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sea-owl · 2 years ago
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For gothic Featheringtons, Pen saw that first glimpse of ferality from Colin and decided the choker was coming off. She likes a man who is a little unhinged.
Portia always told her daughters that they must marry passionate men, life would be too boring otherwise, and it is the way of the Addams women. Penelope did truly love Colin but she never saw any sort of passion from him, so he was nothing more than a nice what if.
Until he followed her to the church. Those green eyes of his darkening to the color of the forests, and he had a look on his face that she has never seen before.
Could you blame Penelope for being curious? First sign of passion she has seem from him ever, she had to know where this led. In the carriage, where Penelope could study Colin closely, it became obvious that he was going into rut.
Penelope remembered the stories of the great chases between alphas and omegas her Aunt Medea used to tell in her letters. Him following her in their carriages wouldn't have counted as one, would it? Well Penelope supposed it could, chases down to the basic level was an alpha following an omega until the alpha caught them. It was an old mating ritual, to prove the alpha worthy of claiming the omega.
When Colin begged her to stay Penelope knew she would be agreeing to more than just staying in that moment. His need to suck on her chocker covered mating gland was proof of that.
Could anyone really blame her for taking it off? I mean she knew it would come off eventually. Why waste time when she could enjoy this in its fullest. When Colin bit her she knew.
Penelope Featherington had found her passionate alpha.
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pleafyistired · 6 months ago
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BORISS.
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venomgender · 2 years ago
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sso-sunstone · 2 years ago
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not apoligizing for being inactive but stopping by to let everyone know how much fun i've been having recently on sso. the new level caps has made revisiting + training all my horses soo nice and the newest tack is so gorgeous so i have a strong reason to grind spring tokens
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that-classy-bastard · 7 days ago
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What's it gonna take to get a Polaroid of someone to keep on my dash?
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istherewifiinhell · 4 months ago
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[pauses music to watch video. finishes it] oh yeah what was i listening to again [unpauses it] oh right. floppy disk drive music.
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skitter-smack · 5 months ago
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wearing my Pink Floyd shirt to my flying test today. I’m sure it’ll go fine
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cdawgcaps · 1 year ago
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i just wanna talk to him for hours and hours 😭😭😭😭
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wcters · 1 month ago
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𝗛𝗜𝗦 𝗙𝗔𝗨𝗟𝗧
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pairing: lando norris x fem!sainz!reader
summary: you and lando’s relationship gets revealed by your cousin . . . but are people surprised?
request: ���would you be able to write a lando x driver sainz!reader fic where reader is carlos' cousin, drives for one of the teams and maybe has a secret blossoming relationship with lando. focused on the mexico gp when lando had celebratory dinner with carlos' family and reader is also there. fans ship them and have speculations (maybe write a little bit about this, possibly a thread or fan fave moments and interactions between them during gps or on social media). only the grid knows about the relationship and maybe carlos accidentaly exposes them on social media.
warnings: established relationship, bullying (jokingly) | faceclaim is lola lovinfosse, to whoever sent this request, thank you for the nice note 😚 stuff like that makes me continue to do this !!!!!!!, no cause why would carlos actually do that, i saw a tiktok comment saying “carlos always looks like he doesn’t know where he is or what he’s doing” and i totally agree
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yourusername let’s go to mexico! 🇲🇽
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f1 vamos!
user1 they’re not ready for her
carlossainz55 adelante!
user2 you know she’s going to terrorize the whole grid during media day
user3 sainz-sainz podium??
landonorris oh geez
↳ yourusername BOO 🍅
user4 you deserved a barbie cameo
↳ yourusername let me get greta on the phone 📞
user5 her and lando beefing is so funny to me
↳ yourusername he’s so annoying 😔 petion to have duck tape permanently on his mouth
user6 i can’t wait for media day
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f1 ready to race 👊
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user1 carlos looks like he’s in a constant state of confusion
↳ yourusername he is. you should see him when we have family reunions
yourusername @landonorris you need a stylist 😐😐😐
↳ landonorris what about carlos???
↳ yourusername better than you 🤷‍♀️
↳ landonorris i hope you crash
user2 lando’s going to get a talking to for that comment
user3 she’s slaying 😘😘
user4 y/n ATEEE per usual
yourusername added to their story! landonorris added to their story!
