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im trying to hold onto you cause everybody leaves.
#ellis.lyr#im ok im ok im ok im ok#everythings fine im so ok#im totally completely utterly fine#what the fuckkkkkk#navigating���#twenty one pilots
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fic is a safe space, probably one of the last safe spaces. by safe i mean safe from the pressure of caving to advertisers. you can write fic about anything and not worry (shouldn’t worry) about what’s popular or what an advertiser oriented algorithm will pick up. what i mean by this is that you don’t have to bring this advertiser friendly behavior into fic. heroes can make bad decisions, people can fall out of love, villains can win, villainous organizations can win, redemption doesn’t have to happen, etc. make things a little messy if you want to, because life can be messy and art is a reflection of life. not what the advertisers have decided for us life is like, real life. this is one of the last places where this is still possible
#this post is brought to you by everyone who keeps saying lucanis will reform the crows??#first of all that’s a fundamental misunderstanding of his character#he LIKES the crows and likes his job a lot#and i do say this while believing and writing him leaving the crows at the end#but he would not reform them#and the fact that so many people in the fandom are trying to make that happen feels to me like they can’t like him without this#justification this need to redeem him as a character#like he is an assassin lol he enjoyed killing before any of this#just be ok with that?? or maybe you just don’t like him then?? which is fine!#im tired of everything being so clean all the time#life isn’t clean! art reflects life!! not what the advertisers have decided life is! real life!#anyway!#im so fucking tired lol
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if i said i picked up this issue for anything but drunk erik i fear i'd be lying
(Wolverine (2020) #3)
#xmen#xmen comics#krakoa#magneto#ok fine logan can get a tag too. this IS his story after all ja/lkLAJVEAVKLJ#wolverine#snap scans#i should read the rest of this run but its like 47 issues i think so. gonna take some time with that#spliced up the panels so its easier to look at everything. and so i can frame drunk passed out erik on my wall#someone uploaded some of the first page some time ago but 1.) i forgot to rb it 2.) it didnt include the rest of the scene#it ESP didnt include erik fallin face first on the table and his lil sleepin face on the next page like please im gettin cuteness aggressio#im so miffed that these are printed on the same page cause i woulda framed this spread otherwise like PLEASE#this shit got me GIGGLING SO BAD i cant. 'dare i say it .......' he's so unnecessary i love him so much#he's so silly ..... also someone said it best in that whenever erik's drawn like a bug it's the best thing#like look at him. that's a beetle. that's my little beetle and i love him i need to put him in a terrarium and watch him#honestly theres a LOT of things i have scanned and wanna share however i have to do it. Reasonably so to speak#in that i dont want to accidentally drown out all my doodling with comic scans jvEALKVJEAKL#maybe i'll do it sandwich style ... art -> scan -> art -> scan etc etc#that does remind me i have a doodle i wanted to do today. so maybe ill do that and share another thing i got scanned ....#unfortunately i do very much love reading the comics. a troublesome thing cause theres so much i wanna share and talk about#like from this issue too i love how hank describes what charles' mutation feels like#its not a grand thing but i love it whenever charles' telepathy is described and how it effects him physiologically#maybe hank was just Theorizing what it feels like but still ... i love that insight so much .....#i'll share that quote another time- i prob won't scan the page cause it's just a text log but i will say it was from here dont worry#ok ive rambled long enough BYE im gonna go draw charles
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i yet again do NOT understand why people think that what happened to steven in future came out of nowhere. the main show beats it into the ground how fucked up all this stuff has him! just cause he ends the main show in a good place doesnt mean that everything was solved! he solved the gem stuff but not himself, that was the whole point!
like. those people show that they didnt even pay attention to the show AND they dont understand trauma. like. shut the fuck up !!!!
