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"I long for something that'll never be.. something that never was"
#writing#writeblr#writers on tumblr#writing community#writers and poets#writing prompt#writing challenge#vent?#let me scream into the void#i just need a break#everything is just too much right now#i'll be okay one day#i promise#i just need time#i just need you#if i have you then i'll know it's all okay#as long as you're mine#as long as you love me#darling#i'll be here#just for you#my love#my darling
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auction results done for @ouchpotatoex as a part of the 2024 @marveltrumpshate charity event: thank you so much for your generosity and donations !!!!
#xmen#xmen comics#mth 2024#cherik#charles xavier#erik lehnsherr#professor x#magneto#there's other people here too but i am not TAGGING ALL OF THEM !!!!#snap sketches#BUT YAAAAAAAYY YIPPEEE I FINALLY GET TO SHOW THESE OFF //skips and dances and clicks my heels//#i've been working on these the past month or so with The Very Lovely. potato. yk thats still applicable IN ANY CASE#we've been working on these for the past month and it's been SUUUCCH a wonderful time#she had a lot more beautiful ideas ... some i hope to steal ... or at least get to work on in the future#but as of right now here is what was ordered for this event specifically :]]#if anyone remembers that erik wip i posted last month or whatever ... finally have the finished version of it 💀💀#IN ANY CASE. thank you so much again my wonderful friend not just for your beautiful donations but for everything this past month#i hope everyone else enjoys these pieces !!!! i for one absolutely do ....
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i want to kill every person you've ever chosen over me and then kill myself in front of you
#bpd#bpd vent#bpd favorite person#bpd fp#actually borderline#actually bpd#heartbreak#betrayal#disloyalty#just use me until there's nothing left#how am i both too much and not enough for everyone#i hate the entire world right now#i hope climate change takes us all out and kills the entire human race#fuck everything#tw sui ideation
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ISAAC ASKING "so, are they dating?" AND CHARLIE SAYING HE DOESN'T KNOW AND ISAAC LOOKING CURIOUSLY AT TORI AND MICHAEL FOR A FEW MORE SECONDS... AHHHHH
#we could've had everything.#I'M GOING INSANE. if i don't get aspec interactions between isaac and tori in the next season i'll riot#(i'm assuming there will be a next season bc the alternative is too much to bear right now)#my posts#heartstopper liveblogging#heartstopper#hstv#heartstopper show#heartstopper s3#tori spring#isaac henderson#aro#aromantic#ace#asexual#aroace#aspec#just aspec stuff#aspec characters#aspec rep
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Nico and Percy's dynamic through the series is eternally funny to me, because it's just. like.
Percy's having a constant mental struggle between his fatal flaw of loyalty with a promise he made to Bianca to protect Nico, versus his Big 3 kid desire to maim other Big 3 kids / Poseidon descendant urge to totally maim Nico specifically. He hates Nico so so much. He thinks Nico's annoying and weird at best, and creepy/sketchy when he's older. The only positive thoughts Percy has towards Nico are "He's Bianca's brother and Bianca was my friend and I owe her/He's Hazel's brother and Hazel is my friend and would kill me if I was mean to him," "He's a powerful asset and useful ally (if questionable)," and "He's kinda pathetic and I feel maybe a little bad about it." Percy has multiple occasions throughout the series where he strongly considers - and on one occasionally actually goes through with - throttling Nico.
Meanwhile, Nico is following around Percy like a lost puppy. He explicitly can never bring himself to even dislike anything about Percy no matter how hard he tries. He has a whole bit in BoO where he's mentally going "UGH he's so stupid BUT IT'S ENDEARING HOW DARE HE." He's totally smitten. He's making deals with his dad for Percy. He's making convoluted plans to help Percy stand a chance against Kronos. During the entirety of BoTL it's like he's playing tsundere - "I'm helping NOT PERCY SPECIFICALLY with this quest! Me helping Percy would be SILLY because I DEFINITELY HATE HIM." Then he proceeds to show up to Percy's birthday party to basically ask him on a weird date and spend the entire next book scrambling around trying to help him or protect him or impress him. And Percy could not give less of a shit.