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yourusername good qualifying in mexico with a p5! eventually found the right feeling with the car. ready to fully focus tomorrow 👊
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user1 you got this !!!!
↳ yourusername thank youu
user2 give it all my girlie ❤️
carlossainz55 👏👏👏
user3 you’re going smoke em
↳ yourusername i love your confidence
user4 you ate that 😘
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skysportsf1 lando norris in an interview after qualifying on his talk with FIA after his comments on y/n y/l/n’s instagram!
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user1 ariana? what are you doing here 🤨
yourusername karma.
↳ user2 girl you’re next 💀💀
user3 she was right, he does need a stylist 🤷‍♀️
user4 y/n’s so iconic
user5 you can see her smirking and giggling 😭😭
landonorris there’s so much else i wanted to say
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yourusername felicidades carlos por p1 !!!! you did so incredible and i know aunt reyes will be estactic! congrats as well to charlie 🙂 and lando 😟
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user1 the difference in emojis says it all
landonorris what’s up with the emoji
↳ yourusername 😯😦😐
user2 she cooked him
carlossainz55 gracias! y mamá está muy feliz
↳ yourusername la conozco muy bien 😌
user3 i know the sainz family is happy today with p1 and p5
charles_leclerc merci y/n!
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f1gossip mclaren driver lando norris and redbull driver y/n y/l/n seen cuddling up in the background of an instagram story posted by carlos sainz after celebrating the mexico grand prix. thoughts?
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user1 we all saw how they looked at each other during media day
user2 her face when she congratulated lando!!!!
↳ user3 that man was blushing HARD
user4 no one’s surprised
user5 that person on twitter was on to something 🤔
user6 this is such a carlos thing to do
↳ user7 right?!
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yourusername it’s true . . . i am looking to get rid of my boyfriend. he is short, annoying, and snores. there is a $20 entry free 😔 anything higher than $2 i will accept
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landonorris this is so debilitating
user1 I KNEW IT
user2 she really took him out with this one 💀
landonorris ALSO I AM NOT SHORT
↳ landonorris and i’m not THAT annoying
↳ yourusername nothing to say about the snoring??
↳ landonorris i’m afraid everyone knows that one already 😔
carlossainz55 my bad
↳ yourusername it’s not your fault old people don’t know how to use phones
user3 carlos just got a permanent headache
landonorris
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landonorris i’ve just accepted the bullying
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yourusername stop lying you love it
↳ landonorris do i? 🤨
user1 i just know carlos is even more excited for family vacations
carlossainz55 i’ve had to deal with it for years, it’s your turn
user2 she’s so silly
↳ yourusername right? it’s not my fault 😔
charles_leclerc the whole grid knew and we had a bet on who was going this spillc and it wasn’t carlos
↳ user3 who did you think it was going to be?
↳ georgerussell63 lando
↳ oscarpiastri lando
↳ alex_albon lando
↳ yourusername It was just a matter of time before the muppet slipped up 🤷‍♀️
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mysicklove-main · 2 years ago
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Pining! Shoto who doesn't know how to show his love correctly. Who stares at you blankly until you understand his feelings. 
Pining! Shoto who didn't even know he liked you until Ochako made a teasing remark about his staring. 
Pining! Shoto who follows you around helplessly, and you don't seem to mind the extra addition. Who smiles and nods when you begin to invite him to wherever you are going.
Pining! Shoto who jumps and accidentally releases bits of his quirk when you accidentally graze his hand. Who clentches his fist in embarrassment when you ask if he was okay.
Pining! Shoto who blushes furiously the first time you praise him on his hero skills. Who stands there nodding and trying not to freak out when you say how “strong!” and “cool!” he is.
Pining! Shoto who sits too close to you on the couch. Always manages to somehow sit in between you and a friend. 
Pining! Shoto whose head whips around to you whenever he hears you laugh or talk. 
Pining! Shoto who sits next to you when you are online shopping. Listens to when you lightheardedly complain about how expensive everything is. Who buys everything you put in your shopping cart with his fathers credit card and brings it to your dorm room.
Pining! Shoto who thinks he is sick when he sees you talking so estactically to Kirishima. Who grabs your shoulder and leads you away from the redhead. Finally feeling that tight, uncomfortable feeling  in his stomach fade.
