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Just to update on my current status since a few close friends know:

I have severely fractured my ankle (as in, surgical intervention is necessary as a cast alone won't stabilize it enough to heal properly) and will be functionally bedridden for a while. I'm in some pain but a lot less than I would be without medication and we've got a plan moving forward to try and find an orthopedic specialist. My mom is providing at-home assistance so I'm not going it alone.

For people understandably worried about US health care, my home state literally just this month significantly expanded government plan health care benefits so between that and student insurance I should not be falling into medical debt. Things could be a lot worse than they are so I'm relatively optimistic in spite of everything.

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Before I forget Max my Straight Razor is a  Razolution by Linder Solingen

You can get it here

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Original Dumm Comics version

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Like this post if you appreciate it when beautiful men

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lies face down on the floor and doesn't get back up again for a few hours

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Oh, April Fool's falls on a class day for me. Do I wear my fursuit to class y/n

(I can't wear any of my other stuff because I already dress like a fruity goth JRPG villain on a daily basis and yet I think I would still surprise people if I just walk into a seminar and proceed as normal while being a weird horned angel beast thing.)

(also I feel like I should warn the professor in advance because I like her but tell absolutely nobody else)

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I get cynicism and misanthropy, I really do. I used to see the world as a pretty miserable and awful place, and that people were on aggregate evil. I was in a pretty dark place and I've managed to get out of it.

I'm not saying the world is perfect and you should trust anyone by any means, but. IDK. When I basically snapped my ankle in half and could not move, two people immediately stopped and stayed with me while I tried to get first responders on the scene. They got me a cool, damp towel (it was really hot out and I couldn't go into the shade since, you know, my foot was not attached to the rest of my leg at the time) and talked to me so I could stay about as calm as I could under the circumstances. When I had to go to a hotel because it was too late to go back home by the time I got out of the ER the guy attending the desk helped me to my room. The nurse at the specialist's office I saw noticed that testosterone was on my scrip list and asked if I had a preferred name other than the legal one on my paperwork. She told me the name I picked was beautiful and loved the meaning of it.

None of them had to do that. They weren't paid for it. They could have just looked the other way. So, I just don't think everyone is fundamentally selfish. I guess on a philosophical front I'd ultimately call myself an optimalist. The world isn't flawless but you can pursue a good life and I'd rather be alive than the alternative. And I think the ultimate proof of that is while I did manage to eventually find some sense of self-worth I wouldn't have done it without other people who stuck with me and cared about me even when I was kind of a miserable git.

So. Sorry for being one of those annoying people who like twee posts about finding beauty in every day life but I did have to fight to get to that point, so I feel like I earned it.

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btw can someone boop me i'm sitting at 199 and i just want a nice round number

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Went out to a local park on Saturday in one of my ouji coords! Some of the pictures turned out pretty nice.

Blouse: Princess Chronicles (Overture of Dark Night) Vest: Princess Chronicles (Overture of Dark Night) Shorts: Princess Chronicles (Floating Phantom) Hat: Princess Chronicles (Floating Phantom) Necklace, Waist Chain, Brooch: Princess Chronicles One specific ring: Puvithel (it's the white one with the black border) Other Accessories: Offbrand Boots: Offbrand

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Never uploaded this here so! Ouji coord I brought on a beach trip.

Blouse: Princess Chronicles (Black and Blue) Vest: Arca et Ovis (Little Daemon) Shorts: Arca et Ovis (Little Daemon) Hat: Princess Chronicles (Floating Phantom) One Singular Ring: Puvithel Other Accessories and Boots: Offbrand

Normally I wear a waist chain with this to bring in the cross detailing on the shorts and vest but....it got left at home because I hate packing and consistently put it off until last second, oops. Still works without it though!

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I always get sentimental this time of year.

Nine years ago I made one of the most monumental decisions of my life, even if I didn't know it at the time. It would've technically been a few days ago but the whole week and a half leading into it was pretty foundational for what I'd become. The whole thing set off a domino effect that turned my life around.

I don't think me from nine years ago would've ever imagined himself this happy. I had to fight like hell for it and I haven't made it but. I am in the process of making it.

Anyway. Ye. I don't want to tag specific people because I think I know who you are. I'll just say If you knew me back then you helped more than you can imagine, even if we don't talk much now. Some of you are like siblings to me now but even if you aren't, giving me a place I could talk freely was the first time I genuinely felt safe and at home.

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So I have been working on that were-animal game I threatened to do a while back, and I'm...fairly pleased with where I'm at in at least the general concept phase. Lore feels good, I have some solid antagonist ideas, I have a gameplay loop working, all that fun stuff. Now I'm starting to get to the scary parts (having to nail down a system and figure out just how I'm going to put this thing out into the world.)

