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Why is it called Back to the Future?
Love is: Wanting to know everything about what makes up the person you're in love with, even the difficult stuff.
a @steddielovemonth prompt Thank you @oh-stars for betaing this!
WC: 714 | CW: reference to past trauma | Rating: T
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Eddie leans over the counter at Family Video, ignoring the way Steve glares at him when he takes a bite of a candy bar he absolutely paid for. “What’s your favorite color?”
Steve shrugs. “I don’t know. Uh– blue, I guess.”
They’ve been at this for almost an hour. The store is dead. It’s the middle of the week and it’s nasty outside. Raining buckets and cold. Eddie’s been hanging around for most of Steve’s shift and they haven’t seen a single customer.
Eddie hums. “Favorite movie?”
Steve hesitates, a grimace pulling at his face. “It’s uh– complicated.”
Eddie’s face scrunches in confusion. “What could possibly be complicated about that question?”
Steve fidgets with the display on the counter. “It’s just for kind of fucked up reasons. That it’s my favorite. Like, I should probably hate it. But it…I don’t know. It reminds me of Robs. Like, the night we became platonic whatever. I just– It should be a bad memory.”
Eddie reaches out and tugs his hand away from where he’s shredding the cardboard on the display. “Back to the Future, then?”
Steve looks down at their hands and nods. His voice dipping into a whisper. “I watch it sometimes. When I have nightmares about that night. It calms me down.” Steve huffs out a laugh, his thumb rubbing nervously over Eddie’s hand. “Which is ridiculous because that was one of the scariest nights of my life. I really thought I was going to die. I thought Robin was going to die. But then we were sitting in the movie theater, and we were drugged out of our minds and everything was so funny. And then we were sobering up in the bathroom and I thought wow. This girl is so great. I think…maybe this is it. Maybe this is what I’ve been searching for.” His eyes flash up to Eddie’s, and he squeezes his hand. “And obviously I know now that I was way off base. And I’m glad. Because I have you. And–”
Eddie nods, unbothered that Steve thought of her like that in a moment of life or death, before they became the weirdly co-dependant duo they are today. He knew what he was getting into with those two when he signed up for this.
Steve lets out a breath of relief and keeps going. “I don’t know. In a way, I was right about her. She was exactly what I’d been searching for. She’s my family. I love her. And I just– I’m grateful sometimes. For that night. Because it gave me Robin. Because there’s no way in hell we would be…Steve and Robin if that had never happened. If she hadn’t been pulled into all the crazy shit we’re wrapped up in and–” Steve sighs. “That’s awful. To be glad she went through all that. It’s selfish.” His eyes flick up to Eddie again, laced with guilt. “Same thing with you. I’m so glad I have you but–”
Eddie shakes his head. “You’re not selfish, sweetheart. You think I’m not glad that I was almost torn apart by demobats on a daily basis because it means I get to have you? You think Robin would take it all back if it meant losing you? Absolutely not.” He squeezes Steve’s hand. “You didn’t do that to us. It happened to you, too. I think it’s amazing you can watch a movie that’s wrapped up in Russian torture and being drugged and still have it reminder you of bonding with Robin.”
Eddie stares into Steve’s eyes and thinks about how lucky he is. That he somehow ended up here, with the sweetest man on the face of the earth. Can’t believe how fundamentally good Steve is. So far off from who Eddie thought he was before…everything.
He glances over his shoulder to the door, sees nothing but the rain, no cars in the lot. He cups Steve’s face and rubs his thumb along his cheek. “It’s okay to be glad you have the people in your life, baby. Regardless of the circumstances that brought you together. Okay?”
Steve nods, leaning into Eddie’s hand a little. “Yeah, okay.”
Eddie lets his hand drop and shoots Steve a soft smile. “Good. Okay, so. Favorite movie, Back to the Future. What about…favorite snack?”
#steddie#eddie munson#steve harrington#steddie fanfic#steddielovemonth#day 4#lady lostmind#love is wanting to know everything about what makes up the person you're in love with#even the difficult stuff.
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i don’t mind suspending my disbelief for leverage’s person-sized ventilation shafts bc that’s pretty standard for the genre, but that doesn’t mean i won’t laugh a bit at some of the egregiously large vents. particularly in the crowning acheivement job (lev: red s2 finale) because - well just look at this lol! harry and parker, two adults, can kneel side by side in those vents. parker can sit upright.