Pining! Shoto who just can't stop talking about you to his friends. Who somehow mentions your name in every conversation. “Oh, I think Y/N would like this.” and “Doesn't this remind you guys of Y/N?” or “I wish Y/N was here right now.”
i love him.
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hisokakissmeplz · 6 months ago
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obsessed hisoka. i want him so bad y’all don’t understand me
he could beat the shit out of me, spit on me, stomp me, break my legs, steal my money and i would thank him
He would be super overprotective like low-key stalks you
Showing up randomly at your house doesn't matter if you're there or not he comes over whenever he feels like it
He would steal your panties stuff
Extremely touchy like his hands do not leave you
It doesn't even have to be sexual he just likes touching you and feeling you
Most of the time it is though
His hands on your chest, your ass, your thighs, holding your wrists behind your back, pulling you close just to whisper something unrelated in your ear
Not to mention how obsessed he is with sex
He is on you all day every day, morning, night, noon
He wakes you up, trailing his hands and lips over your body, his dick pressing into your thigh as he does
He go down on you for hours, estactic if you ever ask him to, telling you how much he loves it, how good you taste, how he can't wait for you to return the favor
The loudest you will ever have he's a screamer
He wants to take photos just so he can have them, something to remember every interaction
He will take forever with foreplay, enjoying every second with you
When he finally does take you it goes one of two ways
He's extremely fast and harsh, pulling hair, pinning you down, posing you however he likes and just using you
He's sweet, not exactly slow but sensual and caring, his hands caressing every part of you, lots of kissing and whispering sweet praises into your ear
He has a massive praise kink both ways
Tell him how good he is and he'll fuck you so hard you'll cry
Pull his hair and you won't be walking for a few days
Let him mark you some way, from love bites to bruises to cuts, he's very possessive
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meowsgirldrawing · 1 year ago
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Angst idea Obey Nightbringer running through my head
Part 2 here
So MC was dropped from the sky basically right? Mammon caught then and promptly asked them for payment once they woke up, like the sweet man he is-
I love the theory that MC just disappeared then from the present.
Cause I see this-
Imagine a typical morning in Devildom. The day is calm as it could be- AS IT COULD BE- and the brothers are all slowly trickling into the dinning room for breakfast. One of them is the cook today, probably Mammon, and hes making some nice meal he knows is MC's favorite.
When its served, he going along, ignoring the accusations and teases from his brothers, but as hes about to plop into his own seat, hungry for some rare human food- Lucifer stops him. All of them.
Hes looking around, a furrow in his brow, "Where's MC?"
Thats when the empty seat next to a slightly more awake Belphie and for-once-pausing-in-his-breakfast Beel gets brought to light. Usually MC picks whereever they want to sit for the meals on their own, typically being one of the first ones there. But they're obviously not around.
Lucifer sighs, then orders Mammon to go grab them. Sleepy little human, is a phrase Belphie snickers at.
For once, Mammon isnt grumbling about the order, he estactic actually! He gets to see MC's light up face at their favorite dish! Made by him!
Of course, he masks a grumble, but hes all smiles on the way to their room.
As per tradition, he marches right in, esclaiming loud and proud about his success of making a typical weirdo human dish for his hum-
His human?
He stops in his tracks. MC isnt there. Their sheets are ruffled. Their uniform is still hung high on the closet door, and their bags and everything else they grab for the day is laying about. Never been touched.
Huh.
Imagine Mammon coming back with confusion, saying how MC isnt in their room.
Imagine after his explanation, they get too antsy to finish breakfast, they just get up to search for them. They tried messaging at first. Even calling. But they quickly found their phone lying under the sheets, still on charge. The constant ringing sending them on edge.
Beel is texting Luke and Simeon, but they have no clue whats going on. No, they haven't seen MC since their last cooking class yesterday.
Diavolo gets back to Lucifer with obvious worry in his text. MC said they were going straight home after the counsel meeting, though.
Barbatos repeats the same.
Asmodeus tries to message Soloman, his hands trying not to shake as he follows Satan and Levi around the house, both calling MC's name. All 3 growing more anxious and unsettled as they get no response.
But Soloman doesnt even respond.
Mammon? The first one to discover MC's disappearance? Hes on the verge of freaking out.
