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meltedbluecaterpillar · 27 days

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I woke up in a cold sweat.

To be human is to fail. To accept that failure is proof of your growth. To grow is to succeed. To succeed is human nature.

Let’s do our best as often as we can. Even when you’re exhausted, it shows you gave something effort. The strength to brush your teeth, or even to lift something your own body weight… It’s amazing. It makes me happy.

I want to do my best.

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buwheal · 5 months

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OH!!!!! HAVE YOU CHECKED THE CYBER CAFÉ DUMPSTER by any chance? there HAS to be some leftover cake there!!!! i heard there was an event recently!!

#Sorry if its a little choppy i was starting to feel really guilty LMAOO #and im short on time a bit #BUT #its done and i cant even bare to look AHA #maybe i enjoy being evil.. a little..#BTW THIS IS NOT A BAD REACTION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU ARENT BEING PUNISHED!!#i mean besides this being crushing but ill elaborate give me a little #[you've got mail!]#spamton #spamton g spamton #deltarune #deltarune spamton #deltarune chapter 2 #yayyyyyyyyyyyyyy #hes grateful. he really is. um. but theres a mix of emotions that was just maybe a lot.#I feel like he needs this a bit #sorry but not sorry him CRYING in front of you means a lot if you decide you want to pick it apart and understand it a bit more aha #i havent really made him like cry or anything because he REALLY hates it especially infront of other people and it just wasnt enough yet #uh and i was a little nervous about doing it until someone else did it and it was like a 'ohh okay... so i CAN do that...' moment and i #gave myself permission

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carcarrot · 2 months

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letterboxd if you even care. still very much in progress but hii

#my various embarrassed to share things disclaimers in the tags:#the recent activity is NOT recent those are the last i happened to log. ugh #sorry about all the french movies but it will be like that. unfortunately some of them are that good #UH. happy w my top 4 theyre now updated and i think accurate enough as hard as it is to choose 4 #i should start making some lists if i ever feel inspired #IF you see a movie ive watched and you wanna know my thoughts on it beyond star rating and if i gave it a heart please dm me plelise #i am always ready to talk abt a movie at any time. unless ive forgotten it #oh important disclaimer this is not even close to an accurate like. account of all the movies ive watched but when i see em again ill log em #i know i can rate movies without a date but 1) i want to be accurate 2) its hard to remember them allllll #so i guess i just gotta wait until i see them again?#maybe ill just fill in if i remember movies every now and again. i guess #oh and i havent even done my watchlist. so this is very much a work in progress plelise be niceys

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oh-cramity-its-amity · 2 months

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i love my friends so much. i feel like yesterday i had a lot of shit going on in my head and i woke up to my friend explaining things in a way that put my mind at ease. i dont feel as anxious anymore because i know i was overthinking. i think my dad said it best when he told me that he thought my wonderful brain of mine just wants to think problems are bigger than they actually are. he is right! im just inexperienced in life and half of the time im scared im doing something wrong but- HEY. i need to be more confident in making mistakes. making mistakes doesn't define me as a person!! i need to stop worrying about doing life right and just live for the sake of living and doing what makes me happy!!!!!!!

#thank u blake. u really helped #also nessa!! thank u for that reblog about your perspective on my one post about feeling lost career wise #it helps me to know im not the only one living this life because holy fuck i can feel confused sometimes because.. am i doing this right?#and you know what? theres no correct path that i think there is but im just not good without a direct direction. it makes me a little #anxious about things #i dont know if its because i have some form of a disorder but i function better when i plan stuff out and give myself something to #decompress the problems and thoughts because in my brain theyre just all stuck and clumped together #and that can get a bit scary and overwhelming!!!#im just glad i have people that care about me. it means literally everything to me #so even if i dont 100% reply dont think i dont care because literally any ANY advice or kindness you show to me means the world #we're all just living this little life and we might as well make the best of it #people care..... thats just.... its good... it makes me feel less alone that people do #i love my friends so much #evennnn if we dont talk every day or are only mutuals in passing!!! it literally means a lot if people show me kindness #like holy shit!!! your older than me? and your dealing with a similar experience??? and your telling me that its okay??? and that itll be #okay?????#like #just the reassurance that things will be okay and work out and that im not the only one dealing with a feeling like mine #idk sometimes i just feel like im crazy and like my thoughts make no sense?? you know?? but yall get it #im glad that i have people who are older than me in my life cause yall have experienced stuff that i can use to be better #like your life experiences can help me in a way that can make a difference on my perspective on things #its why i like talking to my coworkers. because theyve seen things and done things i havent and their perspective can teach me potentially #i just dont feel so overwhelmed with life when i talk to people who understand #i feel so young and yet old enough to know but even the people who are older dont know so im sort of on the right track i suppose depending #on how you look at it #so- im just gonna live my life and smile because!!! you gotta.#you gotta surround yourself with people who can enrich you and teach you things for the better and make you want to grow #some of you are like that #you may not know that #but that kindness means so much

