#especially the boys because they're were fewer of them

[box-dwelling]

Beloved mutuals, today i have toiled in the mines of AA in my mind but have merely 3 words to give you. But I fear these words may bring much joy or much horror.

Those 3 words are

Theatre kid Klavier

[autumn-foxfire]

Movie 25: Bride of Halloween time!

And it's already forcing the romance >.> It is funny that Ran always shuts down Sonoko's comments about Shinichi crushing on her as Conan. That's her little brother, she does not entertain that bullshit.

...Did they not bother telling the guests that this was a fake wedding?

Poor Sato, she looked absolutely traumatized over even the thought of Takagi dying on her.

Sato looks very beautiful in her wedding dress, though. I hope we do see the day Takagi and Sato get married, out of all the couples, they are ones I would love to see.

Something I've noticed in the introductions: they never introduce Ran as Shinichi's girlfriend, just his childhood friend, even though they've been together for a while in the manga and anime now. I guess even those who do the introductions don't want to say they're together :p

It's so nice of Shinichi to imagine Ran in her wedding to Sera :p Thank you for telling us he did, Ai.

She's so pretty-

AND SHE JUST GOT BLOWN UP.

KOGORO T-T He was actually being a good father for a change too... He didn't even think when it came to protecting Ai from danger.

They're so scared for him T-T

I like when the police can be competent, especially Sato as we know that Gosho doesn't respect his female characters as much as they deserve so it's nice when writers do give it to them.

I forgot that Matsuda texted his "friend" even after his death. That's very gay, gay, homosexual, gay of him. Sounds like he couldn't let him go.

Fewer and fewer people came because they're all dead. Amuro is the only one of his friends left.

...Did the movies forget that Takagi and Sato are already dating? And that they're sleeping together, both sexually and non-sexually? This seems like drama for the sake of drama.

Ran is not as worried for Kogoro as she would usually be? They didn't get the best writers for this movie, did they. They got a great team to animate though because it looks really good.

Takagi understands Sato so well T-T Well, at least the writing isn't all bad.

I have to wonder how these agents feel, being told to take a child to their boss and they have no clue why. They must suspect that their is something wrong with this child, especially if he's being treated like an equal by their boss.

And it doesn't get solved by you but rather by a know-it-all boy who can't keep his nose out of investigations even if it'll cost him his life.

Was that Amuro's car that just got destroyed? Ouch.

Well at least Date put it to good use.

And of course Scotch asked about his boyfriend. He also came to save his life.

It's not really that tense when I know he doesn't die here, but later.

They tried to make a run for it so they didn't have to do errands for others XD

Ai first had to go through it and now Shinichi almost died T-T They're not having a good time this movie, are they.

Ran looks very pretty in this outfit she's wearing. Very mature but not overly so.

Okay but Takagi looks good with Matsuda's haircut. However, I do like how normal he usually looks so I don't want him to change his normal haircut, just appreciating our great man Takagi.

No one should question Shinichi's presense anymore. Even if he was invited, he would be find his way inside a confidential meeting.

Shinichi just clicked his fingers... to tell everyone that they have a hint for the case. He's so overly dramatic, he gets it from his mother. The only thing he taes after his father is his intelligence and colouring, he gets everything else from his mother.

Lol I wonder if Shinichi was trying to get info from Amuro about his dead boyfriend.

She is so angry. You know she's also angry at herself for going alone with this plan and putting Takagi in danger. But damn she also looks incredibly hot.

Considering how he's panicking Takagi is actually a pretty good actor.

Takagi: I am in WAY over my head.

I really, really love the art direction for this movie. They're bringing out the unique style of detective conan to great lengths.

...Those were supposed to be burns?

They looks like tattoos, not burns. If you're going to do scars, commit to it. Give her proper scars.

OH THEY CAN DO SCARS.

Shinichi has gone into his mind map again. It's not as fun when Kaito isn't there helping him along.

Can't have a movie where Shinichi isn't lying to Ran's face!

Awww, Ai put on a hat for the halloween spirit.

Shinichi's latest genius idea: fake being kidnapped in order to get to the culprit.

Oof, poor guy was completely fooled by his future "wife". He's going to struggle to trust again.

Amuro has no chill. He just dislocated that woman's arm.

I love when he makes this face after he saves people. It's his "well that was fucking close," face which makes it look like he isn't taking what he did all that seriously.

I vote for letting the bitch die but I know Shinchi isn't stopping her for the culprits sake, but rather to save the heart of the woman who had lost too much.

This is the best side of Shinichi.

And Agasa once again saves the day.

I hope Ran gets to help with keeping the football in place. She is there after all.

CAN WE NOT DO THE RAN THING. IT'S SO GODDAMN CRINGY.

Sick shot. He's taking after his husband with the moon shots.

So Matsuda and Shinichi used the same method to stop the bomb and they did so because of Matsuda's dead boyfriend.

One of the only couples I cheer for when they kiss XD

I'm guessing the post credit scene is another practise. Yeah.

THEY BROUGHT TAKAGI WITHOUT HIM KNOWING. OKAY THAT'S FUNNY.

[zorilleerrant]

For the ask game, ship you’ve unwilling come around to!

Oh, I have so many NoTPs in every fandom, and, unfortunately, a ton of them tend to be canon or popular in fandom! The ones that bother me so much I had to block the tags are Dick/Babs, Tim/Kon, and Spike/Buffy. I think those are the only ships I currently have blocked, but some of that is just because the other ships are less popular (or fewer people I follow care one way or the other).

With Dick/Babs, it's that I love their dynamic as childhood friends or as young superhero friends, and if they have romantic entanglements on top of that it feels like it's invalidating the friendship. There's a lot of 'this boy and girl are friends so they have to date' (see also: these two queer boys/girls are friends so they have to date) and it gets its ick on ships, even though generally I do enjoy a friends-to-lovers arc. It's also a little creepy to me that Babs was originally Bruce's love interest, and then infantilized to be Dick's love interest - the same reason that Kori/Jason and Raven/Damian bother me so much. Also, Babs is a lesbian. I really just prefer them as mlm/wlw solidarity and not in a bi4bi way.

Tim/Kon and Spike/Buffy are more a problem with the fans than any of the canon material. (Which is why I ship Tim/Kon in the HBO Titans universe, which I haven't seen many people being mean about.) I see a lot of Tim/Kon fans hating on Bernard and Tim/Bernard and also hating on DC in a way that honestly feels pretty homophobic. I don't think that's their intention but it really sounds like the same arguments people who just don't want canon queer characters at all make. I also see them hating on Steph and Tim/Steph sometimes in ways that are pretty misogynistic (and also biphobic) and I just don't like it.

Spike/Buffy is like... I enjoyed the dynamic on the show, where they were both unhealthily codependent and toxic to each other. Two people who think they're in love or have the potential to be in love because they won't address their own problems is my jam! Of course, most of the shippers seem to want to treat it like a real (or especially a healthy) relationship instead of a toxic situationship. There's also the problem that, like, they keep defending why Spike 'deserves' to still be in a relationship with Buffy after assaulting her, sometimes with pages long essays, and never once mention how Buffy might feel about that. Completely ignoring Buffy's opinion on the whole thing feels, to me, even more nonconsensual than the original incident (which I was willing to chalk up to bad writing and ignore). So now the merest mention gives me the creepy crawlies. This is most canon ships on BtVS, tho.

Most ships I'm open to, tho! I especially enjoy hearing about rarepairs and anything that couldn't happen in canon (crossover ships, etc.) because I can roll it around in my head until I understand it. Which is why even stuff that squicks me at first I'm willing to give a chance if the story sounds interesting enough.

[huntunderironskies]

Talking about utterly incoherent things to 99% of anyone who follows me here because it's too early in the morning to remember how to log into the account where I talk about weeb shit (also it's a little saltier than what I usually post but they aren't real people so I am allowed to be bitchy I think) and I want to vomit this out as quickly as possible before the VGC regionals start in like less than a half hour below the cut.

I guess this TECHNICALLY counts as spoilers for the upcoming prri season but it's just matchups and everyone is already screaming about them and only one of you (to my knowledge) cares about incredibly niche edgy idol boy stuff. I will save your dash with a cut anyway.

Well, we all knew we were getting a Visty v. 1NM8 matchup at some point but that's, uh, sooner than anticipated. Free my boys, they're probably gonna lose in a landslide, Stellas are insane. RIP you funky little lab experiments. To be fair 1NM8 is one of the least popular units because people in this fandom tend to have bad taste and they tend to come across as a heel unit even when Kei is kind of objectively in the right about Phantom Lives (thank you Cory for also being correct about this.)

At least TCW got pitched a softball, I'd be shocked if they lose to Amprule. I think the one thing that Amprule has going for them is IIRC someone did an analysis of voting trends and while there are significantly fewer Amprule fans which is why they've consistently lost every matchup they've been in, the reason their matches aren't absolute blowouts all the time is because Mushikera contribute a wildly disproportionate amount of points compared to everyone else who usually splits their voting points. Though, to be honest the only other match they'd even stand a chance in is vs. Visty as well especially since I'm expecting Stellas to dump all their points into the 1NM8 matchup. But hey, two wins is the most they've ever gotten in any season so, we're still on trend! It's hard out here having good taste.

This is by far the matchup that makes the least sense narratively but part of that is also the writers doing a bad job of giving Amprule any character relationships outside of BAE so you couldn't really get a grudgematch going yet. I'm assuming they're keeping some of the other narratively important rivalries in their back pocket for later so we're probably gonna see BAE vs. czmz grudgematch 3.0 somewhere towards the end.

I can't be the only one who thought gklk vs. Amprule would've been really funny though, right? Incredibly one-sided in favor of gklk but also Kenta and Dongha would fucking H A T E each other.

[heathneycanon]

td new cast ranking (spoilers)

hiii if you know me at all you know i loveeeee ranking things and i already made a tierlist but i'd love to give my detailed thoughts on the new cast. maybe to get them out of my system maybe to have more thoughts to develop later?? who knows. i've also already shifted around rankings so they're different from my tierlist bc as i wrote this my opinions changed and developed SDJFKD. but anyway. new cast ranking with explanations under the cut!!

16. Chase - I mean. It's Chase. His relationship with Emma is... not good! He is kind of the worst! However this does make him the tiniest bit funny . He's extremely pathetic and a misogynist and a bad boyfriend however. The undeniable fail energy is amusing. When he isn't winning. Like this man is at his best when he is absolutely failing, so Emma needs to break up with him. For her own sake, obviously, but also for Chase's failure energy to remain strong. He cannot get what he wants he needs to remain failing!!!

15. Caleb - There's nothing wrong with Caleb. Unfortunately there is also just. Nothing with Caleb, period. I'm fully expecting this to be rectified next season, but for now like... this man is not even a character. Nowhere else to rank him but here. Although this does go to show how much I like the cast LMAO because everyone above him is someone I have mostly positive feelings towards.

14. Nichelle - She was sooo funny I love how everyone (including the cast!) thought she was gonna be so good but then she turned out to be a girlfailure. We need more girlfailures in Total Drama and this season delivered!! We didn't see too much of her (and honestly?? She didn't stand out too much to me until her girlfailure tendencies were revealed which was right near the end lmao) but I fully believe she's gonna be GREAT next season. Especially with my suspicions that next season is going to be sort of similar to TDA, with fewer generally physical/Survivor-inspired challenges, and more entertainment industry related challenges. Idk she didn't give us very much but I do have hopes for her next season. Also her elimination was sooo Jerry's fault. I wonder if my season 2 predictions are right if Jerry might show up? I hope so. Get your revenge Nichelle!!

