i do firmly believe that any discourse about someone's identity is dumb as fuck #seeing it in poll blogs always makes me 😐😬 like how is it any business for any of us. why is this up for debate #if a person says they're queer then they are. they don't need to pass some test or go through initiation to be accepted #if they feel comfortable with a certain word that's awesome. why does it matter to *you* which word they use #'they're only using this microlabel to feel special' so? is there anything wrong with that?#'this label contradicts [insert other identity that falls under the same umbrella]' ok. but does that hurt anyone in any way #a lot of identities can even be self contradictory. does it matter tho? does it affect anyone in any way?#'they might realize that label is wrong later' again. what's the harm in that.#i don't blame anyone for these thoughts bc like. this is how cishets view a lot of the even more common labels #so you're basically taught to think this way from day one. that doesn't mean you need to stick to that thought process #you might have these reflexes forever no matter how hard you try. but you'll get quicker about moving on from them #but you do have to try. you do have to realize that other people's identities aren't about you #anyway. this post feels like batting at a hornets nest. really hope i don't get some bad faith readers here lol #(i noticed a lot of places one could apply bad faith but like it's 3:30 am i'm too tired to add this many disclaimer.#so i'm gonna trust you to not jump to conclusions and to approach this in good faith okay? mwah 🖤)#also my whole ramble abt morality (in the tags too) is relevant to. any topic really #i may just make a separate post about it really. .....tomorrow tho.

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thethingything · 5 months ago

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I'm used to migraines causing weird symptoms and I'm used to getting pretty bad nausea with them but what the fuck is going on with us randomly getting chills and occasionally just getting hit with very sudden very intense nausea that leads to me dry heaving for like 5 minutes for no fucking reason?

we also got the kind of prodrome symptoms that usually mean we're about to get the kind of migraine where all we can do is lay down in the dark because it completely wipes us out, but instead we've had 2 of the typical migraines we'd get maybe every few days in autumn, and what we initially interpreted as prodrome symptoms have just continued the entire time, plus we've had the weird sudden nausea and whatnot and I have no idea what the fuck is going on at this point

#personal #thoughts #🍬 post #vent post #posts made on pain meds #emetophobia tw #I swear sometimes our body just randomly switches shit up when it comes to our migraine symptoms #but at the same time the specific prodrome symptoms we got are usually a very reliable indicator that we're absolutely fucked #and on the one hand I'm like ''oh cool it ended up not being as bad''#but on the other hand I'm like ''what if it's just a longer prodrome and the really bad one is gonna hit us later''#and if that doesn't happen then thank fuck but at the same time it would mean not having that reliable way of predicting it anymore #I have a lot of complicated feelings about it I guess #I like being able to predict the migraines because then I can kind of plan our day around knowing that's gonna happen #but sitting there knowing you're gonna be in severe pain in 12-24 hours is a shitty experience

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lucifer · 1 year ago

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I’ve legitimately had a rotten day today. :(

#it’ll get better probably but I’ve been close to tears all day and I’m not really a crying person #never cry ever but today has made me want to pull my hair out!#I wake up late for work and then I go to close the door to my kitchen and the HANDLE falls off #had to move everything from my living room to the kitchen because there are workers fixing a part of the wall #forgot my headphones #get to work and my manager just randomly decided to switch everyone’s seats for the fun ig but like #I have issues with change and routine and blah blah also he sat me next to a dude that makes me uncomfortable #so I asked to move and then we had to move all the pcs around and all the cables were messed up #chest hurts my asthma is acting up and I still don’t have an inhaler #got into a fight with my bf over something stupid and almost cried in public #(all is well it was a silly fight)#didn’t get to get the hot chocolate I wanted because I was upset over said fight and just walked back to work #I go to get lunch and the place closed early somehow when they never do that #I am almost completely broke #get home to relax and the workers are STILL HERE even though they were supposed to be finished hours ago #it’s all a lot of silly small things but I do feel as if the world is against me today #bf is going to buy me pizza for dinner and also I have a rp reply from Simon I can distract myself with so all will be well soon!!!!

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