Just. That dynamic is so funny to me. Percy is the founder of the Nico Protection Club in that he's the one they're all protecting Nico from and meanwhile Nico is throwing himself at Percy to the point where the literal god of gay love calls him out on it.
#pjo#percy jackson#nico di angelo#Percy shows up at CJ and squints at Nico like ''hm. why do i feel like i hate you? like i just wanna punch you in the face?''#and Nico just immediately goes ''huh no idea anyways i have to go-'' and jumps into Tartarus#but not before he gives Hazel essentially a detailed explanation of ''this is Percy i cant say much but please dont let him die <3''#and Nico's whole Tartarus trip was basically a whole ''im doing this so no one else has to''#only for Percy and Annabeth to fall in like one book later and Nico proceeds to spend the next book internally screaming about it#and then Cupid calls him out on it and the next book#Nico's just like ''at this point im hoping i keel over within the next week just so i can force this dumb crush to chill the fuck out''#Nico staring pointedly at Will: ''For my own sake i need to form another crush RIGHT NOW so i can finally get over Percy.''#''this has been so bad for my health''#Nico's crush on Percy is just too funny to me. horrible pick my guy. terrible job. love that for you. he could not be less interested.#Percy LITERALLY TRIES TO KILL NICO and ditch him in the underworld and Nico is somehow STILL like ''but i love him''#Percy basically chokes him. beats up his dad. tells him ''go get smited by your dad for me.'' and ditches him.#and Nico's opinions/crush on him DO NOT CHANGE#though also Nico's reaction to Percy beating up his dad + skeletons is SO funny. his jaw is on the floor. he's flustered about it.#he just witnessed Percy be incredibly hot and proceeded to go ''yea i'll do anything for this man. collect reinforcements of 3 gods? sure''#nico you absolute DISASTER with HORRIBLE TASTE. you can do better. raise your standards.#which tbh is funnier when you factor in sun and the star. Nico just wont stop crushing on guys who dislike him and everything he stands for
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kacchan really is so funny for being like BUT WHAT ABOUT BAKUDEKU CANON when he finds out izuku is quirkless
#bakudeku#bkdk#mha spoilers#bnha spoilers#mha leaks#he really is like WHAT ABOUT US#WHAT ABOUT EVERYTHING WE BEEN THROUGH#izuku is such a Gabriella too he DO be running away from his feelings every chance he gets#what about US IZUKU WHAT ABOUT OUR MARRIAGE#WHAT IS THE POINT OF THIS MANGA IF WE ARENT MARRIED#and Izuku is like oh no my baby is on too many painkillers hahaha he’s not proposing to me right now that’s silly#if he was proposing that would mean he loved me and I can’t accept that reality I’m too much of a burden#I can’t think of myself long enough to realize I am valued#two months ago Izuku was like :) I’m so blessed kacchan talks to me almost normally#how is he supposed to process he was just proposed to by that same boy#like he’s also just gone through almost losing him he’s probably like I’m lucky he’s alive and breathing near me#and kacchan’s like I LOVE YOU I WANT YOU FOREVER#Izuku is overwhelmed ok give him some slack
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I'm late to the anniversary of the first chapter, so I'll have to make do with the anniversary of the final chapter.
Thank you so much to everyone who has read WtST and left kudos, comments, or even just taken a peek at it for curiosity's sake; I know I haven't been posting much for it lately, but it still remains one of my favorite AUs to think about, and it's been so so much fun to share Emmet's suffering with you all
Much, much love to you all, and thank you again!
