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cloudy says he’s a big fan of this whole “mom’s horribly out of shape so all we do when she rides me is walk around in the ring for a while, trot a little bit, and then go for a trail ride around the farm” thing
#cloudy#horse#my pets#i’m getting there tho!#today we are to trot for a lot longer#i thought about trying to canter today since i felt pretty good#but decided against it#since i want to ride tomorrow and sunday too#and i don’t want to be too sore#anyway cloudy was a very good boy as always#even tho it was dinner time#and the sun was setting so there were scary shadows everywhere#i’m trying to build up my stamina with the trail rides#since it keeps me in the saddle for longer even if it’s just walking#plus it keeps things interesting
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i think you guys are onto smth..
i unironically got invested in this HELP
#WHERES THE FIC AT IF SOMEONE WRITES THIS I WILL PAY THEM A HUNDRED DOLLARS😭😭#kunikida serving the country while dazai's serving cunt😔#dazai was born to malewife but forced to manipulate and i think that's the greatest tragedy of bsd#anyway some facts i would like to share abt this au thay i came up w while drawing!!#takes place in 1939 (start of wwii) and there was a mandatory draft that required one male over eighteen from each house to serve#both of them are still twenty two and had been engaged for abt two years before getting married that year#newlyweds! unfortunately kuni had to go fight and they were seperated :(#before the war kunikida was a math teacher at the local high school and dazai obviously managed the household and didn't work#he's hopeless at cooking and meal prep even w recipie books so they either get those prepackaged meals or kuni makes dinner when he gets ba#so like when he's making lunch for kunikida he normally just packs a basic sandwich w raw fruit#kunikida always appreciates the effort even tho hes probably sick of having the same thing everyday but he won't complain abt it#when kunikida joined the army he was relieved that the mess hall had better food than dazai#he was the only one in his platoon that never complained abt the food so his fellow soldiers assumed it was bc he came from a tough bg#when in reality he was just used to being poisoned on a daily basis from his dumbass husbands cooking and was hardly fazed from army ration#they write to each other although its more dazai sending and kuni receiving bc hes off fighting and doesnt have time to write back#dazai talks abt life on the homefront and how he has to grow a victory garden (everything is DYING HE CANT EVEN RAISE TOMATOES)#and kuni writes abt his fellow soldiers and how the war is going and when he thinks he'll be home and how he misses sleeping in a bed#ANYWAY yea thought i'd share sry for infodumping in the tags again#this post is for like the four ppl that care abt this specific flavor of knkdz so hopefully this gets four notes at least#bungou stray dogs#bungo stray dogs#dazai osamu#osamu dazai#kunikida doppo#doppo kunikida#kunikidazai#knkdz#lotus draws#bro sry for posting at two in the morning i couldnt sleep until i got this out of my head they have infested my brain
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Sub Bucky and a breeding kink 💀 dead unlived it's one of my favourite things 😌
This is pretty high up there on my list of dream fantasies 🥵 these are two of my biggest weaknesses, don't even look at me rn
One of life's greatest joys is cuddling with the other person's head resting on your chest so you can play with their hair and rub their shoulders. I love that shit, having someone else's body weight on you is so comforting.
I imagine that's something Bucky would really enjoy too. It's so soft and sweet and tender and getting to feel cared for would really appeal to him.
But that's up until his hands work their way under your top, up over your bare skin so he's able to cup your breasts and bury his face between them while he's getting his hair played with. Life's pleasures don't get much simpler than that.
After a few moments he shifts slightly, tugging the neckline of your shirt out of the way to give himself space to kiss and nip your skin. All of a sudden he's desperate and it's beautiful to watch.
"Please." He whispers between frantic kisses, flicking his tongue over the stiff peak of your nipple before engulfing it with his warm, eager mouth.
"Please, what?" You tease, tugging on his hair just a little for emphasis.
He groans, frustrated by his own lack of coherence, pulling his mouth from your nipple. "Please let me put a baby in you."
That's not what you were expecting but fuck, he makes it sound pretty appealing.
"Bucky-" You begin but he cuts you off, giving your other nipple the same attention as he gave the first. God, that's distracting.
"You'd make. Such. A pretty. Mommy." He whispers, kissing his way down your body until he reaches the bottom seam of your top. From there, he pulls it off, letting it fall to the floor before removing the rest of your clothes.
