#everything feels hopeless

[electricangels]

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[dreamingatnights]

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[abyssal-cryptid]

I have barely eaten for two weeks and its very much catching up to me. This year has been awful. Ive nearly offed myself multiple times. Im starving and every day I find it harder and harder to eat. My ED is loving this. Im too disabled to go to the store rn and they denied my application for disability transport so Im stuck at home for the forseeable future

[lazylittledragon]

can anybody who's made it beyond 22 please tell me i'm going to be ok

[coyoteprince]

If you are the spiritual sort, we would appreciate some kind energy. Bincy may not have much time with us left and both Gob and I are emotionally wrecked.

[afsosville]

Ever After High, but make it a PIDW AU.

Imagine how fucked up it would be if Shen Jiu is up there doing the book signing ceremony that seals his destiny of becoming the next 'Shen Qingqiu', and the mirrors display him getting thrown away by his martial siblings at the trial, and his limbs being torn off and other despicable tortures, and being brought down so low that your humanity is stripped away from you, all for an audience to see. And they cheer. The crowd is ecstatic, perhaps even more so than when his father, Shen Qingqiu, was put on trial.

[vt-scribbles]

anyone else profoundly tired

[tacagen]

one of the things that fascinate me about thawne: yes, he CAN be normal with kids! surprisingly normal!

((not at all times, though. his mental illness still spills through and as usual he, in trying to manipulate or hurt others, spits out at them the exact stuff that would hurt him (or have in his childhood/barry's rejection interpretation) the most in the first place lmao))

but at the same time. his like second instinct when doing his bullshit is FUCK THEM (as) KIDS

(and, well. whatever this classifies as)

[coffeegnomee]

ZAM: “we lowkey gotta be careful. Kaboodle’s been stalking me”

MAPICC: “pfft. What is her like- with taking shit. She a pacifist-stalker now. She wanna be us so bad”

[claitea]

joining you in the pla ruined my life club. also the idea that people confessing to volo about how much they liked him and they wish he wouldn’t have turned all evil on him would actually make him feel worse bc they just liked a facade? man. trying to hurt me huh. it’s like he’s allergic to genuine connection and is obsessed with making people hate him for no reason

YEAHHH ITS LIKE. what i like abt pokemas's volo is that we're getting a better look at exactly how he thinks and feels and what it is is that he literally. cannot identify when people are being positive to him anymore. he is Always on the defensive as a survival tactic so Everything must be treated as some kind of slight against him or a manipulation. because clearly something happened in the past to make him that distrustful! he literally cannot afford to trust again or whatever made him be this way could happen to him again!

what volo needs is a friend. but he wouldnt know one even if they fell from the sky, collected the plates and then beat his ass at spear pillar.

[aroaessidhe]

2024 reads / storygraph

The Brightness Between Us

twisty YA sci-fi, sequel to The Darkness Outside Us

17 years later, Ambrose and Kodiak are raising their two surviving children on an isolated planet

their rebellious daughter wants to explore further, but after making a small discovery she learns there’s more about their circumstances than she knew, while her reserved older brother is going through some strange experiences of his own

with a dual narrative of Ambrose and Kodiak on earth before they leaving to space, finding out the truth about the titan mission, and learning more about the resistance in a dying world on the brink of war

[skeletoninthemelonland]

never lay down in bed right after eating. don't think about staying on your phone for nearly two hours in that position. don't sleep either. acid reflux is real and i hate that guy

[what-state-is-cheese]

To any Americans currently contemplating suicide: Do you really want that wrinkled, old, dustless cheeto to win? To outlive you? Because I guarantee you, that bitch is like 80 yrs old and he aint got that much longer till he kicks the bucket, don't you want to be there when he does?. Trust me when I say that the satisfaction of finally seeing this wretched old man die will outweigh whatever you think death will achieve tenfold

[mad--sad--bad]

No matter which way I go, I always see dead ends.

[ball-of-butter]

MAJOR the burning god spoilers!!

rin despised tearza for sacrificing her island and their people for her love of the red emperor. then she found out that that was a lie constructed by a very racist and patriarchal nikara, who wanted to deny women and speerlies power and agency. and then rin discovered that tearza sacrificed herself for the betterment of the entire world, knowing that the violence against speerlies would never end, that the entire world would not stop until the island was eradicated, and it was either the island or the genocide of nikan. and after nikan, who else would she have to slaughter? and THEN rin found out that the red emperor and tearza were in love, enough that the emperor immortalised her in stone as his white empress, but hated her enough to erase her people, her narrative, her name and agency. everything, only because she killed herself to save everyone else.

and this is what gets me about rin’s death. not that she actually died, but because she sacrificed herself for the same reasons tearza did. history and the moving in vicious cycles and ohhh im sick. so it wouldn’t be just her that died on that island, it would be everything that she’d accomplished. for all of rin’s satisfaction throughout tbg as she swept over the country with her southern army, grimly pleased that she could erase vaisra and the yin legacy and replace it with her own dreams, her speerly taint, its so highly implied that nikara won’t remember her for any of that. she’ll be the girl who killed herself because she was so in love with nezha, and do we really trust him to uphold her story when it threatens his rule, his duty?

[lonelyandlostintime]

“You have so much to do and I have nothing ahead of me” type of evening… maybe in another universe I’m not eternally longing for happiness and burdening the people around me with the weight of my unhappiness and failure