that museum was made for vent crawling purposes. that’s just an extra room in the museum they forgot to decorate. the leverageverse has a thief union that successfully lobbied for a better working environment. these vents double as a playground for museum-goers’ children. i was crying with laughter thinking about this and harry’s vent crisis was NOT helping me remember that there was a serious heist thing going on lol, i love this show.
#leverage redemption#leverage#parker leverage#harry wilson#harry wilson leverage#parker#wren speaks#leverageposting#the sun roofs (or are they just lights?) really get me lmao#ALL of the person-sized vents are unrealistically large so this is not criticism! this is a generic convention!#vents are not human-sized and clean or remotely safe enough to reliably crawl through irl#but basically every building in every crime drama has comfortably person-sized vents#usually for knee crawling not even people lying on their stomach bc that’s difficult to move and looks sillier#and that thin layer of the ceiling under the vent is usually surprisingly built well enough to support a persons weight#and there’s no fans or rats or dust or bugs or that foil tube stuff i forgot the word for#and it’s often oddly well-lit. and that’s okay! it’s fiction! we’re having fun!#sewers tend to be unrealistically large + accessible + well-lit etc in fiction too.#anyway my point is i’m not saying this as criticism! just a neutral obserativion of something i found funny!
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another failed sneaking attempt
#i didnt even have this written down as an idea#i just started drawing cause i was bored and here we are#i think this is the most effort ive put into a multi panel post yet#purple text on a grey background is very difficult to make look good so sorry if it hurts your eyes#getting better with expressions i thhink. no longer hate myself whenever i do that downturned mouth thing on uzi#and head shape im a lot happier with the rounded square kinda head shape i see in all the md art i like#forgot to draw on ns sketchpad in the last panel. woopsies#theyd probably have a little bit of trauma regarding the solver stuff but like#theres no way in hell uzi is turning down the ability to become a sick as hell nightmare worm#for all its evil stuff the solver was edgy as hell and i think she would be totally on board with that#honestly i think i just wanted an excuse to draw solver worm stuff#i doodled it a bit ago and liked the way it came out so i wanted to draw it more#my hand is cramping im wrapping this up#art#murder drones#murder drones uzi#uzi doorman#murder drones n#serial designation n#the worm bit in the final panel is solely because i remembered i can use gausian blur to give the illusion of depth or whatever#never actually tried that before i think so here i am#oh yeah uhh#nuzi#i guess. i think this counts#im not well versed in the Fandom Rules
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I just love sketching this dude... he's so shaped
#some old and new stuff#sans#+ my interpretations of uf and us#I find blue so difficult to draw tho;;#i guess the solution is to draw him more lol#also draw sans in a pose that isnt him with his hands in his pockets challenge: impossible#maybe one day i'll even be consistent with Sans' head shape lmaoo#mine#queued#sketch#us#ut#uf
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'i hate jason grace because he thought he was worthy enough to compete with percy' I'm sorry have y'all SEEN jason. this man defeated a TITAN without weapons and his bare hands to the point the titan wanted to rise from the UNDERWORLD with the help of a GODDESS to seek vengeance over him. I think we can cut him slack for having some well deserved self respect bc I'd brag too wtf
#put some RESPECT on this guy's name. nobody is a more worthy competitor to percy than jason sorry not sorry I won't take arguments.#and has less experience with stuff because camp jupiter rarely had monster attacks so he was basically sheltered yet he was so strong#he saved percy UNDERWATER and defeated a SEA monster despite the whole zeus/poseidon thing. That only makes it difficult for him#and water isn't even his domain#yet y'all will call this 'gary stu behaviour' completely ignoring how op rick made percy. apparently only percy is allowed to be powerful??#he was trained by WOLVES as a 2 year old#before some mf goes 'theres no way jason defeated krios w just hands lol he was just boasting for the sake of it'. krios said it himself 💀#ironically jason was wayy too humble considering the stuff he's done lol he NEVER bragged and neither did percy#fandom when a character who has actually accomplished great stuff has an ounce of self respect and self awareness: 😠🔪🔪#it's not even 'i hate jason bc he's arrogant/powerless/boring' atp#it's just 'im too attached to percy to like any other person who's on his level and can't accept the fact that percy has a powerful rival'#pjo#pjo fandom#percy jackson#pjo series#pjo hoo#jason grace#pjo hoo toa
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I love Arson he's my favorite heater but I should really get a cheap laptop one day so I can leave the house to write because the Noise. Is . Too Much. I need to go write in the forest
#I live in a very very full and busy house hold#and sometimes it makes it extremely difficult to work#both on art stuff and packaging#but also writing especially#i have horrible executive dysfunction but on good days ill still try and get thwarted by multiple inturruptions and loud sounds#and on bad days ill just completely shut down from it all#adhd meds and headphones cannot fix Other People In My Space lmao#sara shush#personal#complaining#Unfortunately if i ask to be left alone or for quieter volume i will get neither of those even if i lock my door#I legit have a sign on my door that lets people know when im live streaming and have asked not even volume control just to be left alone#and there will still be knocking on my door for questions like 'can you go get something from the store'#i need. people to understand that if i am busy esp if i am doing packages and stickers and stuff that i am WORKING#please treat it like im at a 9-5 office building somewhere act like i dont exist#you dont just walk into someones place of work and start venting/asking them of things while theyre at their job#'but you're at home' yes and im still working and i have communicated this several times#i did not mean to vent but GOD
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The Bedside Manner Duo.