#my post#su#liveblogging#how do you fucking miss the whole EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENED IN THE MAIN SHOW#no child or teenager should go through that!! no one should tbf but especially them#like ok fine. other shows do this stuff all the time and theres no consequences. but su was never the show to do that lol#i know im bringing up discourse from years ago but the thing is is that people STILL hold these opinions!#like. bro athena p on youtube has THE MOST JANK su opinions. she doesnt like pearl or future ? hello?#like ok whatever you dont have to like something but then she starts going into *why* and its like. bro stop talking no#yet again its just like people that say that cassandras betrayal came out of nowhere. NO IT DIDNT FUCK OFF#im so mad dude its so easy to understand this stuff for me#also trauma can absolutely wait to manifest or show its ugly head#he showed concerning behaviors in the main show but. aughhhh whateverrr whatever whatever whatever#its also that he was finally in a good calm place in future and when youre in a calm place your trauma brain goes THIS ISNT RIGHT#it gets so used to the stressful situations you were in that itll still think things are wrong even when nothing is#because it cant risk bringing its guard down in case stuff happens all over again#or some shit like that. fuck#and steven? babey hes been in stressful situations for a long time#ew why does this post have notes lol i thought itd get like 5 notes. im not opening the notes thing lmaoo fuck that
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Drew a spider lily in place of dolls heart
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#so it turns out i left the cap halfway off my fav yellow marker for who knows how long#i am so fine and everything is going to be ok <- lying to myself#doll md#md doll#murder drones doll#doll murder drones#murder drones#murder drones fanart#md fanart#grims art#ok so im gonna go sit for a while cuz the marker situation is genuanely upsetting to me?#idk ill be fine i just need some water. ok see you have a lovely day thumbs up
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I don't think I've ever been this frustrated with a fic before. It's genuinely one of the best reads this fandom has to offer; the plot, the characters, the pacing all work very well. And yet! Each time I got immersed in the story, something (like a lack of periods at the end of sentences, characters' names without capital letters, no commas in obvious places, sometimes a word or two that got skipped for no reason) kicked me out of it.
I'm just really confused why you didn't think it'd make this fic even better, if you put each chapter in any free writing app (even google docs) and check it for spelling and punctuation mistakes. You don't need a beta. Your writing is great. It would take a moment, and then your work would be excellent.
Maybe minor mistakes catch my attention because I'm a teacher and English is my 3rd language. I get you don't want to obsessively check every paragraph or you're dyslexic. We have software for this!
You're clearly very hard-working, so it shouldn't be a problem to check your text for silly mistakes (that we all make). Correcting them, next time you write something, won't take more than 5 minutes of your time. But the effects will be there.
hi condescending internet stranger! i've actually been in the process of slowly going back and doing some basic edits. i'd like to bring to your attention that I am in graduate school, I work TWO jobs on top of Freelancing and still make time for this. this was originally supposed to be something fun for me and what I assumed was the couple hundred or so people that would engage. it's been deeply overwhelming for me to see the response its gotten. usually it's great. but people like you are making putting out more work extremely stressful because the pressure to be perfect is umm. a lot. and not why i started fic writing in the first place. this is a free labor of love i am putting out because I LIKE IT.
i guarantee you that diligently going over every single word of a 90k long piece of work takes up a LOT more than five minutes of my time, which may i remind you - you aren't entitled to any of. I do the best i can considering I often have 12 hour days.
i actually do run it through a basic checker. so miss me with that. what i will not do is run it through an AI software - which based on your tone is what I'm guessing you suggest I do. and accusing someone of having a learning disability is kind of insane - especially for a teacher ?! i'd really suggest you watch yourself with that kind of language. much more harmful than missing a few periods.
have a nice day :)
#purposefully injected a lot of grammatical errors in here just for funsies :)#sorry this is so agressive lol#its just. i am like. so so so bogged down with work. and to put out like 80k of free story just to have people like this be like umm.#thats cute and all but do you have a learning disability?#MISS ME WITH THATTTTT#but yes if you are curious i am doing a lot of editing. trying to balance doing that and keeping up to pace with putting something out 2nit#personally when i read fic and there are errors im like ok you know what fair fine. this is literally someones free work they are doing wit#their free time#'im a teacher' you say#and if i said im a teacher too then what#sflksajdhf you think i pulled everything in coming home out of my ass
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kind of expected that the ability breakdown wouldnt get that much traction (especially on twitter bc if it doesnt do well in the first few hours it might as well be dead) but what i didnt need to wake up to was looking at my twitter notifications and thinking there was a long comment on it at first but then i read it and it turned out to be some guy having dug up one of my old totk tweets where i talked about how zelda was treated-