(*ˊᗜˋ*)/ᵗᑋᵃᐢᵏ ᵞᵒᵘ*
(program: krita; time: about 4.5 hours)
#submas#subway boss emmet#hisuian typhlosion#wtst#eggin creatin'#pokemon fanart#been incredibly distracted by gf lately#but submas was the first fandom I really actually poked at#kirby I kind of stay on the outskirts of#and really fandoms in general I try not to get too involved in#but submas has been on of my longest fixations#and I've met so many lovely people that I've just loved seeing around#even taken the plunge and made a genuine friend outside of tumblr#so it's been really wonderful here#I'm not saying that I'm leaving the fandom or that I won't make anything submas anymore#I still have projects even though the fixation has shifted and the flame has simmered down a bit#so all that being said yeah it's mostly gf right now#but I still love submas and I still love wtst#and I hope to finish pandemonic paradise this year#and post blind to all but gold someday too#so thank you all for being here and supporting me and my shenanigans#emmet surely does not appreciate you all encouraging me to torment him but I sure do!#I hope 2025 keeps treating you all well#thank you so much for everything <3#(*ˊᗜˋ*)/ᵗᑋᵃᐢᵏ ᵞᵒᵘ*
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HEY DO YOU GUYS EVER THINK ABOUT HOW ABIGALE BLACKWING, A VERY INDEPENDENT INVENTRESS, SUDDENLY WENT AND MARRIED A RICH MAN (implied to be a Northwest) AFTER THE COLLAPSE OF THE ANTI-CIPHER SOCIETY? DO YOU EVER THINK MAYBE THAT MARRIAGE WAS OUT OF A DESPERATE NEED FOR SAFTEY FROM BEING INSTITUTIONALIZED? DO YOU EVER THINK MAYBE ABIGALE FEELS SHE TRADED AN ASYLUM FOR FREEDOM OVER HER LIFE? HOW SHE’S STILL TRAPPED IN A CAGE BUT IN A DIFFERENT WAY? DO YOU EVER THINK ABOUT THAT!? BECAUSE I DO!
Anyway uhhhh Click for Quality.
#oh yeah here’s the code translations btw#Top: ABIGALE BLACKWING#Left: NOW WHO CLIPPED YOUR WINGS#Right: WHATS A FLIGHTLESS BIRD TO DO#I’ve been constructing a story around her. I love her. she’s my everything.#because like. my idea of Abigale is so independent and free and also very much a lesbian#so in order for her to have married a rich man (implied to be a northwest) like#what are the circumstances there#I NEED to know#and since it’s prolly impossible for me to know I will MAKE IT UP MYSELF!#she’s just becoming an oc now. I’m stealing her from Alex hirsch she’s mine now#aria draws#digital art#digital drawing#the book of bill#book of bill#tbob#tbob fanart#the book of bill fanart#Abigale Blackwing#the anti-cipher society#anti cipher society#the anti cipher society#anti-bill society#anti bill society#the anti bill society#should. should I tag her as oc. I’m basically inventing everything about her.#no…. no that’s too far I think. not yet.#eyestrain
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cw: Bakugou dies but comes back to life, “comes back wrong” trope, implied fighting, angst
When Bakugou died, you’re not sure how you went on living. Grief had taken over your life, sat you in the passenger side while it cruised off the highway into icy waters. And even then, you couldn’t find the energy to drown.
It’s why there’s a sudden uptick of energy when you’re promised to have him back. Some top scientists contact you months after his death, tell you to hurry down to the headquarters labs, come and rejoice for what you’re about to witness. And you’re horrified, to say the least.
“This isn’t my husband.” Are your first words when you walk in, watch the figure on the other side of the glass examine its own hands. It looks like your husband but—but his hair isn’t the right shade of blond all over. His nose bridge had a slight bump after a scuffle with a villain. He had a scar on his hand but—but it never looked like it was to sew a pinky beside the other fingers.
“Is that really my husband?” You ask next in disbelief, slowly entering the room. Bakugou’s head snaps up, his eyes a little brighter than you remember but—they hold so much emotion. So much memory, so much panic, so much guilt.
“I left you.” He mutters, his voice raspy and ragged, and you wonder if it’ll always be like this now. It makes you cry a little harder than it should, but you only embrace each other. He’s cold and his shoulders don’t hold the same mass and his back doesn’t carry the same scars. There’s one, jagged and rough, running down his back, and you think, you think that’s where they slipped a new spine in.
“Welcome back home.” You tell him, weeks after meeting him again, new and not totally—Katsuki. He’s stiff and he doesn’t immediately take off his boots when he enters, and it worries you. Makes you think if you’ve just let a stranger into your home, one that has stolen your dead husbands face. Makes you wonder if he’ll be as loving as Katsuki once was, or if he’ll become your monster looming over you with the guilt of not being able to rest anymore.