Bonus Poppys cause I had to really practice to figure out how to draw her waahah! Conventionally cute designs are hard for me....
#kamen rider exaid#poppy pipopapo#emu hojo#hiiro kagami#kamen rider#fan art#the show is punishing me for putting them into the 'do not separate' category right now.....#they're eachother's only friends lmao#sometimes i feel like i only draw cool stuff... i like to draw cute characters too sometimes aaahaha!#but i had to really work to get poppy right... not my usual wheelhouse#her skirt almost killed me but i survived#worth it. I love her.#give me the strength to not attempt to draw poppy's rider form... I think all the exaid suits would be difficult#I'm having a lot of fun with ExAid#Everybody else is so MEAN but I genuinely like all our heroes and even our villains!
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Something I miss from earlier eras of the creative side of the internet was things just being unabashedly low-budget. Just all unashamedly amateur, unprofessional, ‘I don’t own a good camera but I have a story to tell you’, ‘I can’t afford a good mic but I have a song to sing for you,’ ‘I don’t have any kind of background in editing or lighting and I only just picked up this guitar last Tuesday but here’s an entire musical me and my friends wrote about our favourite book, we filmed it on a potato and put it up on YouTube in ten minute segments because we thought it was pretty funny.’
#everything felt so much less like Content then#and as someone who wants to share creative stuff online#it’s now incredibly daunting thinking about doing that bc#especially as a disabled person who can’t work full time#it feels almost impossible to extricate art from being Content#like there’s this immense pressure to produce things that could pass as professionally produced by a team of educated people#and to make smart decisions so that somehow eventually you can profit off your art#and instead of it being a ‘hey look at my silly little song’ it becomes#competing in an over saturated market already dominated by the nepotism afforded by wealth and connections#and it feels like it would very difficult not to measure my personal satisfaction with how a certain piece of art turned out#by how much attention it got online#even though I genuinely have zero desire to be famous and it sounds like a complete nightmare#anyway I’m gonna have ice cream for dinner how about you guys#hmp42
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Wear Headphones :]

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Mmh- I... Oh wow. Ahgh! Mmph! I'm gonna GET SILLY. ALL OVER.
Ah-ghg. *exhale* Fuh-fuck. Heh-heh... I got too silly.
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*coughs* this was actually going to be a comic but I Don't Have Time For All That. So if you want to see the incomprehensible version its below *coughs*
And heres v1 staring at fuckin nothin if you want it for some reason??
Since this is a lot of clips here is the audio source dumping ground (not in order)
Clip 1
Clip 2
Clip 3
#suggestive#ultrakill#gabriel ultrakill#im actually going to jail for this one.#sorry if the audio levels are a bit.. weird. its difficult when its a bunch of different clips together#please enjoy the 5 minutes spent on the comic layout#i did the first panel and said 'nvm lol' I didnt even finish adding the terminal text#shoutout to the one person in chat who said 'IM SILLYING' this is all your fault /j#i hate transcribing these#help.#OK................. THATS. Enough Posts Like This. For now. Next few will be normal. well as normal as it gets around here#btw the gabe pic was originally Much Worse. I had to add the rainbows n stuff so people didnt think it was..... well.#i need to stand in traffic now. goodeby#happy sunday everyone
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#mod talk#I figure people would vibe with this clip for no particular reason#Anyways#You can rest assured I won't be posting any clips about this dumpster fire because nobody needs more drama or discourse on their dash#But as I've said before: if I can give people a laugh during a frustrating / difficult time I'll try to do that#And hopefully this does give folks a bit of a laugh – even if it's a bit of a frustrated one#This clip is super vague but I'm still going to tag it with:#discourse#drama#And I won't be main-tagging it#Please feel free to let me know if there are any additional tags you'd like me to use!#But I don't plan on posting any other things related to this#Tumblr exclusive#I've got fun clips I plan on posting tomorrow and I'll try posting later today but I'll be real I'm working off 2 hours of sleep#so your friendly neighborhood Archivist is a bit tired and; frankly; busy with more important stuff
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Happy Star Days!
