#even then all it is is a beautiful lie
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Text
I literally have not stopped being haunted by amy saying she just wanted someone to hug her one last time
#amy…#:-(#wormblogging#what is the sum total of hugs she’s received in her life and why is it countable on her fingers#like. insane to think that She thinks this is the only path to something resembling genuine affection#even then all it is is a beautiful lie
74 notes
·
View notes
Text
to bloom under an artificial sun
#nobody expects the rarepair inquisition#replinami#repliku#naminé#kingdom hearts#kh#chain of memories#kh com#khcom#kingdom hearts chain of memories#riku replica#replica riku#namine#khposting#my art#give it up for doomed knight x slightly less doomed lady!#ok i know it’s not that rare but like. it sure isn’t something i see people post about very often#and definitely not what i usually post about#i had a series of weird emotions that somehow culminated in obsessing over chain of memories for several days and coming out of it w this#me? drawing? even when doing bad? that’s crazy man i think i might be beating my artblock finally#anyway y’all they mess me up. what if you were fake and you loved someone who was also fake 👍#what if it was all a lie but it was YOUR lie. so you were gonna cherish it anyway#what if you were happy enough with your lot in life even if it was so so sad and little#aurgh#in my beautiful mind repliku is still alive and well. i literally cannot process that he’s probably gone forever#he’s alive and real and they’re happy#listen nomura if you don’t want him i’ll take him. i’ll even give him a new redesign#anyway i spent 11 and a half hours on this i hope somebody appreciates it idk. this was a challenge
173 notes
·
View notes
Text
do you remember exactly where you were when basically im gay dropped? are there other d&p videos/content that you’ve had that experience with? am reminiscing and curious
#I was living in New York and I had to go soon so I had my phone propped up on the shelf in the closet so I could watch while getting ready#(kind of hilarious that my phone was literally in the closet while I watched him come outta the closet!)#but then I was crying and grinning#and I just remember feeling so unfathomably proud#and becoming a mess and I just couldn’t even remotely begin to process it all#and then I had to go to work and just be normal and not say a word and I just wanted to SCREAM don’t you know don’t you all know#you need to know!!!!!!!#and then I passed timothee chalamet on the street we nodded politely at each other that’s literally not remotely a lie#real rush of a day that was#I clocked him from like 3 blocks away bc yes I was gagging for him at the time and yes cmbyn changed my brain chemistry fuck you#I think I privated all my charmie bookmarks after the cannibalism stuff dropped lol but maybe not too lazy to check#ANYWAY.#dan and phil#phan#dan’s finest work one of the best videos on the platform period really such a beautiful perfect brave piece i love and appreciate him so.
83 notes
·
View notes
Note
SPACE LAW that’s probably much more boring than it sounds but at least it’s called fuckin’ SPACE LAW and that’s pretty amazing in itself
space law is NOT BORING! listen. we have exploding rockets and resulting damages. we have death lasers (in space). we have harmless lasers (in space). we have protecting the night sky from billionaires. we have prevention of the reproduction of colonialistic violence (in space). we have 3-D printing tools out of moon dust. we have picking up your trash (in space). we have satellites protecting the environment while launching them destroys it. we have the ever-looming threat of nuclear war (in space). we have the infrastructure of the whole world, from navigation to banking to communication to electricity grids depending on a few kilometers of space above the earth that could be compromised at any minute. we have protecting the earth from asteroids to avoid the fate of the dinosaurs. we have looking for aliens (from earth and from space). we have all the coolest, the most scifi, the most topical, the most novel law problems of the world. yes, it's paperwork, but it's the coolest paperwork ever. become a space lawyer TODAY
#i did not lie about the 10 out of 10 questions about my jobs brother my inbox#will answer them all welcome to space law 101 this beautiful evening#space law
107 notes
·
View notes
Text
The finale of Only Boo gave me Kang in blue and Moo in yellow kissing under the pink = 💕love💕 lighting as boyfriends.
It gave more pink = 💕love💕 with the matching boyfriend bracelets.
Then it repeated the hits showing Kang in his blue and Moo in his yellow kissing for the first time.
It showed me both boys in their passionate red with Kang highlighted by the blue lighting and Moo supported by the yellow lighting.
And finally, it hit me with the Blinding Light of Love as the boys merged their colors together surrounded by green.
Regardless of the journey to get here, the people who put in the effort to give this Blue Boy and Yellow Yal their consistent color story each and every episode earned their paychecks.