13. Emma - EMMA GET UP!!!!! Chase is not the love of your life he is not even the love of your week!!! Once again though, the loser tendencies are soooo strong in Emma. Idk I liked the haterism it was good. We need more of that and less of her and Chase. Break up with him!! She and Bowie were a fun duo while they lasted, I honestly love the way their designs really complimented each other? Probably my favorite version of Emma was during the pole challenge, like. Yessss get angry that was so fun. She did get back with Chase at the end of that but. Let's ignore all that. Idk she's just silly!! I think I'm getting repetitive at this point but I do want to leave this with the final thought that, once more, she NEEDS to break up with Chase. For his fail energies to remain intact, for her dignity and standards, and for me as the audience... leave that boy!! Kiss Nichelle or Julia instead I'm fully convinced Emma does not know girls are even an option and once she does it is OVER for Chase.

12. MK - I was expecting MK to be one of my favorites preseason and while she was not, I still liked her. I hope her parting words were foreshadowing and next season she makes a friend, because (as I've seen other people mention), she kind of... needs to have some sort of connections to be an interesting character? And the fact that she seems opposed to that makes any potential friendships next season even more interesting. I also love how she just has no respect for the intended rules of the game and Chris just... lets her do her thing. It is so funny. Like yesss hang out and control the shields. Watch all the confessionals with the phone you shouldn't have and also upload a video of Julia bullying a dinosaur. Honestly the lack of care Chris had surrounding phones in general this season (especially considering his initial show of confiscating what turned out to be like. A fraction of Julia's phones) was so funny. Sam and Dakota were watching from their couch fuming I just know it. Or maybe they were happy for the new generation. Who knows.

11. Zee - He's just fun! Like... chill guy. Was definitely high the whole season. I do maybe think he could've benefited from being around an episode or two less? Like he was good, but it wasn't like he was exactly getting any development or anything? He was kind of static character, which is fine, and he was a likable one for sure! But if he'd gone home two episodes sooner we wouldn't have had that . Nose scene. Which kinda makes me gag every time I think about it. Genuinely I don't think Total Drama has ever grossed me out more. Which is a feat. I need more of him and Ripper next season the whole bird scene with them was hilarious. Honestly, his dynamic with Chase was pretty funny too? Idk. Just a good dude! I also thought his different stories about losing his leg were great.

10. Millie - She wasn't really doing anything for me until the very end? I thought the concept of her character was kind of creative but I found her like... initial sort of... self-important deal kind of obnoxious? Her friendship with Priya was sweet but again, for the first half of it I found it kind of one-sided (on Priya's end) and so I wasn't loving her. Of course, at the end she became invested in the friendship, had her previous sort of... bad friend behavior revealed, and then was like... surprisingly vulnerable for Total Drama standards? Not unheard of, but not like... what I expected. And reconciled with Priya with everything out in the open. And that completely changed my feelings on the character (which had already been sort of slowly shifting). Overall, I still feel like she's one of my least favorites on the cast, but I still like her, and honestly, if I were to rewatch, she might be ranked higher. The fact that she admitted that she was only writing about everyone like that because it was easier to judge them than try to fit in was really good and rewatching those earlier scenes with that in mind might make me more sympathetic to her then? I do also really like a friendship between two people who haven't had friends before. So. Honestly I'm liking her more as I'm writing this. I really hope they do something good with this friendship next season. Also okay this is so funny when I wrote all this out she was number 14 and I keep moving her up one rank at a time. She's climbing.

9. Priya - PRIYA my friend Priya. Girls when they are normal and regular and have no problems whatsoever. You cannot expect me to be normal about someone who has grown up friendless making their first friend and immediately getting very attached. I absolutely loved her defending Millie in front of Chase that was when I knew I was gonna get attached to her character. Like... come on. I mentioned this in the Millie ranking but I kind of love how their friendship played out? Like in the moment as I was watching I wasn't sure I was loving it but after the fact? Yeah it's good. I like the way there was some tension but they actually communicated and resolved things. And of course there is Priya's whole Deal like. There is so much to unpack there. She has been training for Total Drama for her whole life for her parents and now she's done it!!! I hope season two sees her resolve to put her foot down and go to med school because like. I need her to have her happy ending.

8. Ripper - As I said in another post Ripper has unfortunately grown on me. Like mold. When they're not using him for grossout humor, Ripper is actually like... hilarious? The humor this season was honestly surprisingly good (again, barring the grossout jokes) and Ripper was like. Delivering. He is so pathetic and we all know I find that a wonderful trait for a character to have. Like... "So you're not gonna see me cry! I'll wait until I get home." like that is so 😭😭 honestly it's the delivery half the time. As the season went on I liked him more and honestly I liked how he tried to help Millie win back Priya? Idk. I was annoyed with his team for booting people I liked more instead of him like. Three times. But I like him now. He's just a silly loser guy. He's also bi but I'm not sure he knows it yet.

7. Bowie - GUYS. I was never in the camp that thought Fresh was gonna write the gay characters abysmally, I had a little bit of faith, but they really exceeded my expectations. Bowie was SO fun. The perfect reality TV villain honestly- having fun with it! His alliance with Emma was good, but IMO the highlights were obviously the Julia rivalry/fake alliance (rivalliance??) and RAJBOW. I wish we got to see more of Bowie and Julia because that dynamic was amazing, and I hope they continue to interact next season, and then of course his relationship with Raj was just. Really good. If Emchase was the price we had to pay to get Rajbow... then it was worth it. Like they were so good?? Raj's little crush?? The mouth guard??? The poem????? I do think it's a little unfortunate that they had their first kiss in a pool of tapioca pudding but this is Total Drama we're talking about. And they didn't seem to mind. Very excited to see what they do with their relationship next season. Back to Bowie on his own, I was talking about how funny Ripper was at times and Bowie was also one of the absolute funniest characters this season. As I've mentioned before I love haterism and Bowie has it in the most fun ways possible. Sometimes he would say exactly what I was thinking as I watched a scene. Top tier Total Drama confessionalist. The majority of the best confessionals this season had to have come from him. I love his scheming I love his humor I love his strategy and I love his relationships like... that is a good TD character right there!

6. Damien - I feel like he's gonna win next season. I'm not sure whether that's a genuine prediction, or whether I'm simply manifesting, but... come on! He was just fun! He wasn't a standout at first, but pretty quickly he became one of my favorites (and was promptly voted off </3) like. First of all. He was the first one to call Scary Girl Scary Girl so I have him to thank for that amazing name. Second of all, he's just... sweet! I loved the little hints of Damien/Priya we got this season, I'm definitely here for that relationship if they choose to make it canon in the next season. The Damien and Scary Girl dynamic was also absolute gold like yesss chase him around on a jackhammer. Anyway now he's actually gonna try to play the game, and I'd love to see him do well! He's got like... such a fun energy and enthusiasm. He's truly got "just some guy" energy which is wonderful. We need more "just some guy"s. I just think he's neat!

5. Raj - Top 5 time lets go... technically he is tied with the next entry (do not separate) but I didn't want to mess up the format so. Raj! I've talked about Rajbow already but let me reiterate: Rajbow good. Raj's crush was so sweet and I really enjoyed watching those two get together! But talking about something I haven't talked about yet... Raj and Wayne! Their friendship was SO good my god... I loved their incomprehensible (to me) hockey talk. I loved the genuine love and support between the two. I LOVED the joint medevac like SDJFL it would be wrong to send one home without the other... I hope if they're eliminated next season they go out in a double elimination or something... Idk both of their energy this season was just fun!

4. Wayne - Once again, tied with Raj, and I said most of what I wanted to say about Wayne already? But I do think the excitement he had surrounding Raj coming out to him was so good. You may think you're Rajbow's biggest fan, but nobody is a bigger fan of Rajbow than Wayne.

3. Julia - She just. She just got better and better as the season went on. She was already kind of funny with her influencer speak but when she got hashtag cancelled for BULLYING A DINOSAUR she became so much better. I've already mentioned how much I love her rivalry with Bowie so I won't talk about that too much. I will say I loved that one moment when they both fully judged Emma and Chase's relationship as well as their joint confessional like the rivalry was good but I need these two actually aligning even more. I also think she and Emma should kiss or something. I hope she sticks around for a while next season even though she went pretty far this season like... I need her to make the merge at least. LOVED her challenge beast tendencies, winning all those clutch immunities... What a character. Top tier TD antagonist, or at least close to it.

2. Axel - Yes I got attached to the second boot. What can I say she's coming to win next season trust! Idk you cannot show me a zombie apocalypse prepper character (who is clearly gay) and not expect her to be my favorite. Loved when she pushed Ripper off the boat. Love when she bit Ripper's hand. Love when she killed a bunch of squirrels and cooked them for her team like that's a team player right there!! Not to peddle the ScaryAxel agenda toooo hard but. I need to see them align next season like girl who is really into horror and girl who is really into survival/zombie apocalypse stuff? And they both bit Ripper and will eat cooked squirrel together? Ummmm that's couple goals. Honestly I want to see more of the Axel and Ripper rivalry too. Honestly just wanna see more Axel she rocks

1. Scary Girl - Surprising nobody. I know she's like... kind of a gimmick character which I've historically not totally loved but... she's so good. The voice acting (as others have mentioned) does a LOT for her like props to the VA, she really makes the character. The animation in general this season was a major improvement but it definitely helps Scary Girl as a character too. She had a great dynamic with Damien for what little time she was there, I've mentioned the potential of ScaryAxel already, and. Tell me you don't see how Scary Ripper could be one of thee funniest dynamics ever. The dynamic is called Scary Ripper and one of their key interactions was her trying to bite him. Do not get me started on Scary Axe Ripper like the name itself is just too much fun and BOTH of them have tried to bite him (one succeeded). She got voted out because she wanted to make sure the skull she needed to bring to Chris looked presentable and she just. Did the skull's hair and makeup to match hers. And then kept the skull when she was voted out and brought it with her to the finale. I hope the skull is also in season two. Scary Girl is the Total Drama character of all time.

[clatoera]

Please tell us your Clato story. Since when do you like Clato? What makes you like them? Thank you :) ....

oh my goodness okay well uh

I have liked Clato for a long long time. Eleven years. I noticed the insinuation in the book, but it was once I saw the actual film and the performance of the characters I could really identify them stronger in the books, and I grew a love from that. Like I said. I have been a fan a long long time. On fanfic . net there are still 5 or 6 clato fics I wrote between the years 2012-2014, that are under a few different usernames, that no i will not claim, but they're still out there as proof of my life long devotion.

I always have taken to the kind of off the cuff ships that don't really have a lot of canon moments in the books, and even fewer on screen (me and gary ross gonna beef). But I always thought the insinuation was there in the moment Clove died. For crazy, violent Clove to scream for him because she is scared and about to die, she had to know he'd come. For Cato, who is described by Katniss as temperamental and brutal and violent, to actually call back to her, run to her, and hold her as she died, I took something from that.

I thought the way it humanized the careers was phenomenal, and especially those two considering they were Katniss's biggest competition. Clove dies a scared girl being held by a heartbroken, sad boy.