The lineart is available for free on my Ko-fi - this is a new thing I'm trying, please let me know how you like it! Details below:
(copied from my Bluesky post)
had an idea back in January which I'm thinking about again
I kinda want to put my Warframe lineart pngs on Ko-fi (for free/pay-what-you-want)
reason being, I got into digital art ages ago thanks to manga colouring, and I know how difficult it is to make art from scratch
having anything pre-made on the canvas makes it 100x less intimidating, and you can go wild trying all the different tools, blend modes, colour combinations etc.
and maybe there's a WF fan out there who wants to make art, but finds a completely blank canvas overwhelming, or there's an experienced artist who wants to practice their colouring skills/try a new colouring style without spending the time preparing their own lines
finding and working on a clean lineart which don't break any copyright rules can be difficult too – so in this case you wouldn't need any permission from me to colour to your heart's content
now I know that my lineart isn't exactly peak quality, but that's another reason for me to get better at it, if others are to use it
it would be lines of stuff I already posted/finished, and standard art etiquette rules would apply (crediting, no claiming as your own, no profiting etc.)
anyway, if this idea doesn't leave me, and I do decide to do this, I really need to continue with the Hex, so there's a nice Protoframe set for y'all
#warframe#warframe fanart#tennocreate#warframe temple#ms:warframe#my stuff#first time putting my lineart Out There for y'all to see in its full size#makes me want to improve even more#also i hope i'm not stepping on DE's toes with the pay-what-you-want thing#unlimited product vs. potential profit#i thought i'd ask them. i even drafted a message but it felt a bit stupid#the payment is 100% optional so it should be fine#anyway i hope y'all like it#it was quite difficult to make because temple isn't out yet#and my only references were one (1) temple picture and two (2) infested guitar pictures#time for a break#gonna farm some volatile motes for arcane energize
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my body really went like,,
ONE (1) health issue??
nooooo, why not add another, it might get lonely!!
#im not even counting the pots!!#i dont even have the whole fatigue thing figured out yet...#chronic illness#it went like. you have no energy?? how about some pain to make it even more difficult to get stuff done#like. the fact that my knee is fucked one way or another isn't new to me (although i never tried to figure that one out)#but its fucking annoying and i dont wanna have to keep in mind not to extend it during literally everything#ouchie continues
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Ooo do you write for Dain? How about a small scenario abt Melusine creator and foul legacy just doing their rare occasion on going outside and as they walk around they saw Dain
It'll be like
Dain: 🧍🏻♂️ Foul legacy: 🧍🏻♂️
Maybe after some reassuring and making sure there's no misunderstandings, Creator could bond with him about not liking the Archons lol
Dainsleif Khaenri'ah lore man,,, PLEASE VISIT MORE THAN ONCE A YEAR I'M SO IMPATIENT
Dainsleif knows it's you almost immediately, from the unusual, swirling markings on your colorful skin to the way your Abyssal companion growled at him so fiercely, protecting you from further harm the first thought on his mind. Dainsleif takes a step back, holding up his hands to show that he means no harm before he sinks to his knees into a deep, sincere bow. Foul Legacy's wings twitch as he glances at you, his gaze guarded when you take a few tiny steps towards Dainsleif, and slowly bow in return to him. the disgraced knight blinks, and a silent smile spreads across his face as your little tail begins to wag. Legacy's cautious demeanor gradually softens, and he walks over to rejoin your side, kneeling to your height and gently nudging your cheek with a curious trill. Dainsleif can't understand a word he says, but you simply nod and look up at him, kindly asking for his name
the knight doesn't join you in Merusea, not permanently, but he drops by every once in a while, still slightly in awe at the sight of the Creator living a simple life as a Melusine. your siblings adore him almost as much as they adore Foul Legacy, fawning over his starry cape and otherworldly air. it actually gives Legacy a bit of reprieve from their constant attention, a chance to quietly curl himself around you as he watches you and Mamere paint away... of course, they all return when Dainsleif comes to your little shell house to say hello, many Melusine trailing after him and darting over to Foul Legacy so they can clamber onto his shoulders and hold onto his horns
Legacy huffs, and you can't help but laugh, the sound so wonderful and reassuring to him and Dainsleif after all you've been through
#genshin impact#childe#tartaglia#foul legacy#foul legacy childe#genshin tartagalia#genshin childe#genshin tartaglia#sagau#genshin sagau#oh you DEFINITELY bond over not trusting the archons#it actually also does the opposite since you trust furina a liiiiittle bit#neuvillette introduced you two#so dainsleif also begins to trust her a tiny bit#even if she's not technically archon anymore#woooo i got past a really difficult fight in another game hehehe#short scenario#other's stuff#good evening#chit chat#anon
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you really are pathetic.