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chitin-crusader · 11 months

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thankful to have a body but God why did it have to be this one

#do you have any idea how alienating it is to constantly be struggling to keep up with people doing basic things #and everyone just expects you to be able to do everything they can & MORE they ask of you #ive pushed myself over and over and over to the point of making myself physically SICK for days on end #doing more doesnt HELP it just makes me SICKER #but when i ask for grace its like i just need to try a little harder #do a little more #get used to moving again thatll fix it #i just havent done enough i never DO enough #even when i do the ABSOLUTE MOST I CAN AND BEYOND i just havent done ENOUGH #i LIKE being the helper i enjoy it but i have limits #and i have more limits than the average person #and it feels like nobody cares #theyll let me work myself to death if it means i get the favor done #vent #oops sorry #original

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hella1975 · 1 year

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so it turns out it was actually never that serious

#the exam literally went fine what the fuck just happened i feel like i just hallucinated that #like im not one of those people that go 'omg i did soooo badly :(' just to come out with top grades if i say it's going to shit #then it's becuase i genuinely wholeheartedly believe it #and my headspace before this exam was the worst it's been in MONTHS like i havent felt that bad for an exam since first year #and i sat down opened the paper and. remembered everything. like i literally just Knew the answers #im not saying ive passed bc am i fuck about to jinx it and i was still riding mainly blind bc i have NO idea where that knowledge came from #but at the very least there was a 35 marker that i KNOW i aced like i could picture the exact lecture slides it wanted me to discuss #and i had all of them memorised so at the very least ive got like. 30 marks. which is enough for me to pass the module #bc this exam is only weighted 75% and with my marks from the other 25% i only needed like 20 marks to pass this exam #which... makes it even more embarrassing that i failed it the first time but whatever!!!!#oh my god im so glad that's done im so happy IM FREE #just been in the kitchen dancing around to my little tunes and texting my friends <3 #im meeting up with one of them when she gets off work at 5 and we're going for drinks #so ive got until then to nap and chill and then ill go to the shop and get us some food and wine #and she's gonna come here for a bit & then we'll go. like actually look at me. im having people over at MY HOUSE im going out to buy us WIN #im literally a functioning adult living independently who IS she a misty memory #alas i do only have £23 in my account so this is gonna be such a slay seeing how i make that stretch for a night out #i acc could budget for england when it comes to alcohol i think like the way i manage to have a good funky time with MINIMAL funds #is downright impressive. it's a skill idc what you say #hella goes to uni

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elegyofthemoon · 5 months

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reading springfest now after everything in nagazora is making me crave more fu hua and mei interactions. i feel like thus far in my go through, i've never actually seen them interact, but it's kinda fun that the person who made the recommended reading order put springfest after nagazora (though of course this is probably in preparation for whatevers going on with senti/fu hua rn in ch 19)

but the way that the empyrea isolates herself so she doesn't have any attachment to those who she will outlive and how she winds up becoming lonely as a result threw me back to mei isolating herself in world serpent so that she can protect kiana and just... idk..... i think the two talk about that isolation would be interesting

also. i love fu hua. she's still at the top of my list for best character so i'm just a happy little guy getting more fu hua content now in the story :> yippee fu hua