Thank you
#only boo#only boo the series#color coded boys IN LOVE#the colors mean things#and they mean that crew earned their paychecks#the colors were consistent#I should've know that hospital scene was a lie because the colors were all wrong#but I wanted to believe!#the power of visual storytelling#it allowed me to love this story even though I was pissed at everyone except these two#my heart lit up when we starting going through their greatest hits#it was beautiful to see their colors merge again
56 notes
·
View notes
Text
It makes me so sad when I go to AO3 in search of a fic about two characters who I think have a great dynamic (or the potential for a great dynamic) and there’s like. 10 fics.
#Yes this is about Haikyuu#Why is everything about shipping???#I want a fic about how Kuroo and Bokuto met#I want a fic where Yaku stands in as Kenma’s Safe Person when Kuroo isn’t there#I want a bunch of fics about Sugawara being the senpai middle school Kageyama deserved#I want fics about how Hinata hides behind Tanaka whenever he feels threatened#I want fics about Asahi and Yamaguchi bonding over having anxiety and sharing their methods for dealing with it#I want more fics about how precious Tendō and Ushijima’s friendship is and how it even started#I want a fic about Nishinoya getting to tell Hinata how proud he is of his receives during the Inarizaki match#Okay that’s a lie I actually want all the Dynamite Duo fics I can get my hands on#including that one. Leave me alone. It’s not a crime.#Just… more platonic fics. The friendships in Haikyuu are amazing and so beautiful and there’s so much unexplored potential#And it’s buried in shipping and that makes me sad.#Also yes. I am helping fix this. I’ve got some WIPs and a few ideas. I just gotta finish them#:P#crow’s cawing
11 notes
·
View notes
Text
mothers are true pioneers of inventing new ways to betray a person
#j.txt#moms will also give you an unprecedented anxiety disorder#trying not to lie here and die about it#it really really is like. so the one person who swore to prioritize you will continuously Not do that. okay#and it will surprise me every time#happy mother's day i'm sorry 👍#my mom isn't even as awful and horrible as so many others like she's truly incredible and beautiful in so many ways#and also this#which is almost worse because i have to somehow hold both things in my interactions with her#which tears me apart actively and it's starting to. not be doable for my own sanity genuinely#i feel like something is shattering in my brain and the pieces are shredding apart all the unshattered bits 👍#cw vent#trying to believe my life isn't in the process of being ruined but i'm no longer believing she's not a lynchpin ingredient inthe possibilit#i promise i'll stop wallowing on tumblr about it eventually unless it gets astronomically worse#which i'm like. surely not. but she's surprised me before!!!!
13 notes
·
View notes
Text
cute guy winked at me while he was wearing a milan tracksuit........ i might self combust
#there's a 99.9% chance it means nothing#maybe even more#do cishet guys wink at...other men? tbh i don't even know if he thinks i'm a woman or a man or. confused about my gender#there's like equal chances for all three#and also honestly i'm even uglier as a “woman” than i am if you look at me as a man#i'm slightly better if you see me as nonbinary bc i mean that's who i am. like i'm still ugly but. slightly better#he might actually even know i'm trans lol#bc (wait for this) he's the son of one of my landlords (still not entirely sure which one. that family has 600 people and half of them are#legally my landlords/ladies)#(i'm exaggerating of course)#but like at least some people in that family know i'm trans bc my legal name is still my deadname but i try as much as possible to live as#nico so i had to be like hey that's my legal name but call me nico.. and he....#so who knows maybe they spread the word lol i would hope not but do i trust cis people? absolutely not. never#anyway all this to say... what was i saying. he probably just acts like that with everyone who's around his age or worse just the women 🥲#he's so cute tho.. and i've met him a few times lately bc he's been helping out at the family shop i guess and he's always so nice to me#i mean i'm a customer so he probably has to lol he's good at it tho. better than the guy who works there all the time (his dad ?)#and the first time i met him recently i was going to pick up a package and he remembered my name?!? we never rly talked#he was like “nico right?” with the most beautiful smile.......... that's the moment i was like oh no. i never have to see this guy again#unfortunately i have 3 more times and. oh no. i can't be getting a crush that's horrible i don't want it#nico rambles#<- never has this tag been truer to the nature of a post (lie)
18 notes
·
View notes
Text
happiest of birthdays to my favourite guy 💚💚💚









fav4ever.
