#excrutiatingly painful

[the-siphonophore]

Rant Incoming, cw: talking abt being sick

Damn folks I feel young again (laying miserably awake at 3am bc of aggressive amounts of nausea, but I literally can't throw up again bc my muscles are so tired and sore from the other 11 times, and there's hardly anything left to expell except my organs themselves. So I'm just listening to music and reading things against my will at THREE IN THE FUCKING MORNING) i'm so sane I'm so sane I swear

[boycritter]

don't want to take a bath bc warm water will make me dizzy don't want to shower bc standing will make me dizzy but if my hair gets any greasier theyre gonna needto call in the national guard

[thethingything]

I think we have a cavity forming on yet another tooth but unfortunately it's been nearly a year and even just thinking about dentist appointments is enough to make us dissociate heavily and start getting painfully tense so I do not fucking know what to do.

I want to get this stuff fixed but we may have to go private for it which would be expensive as hell if we can even make it through an appointment and I'm terrified that whatever treatment we get might just cause more issues because that's what's happened every time we've had dental treatment in the last 5 years

[pretend-pretend-vampire]

character concepts: The Worst Sires On The Planet

hairdresser who gives the most awful haircuts imaginable before they Embrace people

tattoo artist who gives embarrassing tattoos before they Embrace people

[dirt-str1der]

Kiryu is so a guy who gets his lung punctured then starts snorting and snuffling like a pug because he cant breathe... so cute ...

[sapotillam]

so good omens fandom.

how.

how we doing.

[frog-wash]

the brain is truly an awful thing sometimes

[fernandamaya]

Violent Softness . 2024 I owed Shenhe a fanart! I had started one a few months ago but i abandoned it bc i didnt really like how it was looking (also bc drawing genshin designs is excrutiatingly painful and my mind refused to do it lmao). I started this this week and decided to not render it too much so i wouldnt feel overwhelmed by it. Really really liked the end result :') Let me know if you'd like me to upload it to inprnt for prints! :)

[geekylux]

#kaevember Day 2: adult / old age

Kaeya walked along the path behind the cathedral that led to the graveyard, quietly and slowly. Even if this moment felt excrutiatingly painful, he couldn't find it in himself to stop this habit he began all those years ago.

He finally stopped at the sight of two graves that had Ragnvindr etched on them. Kaeya lost his stepfather, crepus, as well as his dearest brother, not sure if diluc ever consented to calling him that after that fateful night. "You probably don't want to see me come here every day, but i can't help it." He chuckled softly to himself. "But i still miss you both terribly." He spoke as he felt his chest tighten. "Whether you believe me or not, you always have, and will be my brother, luc. The stillness in the air only made his words feel heavier. I only wish you didn't storm off, only to come back to me like this. " The memories of seeing diluc laying lifeless in front of him flashed in his mind. "Maybe in another life -" he stopped himself for a moment before continuing. "You'll let me be your brother again."

Kaeya walked away, his figure dissappearing into the dark as the lampgrass he left at his brother's grave shone softly.

[arelenforyadarlin]

WHAT. THE. ACTUAL. FUCK. I hope they die, I am not sorry i wish death upon them because they dont care about the thousand lives being lost, they only fucking care about the land?!?! what type of fucking monsters are they?!

[teatitty]

So badly want a Bumblebee design where he looks like an actual bug. Give him long antenna that lay back against his helmet normally but stand up when he's alert and are super emotive, with blinking lights on them, and actual gossamer metal wings patterned with visible circuitry all over [like a computer chip!] so he can just zip around everyone's heads and through trees and annoy the fuck outta Starscream whenever they're in a fight

And because the wings have exposed circuitry they're very sensitive to touch which can be great for >:3 pleasant reasons and on the double edged side excrutiatingly painful if they ever get shot, torn, burned etc

[thethingything]

we have been hit with the Curse of Wisdom Tooth Pain and ended up with the worst migraine we've had in months and spent most of the last 24 hours trying not to throw up and the pain wakes us up after an hour or two every time we try to sleep