#idk who to ramble to about honkai so hi #avil plays hi3 #ill probably liveblog my thoughts as i read through springfest and UH #blade of the empyrean!#but im excited :> then after that i gotta go through the 7 blades visual novel ^7^ that one has sushang!! i havent met her in the game yet #but i do have her !!!#its kinda interesting though because sushangs ultimate in hi3 is yanqing's ultimate in hsr. or i guess yanqing as a boss???#idk. so im like HMMMMMMMM WHATS UP THERE WHATS GOING ON #i wonder if theres a character sorter for hi3 actually #if i had to say who my top 5 are atm for honkai #its probably like fu hua mei kiana kevin and sakura ???#kiana is so easy. like if i loved oz vessalius how could i NOT love kiana we sure love vessel characters LJSHDFLASKDHFLAKSH #maybe its also recency effect though for mei but also. characters who isolate thinking that its the best htey could do to protect #like NO YOU IDIOT GET LOVED!!!!! GET L O V E D #they kinda get me #AND WELT I FORGOT WELT HOW COULD I DO THAT......#i feel like welt over kevin tbh #but thats super hard to say on my end alkdjfha #YOU KNOW i wouldve also said rita because i think rita is so fun #but i still dotn know enough about her #but personality wise i think shes so funny in a very stereotypical anime villain esque way LOL #also she is so catty too like what was she doing picking a fight with natasha LKAJHDLAFKJSDFH #OH I ALSO LOVE RITA AND NATASHA...#tbh i havent run into a character that i absolutely Hate in honkai yet....#at least not that i remember #if i hated them i probably forgot about them LMAOOOOO #like even durandal? i love durandal in the manga. she doesnt really stand out to me MUCH yet in the game but i loved her a lot in the manga #but for me durandal is low on the list for now. but that doesnt mean i dislike her i think shes cool but just hasnt done anything in #particular that caught my attention yet alskjdfahl #rambling WHOOPS ASLKJDFA

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lesbian4lqg · 2 years

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one thing i really appreciate about svsss is that with anyone else in shen yuans role?

the system's lbh mood ring points (satisfaction, heartbreak, etc) would be considered an invasion of privacy more than the whole transmigration thing already is or at least a source of valuable insight but instead

its shen yuan. if anything the mood ring reveals make him more confused

#(wiping away tears) hes so stupid #no but really the ways in which mxtx crafts her narration to share info with/withhold info from her audience is SO fascinating #*are #and to do it w/out breaking suspension of disbelief! shes so talented!#like theres so many examples!#the systems mood ring points making many of lbhs feelings/motivations obvious #(or at least comprehensive enough to be follow-able)#to the audience while still portraying sy's obliviousness as genuine and understandable #all of the hints as to hua chengs identity that make you think youve figured it out long before xie lian only to discover that #1. hes known for ages and just didnt mention it even tho HES LITERALLY THE NARRATOR?#2. we as the audience arent even told when he figured it out. we find out that he knows at the same time hua cheng does #(<- this also happens a bit w nan feng and fu yao. we Know but does xie lian know? yes he just doesnt care.)#its like the jkr 'it wasnt mentioned bc it wasnt relevant to harrys story' thing but CLEVER AND TRUE AND ON PURPOSE #i havent read mdzs yet but based on what ive seen & on cql a similar thing is done w wwx&lwj solving a murder mystery #theyre revealing what happened while wwx was dead to the cultivation world and the audience but also much of what happened when he was alive #(tho most of what happened when he was alive the first time is only revealed to the audience)#like i know mxtx is hardly the first author to do this but like. i just enjoy it so much?#anyway thats all i love her #shen yuan #shen qingqiu #svsss #tgcf #cql #mdzs #mxtx #✌️

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simcardiac-arrested · 1 year

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hey, i understand if you don't have the energy/motivation, and i don't want to force you. but i think you should consider exercising a little! even if its just 30 seconds. you might find that moving around actually makes you feel better than not moving! i personally get exercise in by (sometimes) pacing around when i'm deep in thought; maybe taking a walk outside and/or listening to a nice audiobook could work for you? (sorry if im making you uncomfortable! and feel free to call out bad behavior

i don’t think this is a weird or bad thing to say at all. thank you so much for this ask. like actually

#after i got this i went and stretched and got some push ups in which i havent done in a while #exercise always makes me feel a bit better but i also always forget to do it or i put it off bc it will take ‘too long’#and then it takes like. 7 minutes UEHEUEJSGSJSH #went and brushed my teeth and showered too. which are not things you’re supposed to do at 3pm but eh. we ball #i also watered my plants. so if i don’t do anything else today i can at least say i did that #one of them is drying up btw and i have no idea why …… i google it and it tells me that i either water it Too Much or Not Enough #and it’s like girl. make up your mind. either one or the other #he already almost dried up once but then he started getting better and getting new leaves. but now he’s doing it againnnn idk why!!!! Freak #also i wouldn’t have minded taking a walk at all but i’ve already spent the last 2 days walking until evening #and also there is. um. a uh. a snowstorm outside. and i don’t wanna walk through the snow.#so er. happy april 30th #normal weather👍#anyway yeah thank you anon it really did help. tjey werent lying #cramswering

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snekdood · 10 months

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this is partially a critique on my part but even more of a critique on other online leftists' part since i notice a complete lack of attempts at putting oneself in others shoes- it shouldn't quite literally take learning you have x minority ethnicity in you to have sympathy and understanding for them.

