#everyone is sleep and im crying again
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I’m just checking in to tell u guys I cherish all the nice things you e said to me as I process this loss. I’ve never had someone in my direct family and I feel like I’m dying inside. i miss her so much and don’t know what to do. I wish I could’ve been a better great grandchild to her. I can’t sleep and can’t think and I’m in so much pain. but sometimes to calm down I read your messages of reassurance. I’m so thankful to have such sweet friends who care for me. I love you all and hope to get better soon so I can talk to you all again soon, but I still need some time
#I really hope this doesn’t seem too baby of me???#im just#lost and lonely#everyone is sleep and im crying again#but I just need to talk#I don’t know#im sorry if this seems stupid#I love u guys#꒰ᐢ. .ᐢ꒱ chitchat 💬 ₊˚⊹
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somehow i managed to speedrun every injury/situation which landed me in the emergency room this year last night👍 emergency room wrapped if you will
#burned my hand ✅ allergic reaction✅ mental breakdown✅ got a period✅#i may as wll just walk into the sea tbh#and yes; fc i managed to burn my hand the exact same place i did last time#it's not as severe as that first rime but the skin there is extremely thin and sensitive for heat so yeah. wanted to fucking die#had to hold a cold coke in my hand in order to fall asleep actually 🥲 and eat dubious amounts of painkillers🥲#and then my lip just fucking swelled again#and i thought ok. this might as well just happen. it'll go away if i just sleep#and then it didn't so yeah im just sitting here looking completely botched#i suspect that i reacted to the aspirin i took but there's no way to know so idk#and i have work later today so im just. going to cry or something#merry Christmas everyone
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talked to my friends about fortnite cause onea em keeps asking me to play and i was like 'you know my rules' which invites our other friend to start talking about how well they modeled magneto In Fortnite because he knows My Rules and overall how cool he was and chat when i tell you i was trying very hard not to be a freak about magneto to this person who does not know I Am A Moderate Freak About Magneto ...
#snap chats#i think he's catching on to the fact im unwell but let me be delusional a little longer...#nawww cause this friend was like 'i love how they modeled his head without the helmet :)' and i screamed internally#he definitely knows cause i literally stood up and did a zesty little contained spin after he said that#like yeah i know my wifes beautiful what do you want from me to throw up and cry on the spot because i will#like oh my god be normal for fiiiive seconds#anyway they visited cause they went to new york today and Friend 1 brought me back jollibees.....#new snap lore detail for those not in the know I Fucking Love Jollibees So Much <- filipino chicken place and heaven on earth#i am married to that bee idgaf that is my wife THEIR PIES ARE SO GOOD ADN I LOVE THEIR GRAVY AN PASTA AND#anyways. yeah so they stuck around for Way Longer Than Expected JVELKJEKAJV#and we was just talkin ...... im still waiting for them to put magneto back into fortnite...#the day that happens i shouold start streaming again .... lol ..... that wont happen im lying to all of you right now#anyway im sleeping now good night everyone !!!!!!! they should add magneto back into fortnite because i said so
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every time I come back home I experience new mental illnesses -_-
#its not even bad rn it's been nice#there's just so much horrible stuff underneath it all though and i think i just can't handle it#i think im just grieving my entire life every time I come here#and I've been just having these thoughts i guess intrusive thoughts about everyone dying tragically for the laste few days and it's#NOT FUCKING HELPING#idk it's nice we're all nice and both is happening but there's always some new info dropped on me that they just.#expect me to process by myself and i just end up crying at night all the time cause like what am i supposed to do#yeah sorry for venting again i was getting a bit better at not doing tht but i neeed it rn ToT#k i think i just need to go to sleep and maybe ill forget everything tomorrow or something idk#vent#vent post
