#especially now missing taemin

[comatosebunny09]

oral fixation | astarion a.

summary: he loves your lips. especially when they’re so eagerly wrapped around him. genre(s): erotica, romance warning(s): female anatomy described, oral fixation, face-fucking, bj, jealousy, possessiveness, bodily fluids, choking, cum-eating, brief dacryphilia, explicit language, alcohol and tobacco use (hookah), blood drinking now playing: criminal - taemin notes: please thank @nanaoise08squad for helping me write this! also, please let me know if i missed any warnings! hope you enjoy, lovelies! screenshot credit

Lips.

Your lips.

They’re his favorite—if anyone ever bothered to ask what he enjoys most about your body.

Well, other than the devastating clench of your pussy, of course.

They’re pillow-soft. Thick. Flushed like rose petals. Cute when they’re pulled into that warm smile. 

Alluring, stretched into a thin line as you glare at your enemies. 

Exquisite, stained with blood and bruises and split—he can’t help wanting to lick them whenever he sets his eyes on them, even in the heat of battle.

Perfect and sweltering, curled around him. Dribbling with globs of spit and pre-spend as you take him down your throat. His favorite of all. And those pretty, garbled sounds you release when he presses deeper, testing your gag reflexes, amplifies his love for them.

Your sinfully gorgeous lips.  

Gods.

Astarion bites his lip, threatening to draw blood. 

He observes you through the wispy haze of tobacco smoke staining the lounge, trained on every twitch and spasm of your mouth beneath the dulled lighting. Every smile, every scowl. Every dart of your tongue from betwixt them, chasing wine that glides down the corners.

Your tongue leaves a sheen of saliva in its wake. Astarion swallows thickly. Unconsciously flashes back to how you make his cock gleam like that. Glistening and flushed an angry red when you release him with a lewd pop after swallowing him down like a fucking pro.

Astarion shudders, his eyes rolling into the backs of their sockets. His fingernails pull at the plush, crimson cushions beneath him, a groan trying to make itself known.

You’ll be the death of him; he’s sure of it. 

Astarion sulks, swirling the contents of his goblet, brows weighed down in the middle by something like irritation. 

You’re doing this on purpose. Enticing him. Vexing him. Your eyes occasionally find him across the lounge. Twinkle with mischief below bowed lashes before flitting back to your company. Company he wishes would piss off.

He can think of better ways to occupy your mouth that don’t involve meaningless conversation.

However, everyone’s gathered around you to celebrate the famed Hero of Baldur’s Gate. Despite Astarion’s protests, you insisted on staying. 

You are a beacon of hope. An idol perched on a plinth, the Madonna della Pietà. Who would he be to steal you away from your adoring fans?

He just wishes his trousers weren’t so unbearably tight. Wishes he wasn’t straining against the seam of them, throbbing and pulsing with beads of pre-cum staining the thick material. Plagued by memories of the beautiful sounds he evokes from your mouth instead of your airy laughter filling his head once again.

Astarion crosses his legs with a petulant sigh and shoves a pillow onto his lap to mask his growing need. Quietly simmers, downing what remains in his cup. He swipes the back of his hand across his chin to clean up errant dribbles of wine, uncaring of how unsightly he must appear.

He’s in no mood for pleasantries. No mood to entertain others, waving off the belly dancers who try vainly to charm him with the wind of their hips. He’s too busy boring holes into the arm draped about your shoulders—one of your fans getting a little too cozy. 

If looks could kill, he would’ve murdered this imbecile a thousand times over.

His vision glosses red when the man’s thumb swipes at the corner of your lips under the pretense of cleaning off some wine.

“There you go, lass,” he murmurs, the rough pad of his thumb grazing your chin. “Good as new. And still just as pretty.” 

There’s no mistaking the gleam in his eye. The lecherous cant of his lips. A look Astarion knows all too well, having pinned you with it so many times himself. 

You chuckle something tense, finding Astarion’s gaze through the discord.

Astarion moves on instinct. Soundless as a panther, pushing through the harem of dancers that had gathered around him. Parts through the revelers assembled at your feet, and they look up at him with varying degrees of alarm.

With an abrasive sound pinched from his lungs, Astarion plucks you from the settee with a possessive hand encircling your wrist. Murmurs a curt excuse us, daring the man who touched you to protest with a predatory glare over his shoulder. 

The hairs of your neck stand ramrod stiff. A pleasant, cooling sensation pools in your belly. Trickles southward into your underwear, and you throb.

You do so love it when he gets like this. Green-eyed and seething.

You bid the other patrons farewell, unable to disguise the sinister arc of your lips. Toddle behind your beloved, your body still buzzing from the wine, your head still spinning from the nicotine. Astarion finally tugs you beneath layers of sheer, burgundy curtains, far from the grasp of the lounge’s other clients.

“Astarion,” you gasp as the world twists around you, and he pulls your stumbling, giggling self before him.

You’ve hardly any time to admire your surroundings, the swell of sound from the longue muddled and blotted out by the clipped growl rumbling in Astarion’s chest. 

You only have the gleam of his irises and the flash of his teeth as warnings before you tumble backward onto a mass of pillows, shoved into them by your beloved. You clamber to your elbows, breaths labored, pupils dilated. Again, you’re pushed into the satiny cushions as Astarion crawls overtop, fingers winding around your jaw and neck to hold you in place for him to ravage you.

He slots himself between your legs, and it’s like he’s always been there. Feasts on your mouth, pushing past the barrier of your teeth in pursuit of your tongue, thumb pressing against your larynx. He pours the most relieved sound between your lips when he finds it. Entices it into an ardent dance, and Gods, you’re so warm and wet here. He can’t help how he bears down, hips rolling like waves licking the shoreline as he presses against the stitching of your breeches.

You moan in tandem, and the air punches from your lungs, the heels of your feet digging into his back as you twine your legs around his waist. 

His other hand pulls and bunches up your clothing in search of the supple glide of your skin. Groans something satisfied when the hardened pads of his fingertips find the xylophone of your rib cage, easing upward. He grazes the underside of your breast, and he kneads and rolls your nipple with slow, meticulous circles, luring the prettiest little whine from your throat.

“Astarion,” you recite, clawing at the bindings of his breeches. It’s the sweetest supplication to his ears to hear you begging so wantonly for him. To see he isn’t the only one who missed the hot press of your body to his.

He abandons your mouth to blister your neck with kisses, fangs nipping at your clavicle, thumbs cruising down the dip of your stomach in search of your hips whilst you arch your back. He sighs around your nipple when your soft hands close around the head of his cock, tugging and squeezing, your thumbs generous as they spread pre-spend around him. Instinctively, Astarion ruts into the scorching clasp of your hands, breathing hot against your flesh, rolling your other nipple between lithe fingers.

It’s almost embarrassing how desperately he yearns for you. How he leaks and whimpers while you fist him, and his canines sink into the doughy flesh of your tit, pulling a yelp from your mouth. He licks over the wounds in apology, hips pinning your waist to the floor. He’s dizzied and overwhelmed, and the wind of your waist isn’t helping matters. 

The succulent tang of your blood provokes his tastebuds, and his hips paint a rhythm of their own volition as he pistons against you. He glances up whilst your head crashes into the pillows, your lips glistening and parting with a breath, and your lids shuttered against the wave of ecstasy sifting through your spine.

“Astarion,” you breathe, pulling so nicely on his cock. Swallow. “Astarion, please. My mouth. Need, I—you…want you in my mouth.”

How sweet you sound, begging for your mouth to be stretched wide and violated. The jumble of your words is endearing. Usually, Astarion would tease you for your impatience. But he hasn’t the tolerance to, having gone without your lips sucking him in for days.

Astarion pants, scrambling to his knees, straddling your shoulders, and tugging his breeches down, down, down until his impressive girth springs free of its confines. It slaps intimidatingly against his abdominals, a pretty, gossamer string of pre dribbling from the slit towards your chin, and his cock twitches at your eagerness.

There’s reverence in your stare. Hunger as your mouth opens and closes, and your perfect body squirms beneath him, anticipation lancing through you. You squeeze your thighs together to ward off the delicious, sparkling rush of endorphins collecting between them. 

You watch as Astarion handles himself, his hand swallowing up the bulk of his cock whilst he pumps himself, head thrown back, the tendons of his neck flexing. 

He groans something feral and desperate, his cock grinding against the hot, sticky pucker of your lips. 

“Fuck,” he breathes. “Fuck, darling. Open your mouth. Now.”

He spares you a few more stuttered rolls of his pelvis. Taps the turgid flesh of his cock against your tongue before feeding the swollen, sensitive head between your lips. 

“Oh, Gods,” Astarion sighs. Draws back, his body shivering as your mouth releases him with an obscene pop. You flitter your tongue over the slit, chasing the briny edge of pre-cum.

He peers down at you through furled lashes, irises smoldering like liquid spilled over hot coals. He chuckles something breathy, easing back into the hot suction of your mouth.

“Eager, aren’t we, darling?” he husks. Cheeky as he drives himself deeper until your jaw clicks, your eyes roll back, and your whimper vibrates around him.

Your pussy clenches, and you undulate your hips off the floor. Grip the taut globes of Astarion’s ass, urging him further inside until he agitates your gag reflexes. 

Your throat constricts around him, a fist-like vice that brings him barreling forward onto his hands. And he’s a pretty, panting mess hovering over you, alabaster curls falling over his eyes, sweat gliding down the tips, brows creased in anguish.

He gives you minimal time to adjust before taking a fistful of your hair and pinning it to the pillows, keeping you in place so he can fuck into your mouth. 

Slowly, he draws his hips backward until only the head rests on the palate of your tongue. You whine petulantly before Astarion pushes back in, building a steady tempo thereafter, your lips stretching so wonderfully to accommodate him each time.

His mouth forms around silent ohs. Breaths choppy as he fucks your face, and saliva meddled with pre-spend bubbles on your cheeks. 

Your eyes gloss over with tears, your throat rubbed raw, jaw aching. But you squeeze his ass ever tighter, urging him to use you. To chase that cresting wave of pleasure. You could die like this, with his cock distending your throat and your pussy weeping and begging to be stuffed.

“Gods, fuck, fuck, fuck,” chants your lover. His hips stutter, and his cock throbs on your tongue, fingers gripping your hair in a way that’s almost bruising. You know he’s nearing his peak, and you take to kneading his weighted, tight balls to help steer him to the edge.

It takes but a few more thrusts into the opulent warmth of your mouth before he paints your throat in thick, syrupy steaks of white. He pushes a groan through clenched teeth, eyes screwed shut whilst he cranes his neck back, exhaling his release.

You choke, the hot rush of tears blistering your cheeks. But Astarion holds your mouth in place as you thoroughly milk him, dumping the last vestiges of his cum down your throat. 

He slowly unsheathes himself. Crawls down to straddle your hips, petting through the riot of your hair and drawing your swollen mouth into an apologetic kiss. He tenderly entwines your tongues together, the briny tang of his cum coaxing a moan from him.

Astarion rolls onto his back beside you, giving you time to catch your breath. And with your lashes dewy and wet and your lips abused, you chuckle something satisfied. Astarion looks at you warily before laughing himself, seeking out your hand to lace your fingers together.

“I should make you jealous more often,” you muse once your laughter peters. You roll onto your side, propped on your elbow, cheek perched on your hand whilst you run your finger down the length of his arm. A cattish grin rounds your lips.

Astarion scoffs, avoiding your stare. “Jealous? Me?”

You give him a pointed look.

He flinches beneath the weight of your glare, a nervous smile twitching his lips. “Well…maybe just a little.”

You sit like this for a while longer, admiring the flutter of his lashes and the peachy hue of his cheeks. Finally, he breaks the comfortable silence, pinning you with a scarlet-spun gaze. 