Naturally Clato has always been a fanon thing more than canon. I was on facebook RP-ing as Clove, I've written fanfic a LONG time, I've read probably every single Clato fanfic on both fanfic.net and AO3 both in my time. And it was the fan expansions of the characters that I loved.

That being said I think I have just always identified so strongly with the careers. I wanted to be Katniss, I had a little sister, etc. I've always been the Clove, I've always been the Glimmer. It sounds cocky but it's true in it's own way. I was the smartest, I was the best, I worked the hardest, I was a favorite to win anything I ever did. I wouldn't do something unless I had the best chance at winning. I was the oldest child, with the endless pressure to perform at the top level, to be the best, to make my family, my school, my hometown proud. I wouldn't do something unless I was the best at it, even today I'm called crazy by my classmates regularly because of how much I study, what long days I put in. I still reap the rewards of that. I empathized with these kids who had no choice but to be the best. Who worked really really hard with the intention to make other people happy and proud. I would be lying if I didn't mention this in my explanation as to why I love Clato, because it is definitely part of it. I see myself in these kids, in Clove and Glimmer especially, because I think personality wise I am a direct mix of the two, just depending on which side I turn on at any given moment. I'll use what I call my "pretty girl powers" to get what I want, or otherwise i'm pretty bitchy, cold, calculated, etc. I literally added a line in the most recent chapter of my big Clato fic, in which Clove describes the trafficking and abuse of the victors as the worst thing you could to do someone, violating them like that, which is literally my opinion and belief that I gave to her. So thats definitely part of it, the way I empathize with kids who's worth is placed in the pride they bring home. Pride they are wiling to DIE to bring hime.

Part of what I love is the opportunity with them. To take these kids who are often seen as villains (Which if you see them as villains you miss the author's whole point, that the capitol is the villain, the capitol is the enemy), and flush them out and give them depth. Give them relationships, and favorite colors, and secrets they share between each other. Give them hopes for the future, give them dreams beyond winning. You win by 18, you have to imagine what the future after the games is like, too. I think they have the opportunity to be very normal in what they want after the games. They'd want dogs, and houses, and families of their own. Thats why I love them. They are child soldiers who are still children. They have dreams. They have wants. They have needs. They deserve to have full characterizations and be fleshed out, and thats the opportunity I take with them. You could make brutal bloody Cato an adoring brother, because outside the games he has a really wonderful little family. You could make Clove, with her psychopathic tendencies, a child who lost the mother who loved her, and the drive to prove that her mother and her are not weak girls, and the resultant way she would deeply love and fiercely protect whatever family she has (even found family). They train their whole lives together, who would understand them like each other.

Theres the chance to make them complex, explaining who they are in canon, and expanding on who they are outside of it.

I could wax poetic on Clato for hours, and in fact I do. Thank you for this opportunity though, I am always always down to be a Clato enthusiast on main.

Thank you thank you thank you

@curiousnonny

[msfbgraves]

Terry has been with beta boys…but what about beta girls? Has Daniel ever had beta crushes? Are there any pairings considered “abnormal” or “wrong” in this verse? Like for instance, an omega/omega or an Alpha/Alpha pairing or maybe more than two people in a relationship. Do couples like that exist? I can understand omega/omega since they’re soft and tender, but I feel like Alpha/Alpha would destroy each other just to be the more dominant one lol.

So an Alpha bites an omega and gets bonded. It kinda seems to me that because this only happens with omegas, and Alphas apparently can only bite and “claim” an omega, that this Alpha/omega pairing kinda has a one up over lets say, Alpha/beta. Or in general, all other pairings, since no other pairing has this chemical bonding that an Alpha has with an omega. It also makes me think that Terry decided to “bite” Daniel during their honeymoon because he was in love with him, and knew he was his true mate and…instinct?

Speaking of all this, since omegas get heats, but heats themselves are only truly satisfied by an Alpha, does someone like Apollonia feel somewhat dissatisfied that Michael can’t truly satisfy her like that? Or does Michael feel like he can’t give Apollonia as many pups as perhaps an Alpha could? Do female Alphas have knots?

You see this is where I get into trouble with my desire to test the limits of a trope. Omegaverse was written because people want heat sex, soulmate type bonding between Alphas and omegas, and betas seem to only exist to have someone be an omega all along, oops! Nobody ever seems to write beta/omega, and indeed what about heats and getting pregnant without them? Heats are very sexy, but what is their purpose exactly, if omegas can get pregnant by anyone, which I think is the reason they developed as a gender?

I think omegas, and especially younger omegas, have heats to attract an Alpha to have many puppies quick. If they're being kept separate from Alphas they have fewer heats, and if they bond with a beta, Apollonia indeed will have fewer heats. I'm just going to go with omegas being extremely adaptable, and if there are no Alphas to be had, they'll deal and start getting pregnant outside of heats (which Daniel's body didn't learn to do because all his heats have been well satisfied since Terry). It is uncomfortable having a heat with a beta, and Apollonia will assure Michael she never liked them anyway (which may be true, as she's had to suffer through her heats alone before marrying Michael). Apollonia may even think Daniel a bit slutty, indulging in all those marathon sex sessions.

The Catholic Church is massive on the Alpha/omega propaganda though, o my God. Still, some omegas don't like Alphas, because people are more than their biology, and Michael was a rich American. There's no rule you can only marry betas after you've already had pups! And the proper procedures were followed, so the Priest kind of reluctantly gave his blessing, especially since the head of the family was an Alpha that could keep Apollonia safe. Omega/omega is frowned upon for the same reason, because they "belong" to an Alpha. Alpha/Alpha is frowned upon since they can't have pups, so female Alpha/male beta marriages are also not looked upon fondly! They're to "teach each other how to care for a real mate", the beta learning to take charge from the Alpha and the Alpha learning to take care from the beta. Which, ya know, is dogma, and not necessarily how love works.

Female Alphas have knots but they don't decide to bite - if the mating gland swells, that's the omega deciding to want to bond completely and forever. You need a bit more time with each other, usually, though it could happen during the first heat. Theoretically, an Alpha can decide NOT to bite, but that's like deciding not to breathe. If you do that, you'd better get out of there quick.

[wetbloodworm]

thinking about toby and Gender Things, so we're gonna talk about that.

toby is technically a unisex name but it's definitely perceived WAY more as a masculine name. like i've only ever seen it being used by men and in a handful of potential nonbinary name lists. it's been established in-game that 'toby' is their chosen name (having read it in a book and liked it), and it's interesting to me that upon realizing they're nonbinary toby went from one masc name to another, as they were definitely given a "boy's name" by their parents. which of course can absolutely be a thing that happens, but just wanted to dig into that a little bit since i've thought about it before but never wrote it down!

toby's transness is more tied into gender euphoria rather than gender dysphoria. really they're non-dysphoric, and simply realized that being referred to in neutral terms and being perceived as Not Man/Woman made them happy. really toby is the kind of person who is just... largely unbothered by most things, lmao. it's very difficult to upset them or ruffle them at all. being misgendered doesn't bother them in a dysphoria-inducing way, it's just Incorrect, y'know? they'll correct people who misgender them every time, whether because it was a mistake or because it was intentional. they don't care either way, the person is just wrong regardless of intent. toby doesn't find the correcting tiring or annoying, they just won't let people be wrong about their gender. some colloquial gendered terms can slide, like dude or babygirl or stuff like that, especially if they're said jokingly or to refer to multiple people and especially if they're said by someone who toby knows knows about the nonbinary thing. they do think it's funnier and also more accurate to like... throw in a caveat in those cases, though. like "hey guys and toby" or "boy toy (gender neutral)".

so back to the name thing. choosing a new name wasn't about feeling disconnected from or uncomfortable with their deadname, it was more like: new gender, new name. they had to. there also was a little bit of like... up until their Transening, when people referred to them by name, it was coupled with 'he' and masculine terms. which, again, wasn't upsetting, just wrong. they figured picking a new name, particularly one where they didn't know anyone else going by it, would make the social transition a little easier. [deadname] was he but toby is they. no/fewer associations or history of certain terms following the use of the name. if that makes sense? like getting a fresh start. a reset. forget everything about how you referred to me before, here's a new name and pronoun set and (non-)gendered terms to use for me.

also, 'tobias' is an even more masc-gendered name than 'toby', but you can probably guess that that doesn't bother them. i think they may have corrected the other champions on it, like, once, but more in a 'you know my name is just toby and that it's not short for anything, right' way. when tobias continued to come up every now and then, toby recognized that it was just a nickname and was content with that. like yeah okay you can call me that, that's chill. it's generally a thing they'll only accept from friends, though, because non-friends shouldn't be calling them nicknames. it stops being a term of endearment and becomes someone being incorrect. so they WILL correct other people. the champions + arayis + the dolphins + eltis can call them tobias, that's fine. also the rest of the gods after a certain point if the mood strikes them. those are toby's in-laws. they have permission.

also, their dad calls/called them Teeny. only their dad gets to do that lol doesn't care about it being cutesy or implying they're short (they are, relatively), it's just a Their Dad Thing only

done with the name talk so pivoting a bit to other gender things! toby's outward presentation is SORTA linked to gender, but mostly they just don't think of clothes or accessories or makeup or hairstyles or whatever as gendered. like they understand societal perceptions of these things and know it can be important to other people, but for themself they completely discard any associations. they have non-exclusive preferences but not because of gender reasons. like they tend to wear pants more often than skirts/dresses because they think they're comfier and just like the silhouette/style/etc better on themself. they don't wear makeup too much because it's effort they don't usually want to expend, though if they're getting fancy they'll absolutely indulge. they like bracelets and rings and earrings because they like shiny things. that sorta thing. overall, toby will wear whatever they feel like whenever they feel like, and care WAY more about how styles/colors look with whatever outfit they're putting together than what people may think when they see a dress or slacks or whatever. again: unbothered. moisturized. very happy in their lane. so like, along those lines, toby putting on a dress isn't them being in a fem mood or them putting on a fem outfit, etc. gender doesn't factor in at all. they're in a toby mood wearing a toby outfit, thanks.

oh additional thought: back to understanding societal perceptions. clothing/armor is their biggest special interest and understanding the social and historical perceptions of clothing is important to them. they LOVE talking about the history of clothing. what clothes are traditionally associated with which genders is a part of that, how that varies by culture, how that's changed over time, etc. so toby definitely finds the gendering of clothing interesting! just. still doesn't apply to them, you know? still gonna arrange their shop with clothing styles completely mixed rather than separated into Boy Clothes and Girl Clothes.

[felassan]

On Game Mess Mornings just now, Jeff Grubb and another host/guest had the following to say about the recent BioWare layoffs and the future of Dragon Age & Mass Effect [transcript of relevant quotes]:

(During their conversation, they mentioned this article from VentureBeat and read out quotes from the recent BioWare blog post)

Grubb: "So this is about one fifth of their staff, and this is not related to the movement of SW:TOR to that new studio that's outside of EA, this is completely unrelated to that. This is directly affecting all the games that people might be concerned about with the future of BioWare."

Grubb: "They said they are looking to provide opportunities for all of these employees to apply for other jobs that are open at other EA studios, although they expect that not everyone will land on their feet within EA - they could go, they're probably gonna have to go elsewhere, not everyone is gonna be able to get a job within EA."