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My nose is clogged in the most annoying way 😭
#it feels like i could be getting sick (i want everyone to know i first typed dick 😭😭) but i dont knoe#everythung wrong wiht me rn#also why is it 22 degrees in this room and why does it feel even warmer and why isnt the open window helping me#i feel so tired but i cant do this i cant do sleeping rn and im fucking hungry again#lol cry more
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okay is it actually my new meds making me feel shit or is it me choosing to listen to sufjan stevens before 7am on a work day. 😶🌫️
#it probably doesnt help watching miserable movies and then crying myself to sleep early.... well.#ik it might just be me placebo effecting w these meds so trying not to fall into it. tbf its been a stupidly busy few weeks#and being tired and in pain makes it difficult to stay afloat! and ive missed both gym sessions i wanted to do this week#and i always feel shite when i miss a gym session or two... whatever i already agreed to try it for two months anyway#at least this is my last working day this week..... lord work is gonna feel long tho they surprised me with 20x samples yesterday#so thats like. at least 5 continuous hours of work. lets just get it over with#AND im lonely i want to talk to someone abt all this health shit and this overwhelming urge im having to get Out#but my roommate is too low empathy to give a fuckkk and it clearly makes her uncomfortable and everyone else is too busy#but thats okay ive always gotten thru shit alone before and ill do it until i die innit. not that big a deal anyway im being melodramatic#man i need to start getting laid regularly again. irrelevant but not really its always a bit relevant i <3 thinking with my dick#sigh.....okay well see yall later#.diaries
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#tfw u think ur gonna go to bed at 9pm bc its winter and my body wants to sleep 9hrs every night rn#but instead u decide to watch one of the most agonizing movies on the face of the planet and cry for like 3hrs#and now its 11:30 and im so so sad#god damm. i kno everyone says it but Schindlers list man. ive never cried so much watching a movie#its really very good but like in a: im gonna think abt it for the rest of my life but i never wanna see it again sort of way#bc i dont want to wear away the emotional impact it had the 1st time#ugh. again im making bad choices. i should be reading papers not procrastinating 😒#unrelated
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I was so pessimistic about this christmas and then I went and spent the entire dinner in tears. ate all my words one by one
#and not even sad tears smh#ruined my tough guy reputation#it's just that my mom's been through so much and this is the first time ever she hosts a holiday like this#and there's family over and there's so much food and everyone is well and happy#and like. that may not sound like much but it is. it is So much#it means the world#and it's a thousand little things. there's napkins. there's juice. there's meat. there's garlic sauce. there's pretty plates#it sounds rly silly when i put it like this but it's genuinely so grand#there's family over and we can give them a comfortable place to sleep. there's so much food no one will have to cook tomorrow at all#and my mom is so happy.#fuck im gonna cry again
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Oh my god why........ why would someone do this omg.... feminism would have saved them all... lesbianism too...
#the song about infidelity reira was so sure wasn't about infidelity akdnksnsks now everyone thinks takumi is cheating akdnskns#but its the same thing with nana and yasu in the end... ren would understand... but nana doesn't qkdjksk ...so hachi didnt answer nobu.....#FIREWORKS BY THE RIVER??? NOBUUUUUUUUUUU OH MY GOOOD PLEASE!!! nana is reading shin's ero novel 😭😭 THANK YOU SHIN!!! AAAAAAAAAHHHHHH 😭😭#so nana is getting married... and also starts talking like hachi... after she noticed nobu doing the same thing... also reira with takumi..