“We should go.” Astarion slowly sits up, a smirk taking residence on his lips as he tugs you into the circle of his arms. “I’ve much more in store for you, my love. Things I can’t be bothered to do…here.”

You shiver at the thought, boneless as your lover hauls you to your feet. You fix your clothes and hair as best you can before Astarion leads you back to the main lounge, twin smiles adorning your lips.

Astarion swings by the bar to drop some coin onto the counter to pay for your drinks. Catches the eye of the man who’d had his arm around you earlier, and his mind sparkles with a sinister idea.

He draws you against him, your breath coming out in a gasp before he takes possession of your cheeks and lures you into a soul-siphoning kiss. One of tongues and teeth and sloppiness, and you find your thighs rubbing together again to curb the insistent throb between them. 

You whimper into his mouth, and Astarion fixes the man with a sinister look over your shoulder as he grips your ass and squeezes. Something of a warning, a threat. 

Touch her again, and I’ll have your head on a pike. 

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[mykoreanlove]

heyyy i’ve been missing taemin sm lately and ur latest fic has me wanting more domestic taemin 🥹

Your boyfriend was a little rascal.

Showing you love and appreciation were his favorite things to do but annoying the fuck out of you came second.

„Babe, I’m sorry“, Taemin laughed, „it’s just, you look way too cute when you get irritated. I have to tease you a bit. Have to.“

His mischievous acts were always followed by his shiniest smile, which made him resemble a child.

He loved teasing you while cooking or reading but especially when you tried to meditate.

The first few times he just observed, not really understanding what you were doing.

„Babe?“

„Not now, Taem. I’m meditating.“

He used to sit next to you and simply watch, observing your breathing pattern and the peaceful look on your face. It didn’t take long for him to gaze at you intensely, he always was mesmerized by your unique beauty.

You let out a chuckle and waved your hand at him. „Stop staring at me. It’s distracting.“

His cheeks changed colors as you were able to detect his fondness for you, even with eyes closed.

You didn’t move for several minutes, so he got bored. Suddenly, you felt his plush lips on you - he plastered sweet, little kisses all over your face.

„Taem, I swear to god“, you laughed out loud. Your eyes were still closed but you felt him hovering over you. His musky scent filled your nose and his silver chain dangled on your chest.

„Don’t mind me, baby. Do your thing“, he teased as he left kisses on your neck.

„That’s it“, you exclaimed boldly and put your arms around him, pressing his body close to yours. He was lying on top of you and had no chance of escaping now.

„Just lay here and breathe“, you commanded.

He relaxed into the pose and smiled happily. Taemin was beyond grateful to have you in his life. He loved being close to you like this, hearing your heart beat underneath his ear.

„Why do you like it so much?“, he whispered.

„Why don’t you actually try it?“

He rolled off of you and lay on his back next to you.

„What do I do?“

„Just observe.“

„Observe? Observe what?“ He thought this was a peculiar activity.

You chuckled as you answered. „Your breath baby. Just focus on your breath.“

He did his best but struggled a lot at first. The most random thoughts came into his awareness: did he put on the dish washer? what’s for dinner? why was he so bad at math? how did his knee heal so quickly? should he buy you a present? Ah shit, focus on your breath.

„I don’t think I can meditate baby. Maybe I’ll just leave you to it.“

Taemin was already halfway up as you grabbed his hand, stopping him.

„Just a couple more minutes, babe.“

He laid back down and held your hand, relaxing again.

This time it was actually nice as he felt some tingling in his fingers.

„Do you feel it?“

He was surprised that you noticed it, too.

„The tingling?“

„Yeah, that’s energy.“

He thought about it for a minute. „So, you and I are exchanging energy?“

„More like sharing energy.“

He smiled soundly.

„Just like how we share our love then.“

Finally you opened your eyes and turned to look at him, he was smiling peacefully like a kid on Christmas.

„I love you Taem.“

His eyes were still closed as he brought your entangled hands up to his lips, placing a chest kiss on them while agreeing. „I love you more, y/n.“

[10nantscompanion]

In case you were thinking of getting a bubble or fromm subscription:

here's how the idol's I am or was subscribed to text

ateez:

Seonghwa:

seonghwa loml

he usually texts quite often!!

he's a very quick typer, so even though he's not online for long periods of time he still talks A LOT.

he talks very cutesy and slangy so - as a Korean learner - I sometimes have a hard time understanding him, but I feel like I've kinda gotten used to it by now haha I've definitely learned a lot of new words talking to him

sometimes he goes live on toktoq after being online on fromm 🥺

Yunho:

I've only just subscribed to him yesterday but he was online today so... I can give somewhat of a feedback I guess???

yunho talks a lot less cutesy than seonghwa does, so I can understand him quite well lol

was online for a longer period than seonghwa usually is, but he took his time typing his messages, giving me more time to think of a reply

OH

I've been telling him "goodbye" "see you later" "have a nice day" for... idk like 10 minutes until he actually left. HE SEEMED LIKE HE WAS GONNA LEAVE FOR 10 MINUTES STRAIGHT BUT EVERYTIME I SAID GOODBYE HE CAME UP WITH NEW THINGS TO TALK ABOUT LOL

oh

while writing this post he went online again

TO SEND

THIS

San:

I didn't have him for long cause he was always online at inconvenient times (usually around 4 or 5 am where I live) so I kept missing him :(

he's funny though!!! especially when he talks about forcing seonghwa to workout with him lol

I learned some verb endings from him that I didn't know before

can't really say much about the way he talks cause I kept missing him

I do love him 3000 though

Taemin:

lots of selfies!!! and when I say lots I mean LOTS!! mainly gym, taxi and bed selfies

also a lot of cat content!!! (very worth it imo)

doesn't text a lot but he "calls" A LOT (so basically lots of video and voice live streams) sometimes even daily!!!

Xdinary Heroes

Gaon:

usually texts everyday but mostly just 1-3 messages a day

however sometimes he's online for an hour or so!! he's very cute!! (gets shy when he's being complimented haha)

he likes to take photos while taking walks!!! he also sends selfies pretty regularly!!

he barely ever sends voice messages though!! I think he sent like 1 during the last year lol

O.de:

SO MANY SELFIES

daily selfies!!!

doesn't text a lot but he does go online daily!! (maybe it's different now I've only had him for a few months a year ago or so)

Jooyeon:

not online regularly BUT when he's online he sends a lot of voice messages of him singing!!

he also likes to send goofy photos lol

skz

Chan:

barely online BUT he translates everything he says which is very cute!!!

he's as delusional as we are lol

LeeKnow

doesn't talk a lot BUT is online almost everyday!!

CAT CONTENT!!!!! (=^･ω･^=)

likes to send tiny LOUD voice messages

loves to take pictures of his food at very unflattering, unappetizing angles lol

Hyunjin:

phew

I've only had him for a month or so a year ago

sends quite a lot of pictures which is cool!!

online almost everyday but only sends a few messages

Felix:

sometimes online multiple times a day

occasionally won't be online for days or weeks though

BUT WHEN HE'S ONLINE he's online for hours lol

sends his entire camera roll

lots of voice messages (usually in Korean and English)

sometimes does song covers and asmr

lots of good night voice memos with kisses hehe

he's very silly and asks you to do aegyo in exchange for photos

he can be pretty sentimental at times too which is very cute!

[theehexgirl]

pairings: taemin x black¡reader

content: ex-boyfriend!taemin, possessive, rough sex, oral (m.receiving), penetrative sex, a little bit of anal play, asshole behavior, crazy ex boyfriend, mention of breeding

warnings: smut, 18+, graphic description of sexual situations, mdni 🔞

It had been close to eight months since Y/N had broken up with her ex-boyfriend, Taemin, and she was missing the man terribly. It was normal for her to miss him, especially when they had been together for two years.

However, it was wrong for her to miss him at the same time because of his unsavory personality. Taemin was crazy as fuck. He was very protective of her and he would glare at any man that came near her. Not to mention that he would get mad if he suspected that she was even flirting with the men that approached her, even though she wouldn’t dream of doing so in a million years.

As stated before, the man was crazy and possessive. Not to mention stubborn too because once he made up his mind, then that was the end of it. If he didn’t like what she was wearing, he would tell her to change and wouldn’t budge no matter how much she protested.

Though his personality was unsavory, he was handsome too. However, his handsomeness didn’t excuse the bullshit he would put her through. There were good times, but the good would outweigh the bad.

Back to the current situation, Y/N was missing him so much and she was fighting herself on whether or not she should even dial his number in the first place. When they broke up eight months ago, she told him that she never wanted to see him again, which he responded to her with,

“We’ll see.”

The man had a cocky smirk on his face too when he said it, which made her highly upset because who was he to say that she would be back?

Much to her chagrin, he was right. She was contemplating crawling back to him and she could almost picture how smug he would be when she called him. She could even hear the words he would say too and that made her feel extremely embarrassed for what she was about to do.

Y/N whipped out her phone and she went straight to his contact. She hovered over the call option for a second, chewing her bottom lip. She could feel and hear her heart pounding out of nervousness. She didn’t know if he would either pick up or hang up, which if he hung then she would understand because it’s been eight months.

As she fought with herself on whether or not to click, her thumb slipped and she pressed the button. Now it was ringing and she was silently panicking. She could feel her anxiety becoming worse as it rang until finally, his deep voice rang loud and clear through her speaker.

“Y/N,” he said. She swallowed loudly and then pressed the phone against her ear once it was taken off speaker.

“H-hey,” she stammered, feeling her face burn with shame.

“I thought you weren’t going to call me ever again,” he smugly stated.

“Y-Yeah. M-me too,” she mumbled.

“Don’t tell me you changed your mind?” Taemin teased. She could hear the sound of his friends snickering in the background. She knew then and there that he had her on speaker phone.

“Y-Yeah. A little,” she mumbled.

“A little. Why?” Taemin asked. She didn’t want to say it out for his friends to hear. She wanted their conversation to be private.

“I missed you,” she answered softly.

“What?” Taemin asked.

“I missed you!” Y/N snapped, feeling irritated that he was playing games. His friends made an “ooh” sound in the background, which was followed by laughter again.

“You missed me? I thought you said that you never would and told me to go fuck myself? What happened to that?” Taemin taunted.

“I’m sorry for saying that. Can you come over,” she answered.

“No,” he answered.

“Taemin,” she whined. More laughter in the background followed after.

“You come over,” he said.

“No way,” she firmly stated.

“Then I’m hanging up. Bye, Y/N,” he replied.

“Nonono! Wait!” Y/N exclaimed, sitting up.

“Yes?” Taemin said.

“I’ll come over,” she informed defeatedly.

“Good girl,” he praised. She didn’t know why hearing him say that made her heart swell, but it did.

“I’ll see you when you get here,” he told her before hanging up. Y/N dropped her phone onto the bed, then buried her face into her hands. She couldn’t believe what she just did. She had gone back on her word to not crawl back to him and here she was crawling back.

After mentally beating herself up for her stupid decision, she got dressed in a pair of black shorts with drawstrings on the sides, a graphic tee , and a pair of her black and white dunks. She pulled her platinum and black, back length locs into a half up-half down style before leaving.

When she arrived at his home, she found that his driveway was packed with his friends’ cars. She already knew that when she walked in the door that it was going to be some shit. She rang the doorbell because she didn’t know if he changed the combination on his keypad.

The door soon opened to reveal the large man who was wearing a very smug expression on his face.

“Come in,” he said. She brushed past him into the house and she made sure to slip off her shoes and place them in front of the door.