and if a quote retweet with a thread attached already starts with "this entitled brat didnt understand that zelda was being a history nerd by being in the past and getting to experience it herself" with two screenshots attached of the end of totk with zelda staring at the cam all uwu (which has ??? to do with their point??) i dont even want to know what else was in that thread
if thats how the majority of the fandom is then im even less surprised that nintendy doesnt even have to try to write anything good :I
ah yes, i am a game nerd, and by putting me in a game where i stand around doing puppy dog eyes while being shoved around by NPCs is me being a game nerd OBVIOSULY
#ganondoodles talks#zelda#sorta#like ok im not saying you cant like the game ffs#but acting like everything is perfect and anyone who dares speak something critical is a heathen and must be PUNISHED or PROVEN WRONG-#-is so godammn annoying#just went on their profile to block and of course it was all screenshots of totks ending with uwu zelda and shirtless cool guy link#also find it interesting that zelda has always been a history nerd now#didnt know interest in shiekah tech and ... frogs? counted as historian#and dont get me wrong it would fit her being interested in that too but the way it was done in totk felt so artificial#like doesnt she say she read in a book that the king who founded this hyrule was called rauru and all that?#like ........ how did that even happen#a book that mentions him BY NAME surviving for WAY OVER TEN THOUSAND YEARS just convenietnly materializing or what#how the hell did that survive when next to nothing did of the ancient shiekah#(granted you can make the argument that the -other- ancient king of hyrule that persecuted them destroyed most of their stuff-#-which would make sense and im rolling with that too but you get my point??)#but raurus shit was even older than shiekah stuff like ......... ok???? how convenient she now suddendly is interested in nothing but#-that and also read a book about it!!! somehow!!#also how does something like that exist but then the sonau where pretty much non existent and irrelevant at all in botw#and even what we had was ACTUALLY done ..by hylians as a tribute to rauru you seeeeeeee#and the botw sonau style was the hylians work .. even though the totk sonau style aligns more with hylian than botw sonau..#if the hylians were so grateful to rauru they built giant stone monuments as a tribute for him that didnt even fit their style-#-why was that the only stuff that survived on the surface ... wouldnt it make more sense that they would maintain the og sonau stuff instea#sure the temple ... castle .. whatever went up into the sky and whatver SOEMEHOW but not everythign did and it was everwhere#but then the stuff left on the surface crumbled away while everything left to rot in the underground and sky is just .. fine#what#also ... where did their castle go anyway#like ... we only see the -new cooler sonau- temple of time on the plateau but its interior doesnt match at all with the throne room#so where was all that#funny it wasnt in the same place as hyrule castle
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Should i like. Be plugging my fics here? Because to be honest i kind of was of the mind that everyone who would care to read the things i write had already seen them
#because im super proud of my cass learns to knit fic#but even compared to the fic that takes place before it not that many people have read it which is ok maybe people aren't interested#like that's fine i cannot express how much it's ok and people don't have to like everything or anything that i write ever#and ive long since made my peace with the fact that the audience for women centric fic in dc is tiny#so to be honest the main reason i dont promote stuff here is because 1. my works are locked to ao3 users#and 2. im very aware that fics about dc women get fewer hits overall by a significant number#so i was kind of figuring that anyone who'd be interested had already read my stuff#but is it like for real the people who'd be interested are as few as i think or is it like. super hard to find the fic#like maybe i'm bad at tagging and writing summaries? which to be clear if i am#i'm not changing the way i do it because i like the way i tag and do summaries#but like damn i do see people wondering about lack of fics and sometimes it's like bbygirl i am trying believe me!!#and the other reason i never started promoting here was because i was scared and honestly i made this account solely to look up d20 fanart#i don't think i want to do the work of promoting my stuff here though#but i think i might have fun with it if it's also like sharing fun behind the scenes or bonus content#much to consider...
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Fanart for @lucasandcie, who I've been wanting to draw fanart for for awhile now! Since I first started doing artfight actually, cuz I first discovered him there. I had been planning to attack some of his characters, they all look so pretty!! But...after I attacked one of his sonas, a worm on the string, he blocked me there. I have no idea why, but I may have done something that they said they dont want in their character permissions which I admit I did not read. Though, im gonna be honest, im a pretty emotional person and im pretty sure I fucking sobbed when I found out he blocked me :'D (its fine im fine everythings fine)
If @lucasandcie does see this, best case scenario he likes it and maybe even unblocks me on artfight (I really hope so :'0), worst case scenario he blocks me here as well-
Also, if he does see this and does read all of this, I want him to know that I am NOT trying to guilt trip him, im just speaking my thoughts and maybe perhaps venting a bit becase this has been the cause of so much sadness and it took me a couple weeks to get over it (mostly-) Another thing, if he is reading this and it is that I crossed his character permissions I AM SO FUCKING SORRY I WAS JUST SO EXCITED TO DRAW A WHOLE BUNCH OF WORMIES HANGING OUT I DIDNT THINK TO CHECK PERMISSIONNNSSSS 😭😭😭😭