He keeps up his bite in his tone "OI HUMAN! Where the hell are ya!" Hes going from room to room like the rest of the brothers "YOU BETTER FREAKING RESPOND! O-or-.." His voice starts cracking. Every second he doesnt see his human feels even worse than the last, "MC! F-FOR FUCKS SAKE- RESPOND DAMN IT!" His arms burn with the constant throwing open doors, the moving of furniture. Where the fuck are they??
Once the house has been checked once. Twice. Lucifer even checking Cerberous's lurking grounds, silently hoping to not find any remains possible. The dog's 3 heads stares at his master confused though the whole thing, watching with silent ponder over Lucifer making rounds and rounds about the lot, calling for the human that helps with his monthly cleaning and daily treat giving.
The search continues out, all 7 demon brothers joined by the worried king and his butler, the two angels, as well as a few of their other demons, and Reaper.
All day and into the night they search, all desperate to not find out the worse of worse fates of the human.
The first night is hard. Lucifer had to call of the search for the night, allow himself and his brothers to rest from running all over Devildom. Diavolo sends his well wishes as he does the same, with the plan for first thing to send out better search options.
The brothers hudle in one of the main living rooms. They cant stop talking about it all, where could they be? Does someone have them?? Are they even safe??
Theres a moment where Mammon spits out a curse, hopping back up with a growl, and claiming to go back out again.
Lucifer can see his weariness and orders him to sit back down. His younger brother snarls back a retort, hellbent on finding their human. Maybe even socking whoever has them into the ground if he finds even a single glimpse of that idea.
The agrument goes back and forth, most of the brothers watching in either fury, worriedness, dread, or all. The argument only gets stopped in its tracks when a knock comes that the entrance.
Before Lucifer or any of his brother utter a single word, Mammon is booking it to the door. He tosses it open, expecting- no- hoping on every last grim its Lamentation's only human resident coming home.
But its not that.
Soloman stands alone at the door. His arms tight behind his back, expression stretched as if his words burn his mouth.
"I know where MC is."
-this turned out longer than I wanted, but I kinda plan to write this fully and in more detail. Just beta version y'know?
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saikoucorps · 5 months ago
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So since the hyperfixation is real…would it be possible to get poly hc’s with Bruce x John x reader who helped bring them closer too? (with a tiny bit of NSFW as well if possible)
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:ఌ¨ BRUCE X JOHN X READER
♱ nsfw warning ┊ poly hcs ┊ batjokes x gn!reader ♱
A/N ┊ I was waiting for someone to request this!! I love them together :3
I decided to do this and add general relationship hcs (^_^)
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[ pre-relationship ༉‧₊˚ ]
♤ They both beat around the bush a lot. I don't think they realized their feelings for you, or eachother. Especially Bruce. He had it worse. Poor guy was insanely oblivious to you and John.
♤ John and Bruce got along well, but they were very stupid sometimes. Both believed they were out of eachothers league, including yours!
♤ So, with these difficulties, they kept a distance between eachother. They still hung out with you though. Their thought process was basically "I don't have a chance with him, so I'll go to them".
♤ That doesn't mean they didn't love you. They very much did! You noticed this, and you couldn't take it anymore.
♤ Each hang out you planned, the other one was involved.
♤ For example, you invited John to hang out at a bar, and then suddenly "forgot" to mention Bruce was also coming. It became a habit of yours. They didn't mind, though.
♤ Infact, they were so used to it, that they forgot about their troubles from before.
♤ Everything between you three felt natural. So natural, in fact, that they got REALLY bold. Especially John. You and Bruce never get tired of his flirtatious "jokes".
And, well, Bruce being the 'playboy' that he is, always goes along with it.
♤ Your goal to bring them closer worked, and in the process, they got closer to you as well.
♤ John was the first to mention it, your relationship. What were you guys? It surely wasn't normal that three friends were so close with each other, was it? Bruce said he's whatever you both wanted him to be. You knew, as well as John, what you wanted him to be. What you wanted eachother to be.
♤ You all knew. And you were all together soon enough.
So, what if you three were dating? Finally, at least.. ༉‧₊˚
♤ It can either be absolute chaos, or an absolute smooth ride in the river. I think you can guess who's on which side..
♤ Trick question! It's both of them!
♤ If Bruce thought Alfred worrying about him on missions was bad, wait till he has two more worrying for him. It really depends, honestly. Sometimes you and John join him.