“I’ve missed you so much.” You whisper against his mouth one night, a little while after he’s moved back. You don’t know why you lay under him, why you let him nestle himself inside of you, why you let him hold you against his chest. Katsuki always ran his hands over your cheeks and neck whenever he held you like this, but this…man, only holds himself up with his hands resting beside your head. It’s alien, how he looks at you, how his hips are methodically measured with every thrust, how he kisses you every 8 seconds. You wonder if he’s more robot than Frankenstein monster.
“Why did you come back to me like this?” You ask him one night, barricaded in the bathroom away from him. You can hear his sobs on the other side, his pleading to be let in. He tells you he never wanted to come back if he had to be like this, that he’s sorry, please let him in, he misses the warmth of your skin, he’s never been so cold before, he’s never liked the cold.
“Is this considered cheating?” You ask yourself aloud one night, when Bakugou is forced back to the lab when he becomes too…un-Bakugou. To sleep with a man that is your husband in every way but? Your husband has been dead for a year now, and yet you stroke the chin of the man that tries so hard to be him everyday, but fails so miserably at it every time.
“I’ll come back to you right this time.” Bakugou promises to you when he’s strapped down to leave for the lab and before he’s sedated. But you don’t believe him—you never did. Your husband is dead, and this animated corpse has been nothing but a cheap mockery of everything you’ve lost and something you will never truly get back.
#I was writing this and then checked my dash and saw another post about this#and felt so guilty and almost didn’t post it aidjdkfj#but I love this trope too much to delete it!!!!!#I’ve written about this in my published book before and it’s one of my favorite things I’ve ever written#there’s just such a deep heartache about having to grieve someone#and then the grieving process being interrupted by the one you lost#and battling with their death even though you still look at them everyday again#but it’s just not right?? it’s not the same??#they have the same face (kinda) but it’s truly not hem#not them* heck#it reminds me of a convo I had in a psych class about making a new cloned version of yourself#where the question was ‘is the clone/new version still you? or are they an entirely new person now?’#and at first I said they’re still me you know? they have my face n body n memories#but my prof told me no!! after they have been cloned they are sentient and are now their own person making new memories apart from you#and I thought that was soooo interesting and it makes me fall in love w this trope every time#you’re my person but only a version. you’re who I love but a newer person. you’re not them. you’re everything I’ve missed about them#so heartbreaking I LOVE ITTTT#sorry I’m rapping it’s the sleep meds kicking in#okay bai#bakugou treats! 🍬#—new treat in the streets! 🍫
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my appointment with my chronic pain specialist left me in tears… is anyone remotely surprised
#i get that nerve damage is really difficult to treat in general#but it’s just so defeating to be told time and time again that little can be done when i experience nerve pain from the waist down#it effects everything i do#and i am in this cruel cycle of my exhaustion being bone-deep#but ironically being in too much pain to fall asleep#or stay asleep for more than 4 hours in a row#anyway i’m going to get a treat and listen to some music to try and decompress#my heart is just really heavy right now#personal
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i've experienced like a truly ridiculous amount of grief in recent years and i would like to say now in the new year 2025 to the universe or fate or whoever: unless you are going to give me a gazillion dollars and less mental illness...dont do this to me girl
#if the mutual whos post i just commented on sees this no you didnt#but also it did get me thinking abt everything#grief is so bad 0/10 im sending a cease & desist#theres so much crying involved too & i just dont need to deal w that right now#especially not in this economy. grief???? mourning???? loss????? girl go away#talk
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love thinking kipperlilly spends her afterlife looking for lucy in a familiar forest
#not art#fhjy#fhjy spoilers#like. does she have a mean of knowing lucy and yolanda got sent to cassandra's domain to hang out for a bit#kipperlilly's isolation means so much to me. she is punished for everything she's done she just doesn't pick up on it#until the moment she dies! one more funky thing that mirrors riz in which he's actively tried to cultivate a community and denied it#until the bad kids. while kipperlilly does not want or care about a community she just wants someone who validates her#but she does Need a community so she latches onto the person she lets closer to her to fulfill her emotional needs#she took the ritual willingly so this might genuinely be her first death. probably terrifying#probably not even enough bandwidth to feel mortified. maybe immediately seeking something comforting out of instinct alone#lmao honestly thinking too much abt fantasy high afterlifes gives me a headache And a visceral fear#Im not religious but I grew up in a culture with a dominantly buddhist/taoist cosmology its Scary that u just go to A Place after u die!!