#extremely traumatized and mentally ill

[days-in-reality]

I just wanna disappear but because my nan spent her retirement years raising me I owe it to her to stick around otherwise I'd be out of here and no one in my family would hear from me again (besides my sister) and I can only imagine how peaceful it will be how much stress will melt away without those attachments and I wouldn't feel bad cause I'm 100000 miles away

[silusvesuius]

N*loth is literally prime NPD representation and that's just how it is. Dat's just how i feel . if iiiiiii hear anyhing ab him needing to be humbled or put in his place i'll just tear my hair out right here and match his look. not even trying to lift him up or defend him i'm just defending the mentally ill skajrim characters nobody wants to understand,

[prolibytherium]

'Scary' mental illness allyship ultrahard mode: Being like, okay with the fact that some people experience violent impulses as a symptom (ie actual impulses/fixations on inflicting harm as an exaggerated emotional response to stressors) and accepting that people are not evil monsters etc for experiencing this

[clusterb-itch]

me irl 24 fucking 7 anymore

[bunnihearted]

hmm i like actually wanna kms

[solvicrafts]

What gets me about certain people being so fucking pissy about Bob not writing much about Eilistraee (until the last fucking trilogy where EIlistraeans featured heavily) is that

a) Bob basically built drow culture up from almost nothing, and Eilistraee came after he started writing Drizzt

b) no you guys really don't understand. I own the first 4 modules drow appeared in. There's... not much there. And it hasn't aged well.

c) and the Big One: he has a specific vision for his specific characters when it comes to the narrative he wants to explore, from sexual abuse to religious trauma, both of which are fucking complicated and for most people just switching deities isn't enough to fix that.

I have religious trauma that I still struggle with to this day and probably will for the rest of my life to some extent, and it's fundamentally different in nature from what most people would probably expect, and the thing is even though I am happily polytheistic and very enthusiastically into it, I still struggle a lot with certain things because every time I get into my religious practice I have to actively force myself into (or out of) certain things because my whole relationship to religion and spirituality is complicated and messy.

It would be easy and frankly incredibly superficial for Bob to decide to just have them all convert to half-assed Neowiccan ~woo~ drow Jesus Eilistraee to *~*save their souls*~* and call it a day

BUT HE DIDN'T DO THAT

Partly because she wasn't his creation and other authors were writing her at the time so he really couldn't, and partly because it's a shitty message to send.

Sometimes people benefit from converting to a new religion or following a new deity. Sometimes people don't.

I benefited from gradually converting to my religion, but it's come with a whole different set of complications and hasn't been a smooth journey for me.

Just going from extensive religious trauma to switching deities does not fix your problems, and for a lot of people it realistically can make them much worse.

but also

you don't have to be saved by a deity in order to have value as a person

[insanecreetur]

No no no..

Please no.

Why did I fucking do that

[transgenderfivepebbles]

i understand what netsod nation was on about now. thank you netsod nation

[the-moogle-of-your-nightmares]

things that fill me with rage: people who spend hours and hours and hours camped out in the main central parts of the house which you need access to in peace by yourself for like 20-30 minutes just to do basic selfcare--let alone actual sanity time outside your room--every single day from before you wake up in the morning until at best the last few hours of your day, where any energy you had is gone and you're having to recover/catch back up from a day trapped in your room with no selfcare

things that fill me with enough rage to blow up the sun: people who do this and every now and then fake you out by going Somewhere the Fuck Else for literally just long enough for you to hustle out of your room--or even start to--before SIKE they come right back through and start camping A G A I N. this time while you are probably trapped outside your room until the thing is done, and/or it'll be Rude to very obviously turn around and leave to avoid them. which they WILL inevitably take offense at. 🙃🙃🙃🙃

[caffeinatedopossum]

I went grocery shopping today and realized just how much stronger I've gotten since pre-recovery and now I suddenly don't wanna relapse

[musical-chick-13]

*sigh* I wish I didn't have so much weird baggage around my birthday.

[50000bears]

My gp said that I almost without a doubt have cptsd but that it's not possible for me to get diagnosed or receive treatment because the healthcare system and I are both broke 🙃

[pepprs]

all is not well in waffletown

[cr3]

I had to look up what NPD was after seeing it on the Mollymauk post, and… seeing people saying that being a narcissist is a personality disorder that makes them disabled and in need of aid and THEY’RE the victims when really they’re just being self-indulgent assholes? y i k e s, now I’ve seen the side of tumblr the rest of the internet is always ridiculing as ridiculous and truly awful

I'm not sure how you expect me to respond, anon. I don't know what you looked up, but here's quotes from the DSM-V:

There's a difference between narcissism as we know it culturally and narcissism as a disorder.

Same point as above:

+ causes

I can't even tell you to do further research because of how heavily stigmatized this and other personality disorders are. There's a reason doctors will sometimes tell you not to search up your disorder online. The hatred online towards them is so severe, it's antithetical to treatment.

So, no, this disorder is not just someone being self-indulgent. It's a real disorder with real causes, and it's not up to you to decide what qualifies as a disability and what doesn't.

I'd ask you show a little more sympathy towards mentally ill people, even those you don't personally like.

Mentally ill people deserve respect and care regardless of whether or not they have socially acceptable symptoms.

[bbyboybucket]

I wish my life didn’t fucking SUCK like I get handed the shit end of the stick in every aspect

[archduke-enver-gortash]

had to be a piece of shit to sosiel after this😭 i’m sorry but ollie sees this a massive spit in his face especially considering this is a shelynite calling a lamashtu worshipper beautiful… he would knock his teeth out for this