“Go upstairs and wait for me,” he ordered. Y/N nodded and as she was about to head upstairs, he grabbed her wrist and pulled her to him, crashing his lips against hers in a bruising kiss. She could feel his hands creeping down her back until they reached the waistband of her ass.

His tongue danced with hers as he pulled her flush against his body, making her head feel so jumbled. She missed the feeling of his lips against hers because they were so soft and they molded perfectly with hers. His kisses always left her weak in the knees.

He pulled his lips away from hers, not giving her enough to collect herself before gesturing for her to head upstairs. Y/N headed up to his bedroom. It looked the same as always and it smelled like him too. She didn’t realize how much she missed this place until she was in here one more time.

Y/N set her purse down on his nightstand, then sat down while she waited for him.

A couple hours later, she heard the sound of his friends leaving. She was glad they left because she was so humiliated at the fact that they heard her begging like that. She hated it so much. She didn’t know how she would even act when she saw those guys at other functions.

The sound of her phone pinging, let her know that he had texted her. She looked at the text and saw that he was asking her to come downstairs. Y/N obliged and swung her legs over the bed.

When she arrived downstairs, she found him sitting in the recliner, his favorite one at that, drinking a beer. He made a come hither motion with his finger. Y/N did as he instructed and stood in front of him. He motioned for her to come closer until she was between his legs.

“I’m sorry for making you wait. Are you upset?” Taemin taunted.

“No,” she answered. She didn’t want to admit to him that she was even irritated in the first place. It would just give him even more ammo.

“Be honest,” he smirked.

“Yes I am,” she mumbled. The man laughed at her response, which made her cheeks heat up from embarrassment.

“I bet, but you could wait. I had other things to do,” he said. He was being such an ass to her and she knew why he was like this, but it made her feel so guilty.

“I don’t have all night. I have somewhere to be tomorrow so let’s get this over with,” he remarked, “On your knees. Now.”

Y/N lowered herself to her knees in front of him as he watched her with a smug expression on his face, “take it out.”

She did as instructed and began to unbutton his pants. She hooked her fingers into the waistband of his underwear, slowly tugging them down making his dick spring free of its confines. She leaned down and ran her tongue from the base to the tip on the underside of it. He shuddered visibly from the feeling of her soft tongue.

Y/N repeated this action once more, taking the tip into her pretty little mouth. She licked the bead of precum, then took him into her mouth. She hollowed out her cheeks as her head bobbed up and down his shaft slowly. Khadijah missed the feeling of him in her mouth so much that she almost closed her eyes just to savor the taste of it. Ji-hoon moaned softly, running his fingers through her locs.

One thing that he had to admit after eight months of not being around her was that she was the best at using her mouth. He felt her take him deeper into his mouth until she was at the base. He could feel her nose against his pelvis. The feeling of her tongue caressing the underside of his cock felt like pure heaven.

“You really have a talent for this,” he groaned.

When she felt his hands taking hold of her locs, she held onto his knees and allowed him to fuck her mouth. His tip kissed the back of her throat causing her to moan around his girth while her eyes rolled into the back of her head. The vibrations coming from her throat made it feel even better. Saliva leaked from her mouth as he fucked her mouth like it owed him something.

Soon, Y/N felt his cum paint the back of her throat. He held her head firmly in place as rope after rope splattered the back of her throat. She knew that he was holding her there to make sure she swallowed every last drop. He hated spitters. His previous partners were not too keen on the idea of swallowing his load, but she did it with no problem. Y/N was definitely one of his favorites.

Slowly, he slid his length out of her mouth and looked down at her. She opened her mouth to show him that she did just what he liked. The way he was looking at her turned her on and intimidated her at the same time.

“Strip,” he ordered. Y/N did as told without any objections as he watched her from the recliner. Her cheeks burned with embarrassment as she took off each article of clothing.

He pulled her into his lap once she was finished, “Put it inside you.”

Y/N placed his thick girth at her entrance and began to lower herself on it. She gasped as it stretched her, but she continued. He watched her as she slid down to the base.

“I can’t,” Y/N said.

“Why not?” Taemin narrowed his eyes.

“You’re too big,” she answered.

“You didn’t have trouble before,” he remarked.

“It’s been eight months,” she snapped. He grabbed the underside of her face and pulled her down an inch away from his.

“Lose the fucking attitude,” he growled. Y/N chewed on her bottom lip as he glared at her. She knew not to test him any further within that moment.

“Now ride me,” he ordered. Y/N sat there for a moment in silence, not even moving.

He smacked her round bottom hard causing her body to jolt and a yelp to slip from her lips. He palmed her face firmly, bringing it closer to his, “What did I say?”

Slowly, the curvy young adult began rocking her hips. Their eyes were locked in a heated gaze that had her wanting to look away, but the grip he had on her face wasn’t wavering anytime soon. All hesitance that she had seemed to slip away as she moved herself up and down his cock. It was starting to feel so good.

“How does it feel to have me inside you again?” Y/N breathlessly asked. He brought her face a mere inch away from his to the point of where their lips almost touched.

“Answer me, Y/N,” he demanded. She whimpered in response, which wasn’t what he wanted in the slightest.

“I know you can speak, Y/N,” he whispered, “Tell me how it feels.”

“It…it…feels good,” she moaned, rolling her hips. He smirked, kissing her fiercely. His tongue danced with hers in a way that had her moaning into his mouth. He was driving her crazy. So, so, so, so crazy.

Growing tired of her slow pace, Taemin gripped her hips tightly with his lips still connected to hers, lifting her up slowly before slamming her back down all the way. Her lips tore away from his to let out a noise that was a mix between a moan and a shriek.

“That’s what I wanna hear,” he grinned devilishly. He continued bouncing her up and down his length at a pace so fast that she had no choice, but to hold onto the chair. The sound of skin slapping filled the room and she could hear the sound of the springs in the chair going crazy.

Her breasts bounced in his face as he slammed her up and down his length, he managed to catch one in his mouth, suckling on it as she babbled incoherently above him.

“Taemin!” Y/N cried out, “Please…fuck!”

Taemin began to piston in and out of her from below while holding her flush against his body. She had nowhere to run and he wanted it that way.

“Taemin, I’m cumming!”

“Hold it,” he nipped her neck hard causing her to let out a small shriek. The pain definitely did it for her because she soon came.

“You’re so fucking bad for that,” he groaned, following after. Ropes and ropes of his own release spilled into her. He placed one hand on the back of her head and pulled her down to kiss her hard.

Without breaking from the kiss, he stood up and carried her up the stairs to his bedroom. He plopped her down onto the bed, then began stripping out of his own clothes. He flipped her over to her stomach, then gave her ass one hard smack.

“FUCK!” Y/N exclaimed.

“After tonight, you’re not leaving me again. You’re going to stay your ass here,” he told her.

“No way. I just needed you for to—“ he smacked her ass hard again, essentially cutting her off. She let out a yelp from the hard smack.

“Do you think I’m playing with you, Y/N?” Taemin questioned. She knew not to answer that question. He was dead fucking serious about this and that was scary as hell.

“I’m not—“ another blow landed onto her round bottom and she let out a whimper this time.

“Did you really think I was about to let you go after tonight?” Taemin questioned. She knew that she was so fucking naive to even think that the crazy man behind her would even let her go. She just wanted a one and done, but he was determined to keep her.

“Answer the question, Y/N,” he ordered.

“Y-yes,” she murmured, feeling him line his cock at her entrance.

“You thought wrong,” he told her, plunging inside. He was going even harder than before, smacking her ass until she was crying and pulling her hair at the same time. He was a menace to her and her poor pussy too.

She soon came around his dick, but he was still going even after. His hand released her hair and she felt his thumb going straight towards her other hole. Her eyes widened and she attempted to push his hand away.

“It seems the little princess is afraid of a thumb near her ass,” he taunted. She couldn’t see him for sure, but she had a feeling that he had a wicked grin on his face like a fox. He was definitely going to try and stick it in there.

“No! Don’t—“ he smacked her ass hard causing her to yell out loud.

“Shut up, Y/N,” he ordered, smacking it again. She bit her lip and whimpered as he pumped in and out of her. His thumb brushed up against the untouched hole and she shuddered.

“I wonder how this hole would feel wrapped around my cock. I bet it would feel so good to just fill this with my cum and watch it drip out,” he groaned as she clenched around his length. She turned her head back to look at him. When their eyes met, he had this predatory look on his face and continued to rub his thumb around her hole.

As he held her gaze, he placed that same thumb into his mouth and soaked it with his own saliva before pressing it against that hole. She gasped as she felt it push into her opening. He continued pushing it in until it was fully inside her, down to the hilt. Y/N had never felt so full before. It was a much different experience.

“Fuck. It’s so tight. It’s practically squeezing the life out of my thumb,” he laughed.

“Please take it out,” she begged.

“What’s wrong, Y/N? You don’t like a little thumb being in there?” Taemin taunted. She was definitely not a fan of it, but he was definitely trying to push for it.

She whimpered when he began to move his thumb in and out of her tight hole. She gasped from the odd feeling of his thumb being in her ass. However, as he continued on she began to feel good from it coupled with his dick sliding in and out of her.

“Ooh. It seems like somebody likes it,” he grinned. He thrusted his thumb in and out of her hole in time with his thrusts. She was feeling so good in both holes because of him. While it scared her, it also felt too good that she didn’t want to admit it out loud.

“Taemin!” Y/N cried out.

“That’s right. Say the name of the man that is making you feel this way,” he groaned. Y/N had never felt pleasure like this before from her back door and she was going to remember this for a while.

His orgasm approached and he came inside her a moment, painting her walls white. He made sure to keep himself plugged because he didn’t want any of his cream spilling out of her. It seemed as if he definitely wanted her to get pregnant, which would make it harder for her to even leave him.

Y/N’s body had collapsed to the bed with his dick inside of her. It seemed like this was the end and by tomorrow he’ll forget the notion that she would stay home with him.

However, her relief was short-lived when he pulled out and flipped her onto her back. He plunged right into her again.

“You thought this was over?” Taemin smirked, sliding in and out of her. A whimper tumbled from her lips.

“I’m just getting started,” he let out a dark chuckle. It was at that moment that it really sunk in that she had fucked up. She had really fucked up.

Y/N didn’t know what she was thinking when she called him, but she must have been on some type of crack because he was being a merciless monster. She didn’t know why she expected something vanilla from him when he went hard no matter what. Here she was being placed into different positions and bended in so many ways that she didn’t know as possible as the large fucked her hard. She couldn’t handle it anymore because she was ready to pass out and the pleasure was becoming too much.

However, each time she tried to crawl away, he would pull her right back and make sure she definitely regretted that decision as he smacked her ass until it was red. Y/N was fucked. She was so very fucked because of him.

[reflections-in-a-critical-eye]

A storm is brewing and since I'm stuck indoors, I thought I could have some fun. Big emphasis on fun, for my sake and everyone else's. Please. So, without prolonging this too much, I'm down for some theories and speculations today and when I do it, either call me Columbo or a clown, but what's important is that I do it in style.

I've observed that these days, some idols have been a bit careless with their watches. Are they using them simply as expensive accesories? Do they need to know the time or they have their managers to do that for them? Oh, to live an idol lifestyle....nothing but idleness, right?

Or is it? The suspects today are Park Jimin, Choi Minho and Lee Taemin. My assistant to this case @peppertaemint and her reliable sources brought to my attention something we've briefly talked about a few weeks ago. Actually, we made some jokes. The situation was as follows.

Was the Rolex broken and the guy didn't know? It seems a bit silly given that the watch is not cheap at all. And usually, with an item like that, you do cherish and take care of it. It's a status symbol (I'll expand on that below). Also, Minho is known for posting on Bubble at specific times. His birthday or SHINee anniversary. It's not part of the fandom's collective imagination. They don't need to invent their own math in order to come up with the number they want. It's pretty straightforward.