#i CANNOT believe he is playing the habs on his birthday brooo#someone targeted me specifically with that one 🤺#pleaaaase stop getting older pretty please#the fact i say this on all his birthdays 😔✊#<- and what a blessing to have gotten to celebrate so many of them 🩷#many many years of knowing and loving him 🩵🩵#to think when i first knew him he wasn’t even engaged yet#3 whole kids now 🥹#he means so so much to me i could never possibly fully articulate it#also notice how all the pictures are green? yeah.#proud of myself for not digging through the years to post every colour he's been in 😇#he's been a star long enough that there are enough beautiful photos to choose from#and beautiful moments <3#truly it has not been this much fun to be a fan of his since.. 2016? perhaps this is even the funnest it's ever been#can't lie it was dark for a while but his last two teams have brought out the best in him on & off the ice#and it warms my heart to watch everyone fall in love with him too💚#lowkey triggering to look back a couple years tho 😹 short hair matt looks like a DIFFERENT person wtf#the way i forget that's what he used to look like 💀#but yea anyway. i could write about him forever. no one wants to read all that 😹#happy birthday matt i love you so so so so so so so much#matt duchene#dallas stars#*p
6 notes
·
View notes
Text
youtube
Love this interview... I have been semi-checking in on Zawe's journey since before certain stans were feeling some kinda way about her recent familial additions. I do for certain Black actors/creators especially, who seem to be moving in interesting ways in entertainment/film media...
-A remnant from a period when I used to go to screenings and blog about films (and was published a few times in a major national newspaper)... So, I knew of Zawe through the grapevine of her mentorship, i.e. she is the reason why Rege Jean Page of Bridgerton fame got to work in U.S. markets, as she sponsored him. And she is known, as one of those "good eggs" who will be accessible and help/advise especially young actors of color. ...But, I have some other stuff to say. This isn't about proving that she's an amazing human being. It's about a certain brand of misogynoir that some of these people far beneath her in self-knowledge, self-love, and just plain grown-ass-woman-personhood...keep letting fly in what they *think* are compliments, but actually are just trite microaggressions. Saying things like "as long she makes [T-blank H-blank] happy then she's alright" as if he's the centered human and her attachment renders her worthy somehow. Babies, as long as SHE'S happy. Yall. He's marrying up.
WAY UP and the fact that he knows this? Actually elevates him. She's been there.
She tells a story in the above interview that reminds me of Uzo Aduba's anecdote about her name , - of an incident when she was called to an early job (at 6!) and someone there said she wasn't pretty because of her gap and her Ugandan mother took her on past this person and into the room, ANYWAY.
... She learned a specific self-knowledge and self-love, that is necessary in very white western spaces that constantly pressures a narrow sense of worthiness and beauty, especially from Black women, something a lot of these small-minded stans don't even have a notion of seeing beyond. Zawe is biracial, and her features, aside from her skin tone are very African. So while she benefits from colorism, featurism is something I've seen those bigoted stans, pick on as well. She knows those features are what makes her beautiful and knew that, w/o and before her partner saw that too. And people who aren't blind narrow-minded ignoramuses can *also* see that. This is why I assert the fact of featurism needing to be in the conversation of light/dark privilege conversations. Lips, nose, gap, and even the set of her eyes are ethnic beauty markers within quite a few spaces in the Black African diaspora... My mom was an absolute stunner because of her gap.
Even the old school white model Lauren Hutton got there because of her gap. Uzo Aduba, who I have already mentioned has a deeper skintone and has similarly large round striking eyes, gap, and a non-pinched-nose *rightly* played Glinda in NBC's production of The Wiz a few years back, with Dorothy saying she's so beautiful *because* of those features, not despite them as a very narrow white-washed gaze would wrongly assert.
And while we're here that includes sizes and shapes too. I'm saying your boy is enjoying all that plush. A lot of yall need to read or reread Maya Angelou's Phenomenal Woman, for comprehension.
Anyway... All this to say I know Zawe is and will be fine regardless.