This got weirdly self-reflective about my history with gaming instead of mostly talking about the actual mechanics so I'm gonna put it under a cut. :U

The tl;dr if you just want to know what I'm (probably) doing:

High-ish power system

Medium crunch (I'm aiming about for the level of Exalted Essence)

(This means a pretty good amount of powers and shapeshifted forms provide bonuses to keep track of)

Trying to avoid specific point-related bookkeeping so there won't be a fuel stat in the way that Chronicles of Darkness or Exalted has it where there are pips that rise and fall

Milestone "leveling" most likely (no actual level traditional leveling system, just skill/attribute pools, powers, and a character rank system similarish to a power stat)

Dice pool

(Yes, I did really like ExEss, don't judge me)

I am...attempting to come up with something more than a binary pass-fail system but I would rather not steal PBTA's iteration on it

Social combat (sorry, I know a lot of people are bearish on it but I like it :c It's the one thing I don't want to toss)

x/y-splats real

I have never tried to work within a system that's 100% of my own making. I think I'm a little gun-shy of it because one of the GMs I used to play with (who I stopped playing with because she's a horrible person in addition to being a horrible GM, incredibly long story, send me booze money to get drunk if you want to hear it because I don't want to be sober when thinking too hard about her) was really insistent on trying to make her own system and her game design sense was...well, not great. Didn't have a good head for dice odds and went for the most simple solutions possible (d6 with small dice pool, 1s are fails, boxcars are crits) without thinking about actual gamefeel, expected players to handle most of creation of character abilities and powers (as in, doing most of the design lifting for her outside of the basic dice systems) but also was incredibly thin-skinned about feedback. She had the desire to be famous and make this big idea but was not willing to do the hard work to make it happen.

And like, I'm somewhat sensitive (I would not call myself the most confident person) so I'm used to feeling a bit hurt by negative feedback, but, you know, you have to listen to players to see how they're reacting to the game especially since you need to get out of your own head when designing mechanics. Critique is how you get better, as much as it hurts. Unfortunately she also hated learning other peoples' systems even if you wrote her cheat sheets so...I never really got to play anything for more than five sessions or so for quite some time.

(Upside: the drive that gave me to search for actual active RP groups led to me meeting some of my favorite people in the world.)

Anyways. I think that's led to me kind of psyching myself out. I've kind of gone from the mentality of "yeah I have a great head for mechanics" to "oh no I'm just a savant with one singular system." I...might have to start with brand-X-ing a system I'm familiar with (ft. minor changes) (guess which one) and then start tweaking from there until it doesn't feel like The Werewolf the Forsaken We Have at Home.

I think it both helps and hurts that a lot of my design philosophy is somewhat similar. I'm trying to do a higher power level, at least in the same way that Chronicles of Darkness has the "if your PCs throw enough resources at something, they will get what they want, it's just a matter of what it will cost them and if it was something they should have wanted in the first place." I also have an extremely strong preference for dice pool systems, I just think the dice odds feel so much better than single-roll systems.

I've also always liked being able to downgrade a failed roll to a dramatic failure since it's led to some really fun situations, but I think the inverse could be fun as well, i.e. if you REALLY feel like you need a roll to succeed you can upgrade it to a single success at a cost that could potentially bite you in the ass later. It's another way to potentially cause drama and give players more meta-options to control how the game can proceed.

On the subject of meta-options I'd really like to give social systems some mechanical weight since I honestly enjoy social combat. I know that's kind of a controversial opinion but I just feel like it gives more tension to negotiations and the like and it gives me a lot more design space to work with when designing what would traditionally fall under "utility powers" as an umbrella.

So that's sorta what I'm working with right now. The scary part is I will need to playtest this at some point and that means recruiting people and that also means starting up what will likely be a community server to keep in touch with people instead of just vomiting out whatever thoughts pop into my head on tumblr. One Fear.

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To clarify i am very drunk r/n and thinking about how long I have known some people (not in a bad way, I am a little surprised when anyone sticks around in my life for longer than like a few months.)

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Many great things to be said of Halloween but the underrated one is that artists you like will often draw pictures of the little fictional guys you like wearing neat costumes.

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Watching VGC Internationals and having a great time. I like the casters, the matches are fun even if the format is iffy. I got to see some really neat tech like that one team with Wo-Chien that got into top 8, one of the players just outright said that the current regulation sucks in an interview (which made me laugh), I have pizza, fries, popcorn, ice cream, and a 6-pack of milk stouts, the vibes are phenomenal.