Now, what does 11:55 mean? Nothing for now, but it's close to 12:09 which is Minho time (thank you pptm again). Anyway, the jury is still out on this one. It might just be that Minho needs to fix his watch.

But well, well, well, what do we have here? Taemin himself showing the same negligence as his boyfriend Hyung.

In Taemin's case, I wouldn't be surprised he just didn't care that his time was wrong, but then what is going on? Do 2Min need to buy new watches? Did the Rolexes skip quality control and somehow these 2 idols are victims, scammed of thousands of dollars? Is it a trend? A secret code between them? I'll say that all of the above should be taken into consideration.

Finally, the third victim (?) of faulty watches, Park Jimin-ssi. In his case, we're dealing with a Patek Philippe. It's the type of watch that a media mogul like Logan Roy would appreciate, or at least that's what Tom Wambsgans thought.

Logan did not care at all about the watch and it ended up as the equivalent of hush money for a kid that they all made fun of when they offered him a million bucks if he scores at a game. Oh, I miss Succession so much.....

Back to Patek Philippe. As Tom said in his rehearsed funny line, everytime you look at it, it tells you how rich you are, aka a status symbol. Or in Jimin's case, it tells you Jungkook's birth hour?

Like Minho, we also know that Jimin has his Jimin hour, he knows his way around the date calculator and so on. And given all the investigative work already done by other people (like the thread I linked), would it be so outrageous, so hard to believe that it was intentional? I don't think so. It's a sweet gesture and it shows Jimin's attention to details. He did talk about Jungkook's birthday and was among the reasons why he was livestreaming.

Pre-recorded or not (or whatever excuses/conspiracies weirdos like to engage with) Jimin wore the watch in his home and it somehow it was Jungkook's birth hour. Could it all be just a massive coincidence? Maybe. Could the Patek Philippe be faulty? Maybe, but damn, these idols should stop buying expensive watches then.

Is it such a harmful and delusional theory that needs to be buried because some fans are either pussies or plain stupid? No. This fandom loves numbers so much when it involves 20 other pairings within BTS. I think it's fine to talk about an additional one. I'm not the biggest fan/follower of the number theories, especially when it comes to I-jikookers (they work those numbers like they're trying to fix the books), but it doesn't mean that everything is absurd or completely ridiculous.

I'm not ready to close the case, my work as a detective is not done yet. I'll put it on hold, who knows what other evidence I might find myself in posession of in the future?

[moonjxsung]

haiiii bb✨ i hope you had the best weekend!

i’m still not sure how he managed to do that tbh, i don’t think it’s too easy to achieve😅 so momo is prob safe from that. wasabi is an orange cat, we can’t expect much from him in the braincell department. im glad baby momo is getting better too🫶🏻 we stan her

frfr, idk how people abandon their pets. i’m literally so attached to every animal ever. i see a stray cat at a park and i’ll think of them forever and worry about them too. and people who don’t spay their cats and expect them to be outdoors are such assholes. i’ve had to spay/neuter 10+ cats due to overpopulation in the last two years and i have four more females to go (excluding my own 8 out of 9 cats). it’s insane and so so so sad. the fact that they took off the collar is so stupid too. it really sucks. i cannot comprehend.

star, idk how you do it!!! living where you live in the kpop era must be so hard😭 like, we love the exposure but my bank doesn’t. i sometimes wish i lived somewhere with a lot of kpop concerts but kinda not at the same time bc i just know i couldn’t afford most of them and i’d get the worst case of fomo. i wish you the best at your choice of concerts😂

anddd i didn’t know you stanned nct dream or itzy! follow up: which groups do you stan and who are your biases? i lovveeeee nct! i don’t really stan any ggs aside from twice and new jeans but i’d so love to listen to more so any recs would be gr8!!!

frfr ive never been confident with myself (and ik that’s like my biggest problem bc confidence is so attractive). kpop beauty standards kinda took a toll on me especially after my surgery, grad school, depression worsening etc etc. but ive learned to make delulu my solulu and be like “minho would love me even if im not pretty or skinny” and all is well (what he wouldn’t love about me is that i only eat meat when i absolutely have to bc i hate it😂). i love skincare though so if you ever need to discuss skincare im ur girl🔥 aside from kpop, plushies & cats my ocd also manifests at compulsively buying hundreds of dollars of skincare products🔥

i love you my darling bb. i hope you have the best week!! i’ve never had cheese danishes therefore im so glad i virtually tried them with you💕

-🐈‍⬛

HIIIIIIIII BBYYYY I HOPE YOU HAD THE BEST MONDAY 🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶

Momo is doing so much better today (she’s currently napping on my freshly washed laundry❤️) so I think it might’ve been a weather thing! Hopefully her itching doesn’t come back but I’m still gonna look into bee pollen and see if it helps :’)

I KNOW I feel so very overprotective of every cat ive ever come across and it baffles me that people are just okay with abandoning their cats like that?? Especially after YEARS of owning them!??? How 😭 I don’t even like leaving momo alone for the day (despite her having an automatic feeder and a water fountain and cameras to watch her every move) so I don’t know how people abandon a cat indefinitely 💔 it’s fr so sad to me

HONESTLY it was so much easier to save money when there weren’t so many kpop things here but now we have kpop stores at every corner with v exclusive merch and preorder benefits and concerts every MONTH I can’t save money for the life of me 😭 I SWEARRRRR I buy some useless kpop thing at least once a week it’s so bad! I’m on a buying ban right now bc I just bought jhope’s on the street merch and that is ALLLL I am letting myself buy for the foreseeable future 🫡 hopefully

I LOOOOOOVE NCT OH MY GOSHHHHH okay list of my groups & biases (I might miss a few so bear w me):

Skz: JISUNGGGGG & Felix is my bias wrecker 🫶💖

Bts: jhope!!!!!!!!! Jin is my bias wrecker!

Nct 127: Yuta & Haechan! Wreckers always change but right now probs Taeyong (enlistment era starts today😔)

Nct Dream: I literally just started getting more serious about being into them despite listening to their music for a while LOL but deffffff Renjun & Haechan! 🫶

Wayv: Xiaojun!!!!

Shinee: Onew ofcccc 👼 and Taemin is my wrecker (he’s everybody’s wrecker tbh)

Ateez: Hongjoong & Seonghwa/Yeosang wreckers!

Seventeen: Hoshi & Minghao!!

Txt: Heuningkai 🫶

G-idle: Minnie! I need to get more into them but she’s defffff my bias oh my god she’s so pretty

P1harmony: I’ve also recently been more into them. Jiung!!

The Boyz: Changmin!

Ikon: Bobby!

Blackpink: MY GIRL ROSÉ 💞

Nmixx: Jiwoo & Lily!!!

Itzy: RYUJIN.

EXO: Minseok!!!!

Twice: Dahyun!

Blitzers: Chris!!

Aespa: Winter!

I also listen to Lsrfm and New Jeans but I don’t have biases (I’m more just a casual listener) but I think that’s everyone!! I LOOOOOOVE NCT THOUGH RAHHHHHHH when I tell you I have been crying alllllll day bc of Taeyong enlistment FUCKKKK IM SO SAD 😭😭😭 did you see Mark and Haechan tried to go to his send off and missed it because their flight was rerouted?? GODDDD I’m so sad for them 😭 I brought my Ty bby to today’s coffee run I miss him already 😔💔

PLEASE kpop beauty standards hit you in the face when you least expect it frfr like I always told myself I didn’t care how I looked in comparison and all of a sudden it was like oh nvmmmm 😀 It comes and goes in waves as of now and lately I’ve been trying to work more on just liking myself as a person (and being delulu because that’s the solution to everything) and I also find that’s the best way to combat it 🫶 ALSO SKINCARE YESSSSS I will absolutely bug you for skincare recs I have the worst habit of buying skincare just for the cute packaging LMFAOOOO I need to buckle down and buy actual cute stuff 😭

I love you so much bby have the best week!!!!! Here’s today’s pc I took just for you 🫶👼 I love u!!!!!

[jung-koook]

As a new army I'm fascinated to hear about people being fans from the start. And you've been here pre debut! I would love to hear your story. How did you find out about them? Was there as much info about trainee groups then as there is now? What drew you into them? Were you into k-pop before? What was your reaction to tae's face reveal? Thoughts on the debut album and performance? Were there translations easily available? Are you friends with any army from those days? Which was the first show you went to?I would love to know everything! It's incredible you've seen their whole journey in real time. (So many questions i apologise lol)

I dont know if this still happens so often but at the time they debuted it was quite common for us to know information about new groups even before they debuted. so in december 2012 i was on my laptop on a kpop forum and they were talking about bighit and their new group. I remember at that time they said that bangtan was going to have a lot more members. and there were already people sharing photos of the members, video of namjoon rapping and also their youtube channel. and thats when I got curious. at that time i was missing something totally different in kpop and i saw it in them and especially in namjoon (i didnt know about jeongguk when i found out about them). at that time bap had debuted with something very different from what they used to have in kpop but i didnt feel connected to them or curious about them, but with bangtan i got curious as soon as i heard about them.

i've been listening to kpop since i was a little kid. i have an aunt whos been a fan of tvxq since they debuted so she was the one who made me go deep into kpop. at that time the only group i really liked all the music was shinee. i even cut my hair like taemin in lucifer but i looked like a dog lmao. replay and lucifer is one of the few songs from that era that I still remember the full choreography 😆 but i think what made me like shinee besides their music was taemin and jonghyun. I thought he was so amazing and I still think he is one of the most amazing and talented artists we have.

ever since i found out about bangtan every video and stuff they posted had me so mesmerized and hypnotized. anything they posted I said, "they are amazing!!!" 😆 I think their debut album was amazing and managed to show very well what they came to do and show at that time. I think their first album was perfect! but since I always liked groups from big companies, it was very hard to see how different the treatment is for those who are debuting from a small company and those who are debuting from a big company. and also how hate came to bangtan since they debuted. it was something that was very hard to see. you've probably seen them talking about it and how it went for them right. at that time I had a need to read and wanted to defend bangtan from everything. now I'm not like that anymore but I still feel super protective of some things. even though I dont think I had to waste time on these things, sometimes its really hard to stop myself.

we didnt have so many translations at that time :/ here on tumblr we had bangtan tumblr from the beginning. they had another blog until they made bangtan tumblr. and soon a already had bts-trans. I'm not 100% sure but I think bts-trans was the first source of bangtan translations we had. and for good quality video content we only had one source which was _helloflora on twitter. and yes i made a lot of army friends since the beginning but most were all namjoon and yoongi biased. I think because they are older than me. my first concert was in 2014 in zepp tokyo which was their first showcase in japan.

dont worry!! I loved your questions and I loved sharing some more of my bangtan story with you ♡

[gaykey]

i'm really angry Please admit that you are SHINee ot4 You guys are really ridiculous Comments from your so-called colors key and taemin said the same thing But you guys, Taemin is still a cute baby and keeps sending his messages. Key is a bad guy. till today hyuna to there i really feel disgusted with you guys hyuna is a guest you want key don't talk to her it would be ridiculous if a friend turns away when something happens to her taemin fans always insult kibum Especially China and here

see, whilst i am unstanning and distancing myself from key, i still would never consider myself an ot4.

maybe that's controversial, idk, but it's because despite everythkng, shinee is always 5. i might not be a fan of all 5 members, but i can't erase what makes them shinee.

....that might not make sense but it does to me.

and anon, this is what makes me thing y'all are new here because i am not a taemin stan dhhxdjksms. you may have missed the part where key was my ult up until now, and i spent years supporting him and defending him.

and i haven't insulted him, just talked about his public actions.