Edit: its been figured out
#I think its quite clear that I havent fully gotten over it 😭#dca oc#fnaf dca#not my oc#my art#Im fine#Im not crying a bit you are#Told my mom about what happened and she tried to tell me it was ok and that just because someone blocked me does mean everything is terribl#Proceeded to try to tell myself that#It did not work#Im still so fucking emotional about it oml#Hhhhhh
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you ever think about how bill is who the pines could have been if they didn't have any kind of support from anyone in their lives
#godsrambles#im thinking about the thing on the website where he goes on an angry jealous rant about stan#bill turns away from the chance to be better over and over and over and over again#but what couldve happened if he had some kind of support at 30? at 60? instead of at over 1 trillion?#he turns himself into a monster. he sets everything up to try and lead someone down the path of becoming a monster with him.#not consciously. but subconsciously he is so ready to commiserate with someone else about being monsters together. and be less alone in it#and then bill finds out that this person actually has a family member willing to risk the apocalypse just to bring him back.#and other family members willing to do whatever it takes to rescue him During the Apocalypse Itself#and friends who forgive him. and then even the brother he thought he hated for so long gets a happy ending#and here bill is. in a pit dug by his own endless atrocities. but the very first few shovelfuls of dirt that started digging the pit#were caused by him having no one. no support network. no family member willing to cause the apocalypse just to bring him back#and then he gets fucking institutionalized.#one of the kinds of places where people unwanted by anyone in society get sent to so no one has to think about them again.#^greatly reductive descriptor that isnt always true im just talking about the way society views this topic + depicts it in media#like ok. ok i guess. sure. whatever. fine. im exploding everything in the universe with my mind 👍
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I love me a Bell lives AU where rather than going on a healing journey after solovetsky and living basically happily ever after, they instead live in absolute torment. i NEED more people to delve into Bells mental state post game events more than just them having some minor nightmares and amnesia. especially right after solovetsky, i want so badly to see the immediate pain and crisis they wouldve been thrown into.
i need less of Bell living somewhat happily and more anguish
#I do not think Bell would adjust well after having to essentially claw out of their own grave dealing with a nearly fatal gunshot wound—#withdrawals from several substances—ect all while coping with an identity crisis and betrayal along with a ton more issues#I think maybe they could do ok if given somewhat of a structure and support system and perhaps medication#Ashes to ashes Bell would never be the same as they used to be but given some time they’d probably be fine enough to function alright#but solovetsky Bell just toughing it out all on their own? Yeah i don’t think they’d be doing too well#No more fix it fics i beg please im so thirsty for pain there is not enough pain#They way Bell in most fics just mostly brushes off everything that happened kills me#bell cod#cod bell#bocw#cod cold war#Sorry Bell—i don’t believe theres a universe your life isn’t full of torment
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Finally at the landsmeet, hope i can finally find out what makes ppl defend Loghain as a character, beyond what ive seen in cutscenes and Anora talking about him.
He’s interesting, i sort of get why he’s compelling story wise. But. Why do people defend him. I am curious.
Apologies if im just bringing up old fandom talking points im playing the game for the first time 🙏
#dragon age#dragon age origins#dao#dragon age loghain#loghain mac tir#like. i get why ppl like him dgmw#but ive seen ppl defend his actions and its like. dude#hes literally involved in tevinter slave trade?#he knew what he was doing at ostagar too like#his plan fucking sucked LMAO#regardless of how anyone feels about cailin#like yes he was a fool but at least he cared that there was a blight 💀#to an extent-#how can a man dead set on never letting orlais occupy fereldan again#to the point of EVERYTHING that happens in dao#but then be ok with working with slavers from tevinter#taking elves right out of their homes#like what’s actually the point? more men?#does he not understand that he isnt the underdog here?#what does he do during dao that is helping his citizens?#like seriously#he wants to be king well nothing hes doing is fucking helping#so i hope whatever makes ppl defend him (beyond just liking him as a character)#shows up here bc. oof.#sorry for being mean in tags#if you like him sorry 🙏 i hope this finally lets me learn more about him#actually im not sorry if you like him#liking him is fine. that said defending him? that im curious about#that said its a video game and im more than a decade late so. who knows
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I DONT WANT TO SEE VIKTORS GLORIOUS EVOLUTION . PLEASE DO NOT?? GLORIOUSLY EVOLUTE???
Ive been excited to see machine herald viktor since season 1 but . not like this!!!
See i would say this is just like the powder -> jinx transformation and his change is inevitable it’s a tragedy so I shouldn’t feel too upset but. But. There’s a difference in the character arcs which just makes me all the more uneasy
I love powder, but I think arcane’s story functions primarily with jinx in mind. we only ever got to see powder three episodes out of two entire seasons—her character is essentially baked from the beginning to be jinx. The story is more interesting with powder as jinx. Jinx is more fun to pick apart, analyze, laugh with, and watch than powder.