♤ Which is why they come off as overly-protective Actually, they are protective. Bruce, as Batman, constantly is checking on you two when you join him. He's sometimes even against it. He knows you two will be safe though.
♤ John is similar. He never hesitates to jump into action when you or Bruce may be harmed in any way. No matter how far he has to go. As long as your safe, he's okay.
♤ John is also jealous. He can be really possessive fast. If he sees someone flirting or trying anything with either one of you, he's stopping it immediately. Not that he doesn't trust you both, no, he wants it to be known you guys are off the table.
♤ If you had any criminal background, Bruce has it cleared right away. Thanks to Waller. As well as John's background. Because of this, you two don't have to worry about being chased down.
♤ Alfred is very used to you and John being over at the mansion, so much so he knows your favorite teas. And if you didn't like tea to begin with.
♤ John is obsessed with photos. You all could be out somewhere, or just sitting down, and he's immediately photo journaling it. He did it so much to the point of you bringing up the idea to Bruce about buying him an actual camera. And he did! He was absolutely estactic about it, and rarely ever puts it down.
♤ On the topic of photos, John decided to upgrade to a photo journal. He keeps a book of photos of you three close to him.
♤ Bruce is a total romantic. While he may not have that much relationship experiences, he definitely knows how to get under your skin in many ways. John has absolutely no relationship experience.. though, he knows how to push your buttons a lot. He's very observant!
♤ John's therapy circle at the stack decks knows all about you and Bruce.. and people who work for Bruce know about you and John. Alfred will even occasionally ask Bruce how you both are doing.
♤ Bruce loves to tease you and John by being sarcastic. John actually enjoys this, as well as you. Humor is very common among you three. There's never a moment where John won't break the silence with a joke or chuckle.
now, onto the nsfw 👀.. ༉‧₊˚
♤ John. That should explain enough.
Okay, well, let me explain.
♤ Bruce likes to pretend he enjoys meaningful and loving sex. He does, but he's a sucker for rough and kinky.
♤ John knew of this, as did you. You just didn't expect John to use it against you as well.
♤ He made things very interesting.. even got Bruce to come out his shell! He'd have new ideas for you two and would always tease you both badly during the day.
"You've got quite the grip on that."
"Mm so aggressive."
"Those lips can be very useful for something else."
♤ He'd send you both dirty texts throughout the day, on purpose. At the worst times. Once sent you one while you were at a meeting, a semi important one infact. You were listening to your boss until you felt your phone vibrate and decide to check it in secret. You knew it was either John, or Bruce. Your notifications are all off except for their messages. All you saw was the most diabolical thing ever, it was impossible not to have an reaction.
♤ It soon became a game between you all. You went to get back at him, Bruce got back at him, soon enough Brucie's sarcastic and teasing nature caught up with you and you felt challenged.
♤ None of you hated it. It made everything all more interesting.
♤ The boys are crazy switches. Bruce used to choose to believe he was a top, until you/John proved him wrong. He enjoyed both positions, as long as he could service either one of you guys.
♤ John is definitely not afraid of praise. He knows how to get you both going, he will never hold back. One simple gesture can have him holding you so softly and telling you how amazing you are at this.
♤ Bruce is very touchy. In public and in private. Especially in private. He isn't afraid to do it in public. He's all up for risks.
♤ So much, that he allowed you to be under his desk as an employee spoke to him. John knew all about this and teases Bruce about it. Even said to let him try it out sometime.
♤ With how strong Bruce is, you have to hope the bed stays intacted. And yourself.
♤ Bruce is rich, so imagine all the toys he could by with his money. They do not hold back.
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I hope this is good enough !!
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omagpies · 1 month ago
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I just stumbled upon your art and I am beyond estactic that I did. You have such range! It’s so inspiring. And Ngl seeing such amazing artists drawing disabled people, and properly no less, is such a massive comfort and reasurance.
Normalization and respect
Ugh it makes me so happy
Yeah every fandom will have its issues with disabled characters, especially the bigger they get the louder the minority gets, but when this is a main character and integral part of the story it’s hard to ignore
Bleh look at me being all sappy
I’m just happy that people like you are helping people like me be normalized and respected
Your Anya and Curly art is so heart warming
Please keep up the amazing work
You are really making a lot of people feel seen and comfortable in their own skin
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you are very kind, thank you 💗 i do have to make a sidenote that it is not always a Good Time for characters in my art, but it’s safe to say that they will always be treated with respect by me, disabled or not
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flyonthewallmedstudent · 10 months ago
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The weirdness of high school.