[skzhocomments]

Broken hearts can heal - Choi Minho SHINee Fanfic - Chapter V - An oddly familiar feeling

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Chapter V - An oddly familiar feeling

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Life went on, and you found the world so cruel for moving at the same speed without Kibum walking on it. The days went by, and you were now 2 weeks away from your due date.

While Taemin and Jinki moved back to their apartments, Minho decided to still stay with you and take care of all your needs, especially with the due date so close. He didn't want you to be alone, in case anything happened, and the doctor advised you during the last visit to lay low anyway.

One day, though, that false sense of peace you started to get used to got abruptly interrupted by a knock on the door.

"Mari? It's good to see you! Come on in." Minho exclaimed, opening the door. You recognised the young girl from a picture Kibum showed you a while back. She was his cousin, and you vaguely remember speaking to her at the funeral, but the memory from those days was so blurry, you weren't even sure anymore.

Mari didn't seem so happy to see Minho or you, though. She looked pale, and she avoided eye contact at all costs, even when the three of you sat down at the table in the living room.

"What brings you here?" Minho smiled, trying to strike up a conversation.

"I... I don't even know... how I can tell you this. I've never felt more ashamed... and... if Kibum were here... he would've never forgiven this..." Mari started, looking down at her hands and fidgeting.

"Mari, what's wrong?" Minho frowned.

"It's okay. You can tell us..." You looked unsure at Minho, who also didn't know what was happening.

Mari hesitantly pulled out a small envelope from her bag and handed it to you, her hands shaking badly.

"I'm so sorry." She burst out crying. "I... I tried to talk them out of it, but... no one is listening to me... all they want is money... his money." She cried and cried, and as you opened the envelope, your heart stood still.

Eviction notice was written in red, bold letters at the top of the page.

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Eviction notice

This notice is sent to Miss Lee Da-Eun, referred to as "Tenant".

Property Address: XXXXXXXXX

The tenant is hereby notified that, in accordance with the laws, the tenant has 30 days to evacuate the property after receiving this notice.

THE NOTICE IS IN COMPLIANCE WITH THE LAWS. IF YOU FAIL TO COMPLY WITH THIS NOTICE LEGAL PROCEEDINGS WILL BE INSTITUTED TO RECOVER POSSESION OF THE PROPERTY.

Date of receival:

Tenant signature:

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"Mari... what is this supposed to mean?" Minho asked with a frown, almost snatching the paper out of your hands.

You started trembling. No way you were getting evicted out of the apartment 2 weeks before giving birth.

How are you even going to find a new place in two weeks?

"Da-Eun, please forgive me!" Mari cried and stood up, kneeling down on the floor in front of you. "Kibum hasn't updated his will... and since both his parents passed away, my dad is the next in line to his estate. He... didn't leave anything... for you... and my dad doesn't want you staying in here for free!" She cried hard.

Both you and Minho stood silent. You couldn't believe what you were hearing.

Of course Key didn't update his will. He didn't expect to pass away on the day he was to get married. No one did.

"What... kind of nonsense is this, Mari?" Your words almost stopped in your throat choking you, but you kept going. "I get it. We didn't get married, so I don't deserve anything. But his child?!" You asked, not even bothering to raise your voice. It was pointless to take your anger out on Mari, who was just caught in the middle of this. "Please stand up and sit back down in your chair." You stood up yourself and placed your hand on her shoulder.

"I tried to reason with my parents, Da-Eun. I told them... what would Kibum think? They don't care. They just want money." She sat in the chair and Minho gave her a tissue box. "They said they would let you stay here... if you paid them rent."

"Rent?" Minho asked, baffled. "Pay rent to live in her home? Seriously? How much?"

Mari hesitated "... they want 4000$ monthly, and they want you to sign a lease for at least 12 months if you choose to stay..."

"That's... wow." Was all you could say. You didn't ask for anything from Kibum's wealth, you didn't want his money. But still, being kicked out of the apartment you shared with him? You didn't see that one coming.

People are greedy, and they would kick you when you're down, apparently. Even people who were supposed to become your family.

"What if we contest the will?" Minho spoke.

"They thought about that as well, and Da-Eun will obviously make a claim, but my parents' lawyer assured them it's going to take a while until paternity is proven, it would be a low priority case, and... it will take years until you get something from them. I would sue them, though. And Da-Eun, if you need help... call me. I will do anything I can... and I'm really sorry."

You stayed seated at the table while Minho escorted Mari out, and your thoughts became big, scary dark clouds.

"Hey." Minho petted your back, bringing you out of your head.

"Yea?" You asked, your voice hoarse. It was hard to not start crying, but it felt like all you did these past weeks was sob. It was time to be strong. Stronger.

"That was... crazy." He affirmed, sitting down next to you and placing his arm on your shoulders, taking you into a side hug.

"Yea. Wow. I don't even know what to say..."

"I can't believe they'd do that to their own family."

"Well, we technically weren't family, so..."

"Just legally. You were getting married the same day he..." Minho stopped himself, not seemingly able to continue his thought.

"Yea. Anyways, not much to do about this."

"We'll sue them. Your child deserves Key's money."

"Fuck them. Right now I have to start looking for a place to move, I guess. I can't pay 4k per month just to stay here. I'm not even sure if I want to stay here. I feel suffocated, and it's so painful to have memories in every corner of this house." You chuckled bitterly. "Maybe getting evicted is a blessing in disguise." You joked, but it was obviously not true.

You had some money saved up, but how long would that last you without working? A year? 6 months? Even less?

And then what?

"Why don't you come live with me, then?" Minho asked, your head shooting in his direction. He seemed serious.

"What?"

"I have enough space for you two, my apartment's in a nice neighbourhood, and I'll be able to be around."

"You know I can't." You frowned.

"Why not? You would love the place. I'll be able to take care of the baby too..." He tilted his head, not understanding why you seemed so against the idea.

"Minho... I said it before... after the first doctor's appointment we've been to together. You don't have any obligations towards us."

"I do, though." He frowned this time. "Morally, I could never let you struggle alone with Kibum's kid, Da-Eun."

"But you also have your own life to worry about. What, are we going to live and raise the baby together? What if you meet someone?"

"Let's be serious, I haven't met someone in 32 years, do you think that's going to change?" Minho chuckled.

"You never know. It might." You shrugged. "What's going to happen then, will you kick us out to the curb as well? I can't go through that twice, and it's not fair on my baby, Minho." You looked straight into his eyes.

"I would never kick you out."

"That's what I thought this time around too. Still, my so-called 'family' did so in a heartbeat. You can't blame me for wanting to be careful. When you eventually meet someone, we'll just become a burden to you, and I never want my child to... experience that." You felt your eyes tear up, but still kept your composure.

"Da-Eun, what I'm going to say might be crazy..." Minho hesitated and let out a big breath you didn't know he was holding.

"... I'm listening." You urged him to continue.

"You said... that time, in the car... that you couldn't believe your son will grow up without a father..."

You nodded.

"I thought about it... a lot."

"And?" You asked, almost in a whisper. "What is there... to think about?"

"I just... I also can't believe that. And... I don't want that."

You tilted your head, not understanding where he was going with it.

"Da-Eun... what if we got married? Let me be your son's father." He proposed, looking into your eyes. You were in shock.

"What... do you mean, Minho? How could we..."

"That piece of paper would give you all the assurance you need that I would never kick you out, and that your son will always have someone there for him... Let's get married, and I will sign the birth certificate, too."

"I can't be that selfish..." You shook your head.

"No. You don't get it. I'd be the selfish one in this scenario, Da-Eun. I want... I want to raise him in Kibum's place. I want to give him the best life. Please... let me do that. Please." Minho begged, and you couldn't believe what you were hearing.

"If we do that, we won't be able to contest Kibum's will..." You contemplated for a bit.

"Hmm... then we won't contest it. It's not like we'd need any more money."

"What about your public image? Your career? What about what everyone will say about my child, about me, about you?"

"Fuck them. I don't care. I will protect that child at all costs and fight anyone for him."

"That's... when are we even supposed to get married, Minho? It's crazy." You shook your head again.

"I know. I know it's fucking crazy. I just... I want to adopt him, and I don't see any other way to do so without getting married to you, Da-Eun. I know I'm asking for a big thing here, and I don't want to overstep."

Minho was right. You could decide any day that you don't want this life and move away with your baby, never seeing anyone ever again. If you got married to Minho and allowed him to sign the birth certificate, he would have as many rights to your child as you did. If you ever got divorced, you would have to split custody of your child.

That was scary.

But on the other hand, growing up in this country without a father was a recipe for getting bullied to oblivion and going through a hard time, as much as you hated to admit it. Regardless of the reason, single mothers aren't respected, so your child wouldn't be either. Having Minho be his father would guarantee a good life in this aspect and especially financially wise. God knows how many shifts you worked to be able to afford just a year of university, and how many more you still needed to in order to go through your plans of not working while in Uni.

Well, those plans are also out the window as soon as your child comes. You can't raise a child alone and go to Uni, not working at all.

Marrying Minho would mean you wouldn't have to do it by yourself, at least. He would be your safety net.

"Look, Da-Eun, I'm sorry if I made you uncomfortable. We don't have to get married-"

"Don't backtrack now." You looked into his eyes with resolve, for you already made a decision. As long as your baby would have a guaranteed chance to grow up happy, you would marry anyone.

"What?" He looked back at you, confusion plastered all over his face.

"Minho, you either want this or you don't. There's no room for uncertainty. For the sake of my child, I will get married to you, and I will let you be his father. But that means you can't doubt this decision. Ever. And I won't, either."

"Okay... okay!" He stood up and started pacing around the room. "Okay, let's get married. Tomorrow."

"Tomorrow? How are you even going to..."

"Tomorrow." Minho confirmed, then left the house in a rush.

~

Next day came way sooner than expected, and you woke up with a big headache. Minho informed Taemin and Jinki of your decision, so they offered to come get you while Minho brought his parents, all of them going to act as witnesses in the City Hall when you sign your marriage papers.

Everything felt oddly familiar to last time, but you didn't feel nervous, or excited. You didn't feel anything. You didn't bother going to get your hair and make-up done. You simply put on some foundation to hide your tiredness and topped the look with a nude lipstick. You let your hair down, only brushing it, and you weren't sure what to wear. You dreaded opening your closet and seeing the dress you wore almost two months ago when you were supposed to marry Kibum. Seeing it brought back all the 'what could've been's.

You put on a casual long white dress, and a coat to shelter you from the bad January weather.

Taemin and Jinki showed up, and as usual, Taemin just showered you in compliments as soon as he saw you. Then, you got in the car, but contrary to last time, you didn't sing anything. The boys joked around a bit, but you couldn't focus on them. You were lost in thought.

Is this really the best decision? You frowned, thoughts clouded by doubts.

What if anything happened to Minho this time? Maybe you were cursed or something.

Maybe he'd get into an accident too.

Maybe you were destined to raise your child alone and you just didn't get the hint the first time around.

Of course, those thoughts were stupid, and nothing happened. He and his parents were already there when you arrived. He introduced you to them and his mother hugged you tightly and gave you a beautiful flower bouquet made for a bride. His father welcomed you into the family and told you how excited he was to become a grandfather. You wondered if that's how parents' love feels like.

It was surprising that Minho managed to get an appointment here in less than a day. You were guided to a private room and the clerk handed you some papers to sign, which you did.

"You may now kiss." He said, and Minho cupped your cheeks. You closed your eyes as you saw his face coming closer, and just before your lips touched, he placed his thumb on your lips and kissed it instead. To everyone, it looked like you two kissed.

But you didn't.

Still, the boys and his parents applauded and congratulated you.

It hurt.