Host/Guest: "Dragon Age: Dreadwolf is going to, now, especially, be a lot of work, with these layoffs. I thought the 'corpo' tech word I hated the most [in the blog post] was 'disrupt', [but] I think my new word that [I hate] whenever I see it in announcements like this is 'agile'". Grubb: "Because 'agile' never means, the people at the top need to be thinking more quickly or need to take a pay cut or need to come up with ideas of their own. It always means, we need to pay fewer people less money. It's always an excuse to make these job cuts." Host/Guest: "I feel like, excuse my naivety, but like, hey, if I'm at the top, and I'm already making millions, I'm like, alright, cool, I'll take a pay cut so these other people below me that I've maybe built a relationship with, have maybe seen on a day to day basis, if not like, at least online, exchanged emails with online, been in a Zoom call with, seen faces - maybe so they don't have to effing lose their jobs and then I am overworking and burning bridges with my current existing employees that are staying." Grubb: "You could tell, how what all of what you just said, that is encompassed in that word 'agile'. Works backwards from, 'we are now in a relationship with an outside firm that is unionized, and that means they are gonna, make demands upon us, and that will ruin our agility. Boy, we need to be agile, and working with unions means we can't be agile'. And it's like, that's not exactly what it means, it's just the kind of thing you get grumpy about having to listen to what other people might need to make the job work to them and you don't ever wanna consider that you are only worried about your bottom line. And everyone sees through this, everyone listening to this show knows that, we know that, they know that, it is this song and dance they put on, and here we are."

Grubb: "Obviously the people losing their jobs is front and foremost the thing that people are concerned about here. Other people also are worried about, hey, what does this mean for the games that BioWare was working on? They commented on that [in the blogpost]." I did a little bit of looking into this, to see kind've, what's the status, because in the past on this show, on Grubb Snacks [another show or podcast], we've talked about Dragon Age: Dreadwolf. People are very thirsty for information coming out of BioWare. For a while there it was like, Dragon Age: Dreadwolf could have come out this year. In fact, internally at one point, the date that they were looking at was next month, September 2023. But internally, Dreadwolf keeps getting pushed back. They moved the internal expectations to March 2024 a while ago. March 2024 is pretty soon right? Well guess what, it's not coming out then either, they pushed it back again. It is not coming out until Summer 2024 at the earliest at this point. And this is not them talking publicly, this is just from my reporting, so, y'know, if it moves again, don't be surprised in any way because it's, I think it's very likely it moves back even further. I expect this game probably to launch by the end of next year, but [wincing], like, why launch at the end of next year when you can get out before the end of fiscal in March 2025? This thing could keep moving [further back]. Right now though, again, summer 2024 is what they're looking at at the earliest."

Grubb: "How are they gonna do that with fewer people? Well, guess what? They're bringing people in from the Mass Effect team. The Mass Effect team is being drained a little bit so that more people can come work on Dreadwolf, and that naturally means the next Mass Effect is getting pushed further down the line as well. So don't expect that any time soon. Most people weren't, but push it back even further in your heads, because the next Mass Effect is definitely being affected by this, it's gonna come out later."

Grubb: "Now about the 'why??' of all this. I think most people can figure out like, you know, BioWare's had a string of not-hits, at the very least, and some of them were kind've, bad pumpkins, rotten pumpkins - you open it up and look inside and no-one wanted to deal with this. So, like, okay, that's one thing. That's been true for a long time, so why's it happened suddenly? There's been some changes. For one, Apex Legends is on the decline. They've talked about this publicly a little bit. They had high expectations for the latest season of Apex Legends, and then they told investors that they were too aggressive and too optimistic with those expectations, and then internally they are now looking at it like, Apex Legends is on the decline, we do not necessarily expect it to reach the heights it once was at, and we're kinda looking at a long-term end-of-life for that game. Not like it's suddenly gonna go away, but not that it's gonna be this driver of growth for EA. It probably isn't going to be and they're no longer looking at that. So that's got them tightening their belts a little bit. Then there's the change to EA's corporate structure, this is another major thing that's kind've causing people to look at BioWare a little bit more, you know, with a little bit more skepticism. And that is, there used to be 'EA', and it was everything, and now there's 'EA Entertainment', and 'EA Sports', and these things are operating separately. There was a time when FIFA Ultimate Team and Madden Ultimate Team, that money was covering everybody. And now, when they look at the books, the FIFA/Madden Ultimate Team money is over there, and BioWare is over here with all these other studios. Apex Legends was in there, but Apex Legends - no longer covering everybody either. So it's like, okay, we're looking at BioWare, they're not bringing in a lot of money, and we're spending a lot of money. So what do we do in there, and that leads to them cutting jobs. And now it's, okay, they're gonna try to put out Dreadwolf, does that turn things around? That's the hope, but right now they're operating on the expectations that, or the reality that, the studio is costing money, its costs have racked up over the last several years, last four, five years especially, the costs have been racked up without a lot of big game releases, other than Mass Effect Legendary Edition. So they're trying to cut somewhere, and here we are."

Host/Guest: "These folks that [didn't get laid off] are going to have to crunch for what might be like one and a half years [on Dreadwolf], right?" Grubb: "Yeah".  Host/Guest: "Who knows, even after it comes out, if it's going to be in a good state, or an instance where a publisher is like, we just need to get this out the door." Grubb: "I mean that happened to Mass Effect: Andromeda, it happened with Anthem." Host/Guest: "I wanna say, unionize." Grubb: "Right." Guest: "But it seems like the publishers, straight from the top, will be like, yeah, we don't wanna work with you." Grubb: "Yeah. 'You unionize, and we'll walk away'. I think internally, if you unionized at a publisher, maybe you have a little bit more protection from that sort of thing happening, but not necessarily. You could just as easily find yourself in a situation where the studio finds a creative way to not have to deal with a union." Host/Guest: "Lets eliminate yachts." Grubb: "Yep. Man, super yachts? Whenever, I'm like, man..."

Grubb: "The writing was on the wall here, back when the split happened with EA, and them becoming EA Sports and EA Entertainment. Andrew Wilson said, 'We're doing this restructuring to empower our studio leaders with more creative ownership and financial accountability.' It was right there, they said it, right? 'Each studio is gonna have to be accountable for itself and its own money'." Host/Guest: "What about, 'the people at the top have the financial accountability?'" Grubb: "Yeah, and it's... whenever, 'financial accountability' to them always looks like, it's not finished, who cares, put the game out. Like that's what they think accountability looks like." Host/Guest: "Once this game launches, and if it does poorly, who are they gonna blame? They aren't gonna blame the people at the top, they're going to blame these individual studio leaders who they have 'empowered with their creative ownership'." Grubb: "Exactly. And I've seen responses to that, to this, because Mike Gamble is in charge of the next Mass Effect. He was one of the leaders on Anthem and Mass Effect: Andromeda. And so people are like, now I'm not excited for the next Mass Effect. And it's like, I don't really think it was his fault. It was clearly the leadership above him pushing those games out before they were ready." Host/Guest: "Makes you wanna shake people." Grubb: "Find someone in an alley..."

Grubb: "So, Dragon Age: Dreadwolf, maybe next year. Next Mass Effect, after that. EA has had some success with its singleplayer games recently. Dead Space did pretty well, I think both the Star Wars Jedi games did very well. They started working on Star Wars Jedi, the third one, immediately after the second one, because they were like - that was the thing, if Jedi Survivor does well, then we'll do a third one. And they immediately started working on it because everyone internally was like, this did well. But if you look at EA as a whole, like, their financials do look a little bit grim, and it all goes back to Apex Legends over-stating, that, and the fact that for years now Battlefield has been lost in the woods. And so Apex Legends was already covering, it was like, we're gonna make money for ourselves, and we're gonna cover the missing money from Battlefield. They had already done the creative accounting there. 'Creative accounting' might sound illegal, it wasn't illegal, they were just like, leaving out Battlefield when they were talking to investors, and being like, look how good Apex Legends is doing, and saying don't look at the man behind the curtain which was Battlefield just floundering. So that worked, that worked for a while, and now it's, and now they have to - Apex Legends is covering for every freaking thing here, and it's like, it no longer is, it's on the decline, so that, live-service games continue to be a meal ticket and it kind of continues to be a little bit of an albatross, where, as goes these one or two big games these publishers have, so goes everything, and then the studios at the bottom - you know, BioWare, studio at the bottom of EA now, it feels like, you know, 250 employees, it's kind've relatively smaller, it's gonna pay the price, and here we are."

Grubb: "I know from covering this stuff how many people are so, so passionate about everything BioWare, and it feels like, you know, that's why the studio continues to be around it seems like, but um. I dunno, coming out of this, I can only imagine this team, morale is gonna take a big hit, and what does that do to the future of those games?"

[source]

[source, article, BioWare Blog post]

[stillness-in-green]

On Horikoshi's Writing of Women

This is posted as a stand-alone because lord knows I spent long enough on it, but it's in response to this ask:

This got lengthy, and it could be lengthier still—it's very easy to imagine doing a full-series breakdown on this like the heteromorphobia one I'm still slowly plugging away at—but the TLDR is that I think Horikoshi's women are perfectly acceptable as people, but become much more problematic when you start looking at them as characters.

Hit the jump.

BNHA's Women As People

As people—characters who act in ways reminiscent of real-life humans—Hori’s women are relatively solid, especially the 1-A students.  They have varied personalities and body types,(1) loads of different interests and styles, and outside of the unified front against Mineta, they’re never really treated like a monolith.  That is, no one (as best I can recall) makes big summary statements of Girls Like X or Girls Can’t Y that go uncontested by the narrative like you’d see in truly, openly sexist works.(2)

The worst I can say about the Class A girls' characterization is that they're all too nice, but I would contend that that's true of most of the students, which is why I don't care much about Class A: With the exception of Bakugou, they're all too nice, and it leaves them undernourished, dramatically speaking. But the girls at least aren't blandly nice; they do all have distinct personalities beyond, "Pretty and sweet."(3)

They also have trackable, unique relationships. Consider, for example, the difference between Uraraka’s relationships with Tsuyu and Mina, and how different either is from Momo and Jirou’s friendship!  Further, they’re allowed to be friends with boys without it having to be romantic.  Yeah, there’s Uraraka’s whole thing with Deku, and that’s a chore, but Kaminari and Jirou, or Kirishima and Mina, wherever they may wind up later in life, really are just friends right now—there’s no blushing or stammering or awkwardness going on between those pairs at all.

The Class A girls aren’t defined by their proximity to the nearest male—and that much, at least, is also true of the Pro Hero women like Mount Lady and Mirko.  Hell, even someone like Nana—only in the story because of her relationship with/to men—is actually so important to so many men that I’d contend that she crosses out the other side and winds up in territory that is far more often populated by male heroes and mentors, people who might be dead but who mattered to a bunch of really important living characters.

Nana may be a Dead Mom, but she’s not a saintly photo on the mantelpiece, taken down to be remembered fondly by her widower.  She’s All Might’s beloved mentor, yes, but she’s also the reason Kotarou was such a mess, which is in turn a huge part of Shigaraki’s damage.  She’s the reason Gran Torino is involved in the plot at all.  Even AFO seems to be able to make room to be especially vindictive about her compared to the way he talks about most or even any of the other bearers.

All that, and she even still gets to be “alive” inside One For All so we get to hear her opinions on things now and again!

Things are spottier with the lady villains—mostly because there are so few of them, and even fewer who walk out the other end of their arcs—but even there, I think there’s room for nuanced reads.