P.S. Maya Angelou *also* had height, and gap and was very much known for her beauty/magnetism as a woman when she was alive. :
#she's as steady in herself as ms. whoopi goldberg is and was back when ALL the comedians even some Black men were picking on her#for her African features meanwhile she pulled whoever she wanted and kept working and has her EGOT#I could also get into the notion that particularly worldly white folk with redhair are more inclined to understand#being picked apart or fetishized for a feature... and can have a leg up on empathy#especially I think when also in the spotlight#she also mentions sinead o'connor who also subverted standards and being an irish woman with her oppressive history pushed back with her ar#zawe ashton#interesting watch#meta#blah#getting ish off my chest#some of yall were comforted by the lie of a certain standard beauty being the only milkshake bringing them to yard#even beyond the misogynoir#grown ups in partnerships and marriages etc value other things and see beauty much differently when they mature.#I'm talking about grown ups some folks never grow to that point sadly#Youtube#I'm so glad she didn't quit acting#and I see TH giving his old theatre school buddies and Black women a word or boost or whatever he did.#...if he had a hand in that#love yourselves because of & not in spite of what you have going on
58 notes
·
View notes
Text
obsessed with how the literal second charles first dies in the classic comics magneto finally comes back for the first time in like twenty issues
#snap chats#THEY BEEN NAME DROPPING HIM EVERY OTHER ISSUE SINCE HE FIRST FLED LIKE STOP TAUNTING ME#‘SNAP SPOILERS’ GOD sorry. yeah charles dies in like what. issue 42????#oh bitch i was just guessing yeah it is 42 LMAO#anyways no crying cause the literal last page its all ‘ a moment of silence for our fallen professor.. AND IN NEXT ISSUE MAGNETO’S BACK’#crying tho at pietro going to charles’ funeral and wanting his help for wanda :(((((((((( oh my beautiful boy and my lovely lady …..#also take a shot every time magneto curves a bullet. what is wrong with him.#lol shot. anyways.#group meeting to kick mags’ ass starts in five minutes#ok but Double Crying at pietro sneaking back in the castle cause why does it have the energy of like. some cinderella shit#yk what i mean like sneaking back in the house and toads all IM TELLING MAGNETO 🫵 fucking SNITCH#he doesnt even LIKE YOU stop pissing me off <- i love toad#i live for the drama tho cant lie ….#‘pietro how dare you go to charles’ funeral’ bro just mad he didnt go himself smh. whatever.#but now im forced to imagine pietro sneaking off to meet with charles like once in a blue moon#Can He Help Him And His Sister but now its too late to know …#girl i got so sad when he fled tho … peitro please the fam’ll help you 😭😭😭😭#anyways im about to have dinner with the fam so im gonna have ideas swirling in my brain for the next two hours BYE !!!!!!!!
30 notes
·
View notes
Text
BLACK WIDOW: VENOMOUS vol. 1 issue 1
@mastcrmarksman / @manandmachines
( personals DNI . )
#this is so sexy i can't even lie 😌#like just look at all of them#no words besides incredible beautiful stunning *mwah*#( a e s t h e t i c . )#( c o m i c s . )#( e d i t s . )#( v i s a g e . )#( b u c k y b a r n e s . )#( c l i n t b a r t o n . )#( n a t a s h a r o m a n o f f . )#( n i c k f u r y . )#( p h i l c o u l s o n . )#( j e s s i c a & c l i n t // m a s t c r m a r k s m a n . )
12 notes
·
View notes
Note
Is it really 'Jiyong fell first but Seunghyun fell harder'??
I mean, I personally think so yeah :)) Not sure how to prove this lmaooo, lemme know if there's a way! :D
#eyes don't lie#I love that tag#Cuz just look at T.O.P during the push up scene of Secret Garden Parody#It was so intense YB literally covered his eyes even tho the OG drama had everyone staring at the couple#I feel like that scene kinda describes GTOP in a surprising way? GD LOVES TOP a lot and TOP loves GD a LOT#All GTOPPERS would die happy with that scene being the last thing they see on Earth like.. tears in my eyes just thinking about that beauty
6 notes
·
View notes
Text
oh my god julian and paul's relationship dynamic is making me feel so crazy its SO deliciously toxic SO horribly codependent its SO. OHHH MY GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD I NEVER THOUGHT ID Read abt a dynamic that couldve been pulled from my own brain this book is so crazy mecore IM SO GLAD I CAME ACROSS IT IN THE DARK ACADEMIA TAG HERE. bc ohmymhooodkekwksskskskwkwkekkrkrkrekwkskdkmdmsmamsmdmdmdmfmfmfmfmfmfkekdmdc
#like oh my god#OH MY GOD where do i even start#the symbolism with the experiments the chess games the SPECIMENS#the butterflies#the way paul marvels at julian the same way he marvels at specimens#the same way he kills beautiful things bc theyre beautiful then goes ahead and fantasizes abt ripping julian apart limb from limb#bc he loves him so much its simply not enough to kiss and touch and have sex he literally needs to live in his bones its crazy#he NEEDS julian like he needs blood in his veins this is so sickening#and so far idk what julians entire deal is#but its clearly set up this is all just a game for him its an experiment hes clearly manipulating paul and purposely digging out that#twisted anger#that lives in him#grief is fucking weird it does weird things to people this is basically the book plot rn#its like paul is leaning into what people think of him bc it stops mattering less and less the more#time he spenfd with julian#julians view of him is like the only important one#MY MANS SKIPPED TOWN 2 SECONDS AFTER HIS GREAT GRANDMA DIED#BC JULIAN WAS LIKE come over :)#this is so crazy#julian is such a little shit hes such an actor hes SUCH A LIAR its alr set up that he can lie so easily#he mimics SO EASILY#hes so scary#i cant wait to see how that gets brought up later on#omfg this story is so good#minnie post#these violent delights#SKIMMING MY TAGS OVER I DIDNT EVEN EMPHASIZE HOW MUCH I LOVE THAT#JULIANS JUST AS OBSESSED WITH HIM
2 notes
·
View notes
Text
the thing is that i remain torn about the mason segment in succession because on the one hand i do think it’s a very fun literalization of the constant aa theme of the past always coming back to get you in the way that the past and present in mason are literally intertwined and inseparable, and i like the framing of it as from phoenix in an unreliable narrator sense, where mason says ‘phoenix is so caught up in this thing that happened to him 7 years ago that he is continually retelling it but saying well, what if i had had the perfect info and what if i knew then what i know now and what if i had figured it out right away?’ which is such a fascinating and fun type of obsession with a past event (and even more fun in that it’s actively a lie because the story that mason tells is literally impossible, and yet phoenix is presenting it to the court as true!)