You were supposed to be married to Kibum by now.

You didn't even get the chance to get to this point with him.

Am I doing the right thing? You wondered again, but shook the thoughts away and smiled as Minho placed a wedding ring made of gold on your finger.

You took a picture together, and you smiled.

All you wanted to do was cry.

Still, you smiled for the picture, posed happily with his family, your family now, hugged the two other men and tried not to think.

Thankfully, Minho's parents had a prior appointment, and you weren't forced to go to lunch with them. Instead, you got home and started packing.

You moved out of Kibum's apartment that same day.

---

Chapter IV / Chapter VI

[kmjcngins1]

𝕤𝕚𝕟𝕟𝕖𝕣 → 𝒕𝒂𝒆𝒌𝒂𝒊.

Jongin had been missing time like this with his husband more than anything lately. Sure, they’d been making up for it, but it’d often just be quickies in the morning or at night after they put their daughter to bed so Jongin just..craved more. It’d reached a point where he couldn’t handle it himself anymore so after putting Hyein down for her nap, which would last at least a couple of hours, he grabbed her monitor and carried it into the bathroom before whipping his phone out and texting Taemin to come join him with a smirk on his face. All he wanted right now was just..time with Taemin. Time they hadn’t had lately due to Taemin’s promotions and various schedules and Jongin taking care of his own work as well as their family and daughter. He was so damn happy getting to see his husband perform with SHINee since he knew just how much he’d been missing them and missing performing in general so he would never complain about any time Taemin spent away from home on schedules especially since Jongin often went with him. But, he was bound and determined to make up for it with this little shower and whatever happened afterwards, that was for damn sure. Turning on the monitor and double checking that Hyein was still soundly asleep, Jongin slipped off the clothes he’d slept in the night before and stepped into the shower and turned it on, letting the nice, warm water wash over his skin and easing any tension he had in his muscles. All he needed right now was the man he loved in here with him so he could finally get his hands on the man and show him just how much he missed him. @tcemint​

[guangchuans]

hey adam what did you think of the metamorph concert? oh funny you should ask! here :3

hi guys. i’ll pretend i know staging directing and anything more about music than “i like sounds” here 👍

first, critique:

the concert felt and was rather short. i understand why, but it was still sad to had it end so soon lol

my personal opinion here: i wish we got more older songs other than the iconic ones, but again, this is the guilty album concert, so i understand

he really did not do well on “not over you” and i’m glad he acknowledged it too, not just moving past a subpar performance

“want” also wasn’t the nicest imo? he sang that weirdly low, or at least that’s what i heard

maybe again, just my audio, but it really didn’t sound as if he actually Sung “advice” lol

this one i’ve said before but honestly, even taemin can’t do “move” now - the dance i mean. maybe it was the clothing here though bc on the show with akmu it was great. but yeah the red cloth outfit didn’t pair well with “move” imo and made the key hip movement look messy

this is not about taemin; the beyond live style of concert kind of deprived us of actual cinematography of it :/ like tell me why strings and black rose looked so much better on random fancams from 7 rows behind than… on the actual screen lol

general commentary:

he was so nervous. really. like i get why, again, i understand it all, and even that didn’t stop him from delivering some absolutely delicious stages, but ohhh brother he was nervous

why was the audience so. dead. like why did you hype up my man when he did good huh. i have to do everything in this house myself next time i’ll be the hype man nr 1

this is my lukewarm take: i didn’t enjoy the “criminal” rock version that much. it was very boring? the chord progression of the guitar sounded too much like a sample without much twist, and there were better ways to incorporate rock into that song imo

i think overall the ratio of lip sync to backing track to no backing track was reasonable and i do like that he didn’t try to lip sync much, just letting everyone see “yeah this is playback”

and now <3 praise and what i enjoyed <3

even though i really don’t like “the rizzness”, that opening was fucking insane. imagine starting a concert while hanging upside down. and singing while it. wow!

all the ment segments were so precious. it was clear he missed the audience for his solo stuff too. i know he’s been touring with shinee for half a year now and all but i imagine it’s different to know that these people came here only for you, you know? the interactions were cute and it was just… well it’s good to see the both sides of lee taemin :)

as i mentioned, the ratio of supported vocals to raw vocals was reasonable, but when he did actually sing… oh lee taemin. this is obviously a biased opinion because i genuinely love his voice, it was what made me fall in love with him as an artist in the first place. notable mentions of vocals imo:

“heaven” was perfectly delivered and a feast as always. the bridge in “heaven” is probably my top 5 taemin bridges, so it’s not surprising, but the energy on the stage while he performs that is So Good. MWAH

“light” was fun! i was dancing along, the playing with the dancers choreo is entertaining to watch and it’s a good time over all

after the flop of “not over you” he payed back with both “night away” and “blue” to me. “night away” especially, it felt so warm and so… just lovely. he nailed that

even though i don’t particularly enjoy “black rose” i can’t deny, it was so good. the choreo is always captivating and he sung it well

“door” … where do i even start. “door” is one of my favourite taemin songs of all time, and to see it executed in such a bold way was absolutely incredible and so enthralling, i felt enchanted listening to each new note and line. genuinely an amazing experience

some miscellaneous thoughts that i don’t know where to place:

i loved “impressionable,” the energy was so right for it, especially, well the D2 unzipped pants :)

the “strings” choreo is so sensual and sexy and yet in this classic taemin style of subtlety about it, it’s so nice to watch, to see him get lost in the pain/pleasure the song talks about. and there is almost, a grown aspect to it now, the aspect of like fully owning his body and what he does with it. very nice

“she loves me she loves me not” was cute, the choreography was very simple but still nice to look at, and i loved the energy on stage of it. the girl gang TM smiling and all :) good time!

rearrangements/special concert versions of songs:

as i mentioned above, i have lukewarm feelings about “criminal,” i didn’t dislike it, but it could have been better

LOVED the whole “danger” stage so much as well as “famous,” to me they’re like two sides of the same coin tbh. and something about both of them being in the same section as want mmm…

i wish i didn’t have to talk about “guilty” but i think i have to mention “guilty” too. the staging was absolutely gorgeous, the orchestral pieces at the beginning and before the bridge, the change in choreo of the dancers as if ensnaring him… it was delicious! such a good stage!

a separate section for the encore because i feel like it deserves it:

i don’t think it’s too untoward to think of jonghyun’s passing when it came to the date of the concert. i saw a few other mentions of it too, so i know i’m not alone in this belief. and this is not to suggest it was somehow planned this way with this date in mind, but rather, soemthing to just keep in the back of your head, i guess?

the whole encore was magical. opening the concert back up with “idea”, the orchestral version nonetheless, and staging that mixed both the hell and heaven aspects of the concept (light blue iridescent suit + dark stage lighting and fire) was delicious to witness and a great way to get the energy in the audience back up again

i don’t think i can talk much about what “pansy” means to me as a song without crying. maybe it’s stupid, because that’s exactly what the song was meant to do, but the fact that taemin co-wrote it too just… makes it so special :( and to know what… the sentiment of the song is probably even doubled now, to know that he came back from the enlistment, because so many fans kept loving him and his music and we stayed by his side even when he wasn’t there. this is just me being sappy i know but to hear “pansy” again made my heart sing

“i think it’s love” is a beautiful song and he sung it beautifully. it was a great encore choice, just an overall masterpiece

finishing the concert with “identity” of all his songs, on a concert named metamorph after the idea of metamorphosis, the imagery of cocoons and blooming and growth seen throughout the concert, with, once again, the significance of the date… it meant so much. it means so much. it was genuinely a moving performance, one that hooks you in and keeps you there, not letting you go. the emotion the execution the meaning behind it all… it just felt right, for that song to close the concert

CLOSING THOUGHTS

i’ve seen every taemin concert, save for the beyond live one in 2021, and this one fits into the theme beautifully. it’s a comeback, it’s a reminder that he’s still here, that he is Back, and he is back for good! as he said in one fan sign, this will go on for as long as he wants to and he will be the one to put the stop to it. i’m grateful for everything taemin did musically this year and i can’t wait to see him grow even more, as an artist and as a person. love you! if anyone read this whole thing leave me an 🍎 emoji in the replies hah <3

[blessyouhawkeye]

I love SHINee but I'm a fairly recent Shawol and I know fuck all about the rest of SuperM, EXO, NCT...... Would you be up for a general explanation/rant/history about SuperM, who is in it, and the upcoming member change? If not, feel free to ignore this!

omg welcome to shawolism! i'd be so happy to do a rundown on superm for you i have unfortunately been around for the entirety of this nonsense.

in mid 2019, sm announced that they'd debuting superm, what they marketed as "the avengers of kpop". the lineup was taemin, exo's kai and baekhyun, and nct's mark, taeyong, ten, and lucas. the main intent of the group was to break into the american market, because for all of sm's genius in the east asian market sm has mostly failed at marketing to a broad western audience. when the group was first announced, literally no one was happy about it. taemin had already released two mini albums with full promotions that year, and mark and taeyong are famously overworked. on the other end of the spectrum, exo had been ignored by the company so their fans were upset kai and baekhyun were being put in a new group instead of having a comeback with exo. nevertheless, superm debuted with their song jopping that october, which has become infamous because of how ridiculous the lyrics are. (when it was released everyone hated it because like. seriously? this is what the exo comeback has been pushed back for? but with the benefit of hindsight we all now know it was camp. stream jopping.)

superm only really promoted heavily from 2019-2020, mostly due to the pandemic and then baekhyun and taemin enlisting at the beginning of 2021. but in early 2022, information about nct's lucas's dating history came to light. the controversy is long and extensive, but in essence many women came forward (with truly just So Much proof) that he was manipulative and sexually inappropriate with past girlfriends, many of which he was dating at the same time and some of whom were nct fans. although sm hasn't made a statement about lucas since then, he hasn't promoted with nct at all in the past year and was left out of the the subunit wayv's (which he had been a fixed member of) recent comeback and promotions.

because of all that, plus the fact that taemin and baekhyun aren't even back from the military yet, everyone just assumed superm wouldn't have a comeback for a good long while, if at all. however sm loves to indulge in fuckery, and at the end of the company's end of year concert last week they teased that superm would be coming back in 2023. literally no one is happy about this. it seems like taemin and baekhyun will be releasing music with superm after they return from the military before they do with shinee or exo, which is deeply annoying, and the nct guys are still being seriously overworked (mark especially, that kid needs a vacation so bad).

the lineup change is all speculation for now, though i am sooo sure that lucas is Not going to be a part of the comeback, if there's one thing sm is going to do it's kick people out. in the teaser for superm, the video had the official colours of shinee/exo/nct come together to create the superm logo, with the addition of the colour red, which is the group tvxq's official colour. it's very likely a tvxq member will be joining superm, probably u-know because there were already rumours before the teaser that he'd be joining the group. all in all i think him joining will be nothing but a win because lucas was objectively not a good performer (he's called "dozen" on twitter because he dozen rap he dozen sing he dozen dance he dozen do anything lmao).

so yeah. that's superm. their music is pretty hit or miss, but i'd recommend their songs i can't stand the rain and tiger inside, those ones are bops. as a shawol and exo-l it's mostly just a general annoyance, but taemin does slay in every superm performance so at least there's a silver lining. hope this helped!

[cassandra5hawol]

This is my very first text reaction. I’m sorry if it’s horrible 🤣

Reaction for Jeff Satur - “Black Tie” M/V

Video link: https://youtu.be/A_sC4V-Kpi4?si=9jhhzFs3-OGZEPGu

At this point I am only 0:09 into the video and the beat has caught my attention so hard ! It reminds me of music I used to listen to as a child ! Kinda spooky, kinda dark. I love it ! Like a more poppy version of a Psyclon Nine song.