#“i had enough money to take care of hachi and her baby” OH MY GOD PLEASEEEEE PLEASEEEE 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻 tears in my eyes already#shin is so me... he was so excited for nobu to try to get hachi... PLEASEEE damn i hope hachi is sad as fuck i hope she had a horrible day#fourteen weeks.... three and a half months... FUCK!!! DONT NAME HER SACHIKO WHAT THE HELL!! BECAUSE OF TAKUMI???!! KILL HIM!!! BACK ON MY BS#REIRA KILL HIM!!!! omg shoji... serial cheater... but that was kinda cute.... remember when shoji cheating felt like an apocalypse... yeah#nobu looks like shoji 😭😭😭 girl the flashbacks youre gonna give her 😭😭 shin as misato... my otp truly if there was no evil in the world#OH WAIT THE LONG HAIR LIKE NANA WISHED FOR A BF FOR HACHI AKDJAKSK YES HES TONNA GET HER BACK!!! I BELIEVEEEEEEEEE I BELIEVEEEEE#THATS IT????? NO REUNION YET??? THE TEASER?? THEY END UP REUNITING AGAIN?? THATS HACHIS CHILD!! WITH BLACK HAIR LIKE NANA!!#where tf is nana... what sorrow... do not fuck with me rn... hachi wearing the wedding ring still... this can't be.... nobu id you dont have#and affair with this married woman... i swear to god.... HE HAS MONEY NOW!!! COME ON!! FUKCING SHOJIIIIIIII NOOOO GET YOUR PUSSY UP HACHI!!#OOOOOH SHE SAID FUCK NOBU IM GETTING BACK HACHI... that “i really want to see you. hurry up” that was criminal 😳 im normal about it#OH NANA CAME OUT SWINGING!! THAT WIG LIKE THE GREEN GOBLIN MASK!! CHRIST SHES GONNA GET HACHI BACK ONE EAY OR ANOTHER#shin telling thag to yasu... like he wouldn't know... christ please don't pull them apart (nobu and nana) that's so fucking sad man...#nobu went to tokyo to her... to play for her.... my god.... NOBU PLEASEEEEEEE NOOOOOOOP GET UUUUUUUP NOOOOO#WHAT DO YOU MEAN OKAY YOU WILL HACHI??? YOURE JUST GONNA ACCEPT TAKUMI CHEATING??? NANA CRASH THAT FUCKING WEDDING I SWEAR TO GOD!#she wanted to hold nanas hand like nobus 😭😭 but didnt bc she thinks she would think shes selfish?? FOR WHAT??? DOING WHAT BOTH WANT???#MY GOD!!!!! ENOUGH!!!! THE SONG I LIKE!!! ENOUGH!! WHERE IS SHE????#well i havent cried.... it broke my soul and spirit but i havent cried. thats something at least right. oh my god.#nana looking at the wedding ring... there is no fucking way man what the hell. heteronormativity is a prison#there must be some good good ending fanfics at least right....#well the answer is they have all changed and noticed that they did not need what they wanted as it wont make them happy#so now hachi has her house and nana has her rockstar title but nobody fucking wanted it like this.... christ...#i was like oh nana got la la landed already?? and she got la la landed again but worse. also hachi too. alright. whatever#how am i supposed to sleep now. what the hell and i can't even cry im just baffled by everything. christ#god please bring my family back together.... god please.....#why isn't nana there why is nobu why can't he still take the step forward omg.... HE HAS MONEY HE CAN TAKE CARE OF YOU BOTH!! NANA CAN!!!!#watching nana
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why are only crazy manipulative narcissistic guys into me!!! leave me alone!!!
#this is excluding avery#anyways tho. i genuinely only attracted these deeply insecure rude narcissists#covert narcissists love me and i hate it so much#ive been able to see thru them faster n faster#but they always OBSESS over me and i hate it#im so much of a people pleaser and rly dont like to make people feel bad so i feel forced into playing into it#EVEN WHEN I KNOW ITS MANIPULATION I HATE IT#CHERRY ON TOP IS THEYRE ALWAYS UGLY AND ATTRACTED TO ME JUST BC IM THE COOLEST PERSON THEY COULD SLEEP WITH#screaming crying pissing#its so bad#and i feel like i cant say no i dont want a relationship with you!!!! bc he will have a whole mental breakdown!#and emotionally manipulate his partner about it afterward!!!!!#im exploding everyone into a million itty bitty pieces everywhere#im overdramatic but im also angry at how he treats avery#but again. cant say anything or he will have a whole menty b
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Pretty fucked that im expected to go into work tomorrow (at 6am no less) 0 likes and i will cough on all my boss's shit
#wheh#personal bitching#im not going to actually as much as i loathe the concept of being forced to work while still being potentially contagious i am just mad#maybe I'll cough too hard and start crying and theyll send me home out of pity (likely bc its happened like 5 times already today)#like im supposed to be off sunday anyway why bother making me come in for one shift when i could be doubling down on getting better#and yknow. NOT putting everyone i work with + the hundreds of strangers who come through our store at risk#it's gonna be nearly a week until i can even sleep next to my girlfriend again and you expect me to give a FUCK about making sandwiches??