"You'd look so pretty with a little baby bump." His huge hand rests on your bare tummy, imaging how your body would change.
"I want it, Buck." You mean it too. It doesn't sound like such a bad idea when he's taking his clothes off.
"I know you want it." He groans, rubbing the tip of his dick against your soaked core. "Y-you're so wet."
He presses his hips forward, sliding inside you and you can't explain it but you swear it feels different this time.
"Don't even think about pulling out." You cup his face in your hands, keeping his eyes on you and you almost worry he's going to fuck himself senseless into you. "I want you to make me a mommy. You're going to give me every single drop of cum and when it starts to drip out of me, you're going to fuck it back in."
His head falls onto your shoulder, sobbing a pathetic moan against your already hot skin. The pace of his thrusts matches his need, his hips slamming into yours and when he finally gives in, he cums inside you with your legs clamped around his waist, making sure he couldn't pull out even if he wanted to.
#asks answered <3#becca writes spice#anon#sub!bucky#subby bucky#this is one of those fantasies that's nice in my head#I think I'd like to be at that point in my life but it's absolutely not where I'm at rn#maybe some day tho#I started writing a new series yesterday#making a lil moodboard#excited to post the concept#can't decide if I want each chapter to feel like a continuation of the one before#or if I want the chapters to be more detached from each other with time passing in between#might actually space it out over a weekend?#I took my lil granny out for lunch today and she's just the cutest#she usually comes up to ours for Sunday lunch but my parents were out this weekend#so I made her dinner last night and took it down to her and I asked if she wanted to go out for Sunday lunch for a change#she made me book the table right there in front of her so she'd be able to look forward to it 🥺#I sat with her for over an hour yesterday evening and she smiled nearly the whole time#she's too cute I swear
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yuuta from his position at the foot of the bed (bc you’re totally mad at him and definitely not fighting off the urge to cuddle despite your anger bc of his big wet eyes that shimmer with how much he loves you) telling u goodnight and if he can give u a goodnight kiss and you’re like sigh fine but yuuta doesn’t reach up to all the way where u are with ur head on his favorite pillow. instead he shifts the covers so your knee is exposed to the cool air from the ac and he gives your knee a little kiss and pets the back of your thigh. he really just wants to feel your warmth in any way he cans and you’re happy to indulge him in this way if it means u can still keep up the angry front. anyways he hums goodnight to you as he curls up on his end of the bed, respecting your space even as u want to reach out to him. by morning you’ve found your way into his arms anyways
He’s actually so sick……… kissing your knee what the fuck!! The image of him just kneeling at the side of the bed and looking up at you and begging to kiss you goodnight even tho you’re mad at him….. he is a sick sick individual and the worst part is that he’s such a dizzying mix of completely genuine and completely calculated. He doesn’t want to fight anymore, he really is sorry, he really doesn’t want you to be angry; but at the same time he knows how much you love it when he touches you so gently, he knows you’ve both grown accustomed to falling asleep in each others arms, he’s hoping to give you just enough to make you come back for more…
Honestly, I doubt he falls asleep. He’s hoping you’ll forgive him, he’s hoping you accept his apology, but he can’t be certain. So he curls up on his side of the bed and tries to steady his breathing as much as possible, but it’s hard. He misses you; you’re right there and he misses you. Thirty minutes pass by and he turns around to face your body; your back is still to him but at least he can see you. He wants to touch you, he wants to hold you…. he wonders if it’ll make you mad if he does, but by an hour of wondering he decides if it’s worth the risk. You’re probably asleep anyway… he starts small, just a finger caressing your arm, then his palm, then he scoots closer until the tip of his nose is against the back of your neck and he sighs and you shudder and he realizes you’re awake. He takes it as a good sign, that you couldn’t sleep without him either and that you let him touch you, so he becomes bold, smiles against your skin and finally, finally wraps his arms around you so both can rest :((
#anonymous#he’s so previously abandoned recently adopted puppy#like for a dude who spent so much of his life without physical touch and close relationships#you give him some and it changes his life he can’t go back to the way he was living before#he’s sooooo :(((((((((#even tho i think nanami actually gives you you’re space to sleep alone and be mad i think he’s calculated in the same way yuuta is#like he lets you ignore him but also he found time to make your favorite dinner and pick up dessert ……….#he leaves you alone but he also accidentally made two cups of tea and ran a bath…… he’s not slick#yuuta.ask