[astersugar]

ahhh i was just talking about this with my friend the other day! i hadnt considered it in terms of the manga so this is a scary perspective that i hope never comes to pass. it's such a good story, i'd hate for it to have never fuckin ends at its own expense syndrome 😭

but i was thinking about the anime and how it's about 60% of the way through the manga (i cant recall if that's still accurate as of the last episode/chapter but the point is: pretty dang far) and how long we might have to wait for a new season, IF we get a new season (i know i know it's making a lot of money so it feels unlikely we won't but sometimes i swear it feels like the anime industry hates money and never picks shows back up so i really dont want to get my hopes up and start believing new seasons are a guarantee). anyways, the possibility came up that they might just make Actual Filler episodes in the meantime bc it makes so much money and to keep the hype up. i dont know how common such things are nowadays so i could be making up things to be scared about (and season 2 being 12 episodes is a good sign that they dont want to catch up to or overtake the manga) but ahh. what u said happened to detective conan reminded me of this conversation. i really hope neither happens, spy x family and endo deserve better than that 😔

random thought about SxF from a former DCMK fan POV

While we had our lunchbreak a few hours ago, my friend sent me the promo-poster for the new Detective Conan movie, because she knows I (used to) like Kaitou Kid and the new one seems to have Kid in it. I can only thought "huh? again? another one already?" and that was it, no care whatsoever.

But... it reminds me about the feeling I got when I saw the SxF movie trailers.

Happy for new content? Absolutely, this movie means Endo-sensei gets all the clout he deserves. Eager to see it when it's available? Hmm, sure. Feeling that this movie will be a masterpiece and will set a new milestone for the series as a whole? Err... to be honest? no.

This may be an unpopular opinion, but upon watching the trailers, what I felt was not high hopes as the hype intended but a subtle sense of dread. It gave off such a big "Conan movie" vibe in my mind: an original action-heavy flick, with a handful dramas, which most likely will have no impact to the plot at all, just adding in as spice to stir up the fans, literally a cash-grab blockbuster of the anime industry.

Furthermore, the problem isn't simply with only the movie. SxF has become The Cash Cow(TM), that's a fact. It has the potential to become another legend like Detective Conan, to be honest. But is it worth celebrating?

Gosho-sensei, author of Conan, used to plan for the manga to end at 20+ volumns (same as Endo-sensei, according to the guide book). But it was such a big hit in the 90s that it still goes on until now, with no ending in sight. In fact, this year Conan will celebrate the 30th anniversary of its serialization. The plot of the manga was stretched out so thin that it's not much different from plain water at this point. Most of the longtime fans I know have dropped it and are just waiting for the announcement of the ending.

It makes me wonder, is this the future awaiting for SxF too? Only time can tell. I certainly hope that this is simply just my paranoia talking nonsense.

From the bottom of my heart, I really hope Endo-sensei not only could do the best for his series, but also have the will and power to resist outside influences that could drag his creations into the mud.

That's all. Thank you for reading my ramblings.

TL;DR. I really really really don't want SxF to become another Conan.

[theivorybilledwoodpecker]

@hunterbidens-crackpipe

Having a child when one wants one is not horrible. Being forced to have one is. But then you knew that.

Abortion doesn't murder children. You also know fetuses/embryos/zygotes aren't children. But you forced birthers like to play dumb.

You know who are children? The 10-year-old from Ohio forced birthers said should have been forced to give birth. The 15-year-old from Florida who was raped and had to flee the state for an abortion. The 16-year-old from Ohio who was sentenced to parenthood.

You know who was a child? Milo Dorbert. He didn't have to be, but you cunts demanded it.

Deborah Dorbert knew that if he was born, he would live a short, painful life. He had no kidneys. His lungs were underdeveloped. She wanted an abortion to prevent his pain, but she was denied one.

So she gave birth to Milo. He lived 99 minutes. As his parents watched him die, he made hiccupping sounds. They soon realized that was him struggling to breathe.

Had Deborah been allowed an abortion, Milo would never have known that pain. But forced birthers wanted to force Deborah to give birth. They wanted him to live an excrutiatingly painful and terrifying 99 minutes, fully conscious.

You talk of children, but all you care about are fetuses. Actual children are breeding stock to you.

I hope every forced birther takes your crack pipe and shoves it up their ass with no lube.

[feyascorner]

I’m gonna be so fr I don’t think tfbu astarion and tav could recover from that because that was ROUGH- they both said shit that cannot be undone but at this point it couldn’t possibly get any worse 😍😍 hopefully one of them dies at the end so the other can get some rest and relaxation

I dug myself into a hole because there really is SO much to go through to even see a speck of what they used to be like…even if they do reconcile it’ll be a while before things are actually normal??..and then there's also the thing w him being unable to go out in the sun 😭 IT’S JUST SUCH A DUMPSTER FIRE THEYRE A MESS

anon I'm going to be 100% honest I have literally everything planned out EXCEPT the ending. There are two routes I am deciding between right now!!! And I'm a sucker for excrutiatingly painful endings though so don't tempt me…

[wuffgang-ameowdeus-moozart]

A slightly less average day in Family Video

A girl with shoulder length blond hair and a huge stack of tapes goes to the counter. Steve, who had wrongly assumed that Robin could handle herself for ten minutes, tries to intervene. It is in vain. He is aware that it is in vain, even as he sprints towards them. Tapes clatter behind him on the floor. Unfortunately the noise is not enough to dissuade the innocent customer, who barely even pauses on her way to the ticking time bomb that is Robin Buckley.