And university too maybe.
Plus or minus med school. But not residency. Watching THis is Us and other bingeable shows recently.
There's a lot of flash backs and flash forwards in the show.
There's the high school ones, which like all TV shows is very stereotype'd. They go to an alumni event, and the nerdy girl now surgeon is estactic to hang out with the former football star/cool guy. Who is very thick.
I was a super weird, nerdy, socially awkward kid. Afraid of a lot of social things, but not afraid of science, history anything academic or what I looked like. I wore oversized sweats all day everyday. I never knew how to say the right things or act in a crowd. I hated crowds. 2 or 3 close friends was great, and the best I could muster. I was terrified of their parents.
But funnily enough, I never knew I was weird. I wasn't unhappy either.
I liked having 2-3 close friends, nothing more or less.
Then close to graduation, one of the guidance counselors (the non-crazy one) said to me, she didn't have a great high school experience either. But it gets better after high school. I'll see. It took me years as a teenager to understand what she meant.
Later on I realized that other people felt sorry for me. Thinking because I didn't have the stereotype of the great high school experience I was some how sad, ashamed, unhappy.
Ironically I never even thought about it and was actually happy in my own world and space. I had my separate universe in academics. Like it never dawned on me that I was missing out on anything.
I felt embarassed, in a strange way as an adult reflecting on those experiences. Slightly embarassed for me, but more embarrassed for the small town/city around me. I did not fit in that place, but I didn't know it either back then or didn't care to. We were very much ships passing in the night. I didn't and don't hate where I grew up, I actually loved it in my own way. I got a great education there, and it got me where I wanted to go.
Looking back, plenty of kids probably made underhanded mean comments or passive aggressive statements - but it all went over my head. I suppose I would have been unhappy, had I read between the lines back then. Someone even stole my math text the week of the math exam, but I was actually flattered. That hey, someone thought I was that smart (imposter syndrome starts when you're young). It was one of the best days of my life.
It was also hilarious to me then, that stealing the text of one of the nerds during exam week would sabotage anything - because they spend their entire free time studying the whole year. They don't cram. Cramming was a terrible habit I acquired in university/undergrad. In med school, I'd fail exams because I crammed.
Another time I had left my draft math home work in a common room table, a classmate told me (2 weeks after the fact) that 5-6 different kids grabbed it and copied it. unfortunately for them, it was a draft full of errors, so I completely disregarded as trash. the final copy I submitted with the correct formulae was substantially different. Our math teacher of course realized that everyone had the same errors, but couldn't figure out the source. No one ever said anything mean or confronting, so it wasn't hard to brush aside. they self-sabotaged themselves, nothing actually happened to me.
Again, it was like we lived on different planets. Had they asked, I probably would have helped them out, I didn't get the grades I got by myself either. My far smarter co-nerd friends taught me a lot. On the other hand, I was intensely shy, they probably interpreted it as being "aloof." Or worse, condescending.
I'd felt my entire time during school, that it was the path to something else. I wouldn't get there till about 10-15 years later. Maybe even 20. It was a means to an end. If I was going to be working, then I wanted that work to have meaning. Or what would the point of all those hours. My parents worked in jobs they grew to hate to just go home and be tired.
Med school was a bit like high school. After the first few months of first year, i spent most of it hiding from other med students. (They were fucking crazy, a good chunk of them although not all, the anxiety, stress, competitiveness, the back stabbing, entitlement and bravado --> by the way, people do mature and get better. of course not all them do. anyhoo).
It was after selecting a vocation and starting residency that I found "home." Where I suddenly was comfortable having more than 2-3 friends and happy to be in crowds. Because everyone in the crowd was pretty much like me. We wanted to talk about all the same things. Maybe I grew more comfortable in my own skin along the way too.
But you know, it wasn't me that need to grow and change. I had found the environment where I finally could be myself in.
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arrow-jsy · 2 months ago
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SO THE FIRST TIME OR IDK WHILE IT HAPPENED LIVE I WAS SO ESTACTIC FREAKING OUR SQUEELING ABOUT IT HAPPENING BUT IVE JUST REWATCHED IT AND NOW IM CRYIINNNG
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