Magne’s motivations, such as we ever got of them, were all about being able to live freely.

Curious may have had that flashback to her blushing in front of Re-Destro, but the takeaway from it is how something he said inspired her to mature as a writer, not her being in looooove with him(4)—indeed, Geten is much more directly motivated by RD’s approval, and both Trumpet and Skeptic pivot entirely into being driven by fear for RD’s life the instant they think it might be in danger.  Even now, every single one of Skeptic’s appearances from the cave onward sees him namedropping Re-Destro somewhere.  So even if RD is Curious’s Most Important Person, that just puts her in good company with the rest of her peers.

Meanwhile, Lady Nagant is no more “defined by a man” than Hawks is “defined by a woman” because of the genders of their respective HPSC Presidents.  The easy way out with Nagant would have been to have Bitty Keigo play some role in her turn—indeed, loads of people expected exactly that as soon as the audience realized who and what she was.  But her President being a man is immaterial; the real entity that victimized Nagant is the HPSC as a governing body; its President was simply the face of that body, exactly the way President Pearls was to Hawks a generation later.  Likewise, her turn isn’t because of her feelings about Some Guy, it’s because of her own awareness of the discordance between the façade and the reality of Hero Society.

Until either of the remaining PLF advisor women get anything to say, that brings us to Toga and La Brava.  And okay, yes, La Brava is motivated entirely by a dude; there's no getting around that.  On the other hand, I can’t help but compare her backstory to Spinner’s.  Both of them suffered judgment and ostracization because of their quirks, both were hikikomori, and both had their lives changed because of a man they saw in a video who showed them a new world.  Hell, Spinner had his life changed because of a man showing him a new world twice.

La Brava calls her feelings love, while Spinner calls his devotion, but it’s the same story, just wearing a different costume.  At the very least, then, you can’t say that that plot is one Hori only gives women.  Rather, I think it just ties into the broader theme of how the public consumes people they see on TV, for better or for worse.  You could tie that to a lot of stuff in the series, including Deku’s own heroic aspirations as embodied by that iconic video of All Might he saw as a kid, Can’t-Ya-See-kun's fannish opinions about Endeavor’s heroic persona and his later attempts to reject Dabi’s video, the refugee civilians having to wrestle with the reality of heroes as opposed to watching them from the couch, and so on.

Meanwhile, Toga is so fascinating because, yes, her concerns and interests are stereotypically feminine—her appearance (both in the sense of cosmetic things like A-line coats but also her transformation quirk), cute things, talking about boys, relationships in general, her prioritization of her own inner landscape as opposed to big worldly ambitions.

On the other hand, Horikoshi really commits with Toga.  She’s stereotypical in some ways—the predatory bisexual being a big glaring one—but she is in no way a shallow stereotype.  The reader can’t just write her off as being a collection of tired tropes because of the degree to which the story insists on her being specific and deserving of attention.  She’s not Like That because, for example, that’s what Horikoshi thinks of all bisexuals.  She’s Like That because of an array of factors in her nature and nurture, her societal conditioning, her lived experience, others’ reactions to her, and so on.  Bisexuality is really only the tiniest fraction of who Toga Himiko is.  That’s my feeling, at least.

(As an aside to Anon's suggestion about Toga being polyamorous, while that is clearly the case in the sense that she freely falls in love with multiple people, rather than having monogamous affections, her being interested in poly relationships is much more in the air.  As she is now, her idea of fulfilling love lies in becoming the object of her affections, not being with them.  I feel like if she could find someone into bloodplay, she’d do just fine with that without having to get to the point of murder, but as it is, it doesn’t seem she or anyone she’s met has considered that an option.  That being the case, we don’t know if she’d be willing to limit herself to taking only safe and consensually given amounts of blood, or if her desire to become the people she loves can only be satisfied by murdering the other party. If the latter, it rather takes romantic relationships off the table entirely!)

To sum up: As people, Horikoshi’s women are generally just fine.  He was a wide variety of them and they all manage to stay pretty distinct!  There are some that look more stereotypical than others, but even those still tie in well with the story’s overarching concerns or feel like sincere explorations of the stereotypes they represent.

Horikoshi’s problems with his female characters come in, to me, much more when you start looking at them as characters, instead of as people.

BNHA's Women As Characters

Consider the female characters in BNHA. Do their stories contribute in a major way to the narrative as a whole, or are they just side color?  How much focus do they get?  Are they granted comparable interiority as their male counterparts?

Given the story’s nature as a shounen battle comic, how many big wins do women get compared to the dudes, and are they fighting those battles against equally dangerous opponents?  Do the women always and only fight other women?  Do they only ever beat other women, but lose to men?  How much would be lost or radically changed if they were removed from the story?

Mount Lady’s a fantastic example of the characterization/attention dichotomy.  I’m inclined to agree with Anon that she’s probably Hori’s best lady-type Pro Hero, allowed to have real flaws, enough backstory to get an idea of where she’s coming from, and a startlingly clear character arc.  However, unlike e.g. Endeavor, whose arc is taking place entirely in the foreground, given lavish amounts of time and attention, Mount Lady’s is all background.  We don’t know what her crux point was in realizing that she needed to get her priorities in order, if she indeed ever had one. It’s possible she’s simply matured over the course of the story without ever quite clicking into Endeavor’s mode of self-reflection.

People like Ryukyu fall even farther behind.  She’s been heavily involved in the climaxes of two major story arcs—the Shie Hassaikai arc and the War arc—yet we don’t know the first thing about her away from the job.  Same with Mirko: She gets that huge blowout against the Near High Ends, but as far as what she wants, why she became a hero, what she thinks about this huge collapse she’s witnessing? Total blank slate.

And sure, that’s true of plenty of male heroes too—look at all Mount Lady’s teammates, for example—but we don’t have any female heroes equivalent to Endeavor, Hawks, or even Best Jeanist, the latter of whom has gotten ample room to espouse his ideals and a variety of his beliefs about heroes, even as we don’t know anything about his personal life.

I think Momo’s the clearest example of this issue on the student side.  Virtually all of her development is narrated by other characters, mostly male ones, rather than the reader getting to see Momo’s own thoughts directly the way we do with buckets of male characters.

Momo contributed the tracker that got Deku and company to Kamino, but was given no contributions to the action of retrieving Bakugou.  She’s ultimately the one who organized the students into dosing Gigantomachia,(5) which did eventually take effect some chapters later, but in the moment it happened, it looked like a failure, so instead of it being a big triumph for her, we had to see her and the rest on their knees in what seemed like a moment of total defeat.

Momo lost two mentors in the war—Midnight and Majestic.  What does she think about that?  Who knows?  We’re just not privy to it.  Momo spent her entire arc learning how to be more decisive and better at overseeing resources.  Where is she now?  Popping out industrial goods for a girl who doesn’t even know her name.

Meanwhile, we have things like the ludicrous disparity between Gran Torino, a shrunken geezer in his 70s getting punched through the chest by the final boss and surviving, and Midnight, a young and healthy 32-year-old getting merely jumped by a third-string PLF guy who hasn’t even gotten a name yet and then dying off-panel.  Don’t get me wrong; I love Hose Face, and I don’t even mind that Midnight died as such.  I mind that it was so ignominious compared to the fates of all the similarly important male heroes who took part in that battle.

Star & Stripe?  She is alleged to be the strongest woman in the world, yet her arc could be removed from the story with zero consequences whatsoever.  Everything she brings to the story is new for her arc; she doesn't resolve or remove anything save that which was introduced in her own set of chapters.(6)  Her accomplishments are arbitrarily defined, and could be equally arbitrarily redefined without her.

That’s just a few examples of story structure issues, which is where my main concern lies, but you could certainly look at surface stuff, too. 

Consider: Does the way women in the story dress match their personality?  In movement and at rest, does their body language match who they are as people?  How does the “camera” view them?  Are they introduced as people or as collections of attractive body parts?  Are they allowed the same range of expressiveness men are, or are they more limited because their anger or pain still has to be attractive to the presumed audience and/or the artist?

Some of this Hori does okay with—Mirko’s doing some fantastic angry glowering this week, and Toga can absolutely tip over into horror manga expressions sometimes, ones that are very clearly not intended to be sexy or cute.  But he does sometimes let his women down on this front, too—speaking of Mirko in this week’s chapter, WOW, that sure is a boob hanging right there front and center at eye level, when it would have been so easy to just have ShigAFO’s hand-o-rama wrapped more fully around Mirko's torso.

Toga is a bit more complicated to me, in that, taking it at face value, I actually don’t really mind her frequent goopy unclothedness.  Her posing in those scenes stays pretty true to her personality and the situations at hand, and she's drawn with what seem to be to be decently realistic curves and weightiness.  Rather, the issue with Toga's nudity goes to another frequent problem with the way the women in the series get treated, and that’s the inconsistency between how men and women's quirks interact with clothes.

The go-to contrast here is Mirio and Hagakure.  Neither of them can affect clothes with their quirk, but for some reason, Mirio can get a costume made out of his own hair and thus stay respectably clad during all his fights.  Hagakure, by contrast, is noted more than once as fighting completely nude save for her gloves—why doesn’t she get the haircloth fix?  If there’s an answer to this, it’s arbitrary.

Toga’s quirk would seem to be based in DNA, in that she requires blood to use it, but DNA certainly wouldn’t explain her ability to shapeshift clothes.  It’s easier for the story if she can shapeshift clothes—it’d be a lot harder for her to impersonate specific costumed heroes if she didn’t have ready access to their costumes!—but it doesn’t make much sense as a blood-based ability.  Taking it a step further, if she can shapeshift clothes because Magic Wand That Says She Can, why can’t she just change the shape of her own clothes?  If her goop can change her body, why can’t it change her clothes?  Because Magic Wand Says Then She Couldn’t Be Nakey When She Changes Back, that’s why.

For a contrast to Toga, consider the Hassaikai’s Mimic, whose power is to merge himself into objects, including ones much, much smaller than he is.  Yet somehow he doesn’t have to strip before he merges or lose his clothes to the ether when he exits.

Midnight and Momo both have quirks that emit material from their skin, nominally justifying why their costumes are Like That.  Okay, sure, but where are the equivalent male heroes who just have to wear skimpy or easily shredded costumes for reasons of quirk utility?  Wash and Bubble Girl both emit bubbles from their bodies, but for some reason the dude wears a cartoony washing machine costume,(7) while the woman is saddled with an underboob-exposing crop top. 

Suneater’s another easy referent; he transforms parts of his body into much larger animal parts, yet he still manages to have a costume that covers up everything except his feet.  Even his arms are covered, when his arms are his most frequently transformed limb! He might have a bare spot on his back for his wings, but if so, the reader never gets to see it because Suneater wears an enormous hooded cape that covers that area right up.

It makes sense that Mirko would prefer to leave her legs bare, given her all-kicking fighting style—but Deku switches to a kicking style and just gets heavier, reinforced shoes. (To say nothing of All Might and other punchy heroes still having full sleeves, when you'd think the same reasoning would apply as does with Mirko's bare legs.)

Eri’s power only works on “people”—except that it totally works on clothes, too, otherwise we’d have to see a dude naked when her power separates Overhaul and Nemoto.

And so on and so forth.  I don’t hold any of these individual examples against Horikoshi (except maybe Momo, who runs afoul of the “does this costume match this personality” critique pretty hard), but it really does become a bigger problem in the aggregate.

