#everything feels like a chore

[xannerz]

Not feeling great. Left the vet with Vigo. Heart murmur is at 5/6. He’s gonna be on 2 meds. Hearts enlarged, not a lot of fluid in his lungs atm. The meds should help his heart not work so hard.

The vet said to give him a chance and see bc he’s still eager to eat, drink, walk (though I can’t do that with him anymore not to strain his heart which makes me sad), etc. I’m nervous bc I’ll be away next week. I’ll try to have him see the cardiologist in a month but may have to take him in to the emergency vet sooner.

Frankly I don’t wanna fight it if it gets to that point. I have nothing else I can give. I can't gamble w/ his qualify of life either. I’ll monitor him for this week and see what to do. Vet will call me abt his labs tmrw.

[adnauseum11]

I need to reframe this for myself because right now I'm anxious and resentful and it's not fitting the facts. Today I get to;

meet my friends for lunch

shower and do laundry for free

get some groceries

stop at the local brewery and see if they have my favourite hand pies on the way out of town.

What's making me anxious is leaving my animals alone at the cabin for the day. Other people's schedules. Getting everything done before I have to make the over hour long drive back to the cabin. It's going to be fine. If something gets forgotten, oh well. It'll have to keep until the next trip in to town.

[dolly-macabre]

Just about ready to give up on everything 🙌🏻

[houkagokappa]

I'm not doing well and I need help, but I don't know where I'm gonna get that or how I'll manage to ask for it.

All the classes I'm taking this period are self-studies and I cannot make myself do any work on my own. One class is a bit daunting, but none of the tasks I have are difficult, I just need to sit down to do them. What's keeping me from it, is mostly stress over my Master's thesis. I need to pick a topic, and I don't really know what to do.

My current options are

A project that sounds decent, for a supervisor whose style seems to fit me (they do weekly meetings and I think the structure would do me good), but the data has already been collected so I don't get to do any field work (which I'd like to do)

Come up with something relating to something a PhD student is working on relating to the same sites as in project 1 (for the same supervisor). I would get to do fieldwork, but the idea of what I'd do is vague so it's hard to say anything more about it, and I feel pressure coming up with something more concrete while I have zero ideas

A project for another supervisor, who described their style as "goal oriented", in the sense that they always want meetings to be efficient, which scared me a little (although they're a lovely person). However, they would offer a project that sounds more interesting to me, because it's on something I've worked with before, although that's also something I'm concerned over, since it might be better to broaden my horizons a little and work on different sites/with different people for a change. Also this project seemed like an afterthought to them and is not part of their main research, so I'm worried it might be a bit random?

Something else, for example I saw an advertisement for another project that sounds interesting, but I have no idea who the people behind it are. I could contact them for more info, or ask around for other projects (although I don't have a lot of time left since people want to know who'll be working for them this summer)

A fellow student empathized the importance of a good supervisor, my dad (who's a researcher in another field and has supervised others himself) suggests that the PhD student would make for a nice colleague, since they often have more time to help with things compared to PI's, while my sister (who knows nothing about what a thesis entails) insinuated that I shouldn't be so scared of the supervisor who was goal oriented, and said that she would pick them.

No one else that I've talked to has given me any suggestions on what direction I should go in.

I had a meeting with the supervisor for options 1 and 2 and I need to get back to them with an answer this week. Instead of thinking about it deeply I've been lying in bed, doing nothing at all these past 2 weeks. It doesn't help that I came back from our first meeting feeling like a failure for not having a clearer direction, not being able to reply to most of their questions of what I want to do, and for lacking some skills you NEED for your thesis, mainly when it comes to data analysing (and it's a bit iffy when and where I'm supposed to learn it properly). I'm worried about picking the wrong thing and not being able to complete my thesis because I lack the passion and motivation for it. I'm also having some mixed feelings over simply picking something and get it done, or picking something and having it be a nice stepping-stone for what I want to do next (not that I know what that'll be).