#i started understanding native people more when even the possibility of me having ntv american in me was presented to me #heres an idea: ACTUALLY TRY TO VISUALIZE WHAT SHIT WOULD BE LIKE IF YOU WERE IN STEAD OF DOING NOTHING #yes. yes. you will 'never fully comprehend' blah blah blah but im sure you've had enough experiences being treated lesser than #to be able to put yourself in other peoples shoes long enough to understand the complex ways of how shit negatively effects people #pretend that you are jewish (in your brain not irl if you're not. this is a thought exercise.) and now tell me what you think should #happen to jewish ppl in israel. and wait- i mean ACTUALLY think about it. dont shit out the most buzzwordsy shit you can think of #to make yourself feel and Look Cool to your followers. basically im asking you to do method acting here. i want you to go THAT far #to understand bc its apparently what needs to be done for you to understand.#bc if you're actually doing this thought exercise and you're actually educated on why theres jewish ppl in israel to begin with #(hint: they were forced out of other countries) you're not going to then be like 'yeah its fine to kill all jewish ppl in israel' you just #WONT come to that conclusion if you're being honest.#also i bet plenty a yall havent even gotten dna tests so far all you know you COULD have ashkenazi in you!#so you need to internalize that and try to act the way you think someone put in that situation would act to understand better.#also obviously all the while listening to jewish people while you're at it.

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good-beansdraws · 2 years

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*Looks longingly at my many wips and the 900+ drafts to queue on my main blog, drops some very unfinished fe doodles, then goes to bed* I just feel like sharing a little, ya know?

@edam-shame I have to redo a lot of this turnwheel Alm we've been talking about but this is the early sketch at least lol

#ill go into more details when i get around to final products but:#alm-merges-with-turnwheel-desperately-trying-to-use-time-travel-to-fix-everything au except i realized too late he uses both wheels #and celica's has a different set of designs so i need to scrap some og this and make room for those #manakete lukas doodles because im finally working on that fic!! its like actually on the page now!!#but i dont know enough about ice dragon lore so i worked with both designs the internet gave me lol #and then me desperately trying to create content for a 1920ish hollywood au fic i read about the rgb trio because i am Not Normal about it #it doesnt even look like lukas rip #but yeah that fic has lived in my brain since early july and has been scratching to get out nonstop for the past few months #'too jaded for oranges' i think the title was #so yeah i just wanted to share something -- you know how it goes #bitter i havent done Any mp100 art since s3 started but its coming i can feel it

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tousakamis · 1 year

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first two exams in a. week i am so scared

#alina post #i feel like i havent done enough work at all #im gonna try and do more this week but ive been knocked out nearly all day with a cold and headache #so Thats making me even more anxious #doesnt help i have two in the same day. two of my most content heavy and writing heavy exams IN THE SAME DAY #like ur joking #im just hoping what i do this week is enough and if i need to blag it in the actual exam ill blag it #fake it til you make it you know #ill just throw my bff marx in there if all seems bad #alina rant

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orcelito · 1 year

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ive got an exam in a bit over an hour and im cramming for it bc i spent all of yesterday thinking about trigun instead of studying. whatup

#speculation nation #and i didnt go to my fucking classes so i dont know this shit #this is my own fault lol. ugh #i just got vaguely suicidal a few weeks ago in response to school & my brain just COMPLETELY checked out to cope #im fine. but this is probably why ive been focusing on trigun so hard #my brain focusing HARD on the thing that brings me happiness. and focusing the Bare Minimum on what doesnt #which is troublesome when im still in the middle of the semester! lol!#any effort ive put in has been after wrangling my brain Extensively. bleh #work is taking about all of my Negative Experiences effort. i got none to spare for Anything else!#even dishes... no joke i havent done my dishes in like a month and im kinda scared to do them now lol #i did not do them yesterday. i did wash 2 mugs and 1 bowl as i made some grilled cheeses #so it could be worse. but i really just need to go for it #i have a feeling im not gonna be able to until after i finish my everything lol. haha #suicide ment/#listen i scared myself badly enough that i signed myself up for therapy. that's how you know it's bad #when me. mr Hates Therapy willingly puts myself into therapy. bleugh

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haeroniel-doliet · 2 years

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God that mood where you both need to do stuff and want to do stuff but both needs are vague and have too many options so you just. Do nothing you want or need to do and realize all the time you had is disappearing. A good time!!!