BNHA's Women In the Aggregate

And that’s kind of how I feel about a lot of it.  I think Hori means well—you are never going to catch me out there yelling about how Horikoshi is just slobbering all over himself to brutalize his female characters—and he legit is doing better than a lot of other manga I’ve read.  But then, I’ve read a lot of manga, you know?  “Better at feminism than manga that say straight to the reader’s face that women will never understand a man’s desire to win,” is not a high bar.(8)

Regardless of Hori’s good intentions, though, I think Shounen Jump is not an environment that is challenging him to think more critically about his women, nor one that is pushing him to include them more or give them better material.  He could absolutely do better, though, and yeah, I’m as tired as everyone else of new female characters who show up for a handful of chapters and then get obliterated by a villain or put on a bus to imprisonment and obscurity by the hero who defeats them.

If nothing else, I’ve got to hand that to Mirko.  Down two limbs and that rabbit is still going strong, and not for one single second is there a suggestion that prosthetic limbs are going to slow her down or force her into retirement.

Thanks for the question, Anon, and sorry for taking so long with the reply!

---FOOTNOTES---

1: Not a huge variety, and the adult women have less than the high school cast, but I’ve read plenty of manga across all demographics that are far worse at having female characters you could distinguish by bald silhouette.

2:  For some really clear examples, see e.g. everything the Death Note guy has ever written.

3: I might make an exception for poor Hagakure, who never had a chance to establish a personality because she needed to stay a viable candidate for the Traitor Plot. Definitely the most Generically Peppy of the girls, but at the very least she's balanced out some by male students like Ojiro, Sato and Koda in never getting enough attention to transcend their characterization shorthand.

4:  And speaking as a writer, let me tell you, a critique like the one Rikiya offers in that flashback is absolutely the kind of thing that would leave me red in the face, but definitely not because I was internally swooning.

5: And even that isn't entirely her moment, given that it stems from her being ordered to do it by Midnight and ends with Kirishima getting the final move, a move he gets at Mina's expense.

6: Wow, a Reflect quirk! Neat! Wonder why that hasn't come up anywhere before? Regardless of the three sentence back-and-forth I could get into on that subject, Reflect is the only named quirk New Order destroys, and it was nowhere to be seen at either Kamino or Jakku.

7:  Assuming, of course, that Wash isn’t a washing machine heteromorph.  Jury’s still out on this.

8: See again a lot of Ohba's work, but the same sentiment is why I ragequit Megalobox in the first episode. Likewise, I will love Eyeshield 21 until my dying days, but I super could have done without that late-series swing at, "Mamori will never understand Sena's Man Feelings about Sports because she is A Girl."

[maedivae]

What does Katniss mean when she says: “A kind Peeta Mellark is far more dangerous to me than an unkind one”?

Chapter 4 of The Hunger Games novel.

Thank you 😊

@curiousnonny

Well she's admitted to knowing that kind people are quicker to work their way into her heart and break past her initial boundaries, her reservations about them. I also think it's an innocence kind of thing too, as she later doesn't even consider Peeta an actual victor on the same level as herself or Finnick or the rest of them who had made the hard decisions to kill, whereas she believes Peeta won the games out of luck and his natural inclinations were for diplomacy and peace. It's a very rose-tinted view of Peeta in the first games though to me, since he was at least able to manipulate the Careers into letting them join their group and did kill on their behalf. I think he's able to kill if he can morally justify it in his mind.

Anyways, her role is often that of a protector over kind, innocent things, compared to the harsher realities of the world they live in. She wouldn't be able to kill Peeta in good conscience if he was really as kind as he seems. This is a problem, as them being the last two alive in the games would endanger her chances of coming home to Prim. She'd always be mentally stuck in the arena if it came down to that, trying to figure out ways things could've gone differently like the rest of the victors do. Killing in the games is far easier for Katniss than dealing with the aftermath. Also I think she saw any attempts from Peeta to try to be friends with her as stupid since he's going to be dead anyways and she wants to save herself the trauma.

To a greater extent, the quote also shows her aversion to people trying to connect with her on a deeper level, especially in a romantic context. Katniss obviously fears turning into her mother as early as this, as she's not exactly a child anymore. It's said some people in District 12 expected her to marry Gale because they're around each other every weekend, they are from the same economic and social class, boy and girl being friends yadda yadda, and marrying young isn't uncommon in poverty.

But she doesn't want to let herself have hope of any sort of romantic or familial future like that because her mother completely shut down and neglected her children after her husband died. In District 12, and in Katniss's mind, spouses dying is just an inevitability with the coal mines, like imagine the amount of lung disease and mining accidents. Few people make it to old age, even fewer who are male (although there are women who work in the mines too). Then kids. The amount of diseases that they aren't vaccinated for, extreme hunger and cold, the games. It's an unsafe world for her to have someone she really cares about.

It's easier and more practical for Katniss to remain shut off from any of these possibilities, from her own emotions. So a kind person in these circumstances scares her deeply because she isn't able to control how she feels. She doesn't want to care about another person for what the world could do to them and thus, hurt her by association. Have her shut down completely like her mother, be weak. It's why Snow tortured Peeta. If he has someone she cares deeply for, he has the perfect weapon to hurt her. That's what's dangerous about kindness.

[utilitycaster]

What are your thoughts on the new ua's mechanics, especially the bard? It looks like almost all casters will be preparing spells now. I am not sure if its fits bards flavor-wise, but it makes them more flexible, so I'll take it.

For the most part I like it! I took notes so I can send in my thoughts when they have the survey later this month but my complaints aren't major.

Personally with the exception of sorcerers I think prepared spells makes sense for everyone. The only reason there's a divide between prepared and known-spell casters is because D&D was heavily influenced by Jack Vance's magic systems. And while in older editions there were benefits and drawbacks of each - prepped casters picked new spells each day but they pretty much had to pre-load their spell slots and couldn't use the same spell multiple times unless they prepped it multiple times; spontaneous casters knew fewer spells but they could cast them in whatever configuration they chose provided they had a slot for it - 5e did away with the prepared caster limitations, which means that they have a distinct advantage over known-spell casters. Bards, rangers, and warlocks are in my opinion particularly fucked over by this since they're not only known-spell casters but also high-utility classes that would benefit from a little bit of flexibility; bards also in standard 5e get tons of weird spells that they can't take unless their party has like, another healer AND another arcane caster because how often will you cast guards and wards*, so it's not worth taking up one of your precious known spells to learn.

Anyway getting into the actual details:

Bard: I like the new inspiration mechanics and LOVE that you can use it to heal as a reaction but I do think that even with the improved flexibility of use, it should be CHA modifier still rather than proficiency bonus, and if it's not at the very least Font of Inspiration should remain a L5 feature of the class rather than being pushed to L7. I already covered spell prep and I do like that you can swap cantrips because lbr, if you pick a shitty cantrip you often end up stuck with it unless you beg the DM for mercy. Songs of Restoration are FANTASTIC; I'm not mad at the loss of song of rest because I have played a primary healer bard and it's hard as fuck and this solves literally every problem I had. I also in general like the increased important of schools of magic, and think the options provided to bard are about the same as how the class already works anyway. Most of the rest is roughly comparable to standard 5e. My one question is why Jack of all Trades is so much later; I do wonder, and won't be able to say for sure until more classes come out, if they're trying to make multiclassing a bit more of a commitment.

Ranger: VERY good. Bard was always pretty decent with a few easily fixable flaws but ranger needed a boost and boy did it get it. Rangers should have expertise! They are a knowledge-based class! They should get cantrips! Also, rangers always suffered from having far too many concentration-only spells and making hunter's mark essentially a freebie was the correct call. Roving and Tireless also feel very true to the flavor of ranger as does the high-level blindsense. For what it's worth, I'm sure some people who are more experienced in rangers might not like this but I think nixing favored terrain is a good call because it's so frustrating when a ranger is useless simply because you are in the forest and not the mountains, when their entire thing is "good at tracking in general". Rangers always felt weirdly too specific and this has provided a focus in keeping favored enemy while allowing their wilderness skills to actually shine.

Rogue: fewest changes here, imo. Subtle strike makes far more sense than blindsense (blindsense was always weird for rogues to have and the buff to slippery mind to include charisma balances out any loss) and the thief subclass, always one of the better rogue subclasses, gets some really strong features.

*I am, in case you wondered, at all times, thinking about how much I want to cast guards and wards.

[novelmonger]

The World Ends with You - I'm not too surprised this one didn't win, because I feel like it's...kind of obscure? I mean, it can't be that obscure, because it's gotten a sequel and an anime adaptation (which is REALLY GOOD btw 8D). But I never hear anybody talking about it, which makes me think nobody's played it. Which should really change! It's such a good game. Really good story with great characters, many more twists than I was expecting, and an excellent art style inspired by graffiti. What with all the graffiti and skateboards and rap music and such, it feels like a throwback to the early 2000s, which does this millennial's heart good <3 It's an action RPG, where you attack using pins that require various kinds of motions with the stylus - for example, with one pin you tap the screen to shoot bullets, for another you swipe up to make spikes shoot out of the ground, with another you grab a piece of debris lying on the ground and move it around to hit enemies. It's unique and there's lots of ways you can customize your play style, and it's challenging without being too frustrating (except for maybe the final boss battle x.x). If any of this sounds interesting, do yourself a favor and find a way to play this game - or at least watch the anime, which is a very good adaptation (though it's much shorter than the game, so unfortunately some great stuff got cut).

Myst IV: Revelation - Aw, nobody voted for this :( I'm actually playing this right now with my sisters! Personally, I think this is where the series should have ended; it has a really satisfying conclusion to all the threads presented thus far, and still has that pre-rendered still images + live-action footage charm that makes Myst consistent, unlike the changes they made with Myst V. Some of the acting is a little disappointing (especially Yeesha) after Brad Dourif's stand-out performance in the previous game, but it's still really nice to see where this family has ended up after all you've done to help them over the years. Like any Myst game, there are some puzzles that make you want to just rip your hair out, but all the same I feel like I've been taking fewer notes in this playthrough. Maybe that's because we're following a walkthrough more closely, though ^^'

The Last Guardian - Oh. My. Word. I love this game so much <3 Made by the same people who made ICO and Shadow of the Colossus, this game is about a boy who befriends a huge gryphon-like creature called a trico, and together the two of them try to escape the ruins they're stuck in. I feel like this game combines all the best things in both of the other Fumito Ueda games: You spend a lot of time climbing around, both on crumbling stone and on the back of a huge animal, but also the whole point of the story is that two characters who are very unlike each other have to learn how to work together to survive, even though they can't communicate with each other in the same way. The game is beautiful, sometimes soft and other times epic, and through the process of playing the game, I feel like I really developed a bond with Trico. I've played the game twice, and both times the ending had me bawling like a baby - partly because of the bittersweet nature of the story, but also partly because I was saying goodbye to a friend. AAAAAHHHHHH, more people need to play this game, it's so good! T^T

Professor Layton and the Curious Village - Wow, this barely beat out Transistor! This one is actually probably my least-favorite Professor Layton game, if I'm being honest ^^' It's the first one they made, so I feel like they were still working out a few of the kinks, and the story wasn't quite as involved or interesting as some of the later installments. Still really cute and charming, and I always love Layton and Luke and their addiction to puzzles XD

The Path - Huh, this was the one I wasn't expecting anyone to have played, but I guess I was wrong! I was really excited to play this game, but ended up being kind of underwhelmed once I actually got around to it. It's a horror game that sort of plays on Little Red Riding Hood, where you have to lead several characters down a path to Grandma's cottage. You're warned not to stray from the path, but you unlock different endings if you stick to the path, or if you leave the path and explore the somewhat desolate forest. There's a subtle story told in the things you find, but I was expecting things to come together in a different way than they did. Still, a cool aesthetic and a cool way of telling a story.