#and then ur still urself!!! thats scary to me what do u mean u stay like that forever. thats fucked#but yeah I think this influences how I see kipperlilly turn out a little bit. in a sense I think of her as being a ghost now#yknow. trying to solve something from life so she can move on and. stop living this life etc#man the reveal that lucy took being killed pretty seriously and is like yeah the others are decent and even sweet#and probably was just trying to hold her party together and do what she thinks is moral by hearing kipperlilly out#lol lmao etc. gods I gotta wonder how kipperlilly's mindset handled jawbones' help#it really is damn tragic tho. I stand by what I said folks like this will complain and be nasty to be around#but they dont have enough desire to inconvenience themselves to off the bat do something abt what they find unfair or whatever#its when theyre handed the seemingly very easy means to be right that they'll start being dangerous#its horribly tragic that the supposed metaplayer and the self-perceived mastermind turned out to ultimately be just an useful idiot#yknow what. I think personally in my heart kipperlilly moves on from her afterlife the moment she says sorry#doesnt even have to be to lucy but that's probably gonna be who received it#ah.... teenage rebellion. teenage gamejacking
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Little update on this. I’m home now, but I’m having some serious emotional struggles right now. Which I can list at least ten reasons for, but I’m going back to my parents’ house because I just cannot handle being in the city right now. Still healing well, though!
I’m having a life-changing surgery tomorrow!! My problem ribs are being secured into place and hopefully my other ribs will start behaving as well. After healing, I should be able to live like a normal person for the most part. Until I get a bit older and I have more issues, like my hands.
#I’m literally in tears so much of the time right now and I miss my parents#it hasn’t even been a full day since I’ve seen them#but I’m being a baby about it but at the same time I think I’m allowed to#I think I’m just now processing everything and I might be regressing a little bit but I’m confident that I’ll bounce back soon#everything is just too much right now#I even had my parents and my girls move my bed from my house to my apartment and now I want it back in the house since that’s where I’ll be#but I can’t ask everyone to just do that again and I won’t#I’m just incredibly upset and overwhelmed right now#I got to see my cat so that’s nice#oh but if anyone has any experience with this or knows if it’s common please let me know#surgery#slipping rib syndrome#heds#ehlers danlos syndrome#self post
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Knocking them over and watching them scramble to get up with those big ass heads
#kelperambles#captainshipping#tw eyestrain#eye strain#the captainshipping brainrot is so bad right now oh my god it’s like something wormed into my brain and started destroying everything#to constantly think about them but not have enough time to draw them. torture.#Nintendo yaoi is what could save me.#the last time I tried to draw Captainshipping I drew ONE (1!!!!) line on Falcon’s chin and went ‘ok that’s pretty good. I should lay down’#AND THEN I FELL ASLEEP FOR 5 HOURS#wiping a tear from my eyes as I look at captainshipping photo album on my phone before bed#life is beautiful#I love drawing them and just looking back at my art months later and thinking ‘dude I actually killed it. this is everything I ever wanted’#because it’s true!!! It’s exactly what I want to see because it came from ME?!? CRAZY IDEA.#I imagine their dynamic as something genuinely so sweet. hopefully I can articulate it well enough here#Like from subspace emissary you can already see how Falcon (quite literally) pushes Olimar to try new things and be more adventurous#(even if Olimar doesn’t need it after his time on PNF-404 LMAOO)#and Olimar encourages Falcon to slow down and live in the moment#plus. between the two Olimar definitely talks the most about nearly anything and everything#EXCEPT for his true feelings because if there’s one thing he’s good at. it’s bottling his emotions until he explodes in the worst crash out#But falcon is observant and provides Olimar the space he needs to vent any issues#even if Olimar thinks they’re probably insignificant in the face of CAPTAIN FALCON of all people#like dude…the infamous bounty hunter and rich award winning F-Zero racer? CRAZY.#Falcon doesn’t mind though. He cares about Olimar and genuinely wants to listen.#if its about financial issues he could definitely help but olimar adamantly refuses#Olimar doesn’t want to ‘take advantage’ of his relationship with Falcon and he’s always been super self-reliant so it’s hard to adjust#and guess what. Falcon could care less. he has too much money to count and would probably spend it on another custom racetrack#istg he’s so obsessed with racing I wouldn’t be surprised if he LIVED in the blue falcon instead of getting a place to stay#Olimar and Falcon are opposites attract taken to the extreme dude I love it so much#and consider the tropes????? LIKE DUDE FALCON IS LITERALLY GETTING HUNTED DOWN BY VILLAINS IMAGINE IF THEY FOUND OUT ABT OLIMAR#AND THE HELMET. THEYLL NEVER BE ABLE TO KISS AND ITS SO GOOD I EAT IT UP!!! FOREVER YEARNING LONGING REALNESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Not to make anyone sad again BUT.