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obsessed with how the literal second charles first dies in the classic comics magneto finally comes back for the first time in like twenty issues
#snap chats#THEY BEEN NAME DROPPING HIM EVERY OTHER ISSUE SINCE HE FIRST FLED LIKE STOP TAUNTING ME#‘SNAP SPOILERS’ GOD sorry. yeah charles dies in like what. issue 42????#oh bitch i was just guessing yeah it is 42 LMAO#anyways no crying cause the literal last page its all ‘ a moment of silence for our fallen professor.. AND IN NEXT ISSUE MAGNETO’S BACK’#crying tho at pietro going to charles’ funeral and wanting his help for wanda :(((((((((( oh my beautiful boy and my lovely lady …..#also take a shot every time magneto curves a bullet. what is wrong with him.#lol shot. anyways.#group meeting to kick mags’ ass starts in five minutes#ok but Double Crying at pietro sneaking back in the castle cause why does it have the energy of like. some cinderella shit#yk what i mean like sneaking back in the house and toads all IM TELLING MAGNETO 🫵 fucking SNITCH#he doesnt even LIKE YOU stop pissing me off <- i love toad#i live for the drama tho cant lie ….#‘pietro how dare you go to charles’ funeral’ bro just mad he didnt go himself smh. whatever.#but now im forced to imagine pietro sneaking off to meet with charles like once in a blue moon#Can He Help Him And His Sister but now its too late to know …#girl i got so sad when he fled tho … peitro please the fam’ll help you 😭😭😭😭#anyways im about to have dinner with the fam so im gonna have ideas swirling in my brain for the next two hours BYE !!!!!!!!
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Mother Mitsuki, who despite Masaru’s pleas, is way too invested in Bakugou and your relationship.
#pls I LOVE HER!!!#asking if you’re engaged yet every time you both visit for dinner#sending you wedding dress designs when you’re not even engaged#sending bakugou texts telling him to wife you up before you realise your mistake in choosing him and pick Deku instead#gifting the most inappropriate presents to try and get you pregnant#becoming the real bridezilla when you’re finally engaged and she isn’t even the one getting married#he turns up at your hen do to find you and his mum drunk as FUCK together#and he can’t help but shake his head at the sight as he tries to get you both back to his car because he loves you both so much#and he’s so glad you like each other too😭#she’s at the hospital holding you in her arms whenever Bakugou is hurt like you just share the same pain#but god if she sends bakugou one more text with your ovulation schedule he’s blocking her#(he’ll never admit that it’s because of that text that he bends you over— just in case)#and it fills him with so much warmth when he watches you both share memories of him as a kid— even though he was an ugly fucking baby#and like when you both fight Mitsuki always checks up on you too🥺because she knows her son can be brash like her#but she knows that he’s so in love with you and wouldn’t wanna lose you#she’s definitely caught you both having sex in his childhood bedroom too tho
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getting things done and being productive vs I’m cold and my cat is warm and snuggly
#I wasn’t even that ambitious about what I want to get done today. just dishes and put away clothes#but both of those involve removing myself from the warm couch blanket where my cat is snuggling me#soon I should make dinner tho. I’m thinking banana pancakes bc why not#I already made two grown up dinners this week (palak paneer w homemade naan and salmon Caesar salad w homemade dressing and croutons)#it’s breakfast for dinner time. actually#….once I get up
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It is kinda funny seeing people talk about Seungmin lately because he definitely has gotten more bold and confident for sure. He's also just getting opportunities to be perceived as an individual on his own as well for the first time in a while but it's still jarring to see people be like Aw he was always such a quiet goodie two shoes little nerd and it's like...... he was the one to leave and seek out his own vocal coach and blatantly talk about it, which of course lead to I.N and Lee Know also doing the same, he was the one to go on bubble and tell off sasaengs who used to camp outside their old dorm for invading members privacy but also because it effected other residents and staff at the complex, something that i'm certain upper management wouldnt have been happy about, and he wasn't curt or nice about it either. like he's never actually been a wallflower, he's always had a pretty strong backbone and seems to stick to his principals, its not really new.