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In Ho headcanons | (NSFW)
Pairing: Hwang In-ho (player 001/the front man) x Fem!reader
Genre: headcanons, smut
Warning: dead dove do not eat, manipulation, dub/noncon, age gap, might be more but im too lazy to write it down
A/N: not proof read. thanos story in the works rn!! I have writers block so to help a little I'm making some hcs 4 this baddie (prob ooc)
hwang inho, the man that protected you from Thanos and his stupid friend during the first day of the games. he shoo'ed them away. stopping their harassment and took you with him with the rest of the group
hwang inho, the man that gives you his milk. reassuring you every time that its okay for you to have it, and it'll help you get stronger.
hwang inho, the man that checks up on you throughout the night. standing over you to make sure you're getting your nights rests. making sure no creeps try touching your delicate skin.
hwang inho, the man that lets touches linger a little longer than they should, whether its on your hands, thighs, waist..his touches feel more than platonic
hwang inho, the man that tells the guards to make sure you stay safe, to kill a player that hasn't broken the rules if they had to. anything to make sure you stay safe.
hwang inho, the man that would excuse himself to the bathroom just to touch himself to the thought of you. whether its your calm voice or plush hands that feel so soft and delicate...he just couldn't help it.
hwang inho, the man that squeezes your thighs when no ones looking...and when you express discomfort he used his past generosity as an excuse for it.
hwang inho, the man that will kiss you in the middle of the night with no warning. telling you to be quiet and take the kiss because if it were any other man it would've been worse.
hwang inho, the man that will find the perfect timing to sneak away from everyone else with you. he'll make you strip for him in the bathroom. savoring every inch of your body before he sends you away, leaving him in there alone to masturbate.
hwang inho, the man that wont let you sleep. he'll grope and squeeze your thighs, tits and ass. feeling you up while you hold in tears.
hwang inho, the man that reminds you this is your fault when you cry to him during a bathroom strip session. expressing how uncomfortable this makes you and how you don't want it anymore.
hwang inho, the man that will tell you nothing in the world is free. and your body will be the payment he receives for being so generous with you.
hwang inho, the man that gets hard thinking about your age gap. how youre only 19 and he's in his 40's..he loves it.
hwang inho, the man that slips his fingers inside of you when the lights are off, fingering you aggressively. reminding you once again that it'd be so much worse if he wasn't such a nice man.
hwang inho, the man that captures you during the raid against the guards. forcing you to stare into the eyes of your past friends as he kills them.
hwang inho, the man that keeps you as his pet after the games end. reminding you you're lucky because he spoils you with money.
hwang inho, the man that doesn't let you socialize with anyone after he's gotten his grip on you.
Another not: this one is pretty short compared to my last fic, this was to just try n get me out of writers block. expect a Thanos fic to pop up tmr. sorry if this sucked/was ooc, I tried my best T T~~
#ᡣ𐭩 saymio#squid game smut#squid game fanfic#squid game 2#squid game x y/n#squid game#squid game x you#squid game x reader#yandere x reader#x reader#yandere x you#yandere#in ho x reader#hwang inho#inho x reader#player 001#the front man#the front man x reader#fanfic#smut#young il#young il x reader#oh young il#hwang in ho#dead dove fic#dead dove do not eat#prob ooc#headcanon
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little preview of the photoshoot I tried to do today. let's play~can you find the answer? who am I? 🎭
don't know if I got any good photos. I had to be the model and photographer because I don't have friends to do photography or cosplays with here. my camera remote didn't work so I had to run back and forth and pose within 10 second timer. it was exhausting. I also kept slipping in the mud and tripping on things because sparkles shoes have heels and i'm not used to it fbdbsjjjs it was also windy as hell. the wind blew over my camera and broke my tripod. luckily the camera survived and is fine 🫣 but I had to cut the shoot short. it was also so cold i lost the ability to use my fingers. sparkle isn't dressed for 4c/40f temps. so the photos could have all come put bad and I don't get to post any lmao. maybe i'll at least post a couple of selfies I took after camera went for a ride to the ground. but that will be later. after the shoot I walked down to the sakura festival, bought some art and stuff from the local artists there, and stood in line for food and bubble tea for 2 hours. they got very backed up and started running out of stuff and were very panicked, so not sure if they forgot the boba in my tea or they ran out....and i may have also gotten the wrong food. but thats ok. there were only 2 of them and they were trhujf their best to fufill like 50 orders.
i'm very pain and very exhausted and didnt bring my cane to support my wacky joints since my hands were full with camera and bags and stuff. AND i'm at work now. I just sat down to take a break and fell asleep for idk how long lmao. I can barely move but need to sweep and mop the floors 🫡 anyway, that was my day. how was yours?