How can you say she's a bad big sister man she forever always did what she thought she could to keep Powder and, after accepting Jinx, Jinx safe.
The horror on both Caitlyn! And Vis faces after hearing Jinx's blood curdling scream for Isha. Isha saved Jinx, Jinx wanted to save her little adopted sister and Vi just wanted to save her little sister. And this is with an active injury on Vi's part. You can clearly see how awful and horrified and RIPPED apart she is to have to pull Jinx away. To say, I'm sorry I can't let you die with her I still need you.
And after Vi saves Jinx? I think we were absolutely robbed by having not been shown it and only told about it. Jinx somehow focuses herself after losing everything in ANOTHER explosion, AGAIN, and manages to only care about getting Vi out to safety. And then just. Gives up.
I'm sorry your Honor but they were sisters and they always loved each other forever and always and the world straight up said absolutely not. You do not get to be happy you do not get to love each other and you do not get to have any of that especially if you're both alive for some reason. And they tried their fucking hardest to fight that anyway 😭 and where we leave off at the end of the SERIES, but not their stories by a long shot I hope, is heart breaking and sad as hell.
I hope they heal, I hope they find peace, and I hope they find each other again in less chaotic times so they actually just sit next to each other. And hug it out and talk like fuck man
#words#i dont#think i can handle tragedies dude oh ym god#its too much it's#so frustrating and tantalizingly what could have been#what they almost had#WHAT THEY STILL COULD HAVE IF THEY WOULD JUST#BE ALONE FOR 30 MINUTES TO TALK GOD DAMNED IT MAN#fuck#im so incredibly invested in their Dynamic it isn't even funny anymore man#i don't know why they get me#well i think i do and thats why that tragedy part is so#addictive right now its the chase of what could have been#the chase of what can be#the filling in the blanks the writers left#filling in the gaps#its everything
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merry crimes from me and boothill 💝 i hope everyone has a fantastic day !! 💕

#sal.yap#boothill#honkai star rail#i didn't want to be too corny right out the gate but i have to say it here#im sincerely so grateful for everyone's support over the last few months 💖💖💖#i can't remember the last time i had this much fun writing#and i can't remember ever feeling so loved and connected to a fandom before#you're all fantastic and i love you all so much 💝 and i hope to see you next year too :)#also this was a Christmas gift from one of my besties and i owe him my life#yes the plushie's hair is as soft as it looks#search for Boothill plush on Etsy and you should find it :)#it came with a cute little sticker pack with bears and everything. so damn cute#the true gift is that now i can officially bite him any time i want#anyway enough chatter from me lol#im hoping to have a drabble out today!! not the long one just a short lil thing#LOVE YOU ALL XOXOXO ❤️🩵💛💙💚💙🧡🩵💛💛💜🧡🩵💛🩵💛🧡💜🧡💛🩵🧡💜❤️💜💛🩵❤️💙🧡
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