HOWEVER (and this is where i feel justified as a flashback hater) the issue is that especially in a game that is so much about performance, presentation, and facade, i think it’s narratively a hugely wasted opportunity to only hear phoenix’s presentation of events, AND the second day investigation time slot it takes up takes a massive chunk of time away from the rest of our cast and character development they could have had. in the ideal version of succession (to me) the second investigation day is apollo trying to get the full story out of trucy, klavier, and phoenix, giving all of them a chance to lie and present the story in the way that they see it, granting us character insight into how they each feel about the magnifi case and how it continues to affect them (a thing i want for trucy especially badly). i went into the second court day of succession feeling hugely disconnected from the three in the courtroom because apollo had been told this information offscreen and i didn’t know how he felt about it, and instead of piecing together what had happened along with him as the case proceeds, you get told what happened in an (albeit pretty fun) side investigation. so i don’t know! i don’t know. i still feel like succession didn’t land for me like it could and i think both the flashback case and mason are at fault but also. mason is thematically interesting. anyways while im here you can make vegan chocolate mousse with vegan whipped topping and cocoa powder and that’s it. probably 1/2 cup cocoa powder to a pint of whipped topping? pretty good
#pers#aa lb#🐜#this is the post that has been haunting me since i finished aa4. because on the one hand it’s so interesting#but also my beautiful vision of what it could be where all three of them lie to you and then polly says Sigh#Okay. Let’s figure this out. is so much MORE interesting#i will be a flashback hater forever i will never change ever. but phoenix was crazy for all that#i’m thinking of in bridge how even after it has put up all the signposts about elises true identity#it still makes you work through like 2 or 3 pschye locks to get the full story#so you have both the dreadnof mostly figuring it out#AND the game making you ‘work for it’ so to speak#succession has neither the signposting or the work for the reveal#all the more disappointing because i was SO curious what had happened#-‘d instead of letting me figure it out it just showed me. oh well
3 notes
·
View notes
Text
i can't believe i've never talked in depth ab drineke before. all this babbling ab shaneke and never a fic or analysis or even an explanation for some of my favourite doomed sapphics of all time. Wow
#are we truly ready for the drineke conversation though. that is the question#i've been shipping these two on the downlow for a verrrry long time#it's a feeling. it's the vibes#it's abeke thinking drina is beautiful and seeing glimmers of kindness in her#it's the idea that drina would play into abeke's crush to screw with her brother but then start to return the feelings#and it would all end in a fiery disaster#they would be sooo messy. so damn messy#the fallout when abeke leaves the conquerors would be insane#drina would try to convince herself that abeke is a traitor‚ that she means nothing to her‚ but deep down she knows it's a lie#they would flirt like hell across opposing sides of the war. sometimes while actively fighting each other#drina would send her vaguely threatening messages via bird that read more like love letters than anything#abeke would send sarcastically sweet ones back and they would begin a little correspondence#each of them hoping to learn information from the other but enjoying their conversations nonetheless#drina would be in even deeper denial than shane is#abeke would try to save her but realize she's too far gone#and then drina goes and gets herself killed stupidly without ever reconciling with abeke or telling her how she feels. ough. the pain.#i'll cook up a little something for them in the future#they deserve it#text#a revised history of erdas#spirit animals#spirit animals books#spirit animals series#abeke#drina#shane
6 notes
·
View notes