#haeroniel talks #forget the tag oh well #but for real. had 4 days off work and a ton of real life stuff i both have to get done and have been meaning to get done for a long time #ive pretty much only played video games and called my friends. genuinely not time wasted and i love when i get to do that #and like rn i would love to play more games and spend time with my friends like if one offers you know i never say no #but its also already getting dark and i have to go back to work tomorrow and ive not done everything i promised to have done yknow?#time doesnt feel real and i dont wanna get up even if the anxiety slowly builds to hopefully productive panic #but in the mean time im like ugghh i wanna stop laying around just playing sudoku and watching lame youtube. i wanna play something #(unclear what it is i actually wanna play too many options i kinda wanna play all of them and none huehheh)#im also very sad i havent drawn in ages and any attempt just feels shit. like maybe if i read enough fanfic thatll respark the love.#id love to post something before christmas to get me excited to draw again over the break but who the hell knows if i'll manage #and yeah still have the annoying job related/driving school related/therapy applying/other life admin that really really should be done #im just being grouchy and stuck and need to vent hi tumblr love you all kiss kiss i wish i could function better #i think maybe perhaps. ill concede that driving school and therapy arent priority (important but ive wasted ages on them already)#i think i can do work related things bc theyre sort of fun. i can use my parents help to whack through the life admin and then #maybe i can let myself spend the rest of the evening guilt free either calling my friends and/or playing or if im going totally w drawin

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emulation-0 · 10 months

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#i really cant do this anymore i dont know what to do #i just want someone to listen to me i want someone to understand but i cant make anyone listen to me or understand #im a selfish person but everything ive done is for them. i did everything to go against my nature i did everything to not want anything #i dont care about anyone or anything i dont even care about myself. everything for them. and its not enough #ive been good i think. i havent been selfish. all i wanted was for them to be happy and have a good life and maybe if im lucky mine #will get cut short so i dont have to drag myself through all of this but its not enough apparently to do everything i can for them #its not enough to get the best grades and never go out and never talk about my problems and never ask for anything #i have to want something for my future too? how is that fair. everything for you and you say it was all worthless and wasteful #and everything i did is for fucking nothing and im stupid and telling me shit i already know #you dont have to tell me my hobbies and my likes are for nothing i already know. i asked you for your opinion because everything is for you #my life is for you and i asked you if my choices were okay because your opinion matters over everything #didnt you think there was a reason why i always ask you what you want and what you like? but i was being selfish?#theres no point trying to make you understand you just never will. theres no point talking to you #i can put myself in a position where im begging for help from you and you wont understand. you wont listen to me. you never have #youve never understood me when it mattered. you only ever loved me in the ways you know how and i never complained #i already gave my future to taking care of you because theres nothing else i can do. but somehow i make u feel bad for it. im being selfish #so i dont understand what you want me to do. ive always done everything you said. you tell me to shut up and i do. you tell me not to go out #and i dont. you want me to smile and do all these things i dont give a shit about and i do #and then you want me not to do any of these things? think about myself? make up your mind already #im so tired trying and trying to be a person you wont be disappointed by and i keep failing. nothing i do is good #and i cant talk to you about it or my brother or my cousins because they dont understand it. they never listen when it matters #fucking whatever #vent post #delete later #aricouldyounot

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ericlovessharks · 1 year

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liking and depending on people is so stupid and hard and ive decided im never doing either again

#never venting or talking about feelings again 💪#repressing is easier and less vulnerable #even if it hurts sometimes it's better than being vulnerable with anyone again #just gonna say everything rn #im tired of some of our shitty irl friends and i miss one that we dont talk to much anymore bc no classes and whatever and #im stressing about my bf because we havent seen his system online in a while but we havent talked to them in a month because we feel #unwanted but thats us just being dramatic i guess but now it's like; are we close enough to ask you if you're ok or will you find us #annoying and cut us off and then i never get to see my bf again who i might just break up with because #1) he deserves better #2) if i leave him first i cant be scared of him leaving me #/j #i wont tho #i would start sobbing if i tried to lmao #but anyway our parents dont like me specifically and even if they dont know about osdd whatever they can see our attitude change #so its really great to feel unwanted by my friends and parents rn!!#i miss percy i miss serenity i miss romeo #i also dont believe any of them or anyone likes me and they only tolerate and pity me #i cant even get out of bed to get a book im just stupid and crying here #im done #ep #vent

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