He feels like in a movie, everything around him suddenly moving in an excrutiatingly slow pace. He is the only one who can see the incoming disaster, and yet there is nothing he can do but watch. Watch as Robin's lips twitch - not in the fun "I actually find your stupid joke hilarious but I refuse to laugh because it is so stupid and beneath me" way, but the decidedly more concerning "I am uncomfortable and overwhelmed someone get me out of this situation please". Watch as her nostrils start to flare in that particular way that means she is trying really hard not to burst into tears.

Oh dear.

Needless to say, the blonde does not take any of the tapes home with her. Steve watches in envy as she exits the shop. Ah, to be a free spirit, able to escape his soulmate's laments with no guilt or remorse or consequences. But alas, he has been cursed with a bleeding heart, a guilt complex the size of Indiana and a useless lesbian. And so, instead of doing the reasonable thing and escaping this hellscape, he goes towards the explosive variable. Dingus indeed.

"Hey, how about we take a break, huh?" Steve tries to recalls the rules about approaching wild animals - Dustin had a phase when he first got Dart. No loud noises. No sudden movements. Slow and steady. Take everything at the anima- at Robin's pace. (He'll have to tell her that one when she is less upset. She was literally named after a bird, so drunk on exhaustion Robin will find it absolutely and disproportinately hilarious)

He physically recoils when he catches a glimpse of Blondie's would-be haul. Dirty Dancing. The Princess Bride. Purple Rose of Cairo. Of all the days for a romcom movie night. At least Steve can rest assured that he isn't God's only favorite chewtoy. Isn't that what it means to be soulmates, after all? Doomed by forces beyond your comprehension together?

Steve looks at the evergrowing stack left behind on the counter (only one person managed to actually rent out the movies, and that was when Steve had sent Robin to her third break in two hours), the three movies still laying on the floor (please no one step on them please no one step on them by the love of god please nobody step on them) and prays nobody checks the security footage today as he leads Robin to what must be her sixth break. The shift is barely halfway over.

Now, Steve is neither a lesbian (he looks at boys a tad too long to only be interested in girls) nor a high school student (class '85 baby!). However, he is the unfortunate resident of a nosy and boring small town (seriously, fuck Hawkins), very aware of how draining it is to have to keep a big secret in said nosy and boring small town (if you think about it, are a person's sexuality and flesh-devouring monsters from a different dimension truly that different?), and has also morphed into one eldritch agglomeration with his bestest most favorite person of all times (Mike's words. Apparently the way he and Robin can read each other's minds is "freaky" or something), so he is very aware and sympathetic of their struggles and beliefs.

Such as this: the list of people you can cry on when your not-quite-girlfriend-but-definitely-something-more-than-friends-you-are-maybe-kind-of-in-love-with suddenly breaks it off is remarkably shorter than if said person was a boy. In Robin's case, the list is exactly one person long. Well, technically two, but it would be very awkward and painful to sob on the person who is the reason for your tears.

"It's s-s-so. So ssssstupid. I mean we were-weren't even a-an-any-anything. I don't know why I'm so u-up-up-p-p-pset"

Steve nods and rubs her back. He hopes his expression is as sympathetic and righteously mad on her behalf as the first time he heard the story.

"We used to kiss und-d-d-der the bleachers. The same b-b-b-bleachers we face whenevvvvvvver we p-p-p-practic-ssss-e in band. How am I sup-p-p-p-pposed to look at those stupid fucking b-b-b-leachers without thinking about her lips and her leeeegs and-"

"Such stupid bleachers", Steve dutifully agrees. He wonders whether one of the kids can maybe hack into the CCTV to delete the footage? Surely they can't be fired without any hard evidence, right? The last thing Robin needs right now is the inevitable stress that comes with job hunting.

"Howwww- how do you d-d-deal with it?!"