#even silly shit like bringing up drinking even tho staff has clearly told him not too#like yeah its silly but its still sticking to his guns of being like we arent actually children anymore thanks#the food thing too like in an old 2 kids room he said something about not being able to eat on his bday bc they were filming so evidently#there was a moment in time when he caved to the shitty diet obsession kpop had but ever since hes never really said anything like it again#instead hes telling everyone to eat well and reminding people to have dinner or lunch every other day#even the comment about growing his hair out but then being like lol the stylist probably wont like me saying that or whatever#and like the yeah im going to the gym but im not lifting. dont expect me to bulk up. im doing it for stamina<< that made me cackle#bc i did see people on twt being like but what if seungmin got buff tho omg hed be so hot 🥺 Well him bein buff isnt what this is about#so he went and made sure people were realistic. not everyone needs to be noticeably cut yk#idk maybe bc i watched most all the skz content all the way through#and now i go back and gif stuff i notice patterns more easily than if youve been here for longer and havent watched older stuff#for a while- maybe? idk its just funny but i also see takes a lot and have to stop myself from going No <3#anyway this is my obligatory insane ksm tangent of the week. see you in 5 minutes.#🐶
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hi! birthday. which means it's finally time t
yo what the itch store is fixed up now
damn what? I don't know where this came from. look all the comics I put on g*mr**d a year ago are back here again with all the formatting and typesetting by @fireflysummers as well as the exclusive bonus art wtf who did this. my werewolf comic on here too what the hells!! that one also got re-toned for printing if u want to AND an exclusive cover spread !!! what the fuck!!!!! come see for urself I can't make this shit up
#bakuspecial#comic#itch.io#bakugoods#<- made up a tag for when I sell things that aren't commissions just now#for folks who still remember me talking abt a physical run of these comics: I'm so sorry this year and the last have been brutal#and I live in a well and suffer a curse of international mails never going well. so the logistics became Very complicated#I still think abt it tho! I've prepped up all the assets just bc I thought abt it so much... we picked out a gift print for the orders#And a bonus print for the pack#but I couldn't gather my brain enough to make it happen. yet#it takes a bit of overhead so I gotta build that up. which is. right now talk for after the shit that just happened to me got smoothed out#but I do want it to happen. I've been sitting on this exclusive custom print for like two years now#I really love that drawing its so cute. I still hold that project close to my heart#anyways uhh itch store! happy birthday to me!#last year this time was so rough I didn't even Want to think about my birthday lol#strangely enough with this small little fragmentation grenade we just got I became more motivated to fuck around on my bday lmao#probably out of spite. hammer philosophy#my parents love making a whole thing out of me and the brother's bdays lol so dinner's gonna be something#but for now I can still chill. and prep up stuff. and do my thang#if u look thru the itch store and get something from there thank u so much! I hope the comics treat u well#and now. I make hot drink. have a good day lads! do a little jig for us let's go
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my nelvas and moraak thought crumblets
#text#eaaaaaaaaaasy Peasy#actually i'm upset now because i had to read at least some things m*raak says during DB quest and omfggggg the absolute snoozefest that is#- his character i'm actually knocked out and drooling on my pillow#the fact that he has fans is solely bc he's pushed to the forefront as the big bad. cus he has goldfish IQ and idk.. personality of -#- some pebbles in reality#the only good thing to come out of his existence is The sexxxxxxy ass fact that mora protected him (and then decided to marinate him)#i think he falls flat badly just cause he doesn't have something to fall back on; idk how to describe it tho#i think making the Big Bad the character who is 5000+ but was dormant and useless all the time is um..... it was a choice#idk what's up with him but his character doesn't even have the value it should theoretically#Nah that's crazy bc why does t*lvas have a more interesting personality from like 10 voicelines than that abortion#but i'm not mad cus t*lvas is superior to every other character on that island like i mean it#mostly cus he bounces off n*loth's personality really well. to Me#this might just be my personal bias tho bc i do only like characters that are down-to-earth and 'normal people' more than the ones that r -#- very overblown to the point where they're just marvel villains#i would rather lsiten to some working class elf serving dinner at a political gathering than to anything m*raak has to whine about#i remember saying the same things about m*raak like 2 years ago when i didn't talk much and someone pointed me to a mod or smth and -#- like 🤦♀️ no offense but maybe i will actually take whatever happened in canon over the shakespearian Dookie the fans will be writing -#- about him#i think there's no point in building a bigger and impactful backstory or motives to him if in canon he was meant to be ass#'meant' as in it turned out to be ass#cus i don't actually believe sk*rim characters are rly that much very 'Badly written' really.. and there are things to dig out of what -#- a character has#and if one of them has nothing pleaselet him die . No i'm jk
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Girl is the daughter to some famous guy and he loves her so so so so so so much and doesn't want her to be involved in fame and scandals. So he hires a bodyguard for her so that she can have some freedom and also NOT be seen with him. And bodyguard is just super chill with the man's gushing and doesn't originally try super hard to befriend the girl. It's a job and he just needs her safe and outta the spotlight.