I am really digging this black and white over the video so far. It adds to the spooky illusion I’m currently getting (at the point I’m 0:34 into the video).

Shit as soon as I spoke the black and white overlay has disappeared 🤣

I’m really for all of these visuals happening in this video. Especially Jeff’s hair !

(1:30) what the heck is happening right now 🤣 I’m so intrigued by whatever it is.

(2:04) I shouldn’t be shocked but I am ! I was not expecting so much English in a version of the song doesn’t specify it ! I love that !

(2:15) a new outfit has appeared into the video ! Jeff in red ! The overall look of it (since I’m a shawol first) reminds me of TaeMin (SHINee) holy water outfit on the stage which intrigues me even more.

(2:26) WHOA WHOA WAIT !! It’s raining buckets on him now ! What a twist !

(2:41) I just saw people doing choreography for the first time in the video (I may have been oblivious to it before as I was focusing mostly on Jeff’s actions and not people in the background)

I wonder if this song will have any choreography to it when it is performed live or if it will be a stage that shows us all so much emotion through our bodies. I was really late in seeing it before in the video. I’m almost tempted to watch it again just to see how much of background I really did miss out on 🤣

This was a great video overall which we all knew would happen already based on Jeff’s performances and his musical talent !

[what-if-nct]

OMG 2NE1 AND UKISS- I feel old even though I'm 19. I know a lot of gen 2 and gen 3 groups, but they aren't my top groups I've listen to but heard others talking about it during the time it was popular. My older sister is into K-pop and she's about 29 now. She stopped listening to them around 2017-2018. She loved 2NE1 and SHINee. Also, there was a group that was called Brown Eyed Girls and Orange Caramel...? Also there were Girls Generation, Wonder Girls, B.A.P (I had to research bunny kpop group because I remembered the logo but not the name lmao), Super Junior, TVXQ, SHINHWA, BIGBANG and many more that I forgotten from my small brain. The newest group she got into was Red Velvet. She doesn't really like newer gen 3 and gen 4, especially with how young the members are. She prefers 1998-1999 and before. She also has a funny sense of humour about it.

"If there are members that aren't born in the same century as WW1 and WW2, then I won't listen to them. This was her reaction to when she saw a K-pop idol born in 2000 💀 (Now imagine an idol born in 2008)

Oh yeah she does listen to NCT, but only the 127 unit. Her bias was Jonghyun and for NCT it's Taeil and Taeyong.

"If there are member that aren't born in the same century as ww1 and ww2 then I wont listen to them" I love that so much. I use to feel that way like you have to be born in the 1900s. It's why I took a while to get into dream at least till the 2000s babies were 19. And the fact so many kids are born in 2004 and 2005 like that just happened you're suppose to be one, you're just a baby. But also I remember being a kpop fan when I was 16 and 17 and when idols were my age like Taemin he's only like two weeks older then me and he debuted when he was 14 same with Dongho from UKISS he's a year younger then me and Taemin and he debuted the same year Taemin did. So because I remember how it was and that it's never changed I've come around and can listen to newer kpop groups. But I still feel like new kpop groups need a visual kei phase and a random metallics phase. so many 2009 - 2012 groups wore so much metallic they looked like dancing aluminum foil. I miss those days. I miss 4minute, Teen Top and Ukiss the most of all.

[neowinestainedress]

hii honey! i missed you and your long asks so much alskjs. i always feel bad when you stay up late for me but it also makes me so happy cause what do you mean you couldn’t stop reading?

don’t worry about it i really love writing this long asks cause i need you to feel appreciated because of your amazing writing i seriously mean it and i won’t stop saying it!!

being her would solve all of my problems (even for just one day, just the time to transfer the money, taylor, please)

exactlyyy like i only need a couple of hours as her so i can transfer me SOME of her money (not even half of her fortune i swear)

re-reading this now is so funny cause he really thought he was a genius for that adsjldslk

he really thought he did something 😭 and this reminded me of a saying/meme?/phrase we have in spanish that it’s the opposite of “you ate” which literally translates to “i wanted to inform you that you did not actually eat, in fact, you fasted, you starved yourself, your job was to kill it and you fixed it, you did not serve but you removed the plate” idk why but it is soo funny to me especially because the boy who created this had an argentinian accent and that makes it sound so much more funny (to me at least)

you going insane over him is such a mood 😔

no but did you see the clip from the fan meeting?? i am still losing my mind over it like he’s so insane for it….. (https://x.com/hyeokfs/status/1819689552992420004?s=46&t=pSPb58cQQjSKbyQAmjRu7w)

THIS! but also I was good, they didn’t have a last kiss

THANK GOD or i wouldn’t be alive rn

he’s such a loser and he has been since day one, i love when i write him like this

and i LOVE YOU for writing him like that

i didn’t know this song but you’re right this IS his song omg (and it’s so good)

IM BEGGING YOU you NEED to listen to taemin i swear he is so good i’ve been obsessed with him for years when i tell you he was my only kpop artist in my 2020 spotify wrapped i DO NOT play about him. (never gonna dance again pt. 2 changed my life forever)

renjun was my favorite character to write i need him as a best friend (special mention to yeri, my other evil baby)

yes they were like the best characters ever because they were super funny my #bestfriends

PART 2

“all i do is sit and think about you,” YOU GOT HIS ASS

no but you know what’s crazier? haechan actually recommended this song back in 2019 sjdhsjxjsk

WAIT but why does crazier fits them so well especially the start “I'd never gone with the wind, just let it flow, let it take me where it wants to go,'Til you opened the door And there's so much more, I'd never seen it before.I was trying to fly, but I couldn't find wings, but you came along and you changed everything” and “Baby, you showed me what living is for, I don't wanna hide anymore.”

STOP they are so cute and the fact that crazier fits them so well i love them so muchhh my comfort couple<3

the way I was tempted to put “so high school” in the playlist…

you should have!! it fits them soooo well

they truly are the perfect example of “dumb and dumber” but i loved writing them like this. it could’ve been a mess if they dragged it for too long or if I made it end up in unnecessary angst but i’m pretty sure i wrote the right amount of tension and “not knowing what we are” without making a mess.

YES your writing was perfect cause you “dragged” it long enough to be fun and interesting it was the perfect length to develop and show their relationship. And the "not knowing what we are without making a mess" part SO TRUE

he IS an icon and he IS the moment

we fawking miss you renjun 😭☹️😔😞😢💔

perhaps you could share…

you see, i kinda want him only for me… and it’s so crazy because i’ve been a fan of nct (haechan biased) since 2017 and i’ve always found him soo pretty and handsome but lately i look at him and he literally gets even more pretty everyday this is NOT fair i want him so bad

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE TELL ME WHAT YOU THINK I NEED TO KNOW IF AT LEAST ONE PERSON GOT IT OR I’LL GO INSANE

WERE YOU HINTING #NOREN??? i could feel the tension between them….

i fear this were the war flashback from the sour universe (tbh hits different too, but i don’t know if you read that) and now you fear when you can smell the angst around the corner lmao

the other day i was kinda sad cause i found some old stuff and i reread sour and omgg why do have to be such a good writer i was about to throw up and then kill myself because of the anger and sadness and about hits different i read the first part (cause i wasn’t active here when you published the second part) so i just need to finish the review cause i started it back then but first i need to reread it cause i don’t remember too much and i think i will read it tonight so expect to see my review of the first part soon!!! (UPDATE of when i'm editing this: i already read the first part i just need to finish the review and let me tell you one thing... YOU ARE FUCKING CRZY REBS)

i killed you 5 times already 😔

that’s when you know you’re a good writer… if i don’t want to kill myself it means your story didn’t make me feel anything

does it show this is a kink of mine? (what is the non-sexual term for kink please i don’t know)

SJDHSJXSJ YOU’RE SO REAL BECAUSE I LITERALLY LOVE THAT TOO (i don’t know how to call it maybe a liking??)

THANK GOD THEY’RE A CONSTAST STAR IN EACH OTHER’S HEART THO

OMG YES YOU’RE SO RIGHT

I’m happy you liked this cause i wasn’t sure of putting this part til like the day before i posted it jajsoasioa i know people don’t usually go crazy for this but i HAD TO make a call back to what inspired this story.

no because i always love when you include lyrics of the songs that inspired the story like in sour but i wasn’t expecting it here so this surprised me and i loved it!!! you made the correct decision

right? when they’re not at each other’s throat they work too well to not be an iconic duo, the music industry needs them. i also love the idea of that being the time where they can be more competitive, you know? i don’t know why i didn’t write that but she still writes songs so you can imagine their writing sessions didn’t change much.

i think the idea of them not losing their competitive side is so important and cute to see cause that’s how they were and how they met and how their story started so them still competing in a healthy and fun way is such a smart and lovely thing to keep!

YOU COULD’VE WAITED FOR THE REVIEW NOW I FEEL SO BAD 😭 but you know i love your comments they make me so, so happy so a bigger thank you for writing all of this when you should’ve been asleep!

noo don’t worry about it i really mean it when i say i enjoy your stories they make me feel so many things and they are super fun so they are definitely worth to stay until late🩷

honey thank YOU for sending that to me. i always wanted to write an academic rivals to lovers and you gave me the chance to write this. and i’m happy you’re happy with how i wrote it cause even if it wasn’t a request i’m always so nervous about everything i write lol. yeah adding angst would’ve been useless and i love adding angst but this time just wasn’t right. i really loved writing this so reading all of this makes me SOOOO happy i genuinely can’t explain it (if it makes you feel better i also think about all of them a lot, i hope renjun and jeno didn’t kill each other yet)  

omg i also love the academics to rivals to lovers (i love the enemies to lovers trope so anything similar/related i will eat it up). nono and i can’t say it enough but i really do love your writing every time i see a new update from you i get soooo happy!!! also pray for jeno 😔🙏🏼

tbh i don’t have many good news unfortunately BUT i saw taylor live twice!!! this is literally the only highlight of my year lol because i haven’t been very lucky when it comes to work (i basically only work for free every now and then for “experience” so yeah 💀) or my love life. what about you?

oh noo :( wishing things to get better for you for the second half of the year<3 and omgg two times i’m so happy for you!!! i also saw taylor last year but i had to travel to argentina (i don’t remember if i had said it before but i’m from chile) i had SO much fun i was truly happy to see her finally after waiting for more than 12 years and honestly my show was the best one (at that time) since she sang a remix for the first time (is it over now + out of the woods) and also travis was there so she changed the lyrics to karma is the guy on the chiefs coming straight home to me. the screams for that part were INSANE and i loved every second of the concert i miss her so bad and i wish she would come to chile too:(

and about my life… here’s a little summary:

i broke up with the guy i told you about (cause i liked him but not as much as he liked me so i felt like it was unfair for him)

my thesis traumatized me so bad cause my guide teacher left me ALONE i asked him to reunite several times and he never replied so i literally did it all by myself without any revision until i finished it

i defended my thesis so i officially graduated back in february

in january i sprained my ankle SO bad that i couldn’t walk for almost two months so i spent my birthday in bed and i had to defend my thesis sitting sjdjsk

i no longer have a best friend. in fact, today is her birthday and i decided that i would wish her a happy birthday and it will also be the last time she hears from me so i’ve been kinda bummed because of that (since last year actually but that’s a long story…)

i’m going to the dream show 3 in 30 more days so i’m so excited since i bought vip + soundcheck!!

i never stopped working at the place i did my last internship so they hired me but they’re underpaying me (they’re paying me about €590… so yeah that also has me a little bit sad? tired? bored?) but i know it is my first job and lots of my friend haven’t even found a job since we graduated but idk i think it's too little for the amount of work and do + one girl who doesn't know anything earns more than twice than me just because she's friends with our superior

since i have a job i will have to call in sick the day before the dream concert so guess they’ll pay me even less this month because i will miss 3 days 😭

i’m going to see a.c.e and i bought a fan sign so i’m also super excited about that (but not my wallet rip) !!!