It takes a moment of Robin staring at him expectantly before he realizes that she went off-script and he is expected to actually answer her question. You know, like a proper sympathetic best friend and soulmate is supposed to act.

"How do I deal with what?"

"With the b-b-b-break-k-k-kkkk-kups? Me and her weeeeeeren't even-"

"Your emotions are valid" Steve shamelessly steals Robin's go-to saying whenever he is unreasonably upset about something stupid. She hits him, which is fair. Maybe he was being a little bit mocking about it. Sue him.

"It's like-", he pauses, searching for a more tactful way to say it. But then again, he has never been great at expressing himself and Robin always gets him anyways, so he just goes for it. "I mean. It's not like anyone is really upset after a breakup you know."

Robin blinks. Once. Twice.

"Wwww-wh-what?"

"I mean. You explained it to me. Sexism and all that shit. If a girl isn't upset and stuff she's called a slut. Boys don't have that, and they seem to always be fine. I mean, Tommy P. was making out with Alicia literally the same day he got dumped by Sarah. It's all just about peacocking and status and all that stupid stuff."

Maybe he was overestimating Robin's telepathic abilities, because she looks even more confused. "Sssso you just got together with all those girls because. What. It-t-tt was expect-ted of youuu?!"

Maybe Steve's own telepathic abilities are also failing him because like. Obviously?! What's the hang-up?

"So you decided yourrrrr girrrrrrrrrrlfriends based on what-t? Whether they were cheeeeeeer-cheerleaders?!"

"I mean. That's what everyone did, isn't it? Expectarions and all that crap." Steve starts wondering if maybe Robin has something stuck in her eye. "Like, of course I wouldn't start anything with someone if I didn't like them as a person. But the girls were cute, and making out is fun, and I like hanging out with them so like, why not. If it got boring after a while I just broke it off, no harm no foul."

"SSSSO YOU SST-sss-STAYED TOGETHER WITH HER UNTIL YOU FOUND A SHINIER NEW T-T-T-TOYYY?!"

"Hey, you don't need to say it like that. It's not like I was doing anything different from everyone else. Society is fucked, or whatever it is you always say."

A pause. "Steve.... if it sounds heartless....it's b-b-b-because it issss. I hate to say it but.... I don't thiiiiiink all of your girlfriends saw it the sa-sa-sa-same way you did. I mean, did you look at T-t-t-tammy? She looked devastated for wwwweeks. I remember I was so mad at you for that. You didn't even seem to not-t-t-t-t-no-notice."

Silence. It's Steve's turn to blink. Once. Twice. He starts to wonder if the thing Robin had stuck in her eye was knowledge. Or maybe tears. Regret?

"But. The slut thing-" "Steve. How did you feel about Nancy? Was it the same thing?" "No! It- I don't know. It was. She was- ...Oh."

In the quiet that follows, Steve swears he can hear his own heart crack in two.

"I mean, we weren't even together-together most of the time. Or some of the time, at least. Like-" (Robin, cheeks red from all the crying. "I mean, we weren't even anything". And maybe Steve didn't quite understand the reason for these tears, but he understood pain and he understood Robin so he held her close anyways)

"Wait Steve, no. I-I'm so- sorr-rrr-sorr-y"

And fuck. Isn't he an absolutely selfish and horrible person? Here he comes, finding out he hurt perfectly lovely girls, figuring out that the "heartbreaker" moniker is less a joke and more a warning, and then he has the audacity to feel hurt. He. Shame burbles up in his gut, multiplying until it comes leeking out of his eyes.

It's shameful and horrible. It is even more shameful and horrible because Robin is currently going through what they had probably felt, too. Tammy who loved singing to the radio. Layla who loved making friendship bracelets. Natasha who also had a love for basketball. He imagines them locked up in their rooms, trying to hold onto him even as they know it is fruitless, feeling like after that stupid halloween party - because of him. He wants to hurl.

And Robin, always overthinking, always overeager - Robin who is trying to nurse her own broken heart and doesn't understand what he is feeling but she understands pain and most importantly she understands him. Robin gives him a kiss on the forehead and holds him close.

"I shhhhhhouldn't have been so-so-so-ssssso harsh. I was frusssss-trated and I let it out on you I'm sorry."

Steve smiles sardonically. "My feelings are valid?" She flicks him on the forehead and laughs.

-> the gay crisis that wasn't

-> stobin partner tattoos (aka tramp stamp)

-> fighting the war on heteronormativity on the side of headache (ft. Tim Curry)

-> Hawkins has cryptids and they are movie snobs