also wish to one day have a group of cosplaying nerd friends to photograph for fun or at least a photographer friend to help me out 😆 this was rough

#cant promise there will be any decent photos but i tried my best at least!!!#people at the festival kept telling me they liked my outfit/mask/makeup/contacts#only one person asked if im sparkle and another asked if im cosplaying star rail#everyone who doesnt know star rail was probably like ???????? at what i aas wearing lmao but i aasnt going to completely change in public so#i just went with it. i owned it. i was waiting to see if my spooky red contacts could make a kid cry. but none did. they didnt care 🤷#day-lees#if you read this i hope you enjoyed my story i guess lmao#i wish my internet was fixed so i can stream again. this would have been a great story to tell chat while playing star rail#i haven't streamed in almost a year probably. i got busy and then my internet got horrible. still busy but wish i could have streamed 2.1#but i also never have things to talk about on stream since i do nothing but work and sleep and star rail and genshin. i finally did a thing#and i have no one to tell it to. so i tell you tumblr youre welcome
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getting caught listening in ⋆✴︎˚。⋆

summary: vi knows you've been listening in on her.
tags: 18+ mdni men dni dom!vi, sub! reader, listening in, teasing, fingering, vi eating reader out, reader riding vi's face, soft!vi.
note: as usual, life is absolutely kicking my ass like WHAT THE FUCK uhm anyways im back to writing. im praying for this week to go by fast so i can get a break oh LAWD.
You feel gross. But also extremely good.
At first it was annoying, hearing every scream, every moan through thin paper walls at your shared dorm with Vi. Every time she brought a girl over, you would lose hours of sleep, again and again and again.
It's either the girl Vi is fucking moaning at the top of her lugs or Vi herself whining like a bitch. It left you so angry, but you never confronted her, because who actually has the balls to go to your dorm mate and say "hey would you quit having sex so fucking loud?".
You would rather just put on some headphones and call it a day.
Until that damn week came. That week before your period when you just want to fuck everyone and everything. It's specifically worse for you, for some reason.
So when you go to get a glass of water in the middle of the night and the sounds start once again, your body can't even get annoyed. Especially because this time, Vi didn't close the door all the way, leaving a creak open.
"a-ah! oh! oh fuck~!" looks like Vi was getting fucked that time.
So every single time, from that day. You lean agaisnt her door, touching yourself, listening to her filthy moans. Except one time, you actually moan a tad bit too loud. You don't think anyone noticed, since they didn´t stop.
But Vi knows. And god you can't even imagine how thrilled she is. She does EVERYTHING extra loud, moaning, whining, crying, grunting, begging, cumming. Everything.
But a problem comes up. Her usual hookup girlie hasn't had time for her, ignoring her texts and calls. So she is practically posessed, obviously more pent up. She resorts to just touching herself that night, moaning loudly. But it's just not enough. She needs someone, and right now, the nearest person to her is you.
You were so focused on making yourself feel good, layed down on your stomach and playing with your pretty clit, that you didn't even hear the heavy steps coming towards your bedroom door.
Suddenly your door slams open, causing your eyes to widen and your hand to move away from that sweet spot. oh no. you're totally going to get fucking humiliated, torn to shreds and get called a pervert. your life is over.
"Vi-" Your voice is shaky and ridiculously breathy. it's almost a cry, your mind trying to come up with some sort of excuse.
But before you can, Vi is already pouncing on the bed, turning you over, tongue entertwining with yours in a matter of seconds, muscular, tattooed arms locking your body in a cage as you cry into her mouth, almost as if saying "what the fuck is going on".
One of her hands trails down to your panties, fingers going underneath them and slipping in your pussy so easily that it makes you want to die of embarassment.
You pull away from her mouth, yelling. "fuck!! oh- ah! w-wait, i dont-"
Your heartbeat has skyrocketed in a matter of seconds, feeling Vi's thick fingers heat that sweet, sweet spot you love so much when you listen to her getting fucked. Except this time it's her fingers.
"Vi what is going on?" it's such a cute cry you let out, making her moan in your ear.
"oh just didn't to make you- hah... upset that my hookup didn't show up." she laughs. oh. so she has known huh.
you can't help but feel guilty, despite OBVIOUSLY knowing now that Vi clearly isn't bothered. "im sorry, im really sorry..." you cry out, spreading your legs further for her.