Uncharted 4: A Thief's End - Hands-down my favorite of the Uncharted series. The story is awesome, tying things up so satisfactorily, and including some really gut-wrenching and emotional scenes. Plus, I mean...this one is a story about brothers, so of course I'm going to like it XD Also, since this game was made for the PS4, the graphics are leaps and bounds ahead of the first three games. Also, the music was done by none other than Henry Jackman!!!!! I kept on noticing how both epic and emotional it was while I was playing it, and then I saw his name in the credits and was like, "Captain America, of course!"

The Awesome Adventures of Captain Spirit - *sigh* Not surprised that no one voted for this, since it's an unnecessary spin-off of the Life Is Strange franchise. But it's really good - and it's free on Steam! It's a short little oneshot where you play as a kid and take him through his typical Saturday morning. It's starts out as just cute fun, a kid playing with his toys and using his imagination to its fullest potential. But then you start to detect a darker undercurrent to his life, one that really tugs at your heartstrings. The boy is a character who shows up in one chapter of Life Is Strange 2, but you really don't need to play any of the other games to understand this one. Also, mercifully, this game is a lot cleaner than the main ones, so I actually feel like I can recommend it to most people I know ^^'

Transistor - Almost won, but not quite! You know...this is one of those weird instances where I can say that a game is objectively good, but for some reason I just didn't like it that much. I'm not sure why - maybe I just played it at the wrong time or something? But I just couldn't get invested in the characters at all, and the gameplay was good, but not fun enough to make up for how little I cared about the story. The aesthetic of the game is really cool, though.

Arbitrarily-Chosen Video Game Tournament, Round 1.23

Welcome to the Arbitrarily-Chosen Video Game Tournament, where we will find out which of the games I've played is the best game of all time!

Why? Don't ask. Just vote and reblog!

[incorrect-koh-posts]

Can i ask how the hell should I use live journal? Like It's so confusing. Can you hint me something?

Hi :) Of course you can ask, I'm always happy to help! And I get you, livejournal is a bit archaic and hard to navigate. But once you understand the system, you're actually able to find stuff 😁

So, since it's me you're asking, I assume you're hunting for the old KoH fanfics from 2005. I'd recommend either googling something like "KoH fanfiction livejournal" OR simply going to the livejournal site and then using the search bar there (I'm reasonably sure it's somewhere in the top right corner).

With the search function, I wouldn't search for just "Kingdom of Heaven", because in that case livejournal hits you with everything that has that combination of words in it, which is a whole bloody lot (including some weird religious shit of the sort that also shows up regularly in our tumblr tag).

Instead, what I did to find those fics was to search for names of certain characters. Since most of them are quite unique, you'll already get decidedly fewer hits and will probably find some fic or other relatively quickly. What you can do as well is search for two character names (e.g. "balian king baldwin" or some such), which will also limit the field a little more. You'll probably still have some movie reviews or whatever among the hits, but it'll make it much easier to filter out what you were looking for.

There are I think two (?) groups I know of that most fics were posted to: one is koh_slash_fic and the other one is heavens_kingdom (which also has other stuff about the film in there, not just fics). Then there's also the_lepic, which is ... well, I suppose you can guess from the name - mostly slightly strange but amusing Baldwin smut. But there are some non-smutty and rather funny fics there as well: I remember a cracky one about Tiberias discovering that Baldwin IV likes to knit in his free time with particular fondness. That one was a hoot. 😂

Fair warning though: You might want to be a bit careful with livejournal nowadays, since it's owned by a Russian company. I'm not a tech nerd by any means, but I'd recommend at least using a VPN when hanging around on such sites. Can't be careful enough.

Also: The stories you're going to find are from the eeeeaaarly days of the KoH fandom - some of the fics were written even before the film was released. So a lot of this stuff is basically "omg Orlando Bloom as Balian is so hot, let's ship him with every available male character in the film, including his own father". And I mean, to each their own, but that's not really my thing. (Incest, that is. I love a good M/M fic as much as anybody.) Generally, there are many more PWPs on livejournal than on AO3 or FFnet. And the M/M ships sometimes have ... interesting takes on characterisation, especially in regard to Baldwin, who often comes across as oddly feminine. Which isn't to say these stories are bad, they're just very different from the somewhat newer stuff on AO3 or FFnet, where you usually see (female) OC x Canon Character pairings and surprisingly little slash. But I'm sure you'll find something to your taste!

Oh boy, this escalated quickly. I'm sorry for being so long-winded, dear anon, but I hope this helps! 😊

[boldlyvoid]

ain't it fun? | part 3

summary: reader just needs an NA meeting before they have a meltdown, they end up with the best friend they could ever make.

warnings: season 4 episode 7 plot but spencer doesn't have to go through it all alone. mentions of child molestation and murder

word count: 2K

P1 P2

Spencer calls from Vegas of all places, he’s staying an extra few days after a case and he won’t be home. “Actually, if I buy you a ticket would you fly out here for me?”

“Are you crazy?” She laughs, “what’s really going on babe?”

She doesn’t call him babe very often but when she does she can always hear him blush, he’s so giddy and cute he smiles wide and licks his lips a few times, but he doesn't this time.

“I’m not doing the best.”

“Do you need your girlfriend or do you need a meeting?” She asks because she knows there is a huge difference.

“I need my best friend.”

When she arrives in Vegas, she takes a taxi to his hotel and sits in his room all alone until he’s done whatever he was up to. There’s an envelope on the floor, “you’ve got the wrong guy” written on the front in a hasty black chicken scratch.

She hides along the wall, making sure no one can see her under the crack of the door. She manages to keep one foot on either side of the door frame as she looks out the peephole to see an older white man walking away from the door. He’s in a work uniform, on the phone, he’s whispering.

Once she’s sure he’s off the floor, she grabs her things and leaves the room. Leaving the envelope on the floor, she calls Spencer from the stairwell.

“Hey, I’m on my way back now,” Spencer answers.

“Someone dropped an envelope off in your room. I didn’t touch anything I just walked out after the guy left… can I meet you in the bar instead?”

“Yeah! Of course,” he encourages her safety protocols, “I’ll make sure the envelope is safe first, thank you for being smart.”

“No problem," she laughs, he was the genius and he was still calling her smart for following her gut.

"I’m just walking down the stairs cause he took the elevator. He was white, 5’8 ish and older; balding with grey hair so I’m guessing he was in his 60s, and he was on the phone with someone,” she gives his description quickly before she could forget it. “And the envelope says you got the wrong guy on the outside.”

“I know who that is, thank you. I love you,” each phrase got quieter and quieter and she knew he was in the car with his co-workers.

“I love you too, see you soon.”

—

It’s midnight in Virginia, it’s only 9pm in Vegas and Spencer’s been losing his mind trying to solve a case for his own sanity. He was getting nowhere, he’s even tried hypnosis to take him back to when he was 4. But nothing was working.

He’s in the middle of begging his mother to remember, “mom, this isn’t about me. This is about Riley Jenkins.”

“It was always about you…” Diana whispers.

“Please, mom—“

“Spencer,” Y/N’s eyes shoot open.

She’s just been sitting there, barely getting to know Diana as Spencer explained what he remembers. It was very intimate, but she already knew about the dream. She knew one day he’d want to learn more, and now he was.

“Listen to what she just said, it was always about you,” she repeats the words and Spencer looks more confused.

She steps forward and takes Diana’s hands in hers, sitting her down on the edge of her bed as she looks at her carefully. “This is hard, I know you’re really trying and I know how hard it is to talk to Spencer when he’s like this. But how about you tell me the story? Why was the Riley Jenkins case more about Spencer to you?”

Diana clues in then, her eyes zoning out as she remembers everything and Spencer sits quietly in the corner. “Riley was a real boy, poor boy…”

He’s amazed by the fact she’s so calm and good with his mother. “Yes he was, mom, how did I know him?”

“Your father was the t-ball coach, you were really more interested in chess and so eventually he let you go from the team, and you ended up playing in the park with this older man; who was also watching Riley before he died,” Diana explained softly. “It could have been you.”

Spencer gets closer and closer, eventually, he’s kneeling in front of his mother like a little boy at storytime. “What was his name mom?

“Gary Michaels.”

—

David and Derek are really nice guys. She’s sitting with them in the bar while Spencer has a heart-to-heart with his parents at the police station. It’s been a long day, he’s learned a lot and she couldn’t wait to unpack it all with him.

“How come you don’t come out with him more often?” Derek asks, unsure of how to broach the subject, but he wants to know.

“What do you know about me, first of all? Because it’ll tell me everything I need to fill you in on,” she asks in a question in response to his.

“I know you met at a support group, I know he loves you, and I know you live with him now.”

She smiles, “I have a rare disability that many people don't believe in, I work from home and I make little art pieces for the different seasons to make money, I don’t really like going outside. much”

“But you flew all the way to Vegas for him?” Derek smiles knowingly.

She nods gently, “he’s still my best friend in the whole world, Derek.”

“Thank you,” is all he says, “you’ve helped him be the same Spencer I met when he started. You’ve brought the joy back to his life, it’s nice to get to know you more.”

He asks to get her a drink then, to make up for everything she’s been through that day. All she wants is ginger ale and Derek gives her a strange look, he really has no idea that she’s a recovering drug addict. Spencer has kept all her secrets nice and safe in his big and beautiful mind.

“I’m allergic to most alcohol,” she isn't lying but it works. “Especially dark tequila and all vodkas, it’s because they’re made from potatoes and I have a potato starch intolerance... you know actually sometimes even hand sanitizers that are made in alcohol facilities give me an allergic reaction as well.”

“Okay, that right there,” he teases, “that’s why he keeps you all to himself.”

She laughs, “that was a bit of a Reid ramble, wasn’t it?”

“Yeah,” Derek’s smile is so soft. “It really was.”

When she finally sees him again, it’s been almost a full day since he called her and asked for her to fly into Vegas. He needed her moral support while dealing with his parents, and he knew she was the only person who knew the extent of what he felt for them. He tried his hardest to be the best kid in the world for both of them, and yet sometimes he feels like both a disappointment and an unwanted mistake.

They hug for so long when he finally enters the bar, that Derek gets up from the table and goes to find someone to occupy his time with. It’s Vegas and he’s Derek after all… it wasn’t going to be hard for him to have a woman hanging off of him soon, too.

Back in his hotel room, he passes out from exhaustion and she just stares at him. He’s been through so much that even his eidetic memory didn’t want to think about it anymore. normally he would recount his day to her with a smile, now he just sleeps peacefully for the first time in days.

He was so soft and sweet even after being through the most terrifying things the human mind and body can go through.

—

They take a few days off, his co-worker has a baby and it’s the perfect time for him to take her to meet them all. They won't be focused on her at all, and thus she will have fewer questions to answer.

Penelope Garcia is a blessing on this earth. The second Y/N lays eyes on her, she knows that they are going to be friends. She’s a hugger, and they’re good hugs, and she was already making plans to hang out and keep Y/N company when Spencer and the team were out of town.