It's going pretty well and is all fine until his friend shows up. Who looks really angy. And glares a lot. So she assumes this friend is just a punk and the bodyguard is like "oh he's nice. he just looks like that when he's nervous."
So when the bodyguard is like "ok i gotta go talk with your dad meaning I can't walk with you to school but I got permission to let my friend walk with you" and she's like okay. I understand. I'm resigned to my fate of never being independent. And then when the guy is like "I need proof or your dad will kill me" and she agrees, HE BEAMS BECAUSE HE GETS TO LIVE ANOTHER DAY. And he shows her the picture and is like "before I send it, this okay with you?" and she nods. She's never seen him smile like that. Huh.
And now the girl has her very loving dad, her loving mom, her protective and kind bodyguard and his weird (boy)friend. And so she has two separate groups of people that love her and she's really happy.
#my bodyguard isnt my dad#since her classmates never see her dad and only see her with the bg they just are like#your dad is really protective huh and shes like oh yeah 100% not know the misunderstanding#and then later her classmates ask her if her dads gay and shes like no??? and doesnt know what else to say#because her dad loves her mom its a really happy married couple wtf#they dont even KNOW her dad ????#then one is like oh yeah i saw that pink haired guy with him again tho they were buying dinner from a convenience store#and shes like OH YOU MEAN HIM no oh no thats.................. hes more like an uncle ?#and the classmates are like OH OK COOL and then it drops cause they dont care about a gay uncle#the gay dad is the drama topic#so she informs her bg that her classmates think hes gay and the two hear cackling from another room#and bg has to be like OH SHUT IT THIS IS YOUR FAULT BY THE WAY YOURE INVOLVED HERE BY BEING MY FAKE BF#and hes like WOW NOT THE FIRST TIME IVE BEEN ACCUSED OF THIS
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I reblogged that post about your favorite childhood meal and now im lying awake at 2:30 thinking about fried backstrap
#ashley if you see this you KNOW how jealous i am every time you say youre making backstrap for dinner#anyway if you dont eat a lot of deer#backstrap is kind of like the deer's tenderloin#it's really tender#and the only way ive ever had it is sliced thin breaded and fried#with gravy#as a texan i do not say this lightly - i have never had anything better fried#i love deer tho its my favorite meat I MISS IT#i want to live somewhere i can hunt :(#i dont even like hunting that much but ill do it for the meat
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as someone who knows what ur prev old man yaoi obsession was it checks out you like cherik.... same dynamic id say
For but a moment i thought you were referring to arasawa but nay you meant xehaqus 😔
#snap chats#as we have covered many a time … thats ok i still love them lowkey ……#‘your prev old man yaoi obsession’ do you have any idea how little that narrows it down#the list is small tho …. its barely a list tbh but anyway#yeah 😔 sorry i like old people in messy divorces …..#girllllll no cauuuussse the kh bbs novel still fucks me up idc if its been years eraqus being so whipped got me twisted …#i mean arasaw could be applicable too ig. Cute Old Man And His Attack Dog Husband yeah that checks out#even got the whole ‘dog’ thing going on an everything… cept one of thems a FREAK ABOUT IT <- charles#anyways. moving on.#i havw to drive in three hours and im gonna be mad all morning but then it’ll be over and my day will significantly improve#shoulsni get myself noodles after class yes or no !!!!!!!!#i wanna save money tho … but now thats its 1AM and i forgot to eat dinner noodles sound so yummy …..#no yk what sucks my fave noodle place aint evwn open on mondays. like excuse me.#WHATEVER i havw TWO noodle spots so CHOKE. i am rambling.#and ill ramble more I Kinda Wanna Get More Comics but all the comics i want arent available at my shop </3#im done rambling now …… goot bye …
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bleh
#blabbering#rambling/whining/complaining/venting ahead:#I think the horrors have finally caught up to me and the depresso is starting to take hold#i don't usually experience this until winter but I think the sudden drop of activity and people going on hiatus and such -#has triggered this early for me#basically I can't be left alone with my thoughts for too long or i start spiraling REALLY badly.#i don't really handle change very well haha...