"trust me, don't be." she laughs, huffing into your ear. "yeah thats right just... spread your legs... yeah..." she groans, the pace of her fingers making you squirm and moan so loud that you get why the other girls weren't quiet at all.
your pussy clenches around her fingers, wet noises coming out, your body arching closer to her.
"you're so cute...so pretty, touching yourself because of me. do you like what you hear, hm?" Vi whispers into your ear, earning a frantic nod from you.
She kisses your temple "is it better hearing it up close? feeling it?" Teasing tone. Of course, just the right atittude to make your eyes roll back.
"fuck, please! just a little bit faster! oh-!" great, you're already begging, body twitching in a matter of minutes.
But Vi isn't done with you.
How many minutes has it been. Maybe a half an hour already. Vi's tongue lappig up at your cunt, tongue sliding in and out over and over again. god she gives great head, it makes you want to cum into her mouth right then and there.
you let out those " hm hm hm" sounds, biting your bottom lip so hard, head falling back, a blissed expression on your face.
"hmm... hmf... who does this pussy belong to, mmh...?" vi says, voice breathy and ugh every time she speaks your body feels like it's about to fall apart.
"yours vi, it's yours..." you say, rocking your hips. you pray that girl never answers her texts again. you'd rather have her tongue on you instead.
"good girl, fuck, you taste so sweet..." she spreads your legs further if thats even possible, kissing at your needy bundle of nerds as your hips chase her tongue. "you could have just asked me for this, you know..."
you wish you could answer, but your mouth just elts out repeated whines, moans or whatever you're screaming. next time you want her to fucking rail you, and you would let her if it wasn't so late. there is one thing you have the courage to ask though.
"can i ride your face- mh-please?" and how can she say no when you ask so nicely?
Now you're sat on her face, hips rolling agaisnt her mouth, letting out sweet sounds, not so animalistic anymore, not because you're not turned on, but because she handles you so good that you're getting tired. you feel heat pooling up even more below your belly, seeing Vi just eat the fuck out of you. literally.
her hands grip your hips, eyes opening ocasionally to look at you eye to eye and kiss your pussy sweetly. you let out one final, strangled moan, hips twitching, white liquid dripping into her tongue as your head lolls to the side.
she sucks your sweet nectar up, seeing you hold onto the bed frame, smiling at how cute you look when you're tired.
she caresses your ass, kissing your clit a few times before making you hop off her face and lay down on top of her.
"satisfied, pretty girl?"
"yes...."
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tonight has been so fucking weird
#small vent in the tags cause you know i love talking in the tags#aaaaaaahhhhhh#just had the worst panic attack#ive been freaking the fuck out but im doing my best to stay calm and not make shit worse#no matter how bad i feel that would just make things worse for everyone#i dont really know what to do here though#ok im back again editing this after i just finished crying how are we doing#i have to prioritize becoming a better person and i refuse to risk falling into old habits again#so. yeah. im gonna do that 👍#going to sleep now cause im so exhausted goodnight everyone
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never felt exactly like this before
#so used to failing lately the idea of trying again feels like something that will be laughed at if i bring it up#quietly reapplying to school to go into stem field#i just feel like this is stupid and im gonna waste money and fail again no matter how much i want this#i feel like IM stupid#im having a little bit of a moment feeling excruciatingly stupid#yes almost everyone in my life will go on at length about how smart they think i am but i am HAUNTED violently so by the times#that ive been told i seem like i would drop out or im not focused or im just stupid and fixated on shit and im trying not to cry about it#i know im not dumb but im tired of wasting money and feeling like a waste as a person#i cant believe i screwed up my academics for men year after year so FUCKING stupid so so fucking stupid#the self confidence is fake here yall im less self confident than i was ten years ago i question every little thing now#i am so so lost in life and that makes me feel so so fragile#trying not to sink into the feeling of dead ends and dread because well#dread triggers my narcolepsy lmao and i cant afford to sleep the rest of the day rn#i both feel like i could do this and get it done and be quiet about it but then i also feel like#i could lay here and rot until i die and that sounds equally as tempting#i feel so childishly stupid when i think about my life like i expected something other than reality and reality is a little defeating honest#but thats life isnt it
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