JJ looked beautiful for just giving birth, Emily was intimidatingly smart and beautiful and she didn’t know how to really make eye contact with her without developing a crush on Spencer’s co-worker. Derek was kind as always, and Aaron gives a firm handshake.

JJ asks Spencer to be Henry’s godfather and it’s all a little too much for Spencer to handle after everything from the day before. He’s been through so much that Y/N can see the panic roaring through his veins as he tries to keep his cool in front of his friends.

But when they’re back in their own bed; in the safe space, they’ve created for one another. She’s running her hands along his back as he snuggles into her chest. Normally she’d tease him for being this close to her boobs, but they were comfortable and he likes to hear her heartbeat.

“I thought for a while they were going to tell me I was molested,” he whispers. “I was more relieved to know my mom witnessed a murder… and I hate myself for thinking that.”

“I was,” she whispers into his hair. “More than once by different men.”

He sits up to look at her, she shrugs, “my friend's dad tried to teach me how to drive by sitting me in his lap so that I’d have to bounce on him over the rocky back road. And a scout leader drove me home and kept his hand way too close to my parts and then a teacher-“

“How are you okay?” he stares at her like she's got 3 heads or something as he shakes his head lightly in disbelief.

She laughs, “I’m not. But I am at the same time? I can’t really explain it... it sucks and I hate it but I’m safe with you so I’m fine... but I’m not okay?”

“Yeah,” he smiles. “I’m fine with you but not okay, too.”

They're quiet for a bit, tilting their heads as they stare at each other with soft little smiles. She loves him and he loves her and all she can think about is forever.

“Can I ask you something?” She’s really serious now, looking at him carefully as his eyes light up.

“Anything!”

“Do you think you’ll want kids one day? Even after everything with your dad?” She’s careful, not wanting to hurt him to push him or make him think he’s letting her down if he says no.

“I want kids, even if it’s just one. I want to be a dad and do what my dad couldn’t. I want to love them and help them grow and teach them how to ride a bike and how to do Pythagorean theory,” his words are full of passion, he’s speaking from his gut.

“I want 3 kids,” she smiles. “With you.”

His eyes go wide, “why?”

She smiles because of course, he convinced himself she wouldn't want his kids, he was a worrier.

“My dad was okay, he was pretty distant and cold until I got sick and then he became one of my best friends. Your dad sucked. Together all that love that we craved will go into our little person and they’ll be so happy and wonderful and loved with us."

Spencer nods in agreement, it's soft and sweet and she makes a last-minute decision. "I don’t think I want kids if I can’t have them with you.”

“What’s your 5-year plan look like?” he asks abruptly like he wants to start having kids tomorrow.

“I don’t have one. But I’ve always dreamed of just being a stay-at-home mom and making art on the side. Maybe even babysitting a few other kids during the days… I don’t know. It always felt like a pipe dream before...”

“Before me?” He asks with a smile, proud and believing it. He really knows she loves him and it’s changed him for the better.

She nods, “you wouldn’t mind if I didn’t ever have a real job?”

“I think we’d be okay as a single income family, I make enough to support the apartment bills as well as groceries, then your income can for things you and the kids want. I’m good paying for everything else.”

She smiles, “you just said the kids.”

He’s giddy with excitement as he nods, “I want forever with you.”

“Okay,” she whispers, leaning in to press her lips against his gently like he could break.

He was so special and perfect to her. Even with the scratches and dings in his paint, he was a collector's item, a one-of-a-kind, never-made again, kind of man who she was really happy she found.

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Here's a little hurt/comfort Mociet fic I recently edited! I've had it posted on AO3 for a bit now, and decided now was a good time to post it here as well! so enjoy! im working on a part two for this fic and I have a completed analogical one that I'll post soon as well! but for now, enjoy some soft human au Mociet because I love them

TW: swearing, super minor self harm, panic attack, just the slightest bit of touch starved Patton. let me know if i missed anything!

Patton's POV

He was done. He certainly wished he wasn't, but Patton couldn't do it anymore.

Almost a year ago, he had met someone amazing. They were absolutely incredible. They were kind and caring, and they were pretty much his only friend. Their name was Virgil.

He didn't like them romantically, it was one hundred percent platonic, but he loved them with his whole heart.

In the year he had known them, he had been their 'mom friend', the one who they turned to whenever they needed anything! At least, he hoped they did.

At first, it had been just fine! They were just a couple of people who were friends! And no, the problem that arose wasn't what you'd probably expect.

Patton, was okay! He had a nice place, accepting parents, he had no reason to have problems, so of course he offered to help Virgil, who didn't have those things.

Virgil... didn't have the best household, per say. Their parents weren't the most supportive when they came out as gay, and even less when they came out as non-binary. Nothing had been the same for them since.

They had told me most of this on one particularly bad night... and of course I had done my best to help!

As time went on, Virgil's mental state had been steadily getting better! They got to the point where the times they needed my help became fewer and fewer. We had also met a few other people who had joined our friend group, two boys named Logan and Roman, then there were Remus and Janus, who were gender fluid and pan-gender, respectfully.

And with those new additions to their friend famILY, of course he offered his help to them as well! Because of course he'd never dream of denying anyone who needed help!

And as time progressed, they all helped each other. Everyone was doing better than before we had all met. We were all closer than family, randomly showing up at each others houses simply to crash on their couches and binge shows, or documentaries (in Logan's case).

To any 'normal' person, this should obviously be a good thing! Everyone was doing alright, and he had even gotten Virgil to open up enough to accept more friends, and believe me when I tell you how against that they were at first, especially with their severe social anxiety.should

Now of course, I was happy for them! I was glad that they were alright thanks to me! That I had been able to help! But...

Damn it... I shouldn't feel like this! It's selfish for me to feel so terribly about this...

They don't even need you anymore.

Shut up...

They'd all be perfectly fine without you!

N- well... yeah they probably would be...

You don't have any more purpose to them.

I gripped my hair, hard, as I felt my breathing start to pick up.

They're fine now, they don't need you anymore, and it won't be long until you just... fade away!

"Stop it..." I whispered, not even noticing when my glasses slipped from my face.

The only reason they've stuck around you this long was because you were able to help them! And now they don't need you anymore!

At this point he just wished the tears would fall... It might relieve at least some of his feelings...

It took what seemed to be only a moment for Patton to realize that his hands had left his hair in favor of vigorously scratching at his knuckles.

He didn't care. It made him gave him at least some sense of feeling something.

He just wished he could just... feel something real! Something that wasn't just the pain that he set upon himself. Or at least have a name for... whatever he was feeling...

When it came to helping his friends, he had no problem with listening and figuring out their emotions and how to best help them. He knew them. He knew what helped who, who needed what to feel better, but when it came to himself? It was a completely different story...

Why can't I just be fucking okay...?

It was then I heard a knock on my bedroom door... One of his friends must have come in while he was, ah, distracted...

See? Now because you've been sitting here feeling sorry for yourself you won't even be able to help them!

I took a deep breath in a feeble attempt to dispel the thoughts, and carefully removed my nails from my knuckles, which refused to bleed, mostly because he didn't want to leave any sort of mark that his friends could ask him about... but regardless of that, they were an angry red.

I slipped the paws of my hoodie over my hands in a feeble attempt to cover the marks and put my glasses back onto my face, which only then I realized had fallen off in the first place.

"U-uh yeah one second! I'm-" I cursed quietly as in my hurry to the door I tripped, "'M comin!"

I finally reached the door and opened it with my usual fake smile to see a... concerned? -looking Janus.

"Oh- uh, hey Jan! What's up?" I asked, hoping no trace of my previous attack showed on my face."Sorry to bother you Pat," Janus started, and yep, that was definitely concern etched onto their face, "but you didn't respond when I called, nor any of my texts. Are you doing alright?"

...shit- I must've missed them during my... episode...

I watched their eyes flick up and down my self before Jan's heterochromatic eyes bore into mine.

I didn't exactly trust myself to speak... yeah sure I had spoken just moments ago, but that was before.

Janus just had a way of getting you to want to tell them anything. Just one look at their eyes and Patton was weak.

So, instead I opted on just opening the door wider in a silent offer for Jan to come inside.

They nodded slightly and stepped into my room, sitting down on the edge of my bed and looking at me questioningly.

I closed the door behind me and followed, sitting down next to Janus.

"Patton," they started. I had decided not to look into Jan's eyes... I just didn't want to say anything that might break the illusion that I was just fine.

Well, that was until Janus gripped my face and forced me to look at them.

"Patton, I can tell something's wrong, let me help." Their eyes looked almost pleading... as if I would be doing them the favor by telling them...

3rd Person POV

"...Please?" they asked desperately. Just that tone seemed to physically hurt Patton... The slight crack in their voice however, was what broke him.

The dam that had been holding everything back suddenly shattered, and everything came pouring out, starting with the tears.

"Oh Patton..." Janus held their arms out, silently giving Patton the permission to curl up in their arms.

Patton almost immediately collapsed into their arms, sobbing into Janus' shoulder, with just the feeling of the hug making his skin feel like it was burning... and oh how he longed for that burning.

Patton was blatantly sobbing, and he didn't know what to do. None of this was supposed to happen, he was supposed to be fine! If he wasn't then how would he be able to help any of them... and they'd leave him behind...

"Patton we would never leave you behind," Janus started once again through Patton's sobbing.

Shit... had he said that out loud?

He tried to respond, to defend himself, to reassure Janus that he must have misheard him! -But was choked back by yet another sob.

Janus brought up a hand to absent-mindedly card through Patton's hair, and wow, did the touch of his fingertips send fire through is scalp.

"It's okay to not be okay, for you especially." They said in a soft voice, their other hand tracing shapes against his back. "You carry the weight of all our problems. You're always there to lend an ear, never asking for anything in return."

Janus' voice coupled with their strong arm wrapped securely around him and their feather-light touches, calmed him down.

Patton could smell the comforting smell that was Janus, smelled like lemon zest and vanilla... then he noticed Janus had started talking again.

"You don't have to be grateful things aren't worse." Janus murmured against Patton's ear. "Just because you can't think of a reason to be feeling shitty, doesn't make those feelings any less valid."

Patton looked up from Janus' now tear-soaked jacket into their eyes,

"And what if I don't even know what these feelings are?" He asked softly.

Janus looked just the slightest bit surprised at the question.

Then they tugged Patton closer to their chest and pressed a firm kiss to his forehead.

"Then I will help you figure them out." they said, equally quiet, "and I'll try to help you with them as much as you help the rest of us."

It was then the tears started back up again and Patton clenched his aching hands around the fabric of Janus' jacket.

Janus' voice then sounded a bit panicked, "D-did I say something wrong? Are you alright?"

He quickly shook his head against Janus.

"N-no..." he said, smiling through his tears, snuffling, and hiccups. "You said everything right... th-ank you, Jan."

Patton could feel Janus relax against him.

Janus hummed in acknowledgment, "Of course Patton."

Of course, Janus ended up staying the night, simply being there to cuddle and to reassure Patton until he fell asleep, falling asleep shortly after. If Patton had per-chance turned to look back at Janus, he would have see the look of absolute adoration, tinged with just the slightest bit of worry, that Janus had stared at him with.

Annnnd that's it! thanks for reading, and if you have any requests or anything feel free to give them! I most likely won't be able to come up with anything myself because I'm just like that, so I welcome your ideas!!