[bffrbxtvh]

Why are conversations so hard right now…

[langernameohnebedeutung]

gonna say, something or someone being misogynistic is on its own a good enough reason not to like it or not to spend time with that person. It's not just that misogyny is so normalised that not watching a show or not spending with someone just because of misogyny is treated as not enough of a reason - it's also that as a woman, you are under constant scrutiny and constantly thrown tests to show that you are 'not one of the difficult ones', that you can 'take a joke'.

But 'your friend keeps saying degrading things about women' is a good enough reason not to hang out with that person or not to go to a gathering. 'i read the last book by his author and it was deeply misogynistic' is a good enough reason why you don't want to read things by that author anymore. 'This comedian specifically makes a lot of mean-spirited jokes about women' reason enogh not to watch that or see that show, even if your friends want to go. 'This content creator keeps going on weird tangents about women' reason enough not to watch their stuff or support them.

and it is especially a very good reason not to date someone.

[canisalbus]

Which is your favorite platform? (of the ones you have accounts to post things I mean. I can't imagine it being Instagram since you don't really post there which honestly fair)

Tumblr, Twitter (X?) bluesky? Something else?

I think I'm going to have to go with tumblr, and it's not just because we're here. Twitter and Bluesky are nice and my experiences on both are overwhelmingly positive. But tumblr has an atmosphere that encourages originality, sharing your creations and talking about things in depth.

[appropriatelystupid]

this might be an unpopular opinion but i’d rather have a full agnes of westview spinoff than only get more future agatha as a mentor/sidekick to billy and tommy

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

I'm surprised you haven't posted any Welcome home stuff recently! Honestly kinda makes me sad since I love your WH art and stuff

yea y'all are gonna have to be Patient w/ me bc

a) i have like. a week left to pack all of my stuff before i need to shove everything into a uhaul and leave, so its crunch time! leaving little to no energy/interest in anything else

b) to be honest my mental health is the worst its been in years - which is fine, its whatever, i can deal. it's not as bad as it could be and im handling it! like a champ, even! but also its leaving little to no energy/interest in anything else

c) had a minor crisis over my art and how i interact w/ WH, and i realized im not scribbling enough of what I want. ive mostly been trying to please people and do as asked and thats! not good! so i want to temper expectation & reassert that im Not a WH art blog - its just a hyperfixation / something i love rn. i draw what i enjoy & what i want in the moment.

[thesetwoidiots]

Beverly: Stephen!

Stephen: Mom! *Sees Eugene* Father. *Sees Victor* Victor.

Victor, obviously just as disgusted: Stephen.

Tony, trying to prevent an argument: Tony, Peter, Morgan!

Peter and Morgan: Hi!

[washedupburnedout]

Happy N7 day to those who celebrate! Here's some of my favorite screenshots from my last playthrough (from like 2 years ago lol - more pics under the cut)

[elmelloill]

whenever people asked how i liked my 4-(ten hour)-day work week, i would always say i truly couldn't decide which was better because the 3 day weekends are really nice but ten hour days suck so so much, but i've been working 5 normal days starting at 9 for a few weeks to cover for my coworker's leave and. maybe this is it. my ideal schedule.

[ashmp3]

i think i'll have to close heyteo... i know it sounds silly because i really do love getting tagged even though that sounds a bit pathetic. But i have not been able to keep up + i don't want anyone to think i am ignoring them (as a matter of fact everything is in either drafts or queue) + i don't like to half ass anything -> silly tags included. Is that stupid i feel like i am letting my friends down LMFAO

[youngpettyqueen]

there is something very sad about Peg just wanting to tell BJ about her day to day life, the mundane things in the house that need to be fixed and the funny things that happen to her, all things he would've enjoyed hearing about or would've handled with her if he'd been there, and having absolutely no idea what effect these letters actually have on him

[lohstandfound]

hm.... exploring jake as nonbinary/agender who very much performs the act of masculinity because that is what is expected of him and coming to terms that he doesn't have to be, maybe he doesn't have to force himself into that mould

[petrow1tch]

They weren't lying, this psychological recovery journey got hands