my graduation ceremony is in two more weeks so i’m also happy about it since i'm graduating with honors and my outfit is arriving tomorrow (and i bought the sabrina shoes? the ankle ones so pray that i don’t trip and embarrass myself)

and i think that’s all about my life sorry for the tmi about everything 😭

it’s alright i loved the ones you wrote here. also i might have to hire you for the future fics cause you think of so many good and fitting songs, they’re always perfect. sometimes i struggle and i always end up with the same ones

haha is my very useless talent but i get you sometimes i end up thinking of the same one the whole time i read a story

also while i was reading your answer i realized i had so many grammar mistakes that’s so embarrassing i should not write english texts when it’s so late and i’m sleepy so i apologize for that (it is literally 2:50 am right now) 😭

and i thinks that’s all for now, have an amazing week rebs, ily, read you very soon (as i said, by the time i edited this i already finished reading hits different part one and i'm sorry in advance...)🩷

and i will never stop thanking you!!

exactlyyy like i only need a couple of hours as her so i can transfer me SOME of her money (not even half of her fortune i swear)

no for real, i don’t need much, she probably won’t even notice something is gone

he really thought he did something 😭 and this reminded me of a saying/meme?/phrase we have in spanish that it’s the opposite of “you ate” which literally translates to “i wanted to inform you that you did not actually eat, in fact, you fasted, you starved yourself, your job was to kill it and you fixed it, you did not serve but you removed the plate” idk why but it is soo funny to me especially because the boy who created this had an argentinian accent and that makes it sound so much more funny (to me at least)

I FOUND THE VIDEO AND I’M SCREAMING i will start using this from now on

no but did you see the clip from the fan meeting?? i am still losing my mind over it like he’s so insane for it….. (https://x.com/hyeokfs/status/1819689552992420004?s=46&t=pSPb58cQQjSKbyQAmjRu7w)

he looked unreal every video that would pop up in my tl would make me want to jump off a cliff

and i LOVE YOU for writing him like that

we came a long way from sour!haechan!!! (i still remember when someone asked me if i would ever write him "not like an asshole" lmaoooo)

IM BEGGING YOU you NEED to listen to taemin i swear he is so good i’ve been obsessed with him for years when i tell you he was my only kpop artist in my 2020 spotify wrapped i DO NOT play about him. (never gonna dance again pt. 2 changed my life forever)

taemin’s like that one idol i don’t stan but love, yk? i know some of his songs, and i know he’s such a good performer but i never really got into his music. i will listen to it then!!!

PART 2

no but you know what’s crazier? haechan actually recommended this song back in 2019 sjdhsjxjsk

I DIDN’T REMEMBER IT OMG SMALSKAL

STOP they are so cute and the fact that crazier fits them so well i love them so muchhh my comfort couple<3

they really are... i will miss them a lot

the way I was tempted to put “so high school” in the playlist… you should have!! it fits them soooo well

i feel like i already put too much taylor swift everywhere, i don’t know for how long nctzens can tolerate this

YES your writing was perfect cause you “dragged” it long enough to be fun and interesting it was the perfect length to develop and show their relationship. And the "not knowing what we are without making a mess" part SO TRUE

this makes me happy cause these dynamics are always tricky to write so i’m glad i didn’t make a mess

we fawking miss you renjun 😭☹️😔😞😢💔

i hope he’s doing okay and i wish the worst suffering on everyone who caused him pain

you see, i kinda want him only for me… and it’s so crazy because i’ve been a fan of nct (haechan biased) since 2017 and i’ve always found him soo pretty and handsome but lately i look at him and he literally gets even more pretty everyday this is NOT fair i want him so bad

no but fr he gets prettier each day, what does he drink and eat and he doesn’t even sleep or rest how is this fair

WERE YOU HINTING #NOREN??? i could feel the tension between them….

YES I WAS AJKSIOSA my babies

the other day i was kinda sad cause i found some old stuff and i reread sour and omgg why do have to be such a good writer i was about to throw up and then kill myself because of the anger and sadness and about hits different i read the first part (cause i wasn’t active here when you published the second part) so i just need to finish the review cause i started it back then but first i need to reread it cause i don’t remember too much and i think i will read it tonight so expect to see my review of the first part soon!!! (UPDATE of when i'm editing this: i already read the first part i just need to finish the review and let me tell you one thing... YOU ARE FUCKING CRZY REBS)

i’m honestly surprised i didn’t receive death threats in the asks after the sour series cause NOBODY was happy about anything in that story lmao. the second part was a mess cause tumblr sabotaged the post lmao you probably wouldn’t have seen it anyway. WHY AT NIGHT OMG STOPPPPP i don’t care you love my stories so much GET YOUR WELL DESERVED SLEEP (oh okay i hope you didn’t stay up to finish the review...)

that’s when you know you’re a good writer… if i don’t want to kill myself it means your story didn’t make me feel anything

right, i like this point of view

SJDHSJXSJ YOU’RE SO REAL BECAUSE I LITERALLY LOVE THAT TOO (i don’t know how to call it maybe a liking??)

i thought about and i think it’s probably just a soft spot, right? well i love that shit if somebody doesn’t do it for me RIGHT NOW i will die

no because i always love when you include lyrics of the songs that inspired the story like in sour but i wasn’t expecting it here so this surprised me and i loved it!!! you made the correct decision

i ate and left no crumbs (unlike donghyuck)

i think the idea of them not losing their competitive side is so important and cute to see cause that’s how they were and how they met and how their story started so them still competing in a healthy and fun way is such a smart and lovely thing to keep!

as a lover of this trope, i hate when they just stop, when it’s enemies to lovers it makes a bit more sense but if they have a certain personality and ARE competitive that’s not going to go away babe, just make it healthy and you’re done.

noo don’t worry about it i really mean it when i say i enjoy your stories they make me feel so many things and they are super fun so they are definitely worth to stay until late🩷

crying, shaking, throwing up, i love you

omg i also love the academics to rivals to lovers (i love the enemies to lovers trope so anything similar/related i will eat it up). nono and i can’t say it enough but i really do love your writing every time i see a new update from you i get soooo happy!!! also pray for jeno 😔🙏🏼

iloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyou

oh noo :( wishing things to get better for you for the second half of the year<3 and omgg two times i’m so happy for you!!! i also saw taylor last year but i had to travel to argentina (i don’t remember if i had said it before but i’m from chile) i had SO much fun i was truly happy to see her finally after waiting for more than 12 years and honestly my show was the best one (at that time) since she sang a remix for the first time (is it over now + out of the woods) and also travis was there so she changed the lyrics to karma is the guy on the chiefs coming straight home to me. the screams for that part were INSANE and i loved every second of the concert i miss her so bad and i wish she would come to chile too:(

thank you, i hope that too! yeah you told me you’re from chile! same, the last time she came here was 13 years ago and this was my first time so i was so happy. i also was so lucky cause the second date she wore my favorite outfits and i was on the floor so i could see her from up close. i got “the one x wonderland” and “I almost do x the moment I knew” and then “red x mr perfectly fine” and “getaway car x out of the woods” (can’t believe we’re somehow twins of a surprise song, this is such a nice coincidence). i hope that for you, but i feel that she saw how many international fans there are and how much we love her so i feel she will add more cities next time!

i broke up with the guy i told you about (cause i liked him but not as much as he liked me so i felt like it was unfair for him)

yeah i remember about him. tbh it’s better this way, you were honest and that’s all that matters

my thesis traumatized me so bad cause my guide teacher left me ALONE i asked him to reunite several times and he never replied so i literally did it all by myself without any revision until i finished it i defended my thesis so i officially graduated back in february

omg not us being twins even in this cause mine did that same!! love to see it (i hope they both choke). also i don’t know how it works there but here they get paid for it, i had to pay a tax of 600€ just to do everything on my own. but you did it! i’m so so happy for you!!! what did you graduate into? (if you want to tell me ofc)

in january i sprained my ankle SO bad that i couldn’t walk for almost two months so i spent my birthday in bed and i had to defend my thesis sitting sjdjsk

omg how did you do it? are you alright now or do you still have check-ups to do?

i no longer have a best friend. in fact, today is her birthday and i decided that i would wish her a happy birthday and it will also be the last time she hears from me so i’ve been kinda bummed because of that (since last year actually but that’s a long story…)

were you friends for a long time? friendship break-ups are the worst, i’ve been there a few times, so i can imagine how you feel. did she reply? (if you want to rant, I’m here)

i’m going to the dream show 3 in 30 more days so i’m so excited since i bought vip + soundcheck!!

IF YOU DON’T COME HERE AND TELL ME EVERYTHING I WILL HAUNT YOU DOWN!!! LIKE VIP AND SOUNDCHEK!!! LET’S GO (but also, if i didn’t miss new updates, renjun won’t be there, right? why can’t you never see the 7 of them?😭😭😭)

i never stopped working at the place i did my last internship so they hired me but they’re underpaying me (they’re paying me about €590… so yeah that also has me a little bit sad? tired? bored?) but i know it is my first job and lots of my friend haven’t even found a job since we graduated but idk i think it's too little for the amount of work and do + one girl who doesn't know anything earns more than twice than me just because she's friends with our superior

i hate this world so much, 590 is nothing, like you can’t survive on your own. and the fact that you work more and get paid less than someone who doesn’t know how to do her job drives me insane. i hope you can find something better soon or that at least they raise your pay

since i have a job i will have to call in sick the day before the dream concert so guess they’ll pay me even less this month because i will miss 3 days 😭

it’s worth it, this time it’s worth everything. fuck the job (your wallet doesn’t agree but i don’t care rn)

i’m going to see a.c.e and i bought a fan sign so i’m also super excited about that (but not my wallet rip) !!!

YAS! you’re living your best life i’m so happy for you (i don’t know anything about them but if you want to and let me know how it was, i would love to know)

my graduation ceremony is in two more weeks so i’m also happy about it since i'm graduating with honors and my outfit is arriving tomorrow (and i bought the sabrina shoes? the ankle ones so pray that i don’t trip and embarrass myself)

i’m sure you’ll be the pretties. did you buy a dress? (i don’t think i know what you’re talking about, i’m picturing sabrina carpenter but i don’t think i’m right…)

and i think that’s all about my life sorry for the tmi about everything 😭

nooo don’t apologize i love reading everything!!!

haha is my very useless talent but i get you sometimes i end up thinking of the same one the whole time i read a story

very useful to me actually. but also, right? like when a song gets stuck i just keep thinking about that and i can’t think of anything else for that story i hate it

also while i was reading your answer i realized i had so many grammar mistakes that’s so embarrassing i should not write english texts when it’s so late and i’m sleepy so i apologize for that (it is literally 2:50 am right now) 😭

i’m replying now that it’s afternoon and i’m sure there are just as many mistakes, but we have an excuse for this so it’s fine!

and i thinks that’s all for now, have an amazing week rebs, ily, read you very soon (as i said, by the time i edited this i already finished reading hits different part one and i'm sorry in advance...)🩷

i always reply in the weekend i hate it here, i’m sorry if i make you wait. i will read the hits different one, not sure if i’ll reply later or tomorrow but i can’t wait!!! have a good week too!

[yesuriyatop]

It would be very nice if some of you would completely stop spewing nonsense about Taemin and Onew, and presenting it as facts. Especially since your bullshit comes straight outta some sky only you seem to have access to. Also, do NOT say stupid shit under the guise of missing Jonghyun.

Be so incredibly fucking for real right now.