But viktor? He was fun to watch before he was the “machine herald.” We got the whole of season 1 of him kicking around, making noise, and being generally developed and interesting to watch even if he doesn’t shoot lasers out of a third arm.
I just really don’t want to watch an out of touch supervillain emotionless robot terrorize piltover and zaun!! I only hope he’s fun to watch instead of being a generally really sad agency-less bucket of bolts
#viktor arcane#arcane season 2 act 2#spoilers#jinx arcane#I am already sad he doesn’t talk as much in this season even when he’s on screen#I will have also have fun watching machine herald viktor if he’s pushed into the realm of being almost comically evil and vocal about it#that would be awesome please#like im fine with things being sad and somber but also id love for seeing machine herald viktor to feel more like a celebration of#finally achieving his LOL look instead of the atmosphere feeling unimaginably bleak#ok I know what id like: a viktor version of Warwick/vander’s stylistically bombastic assault on the prison#the only thing I could think about during the scene where Viktor and jinx were bantering was this would be so much more fun if Viktor#wasn’t ascending into nirvana#not a criticism!! if I had anything to critique it’ll be after I finish everything#like I want a viktor equivalent moment of cait with her triple scope or Jayce with his hammer or Vi with her gloves#arcane has done such a good job of building this version of Viktor that it almost feels a shame to reduce him to someone who barely even#has his own thoughts anymore
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A collection of my favorite MTMTE Panels
they're funny to me especially out of context
Spoilers obviously.... whatevs ! :<
dude look at Fulcrums face
im not even joking this is my favorite panel probably
ok im done now OK WHY IS THE QUALITY SHIT ON SOME OF THESE IM SO MAD.
#mtmte#transformers#i love perceptor from transformers so much#brainstorm tf#drift idw#rewind is the goat#guys why are all the panels with rewind so good#especially the covers#ok first of all theres that one shot in the slaughterhouse arc when megatron picks up rewind 2.0 THAT IS SUCH A GOOD PANEL#then theres the time where he cuts of chromedomes arm#then mtmte 15. self explanatory. “sorry things didnt work out domey” IM DECEASED#and then his own COVER SPECIAL where its an ominous rewind#and then the EVERYTHING IS FINE light up street thing BRO REWIND IS SO COOL#the way he uppercuts rodimus is just spectacular#also yk that one panel where theyre on necroworld and chromedome is like “my love its not for you to decide” DECEASED. CDRW IS SO. i love!#yea. anyway#perceptor idw#lost light tf#crusadercons
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It just clicked for me that I’m going to be all-consumingly devoted to intensive studying for the next month. I’ve been more ambivalent since the year started, bc I honestly miss my friends and want to pursue a lot of hobbies I’ve been dying to pick up, but I want nothing more than to ace an upcoming test that will genuinely determine so much of the trajectory of my life. I’ve already been studying pretty consistently for it, but now I’m actually letting go of my expectations for other things while this is going on. Putting all this pressure on myself has done nothing but slow me down. Like my brain is actually shifting into study camp mode. It’ll be back to waking up at 4 am, studying for 8 hours a day minimum, crunching flash cards w my morning drink/on the treadmill, getting so much done before noon, and not feeling guilty if other areas of my life suffer a little bit. Nothing outside of this matters.
#im going to treat it like a sport bc it is#obvi I’ll still be volunteering / doing orgo research / going to the neuro clinic#but studying is my top priority for sure#hitting the gym / watching movies / fun stuff peppered in between will keep me sane during this#and also seeing friends bc I just need my wonderful friends. but it’s ok if it’s less frequent for now. it’s fine#I was doing great last year and then this year started and my resolutions started overwhelming me and I just haven’t been doing as strongly#the time will pass anyway#I love studying so this won’t be a problem#but I’ve just been up and down ab it lately bc I wanna pick up so much stuff at once#but now that I’ve realized this I’m at ease again. there’s a time for everything. one month off to study is fine#hopelessly devoted to you by olivia newton john but it’s about me and my test#p
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can i just say its beautiful to finally have another character blush all cutesy on screen even if its out of embarrassment THANK you jnj this is my favorite sub short EVER
#worlds first gay algebralien too I CANT GET OVER IT#ive been like clawing at the walls for any kind of crush/romance LIKE IK THEY WONT DO IT W ANY MAIN GUYS . AND IM FINE W THAT#but this one crumb will last me years#2763 spoilers#[sees a character blush] hmm....how can i make this abt losercake in some way#OK BUT CAKE BLUSHING IS EVERYTHING HES SO CUTE FUUCK i love that zero too . gayass object/algebraliens 4 life
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