#my art#chonny jash#cccc#heart#mind#soul#...hes there okayyyy#hes soooo there#my new Thing for art rn seems to be fucking around w color filters#and weird resolution stuff its basically AWESOMEEEE!!!#i like the idea of soul (red) being all... fleshy..... flesh IDKKK YA I GOT THOUGHTS ABT IT BUT MAYBE I SHOULD STAY QUIET???#if i speak too much. well then its all pigs in a fox pen isnt it? its all pens at the temple isnt it? its all?? well YEAH WELLLLLL#souls like flesh and hearts like blood and minds like. uhhhh. heeheh u know hes like.... he gets monitored by the fuckin ECG THATS WHAT!!!!!#keep twitching man make the results difficult to read u cant even lay STILL for a moment.so fidgety and the system doesnt know what to DO HA#to anyone reading this just know that im actually quite a lame person. i just say a lot of bullshit and make a lot of bullshit and sometimes#the bullshit is good but like. u know its coming from someone whos just kinda lame!!#yea anyway heres my freakin ART i hope u LIKE IT and if u DONT thats FINE bc NOT every piece of art is for EVERYONE!! THANK U!!!!!!!!!
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I haven't really seen anyobody talk about this here-
Caracalla lost everybody close to him (father figure and twin brother) on the same day, both technically by his own doing, but doesn't even remember half of that anyway, and is now desperate to keep at least one person around, still. he might not even remember his own screaming voice demanding her crucifixion due to her betrayal. and if he does, he clearly wants to take it back and keep her alive and around him. in terms of human companions, she's all he has left. except for Macrinus, of course, but he's still new and another father figure, unable to fill that gaping hole Caracalla's real mother has presumably left and Lucilla is going to leave if she dies. but since Macrinus has the emperor wrapped around his little finger already, just a few words from him convinced Caracalla that this was, in fact, necessary and the only way; thus, sealing Lucilla's fate.
it's devastating to me...
#ofc this has even more impact with the deleted scenes (and generally when you've read the script too) like ouchie#image description in alt#emperor caracalla#fred hechinger#macrinus#denzel washington#idk i was taking some screenshots and this suddenly struck me because i genuinely didn't realise this until now#(like... generally. i didn't even realise he ever asked this like??? huh??? i watched this scene at least 5 times already wdym)#listen y'all... i have sooo many thoughts about the twins but for the past two months i've been unable to put them into coherent sentences#all that gets out is constant screaming or my half-baked analytical takes like that i---#i hate it ngl and my o*c*d got a lot fucking worse in these past two months as well which makes posting my own stuff incredibly difficult#but alas here i am trying anyway#also i check the caracalla tag (among others) multiple times a day since December 3rd and i did go through the entiiire thing then#so if somebody has mentioned this before i must have forgotten or overlooked it OR i blocked that person and thus never saw it#(went on a whole blocking spree in the first couple of weeks lmfao)#gladiator ii#gladiator 2
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#lambourne#onion’s art#the elder scrolls#tagging stuff for my own ocs is difficult like does this even count as fanart… it’s a guy i literally just made up in my mind#like ‘wow.. these are my favorite elder scroll characters..’ hey.. onion.. i’ma hold your hand when i tell you this…#they don’t exist…. ok…..#you made them up. in your mind
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