#i have the notorious curse of second guessing anything and everything and putting it on repeat in my head and then amplifying it#which sucks bc I don't have any more escapisms that work now bc this was already my escapism and I have no human connections irl#(I'm not kidding either. I've failed time and time again to make friends irl and was always the proactive one about it. But alas... ugh)#my only source for connections is online bc i struggle to make friends (especially at my age and how my energy keeps depleting and depletin#might lowkey be sharkweek but usually I just get more agitated and not this (this is very specific to the winter horrors™ for me)#i guess I may as well check out the spears while they're around still (tho in between me making dinner). I'm just feeling super bummed out#and not excited like I was the other day about it (ofc I blame the depresso™).#I don't even know what to do for my beta characters. Head empty. Head gone. sigh.#also it sucks bc next week is gonna kick my ass at work (canada day/july 4th/july in general/5 DAYS and long shifts in there too)#i'm going to be so tired and so alone and with nothing to look forward to. Idk what to do bc none of my usual distractions are effective no#No escape. No seretonin. No company. Nothin'. I notice I when i start getting bad like this when I fall back hard into pokemon#(because it was my childhood escapism and I was a neglected only child who was left alone a lot; hence the connection lol)#i'll probably just have to suffer through it and be an absolute wreck of a person i think. I don't really have any other options#watch me get sick again bc canada sucks to work bc everyone has it off and they ALL GO TO THE STORE I WORK AT AND IT SUCKS.#gonna try to draw more too but the depresso is eating my brain worms (the healthy brain worms)
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mannnnnnnnbb fuck November I’m so tired of feeling lonely in my own life.
#lee’s bullshit#even being in [redacted] will not save you from the depths of November#trying to remind myself things are always changing and I can’t stop putting myself out there but I am tired.#what I am doing clearly is not enough in any respect and I am tired of feeling so worn to the bone all the time.#huge social miss today at the function. woke up late and ruined the schedule. couldn’t make a clear decision on dinner.#haven’t found a replacement roommate. haven’t finished my portfolio. haven’t applied to internships. haven’t finished my final project.#behind on everything and with every step I take I get pulled further and further backwards.#my roommate is graduating early and i feel like it’s my fault.#i shouldn’t blame myself for someone else’s bad behavior but im still beating myself up for being a cause for it.#my other roommate wants to move out to live on her own next year.#also blaming myself for that even tho its always on me to fix the mess of housing every damn semester#I’m just so tired of feeling like I’m not doing enough and even when I am that it just simply doesn’t matter.#saw one of my friends today but only for an hour. texting the group is like sending a blind pigeon out in a gale.#I know that things will get better but it’s just so hard . if someone genuinely asked how I was doing I could cry on the spot.#none of my friends are close enough anymore not at home not at school not in my family. there’s nowhere to go.#just tired. Going to go to bed soon. Hopefully tomorrow will be better.
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food / disordered eating tw
i feel like im always swinging back n forth btwn eating too little and making myself sick (not on purpose it just. happens) & then eating too much (? i have no concept rly of what the "right" amount of food to eat is tbh) bc im worried abt not eating enough and fucking over my body again . and now it's like idk i probably shld start on dinner but also my stomach isn't growling yet so like i don't even know if i need to eat bc i don't feel hungry yet.
im in the eating too much phase rn and idk it feels like i shld eat less or i shldnt eat unless i feel hungry but it's hard bc if im hungry enough that i feel it then i sometimes get nauseous and weak and don't have energy to cook or eat so i just don't. but then i make myself sicker and idk i just wish i understood this stuff better and knew how to manage it.
like genuinely are you supposed to eat when you feel hungry or before ??? either feels wrong and bad and just . aaaaaa
#honestly the times i feel most normal abt eating is when im with my bf bc he'll mention that it's mealtime and we eat and i feel fine#bc i don't rly feel hungry a lotta the time but also it feels like. steadier i guess when i do the three meals a day thing#i just don't think abt it half the time and it's just . so confusing#i've started to love cooking now but my whole life i've wished eating wasn't a necessary thing bc it's so hard to keep track of#if i only needed one meal a day that would be so much easier#anyway just thinking. im gonna try to make dinner in a few minutes even tho it doesn't feel right. better to keep myself fed than not ig#would just love to be normal abt food & eating#p
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